He wasn't making fun of himself, he was finally letting go of all the pain and suffering he'd been holding on to for so long. Finally forgiving his mom. Having a kid changed his life and made him see that there is something to live for, someone to live for. He finally allowed God to clean up his mind and heart. Depression is real and it's a fight. He said the 30 years line at the end 31 times because he just turned 31. So it was 30 years of old NF, depression, pain, suffering, no hope in sight but year 31 is a new light, a new chapter, a new start. NF is hands down the G.O.A.T.

Still get goosebumps every time I listen to this song.

“I don't know if I'm making movies or music videos” -NF (The Search)

This song pushed me over the edge from defeating my depression. I'm almost 50 and for 36 years I've been in therapy. It was the end of the song with the 30 years of just made me breakdown and it's time to let go of the darkness. Then I heard "Running" which is the last song on Hope, that one cemented my turn around. Thanks to NF and Ren, I've been happy for the past 6 to 7 months with hardly any depression.

I never heard of NF, but this song is an absolute piece of art! Thank you for introducing me to it!

He's not making of himself he finally addressing his issues with Hope. He will always battle his issues...that was the battle at the mountain top. He took the reigns but his past will always try to creep in. Nice reaction.

i never listen to NF, but my friends do and they took me to his concert this past summer. before the show my roommate would play his music some and this was the song that stuck in my head the most. the video is so good!

I cried so hard during the ending because it resonated with where i was. I started grinding toward my goals shortly after, im getting there too.

His “brooding, black persona” is not something just for his music or him to get famous or something that most musicians nowadays putting on. This is a reflection of his music, and his music reflects what’s he’s going through, all the baggages that he’s carrying is bleeding off from his music, his songs. I never thought that being “serious” is something off-putting. He is literally singing/rapping his heart out, what most of us going through and relate to him, him being “serious” and being REAL is what makes him standout, which is very rare for a musician nowadays, from the ocean of sex, money, drugs, bitc**s, swearings fortunately we have NF.

been an NF fan for so long and this song just gave me another reason to love him. He is one of the only artists I know who has character development. That alone makes him amazing.

If you didn't notice, he was holding the Map to Hope. A things he's mentioned in a previous song.

Wasn’t making fun of himself. He realized there’s so much more to life, and he’s releasing all the fear and pain and anger he’s been living in. He wants to live life to the fullest and change from hopeless to hopeful. It’s brilliant.

He's not making fun of himself. I physically cringed when you said that. He's not making a mockery of his older self: he's turning *into* a *new* NF. C'mon, dude.

At 6:05 when you said "was that a music video or a movie" I literally thought of that same exact line in the search!!

It's not him poking fun at his old self. It's more about his "real" journey with his mental health and how he has grown . You can follow his progression from album to album. When his mix tape came out and even slightly before that you could see everything lining up to come out with a much more positive outtake in life in general. His connection with his fans and being that voice for those that can't or don't know how to put into words the troubles they may be experiencing and more importantly how to push past those negative thoughts that their are people all over with similar problems. Even you where talking about how dark his music is but you can go back all the way to therapy session and even before even with it's dark "atmosphere the underlying message was in achieving a positive attitude and mental health.

Love that NF is being recognized on a national level even in mainstream things like the commercials for college football and being put into video games. His songs are so anthem like and touch a lot of people in so many different ways

“Don’t know if I’m making movies or music videos” -NF

The last scene on the mountaintop is probably the coolest moment in any music video ever

My number one artist this year on Spotify…. NF!!

Huge NF Fan here, goosebumps everytime!!! The creativity is awesome!!! You should listen to The search, and the last song of the Hope album (Running) where he is saying goodbye to FEAR!!! Also listen to Intro 3, hes talking to fear too ❤

Every emotion he personifies so he always has an inner battle, this time its hope vs fear, the black was trying to take over and hope made it clear now he's taking the reigns.

The way he shows he's evolving and growing. Letting go of past pain and troubles yet they keep trying to creep back into his mind. When he says the 30 years lines he says 30 years 30 times.

I cry a little everytime I listen to this song....I have gone through hell in life, and when I needed to move on and pick myself up, he came out with this song....He isn't making "fun" of himself. He's in a battle with himself. The part of him that wants to keep him down. The part of him that won't let him heal. I fight myself every day and he has helped me find my footing and I can't even begin to explain how much this dude means to me.

This song gives me chills. Saw him live in September and it was incredible. Hearing HOPE live was a complete different experience

NF is a GOAT!!!!! He speaks to people. I went to his Perception tour and Hope tour. It was truly something special.

He’s a brilliant writer! I cannot wait for more of what he creates, I’m a huge fan!

Goosebumps. and I honestly never get that from music. This was my first time listening to this song, and wow.

NF is what the Music industry was meant to be before the greed and money evolved it into something non hereditary.... 🔥⚡💯⚡🔥

The ending always brings me to tears and I get goosebumps, it’s so relatable to anyone who suffers from depression and anxiety

He was not taking himself too seriously. The whole albums, timeline and adding to that the videos and which songs he has picked to make a video from it, is the clear process of healing and how his life have been a process of learning, forgiving, moving forward not by just doing it, doing it with the intention of being better for him and his beloved ones :).

Dude the darkness comes out of watching his mom die to prescription drug addiction and a hard childhood because of it. You need to take the whole NF Journey to truly understand where he came from.

He was broody, depressed and anxious. He's growing and fighting through it

"I don't know if I making movies or music videos"

This song will forever be one of my favs of all time. I've heard it more than 200 times and I still get goosebumps.

The whole album is a smash. He has some of the deepest music. Real music🔥🔥

This song gives me chills every single time! almost puts me to tears.

This was exactly my reaction. I love this NF, he is fire

Remember anyone with trauma abuse ptsd etc you go through a journey of healing. His catalog is so relatable.

This song came out when everything in my life fell apart at the same time, and I was in one of the darkest points in my life. Now I'm in college, NF is my favorite artist of all time, and when I make it big he is def getting a shout out as the man who straight up saved my life.

Absolute masterpiece! Nf is so underrated

Definitely. Our world needs more creativity like this.

Wow... Great reaction! Thanks for this, wait for the next reaction to NF 🔥

THAT WAS ABSOLUTELY BRILLIANT!!!!!!! I'LL LISTEN TO THIS AGAIN AND AGAIN!!!!!!!!

He absolutely was not making fun of himself. This guy doesn’t get deep dark depression

You’re channel will blow up reacting to NF.

Truly a masterpiece. Nice reaction, well done! For somebody that isn't a huge NF fan, you caught most of the references. Impressive.

That was my thoughts too,I've never seen anything like that!! Never heard any of his songs until Hope,I'm so hooked 😂

The black NF isn’t really his past self it’s more of his Fear (in black) VS his Hope (in white) this visually is probably one of his best clouds is beautiful with the transitions but this ties the visuals with the message soooo well!

I love your reactions so much already as new viewer. Very thoughful and insightful!

Love this guy, love his music, love his message.

Album is solid, and the other MV off of it is Motto - worth the reaction!

I like the fact that this song and video reflects his inner conflict with himself and working through things he has struggled with.

I get chills every time!

Always so exceptional. Classic Nate❤️

NF is one of the GOATS

Not changing but Evolving i believe would be a good way to put it. I am obsessed with this song not only because i feel like i can relate so much to this song. Such an incredible track.

I can't wait to see him live he inspires me!

Bro I found your channel today and it's crazy to me that some of your most recent videos are my favorite artists!! (Taylor swift, BTS, NF) thank you so much for reacting to all of them, keep it up!

You have to do the NF-yourney. He´s my favourite artist and his music is so real, deep, powerful and passionate. Nice reaction

I love how you let it play the whole time ! I loveeeee NF

I loved this reaction. This man holds the heartstrings to anyone who’s been through trauma.

Motto is a fun video too. Great reaction!

Truly a masterpiece 🔥❤💯

What a phenomenal reaction, definitely would love to see you react to happy and momma by him. You definitely got a subcriber in me.

I always watch every video reacting to this because I just love everyone’s reaction to the end because it’s so frickin good

You ruined the video when you mentioned NF is making fun of himself. 😒 He's not.

Bro the goosebumps this song gives me!!!

Ive seen this a few times, and honestly never really noticed the facial changes at tbe end. Awesomeness!

This song meant so much to his fans who have been with him since the beginning because it ties all of his music together. He has grown so much! It’s been an honor to watch him!

I found Nate few years ago. And I ended up digging his other song and then I can't stop listening to his songs. When HOPE come out and listening to it, i cried. Literally. So, yah.

This song goes hard

I just LOVE that song!!

I am with you on being borderline speechless!

Just a masterpiece in my opinion, love him ❤🙏

His whole life is in his music, listen to the lyrics of his music, he’s not making fun of himself, he’s finally letting go of this burden that’s been on him for 30 years, his music is how he expresses his feelings. This isn’t an act or a masquerade, it’s real for him and so many others who have gone through tough situations in their life. To me this song tells me that NF became happy, and one day I could reach it too.

New sub here, thanks for your reaction to NF. Just a suggestion, have you ever heard of REN? I would start with “Hi Ren” and go from there!!

Can I just tell you my oldest son turned me on to nf and I absolutely fell in love with him as an artist but Baby…. This new NF HITS YOU IN A DIFFERENT WAY! It’s amazing and inspiring! I really enjoyed this and all of his new mature found self is AMAZING!!!! I fell in love all over again!!!! Your reaction was exactly the reaction I had!!!!!!❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ not real sure there is any other artist blowing minds quite like this one! I’m totally digging it completely as I’m sure so are the rest of his fans and the rest of the world!!!!!

He’s amazing!!!

i really like this video, i have never seen your video's but i saw te tumbnail and i whas like i'm ganna watch thisss and i'm glade i did :)

I'm happy to be alive to see this. This is game changing

if you enjoy the recognition of his two sides, you should check out intro III from a previous album perception!

Dude, that was AMAZING. Thanks for reintroducing me to NF.

I was 30 years old when he made this bro so it hit me hard. Props to you NF

If you think he's making fun of himself he isn't, he's letting go of his past, he's letting go of what use hold him back

This is so, extremely awesome.

I remember when I first listened to this song and I was in tears

Man, that was fun watching his video and someone seeing it for the first time. Yeah, I think we stopped it like 10 times and then watched it all the way through at the beginning. It's like a movie so he wasn't wrong. He's uber talented in various areas so wonder what his next project will be. He doesn't love touring for himself, as we all know, but enjoys doing it for his fans. And we just take a minute to acknowledge how beautiful it is to see (most of) his fans cheer him on in this new phase of hopeful living he is in. Praise The Lord for his getting back to a faith and fulfilled headspace. Now, this video makes me want to sit and watch a bunch more of his stuff and reaction videos. He is the real deal, doing the real thing, and being the real NF!

I love watching people reacting to Hope !

Hoped to see more of a deep dive from a composers perspective bc you put it in the title but whatever. Still a good reaction tho! Thanks to your family and friends for recommending it to you haha

This is the next chapter, where he is AFTER therapy. NF bears his soul to everyone!

NF is therapy for me

So many chills

this as the openning song for the hope tour actually slaps so hard 🔥

Remember after the reacter said...I didn't see anything like this...and also remember what nf said where he has to create something new...this is new

🔥🔥🔥Absolutely a Life changing short film I would say🤘🤘

Goosebumps everytime I see this

Bro i still tear up when i watched this video. Even now watching this like damn... It was just like or teo tesrs but damn i cant even help it. I love that music video is just amazing. I love it.

bro what you said about this being like a movie is so cool because it's exactly what he would want to hear. "I don't know if I'm making movies or music videos." -NF 'The Search'

Wow. Just wow. I have no words.

6:08 I mean, in The Search he DID mention he didn’t know if he was making movies or music videos…