I failed art in high school ☹︎ paint with me

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I failed art in high school ☹︎ paint with me | gouache

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Hi friends! Just chatty video telling you about how I failed art in school and reconnected with it years later, while I paint this gouache piece of a wall of flowers I came across in my travels. I hope you enjoy 💛
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@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

If you want to use some of my reference photos I have them saved on my highlighted stories on Instagram, just hold down and screen shot them and use them to paint along 🥰

@elliotseph6342 Жыл бұрын

imagine seeing a kid doing their best to create something that makes them happy and learn more about the aspects that they enjoy and then telling that kid that they are creating wrong and their art isnt interesting or good enough. couldnt be me

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

right!!!

@TheBlackHatOutlaw Жыл бұрын

Oh yes, the definition of "art" . That's something I myself have just come to look at in my own life and am in the middle of my comeback story. I can't say I was ever heavily discouraged from art, but what other people wanted became such a focus in my mind that I didn't even know what I myself wanted. I'm currently working on figuring that out, learning what makes me genuinely happy to create instead of the other factors I had to focus on in the past. Art is... whatever you enjoy making. If you express something, even if it's just the joy of making it, then it's art.

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

Yes can definitely relate to that feeling of being influenced by what other people want/project on to you. I agree, art is what you enjoy making- the feeling of the process is everything to me!

@mariadaniele1104 Жыл бұрын

well i just want to say that i’m happy every time you upload and i see your art and you talk about your life or some other topic

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

thank you, Maria! this is very encouraging and means a lot to me ☺️

@juliesailor1008 Жыл бұрын

I started drawing and painting again in 2017, long after school and it's all thanks to youtubers like Jazza and The drawfee show. Specifically at drawfee, everyone has always been complimenting each others art, even the smallest details and i remembere watching it and thinking: "Is this even possible? To be surrounded by such support?" In school and in art school specifically there were always extremely harsh critics who believed that telling you that your art sucks in the harshest way possible will somehow make you a better artist, like it's a rite of passage or something. And maybe it's true for some, maybe people who survived this snake pit really became the most amazing artists in the world. But i just wanted to paint some cutesy stuff in the comfort of my bedroom. So yeah, the majority of my art knowledge and inspiration came from youtubers, almost all of them self- taught :)

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

I’m so glad to hear how art youtubers and the online art community have been so encouraging for you. I also find the art community online to be so positive and lovely- which has helped me so much in my art journey! 💕

@asiawilk Жыл бұрын

I had a reallllyyy similar experience to you, except I went to university for Fine Arts and that's where I felt like me and my art did not belong. Art got ruined for me there, the things I wanted to make were similar to yours, I just loved painting nature and learning HOW to draw/paint, rather than what it all meant. I remember we literally had a lecture about why that type of art sucks, and they had some 'shitty' artists as examples of that- which happened to be artists I loved lol! I felt like a bad artist and like I must have not really had the talent or skill. I didn't make any traditional art for years and years afterwards.. But it was during covid that I went back to it and rediscovered my love for it, and just started doing it for the joy of it again rather than some pressure to be good. Your channel is one that has been helping me and inspiring me so much, because gouache has been a new medium that made me fall back in love with art again :) Thank you for sharing your story and for your lovely painting videos ❤

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

wow that's wild that they showed examples... I don't understand why anyone would ever want to discourage someone expressing their creativity! So so glad you reconnected with it and thank you for watching 🥰

@ewinjoseph3987 Жыл бұрын

I’m glad that this did not stop you from pursuing art. I wish school emphasized music and art more

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

thank you Ewin! I'm glad I returned to it too ☺️

@kerendn 8 ай бұрын

I quit Instagram several years ago because of that feeling as if I'm in a shop window trying to see what grabs people's attention. I understand it can be a great tool to connect with others and grow your audience, but I decided at the time I don't want an audience anymore. I got too involved in comparing my work with the work of others, and trying to impress. As I would draw I would already think, how will this look on Instagram, etc. It was unhealthy. When I draw I often hear a critical voice in my head, even without social media, and I want to let go of that. Your art is beautiful, it's fun to watch it come together layer by layer. And I find your narrative interesting to listen to. Thank you for sharing.

@gosch18 Жыл бұрын

You make beautiful art and your paintings make me happy 🤩🙂

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

Thank you, this is so nice to hear 🥰

@AdronMusic 11 ай бұрын

You've actually painted things that remind me of him before, but "postcard art" definitely brings him to mind - Eyvind Earle, one of my all-time art heroes. He did a lot of backgrounds for Disney in the '50s and '60s and he's actually the exact reason I discovered gouache - anyway, he literally painted christmas cards for decades. I have a giant heavy book of all his christmas card designs. Lots of times they're incredibly simple... but when you let his way of seeing things wash over you, you start to realize how much heart and soul and wisdom is in that big spread of cards. he painted this one red barn like hundreds of times, and big floofy drooping snow-covered trees all around it, and somehow Eyvind Earle's feeling about this red barn totally communicates "christmas..." anyway, it's all really profound and I just hope you get the chance to look at his "postcard art" and feel very, very proud of your own :)

@sofiapavanmacias 11 ай бұрын

Thank you for introducing me to his art- his trees are so beautiful 😍 and thank you for this lovely comment, really appreciate it 💕

@bluebeamsky 7 ай бұрын

Thank you for this, I went down a rabbit hole with Eyvind Earle and then Sleeping Beauty and then early Disney and it has been such a joy for me.

@maryannprzybycien2013 Жыл бұрын

I had a similar situation, but I was the one telling myself that I wasn't good enough. That was over 40 years ago. I recently (about two years ago) started painting again and I'm finding it hard not to. 😊 Your paintings are beautiful. ❤

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

So happy you came back to painting! Thank you for watching :)

@enhimmelskdr0g Жыл бұрын

When I started university I turned art into design and it became work instead of fun. I started doing photography instead of painting since it gave me a creative outlet without being to similar to work. I am literally being inspired to paint for the first time in the last ten years by your videos. To me the definition of what is art is what awakes an emotion in the viewer, and since your art awakes inspiration in me I definitely think there is art in your paintings, not just pretty old lady things. Although that is of course fine too :)

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

Thank you so much for leaving this comment, you don’t know how happy it makes me to hear that you are being inspired to paint through watching ☺️ and i love your definition of art

@weaslem Жыл бұрын

I also suffered in the A level system and I really appreciate this story, and how you returned back to art :)

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

ahh sorry to hear that, it really can be tough to navigate! Thank you for sharing and for watching! 🥰

@pgree6176 Жыл бұрын

I do agree with you. I like realism and representative scenes. It makes me happy to see your work and wish I could paint these beautiful cutesy scenes.

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

thank you, that means a lot! 💛

@anthonybyrne1169 3 ай бұрын

I am so glad in my 60's. I paint for me - no-one else

@AruAhru Жыл бұрын

Your story with art is quite similar to mine, actually really similar, (which I won't dive into but) i resonated with it in a way that I understood why I am drawn to your art and videos... I am really happy that you got back into painting because they are a joy to watch!

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

it seems to be a shared experience from what I'm hearing! thank you for watching- it means a lot! 💛

@MarkHossackArt Жыл бұрын

Lovely painting. Really nice to hear about your journey and glad you came back to it.

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

Thanks so much, Mark! ☺️

@ChantelleArts Жыл бұрын

I had a similar high school experience that put me off pursuing it in college (and I didn't get good grades 👀), it was mostly writing up information about artists and their lives and very little teaching and creating unfortunately 🥺

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

yes! I so wanted to be taught how to paint and make art! Sounds like a very common experience among artists, although I'm glad to see you returned to creating! 💛

@charmcrumrine8750 7 ай бұрын

I love your work and am glad I found your channel. Thanks for teaching us what you know.

@sofiapavanmacias 7 ай бұрын

thanks so much, this means a lot 🥹

@lesleyegbert4807 11 ай бұрын

I got an F in art in my early teens. To my surprise, I'm halfway decent at it 30 years later! Cheers, from one art-failer to another.

@sofiapavanmacias 11 ай бұрын

love this! art in school doesn't predict your art journey later on 💕

@phillipsstanley Жыл бұрын

I find your story interesting. Mine was different I finished high school and didn’t start making art again for many years like you. But it was in university where it was a challenge to see myself where I was at and where these kids were at many years younger than I. It was a challenge to try to draw upon creativity that had laid dormant for so many years. But I’ve made it and find inspiration in you and all the wonderful artists here on you tube and other outlets.

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

thank you for sharing this, it seems like we all go through a journey with art/creating!! so glad you now feel connected to your creativity again ☺️

@elenapavanmacias7571 Жыл бұрын

Godddd!!!! THIS is a video I really wanted to see 🥰🥰🥰🥰 without even realising it….so proud and privileged to have seen you flourish thru this journey and you will continue to do so…. You’re not just amazingly skilled, but there is art in everything you create, Sofia 🥰

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

thank you gorgeous girl, appreciate you sm!!! ❤️

@messengerofgoodnews 10 ай бұрын

First off, how rude?! That person can bugger off! There is SO much ART in your videos, and I'm brand spanking NEW to your channel! Likely, you've already developed a thick skin while being on this platform and aren't too bothered by the RIDICULOUS comments from asinine ppl. Keep on keeping on! 🎉👏🙌

@sofiapavanmacias 10 ай бұрын

🥹 thank you so much, so appreciate the encouragement 💕

@vecungbaprang Жыл бұрын

You make me happy and I liked your video ang your story.

@treecia4710 5 ай бұрын

I was an olevel art student, personally i loved art history (still do) but i found the art moledule resistricting... i stopped doing art for months after i finished that final painting... it was discouraging as my art was "not up to expectation" or "there was not enough emotion" my art is personal to me so i didnt feel comfortable sharing the full context to someone- but months later i discovered i still love humanities, n creating for MYSELF, i now do beaded jewllery and draw w markers n colourpencils :) after watching ur videos, i actually want to try grouche to incoperate into my junk journaling! Love ur workss ❤

@kirstyhumphrey7212 Жыл бұрын

I love this voiceover so much! Yes! Art is so subjective and such a journey for each of us. Even the most successful artists I know go through massive bouts of self-doubt or frustration with having to use social media to get wider recognition. I like your attitude to both those things and am constantly inspired by your art! I have just ordered some of your recommended art supplies after having tried the cheapest possible versions to see if I thought I'd like it. So thanks for sharing both your art and your story! I'd definitely love to hear more ❤

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

ahh this is so lovely to hear 🥰 thanks so much for sharing and following along... and I'm excited to hear about how your creation journey goes with those new art supplies!

@flolakpa Жыл бұрын

I connected a lot with your story...I was told for many years that I couldn't draw, both from teachers and people I respected...I decided to give it a try in my 30s also thanks to Instagram and the encouraging communities I found there, and though I'm not where I want to be yet as an artist, I find joy in drawing and painting, and also find joy in colors and cute art like you do :)

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

Thanks so much for sharing your experience- it seems like a common one when it comes to art! But I’m so glad your reconnected with it and you are now on a journey to becoming the artist you want to be ❤️

@DinaMiguelCorreia Жыл бұрын

Your art is great 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

thank you!! 🥰

@marygracer.rafols4627 Жыл бұрын

more videos like this pleaseee

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

will make more ☺️💛

@Snowymae Жыл бұрын

I have a hard time starting and completing a project because I’m afraid it won’t be perfect. Fear of failure is paralyzing

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

fear of failure is definitely one of the biggest blockers out there, I hear you! I think once I really connected to the joy of making/creating my perspective on making art shifted a bit... but I can definitely still feel that perfectionism come through sometimes

@OscarLopez-fx9nt Жыл бұрын

This is so real! Thanks for sharing your experiences. You inspire me 💪🏼

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

thank youuu! you inspire me hehe ❤️

@trudy10024 Жыл бұрын

I love this drawing and it was wonderful to watch you do it. I too gave up on art and also on singing because of criticism in my teenage years when I was so easily hurt and needed approval. Thank goodness that there can be a point in our lives when we learn that we each have something to contribute and the right to be creative. Meanwhile keep painting and drawing. You are fabulous!

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

thank you so much for this lovely comment 🥰 totally agree with you- so glad to realize that we deserve to express our creativity!

@AntiquatedPixels 10 ай бұрын

I can't believe someone left such a nasty comment on your video. Your painting is beautiful and I enjoy your videos immensely. Screw the negative people, they're miserable pissants.

@christinapero8640 Жыл бұрын

I loved hearing about your art journey in this video! Also, your cutesy art is spectacular 😊😍

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

You’re the sweetest Christina! Thank you ❤️🫶🏻

@sammijane1640 Жыл бұрын

Its all a matter of opinion, through the negativity your art is beautiful, the colours leave me feeling like a bee in a flower field! Dont let Art go! I stopped painting due to always been put down, keep at it :) 💚

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

thank you for the encouragement! I hope you can get back to painting also! 💛

@roudaaljaber6494 Жыл бұрын

mashallah i have never seen such a beautiful paint like this one god bless u 💜💜

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

Thank you so much!! 🥰❤️

@TITARNYA Жыл бұрын

I had the exact same experience in A-level art. I really regret it because art is my true passion. I still create art but i gift most of it. You are inspiring x

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

Thank you so much for your lovely comment, I am glad to hear you still create art! It can be challenging after a discouraging school experience ❤️

@heatherc85 Жыл бұрын

In the past I've gotten down on myself for using reference photos and drawing realism bc it didn't feel creative but then i realized when i go outside now i am always looking for beautiful things to recreate, i take care with taking my photos, i notice color differences i never did before. If its letting you see the world in a more beautiful way in addition to making you happy then that's "real" art and creativity.....also funny ur work isn't "gallery worthy" when someone really taped a banana to a wall and sold it for 100k 😂

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

i totally agree with you- seeing/recreating the beauty around me and giving me joy in the process is everything to me! Thank you for sharing your experience 💛

@ArtsyXylith Жыл бұрын

I have the same problem with my art course at college. I struggled with what I wanted to do with my life after secondary school until covid when I started doing art, and I found that it made me much happier than my academic studies and I connected to it better. I compared myself to other ppl in both my art and academic studies which made me just want to give up and leave college but it wasnt until my final project of the year where i found that i enjoyed more character design and animstion art than realism. Im 18 in a few months and I'm taking taking animation bc i had alot of battle with myself and my art and alot of ppl didnt want me to quit and im glad im taking animation bc character design, animation, comics make me happy and i hope to learn to love and not compare my art to others. I still have a long way to go when it comes to accepting my art and not comparing myself to others.

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

so glad you have found what makes you happy in art 💛 and that may evolve as you go along with your studies/course! I really believe that the best way to improve and grow as an artist is to create what you want to create and not what you feel you "should" be doing or what other people say you should be creating!

@ArtsyXylith Жыл бұрын

@sofiapavanmacias I felt very held back in my course because in the first few projects, because I had a certain topic to follow, mediums to use, what i should create, and even tho I was happy with the work I produced, I felt like I held alot back because I wasn't able to create art that I wanted, felt happy and confident in. But when it came to my final project, even tho I was given a certain topic, I was able to interpret it from my own point of view, where I could do what I wanted and I didn't feel held back by that so the work I produced, I was much happier and confident with what I created because I felt free from judgement and expectations, because I could use the mediums, inspirations that I wanted to use and felt that I experimented and explored more of my artistic ability and vision and saw an improvement in my work, which helped me gain more confidence in myself and y I decided to stay on at college. I hope to improve more and to be able to one day create my own comics and graphic novels, and maybe if I'm lucky, turn into a TV adaptation but if not just being able to make comics and books that make both me and others smile and possibly help others to believe in themselves more not just in art, but in everything and maybe even help them pick art up as a hobby or pursue it as a career.

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

I fully believe you will create your own comics and graphic novels! and I love the goal of helping others believe in themselves more and helping them create/connect to art ☺️

@ArtsyXylith Жыл бұрын

@sofiapavanmacias I wanted to try and help others believe in themselves and reach for their goals as its something I've struggled with, but getting better at. And thank you! The encouragement from a talented artist like u is much appreciated 😊😊

@gideongrace1977 Жыл бұрын

I also make cute art. And I wasn't told as directly as you were that it wasn't good enough, but I definitely picked up on that vibe in a lot of places. The misogyny of it all really sucks. I'm glad you're making art you like though! I think it's seriously lovely.

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

Thank you for your lovely words 🥰 i’m glad you are also making cute art!!

@gideongrace1977 Жыл бұрын

@@sofiapavanmacias Yeah! Me too!

@indiomara Жыл бұрын

What an honest account!!! Thank you for sharing, really inspiring 🙏🏼💙💙

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

thank you for watching 🥰❤️

@mariopavan4457 Жыл бұрын

Iove your art ad your honesty

@sofiapavanmacias Жыл бұрын

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@mahitatazmeen2291 10 ай бұрын

Me to the artist that insulted you:- 😃🗡️ Seriously though. Why do artists and art snobs feel the need to tear down other artists who are happy with what they’re creating? Painting doesn’t need to have any deeper meaning or spiritual significance or something, it’s not literature. The most basic part of art is learning how to draw and paint, and that really is the enjoyable aspect of it. After I started painting regularly, I started seeing colors and textures and light and shadow in everyday life that I never noticed before. I hope you always enjoy making the art you make, because it’s beautiful ❤

@sofiapavanmacias 10 ай бұрын

🥹 ahh thank you 💕 yes totally agree, it doesn't have to be deep, you can just enjoy it for being beautiful and for making you feel good in the process

@emsies8116 6 ай бұрын

A similar thing happened to me - I am a big anime/cartoon/comic nerd which is the primary reason I took art A Level. My teacher was constantly telling me it wasn't real art and that everything I did was terrible and rubbish. In the end he had to give me a good grade for my PI ( personal investigation ) because it's not graded on style of art but many other factors. You could tell he was really annoyed about it, which never made sense to me - Makes me feel like he'd walk to Disney animation studio and tell them what they do is crap xD!

@rasras8165 Жыл бұрын

When I was younger I wanted to join an art competition(all of my teachers called me talented in art) but I was told no by my parents and it's understandable cause there's money involved but since then drawing has slowly become boring to me and then I stopped drawing a few years later till now

@ansumanc Жыл бұрын

I am from Vienna, was so passionate about art, but failed to crack Art school entrance 😢😢, now considering about joining the military 😥

@xxzcfdxc Жыл бұрын

Uh the judgmental art snobs Just ignore them

@marrecacareca2880 7 ай бұрын

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@phyllissmith1105 10 ай бұрын

There's quite a bit of snobbery in the art world. If beauty is in the eye of the beholder, who can judge what is art and what is not?

@AnimalChannel-np1uh Жыл бұрын

@AnimalChannel-np1uh 1 second ago This sounds like me. I took art at school because I wanted to learn how to draw and paint. But everyone around me seem to already know how and were amazing artists. They didn't teach you how to draw, the fundamentals or anything, so I failed painting. I was really discouraged. The only thing I got a good mark for was sculpture! Finally, when I finished school I discovered KZfaq and decided once and for all to teach myself how to draw and my journey went on from there. I say if you enjoy your work who's to say it's good or bad!? I've done work that I hated but other people loved and I've done work that I loved and was so pleased with but nobody said anything about 😄 It depends on the person.