You are so strong !!!!! You are amazing (:

THANK YOU // Thank you for sharing your testimony during this rough time. Your vulnerability is greatly appreciated. I ran into your vlogs randomly and as I was binge watching your channel I ran into this video. I was telling my hubby about how I really like your videos.... then several videos later I told him you had a miscarriage. Then he gently looked at me and said "Maybe that is why the Lord brought her to you". My hubby and I experienced a miscarriage almost a year ago in February. We have been married for 6 1/2 years and have struggled with infertility. The Lord was gracious in that He spared us the excitement of knowing we were pregnant. We were on a trip to the Philippines and then my period was wonky while we were there but then again my period is always kinda weird but deep down inside I knew this was more stranger than usual. We got home and business as usual. A few weeks later I was feeling super tired but I thought it was jetlag then I was also randomly throwing up but I thought my tummy was just getting acclimated again to being back. Then a month later a week after my 30th birthday I was at work (teaching) and I experienced really bad cramps. I later went to the restroom and was bleeding and I thought "Oh my period finally made its appearance". Then I was bleeding A LOT! Then these excruciating cramps to where I couldn't stand. A colleague had to get my kiddos and I just felt something wasn't right. I took advil just thinking it was bad cramps. The cramps came and went. I was in the fetal position in my classroom. I believe I passed out from the pain. Then I mustered enough strength to drive home. When I got home I used the restroom and then passed the biggest clot. I went to the doctors and they told me I had a miscarriage. This was heartbreaking as you can imagine. It was the hardest thing I have ever experienced, especially having been struggling with infertility. I questioned if I had known could I have done something. I felt guilty because when we were in the Philippines I was cliff jumping and stuff. But then I had to surrender it to the Lord and remember His sovereignty. The Lord is good... He gives and takes away.. but my heart will choose to say... BLESSED BE HIS NAME! Thank you for sharing your story and for still giving glory to the Lord. You are a gem! I feel that I have gained a sister in you! I feel your pain and blessings to you. I am sorry for your loss.

You are so right...we are all vulnerable. The telling of your story will help so many others and you should be so proud of that. Thank you for sharing. I have you in my prayers.

I am deeply sorry for your loss !!! You are in my thoughts and prayers 🙏 Sending lots of HUGS

you are a beautiful soul. Your channel speaks to me so strongly and I want to thank you for sharing so much of yourself- I'm so sad for your loss and pain but grateful for the lessons you are sharing with us.

I'm so very sorry for your loss. You & your family are in my prayers❤️

Ashlyn, I am so sorry. I am praying for you and your family. Thank you for your honest words. Your gift of sharing is a blessing to me.

I'm so sorry. Lots of prayers for you and your family.

thank you for sharing your vulnerability and pain with us. I lost a baby at 6 weeks, and I still go from "I'm ok" to breaking down some days. love and prayers to you during this time.

You are such an amazing soul!!! the way you speak and think is unbelievable!! I am so so sorry for what your family is going through😢 God always knows what's best for us. It may not be what we want or like but he is by your side!! stay blessed!!❤❤

I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. You are a truly beautiful person that radiates love and light. Be strong xx

I am so, so sorry for yours and Travis' loss. I have not experienced miscarriage but being a mom of two I can only imagine how heartwrenching it must be. Its so encouraging and faith strengthening to see how firmly you trust that God has a reason for this pain though; my husband and I have been having an extremely tough battle of our own this year and there are days when I wonder why God is having us go through this valley, but knowing that He ultimately has a perfect reason and plan for our lives has been our anchor. I hope I can encourage you a little bit in the same way you just encouraged me. Thank you so much for sharing it couldnt have been easy. I will be praying for you.

I am at a loss for words.. I give you and your family my prayers and condolences. I have no idea how this must feel but I know that I am a mother and just thought of it... Thank you for sharing 💗💙👼🏼

I am so sorry Ashlyn! I do know how you are feeling and I will be praying for you. Your message really spoke to me today. I am struggling a lot with loss. One of my daughters is not speaking to us and this came a couple months after she gave birth to her first. The child is two next month. Right now I have a brother in law who has been in ICU for weeks and is battling for his life as well as my sister who is having brain surgery in two weeks. My husband has been gone this week and when he returns I will be flying to SD to spend some time with my sister and I am having to take things day by day. Because like you said, God hasn't promised us anything in this life except that He will hold us up during difficult times if we are abiding in Him. We have been in such a season of loss for so long and I don't have a support system so I feel so vulnerable and raw. I am truly praying that you will find peace during this time. I know the Lord will use this for His glory because you are His and your testimony is powerful! ~Wendy

I am so sorry for your loss. I will pray for you and your family

I'm so sorry for your loss! Prayers for you and your family. 💕

I'm so sorry , this breaks my heart .... Sending hugs and prayers your way ❤️

so sorry hun! I've had two miscarriages, 2 stillborn babies yet 5 live children....I love how God works ALL things out for good. as a mom of ages 30-12 and 4 grandchildren know that yes children are a blessing just be sure about a large family because there are many challenges even with great children. the hardest part of parenting is once they leave the nest. :) you are a blessing!! love and hugs.

Sharing is healing...you guys are in my prayers.

As hard as it must have been for you to film this, thanks for sharing this video Ashlyn! My heart breaks for you - and I know this same pain. My first pregnancy was a miscarriage, and it was one of the hardest things I've gone through. I now have 2 beautiful boys, but even with their pregnancies it took me awhile to start to get excited about it...with the fear of losing them too. Nobody in my family is aware yet but I am currently 5 weeks pregnant right now, and I'm experiencing that same feeling of not wanting to get excited just yet in fear that something might happen. But I know God is in control of all circumstances and it's all in His hands. It was so touching and emotional for me when you said God doesn't waste our pain, that he uses these hard times for a purpose. I've never heard it that was before and it really touched my heart. I will be praying for you and Travis as you go through this hard time that God will give you strength and peace. Sending all my love to you!

So sorry for you loss...hugs

I'm so sorry for your loss. Sending lots of love. Xx

I felt so much pain in my heart for you even though I never experienced this. I will pray for you!

Prayers for you! Stay strong and leave it in Gods hands.

Ashlyn, I am so sorry for you & your husbands loss...for your family. I believe that your precious baby is a guardian angel,for another baby to guide through life. I dont know what yall are going through, but listening to you share your story...my heart goes out to you & your husband Travis. You have such a beautiful soul & my prayers are with you *Hugs*. If you haven't heard Hillary Scotts song "Thy Will", its such a beautiful song...my favorite..makes me cry everytime.

I'm so sorry for your loss. God has a plan for your little baby! I just want to reach out and hug you!

Ashlyn I can't even begin to tell you how much you have touched my heart with your vlogs. I'm not even sure how I ran across your channel, but I am so grateful that I have. I'm also a mom of three kids, however, I'm in a completely different place as two of my three children are college age and my third is in high school. However, I truly believe that God puts other women in our lives to grow us no matter what stage of life we are in. You are a blessing to me and I'm grateful for your sweet loving spirit and your beautiful soul. I can't wait to introduce your channel to my daughter....thank you and please continue sharing. I will be praying for you and your sweet sweet family. ❤️ I am so sorry for your loss.

So sad to hear this, Ash. Prayers for you and Travis as you go through this difficult time.

My prayers are with you, Travis and the family. I'm sure this video will be such a reminder and encouragement for others to see how God works through times of sadness and sorrow.

I am so sorry for your loss Ashlyn!!! I will pray for you for peace.

The universe works in mysterious ways, I feel for you. Take time for you and your family! healing is so important. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Your message and experience will help so many people my dear ....it is amazing and probably even beyond your comprehension on the solace you will bring to other women in your sharing......thank you for being brave enough to be a vessel. xoxoxo

your inspiration to us all I've been going through something for about couple of weeks and God uses us for different reasons thank you for sharing your story God bless you and your family

I'm so so sorry for your loss! I know you will stay strong you are an amazing lady ! Lots of love

I am very sorry for your loss. I know this is hard to hear right now, but God has something ever better in store for you. You and your family will be in my prayers.

So very, very, very sorry for what all you have just gone through. Saying a prayer for you Ashlyn. God Bless.

I am lifting your family in prayer.

Sorry for your families loss, praying for your family and for every woman that goes through this tragedy.

Hugs and prayers to you!

Ah I'm so so sorry. My prayers are with you and your family.

I'm so sorry Ashlyn. I too have had a miscarriage at about 9 weeks. It was October 2014 It was my first experience being pregnant and it was devastating. Then I got pregnant that December with my rainbow baby and she is my biggest blessing. There is nothing that will make you feel better but to know that it's God's plan. I will pray for your healing. I appreciate you sharing your story and for sharing your life. 🙏🏻

Sending you so much love girl, I can't even image the pain you are going through.

Ashlyn I'm so sorry for this terrible weekend, you're so strong and even stronger with God. I'm so glad that you have Travis to go through this with you and feel with you, I can't imagine what you're going through. Love you all, prayers for your family 🙏🏻😢

Oh no. I'm so very sorry. ((hugs)) Prayers for God's love and peace to cover you during this heartbreaking and devastating time. I suffered my second miscarriage in July, at 17 weeks. It's soul crushing. I'm so very sorry you're having to walk down this road, but just know that you are NOT alone!

Praying for you and your family! ❤️

I'm so sorry. I can't imagine what that must be like and you are being strong and I wish the best for you and your family. Take care of yourselves.

My heart goes out to you. I went through that three times.It is good you are speaking from your heart. Take care and keep your faith. My prayers are with you...M♡M of 5

I am so sorry for your loss , I will pray for you and your family , you are so strong and will get through this .

god bless you Ashlyn and your sweet family, you are in my prayers 🙌🏼

So sorry for your loss. Praying God will strentghen you in this time.

I'm so sorry that happened. I experienced that lost with my first pregnancy. I know that baby is in heaven and that brings me joy.

Stay strong Ashley, prayers for you and your family. When the times right god will give you a beautiful miracle. God bless xo

Praying for you and your sweet family.

Oh sweet friend. Thank you for your vulnerability. It's so hard to know what to share and when and how. The best we can do if follow His promptings and trust His message will wind up in the right spots. I am so sorry your heart is hurting and your little one is no longer with you.

So sorry for your loss 😔🙏🏻

I am so so sorry for the loss of your precious baby. I cried right along beside you as I have been there too. It was absolutely devastating to my husband and I. Looking back now, six and a half years later, I can see how the child I never got to hold in my arms truly changed my heart. That precious life was NOT without purpose. I know one day God will place that baby in my arms and it will be a beautiful reunion. I'm praying for you and your family.❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

You spoke to my heart .. I've never had a miscarriage and I can't imagine the pain you are feeling . I have 4 kiddos , ages 23, 18 , 16 and 14 . Our oldest , our son who is married with 2 beautiful babies has decided to cut us out of his and our grandkids lives . It honestly feels like a loss to us . We pray he comes back around , we miss the son we raised and we miss our grand babies so much . But I can say that I can understand the feeling of loss . Our hearts are breaking at this time , but we will hold onto Gods plan for our life . Thanks for sharing your heart with us . I will be praying for y'all ❤️

So sorry for your loss. I had a miscarriage at the 6 weeks 5 months ago. It was my first pregnancy and my husband and I have been trying for over a year. My heartaches for you & trust me it gets better. Little by little. God has a plan for all of us. Whatever is his will, will be.

To me people said it will make you stronger and wiser... And it probably did, but like you said it was devastating and emotional. It takes time to heal from such an experience. For you and for Travis, please let nobody rush you, take your time and feel what you feel and do what you need to do to give this a place in your heart and mind. Take care, love Maggie

I appreciate you sharing your story

Sending love and prayers. So sorry.

Praying for you and your family. My heart breaks for you.

Praying for your lovely family 💜

Its almost two years to the day that I had a miscarriage as well. We haven't been able to get pregnant since. I share wholeheartedly in your grief. Thank you for sharing and recognizing the importance of human life and in the impact it has on our hearts and souls even so early on in its development. My prayers are with you.

my heart goes out to you. may the love of God surround you and bring you peace today.

Im sorry for your loss. I had a miscarriage almost one year ago and it was very difficult. Hope you felling better now. Here we keep our faith in Jesus and we believe that he is going to give us another baby. Kisses from Brazil.

I'm so sorry for your loss :( hang in there!

I have had 4 miscarriages in the last year... but I have made peace with myself that we are going to be a family of 3. I have questioned my faith in God. I have just discovered your channel and hope that you are blessed with another child. xx

You are in our thoughts and prayers!

i feel your pain. it is really hard to go through this, 3 years ago, I miscarried at 11 weeks. you opened my eyes why I might of had my miscarry 3 years ago...God knows when it will be a better time for me to bear a child again. Praying for you and your family

So, so sorry for your loss...

I'm so sorry. I miscarried in 2013. It's hard literally feeling life leave your body. I'm praying for you and you are not alone in this.

Ohhh... my heart breaks for you! I have had two pregnancy losses and it's hard right when you are going through it. Questioning why. And why me when someone else would get an abortion or someone who is careless & negligent while pregnant. God WILL use your story! And you will look back on this in years to come and see that God really was right here with you. (ps...sharing helps healing too, at least for me it did, you are brave)

God bless you and your family. He is Soverign. When we understand the least, He continues to be in total control. Find comfort in knowing He knows every tear...and loves you beyond measure. Prayers for you and your family.

I am praying for your family. My heart aches for your loss. I want to thank you so much for always being transparent, authentic, and humble as you share the struggles and pain of "real life" and then you sweetly just point us all back to the Cross. I thank God for allowing me to find your channel and be encouraged by you. I recently shared a video on my channel that was the hardest one I have ever done because of the message God asked me to share, but I have experienced such peace in the obedience. Stay strong, sweet friend, and remember it is okay to feel broken at times, too. Lots of cyber hugs to you and yours! God bless you!!

im so sorry for your loss

You are in my prayers 🙏

I was crying with you I'm sorry to hear this I hope u feel better

I'm so sorry Ashlyn xo

I am so sorry hun I am 16 weeks pregnant and this brakes my heart!

:( so sorry, Ashlyn.

You have a soul in Heaven. God be with you during this time. We miscarried our 4th also. A month later our twins were born but we we had to wait 14 months until they joined our family through adoption.

Sorry for your loss....

God bless you and your family

praying for you always....God bless you

Oh Ashlyn. So very sorry for your loss. I Wish you much peace during this time. Hugs~Jess

I saw this when you first did it but didn't watch it as we were trying for a baby. Now I found myself watching it after just loosing a pregnancy myself this week at 6 weeks. I'm not particularly religious, if God is real why would he be so unkind and deprive you of this gift? I have one beautiful two year old I never thought I would gifted to be at aged forty. Now I'm fighting with myself if we should try again at forty two or if my heart could do this hurt again. As an older parent I would love my daughter to have someone when we are no longer here.

So sorry for your loss, On September 13, 1991 I too had a miscarriage. I pray that God will give you peace and comfort.

So sorry for your loss.i know how it feels and we will continue praying for your family.💕

i will be praying for you 🙏

Thank you for sharing 😔😢 on Wednesday I lost my grandma to cancer and it's been very difficult in heart, it's been very difficult to know I won't see her again in this earth and what you've said about pain and lost that God uses that it has really spoken to me. Thank you ❤️

I'm so sorry for your loss, praying for your family.

My husband and I found out that we were expecting after deciding that we were "done" at three precious kids. The surprise was huge, but we were thrilled and knew it happened because God had always had that baby for us. At 6 weeks I began bleeding. I was immediately filled with the deepest dread and loss. It took almost a week to find out if we had indeed miscarried or not, and that was a week of hope mingled with mourning that God used to shape and mold me in ways I am still realizing now, a few months later. God, in his great mercy, has spared us from that particular trial of miscarriage at this time, and I am now 14 weeks along. But oh, my heart ached for that baby I thought I had lost. And I am crying and praying for you now as I type this (I realize the video is an older one, but I am just finding your channel), because my heart remembers and aches for you. Thank you for sharing your story, thank you for pointing us to Christ even in the middle of your trial and suffering.

I'm praying for you today, Ashlyn. As I was watching the last couple minutes of this video I thought about you in a big picture kind of way....these are the words that the Holy Spirit brought to my mind. "This is just Chapter 1 for this woman. God is going to continue to use her in even greater ways to speak to greater numbers of people in the years ahead." May this loss draw you and Travis close to your Heavenly Father, our wonderful Comforter.

Hugs.....

so sorry xoxo

I am so, so sorry for your loss 🙏

You are an amazing women!!! You will be bless with another baby 🦄✨💝

There's a quiet place within where you will carry the loss of your unborn baby with you for the rest of your life. The pain of that loss gently recedes as healing and time, and life go by. It's as if a swinging door slowly closes itself on the ache in your heart. At first, the door swings wide open as you feel all the depth of loss, against the hope of what you will never know this side of Heaven. The pain is a secret one that you share with the Lord-he knows it's there. You will be reminded of this for years to come when in a fleeting moment you are out living your life and something comes up that reminds you of your precious baby in Heaven-perhaps you pass a garden where a white rose bush is growing, or you're writing a check and realize today was your due date...He does bring beauty from ashes and joy from sorrow. After three miscarriages, more than 16 years ago, I know the blessing my 16 year old son is-and he does too! The pain of my loss, magnified my joy at his birth (he is my second child here on earth), and even though I haven't met my Heavenly babies yet, I feel such peace in knowing that someday we will be together and there I will be able to hold each of them in my arms at last

so sorry...