depression is like you’re not living. You’re just existing

If I say how I feel people would call me an “attention seeker”

You know it’s back when you start watching this kind of videos... 💔

I cut until I'm numb... I hurt until i bleed... I cry until it hurts... I smile until i cant And i break until im fixed

You dont know what being alone is until youre used to being alone, people annoy you when trying to talk to you, when you dont need a hand to help you back up, people for advice, you dont know what alone is until you dont need anyone the only things you need is your pride and honor

I love these type of videos cause they're so relatable. But the worst part is that it's just movie scenes and then you realize it's not actually real and they're acting, so then you feel like your the only one who feels that way, then you feel so alone.

Depression is like knowing your not good enough for anyone, so you miss every opportunity.

I ruined such a great relationship, hearing this is exactly how I feel right now

i lost all my friends and i don’t know why

It's just hard to feel this way and knowing that you can't escape the pain.

Damn hits deep, no one truly knows how one feels inside. We wake up and put on our fake smile while inside we struggle to not take the cowards way out. Until one day with out warning it over takes us end we end our lives.

I held my best friend in my arms as she died. I was hardly there with her in her last days, and here I was, standing in the room, looking at the body of the best friend I ever had. People act like they know what you're dealing with. They say they're sorry but it doesn't help. She was just lying there, blood in her spit, and all I could do was let her go. The only friend I had in this world. Everything I have ever cared about is gone. I have never been more alone.

“There’s nothing good about me anymore, I’m sick of wasting my time, I’m tired of living.” That hit me like a ton of bricks like I’ve never experienced before

*there was never anything good about me*

You might have “friends” but that doesn’t take the feeling of being ina dark place lonely,no one to trust.

"i eat the same demons everday" 0:44

"I don't like who i am, there's nothing good about me anymore" i felt this💔

I swear if I could say this to everyone I know, I would not miss the chance.

I fought with my friends because my depression caused my temper to go off sometimes. I was just so angry... for no reason. They stopped being friends with me, called me a snake behind my back. I deserved the hate. All of it. But... it still hurt. Especially knowing it came from people I once laughed and played with.

“there is nothing good about me anymore” I felt that on a personal level. It seems no matter how hard people try they can’t love someone like me.

"I don't know what happened to me or where I went wrong." *Damn, I felt that one.*

I’m tired. I wish I loved myself. I wish I felt like I’m not worthless. I just want to have one person that will be there for me. I’m tired of being alone I’m always the last choice no one wants me and I’m tired of it

Im surrounded with people who care yet I feel so alone I'm tired of being in this world and have already given up,but I can't hurt the only people who have been there for meno matter what. I won't kill myself but if a bullet or car comes my way I'm not moving

so perfekt.

parents they think they know us we only show them what we want them to see and that is the sadest part of everything :(

People tell me I’m lying when I tell them my feelings I’m the “bubbly one” “always happy” they say I’m faking it cause I’m smiling and laughing all the time That’s a lie only around people

Sometimes you just don't live anymore. You survive.

I get overwhelming feeling of sadness for no reason or a super small thing will set me off My family doesn't understand

Everything I ever cared about is gone 💔

Dear person whoever reads this, Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, You’re such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society build up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this than please never forget to breath and smile. Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs. Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one. I love you and send you hugs. You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you. YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN. I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN. You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice. You’re beautiful inside out. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN. I WISH I COULD HUGH YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO. It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go. I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you trough my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.?? I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :) All I want for you is to stay and feel alive. Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. I need you here with me :). Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out. Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up. And anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?! - The stranger that cares about you more than anything. I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay. This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it. I hope you will remember my words- becho :) Until tomorrow, my friend :)

For anyone who wants to know the song, it’s: When She Came Back Max richter

Who else lies in the dark watching these covering there mouth so nobody hears them.... Just me? Ok, I'll die undiagnosed alone

I truly wish these were on Spotify 😢

Listening to these again. I figured out how to describe my depression. I understand the weight of the world is heavy, but have you ever tried to hold up an ocean without drowning beneath it....

Ah I love this, there is so much emotion and it works with the music so well. Bravo

Well whoever made this video said everything i can't describe in me anymore.

You know, it's amazing how cold people can be, you tell them and they leave. I had depression, I had so much going on and when I finally told my girlfriend, she left me. I've had trust issues ever since, cant be in another relationship. It's coming back and this time, I know what it's like

You know you are big sad when you have a towel on you’re pillow

this describes me, myself and my hole life ......

Omg Perfect.

It's amazing how sometimes lyrics of these videos match up perfectly of how I feel 🙃

I don't have the energy to eat, wake up, sleep, go to school do stuff at school like idk

the loneliest felling ever is knowing that no one likes you but everyone loves you

I've felt like this for SOO long even though I have a great life... I dwell on the past... Glad this put it into words for me...

I randomly get a sense of loneliness, and youtube recommends me this. thnxs youtube, I can count on you when i have breakdowns.

I listen this everynight when i cry.

Dang. I would relate to this, If I were to listen last year. When I felt like I was always failing and always upset and had nobody to talk to about my feelings so I just kept it inside. I'm very thankful this year for all of the friends I have.

To all those going through this, this will pass, the pain will end someday. It hurts so much I know. My heart gets numb at times. And the worst part is there's no one to talk to. I hope you all get over this phase soon and may you find people who will love and care for you.

This is incredible and so relatable wow

Die Erkenntnis, dass es genau das ist was mir aus der Seele spricht, schmerzt enorm....

Time dosnt heal all wonds, it teaches us how to live with the pain, it only makes your heart numb.

Wunderschön!😍

If i say how i feel people would call me the "victim" as if i'm not suppose to express my feelings ..

I have nothing! No one!! Alright its all gone!!

Grade eben deine seite gefunden weil ich die ganze zeit traurige lieder suche und komme dan auf deine seite und ich finde diese audios so. Nachdenklich interessant

there’s just a point where even getting help doesn’t help so idk how to live anymore

Friend, you are not alone.Please don't give up.I know your sad, lonely.Please hold on.Tomorrow will be better.Have faith in your future. life is a gift.Your here for a reason.Have patients to find out, what part of life, you play.Theirs so much options out there.Try to explore different avenues. Along the way, you will meet people, I guarantee. Sometimes we don't need a surplus.just that (1) best friend who will be there.Never give up on your dreams.Your stronger than you think.

been having a hard time, my nearest friend just tried to take her own life, And a while ago she loved someone, but he broke her heart. I've been sitting up all night for the latest 3 weeks. Literarly EVERY night. Even when she was asleep, i sat up. Writing compliments to her just to make her feel better and to make her feel loved again, to make her feel special again. But now, i think i love her... But she doesen't love me. And for the first time in my life i just feel lost, And alone. Her depression transfered to me instead. Now i dont know if i can do this much longer. PLEASE help me...

i always cry when i watch this type of videos in the past but now i dont cry anymore i just sit there and stare blankly at the screen. i cant feel anything anymore

I thought everything was going back to normal but it hit me right in the face and now the count is back to zero. GREAT!

My mom passed away when I was 2, after a while my dad seemed to forget me so I spent a lot of time alone. Eventually he found someone, and they married I loved her and called her mom because she was the closest thing to a mom for me and 8 years later she died to cancer I went to her hospital room and stood next to her and felt her breathe then nothing. I started crying and my chest ached and burned.. And now I'm as lonely as I was before her.

I wish my parents would just understand my pain I mean I get yelled at " stop crying!" And it hurts

Being alone is one thing. Being lonely and empty is another. All of it is unbearable.

This is a mood for 2020 honestly.

I’ve been dealing with depression for 3 years. The only thing I can do is surround myself with people I feel like I need to make friends with just to pretend to have a good time because I feel like I deserve to have a good time. I feel like I should want to be able to feel happy because I feel like everyone deserves to come close to being happy. But happiness isn’t guaranteed. You have to make it happen. And so to make myself feel happy I try to get things done for myself but well. I’m a FREAKING TEENAGER who hasn’t even reached freshman year yet. What could I possibly do for myself without being dependent. Nobody wants to do anything for me. I have no father anymore. My mother doesn’t care. I only have a big sister who isn’t even my sister anymore whose capable of fending for me but she doesn’t. That makes me toxic. I’m constantly hurting people and I’m scared to hurt myself.

so wonderful.

sad i keep coming back to these videos. i don’t know if it will ever get better

The way I relate to this like it's words flowing out of my own mouth is so unbelievable

I feel misunderstood and lost there's this shadow of darkness that hides inside me that never shows itself to anyone but me and it makes me feel numb it distracts me from reality it's as if I'm in a deep state of hypnosis but I don't get sad about that, the fact that I have to do what everyone says and listen to what people say about me and question my own self if it's true.... no that doesn't bother me what bothers me is that no one notices how I feel and even when I do take a chance and tell people how I feel they forget the never remember without even bothering to make me feel better or at least try so why should I stay in a world where nothing good happens and I never feel anything? why should I stay in the world where everyone puts me down makes wrong decisions ? everyone claims they care but they don't even know me I just want to break down and cry but it wouldn't do anything ...I try loving other people and hope they love me back but the sad truth is I don't even know what love is anymore maybe I'm just with someone because I like to feel loved and I usually don't get that ....I thought I felt happy this one time when I met a boy and he made me happy so I got attached but he was already in a relationship so I knew I was just overreacting but I couldn't help but feel so attached to him so I kept him as a friend but I'm scared of someone pretending to love me I mean fuck I'm with someone who I haven't known that long and he says he loves me but this question stays in my mind and I ask myself is this one of those temporary relationships or is it love and I'm just so numb I can't tell, what if my constant doubt fucks up a relationship? I don't think I'll ever understand and if I can't understand then no one can...

Nice audio 😍

Im gonna send hugs and loves. All I gotta say is thank you for holding on for another day. 😊

One word: Perfect♡

Everytime I’ve wanted to be in a relationship it’s never worked out and the other person has always ended up leaving, my last relationship pretty much crushed my spirit and once again I feel more alone than ever, it seems like I’m saying I depended upon these people to not feel alone but that’s not it, I just wanted to know that someone cared about me because my life has been horrible since I was a kid and I’ve always been alone, I’ve never had anyone to talk with my feelings because apparently I’m too emotional and that’s why they all left me as well, when I go to family reunions or party’s I see everyone having a good time and enjoying themselves but me... I pretend I’m happy when I’m not and I go outside and look up at the night sky in the cold alone and non noise and ask why do I feel this way and why am I the type of dude that seems to make everyone laugh but when I get home I just sit there and think and talk to myself because I don’t want to express my feelings to my mom because she never listens I also have a brother and sisters but I just don’t feel comfortable talking about how I feel because I don’t think they get it, I sleep at night just imagining how life would’ve been with the person I really cared about and if they hadn’t hurt me, I listen to music that gets into my emotions, I’m social but I don’t really like talking to people for long because I just can’t handle long conversations, I’m the type of dude that hangs with the big crowd for a bit but then they all leave without me, all I ever wanted was to know someone actually cared about me and helped me with my feelings but they’ve never felt that way so all they see is weakness in me and to them it’s unattractive and they leave with someone else in such short time it’s like they never really cared about me or my feelings at all when I know they at least did before, I’m tired of being a loner, I wake up to no notifications on my phone and I talk to no one, everyone I know at least has a group of people they message everyday yet not one person has ever messaged me because I always have to start the conversation, I hate myself so much and my life and I’m tired of myself, I’m not suicidal but I just literally hate my life a lot and I just don’t want to get off my bed or go to work or talk to anyone

My mother died in a car accident, this lead to my father falling apart and abusing me for 7 years, each day getting worse. When he died I cried, I cried tears of joy and I danced. My three only friends died in a car crash because of a drunk driver. My father died that same day, he was the drunk driver.

Crazy how much this is relatable to the very end

I thought I was okay but this video made me realize I have never been more alone in my lifetime.

I could be in a crowd of people and be alone..I could be with my friends/family and feel alone.. When I was in secondary school I was bullied from year 7 to 11 (you made call them grades I dunno) then finished school (thankfully) but in those years I self harmed, I wanted to die every single day, I wanted to sleep and not wake up, I held in my emotions, didn't tell anyone until someone finally noticed the cuts on my arms. But nothing changed they still bullied me. Btw I was 12 when the bullying started..At the age of 17 I finally stopped cutting myself..because of help from my amazing friends, I'm 26 now. But for the past 2 years I haven't felt like my normal self, but the past few months it's gotten worse, most nights I'd sit on my couch and cry but like really bad..then once I stop..all that comes to mine is (just grab the blade, you know you need to, you know you want to) but I don't but it's like something inside is clawing to get out and make me do it. (I never show emotions infront of people anymore..also I may seem like a vile person but death for me in more of an inconvenience than upsetting. I didn't think like that years ago but it's who I am now..and I hate it.

Dear bff, aq tau kau sedang sakit... tetaplah semangat tuk hidup... berjuanglah dan jgn menyerah tuk sembuh ... kamu tidak sendiri.. aq tdk akan pernah meninggalkanmu.. kamu adalah salah seorang yg paling aq cintai....

Watching this reminds me of how many people ive hurt and how i cannot change that, not because its impossible, but i just dont know how or if i can(but not just fixing what happened, but fixing the hatred i have towards me). Im just stuck in a loop of reminding and then hating myself for it when im alone and acting normal and silly when im with others because it helps me forget

This strikes me in the heart

When this vid only speaks the truth😭💔✌🏼

I can relate to this because I lost everything in my life I just don't want to live anymore

I haven’t watched these videos for over a year, until a few weeks ago I started noticing how I would just lay in my bed thinking and now I started listening to these. I know it’s back and it’s make so upset but then I remember I fought last time to be me again so this time I will have to do the same but harder.

You know i cant help but wonder why i find myself feeling this way every single day but yet i never seem to think im alone and thats what I deserve

I started planting, and it's much easier living. Like, I'm producing oxygen for myself. Everyday when I see my plants growing, I'm kinda glad I didn't end it last week, or yesterday, because nobody is going to care for them, and its not fair. Nobody might not need me, but my cats and plants do. And that kept me going. Breathe guys. It'll pass. Life is hard. Take it easy, but take it.

same I hate myself😢

To know that this is exactly what I feel like and to know that every last thing good about your life is ruined is killing me

It makes you more sad when you can relate....

0:45 fighting the same demons*

I'm putting this in the book I'm writing. It'll go perfectly with one of my characters.

This hits hard.

*why am i like this*

when he shouts it sounds like jesse pinkman

I feel nothing

I swear that is how I feel every day but somehow I still am here

thsi is the most accurate way i feel with depression

this😢

I thought I wouldn't mind seeing you happy, thought I could be mature and take it like a man, make your happiness greater than my own I did everything I could just to see you happy, maybe if I'd lied a bit, things would be different but I couldn't, not to someone I honestly care for, I can't continue like this "it sucks" you once asked me were do I see myself in 5yrs without me, the true is I didn't see it without you, it's harder than I thought especially when you did everything you possibly could night without sleep, grinding work hours just so I could see you for a few minutes, I guess it's my punishment for a life full of regret. This is the hardest and toughest goodbye I've ever said to someone I truly love, take care Ellie and GOODBYE.😉😅😂...

From what episode is the scene from dr Phil from?

Perfect audio thanks