1. Hidden Waltz - Akira Kosemura 0:46-3:23 2. Sleep Thru Ur Alarms (Slowed) - Lontalius 3:25-8:26 3. How To Never Stop Being Sad - dandelion hands 8:29-10:34 4. Child Psychology - Black Box Recorder 10:36-14:40 5. No, The Moon - Teen Suicide 14:41-17:11 6. You Were Good to Me - Jeremy Zucker 17:18-20:55 7. School Rooftop (Slowed) - Hisohkah 20:58-24:08 8. it's ok i wouldn't remember me either - Crywank 24:12-27:12 9. Yumemitetano Atashi - DAOKO 27:16-31:44 10. Motion Sickness - Phoebe Bridgers 31:49-35:37 11. Haunt Me - Teen Suicide 35:39-38:24 12. Saint Bernard - Lincoln 38:28-40:10 13. Your Sister Was Right - Wilbur 40:12-42:40 14. Futile Devices - Sufjan Stevens 42:42-44:55 15. help_urself - Ezekiel 44:56 - 47:13 16. Runaway Runaway - Mars Argo 47:17-50:56 17. i'll die anyways. - girl in red 50:57-54:07 18. Another Love - Tom Odell 54:10-58:19 19. *I honestly don't know this song so if you know it let me know!* 58:22-1:01:20

Did you know: the reason most of us forget is because our brains don't want us to remember? Sometimes it's trauma, sometimes the memories are thrown away for protection, and sometimes we just happen to forget. Lost or not they happened, and you are still here so good luck.

being an adult is such an anxious experience. i wish i could stay a kid forever and avoiding responsibility as a functional human being

I remember when I used to binge on these typa playlists when I was at my worst, it's a very bittersweet feeling

?: "You need to stop forgetting everything!! It's all very important." Me: "At least I can forget our fights, and bad times. You're stuck with that."

school night breakdowns and school barely started go brrrr

i keep forgetting stuff. my mom tells me it's because i lacked sleep. so, i went to sleep. for days at a time. my memory never came back. i forgot. I've lost everything i swore to remember. they tell me it's my fault that i forgot. they think i don't want to remember. i do, i really do. it's really frustrating losing your life bit by bit. the memories, they'll never come back. I've lost a part of myself. and there's no possible way to get him back.

i hate listening to these kind of playlist because they make me more sad than i already i am. But music is the only thing that is left so i guess i just shut up and cry. Thank you for the playlist.

I thought it was sad when nobody knew of my depression But the sad part is When they do and you have to get better

i forgot everything. even how im supposed to feel things. it's been 5 years.

It was a few days ago I started to realize the blissfulness of ignorance. Oh how do I wish I did not know, did not think all day everyday, seeking, hungering for truth, a truth that will never fully fill my glass, and the more I know, the more I realize how little I know, how sparse my knowledge is, and my hunger grows. All that matters is the truth and acting upon the truth. This is what drives me to insanity

I wish I could forget. I'm getting better, but those memories of them aren't going away anytime soon :')

I wish I could remember the good and forget the bad like I used to. Its the other way around now and I have no control.

When I say I needed this tonight I needed this ronight

I'm going through some tough stuff right now and I don't know what's good and bad anymore, I really wish I didn't remember all the wonderful things I've experienced cause now they're making me want to disappear Hopefully we'll all be happy one day

Just sent my best friend my apologies and a letter where I share my thoughts about our relationship. The first song helped me so much. I hope he understands.

This seemed to have came at a rather specific time

As someone who doesn't really show his deep sad side to others and bottles all of those experiences up. This really hit me. I was feeling apathic and lifeless some time ago, but the second song really hit me. It made me cry tears and feel some of the pain and sadness that was stored away. It helped me to get some out and to find some relief in the tears that I shed. In a way it was sadly beautiful, thanks for that! Without this playlist I'm sure I wouldn't have found what I needed most.

"I'm not going to be around forever." Thank you for saying that, dad, but I already knew that by the time mom passed away. I don't need a reminder that everyone around is going to leave me and I'll be all alone eventually.

forgetting scares me but i like it when i cant remember the things that happened all those years ago, so thank you

feeling forgetful maybe it’s the lack of sleep.. So I’ll sleep, as much as I can. The feeling of nothing as my worries wash away leaving a thoughtless cold body to sink in a pool of warmth.. or so I thought was warmth. It had come back to pain me as I felt sick to the score but not as a simple cold or fever. I became mentally ill day by day losing more and more till I became numb and “heartless”. I never asked to be like this. Truly I wish I could remember to feel, express, speak, hangout and eat without feeling like it’s all wrong. Every word that comes out of my mouth truly hurts to push out that it comes out angry for even having to say a simple yes or no. I truly don’t mean to cause so much harm to others. I just wish I could be normal again.. fit in with people without feeling eyes pierce through me watching me as I ruin everything. No matter in the real world or in my head the screams run though my head screaming my name as it gets louder and louder making me feel weak as I knew I messed up again. I wish I couldn’t hear. I wish I couldn’t see. I wish I couldn’t move. I wish I couldn’t speak. I wish I couldn’t feel. I wish I couldn’t eat. I wish I couldn’t be me. I wish I couldn’t exist. Maybe then will I be able and be merely nothing to the point no will ever know my name nor see me. I wish I was different. I wish I was happy. I wish I could feel. I wish I could change. I wish I could be normal. I wish everyone liked me. I wish I could have fit in but instead I’ll have to wish to survive just another day until I could find a place to call home. I wish I could be someone or even be someone enough for someone who would love my flaws and mistakes no matter how simple they could be a simple hug or reassurance would be my breaking point. Not having to worry about “ adult” problems at such a young age would have been great. The constant fear of being myself and having to live a life of constant expectations in school when really I have no clue! I will always be just 1 out of millions and billions humans to exist so why should it matter right?? That chance that I even became one in the beginning was enough for me because I WAS ALIVE and that’s all that mattered. But now even more than anything I just want to be someone somehow I really don’t wanna leave this earth without knowing I could have actually done something for somebody to know my name for generations upon generations but who doesn’t right? Maybe to all those kids and elders who had taken their lives were the ones who kept us going cuz as everyone says once your gone, your gone. I envy them. How brave yet scared they must have been to leave this world. “The world is cruel” they say it’s funny really. Humanity itself is cruel, you might have your own reasons but of course it’s related to someone right? Yea. years and years and look where we’ve lived and for what? To feel like this? I truly wish we could’ve stayed safe and happy forever. Only then upon death will we be at peace. Life is supposed to be great as they said but maybe it’s okay to feel lonely in life but it’s horrible to be alone when you need someone the most and for that is why death seems beautiful. Not having to worry no more. Not having to feel, speak, see, hear such painful things and just be.. well.. gone. Out of reach and safe. How great would it be. But yet again I’m not as brave. Not yet. It’s not my time. I will hope to grow old enough to even drink but what’s life without cheating it right? ;) Have fun. Live while we can. Until then will we be home.

Great playlist, i love it...and the picture from "serial experiments lain", crywank's song... nothing but perfect choices.

im forgetting everything i love and remembering everything i never wanted to remember, i lay awake at night just hoping i forget it

for everyone in the comments you are going to be fine everything will be alright you are doing your best try to love yourself bc you totally deserve it ✨

Dear person whoever reads this, Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society build up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this than please never forget to breath and smile. Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs. Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one. I love you and send you hugs. You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you. YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN. I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN. You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice. You’re beautiful inside out. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN. I WISH I COULD HUGH YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO. It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go. I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you trough my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.?? I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :) All I want for you is to stay and feel alive. Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. I need you here with me :). Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out. Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up. And anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?! - The stranger that cares about you more than anything. I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay. I hope you will remember my words- becho :)

I just told my friend about how I haven’t been eating a lot for a couple of months and she totally supported me. Thank you this calmed me down quite a bit afterward.

I smiled at first when I saw this, just seemed like something I needed at the right time♡

Most people choose to remembered the happiest memories in their life. I always remembered the worst ones, all the heartbreaks, the yelling, the blaming and played them over and over before I go to sleep

the person im in love with just told me he doesnt want to be with me anymore. so many months wasted falling in love with him. so many months wasted thinking he was the one i could always count on. and the worst part is, he still loves me. he just doesnt have time for me. he doesnt have time for me? i argued with him for ages about how id wait for him forever if i needed to but he said i should get over him. i cant take this. this feeling hurts so bad. i want to forget all the things he did that made me love him so much. i want to forget all that i went through to be with him. so many hours wasted hoping that one day he would love me back. and now that he does, he doesnt have time for me. what was it all for?

A 'short' story written by me, i hope you like it :] (sorry for any spelling mistakes) I smile as I stare at the sunset, I glance over to my right, my smile grows wider as my gaze lands upon my soulmate, his smile is warm like the sun, “what are you staring at me for?” he asks, his voice is low and soothing, “Just admiring you” I say, he smiles and grabs my hand, “it's a beautiful day” I say quietly, “not as beautiful as you” he says, he kisses my forehead, I smile, I glance down at my wedding band the beautiful diamond glistens in the sunshine, “what did I do to deserve you?” I ask, “more like what did I do to do deserve you” he says, I place my head on his shoulder, “I love you” he says, his holds my hand tighter, “I love you too” I say. It's raining now, it's cold I feel numb, why? Why did this happen? I fall on my knees, sobbing, everything changed so quickly “please, please don’t leave me” I whisper, I wrap my shaky arms around the tombstone decorated with flowers, he was the love of my life, what I would give to have his hand interlock into mine, I already know he’s gone, but still I plea for him to come back. it hurts so much, the pain is too much I scream although I know nobody can hear me over the pounding rain. My throat feels raw, but I still scream, I scream because maybe he can hear me and know I still need him. But I know he’s never coming back no matter how hard I scream and cry like a child. But I couldn’t help but think, it should've been me. for anyone who has lost a loved one, i am so sorry, i hope you have a good day

It's nice to forget about my past and move forward. It's a good way to focus on what's ahead of you.

i have ptsd from a car accident, and now im in college with tons of work. this helps me calm down. thank you.

Sometimes,it's too painful to be remembered,but why does we still remember them?It's bcz we still hold onto it.So,Just Let go of the past and build ur future :)

it started with simple things like forgetting to do chores or instructions then entire days even weeks making up my own memories being told that never happened and what are you talking. Even the things i want to forget stay i feel terrible i feel gross. I doubt almost all of my memories even the traumatic ones i can't tell if they're real. I'm tired of forgetting I'm sorry i don't mean to forget I'm not doing it on propose I swear. I want to do what you're telling me but i don't remember seconds later. I'm sorry

I just haven't been able to stay happy lately it's like I can't remember anything, I'm just trapped in a house with strangers and all I know is to be scared of them, my friends are amazing and one of them told me that they've been getting a lot better lately and I'm so proud of them and happy for them, but it feels like I'm just going to end up holding them down like I'm going to stop them from being happy with all my misery.

POV: ur hungry ur staring at ur desk wondering why did u say u forgave me if u didn’t? Listening to these playlists

it's been pretty recently that i've noticed my memory is continuing to get worse and worse. i can't remember things i was just told, things that happened yesterday, or months to years ago. sometimes i could have sworn that something happened a week ago and then i check my text history and it happened yesterday. i don't know if it's a stress thing or an anxiety thing but i can't go to a professional about it so all i can do is just deal with it without ever really knowing what's happening to me.

I'm losing someone, that someone is the only person who actually loves me. My parents don't love me or care about me anymore and this person is the only one who does. Recently his grandmother and friend died and he lost a 7-year of friendship. He's been depressed and I really don't want to lose more people.

I was on vacation in Greece recently and it was amazing, I made friends and did some cool stuff. I saw this person I saw literaly in my dreams multiple times. I wanted to say hi but I didnt had the courage to. When I left it felt like left a whole part of me there.

I remember everything I just can't forget everything that happend Its like I freeze in time every time I try to block all the things that happend I hide it all with fake I can't smile easily so I hide it with proper and I cant tell anyone not a therapist family or anything they just say I complain but its the things that happend I can't think when I am in a state of trying to forget though I freeze everything stops moving my eyes don't move I just freeze I just zone out when I try forgetting though I cant block out the bad thoughts at age 1 it all started I never had a break just everything is just a blur to me so 12 and a half years went past and I never forgot anything even when it all ended I cant do anything it never changes the fact that I went through more than what I can handle at my age I can't get a therapist went through 3 I can't do anything about it I can't die I have to take care of my family because my mom is always tired and she works a lot so she complains and yells my dad was a druggy my sister is mentaly stupid not to be rude but I have to help her then at school bullys and there is no exit I was thrown into life with nothing I was thrown into a bad state right off the bat and my dad got away with everything I knew my mom was good she went to court I cryed every night when I was at my dads because he only got off because a family member of his worked there he was abusive and nothing went well for me not 1 good thing

Let's all love Lain

I keep on forgetting so many things. Except those, those that I wished to be gone.

The more you grow,the more u lose part of yourself

i can’t remember anything from my childhood and i often forget little things such as my friends birthday’s or my own brothers ages. i don’t know why.

I really am done with life it's tiring I want to sleep and dream endlessly I want people to accept who I am and not compare me I can never be good enough to anyone even to myself the only way I can cope is daydreaming and that has gone too far i daydream everyday lose track of time I wish this reality would be a dream and my dream would be my reality I can't take it I want to forget everything and start over I want to have a new life I just want to go home

Tw death and suicide mentioned Recently I've been losing a lot of people. 6 years ago I lost a close family friend and it broke me. Last year I lost a good friend and it killed me. Just today I was informed that somebody I knew killed themselves. I may not have been that close to them but it still hurt. I struggle a lot with depression and recently I've been drowning in it. I'll get bits of motivation but then something else happens. My great grandmother was recently just diagnosed with lung cancer after just fighting it off for 3 years. That set me back a lot. I got a job and I thought it would help. But it's just drained me even more. I'm so numb at this point that I cant even cry. The only time I feel something is when I listen to music. I can just close my eyes and be somewhere else with somebody who's no longer here and have some peace. This playlist helped a lot. I just want to cry as pathetic as that sounds. I just want to be able to feel that raw release of emotion. I can only hope that soon things will get better.

I didnt know i needed this playlist thank you

People said past is past...when i was child i thought it easy to say past is past move on focus in the present for ur future but im right here suffering i want my past not my present cause u know it full of memory it just u know do u realize that when ur still child there's a happiness but when grow up the happiness fade and the sadness the darkness take over of it...

it's really the worst feeling,knowing that you're going through some very traumatizing things and worrying that you'll grow up into a broken person and maybe turn out just like the people who are traumatizing you. i don't want to remember any of the things happening to me now.i don't want trauma to keep me from living my life outside of this cage i'm bound to. i just want to make it out of this battle without too many scars.

I've given up on trying to remember things now like I'm done with life, but hey I can't say anything in still trying my best

I know this song isn't on this playlist, but "self destructive" by Vorsa really makes my heart heavy Everytime.

I literally needed this so much omg

thanks yt algorithm, its really fit to what i feels rn, after self isolation cuz i got positive covid, 2 month being alone in my room. then i just realize when i finally could getting out and meet my friends.. there's something big different from me, i feels like im enjoying being alone and forgetting all of people around me

>here's a good memory >>Oh, thank you >here's a neutral memory >>Oh >here's another memory >>it looks weird >that's okay. Everything looks weird when you're young >>I'm not young anymore... >we know. You're a little different >>there was never a we >only in every person who forgot you >>you didn't forget me >I don't even know your name >>Why are you giving me memories? >pity, my dear. You are a pity.

They left me in the most brutal way possible... I dont want to live anymore

thank you, I really needed this

this playlist actually made me feel so comfy thank you

ty for this! I really needed it for schoolstart today

i needed this so much

literally cant remember anything before july 2021 #girlboss but really this starting to be a problem

Thank you for helping me forgetting

Thoughts that go like bullets through you The time you told me that you wished you were dead But so broken on when you can't stop choosing To sleep through your alarms Man, you're losing your head The thoughts that go like bullets through you The time you told me that you wished you were dead But so broken on when you can't stop choosing To sleep through your alarms Man, you're losing your head

“why can’t you just be happy”

I don't want to think anymore

The last song is a thumb piano cover of the theme from Doki Doki Literature Club I believe!

i wish i can forget everything fully i wish that so bad lately i have been dealing with the guilt i cant stand it annoys me so much every second i want to forget it...i am going crazy because of that my brain doesnt function normally my toughts are confuses me its so annoying to feel and think about it

i just wanna forget about it all

I just want to say tysm💕

Just ended it with person i used to talk everyday for 3 years, that took high place in my life and my heart.. i hope she has a happy future.

When will people understand that we are just human.

The fact that I don’t remember my childhood because of all the trauma ..... the problem is that one thing I remember is the trauma and my mother talking me that my father is bad and that I should avoid him.... now I am older and .... I saw my father (they are divorced) and we talked , he and my sister which was never in my life told me that mom was manipulating me , I had no idea I thought she was just toxic..... so they are telling me to go and live in Sweden with them ...... I don’t know who to trust I just want to remember my childhood,maybe I’ll know who to trust then ..... I’m lost ,all I ever believed in was a lie made up by my mother ......

You making me happy

She’s leaving me. She’s leaving me like all the ones before. She’s gonna abandon me. She’s gonna leave and pretend I never existed. She’s gonna pretend all those memories didn’t happen. I don’t think I can handle it again. Why do they keep doing this. This time is gonna hurt the most. I’m not ready. It’s always too sudden.

I have a photographic memory of sorts, and often I can't forget anything. It's hard.

"stop it! i wanted to forget those things! don't uncover them! i don't want those terrible memories anymore! stop it please! stop it now!!"

I just wanna say if you can read this i love you. and i am sorry for whatever your going thru

someone once told that I was brave and strong for living to see another day but I'm not all I did was put myself through more pain by staying here

Thank you.

we were once good friends,but now i wish to forget this

personally i don't remember any happy memories , especially my childhood all i remember are sad or depressing scary moment of my childhood. i remember being a sad child and depressed most of the time , but sometimes i see my old photos of me as a kid and videos and i look happy in them , i m smiling dancing laughing in all of them but i do not remember any of it, and i don't understand why. i feel like same thing is happening now i don't remember my teenage years ,like almost nothing, i don't know what i did, it's like all of that period of my life was one long year that passed by way to fast. now i'm almost twenty and i just don't remember most of my life and i don't really know who i actually am or was and i hate it.

notes - forget to go to school - forget they exist - forget - -forget why i’m such an immature person- - -forget the feelings-

sometimes, i feel okay. but, more often than not, i just feel like shit and convince myself otherwise.

Wonderful mix mate! Have a nice day! ;)

lets all love lain

I also dont want to feel anything anymore.

Why the last one so creepy tho ;-;

i just want to forget my childhood the memories pain me i was so oblivious and believed they loved me my mom wanted a son when she got me i became her doll i wish they had me because they wanted a child regardless i wanted to be loved not for my mom to dress me up and choose my life for me all my siblings were had because she wanted children she wanted my sisters and brother i am just the extra daughter i’m supposed to do everything she wants i’m supposed to be feminine and want children i just want her to love me i wanted my dad to love me why was i not good enough for them i was a child

I don’t know what happened, but something happened. I just don’t remember what

i felt nothing . i only feel negativity , not positivity . i have a girlfriend , i love her so much , really much , but idk why , at the same time, I felt empty . i felt nothing . we get into a big fight yesterday , almost break up . im the reason , i accidentally ignored her and give all attention to my friends. i changed into a person who she doesn't like . i felt empty . no positivity , only negativity . i felt bad for my girlfriend for having someone like me . she's perfect , very perfect . instead i broke her apart and hurt her . im sorry . I'm so sorry . im sorry for existing in her life. im so sorry .

"Life is unfair, kill yourself or get over it" Felt that.

everything in my world is slow crashing down and I have no clue what life is anymore.

Please, I just wanna forget it all.

i forgor

pls take all this Pain out of my Head

‘i hate to say, but your sister was right. im nothing but a problem, leave you crying overnight..’ bro sounds like me and my issues 😞

trying to forget the pain but now i forgor all my math stuff and the exams are this week LOOOOL (im not upset, i just find this funny) my memory gets horribly short when im tired and unfortunately im tired af rn due to cramming LOOOOL if any student working on finals is reading this, i'm wishing you the best of luck!! you can do it!! remember to take care of urself and take breaks, okay?

I wish I could forget her

And I wish i could remember... i don't remember ANYTHING from my past... I don't remember anything for the last week... i just... kept on forgotten what i did

Thank you

I wish I could forget all the shitty things I did and how I've wronged people in small stupid ways because I'm to selfish. But my brain won't let me so I have scars to remind me of my actions and thoughts and when I hit this low I like looking at them and seeing just how shit I am but other times it's like even if I mentally move on and improve my scars are still there and make me regret so many things the I wish I could forget everything and just be happy for a moment with no regrets.