Social repose: confessing a very personal and difficult struggle Scorn: time for zoomies

Believe me, you're not the only guy who feels this way. It's hard to admit for men for lots of reasons but you speaking up does help for both you and for other guys with eating disorders. You can inspire them to speak up as well. Thank you so much for making this video. We're here for you and proud of you for having the courage to do this Richie!

Im relapsing myself at the moment and hearing you talk about your problems actually helped me. It’s somehow calming to hear that i am not alone.

I will never stop watching your videos no matter how big or small your views. Your honesty is unmatched my friend. You have made it through so much and I believe you will get through this too

Scorn running around in the background was adorable, but thankyou for sharing, despite peoples rampant insensitivity on the internet. I've been battling alcoholism for years and I'm in a much better place now. I really related to the whole "no one is holding me accountable but me thing" ... Don't be embarrassed.

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“14 seconds ago” christ im early. uh. do not be ashamed my good sir. be proud for being able to talk about it. im glad you came out and spoke even though you were scared to. cheers

For me, disordered eating was about control. I couldn't control what happened around me, or much what people were saying about me, but I felt somewhat better or more " in control" , when I didn't eat too much. But it's like your mind starts going with a pattern of what it thinks is " normal", when clearly it's not. So, I feel like it's getting yourself out of this pattern, and a newer way of thinking. Like taking a shovel to climb yourself out of a hole. Realizing that our bodies that house us are temporarily here to manuver us while we are here, puts it into a little more perspective. It's made to last us a lifetime. And, we can't care what other people say in the end because it's not about them, only the opinions that house themselves own them, and their minds really . Yep.

I think therapy wouldn't be a bad idea but you got this you can do it.

Social Repose, I have always thought you are extremely intelligent and well spoken. I thought I would just tune in for a few minutes of this video and ended up listening to the entire vlog because of how well you were presenting yourself. My heart goes out to you and I hope that you eventually arrive at a middle ground from which you can mend......Claudette

As someone who regularly gets told they need to lose weight by parents and loved ones, everything takes a mental toll on you. I appreciate and love the honesty you have about putting this out there. I remember when my eating disorder hit its peak and I was bed bound, and I remember not wanting to move or be alive. You honestly can never win with other’s opinions, but I hope you can be kinder to yourself and hope you can recover from this ❤️

I think it's so brave of you to say all this. I've struggled for years with anorexia. I started listing to your music about 5 years now and it's gotten me through a lot. I never felt a alone and it's horrible the stigma of men and mental health. I was brought to tears hearing this because I knew those feelings. I was body shamed since elementary school and now I'm in and out of hospital with this, life changing thing as you said. I hope you can find ways to learn to look at yourself and love you. I'm starting off small with small things I like about myself. It's a long and rocky mountain of a journey. I know how it feels, you want to look like a skeleton, you want to see ribcages when you see yourself. I know I hate what I see in the mirror. And I'll admit during covid it got a lot more.. life dangering. I'm 5'1, and barely 98lbs. I want to recover, and I'm trying. But starting small is the best advice I can give. You're worthy of eating, you're worth it.

I definitely understand. I feel almost the same way currently. My metabolism has always been fantastic, literally eating anything and everything I wanted my entire life up until the last two years. I've just turned 30 and I'm overweight for the first time in my life. Well, 'overweight' according to myself. It's such a mindfuck looking in the mirror and loathing more then just my face. I'm not handling it well and don't have any words of wisdom but I understand you.

Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable here. It’s really important to have male representation with eating disorders. I’m in the same boat right now. I recently had to go to the ER for dehydration and malnutrition - for the third time in my life. Try to take care of yourself, okay?

Wait Mercy Kill was in 2018? Holy hell time flies. Also I didn't know the phrase "skinny fat" until you mentioned it in a video. As a big girl my whole life I literally laughed. But I get what it's like to have people immediately assume they know how to fix a person based solely on their weight. There's so much more to weight than what you eat or don't eat. Mental health is a huge part of it and people clearly see that with ED but if you are a big person it's clearly a character flaw and it's "easily" fixable. Life isn't fair and the standards of beauty are so unrealistic, we're not anime characters we can't just erase what we don't like about ourselves, we can improve it and grow with it but that takes work and a support from others. The first step is realizing there's a problem and admit to it, congratulations that's a big step.

I'm glad Scorn was there to make you smile during this video. I know it helped a lot speaking about this on the internet. It must have been scary and not a lot of people can do that 💜. Let that baby be the light in your life to hold you accountable. My Luna has kept me alive through a lot living alone for the past 12 years because she needs me and Scorn needs you!

He looked like he was gonna cry the whole time 🙁 I hope you start to recover Richie

People always gonna say things to everything. Just focus on people that love you. You are so amazing and perfect. Now you are blind but the day when you go to a mirror and see what people see, you gonna love yourself so much🖤 (Sorry for my English, I’m from Mexico)

My cat heard scorn playing with the door stop and she started…

I’m glad you can admit there’s a problem. I hope you can get well and conquer this dangerous thing. Love you!

Dude you got this, I think you're actually strong because you're honest with yourself, many people can't admit to themselves anything let alone in front of everyone. You have to trust yourself because I sure as hell do. Best of luck!

Hi, Richie! So proud of you for being honest with yourself. I hope you do decide to confide in a professional who can help hold you accountable. The internet can be damaging and friends can be distant or transient. I'm rooting for your journey back to a healthier mindset 💜💙

Recovered ED here; if you want any advice on how to slowly recover, start with premier proteins. They have very low sugar/carbs/calories. You have to get consistent protein after starving your body for so long. Just try to have one or 2 a day. They have a coffee flavor I really like. Take one day at a time and one shake a day (hopefully with other meals throughout the day, but sometimes you just can't everyday) but get those shakes in. They won't make you feel full/bloated which can lead to anxiety and guilt. But protein is the biggest positive change you can make now that you've made the huge step of admitting there is a problem. Oh and stay hydrated. You can do this! IF YOU HAVE THE WILLPOWER TO HAVE AN ED YOU HAVE THE WILLPOWER TO RECOVER FROM AN ED!

Glad you were able to talk about it. I hope it feels like a weight off your chest. I don’t know if that’s the best phrase though. I’m in my early 30’s. Struggled with it since I was a teen. I think you might be similar to me in the sense that talking/sharing these sort of things- not a comfortable thing to do. The attention feels weird. Food is fuel. That has helped me. Good luck, R.

I'm proud of u Richie for speaking up abt Ed's because no one really talks abt this kind of mental issue

As a 30 year old guy, I can so relate to this. I've struggled back and forth with anorexia for about 15 years now. I'm only 5'5" but for years hovered around 98 pounds and then in 2015, decided I was tired of starving myself and just ate what I wanted. I got up to 160, which makes me look huge and ever since have fluctuated between 120 and 160. It's good to know that I'm not the only one who'd rather be small and prefer the sickly look over being muscular.

These comments are all really supportive, hopefully this can be a turnaround and you'll get the support you deserve. We all wish you the best, Richie

Commenting again because I want to point out to other viewers that body dysmorphia is a mental disorder, and remind y’all how shitty it is to talk about other people’s bodies.

Please don't be embarrassed. Thank you for sharing and know you're not alone. 🖤🙏

theres a book called the art of starving, its about a boy with an eating disorder.

Scorn I hope cheers you up when your down. He’s a riot. I am sorry you have tackled this for so long. You look good but don’t starve yourself. You are to young to have health issues this problem can cause. I think you are a great talent. Take care. 😘

I hope you are able to get through this and come out of it healthy and happy. Good luck, stay strong, and don't forget you have support from so many people

Not sure if this helps, but maybe you could get into cooking habits like learning recipes and stuff. If you work on your culinary skills, you might fall in love with food and it might combat the struggle.

Its good to share your story ❤️ there are a lot of people who struggle with this issue, and its nothing to be ashamed of! Lets just support each other and get through this ❤️

I’ve recently developed an ED myself :( I’ve always been naturally VERY skinny. Even after having twins. But once I turned 30, I gained 20 lbs all in my stomach. I started taking laxatives and eating way less food 😞 I think hearing your story is a sign for me to stop and get help 🥺💗

@Social Repose You're an inspiration. I think I speak for everyone when I say that we all here for you.

You’re right about guys not talking about it. I’ve not heard a guy talk about it since Daniel Johns wrote Ana’s Song. That’s a long time ago.

It is so easy to tell. You do have a small frame, but your Bones do protrude, dear. I understand your Position. I live alone and am currently Relapsing. It sucks SO badly. I’ve been in many Treatment Centers where there were Men. Thank You for coming forward. I’m Proud of You. Don’t hold back your Feelings or Emotions. Like you said, you could be helping someone else right now. You’re in my Thoughts, Richie. 💗💗💗💗

Didn’t he like come after Eugenia for having an eating disorder? 😂

You are strong for marking this video and I’m happy you can admit it. Cuz I am definitely worried about you and wish you the very best. Cuz I completely understand coming from someone who suffers from binge eating and Bulimic I know what it feels like to suffer in silence. Hope the very best for you.

I have a binge eating disorder. I only recently came to terms with it when I was having major body dismorphia. The underline reason is basically living in a large poor household and having little to eat while I was a kid. Now I binge eat the food items I like and I'm rather food aggressive. You just have to take one step at a time. You have support from your followers. Stay strong and true

As someone who's currently relapsing into anorexia for a third time, I can say that the best thing is that you are admitting it and wanting accountability for it. That's the hardest part of this. You're stronger than me, I can't tell my family or friends I'm slipping back into old habits again... So good for you Richie

Its heartbreaking to see this notification even. Jesus I hope you do find help through therapy and maybe rehab

The comments made my heart happy. Richie, dont ever be afraid to share stuff like this. We are all here for you every step of the way

The world is not always kind so it is truly brave to openly admit your struggles like this, a lot of issues stem from other things that come into play or triggers that force you into such things, Keep us posted and this is truly the first step in self love. I hope you recover from this soon.

Thanks for talking about this, because as much as this video is about you, it's very helpful to others. Thankyou for being vulnerable as always.

I have battled anorexia and it sucks. I'm so glad you made this video because, yes, males go through this too! And being told to just eat a sandwich is disrespectful af! Please keep your head up! You're amazingly talented!

See this is what Eugenia needs to do. Admitting that you have it is the biggest part and the start to getting better.

Bro. Tons of respect for admitting to us whats going on. No disrespect and all love. U should see professionals. Theres no shame in it. Ive seen a therapist for years. I love u bro and know u will get thru this. Its a hard journey

I hope one day you can find True happiness within yourself. Life on the internet is so toxic. You are brave.

I met you in Charlotte,2016 I believe. It was the warped tour festival. You were so nice and soft spoken. I actually had no clue then who you were. I wanted a selfie and you were needed on stage. KZfaq was nice enough to grace me with reminding me who you were. Fan ever since. I really hope you remain resilient and take care of yourself. So proud of your honesty and vulnerability! That takes courage and such a genuine level of respect for yourself and the hopes of others wellness. I have been hospitalized 6 times for mental health and addiction. I don't like my body and I never have reached a level this caliber. But was no more than 115 to 120 all of high school. I lost 37 a few years ago when my body decided to just reject all food and I've never had the best appetite since. I have spent many times looking in the mirrior,disecting my every flaw. I felt disgusting at 165 and considered not eating or just inducing myself to vomit a few times. I would cry and believe nobody could every love or appreciate me. Thank God i never did that,i just got life threateningly ill instead. For 6 months i had no choice but to throw up violently probably 7 times a day or on a good day just when i ate. Never figured out why. They said acid reflux and ibs and i stopped the treatment for those. I still dont get sick like that. Anyway im cruising at 135 for now. Still wished at times maybe I could be like 142 and try to turn it into muscle. It absolutely is a real problem and isn't just some imaginary unreal situation. Thank you for your honesty and remember you have many people who care about you. You really are a rare gem 💎 ik this is a year late,but I haven't left the bed or the hospital for almost 2 years now. Hugs Richie 🫂 well wishes. You deserve all the best life has to offer you . ❤️

Thank you for being open with us, Richie. So proud of you and sending good vibes your way.

Good luck and get well Richie. I’m proud of you for acknowledging this, sending love ❤️

You are stronger for realizing & calling out that you have a problem & there is absolutely no shame in that. Ppl who post bs don't realize that what they say can hurt in so many ways. After they hit that post button they probably immediately forget & not thinking how it affects others. You need to reprogram your relationship with food & or atleast talk to someone in that field so you can get back to being healthy & dealing with those issues in a better way. I am wishing you all the luck & don't want to see you or anyone else end up like EC!

Thank you for sharing this, I’m still learning how to recover from the years of a rocky relationship with good. You aren’t alone and you will always be supported

I have followed you a long time and watched your videos. You have never been thick. The first step is admitting they have a problem. I suffer from borderline personality disorder and it took me a long time to accept that diagnosis. Self harm was always the way I dealt with it. With therapy, proper medication, a safety plan and renewing my love of art I'm finding my way. I have faith you will too. I loved Scorn's zoomies.

I share the same struggles and it is nice to know that I am not alone

I myself struggle with different mental health issues. I don't want to say anything that could be harmful, so I'll just say that I find your content interesting and entertaining. Wishing you nothing but well. 💙💙💙

you’re incredibly strong being vulnerable in front of so many people. stay strong richie 🖤

Proud of you.

Stay strong Richie. You have so much support. Ignore the hate. Anyone can suffer from this. Be female, male, non binary. This is the best step to getting help.

Good for you for speaking up. Talking about things that are embarrassing or make you feel ashamed is incredibly difficult especially when you're not an emotionally open or vulnerable person.

I’m a little late to this one but as someone with a lifelong ED I feel compelled to says something here. You are so not alone in how you fell into your ED. I know many many stories of both men and women who ended up with debilitating ED’s basically by accident like you have. After losing a bit of weight from having the flu, or even from dieting that they fully intended to stop once they reached their healthy goal weight, they found that the brakes had disappeared and they couldn’t stop the thoughts or behaviors. I’m so sorry that this happened to you. It’s truly a terrible, insidious disease and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone ever. But you are not alone, and you certainly are not weak. It takes incredible strength to talk about any mental illness, let alone to admit that you’re struggling with one. Im so grateful that someone with a platform as large as yours is bringing attention and awareness to the fact that ED’s are widespread and they do not discriminate. They cross all lines of gender, culture, etc…and they are life-destroying and progressive, fatal illnesses. The good news is, you can heal. The best thing anyone with an ED can do is exactly what you’re doing and that is talking about it and about how it feels for you. ED’s thrive in silence and secrecy. A good therapist and positive support groups have helped me tremendously over the past few years. I have a long way to go, but it has undoubtedly gotten better. Please keep speaking about this, for yourself and for others. Use your creative outlets to express yourself when words fail. I deeply hope you’re able to heal from this. Thank you so much for showing courage and bringing your struggles out into the open. I’m sure it’s already helped so many people. It makes me feel less alone too.

Hey man I don't know if this will help at all or not but I have Bipolar Depression and have noticed a significant difference in my feelings of anxiety and manic episodes once I started eating more often and working out. It isn't a miracle cure by any means but it definitely made life feel way more manageable. Just eating more healthy and often made me feel better without even working out. Hope things get better for you.

Richie, I've struggled with bulimia for almost 7 years now. I really feel everything you said. The "I wish I looked like this always" really made me tear up a bit. I don't know how to get better, but I know I want to. Thank you for opening up. I wish you the best

It’s ok to cry Ritchie. It’s an emotional thing to accept and come out with your personal issues. Thank you for coming out with it. You’re stronger than you realize. ❤️

Thank you for sharing this Richie, I have been denying my eating disorder for years and this has given me some courage to seek help. I really hope you can over come this. I believe in you. This video has got me in tears because I relate so much. Thank you for sharing it really helped me realize I need some help. Good luck Richie I hope you get to feel healthy happy again soon 💜💜

It’s going to be okay Richie. I know this is hard. I’m still struggling with anorexia and body dysmorphia. I understand the pain and hurt of those friends saying to “just eat”. I hate my body, and yeah it’s all in my head, but my head is my own worst enemy. Anyway, not trying to ramble about myself, I just want you to know that I understand if no one else does and that I’m here if you need to talk. Thank you for sharing your story with the world, I know that took a lot. You look great! I hope you have a lovely day!

Don’t be scared that you admitted it. I’m proud of you. So very proud of you for talking about this. You have my support and so many other people’s support. I’m proud of you talking about this with us ( your fans) I understand where you are coming from. You aren’t weak to me. I promise it’s okay to cry. 🖤

I have never related more to a video. I struggled with anorexia and bulimia for years. Luckily I met and married a man that help me get through it and loves me no matter what. Proud of you for sharing. Stay strong there will be a day when the struggle isn't so hard. Love n hugs 🖤

It’s awesome to see how much you’ve grown in the last few years. I used to not be able to stand you lol. But you’ve really grown on me Richie :)

The amount of men that suffer thru eating disorders w/o ever gettin any help is staggering! So many just end up suffering alone/or dying because they aren’t taken seriously cause it’s a “womans issue” Good on you Richie for making this video. I can’t imagine how hard it was. 👏🏻♥️

I am sorry you are suffering, but kudos to you for being honest. I wish you the best in your recovery.

It takes a lot of guts to admit something like this! That’s the first step. I hope you get the help that you deserve

I don't know you Ritchie but I've watched and followed you for years! As a fan of your work your such a committed person to your work. And as one of the many people will comment "we are here for you" if takes some balls to open up like that and admit you have a problem and for that bravo man!

Hi Richie, i've been a subscriber of yours for quite some time. and even though ive never really have watched most of your content, your video really stood out to me tonight. I just spent the last couple of hours binge watching most of your vids, and i can tell you're a really nice guy with a nice personality. quite entertaining tbh). I was able to relate to this video in particular. I am too going through a lot mentally aka anxiety. and its been kicking my ass LOL. but this video made me feel safe about me feeling so different from everyone else. Its OK to talk about it.... i hope that you feel better soon. and its ok not to be ok.

You'll be in thoughts and prayers 🙏 I am struggling right now as well. I was binging for the past few years, since 2017, I got off substances.... I had replaced drugs with sugar, then I had gone from 100lbs to 198lbs so I decided recently that I need to quit food.... well you get it I been dropping weight quickly. Far too quickly. I'm using this comment as an admission as well. I am here with you. I hear you. I care. I promise you'll be in my heart and prayers. We got this! Hugs!!! This post actually really got threw to me. I feel for you.

You aren’t alone and I’m rooting for you

Richie, I hear and see you. You are not alone in this. Your "oh no" moment is something that I personally experienced and others I've spoken to have also experienced. I've been in ED "recovery" since January but have been taking seriously the last 4 months due to heath complications. I can say that it does get easier, but fighting that demon is so fucking hard. Coming out and recording this video and posting it (!) took so much fucking strength to do. And you're absolutely right that there is a mix of what "causes" it, from aesthetic to societal pressure, to issues of control. It does also cause that confusion and memory issues, called brain fog, that take a while to get out of once you're nourished. This video was bold and vulnerable and I think you doing this is you holding yourself accountable. For me, I personally wasn't able to hold myself accountable and needed intense therapy, but if you're seeing a therapist, or are thinking about it, this is something to bring up with them or even a nutritionist. Men have eating disorders too, and they can be just as deadly and debilitating as they are for women. I'd like to leave you with a little saying we have in the eating disorder recovery community. #NEDA Richie, you can do hard things.

Stay Strong Sweetie 🖤✨

I knew this the day you said on stream you only had boiled eggs to eat and were exercising. I told you that couldn't be good for you and you said you loved how you looked, you silly goose. And I said nothing, cause I know if I tried to make you see it, it might get worse, I'm no therapist. I wish i could give you home cooked stuff bro, and some distractions. Anything to help. I know I don't know you personally and I can't say I love you bc of that, but know Richie, that despite I know you were a bad boy in some aspects, I appreciate you a bunch, and if you liked it (bc i know you hate it), I'd give you a tight long hug, my dude. You deserve to get better.

I hope you can get a handle on this before it gets out of control, completely. I struggled for over 12 years, but I am completely recovered now. On a side note, I hope you know that not everyone dislikes you. I randomly was suggested one of your videos-through the interesting KZfaq algorithm-and I have grown to really like you. Contrary to popular belief, we all make mistakes. We all do dumb things. But, we are humans. We didn’t all come with our own unique user manuals to use in every situation we go through in life. I see you as another human trying to get through life. You are incredibly talented as an artist and I find you to be extremely well spoken. I didn’t think we had too much in common before I watched this specific video. This only further demonstrates my opinion that you are just trying to navigate this confusing life like the rest of us. I wish you the all the best. A nutritionist and/or therapist might be helpful in order to help gain some insight and keep you accountable ❤️‍🩹💫

THIS VIDEO IS 1000% relatable.. I pray for everyone’s mental health as well as physical

U are a superstar. I am so sorry you have to go through this as many others. U are so brave and are helping others. Please stay strong and know people are always here to listen . please just reach out to others. Hugs

Proud of you, Richie ❤️

Christopher Eccleston has spoken out about being anorexic. There shouldn't be any shame for men or women to admit that the horrendous pressure exerted by the media to be beyond thin.

As a young female, family is the only reason I can feel comfortable eating more food sometimes and enjoying it. Can't imagine being your age living alone having developed it recently instead of at this young age.

This is heartbreaking. I'm so proud of you for admitting and trying to change. You are so strong! You can do this! 💚 I'm so sorry this is all going on Richie.

I remember thinking it was crazy you had the will to do that. I have OCD and just general neurotic tendencies. Eating was never disordered for me until I got sick and dropped a lot of weight. It was like something clicked in my head that said "Your weight is something you can control and obsess about and make charts and do math."

You have EDNOS, like I do. I'm struggling right now because I AM a big person and nobody believes me when I admit I have an ED to get help. Me not eating is what makes society happy, but the more "omg you look so cute you lost so much" I get, the more it feels good. I want help... not compliments...

I feel you. I was developing the same disorder. My meals consisted in about 600-700 calories. Fasting, a meal a day. I was living alone. So nobody could tell me what to do. I didn't have the pressure to keep myself healthy. Now. Well. I don't live alone, I need to cook every day. The problem isn't gone but at least I went back to 2000-2500 calories. The fact that I have to cook for someone else, helped me to try to reconcile with food. The calories counting isn't truly gone. I don't think it'll ever go away, but I'm more conscious about what I need to eat. If not for my sake, for those around me. It took a while to understand that it's in fact an ED. I simply didn't want to admit that I've had caused myself another problem. But it won't change the fact that it exists. The only thing I can recommend is try to take care of yourself. Little by little, you'll be alright.

Richie: serious talks Scorn: *BOIIINNNGG* I've been supporting you for seven years now and I'll continue to. When shit hits the fan, I'm still a fan. Calamity is a beautiful album in so many ways-- thank you for making it. Tenacity is a rarity we don't value enough as humans. And its reason shouldn't ever be given. Yet you keep pushing the block, and I can only conjure more respect for you from it. Thank you for sharing Richie, I wish your mental the very best.

I'm so glad that you found the strength to share this. I know how you feel. I've been there. I hope you feel better.

Be kind to yourself Richie 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

that was a HUGE first step.

Hi Richie! I'm a long time fan. I'm really sad to hear this, and all of us fans are here for you! I suggest you try and go to therapy and reach out to your close friends for help! Be strong man! ❤️

Richie… I’ve been dealing with a lot… and I reached out to you recently elsewhere and it was wonderful to hear from you. It’s amazing you came forward about this. Please keep in touch.

I've been struggling with the way I eat as well and hearing what you said was very cathartic to hear, you aren't alone and I know you can overcome this

Making this video was one of the best things you could have done. Admitting it is the first step. I am a recovered addict for 7 years now. While you may not think of that in the same way, I still see eating disorders as a form of addiction and believe that addiction to anything all stems from the same things. Fear & resentment leading to a spiritual malady or hole in the soul. Luckily there is a solution to this as anyone who has overcame knows and it typically is not just willpower alone. We catalog our fears and face them, list our resentments to see where we are at fault to make amends and realize that we ourselves cannot be the center of our own universe....... we need someone or something else to give us much needed perspective. Find someone who has been been there and recovered to help you through to the other side....that is what I did. You can overcome this and will ultimately be a better man in more ways than expected. You may start on the road to overcome an eating disorder but find yourself transformed into an entirely better and happier person.

Richie… this video was posted almost three years ago and I don’t know if you read newer comments on old videos, but if you do I just want you to know that I know exactly what you are going through and how hard it is to overcome. But you can recover from it and making this video is an incredibly brave first step. It’s now summer of 2024 and I hope you are feeling better. My eating disorder was triggered by repressed memories from a very traumatic childhood. I was devastated and was losing my mind. The eating disorder was a desperate attempt to control SOMETHING. ANYTHING. And what a lot of people don’t understand is that eating disorders are very hard to stop because it is addictive AF. It took me about 2 years to overcome it and now I’m eating healthy amounts of food. I sought professional help and when I asked my doctor how bad it was, how much danger I was in, she told me that my condition was diagnosed as moderately severe. Moderately SEVERE. Those words scared the shit out of me and pushed me to get out of denial and do whatever I could to get better. I can see the fear in your eyes in this video and I recognize that pain. I’ve seen many of your more recent videos and you seem more happy and safe. But I like your general message on your channel: stay sad but not too sad. It’s a very real thing to say. Human beings can not be happy all the time and we go through hard times. Anyway, I just want you to know how much your art and your music and your genuine spirit is helping me. Thank you so much.