I Lost the Baby at 20 Weeks After Going into Preterm Labor

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Life Plus Cindy

Life Plus Cindy

2 жыл бұрын

Trigger Warning: This video contains graphic description of pregnancy loss.
I lost my baby at 20 weeks (second trimester) after going into preterm labor. He was born too early to survive. It was the most horrible, traumatic experience of my life. Thank you for your support and understanding during this very difficult time. I will be back with more videos as soon as I'm able.
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@TheOllify
@TheOllify 2 жыл бұрын
My heart literally dropped when I saw the title. I am so incredibly heartbroken for you and Andrew. I can't imagine the pain you're both going through. I can only offer my condolences and send my love. I am so, so sorry Cindy.
@OneGirlGames
@OneGirlGames 2 жыл бұрын
You are, and always will be a mother Cindy. All August knew was comfort, safety and love in the warmth of your body & arms. You & Andrew will be in my thoughts. Rest in Peace August x
@literallymeme139
@literallymeme139 2 жыл бұрын
Cindy, I can’t begin to imagine how much pain you are feeling right now. We all love, appreciate, and support you so much.
@PinkFluf
@PinkFluf 2 жыл бұрын
I'm so sorry for your loss. Your son passed in your loving arms and that is probably the greatest comfort he could have been given in such a horrible situation. He got to feel the loving and warm embrace of his mother and father.
@klaudiak4867
@klaudiak4867 2 жыл бұрын
As a midwife on NICU who has seen many preterms that were too early to survive I am very sorry for your loss. You and your baby spent a few moments time together, he will be remembered and he will always be loved. You are parents to this angel. Stay safe, seek help when you need it. First pregnancy is always an unknown. We all care for you - Klaudia
@karikinnear
@karikinnear 2 жыл бұрын
My husband and I’d hearts ache for you. We lost our baby at almost 16 weeks this last week. Take all the time you need for you and Andrew to heal. this is not your fault. I repeat to you, this is not your fault. My thoughts are with you and your husband.
@babajayne
@babajayne 2 жыл бұрын
Cindy, what a heartbreaking thing to endure. I can only imagine half of what you are feeling. Last August I had my second miscarriage. I found out at my 10 week ultrasound. It was also a boy. My doctor said something that I reminded myself of and it comforted me. He said, “if it’s not a healthy pregnancy, there’s nothing you can do to keep it - and if it’s a healthy pregnancy, there’s nothing you can do to end it.”Within 2 months I was pregnant again at age 39. I couldn’t allow myself to enjoy it until I could feel him move every day. I had a healthy baby boy on July 5th. I write this to give you hope. My heart goes out to you. You suffered so much in your first trimester and this grief must be almost unbearable. All I can do is send love and hope. 😓🧡🍠
@Anal_Flute
@Anal_Flute 2 жыл бұрын
So many women go through miscarriages and stillbirths, it's so depressing. I recommend looking at communities or forums with mothers who have gone through the same thing, as well as therapy. Art therapy has to be one of the
@nerdygem8620
@nerdygem8620 2 жыл бұрын
I can't possibly imagine how you're feeling Cindy, but PLEASE look into talking or group therapy for this terrible grief you are faced with. Everything you are feeling is valid, but this might be the worst pain a person can face, and you and Andrew don't have to face it alone. Having people guide and support you through this may help, and God knows you deserve to have this suffering eased xxx
@libera7161
@libera7161 Жыл бұрын
That's so unfair, there are abusive mothers out there like Diane Down who gets pregnant 5 times and doesn't even love her kids and people like you lose their baby. I agree, there is no God. 😢
@SingingAudball
@SingingAudball 2 жыл бұрын
“I don’t feel like I had a miscarriage, I feel like my child died.”
@jassylee8783
@jassylee8783 2 жыл бұрын
I’m so sorry mama, I lost my baby boy at 6 months, watching my son be taken away by the nurses was one of the hardest things I ever had to do. I know your pain, it’s not your fault mama. We don’t know why things like this happen, leaving the hospital without my son was the hardest thing ever. I was in a dark place for a long time after my baby boy passed. I am here for you mama I’m here if you need to vent or cry to someone. Just know your baby boy is watching over you mama. I wish I could say it gets easier, but honestly it doesn’t mama you just learn to live through the pain. I’m here for you sweet love.
@noieluvschocolate
@noieluvschocolate 2 жыл бұрын
Cindy I am so terribly sorry for your loss. As a doula I am “trained” to deal with infant loss but there really is no way to prepare or train for these situations. I am glad that you were able to spend some time with August after he passed away. Having those memories and keepsakes will mean a lot to you in the years to come. Remember that all of your feelings are valid. August is your child and you are grieving his death. Please try to not to worry about whether you should try again. If you do make that decision later on you have plenty of time. Don’t feel rushed. Women have babies in their 40’s, 50’s, and even 60’s. The age of 35 was created based on flawed data. Everyone’s fertility is different. I also want to thank you for sharing your story. Pregnancy and infant loss are common but aren’t seldom talked about. Please try to find support however you can whether that be family, a PAIL advocate, or a bereavement doula. Your heart has been shattered into a million pieces and although it will never fit back together in the exact same way you will heal with time. Be patient with yourself. My thoughts, love, and prayers are with you. ❤️
@dawnkeller7796
@dawnkeller7796 2 жыл бұрын
I don’t think I’ll be able to even watch the video without crying…I’m so so sorry Cindy. You’re a mother to a sweet angel, it’s not your fault and there’s nothing that could be done…I’m so sorry for your loss.
@ParticularFinger
@ParticularFinger 2 жыл бұрын
A quote I'll never forget is "If I had a choice I would turn into a newborn again and die in the arms of my mother because that is the most peaceful death anyone can ever have"
@SimmSumm
@SimmSumm Жыл бұрын
You're not old! My mother had me when she was 41 almost 42. I'm 30 now and she's my best friend. She was an active mother and a active grandma.
@siancyaniam7656
@siancyaniam7656 2 жыл бұрын
I absolutely gasped at the title. I watched that stream and everyone was so happy and excited.
@MyraElvira
@MyraElvira 2 жыл бұрын
Cindy, I know that may people have commented already, but I feel compelled to reply. I wish that I could be right there and hug you tight. This is devastating. You are absolutely right, your child did pass away. Just because his birth did not turn out as we all hoped, does not mean that he didn't count, or anything like that. You were a momma the first time you looked at that pregnancy test. You loved him from the start, and took great care of him, as he moved inside you. Becoming a mother doesn't start once you give birth, or if you only give birth to a living child. This is a tragedy, but I still consider you a mom. That might be a more brusque way to say it, but to me, that is the truth.
@schmohobzsia7216
@schmohobzsia7216 Жыл бұрын
Cindy, there's absolutely nothing you did wrong. Miscarriages happened in my family too, and they're terrible and completely unpredictable.
@arinaarinza
@arinaarinza 2 жыл бұрын
My heart dropped when I saw the title. I’m so so sorry Cindy. You don’t deserve this. It was definetly not your fault. Sometimes this just happens. Take all the time you need to grieve.
Stay on your way 🛤️✨
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