Some of us don't have emotional support. So, it has to be a lone journey.

I've lost everything already in life. Except my own life

For me talking and/or taking meds don’t seem to help. I’ve talked to therapist many times. Talk talk talk and they give me to same solutions. I know the solutions to feel better I don’t need to hear it over and over again. What I need is the solution to my lack of motivation, hopelessness, lack of Will and drive, I need a reason to keep going. Get that problem corrected and then I can start doing the solutions the therapist recommended. See how this is a catch 22? You can’t do the activity that will correct the problem without the motivation And the motivation comes from doing the activity that you can’t do. I’ve tried medications and they seem to kinda help for a short time but it takes a half a year or more for the meds to fully work. Then after another 6 to 8 months it doesn’t work at all and I start this whole process over again. Plus medication and therapy sessions cost money. Everyone likes to give advice but very very few are willing to take the time to spend with you and take you by the hand and physically do something like go to a game or a movie introduce you to people and help you with life’s challenges. That’s something a therapist can’t do. For me and I figure most of us just need to get pointed in the right direction. For example, Remember when you were a kid or remember your own kids. When you/they were learning how to ride a bike. The parents walk/ran next to you and encouraged you many time then got you all set up with training wheels and spent time with you and then took the training wheels off and again watched you and then you were off on your own. And even though you were on your own you could still count on their help if you fell. Without good friends and someone to love, life becomes pretty pointless That’s the kind of help I need and probably ever other person that is depressed. Every little challenge seems equal to climbing Mount Everest and ever little movement has become a challenge. I’m just so mentally tired and exhausted and I shouldn’t be

I havent been able to "look forward" since 2013, my third year of highschool. The only reason i am still alive is that i dont have it in me to hurt my friends/family like that.

After watching this, I remain unconvinced. You only told me to look forward, but you didn't show me how to look forward. And even if I wanted to look forward, what is there to look forward to? This country is so torn, that we are on the brink of a civil war, the world is on fire with conflict, and we are getting so close to reenacting a Cuban Missile Crisis or Thermo Nuclear War, if you want to out it that way. Even if we were to divert our focus from that macro and go to the micro, we have no sense of identity, no sense of direcrion in life, no definition in our words anymore, and no relationship to garner from others as we live in such a fragmenatry world. So what exactly are we looking forward to? And no optimistic nonsense, I want something compelling that gives me full fledge hope or a sense of skepticism toward my own thoughts on life.