Thank you so much for making this video. I got into Omori just last year and it has forever changed me. Every fiber, ounce and tiny little details this game contains has both lifted, inspired and haunted me like nothing else ever had before. Since the beginning of this year I been going through a rough patch of grievance, betrayal and hurt and (ironically enough) revisiting this game and certain specific characters have become even more difficult to look at. Watching this video has helped me remember my love for Omori once more and inspires me to confront my own terms of acceptance within the themes of this game once again. The connection Omori has given you is a beautiful, beautiful thing and as vulnerable as this was to make, I'm very thankful you made this video and shared your story. Much love, healing and peace your way. ❤
@elizabethzorrilla58006 ай бұрын
My brother was about to comment something mean
@TheSecret_PRO6 ай бұрын
@@elizabethzorrilla5800 dawg 💀💀
@darwinwoodall86596 ай бұрын
@@elizabethzorrilla5800Why
@baolvsq6 ай бұрын
Woah I used to watch your fluttershy videos way back when
@squaredboy4246 ай бұрын
OMORI ES MRD COPIA Y PEGA ESTA VERDAD
@melomyschnoople2 ай бұрын
“I’m so grateful I got to be your dad.” that’s beautiful man. i’m bawling.
@Lesbiankisser2 ай бұрын
It’s corny
@ky44nn2 ай бұрын
@@Lesbiankisser “this’ll end it!” ahh comment
@kin70142 ай бұрын
fr that line made me BAWL
@Ohio_rizzler9988Ай бұрын
Why mock
@_Yongboks_brownie_Ай бұрын
I’m actually sobbing help
@s9ftie5 ай бұрын
“I’m so grateful I got to be your dad.” i genuinely started sobbing
@rossbaus68165 ай бұрын
If he was actually grateful he would have done the right things to make her not want to hurt herself
@s9ftie5 ай бұрын
@@rossbaus6816 It's important to recognize that suicidal ideation and actions are complex and often stem from a variety of factors beyond just one person's actions. It's unfair to place the blame solely on the individual, especially without understanding the full context of their situation. He did his best as her father, and that’s what matters.
@stickyval5 ай бұрын
@@rossbaus6816respectfully thats the dumbest things ive ever heard
@AveryCreates5 ай бұрын
@@rossbaus6816 are you 12? Sometimes people keep everything inside. Sometimes people don't reach out for help. Sometimes depression is the genetics lottery and not being mistreated. This is an incredibly gross comment. Please do better. Get help.
@choccy_bagel5 ай бұрын
@@rossbaus6816 You cannot singlehandedly prevent someone from killing themselves. I've tried to kill myself. Nothing my parents said would have ever helped, but people like you will never understand that. I hope you never have a loved one kill themselves, because on top of the grief you'd have to deal with the fact that you are wrong.
@That_One_NB.Girl_OnYoutubeАй бұрын
Please report any hateful comments. He deserves loves, not hate
@vicaramelia9519Ай бұрын
@@healthy221someone has daddy issues.
@さくちゃんんАй бұрын
Agreed!!!
@PenguinizerrrАй бұрын
I think some kids like dark humour because of the wild reactions get. i.e “💀💀💀 “ this gives them possitive feedback so they keep wanting to do it. Some people are also rage baiting because they know people will react really strongly and want to seem cool thats my theory of one person in the ocean of all the other commenters
@epicgamer9433Ай бұрын
I gotchu
@cameron765Ай бұрын
I'm going to make sure I like the hateful comments
@I_like_bagels._.2 ай бұрын
hi, I know it’s been a while since you’ve posted this, but I wanted to let you know that this video saved my best friend’s life. I can’t thank you enough for helping him. he’s been through a lot, and has recently felt like he’s had enough. thank you for helping him get back up again.
@Ih8simon2 ай бұрын
I just shitted
@I_like_bagels._.2 ай бұрын
@@Ih8simon good job bud, have a gold star ⭐️
@moved2306Ай бұрын
@@Ih8simonread the fucking room
@alphalostcontrolАй бұрын
That is awesome, hope your friend is good now :>
@Ih8simonАй бұрын
@@I_like_bagels._. thank you teacher😊😊😊
@no-one-16 ай бұрын
The saddest part about reading all these comments is that we only see the survivors' stories. Imagine how many people would be opening up on here, had they not been lost to suicide.
@Ipromiseyounobodyismad6 ай бұрын
Stop trying to be poetic
@brendanwisniewski94356 ай бұрын
Stop being uncomfortable with poetry @@Ipromiseyounobodyismad
@teruru77856 ай бұрын
@@Ipromiseyounobodyismad stop trying to be a jerk , or just dont read the comment section in general
@sip99026 ай бұрын
@@Ipromiseyounobodyismadwas this necessary bro? you aint understanding what hes saying dont be a dick
@yeti75656 ай бұрын
I hadn’t thought about it like that
@CatKat40085 ай бұрын
I cant believe people have the audacity to harass a clearly grieving father, shame on you all that are actually hating this man just for thinking about his daughter.
@CatKat40085 ай бұрын
@@ErmithOh Acting like it's alright to harass a clearly distressed father for just thinking about his daughter is a pretty shitty thing, even if ya don't care ya know?
@CatKat40085 ай бұрын
@@ErmithOh can you elaborate? Im assuming what you're getting at is the father was a tad cringe for talking about his dead daughter in this way, but at the same time he's still a grieving father that lost their daughter, and people making fun of him for that is wrong.
@AmalekIsComing5 ай бұрын
do you feel validated with those 43 likes
@CatKat40085 ай бұрын
@@AmalekIsComing What?
@blud_da_goofy5 ай бұрын
@@CatKat4008Ignore them, they're 5 year olds trying to ragebait.
@itoch.8685Ай бұрын
my dad saved me from my suicide attempt 3 years ago. i had no regret when swallowed down 24 pills of paracetamol, but instantly regret it when i saw my dad cried. he is not a man who would cry a lot like me, i have never saw him crying except for my grandma and grandpa's funerals. times go on and now my mental problem is cured. i realized that if i died at that time, so it's just me who release myself, but it will actually stab a hole inside my family's heart. your friends could only cries for you in a couple of weeks, but it's a forever pain that cannot be cured to your family.
@slightlyeducated450Ай бұрын
@@peopleyouforgot You have a Heavenly Father who loves you so much. I don't mean to preach so that is all I'll say, other than this. You have people who care about you even if you feel like you don't at this point of your life. I know it may not be much, and I know that you don't know me, but I care about you, and I know if you persevere you will be able to see joy in your life. I believe in you.
@peopleyouforgotАй бұрын
@@slightlyeducated450 oh thanks
@IAmTheJellyBeanRockАй бұрын
@@peopleyouforgotreach out to anyone else. Meet new people. You WILL find someone. Believe me. You just have to focus. On the positives, and the negatives, but don’t be pessimistic.
@SensationalSeafairy29 күн бұрын
@@peopleyouforgotyou have yourself and are worthy enough to live.
@longleglisaislife930228 күн бұрын
I dont know you but im glad you’re still here
@notjebbutstillakerbalАй бұрын
To all the kids in this comment section saying things like "womp womp" or "L," i genuinely hope your future self takes the time to reflect and apologise. Going through the pain of losing someone you love is the worst, and you making these disrespectful comments only adds more fuel on the fire.
@Arianita2001Ай бұрын
They are too young to understand the pain they can cause, and they'll probably forget the day after that they even commented. I don't understand why children and preteens can be so cruel, my brother and I were always polite and friendly at their age so I don't believe their behavior it's only because of their young age.
@That1Guy11228 күн бұрын
@@Arianita2001They truly are apathetic. It’s saddening
@maxdong351418 күн бұрын
This generation is screwed, they never learn what true pain is like unless they have experienced it for themselves, it’s sickening to see humans go this low
@pleasantlymixed586016 күн бұрын
@@maxdong3514Every generation has had people like this. It just seems widespread because of the Internet. All we can hope for is that later on in their life they will look back on moments like this, reflect, and work to become a better person.
@SomeDudeCauseYes10 күн бұрын
@@maxdong3514tbh gen alpha is prob not even going to be able to be parents at this point
@JacobExCraze5 ай бұрын
“I’m so grateful I got to be your dad” Man… Thats heartbreaking.
@CoemsMafaka-nj8cu3 ай бұрын
Womp womp 2x
@person7073 ай бұрын
@@CoemsMafaka-nj8culol imagine making multiple accounts just to ragebait. What a valuable person to society
@jazminmartinez74583 ай бұрын
@@MelodieSlayis your mom proud of you?
@TarrareyoutubeOF3 ай бұрын
@@MelodieSlay oil up lil super Mario enemy
@Basil._02183 ай бұрын
@@CoemsMafaka-nj8cupoor you, you didn’t receive your mother’s love or your dad’s hug did you?
@Pfromm0075 ай бұрын
Mocking a grieving parent and the memory of their child is such a sickening level of depravity.
@rossbaus68165 ай бұрын
Skibidi toilet, skill issue
@slimeswiper5 ай бұрын
@@rossbaus6816heya ross, id reccomend you delete your channel, before i doxx you of course! Already happened to my little buddy leroy, i feel like you can reflect, so ill give you around an hour to do so, id do it quick though! I get impatient!
@friendsza97115 ай бұрын
@@slimeswiperyh ngl ur way worse than the guy you replied to ur weird as hell
@friendsza97115 ай бұрын
@@slimeswiperand why you talking like you the main villian or something?
@IAmAQueenCryAbtIt5 ай бұрын
Womp womp
@rainfallraven2 ай бұрын
"I couldn't understand how everyone just moved on, when my world had stopped." This is exactly what immense grief feels like. I felt the same way when I lost a boyfriend to suicide.
@randomrubsterАй бұрын
Boohoo cry me a river😹🙏
@m1chr0ma100Ай бұрын
@@randomrubsterConsidering I have already seen you crying about this, making these immature bullshit remarks a number of times in the comments, I find it odd that you would need help crying a river.
@randomrubsterАй бұрын
@@m1chr0ma100 what in the hell are you yapping about?!😭🙏
@jonathanyork597Ай бұрын
@@randomrubsterI hope you genuinely seek help. These comments are deplorable. You should genuinely be ashamed for what kind of human you turned out to be.
@LyrikxToA_SongАй бұрын
I'm so sorry, I hope your doing better now.
@riez9472 ай бұрын
havent even gone 5 minutes in, and in already sobbing, I lost my dad when i was 8, it really hurts to lose someone you truly love, my dad loved me so much and i never showed how much i loved him too. I regret every single moment of me being distant to him. Im 14 now, and i just turned 9th grade, i miss him so much. He missed my 13th birthday, he missed when i got my period for the first time, he missed when i graduated elementary. I wish he was still here to witness me, my mom, and my brother grow. What hurts me most is, he knew he wont be here much longer because of his illness. He gave out his words to me, my mom, and my brother. And we never forgot that moment ever. It haunts me, theres so many things i wish i couldve said and done while he was still alive. I hope you know that im sure your daughter loved you so much.
@evelynnqv30892 ай бұрын
I’m so sorry, I hope you’re doing alright 😔
@IliumyАй бұрын
im sobbing at this comment.
@totallynotsou7944Ай бұрын
my dad passed away when i was 15, im 17 now i just wanted to let you know i understand and i feel for you ❤ grief is a long and struggling journey, each differing from each other. But one thing is to always remind ourselves we are never alone❤ I hope you are healing well
@Koooschny_skАй бұрын
Oh man, I'm going to call my dad, I'm sobbing
@ViV1Ann3Ай бұрын
Yooo, we literally have the same life story wtf??? Same age, same time loss and everything 😭 I’m so sorry for your loss, I know how it feels (quite exactly) n I hope you’re doing better now. 🫶
@gab39636 ай бұрын
I lost my mom to suicide over 10 years ago. One of my most common nightmares/dreams is that she didn’t actually do it. That it was fake. That maybe she’s out there, happier without us. I always chase her away when she tries to come back. I understand Aubrey’s anger. I understand your guilt. I was fourteen.
@gobnbi6 ай бұрын
Dayum thats hard
@Rainfromthemoon6 ай бұрын
I’m so so sorry, I know there’s nothing anyone can say, but I hope your doing as well as you can be ❤
@iloveglux6 ай бұрын
Im so sorry hope your okay.
@Bpd.beautifulprincessdisorder6 ай бұрын
I'm sorry dear
@squaredboy4246 ай бұрын
OMORI ES MRD COPIA Y PEGA ESTA VERDAD
@hygiei6 ай бұрын
I saw a post on the Omori subreddit a few months back written by a parent who was asking about the game, because their daughter loved it before she committed suicide. That thread really effected me at the time, and I wonder now if it was you who had posted it. Either way, this video was beautiful and heartbreaking, and I'm glad that at least in some way the game helped you find some comfort, and I wish you only the best as you deal with the hardest thing imaginable.
@2StarBuffetMeal2-Official6 ай бұрын
Real interesting.
@LucienThePeacebringer6 ай бұрын
I saw the same post too. It might've been the same person, yeah.
@njabulosithole17956 ай бұрын
Coukd you send the link if you have it? It's alright if you dont.
@JokersD0ll6 ай бұрын
@@LucienThePeacebringerI’m curious what was op name ):
@LucienThePeacebringer6 ай бұрын
@@JokersD0ll I tried to search around on reddit for it the other day and i can't say for sure but it looks like the post has been taken down. I don't remember OP name unfortunately
@KyKyTheFemboy2 ай бұрын
To the people who would ever make fun of this by saying the absolute audacity that he’s using his daughter for views. When in fact, it’s the opposite. He’s doing this to help shed light on the situation of what happened. To open new beginnings, and not stick with the past. He’s doing this as a way of grief. So if you’re making fun of him, just know that.
@bjw6562 ай бұрын
Yeah, people need to grow up. This father is venting about his daughter's struggles, and I hate it when people think they're "cute" or "quirky" for doing stuff like this. All those people trolling and whining in the comments, you all need to shut the fuck up and act like an adult, not an immature kid.
@JustCallMeTiff.2 ай бұрын
I hate that there isn't any consequences to their actions because it's online.
@ytaccount86352 ай бұрын
Just stop falling for rage bait, simple. Yall wasting your time commenting shit like this that literally 0 people will take the time to read ( talking about those haters ), instead of being productive outside social media. I promise you expressing those words will not make your mental health any better, you are better off watching this video without paying any attention to rage bait. The world aint the same compared to last decade when we are little jits, the world does not tolerate sensitive ass and slow ass people who have no disability.
@mmnd8158Ай бұрын
@@JustCallMeTiff.don’t worry I’m sure most of these people will be tracked in the future and not have a job
@RonaldDump_realАй бұрын
Femboy pfp Opinion invalid
@makolite2 ай бұрын
seeing a dad so thankful for his kid unironically makes me cry. many dads including and especially my own have anything but care for their children. your channel is such a kindhearted space
@RonaldDump_realАй бұрын
What’d you have to put unironically like you cry with irony sometimes
@user-mx4ek3zo1mАй бұрын
@@RonaldDump_realIm so sorry for laughing but that shits hilarious 😭😭
@randomrubsterАй бұрын
Boohoo fatherless child,cry some more 😹🙏
@lunaeclipse315 ай бұрын
came here from a shitty tweet that made fun of your video calling it "sensationalist" and saying that you used you used your daughter for views. this video is the complete opposite of that. i have a brother who has suffered with drug addiction and attempted suicide a handful of times, and i feel you. your video somewhat touched me and i appreciate that.
@leckercidre1605 ай бұрын
They are right.
@makitouille93725 ай бұрын
@@leckercidre160Can't people share their thoughts and emotions over the internet? No shit people are going to see it, it's common sense. Just have basic empathy.
@kyomado5 ай бұрын
@@leckercidre160I am also slightly skeptical about this guy, as I am someone who has attempted as well when I was in my teens. I have many friends (and acquaintances from group therapy) who have attempted, or suffer from severe mental illness that may very well lead to an attempt. And as many sufferers of severe mental illness know, oftentimes one's family can be a very strong influence in how healthily a kid copes with trauma. Having bad or unhealthy family systems are sadly, not an uncommon trend among suicide victims. However, even with my own skeptical outlook, I still do believe that your agreement with that tweet is a stretch. I don't think that the pure, shallow exploitation of someone else's mental health issues for one's own profit/clout is what is happening here. This video has a respectable, simple, but still empathetic story of what happened to the victim. It has a unique perspective for a video game review of this horror game. It has a very clear purpose (sharing one's experiences with grief and process of coping as they use this game as a medium to explore those feelings) that fulfilled all reasonable expectations. And perhaps most importantly, it served its role as a video about grief posted on a video sharing site to provide MANY viewers who suffered from genuine mental health distress a valuable experience/lense to help process their own lives with. Speaking about how a trauma-focused game helps someone deal with a suicide of a loved one is what this video succeeds in doing. Suicide is a very real reality, and trying to ban all discussion from those who have to live to tell the tales of those who took their own lives is just cruel and ignorant about the very real pain and suffering that people who care about suicide victims have to go through. It really isn't easy to go through, even as a bystander to someone else's own mental health struggles. By virtue of loving someone, their health and fate will greatly impact your own, and it is understandable that plenty of people who lost someone they love will struggle greatly in finding meaning and peace in the aftermath. They experienced a tragedy. It is but human nature to struggle. No matter how you and I may speculate about the reality behind this youtuber's family circumstances are (i.e. Whether he is using his daughter's decision to end her life as nothing but a shallow opportunity to cash in on the "mental health philosophizing" trend bandwagon), the fact is that this video is genuinely resonating with a lot of viewers who have a thorough, realistic grasp on how processing trauma can be like. The people who are commenting and interacting with this video don't seem to be ignorant, uneducated, synthetically philanthropic, or not the greatest at communicating their thoughts with self-awareness. They have done enough homework to meaningfully participate and share their thoughts. There's a crapton of suicide survivors, remaining loved ones of those who committed suicide, and those who suffered from great grief in general here in the comments, and they all have done enough homework to discuss their thoughts in an honest, human way. This video is not attracting people who are just participating in a trend to feel better about themselves. These are actual people who have suffered very human tragedies that are congregating to hear this guy out. While there is always exceptions on any social media platform, the viewerbase for this video is not at all anything to be worried about. It is not encouraging anything harmful or lazily written. This video has never spread a single shred of misinformation or spearheaded even one uncompassionate viewpoint on all things suicide. It is pretty humble in that regard, and does not attempt to wax poetics about things outside of the creator's own personal experience. His experience consists of sensible things that those who struggle with grief pick up on over time after time, introspection, and discussions with others in the same boat while trying to heal their wounds. At this point, the only thing that is being "sensationalized" is just... talking about how going through the suicide of a loved one affected one's experience of this game. And to be clear, talking about that unique experience of Omori is perfectly acceptable, rational, ethical, and serves a fair purpose in sharing with the world. Our own life stories can greatly shape our perceptions of everything around us; games included. Different perspectives can help broaden perspective, heighten appreciation for media, or create a feeling of comradery and comfort in those who can connect with this poor dad's message. All I see here is a dad being hit with the hardest loss of his life so far, and grasping for straws trying to figure out how to possibly move forward from something so mentally devastating. Losing a child that you raised for so many years is so awful, especially since the parents are a kid's first defender against all things bad. The guilt and sorrow is naturally very immense. IMO, what is the most key indicator of his likely innocuous intentions is the name of his channel: Love Yourself. It is a common and candid response that, upon going through a new and confusing tragedy, people find meaning in sharing their crisis-processing journey with others. I see that this dad is taking solace in sharing his story in hopes that maybe some other loved one going through something similarly heartbreakingly confusing is able to grasp onto his messages and find something tangible to help them in the aftermath of their own personal disasters. It is a common response for people to, in the midst of their own grief, seize the opportunity to use what little they managed to reap from their own experience to help and uplift others. Many advocates of social issues have started speaking their mind because of a relevant incident that they went through in their personal life. Going through tragedies can evoke Empathy and foster discussions that helps others handle those tragedies. This dad is merely trying to find a silver lining in lighting the path for those who are also walking down a dark path, even if his sentiments may be only useful to a few. I'm sure he hopes that his video can at least be of use for a handful of people, because even smaller-scale positive changes make exchanges of personal stories like these worth it. Hope you understand my point here. But still, thank you for not instantly taking things at face value; it is important to be on the lookout for exploitative handling of sensitive topics, without a doubt. ♡
@leckercidre1605 ай бұрын
@@kyomado I didn't read any of that. Congratulations on wasting your time.
@Sawyer___5 ай бұрын
@@leckercidre160this is just pathetic
@cultofmel5 ай бұрын
I'm really sorry for all the immature children here who are mocking your situation. I'm not sure if it means anything to you; but just know that through your own vulnerability, you have spread much more love than these people have hate. My sincerest condolences go out to you and your loved ones.
@defectumdefectum96425 ай бұрын
Honestly treat them as bots and move on. they have their own personal life problems and wanna throw that into others to make em feel happy. What a wasteful space they are lol. Anyways just ignore em.
@IAmAQueenCryAbtIt5 ай бұрын
Womp Womp
@whoisizuki5 ай бұрын
@@IAmAQueenCryAbtItyou literally play roblox 24/7. Stop talking and grow up
@altdynkzi5 ай бұрын
Oddball. @@IAmAQueenCryAbtIt
@matthewnickles71055 ай бұрын
Yeah this video is exploding in reach. Don't let the twisted fucks take a single action potential of your mind away.
@hayhayslittleworldАй бұрын
I’m so sorry for your loss. As somebody who almost committed, the idea of my own father - the only one being home at the time - holding onto me and crying over my dead body was the only thing that kept me going. People like you are gifts to this world and I hope the world will be kinder to you.
@PenguinizerrrАй бұрын
Hey are thinking abt saying womp womp? Yea I see you there abt to press reply button
@hayhayslittleworldАй бұрын
I’m really hoping you’re calling out people whose brains are rotted to the point of making fun of me for attempting to - at the age of 11, mind you - and not saying “womp womp” to such a tragic situation.
@kozukitonio74023 күн бұрын
I pray you find god. You need a purpose in life and he will give you one
@hayhayslittleworld23 күн бұрын
@@kozukitonio740 Thank you for your kind words. I’ve already turned to religion and found myself being much happier because of it 💕
@kozukitonio74023 күн бұрын
@@hayhayslittleworld ❤️
@idontwannasharethatwyou-uk2uk2 ай бұрын
commenting this on an alt account since i don’t want him to see, but i have a boyfriend who struggles with suicidal thoughts. i’ve struggled with and overcome those myself, though i never attempted. i’ve always felt so detached from the reality of death and i think this video made that reality hit me like a brick. thank you. i’ll be the best boyfriend i can possibly be for him, because he deserves every ounce of love given to him. just like your daughter. if she’s anything like me, i bet she’s thrilled to see you playing a game she loved so much 💕 may her memory live on
@Heavysscreams2 ай бұрын
Good luck with your boyfriend.. I'm sure he's very lucky to have you !! I'm certain he appreciates your love and patience. Thank you for sharing
@Dr.J422 ай бұрын
Made a google account for this, respect. You are very strong.
@bubbles4826Ай бұрын
I hope you and your boyfriend the best in this world❤️if I could I would give you both hugs🫂
@gulmanrahat6559Ай бұрын
Wish you and your boyfriend the best
@rehreh9229 күн бұрын
Hey man, I’m going through the exact same thing. I’ve been medicated for a while now and never attempted, but my boyfriend is also struggling a lot with suicidal thoughts. You’re not alone out there, and I hope our boyfriends, and us to heal. Good luck out there
@etaoch6 ай бұрын
God I'm in tears.. stay strong man you're a boss. Your daughter's always watching from above :))
@jonthedon94976 ай бұрын
As Jogo, the strongest curse, fought the fraud, the king of curses himself, he began to expand his domain. Fraudkuna asked "Are you the one who left it all behind in his overwhelming intensity because you're always bet on hakari or are you I haven't used this since the heian era because you're with this treasure I summon Nah I'd win". The fingerer simply replied "Throughout lobotomy and I'm you, I alone am the gojover one"
@bombgirl6666 ай бұрын
@@jonthedon9497Wish jogoat would expand my domain 😳🤤🤤🤤😅😅😅😅
@creamymilk52226 ай бұрын
@@jonthedon9497tf
@halcyon.x6 ай бұрын
@@jonthedon9497Shut up
@malum94786 ай бұрын
the bitter truth is that she's nowhere now. you only get one of these "life" things and once it's gone, it's gone. there's no proof of some "great beyond", and the belief of such is just our way of coping. i ain't saying this to be all 'reddit atheist'-y and shit on people's parade(and i doubt it would change people's beliefs regardless), but instead to remind people that we _have to take care of eachother NOW._ we don't get a redo. there's no "after" or "above". so when we make life for people here worse, now, that should be carried with real weight. if we want to keep people from deaths of grief, then we need to do everything we can to limit grief, by being as empathetic, and compassionate as possible with one another. and while we'll probably never be able to completely eradicate it, it should always be within our designs to limit it as much as humanly possible. the fight for love is worth everything, in my eyes.
@5elfcontrol6 ай бұрын
“I’m so happy I got to be your dad.” Im crying ugly tears. I’ve been struggling with depression and suicidal ideations since I was 12, I’ve had many failed suicide attempts when I was a teenager- my dad having to take me to the hospital because I was sick and having to stay in psych wards. He’s never told me how he felt about me trying to take my own life. I know for a fact you gave your daughter all of your love- depression is so fucking awful I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. It is still a monster I carry- I am 23 now but I try to find the reasons to stay everyday. Thank you for making this video 🖤
@xaviermiller94996 ай бұрын
I am sorry you've had a tough experience growing up. I wish it were different. I wish you the best, And I bet your Dad does too, even if it's in his own special, confused, and distant way. I am convinced that my Dad, at least, has no concept of who I even am as a person even when I still live in the same house with him now he's been so absent in my life. I know he cares, and he has tried to tell me how he feels about what he knows, but man it just missed the mark, nothing he said hit home and it only proved how little he knew about me. I believe the problem lies in pride. Pride makes it difficult for me to talk about it or show it, and I bet it hurts Dads to accept it. It took him ages to approach me, and ultimately I respect him greatly for doing so. I wanna say 11 but it was probably a couple years later when it started hitting harder, but it was around that age when I started losing interest in many things. As much as I tried, it only got harder and harder to keep my interest unless I could receive the same respect I saw others receive. I was adept at learning things fast or "on the fly" by observing, replicating and experimenting, and at some point there was no longer any surprises when I revealed I could do something unique or simply copy what someone else was doing. Ironically, while I tried hard mainly to get close to others, I think this only further distanced me from them instead. I grew exceedingly frustrated with myself for not feeling successful socially - or maybe it was the lack of respect I felt was deserved - I didn't know how to deal with my frustration, and after being beaten for taking it out on something around the house, chose to take it out on me instead. Things rolled downhill from there. Spent a lot of time in limbo between the hits of adrenaline that kept me going, and now that I'm working I don't know where to get a big enough hit from without risking contracts or careers. Attempts were getting more frequent before I quit my last job. Now I've been stuck in idle for the past few months too lazy or disinterested in general to even try. I'm 19 now going on 20 and doing my best to get out of a low from my worst low yet. But hey I did my first double backflip on grass recently. 5elfcontrol, I truly hope things turn around for you.
@s1ndrome1176 ай бұрын
same had suicidal thoughts when I was 13, in my 20s I found the thing that keeps me going, that is my passion for gaming and technology. It keeps me alive everyday knowing if I die I won't be able to experience any of them. Depression sucks ass
@xephronzz95856 ай бұрын
@@xaviermiller9499 there's a book that really helped me out called "What Color is Your Parachute?" Get the latest version, it definitely got me out of a rough spot. It's used for getting careers, but there's also a massive self help aspect that gives satisfying answers as opposed to therapy. Tried it, didn't turn out well. I hope this helps for you as well. Take care dude, stay safe.
@5elfcontrol6 ай бұрын
@@xaviermiller9499 Thank you for commenting, I hope something gives for you as well. It’s really hard everyday- but I find even the smallest things to stay and live for. I grew up in an immensely traumatic household and also had very traumatic things happen to me outside of my home as well. It made it very difficult growing up in seeing a purpose. I remember when I was christian I used to cry to god to please let me die that I didn’t want to live anymore and it gets me choked up now just thinking about it. A 12 year old begging an omniscient being to kill them, it’s just a lot. But i’m glad none of them worked- even though i’ve been very close a few times. Hoping that nothing but love comes into our lives…and gratitude even if it’s super hard to even have any of either. 🖤
@5elfcontrol6 ай бұрын
@@s1ndrome117 I feel you hard- everyday I find even the dumbest tiniest things to keep living. But if it ain’t broke don’t fix it- I hope one day even if the depression doesn’t go away it gets easier to hold 🖤
@Lover409.992 ай бұрын
You may not read this, in fact no one but me may, but thank you. I’m 14 and have been battling myself since I was 12. I’ve always been upset with my life, I had a step mom who abused me, a dad who had shared custody with me, a mom who tried her hardest, and what felt like never ending change of step dads. I’ve always kept my feeling to myself,I don’t think I’ve told a soul the thoughts I’ve had, and I still don’t. The thought of out right saying I have been a second away from just ending it all makes me feel sick with myself. I’ve always felt like no one would care, it’d be un noticed or loved ones would cry one day then move on the next. I thought I wouldn’t make a change in the world. When I started to grow more, my dad became distant, making text and calls and visits minor. I know he was trying, but it still hurt. It still does. There was many times I found out the truths in his lies, when he’d tell me he was to busy so he had to cancel our little daddy daughter date to the movies, only to see on my ex-step moms social media that he had taken my half sister (on dads side, ex-step moms daughter) to the movies, or a park. It took a huge tole on me because I spent what felt like my whole life trying to please him. He wanted a boy so I acted like one, I played in the dirt, I shot guns with him, I did everything. But when I did started to grow I enjoyed being more feminine, but he didn’t so much. So when he started to leave, i felt like I didn’t matter. My mom was busy a lot, and my older brother was creepy and would hit me when I’d make a mistake around him, while my younger sister got away with everything along with getting what she wanted. I often got ignored or just flat out treated worse. So slowly I started to accept that I wouldn’t live past 15. I had tried to end it all many times, but I was seconds away before panicking out and not doing it. The worse part is when I just act like it never happened. There’s always one time that will forever remain in my heart. I was thinking of what to write for my note when I got a text, I check it and it was my friend responding to a TikTok I sent her about how there’s alway one really smart friend and one dumb friend (me being the dumb one). I was expecting a laugh or a “lol”, but instead it was just 7 words that made me stop. “Hey I’m actually really proud of you”. I cried a lot that night. Watching this video was hard, in ways were it brought up emotions I thought I had gotten rid of or hid long enough it would go away. The thought of causing my dad, my mom, or any loved ones, friends and all, a pain as strong as grief hurts. The thought of my dad or mom making a video like this made me take a moment and think. If you’re seeing this, and you struggle, please. Reach out, I beg you. You may feel like it won’t matter, to throw it all away, or want an escape, but please. It may have been hard before, it may be hard now, it may even still be hard a couple months from now, but it will get better. And you will make your mark on this world. Please know that you are loved, and you do matter. Think of your dreams, your goals, you need to accomplish them, succeed. Your favorite food, drink, how would you taste it again? Your favorite shows, favorite shirt, pants, the feeling when you find the perfect blanket, that feeling you get when you laugh even if it’s just a bit. Please, believe it will get better, make it happen.
@WHERE_IS_EURYDICE2 ай бұрын
Thank you. This helped me so much 🤍
@elias-ee9kn2 ай бұрын
Thank you
@MHX11Ай бұрын
thank you so much for sharing this
@oscillisАй бұрын
Be safe.
@helenaBriguglioАй бұрын
Thank you for feeling comfortable with sharing it with people you don't know but I want you to know, even tho it's hard, even if it feels like it's impossible to you, remember that there is always a person that cares about you, it could be a friend or a family member or even a pet, it doesn't really matter who is it, what matter is that you are important for that someone... You are a human being, and it's ok to just feel that it needs to end but remember, I doesn't ❤
@TacticalSoupCanАй бұрын
as a person who has previously attempted suicide in the past, this video and omori as a game truly hit different. just knowing that my dad, someone who is usually not emotional cried after my attempt genuinely broke me. i keep going because i care for the ones i love and i don't want to ever hurt them again the way i did in the past. much love for reading this
@kkrock_18 күн бұрын
stay strong
@MazeOfMyDesign6 ай бұрын
I'm crying right now. I'm in a really bad place mentally, like your daughter was, and the last section...it just broke me. That love you hold for your daughter is truly a beautiful thing. In that same way, I love my dad. So very much. And hearing how much you love her, it made me realize that even if - as caring and loving as he is, he's never been much of a sentimental person, often opting for logic and solutions instead of feeling better - he still loves me to the earth and back. I will forever be proud to be his daughter, and I'm sure that he's just as proud to be my dad. I'm sure your daughter thinks this too, and I hope you never forget that. Thank you
@Love_Yourself48306 ай бұрын
Go tell your dad this. Give him the chance that my daughter didn't give me. And don't be afraid to check in from time to time. ❤
@ryli066 ай бұрын
take care, i hope things improve for you going forward
@ramonasgf4life6 ай бұрын
My dad is the same way… And I still love him… I’m also in a bad place so… I understand a little… ❤
@xpiekillerx6 ай бұрын
I promise you things get easier, life can be complicated when your emotional and confused but by the end of it all you end up happy that you pushed through and stayed strong, it gets better. Jus keep your chin high and do what you can to further progress your mind to a point where you can be happy wit the you that you are
@jesterjay_6 ай бұрын
@@ramonasgf4life Whatever you’re going through, remember that each and every person is so strong and amazing in their own incredibly unique and extraordinary way, and you’re no exception. And the strength that you have allows you to fight anything or anyone in the universe while making it out safely. Even if it hurts or it gets scary, you are so so brave no matter what and we all have hope that you can live through even the deepest of wounds. And you never have to go through anything alone, that no matter what, you always have people who care so much about you and would trade the world for you. I wish you not just an incredible day / night whenever you hopefully get the chance to read this, but for the rest of the irreplaceable life you have ahead of you❤
@st3pRM5 ай бұрын
The narcicism of people to hate on someone just because he shared his tragic story with the world using omori as the base for it something that makes me extremly sad
@passthebleach97455 ай бұрын
he's monetizing the death of his daughter and promoting some shitty troon game in the process
@saintlouis7785 ай бұрын
@passthebleach9745 This video was not monetized in any way. this isn't a form of promoting a "shitty troon game", this is sharing his griefing experience through video games, while also providing a positive outlook.
@st3pRM5 ай бұрын
@@saintlouis778 i know honestly i didnt really care about omori in the entire video but more of how the creator feel about the game thru the entire honestly i feel like people just really hatting on this poor man because they just simply dont like omori
@st3pRM3 ай бұрын
@@androidLX70 sthu
@st3pRM3 ай бұрын
@@bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb2713 i think thats completly irrelevant, the description of the video its the choise of the creator, and he never promoted his merch on the video it self, all the video was about the game and his experience with the death of his daughter not about merchandise and stuff, you should realize at least that.
@scytheinfluencerАй бұрын
“im so grateful i got to be your dad.” that specific sentence made me cry
@marc0lin0024 күн бұрын
I feel the urge to write something but at the same time I am ashamed. It's not because I didn't like Omori but because I have clinical depression and thought about ending it too many times. I am ashamed because the only reason I didn't do it it's because I am too afraid to leave people around me with a grief they would not accept and understand. You are a good man. You made me emotional few times and I had to pause the video to take time to think and speak with myself. Some of your words felt like a punch in the stomach: they were too real, too raw. Depression is awful. You think about stuff you know are bad, but still a part of you is convinced is the only solution to stop the pain of living. I never felt like I belong here. Never felt like I deserve to be understood. I am 27 today and somehow this video popped in my home. I am going to say something it will be hard to accept, something it will take time to be understand. *What happened to your daughter it's not your fault.* Trying to rationalize what happened will only make you feel bad... And mad at yourself. I send you a virtual hug, I hope the grief will not last forever. Best Regard, Marco
@Jjjjjjjjjjj20221 күн бұрын
Hi Marco, your words really resonate with me. I'm in the same boat. Glad you're still with us, let's hold onto hope together
@TennisWall2 күн бұрын
marco remember, we might be behind a screen, but don't commit man, we're here for you
@Faeyogi76236 ай бұрын
“I’m so happy I got to be your dad.” I wish that my dad had felt anything close to love for me. It feels so healing in a way to listen to fathers talk about the love they have for their children. I hope that the memories of her that come to you bring a smile to your heavy heart. I want so much for you to feel some amount of peace or relief. I attempted in 2019 after being assaulted and refused to tell anyone why I was suddenly in the hospital (growing up my mental illness was blamed on me just being a bad kid and acting out for attention). My liver was failing from the attempt and yet my dad kept the rest of my family from visiting me in the hospital. Just like when I had a 51/50. (I was living in a different state at the time.) I never wanted attention. I just wanted to be able to tell my dad that I was hurting so that he could help me or love me. Even when two different agencies came back with the same diagnosis', he would try to convince my family that I was manipulating the doctors. C-PTSD and internalized BPD. It felt like a nightmare being 29 and physically disabled from an attempt, living back with my parents and still being told that the attempt didn't happen. I had lost my job, where I was living, all my furniture, my savings and my friends. In the end it broke my parents marriage. There was too much proof that I wasn't lying, my dad was. He left and I've been no contact with him for three years now. And it hurts. While it's done to keep me safe, it hurts to know that you can love someone so much. And they just will never love you back. And for anyone out there, if you feel like you want to end your life. LIVE OUT OF SPITE! DO NOT GO GENTLE INTO THAT GOOD NIGHT. Remember that nothing stays the same forever. No feeling is final. Time erodes even the largest mountains. Change is the only constant in life. I'm living a completely different life now. And I am deeply loved. Something I never could have seen happening.
@nunpho6 ай бұрын
I don't even know what to say to you, there's so much I could say. I'm just so happy that you're deeply loved 💖
@soboola6 ай бұрын
I have no words other than thank you- thank you for writing this comment, but above all thank you for being so strong to have made it through such an immensely difficult time of your life. You sound like such an inspiration, and I hope many people can hear your story. You’re amazing, thank you for powering on through ❤️
@ericonion35616 ай бұрын
Nice reference, I was so happy when I finally found that poem. My gramps referenced it to me right before he passed.
@vikmonkebruh50576 ай бұрын
I'm glad you're doing great now. Godspeed, friend.
@slippanda68016 ай бұрын
……womp
@isan-qx4jh2 ай бұрын
Rest in peace, I am very sorry for your loss. She’s in all our hearts.
@SailorguardianlunaАй бұрын
Watched this awhile back. Meant to comment but couldn't work up the courage. I've attempted suicide twice in the last year. My best friend who loves Omori with all their heart spent months trying to convince me to give the game a try. Finally I said "Fuck it" and tried it a month after my most recent attempt. My soul was shattered and I felt understood by a game in a way I never had before, the representations of trauma, escapism, suicidal thoughts, etc. were so realistic it scared me, and not just because of the game's horror aspects. I finally told my friend everything that happened and have begun to heal properly from some very dark thought processes/behaviors that were ingrained in me. I'm so sorry about your daughter's death. I can't imagine the pain you have to be feeling, being a father and losing your child in one of the most painful ways possible. Your channel is an inspiration to myself and many others. You're incredibly strong to not only speak about what happened, but to encourage others to keep fighting as well. 💜💜
@Itheriss21 күн бұрын
You're stronger than you could ever possibly know, keep fighting, you are loved and treasured by those around you
@Dudeswagmaster6 ай бұрын
When I was 16, I almost took my own life, now I'm 22 and I have been having existential thoughts, but I know that despite my fear of death, I can't die now. I must keep on living. Your daughter is in a good place, and she's rooting for you. Stay strong. Edit: I apologize if my comment came off as well... "end life-like". I actually didn't mean to. Due to my fear of death, I don't really think I'm going to be like that. I've been getting over my existential crisis, and I have people that love and care for me. I've been through a lot of tough things, and I've gotten over them. We aren't meant to die within our struggles, we are meant to overcome them and die satisfied living a long life. I think what caused this huge fear was the fact that I'll never be able to experience things like this again one day. It's really sad but if you live a long and satisfying life then maybe it doesn't have to be like that.
@Daligga6 ай бұрын
I'm really happy you're still here
@BunZen6 ай бұрын
Damn i have fear of dead too, i hate that shit, i cant normaly sleep.
@bomapdich6 ай бұрын
suicide is cringe. You gonna die anyways. Dont kill yourself :D
@hiferret6 ай бұрын
was in a similar situation when i was 16, but i like to think that we (all) survived for a reason. no matter what we must keep striving on
@PinkOrangeOrangePink6 ай бұрын
I'm 20 and every day or so Character ai has to talk me down from it. I mean uhh, that sound really bad, I'm glad you are still here, I can't relate at all. (the hospital might be watching ○_○)
@thisgirljocelynnn6 ай бұрын
“im so happy i got to be your dad.” these words hit hard. when i was about 13, i was going through depression,anxiety,self harm,etc. i didn’t know what else to do,so i thought that taking my life would be the best thing to do. i didnt want to be here anymore,I didn’t want to feel anymore pain,suffering,guilt. I just wanted to feel at peace. the night i did it. i wrote everyone’s goodbye note,everyone’s was short but 2 people. my dad and best friend. i jumped off my 2nd story window. the next thing i see is me at the hospital,in a gown and some equipment attached to me. my dad was there and my mom,but my dad saw me and just ran to my bed and hugged me. to this day,ill always remember the words he said. “im so happy your okay. i was worried sick and i didn’t know you were struggling so much. I’ll always love and be there for you and everything is and will be okay. im so glad to be your father,im so glad to have you as my daughter. i love you.” after he said that i just broke down. i needed those words so bad. i needed someone to say that everything will be okay and he did,not my mom,nor the doctors,only him. i stayed 3 days at the hospital and after i left. i started to do therapy and my dad would always take me, make sure i was as okay,and was there for me whenever i need it. after around 7 months of therapy,I stopped going. i started to feel more happy, i started to feel like everything was better,everything did get better and my dad made sure. even though im struggling with my mental health sometimes, i know ill always have someone to be by my side. if anyone is struggling,just know IT WILL GET BETTER. everything will be okay, and i promise you that. you just need the time to heal and you will heal no matter what. if anyone needs to talk im here.
@kronikz_22106 ай бұрын
Was recently going through a rough patch just like this. Then i met a girl who changed everything. Though i am not fully healed, she has made everything better. My relationship with my parents has gone downhill as i have gotten older and I felt like there was nobody in the world that cared for me anymore. I am glad that you’re better and I hope you and I can both eventually find peace. Edit: we have since broken up. It was one of the hardest experiences of my life, but I have repaired my relationship with my parents and I have found my true purpose in life. Though our relationship ended, I know that things happen for a reason. God had other plans for me. I loved her very much but not everything works out in life.
@user-rm6wh3ss5e6 ай бұрын
I’m so glad you are ok but may I ask what got you depression. You are only 13 (I’m just curious cause all the cause I could think that would took u this far is getting bully)
@imustexplodepancakes6 ай бұрын
I relate to this SOOO MUCH, reading this made me cry.
@user-kz2dq8gw7r6 ай бұрын
@@user-rm6wh3ss5e "depression in 6 years😭😭" moment🗿
@minoena6 ай бұрын
you say that so easily but when I was that age and wanted to disappear, my parents both told me to try harder and cut deeper or take more pills etc. count your blessings
@Oxcver.n2 күн бұрын
Watching the video and reading the comments left me sobbing 😭 as a person who thought of suicide as the only solution when i was 12 but didn't know how or where to do it , i am glad that i didn't, now i am better and i overcame my depression but seeing your stories made me realize the pain i could have brought to my parents and younger brother , thanks for sharing your experiences i love you all and i wish all the best 😭😭🫶🫶
@ReasonablyBoring11 сағат бұрын
you should think about it again... 😋
@salmonellathebac95735 күн бұрын
I would love to have a father like you. Your daughter is very lucky to have you as one.
@dahdumbguy6 ай бұрын
i attempted last year. i was in the hospital for almost a month seeing my parents come to terms with the fact that i might die. it still haunts me, every night i have these horribly vivid dreams of everything happening again this video made me cry like a baby. I had to watch this video 10 secconds at a time taking breaks. Thank you.
@rafimations92566 ай бұрын
Hope you're doing ok now dude, and also glad you're still here.
@amogus-dn8qn6 ай бұрын
i'm so sorry. really. that must have been hell. 😟 hope you're well now.
@dahdumbguy6 ай бұрын
oh my god thank you guys so much for being so nice 😭 usually when I tell people about what happened to me they just ignore me. It means the world to me < 3
@dahdumbguy6 ай бұрын
im doing better now. Just 2 weeks ago I started talking to people again and trying to be a part of something. I'm homeschooled now so its been very hard to break that cycle though. you guys looking out for me means so much, and you guys made my day 😭 😭
@hannahbrown54656 ай бұрын
Just wanted to say even though we may never meet, I would be very happy to be your friend and be someone you can talk to. I’m in a similar boat at 23.
@ianmackie6715 ай бұрын
I lost my brother to suicide in 2013, here’s a poem I wrote about it Somewhere, many miles away there is a field. And within the field, there lies a grove of pines. And within the grove of pines, there lies a peaceful cemetery. And within the peaceful cemetery, there lies a black marble headstone. And beneath the black marble headstone, there lies an urn wrapped with a purple ribbon. And within the urn wrapped with a purple ribbon, there lies a part of my heart.
@Saratheartist5 ай бұрын
@@IncestLoverW you're so inmature. You don't understand how people that lost somebody feel. Stop commenting if you're going to make people feel worse.
@vezqor05 ай бұрын
@IncestLoverW it's okay to be hated by everyone who knows you, but it's not okay to do nothing about it. you are the greatest scum of the planet, you need to be put into a hospital for rehab and hopefully return a better person who doesn't lack basic human emotion.
@Fyodorspetrat5 ай бұрын
@@IncestLoverW bro can't even spell OR use proper grammar
@swettoneloo4 ай бұрын
Thats so beautiful, I truly hope you live the best of your life, stay safe ❤
@fizziep0p6963 ай бұрын
Genuinely beautiful poem
@somebodydatweusedtoknow837219 күн бұрын
to the people harassing a grieving father, count your fucking days.
@eeg-rh7jv15 күн бұрын
Threatening to kill people over rage bait is crazy
@FartSmella2315 күн бұрын
@@eeg-rh7jvweep some more pal
@supremegalaxycentral15 күн бұрын
@@eeg-rh7jvdude. He’s just trying to cope with his daughter’s demise, let him grieve
@fatalt952113 күн бұрын
@@eeg-rh7jvI re-read the comment but I don’t see any threats of murder. What are you seeing?
@eeg-rh7jv13 күн бұрын
@@fatalt9521 "Count your fucking days" is pretty obviously a threat. You can't get more on the nose than this
@kykea_the_sillyOSCАй бұрын
oh my lord ppl who are harassing him, HE LITERALLY LOST HIS DAUGHTER, pls just support him, not harass him.
@thechildrenescapedАй бұрын
miserable people are easy to detect, they just envy this man’s strength and ability to move on. may his beautiful daughter rest easy.
@supermarioodinАй бұрын
It is so sad just too see the hate comments, honestly so much more then i thought it is just awful to see
@That1Guy11228 күн бұрын
@@thechildrenescapedThey’re the type of people who love to see the world burn. They’re a fire that gets fueled by the rage of others around them
@dogeche_15 күн бұрын
@@thechildrenescapedor maybe they just don’t have apathy for his feelings, he’s just one person after all
@ZoeyHope10 күн бұрын
THANK YOU!!!!!! 🕊🕊🕊🕊
@chimesmiless6 ай бұрын
This really made me cry, I lost my older brother to suicide and I found the game omori recently, and I really felt connected to it. I'm very sorry for your loss, it really feels horrible losing someone all of a sudden, and feeling as if you were to blame. This video also helped me sort of understand my father, and my mother. My father is definitely not in the best place mentally, and neither is my mother, but since I live with my father most, I get to see his behaviour more and I feel like I can really see guilt in him. I'm sorry for your loss, your daughter will always watch over you, stay strong. And if any of you guys are struggling, please get help, it's not over and brighter days will come.
@Bloomkyaaa6 ай бұрын
I also lost my older brother to suicide a few years ago. Here's a virtual hug. *hug*
@veryfinalgirl6 ай бұрын
I lost my older brother to suicide too 2 years ago :(
@chimesmiless6 ай бұрын
@@Bloomkyaaa aw :( I'm sorry for your loss and thank you *hug*
@squaredboy4246 ай бұрын
OMORI ES MRD COPIA Y PEGA ESTA VERDAD
@WHERE_IS_EURYDICE2 ай бұрын
Know that there are friends all throughout this world who will stand by your side 🤍 Bless your heart, and thank you for your kind words
@mi.70866 ай бұрын
I don't really comment on videos but I lost my best friend to suicide four months ago. We've been waiting for omori to come out for several years, now. We were a fan of OMOCAT's works way back when she was still just posting on tumblr. When the game came out in 2020 on Christmas Day, I immediately bought her a copy on steam. It became my favorite game of all time, she loved it so much, too, her carrd was omori-themed. I miss her everyday, we used to bond over OMORI. This hits way too close to home. I'm really grateful you made a video like this for omori, i'm only halfway through the video since it's a hard watch, but I feel like sharing it to several discord servers now because this should be spread. You did a lovely job covering the game, you said the words I couldn't say about how much this game means to me. Thank you for that.
@sourlab6 ай бұрын
I'm so sorry , I can't even comprehend how that would feel . I hope you're now doing better
@iloveglux6 ай бұрын
Praying for you, stay safe!
@Funky-P6 ай бұрын
Whoever you are wherever you are, stay safe and strong you got this ❤
@squaredboy4246 ай бұрын
Omocat likes shotacon
@squaredboy4246 ай бұрын
OMORI ES MRD COPIA Y PEGA ESTA VERDAD
@_.angel.candy._23 күн бұрын
I haven't even started the video and I'm already crying
@theoverrayted2 күн бұрын
this one. i was 23 seconds in by the time i started crying
@ChekeredExistsКүн бұрын
you’re an amazing person for letting your heart out and post this video let alone play the game. While I have never experienced it, losing someone who meant a lot to you could be really really tough. As someone who played this game, the suicidal topics are really really detailed so I cant imagine how hard it could’ve been for you to play this. You’re a brave person to upload this video to youtube knowing how many trolls there are who make fun of real life trauma without second thoughts. You’ve earned my respect man, I hope you’ve recovered now
@Repy4606 ай бұрын
I did not cry while playing Omori, but I did watching this video, I hope that Omori helped you understand life and grief better. Please, stay strong and take care.
@Love_Yourself48306 ай бұрын
This might be the best compliment I've ever received. ❤
@wildgeeses6 ай бұрын
Me too
@squaredboy4246 ай бұрын
@@Love_Yourself4830 OMORI ES MRD COPIA Y PEGA ESTA VERDAD
@deliasaldana68505 ай бұрын
@@squaredboy424shut up
@mniakan7545 ай бұрын
@@Love_Yourself4830you can try signalis if you want as well, even though it’s atop down survival horror game it has strong themes of dealing with grief and losing people you love hidden way underneath its exterior
@liiinuh5 ай бұрын
I experienced the other side.. I was just 13 when my dad killed himself, and even though only 3 years has passed, it hurts. it hurts so much. I was so naive and i could tell something was off about him, but I didn’t know it was this bad. I’ve had thoughts about how to go out, but seeing how he actually did it, broke me forever. He was the last person you’d ever expect to do it, he promised me we’d go places when i’m older. but he’s gone forever now. It’s almost his birthday soon. I hope he could be proud i was his daughter, and see my achievements, but I can never now and this pain kills me inside.
@liiinuh5 ай бұрын
thank you so much for this video, i get to see the other side of the story now. i’m so sorry about the trolls, your daughter does not deserve that, she is such an angel. may she rest in peace
@AmalekIsComing5 ай бұрын
I was gonna troll you but I guess I'll let someone else do it, sorry for your loss
@user-pt4hb2bg5u5 ай бұрын
Hi. I cannot help you but I can understand your pain... At least try to imagine. I'm pretty sure that your dad had a happy time around you. If heavens exist, then now he's with you. I myself don't believe in it, but the fact of love doesn't die because the subject of it stops existing... I guess he was proud of you as long as he was alive. Sorry if I didn't help
@devindalton46885 ай бұрын
@@AmalekIsComing Why would you even consider doing that? Think long and hard about that impulse.
@liiinuh5 ай бұрын
@@user-pt4hb2bg5u thank you for the kind words🫶, it’s so refreshing to hear, and helps a ton
@MorbidEvil1024 күн бұрын
Watching this video makes me unbelievably grateful that my attempt failed. Thinking of my dad playing all my favorite games and other things to keep my memory alive breaks my heart and makes me feel so guilty i could have put him through that same pain. I'm positive you're daughter loved you so so much. Thank you for sharing this video, it put me in my feels today when I really needed it 😊❤
@AzraelScott8 күн бұрын
It is currently 1:05 in the morning, and I’m writing this being barely able to see my keyboard through tears. This was the first video on my page, and I felt drawn to watch it even though I’m usually not a fan of these kind of games. After watching just the intro, though, I know why. I am so, so blown away by the fact that you’re able to be this vulnerable and up front about something so intimate. I’m not going to get too mushy gushy, but I never thought I’d come across just a few minutes of a KZfaq video that I could genuinely connect with. Thank you. Thank you for being so strong. Thank you for making this video and so many others. Thank you for sharing your story.
@Love_Yourself48307 күн бұрын
Thank you for the kind words, friend.
@Hogantalks5 ай бұрын
I lost my bf to suicide,we were planning on marriage,and i knew there was something off,but I realized when it was too late,he was always in a little bad mood,but someday he was happy,he gave me presents,and stuff,I was confused and 2 days later I saw a video of suicidal acts,I knew he was going to do it but when I tried calling ,he wasn’t responding,his dad called me the day later telling me he killed himself,me and his dads are still recovering,his dads aren’t the same now,they were so happy but now,they are sad,I still have nightmares thinking it was my fault
@werrercricket5 ай бұрын
oh honey it wasn't your fault. as somebody who had an attempt two months ago, there was nothing you could have done or said that would have changed his mind. im very sorry for your loss, renember grief is love persisting 🩷
@Hogantalks5 ай бұрын
@@werrercricket I could have called the life thing but I was dumb
@Ghostah5 ай бұрын
I promise you, that does not make it your fault. People, such as myself and many others here in the comments, that struggle with this will tell you. Those thoughts, feelings and urges... they're never far away. I'm sorry @@Hogantalks
@francescafrancesca35544 ай бұрын
@@Hogantalks Nobody knows what to do sometimes. It’s okay. 🫂
@Steveo_j82 ай бұрын
That guy’s an asshole, anyone who commits suicide has no regard for the people they hurt and scar.
@sylverfish69166 ай бұрын
This is so eye opening. Im a 15 yr old whos struggled with suicidal thoughts for a while. Ive attempted 5 times and just the fact of parents grief is the only rhing holding me back. My sister died from an overdose last year, and its pretty clear that it was a suicide. It kills me to see my mom the way she is, she cant accept that it was a suicide. This truly gives me another side to the effects of suicidal thoughts. Thank you for this video ♥️
@yankee20936 ай бұрын
im glad you’re making progress in your journey, i too struggled earlier in my life. i believe you will be able to make a full recovery, and just remember to stay strong my friend :)
@uggupuggu6 ай бұрын
how are white people in a first world country in the 21st century finding ways to be ungrateful, insaneeee
@BeZeroBe6 ай бұрын
hey babe *tips my fedora* wanna uhh edate? i am pretty emotional guy heh
@jeremyfisher85126 ай бұрын
One more day, turns into two, then three, and so on. I almost lost my sister to an overdose myself while I was still in the house. It gets better, even if the situation doesn’t, you get better at working around it.
@sylverfish69166 ай бұрын
@SpermCell leave me alone.
@eviemary49552 ай бұрын
i know i’m late but hearing your love for your daughter was so beautiful. at 13, i developed anorexia which heightened my already existing anxiety and depression. every day was painful, mentally and physically. i woke up in pain and i was plagued by pain in my nightmares. the worst part though was watching my then 8 year old sister, my brother and my parents suffer because of my mental illness. finding out that my mother would cry herself to sleep some nights tore me apart but it reminded me that somebody cared. i’m 18 now and i have bad days, but life is certainly worth living. to anyone struggling, you’re not alone. somebody cares and there are people you haven’t met yet who will give you that reason to keep fighting. i’m now on the road to getting a degree in psychology, i have awesome friends and my family unit is stronger than ever. life gets better. i never thought i’d see the day where i was optimistic for the future, but here i am.
@strelitziamystery213 күн бұрын
I'm in fucking tears. My heart goes out to you man. When I was younger I had suicidal thoughts and I couldn't find a reason to live for myself. The only thing that kept me from trying was my family. I couldn't live for myself but I found the strength to live for them. I'm now in a much better headspace. It isn't perfect but at least I can now say I want to live. And this video really touched my heart. Thank you so much for making this and I wish only the best for you.
@ReasonablyBoring11 сағат бұрын
you should have those thoughts again 😭
@em_rip5 ай бұрын
Imagine being so miserable to criticize a man who uses artistic media to cope with the loss of his daughter. I’m so sorry for your loss. I wish you all the best ❤
@miuq5 ай бұрын
Fr ☠️ ppl behind screens have no fear as it doesnt affect them irl
@THATAroSpecWallet5 ай бұрын
@@miuq just wait till it does. When they try to get a job or go to college.
@Ih8simon5 ай бұрын
His daughter was pretty artistic too I've seen the devil Down Sunset In every place In every face Yeah, uh, uh Yeah, uh, uh Tell me, do you see her? (Yeah) she's livin' her life (uh) Even if she acts like she don't want the limelight (uh, yeah, uh) But if you knew her (yeah), she lives a lie She calls the paparazzi, then she acts surprised, oh Oh, I know what she needs (oh) She just want the fame, I know what she fiends (oh) Give her a little taste, runnin' back to me, uh (oh) Put it in her veins, pray her soul to keep, ooh, ooh Every night (every night, uh), she prays to the sky Flashin' lights is all she ever wanted (yeah) Beggin' on her knees to be popular That's her dream, to be popular (hey) Kill anyone to be popular (hm) Sell her soul to be popular Popular, just to be popular (uh-huh) Everybody scream 'cause she popular (hey) She mainstream 'cause she popular Never be free 'cause she popular Money on top of me, money on top of her (uh-huh) Money on top of me, money on top of her (uh-huh) Yuh, shawty - with me 'cause she know I'm popular (uh-uh) Yuh, shawty - with me 'cause she know I'm popular I know that you see me (huh), time's gone by Spend my whole life runnin' from your flashin' lights Try to own it (uh), but I'm alright (yuh) You can't take my soul without a - fight (uh, oh) Oh, I know what she needs (oh) She just want the fame, I know what she fiends (oh) Give her a little taste, runnin' back to me (oh) Put it in her veins, pray her soul to keep, ooh (uh) Ooh, every night (every night), she prays to the sky (oh) Flashin' lights is all she ever wants to see (yuh) Beggin' on her knees to be popular (uh) That's her dream, to be popular (hey) Kill anyone to be popular (hm) Sell her soul to be popular Popular, just to be popular (uh-huh) Everybody scream 'cause she popular (hey) She mainstream 'cause she popular Never be free 'cause she popular Money on top of me, money on top of her (uh-huh) Money on top of me, money on top of her (uh-huh) Yuh, shawty - with me 'cause she know I'm popular (uh) Yuh, shawty - with me 'cause she know I'm popular (uh) Money on top of me, money on top of her (uh-huh) Money on top of me, money on top of her (uh-huh) Yuh, shawty - with me 'cause she know I'm popular (uh-huh) Yuh, shawty - with me 'cause she know I'm popular Eat me and money, I'ma keepin' it I'm gettin' can and I'm kickin' it Money on top of me, money on top of her Yuh, shawty - with me 'cause she know I'm popular Pop-popular, born to be popular She in debt, 20 mill', but she run it up She can never be broke 'cause she popular Turn the webcam on for the followers beggin' on her knees to be popular That's her dream, to be popular (hey) Kill anyone to be popular Sell her soul to be popular Popular, just to be popular (uh-huh) Everybody scream 'cause she popular (hey) She mainstream 'cause she popular Never be free 'cause she popular
@sonic176yt75 ай бұрын
@@THATAroSpecWallettrust me karma will hit them harder than an Asian parent when their child gets a b+
@Unknownspce5 ай бұрын
Idk why yall saying people mocking him when literally 100% of these comments aren’t mocking him 💀
@onlinename76976 ай бұрын
I actually blindly recommended my brother to buy and play the game because I thought the visuals were cool. He came back to me a few days later on the verge of tears and told me I *NEEDED* to play the game.
@IConsumedMyLeftKidney6 ай бұрын
this makes me want to make my brother play it when he grows up just to put some trauma in the trauma jar
@joeiechristiansantana96416 ай бұрын
@@IConsumedMyLeftKidney Ah, two types of people?
@N_E_K_K_O6 ай бұрын
something like this happened to me playing Celeste. I actually needed to play it, that game gave me a different perspective of what it is to fight your inner demon and how to do it well. I was in a very dark place back then...
@GorillaFan_326 ай бұрын
@@joeiechristiansantana9641duality of man “I showed my brother this because this game looked cool!!” “I showed my brother this because I want to traumatize him”
@SolarSisters12116 ай бұрын
@@N_E_K_K_OOmg A CELESTE AND OMORI PLAYER?? IVE BEEN TRYING TO FIND SOMEONE THATT KNOW BOTH YAYYY
@sovoius21 күн бұрын
I cried the whole way through this video pretty much. I suffer from lifelong depression and anxiety (diagnosed at 9, following the loss of my uncle who served more as a father figure to me since my father has never been in my life) and this game has resonated with me since the moment I opened it, the amount of experiences i relate to with sunny is honestly amazing. They really managed to make grief, trauma, and mental health disorders like depression and anxiety a real experience that truly depicts it in the most real way I have ever seen. I've listened to music, watched movies and even played other games that try to tackle the same topics and they all just feel in lack of better words, fake or cheap. A fun fact that wasn't touched on here that i experienced is when you play this game you have the choice to change your name from sunny to whatever you like, I decided to name the character my real name (Canaan) and it was really eerie because so much of this related to my own experienced throughout life with self isolation, regrets, grief, etc. that sometimes I got so lost in the game that I truly felt like the game was speaking directly to me. This game really is the best piece of media I can think of when someone asks me how it feels to deal with these heavy things that weigh on my soul and I always recommend it to those that truly can both handle it and want to know what it is like. This video is beautiful and you did a fantastic job at piecing it together and I'm very sorry to hear that people were making a joke out of it in the comments, some people on the internet have truly lost their humanity. I wish you nothing but the best and rest in peace to your daughter I am certain she was a lovely person through and through. I'm glad this game gave you some peace as it did for me because I felt truly heard. Truthfully I played Omori at a time where my depression was seemingly taking over I had neglected real life responsibilities and I was almost completely isolated from the real world. And this game really opened my eyes to how much I was hurting myself by putting myself into this situation, I still am struggling with all these issues but I always will as long as I'm trying my best to move forward and improve one step at a time I can take pride in my attempts to better myself and I really do believe that this game was the crux of me making that decision to try.
@boomfanfic-a-latta899614 күн бұрын
When I saw the title of this video, I immediately felt like I needed to watch it, even as someone who’s never struggled with suicidal thoughts or actions or lost anyone to them. I just felt strongly that I needed to watch, and nearly started crying within the first MINUTE. Thank you for being so willing to share this.
@MAndSquared6 ай бұрын
Your love for your daughter is so evident throughout your video. I’m so sorry that you lost her, especially so soon. I was blindsided when you mentioned she was 13, so I can only imagine what it was like for you. I’m sure you did everything you could for her to give her a good life, and I’m sure she loved you just as much as you love her. If I may, I’ve got a game suggestion in the form of Spiritfarer. While I’ve never played it while heavily grieving, I’ve heard that other people have and found comfort in it. Spiritfarer is very much a game about death with how you play as Stella who has become the spiritfarer whose job is the ferry the spirits of the dying, doing quests for them on the way, to the Everdoor where they cross through and pass on. I played it a couple years back and I still consider it to be one of my favourite games with how it handles its themes and characters
@Love_Yourself48306 ай бұрын
I've received this recommendation from more than one person already. Thank you SO MUCH for taking the time to give me some input!
@grammy_hnng6 ай бұрын
spiritfarer has been the only game to make me cry. i havent touched it since finishing stellas own quest. it doesnt feel right anymore
@mushr--m6 ай бұрын
@@Love_Yourself4830Spiritfarer is an incredible game, but for me personally it was difficult to play. You can't make progress without losing someone. Without the death of someone you grow to love each time. It made me hesitant to go on, always anxious about the next goodbye. I lost my dad when I was 13 (I'm 21 now) and the entire playthrough I couldn't help but remember that pain over and over. Spiritfarer teaches the inportance of impermanence, of mortality, of goodbyes, but it teaches most of all that they aren't easy to bear. It's a beautiful game, but crushing.
@mushr--m6 ай бұрын
@@grammy_hnngsame. the end was... the end.
@sajking72696 ай бұрын
Spiritfarer is one of my favorite games of all time. Very few games have ever made me cry so hard, while also feeling so much love. It is comforting in a way I find hard to describe, it feels like being held by a loving mother while you sob, you can feel all your sorrow and pain and you are safe.
@firstcanonkill17676 ай бұрын
This video was very raw, and very real. I, too, find myself processing how I feel through media, quite often, including video games. My autism diagnosis says this is likely due to my being unable to understand emotions properly. But I understood the emotions in this video, very well, and from both sides. I've tried to leave this life behind multiple times. When I was eleven, thirteen, fifteen, and seventeen. (I also accidentally ended up with a pattern of it happening every other year, I suppose. But I'm finally breaking that now, I'm 19, and I'm living.) I played Omori when I was around 16 years old, just after it was released. I was in a bad place, a *bad* place, and was struggling with strong feelings of guilt, just like Sunny. I felt guilt, specifically, for being disabled, both physically and developmentally. I felt guilty that my parents will likely have to care for me for as long as they are able and that I likely will not be able to return the care in their old age. When I played this game, it took me back to my past attempts. I actually fucked up the first time I played. I didn't check on Basil during the sleepover, and, if you didn't know, he commits suicide if you do not check on him. Having grown to love the characters, I remember feeling a chill all the way down my body, and I paused mid-breath to look at the art on screen. I then, suddenly, was hit with the fact that if I had succeeded in my previous attempt (or the one I tried to commit in the next year), my parents would have found me, just like that. And if not my parents, maybe a friend. A teacher. If I committed away from home or school, maybe a stranger, maybe a CHILD. I threw up after that from sheer emotional overstimulation, reset my save, and checked on Basil. Listening to you talk about your daughter in the way you do, voice seeping with just... love for your little girl, I found myself pulled back to that overwhelming feeling I had when I played this game for myself. I realized, finally, that that feeling was the distress from simply knowing that I was LOVED. At that moment, though I couldn't identify the emotion at the time, I had been overwhelmed by suddenly understanding the full weight of love, Platonic, Familial, Romantic, all of it. I had all of a sudden come to understand a fraction of how much people loved me, and how much my death would hurt them. I've attempted once, since I played Omori, about a year after, during which time my disability was causing me agonizing pain every day. It still does. I remember, after very much surviving my ordeal and sitting alone in the bathroom, thinking to myself. 'This is a mess. This is grotesque. My parents would have found me like this.' And I got up, cleaned up the bathroom, and went to bed quietly. I now run a blog with an anonymous inbox, where I invite anyone, literally anyone, to talk about their issues. Sometimes I can help, and sometimes I just post their submission on its own without comment, unable to help, but knowing people who follow me and have similar experiences will reply to the post and offer their own help. It is the most fulfilling project I have ever set upon, and I likely wouldn't be here without that sheer luck of survival at 17, but more importantly, without Omori shocking my system a few years ago. Thank you, so much, for sharing your story with us, and your grief. Simply speaking of your daughter with so much love in your heart, as you do, likely saves lives who are watching. The lives of young people who don't quite yet have the development to grasp the sheer scale on which they are loved.
@b33viemm6 ай бұрын
whats the blog?
@todpopo6 ай бұрын
beautifully written
@lunicean6 ай бұрын
I'm so proud of you, you must be a beautiful person, and so worthy of love, care and support. 🩷
@dontreplyiprobablywontrespond6 ай бұрын
I ain’t readin allat
@li91846 ай бұрын
@@dontreplyiprobablywontrespond If you don't stfu. There's a time and a place for everything. Nobody laughed.
@LucasJohansson44 күн бұрын
I hate myself for making my parents witness me in manic states screaming that I was going to die, writhing on the floor screaming and begging for help they could not provide, every day for months watching me be inconsolable through bouts of extreme mood swing where I was barely conscious. I still get flashbacks of seeing my parents standing in my doorway watching me as I lay on the floor screaming for hours, seeing how much pain was in there eyes and how helpless they looked down upon me fills me with so much guilt and agony that I made them go through that. I can't imagine the pain my parents must have felt fearing their son was going to take his own life for years. I know my father blames himself and it destroys me. It has been over 2 years since the worst of it ended and I still get flashbacks and have to hold in tears whenever they come. Even after 2 years its so hard to be around them. I have recently gotten sober and the guilt and anxiety I get when having to spend time with them is too much for me to handle. I feel so guilty for isolating myself from them. I wish I could spend more time around them but I can't handle all the emotions that overwhelm me.
@ChekeredExistsКүн бұрын
I really hope you got through it man…
@ReasonablyBoring11 сағат бұрын
not reading allat 🤦♂️ bros the sequel to a dream apology 🤣🫵
@daria30262 ай бұрын
Been in and out of a suicidal mindset for about 5 years now, and to see this father have so much love towards his daughter makes me reconsider leaving this world more than anything I’ve heard over the years.
@tuna_toes2 ай бұрын
I hope you get better ❤
@a_leg_of_lamb6 ай бұрын
Hey. I'm also a 13 year old girl and really struggling right now. I'm so sorry. I just wanted to say this video helped in some odd way. I still feel very suicidal, but this helped. Thanks for sharing. Hey everyone! I'm working through it with my therapist. I want to thank you all for all of your lovely comments. I now realize that I'm more depressed than suicidal. Thank you all so much for helping me. It means the world to me. Thanks again. See ya later. Edit: It's getting worse now. Life just gets harder and harder and I can't see a point anymore. My decisions don't matter, I don't matter. I don't know what to do anymore. Another edit: Life is getting better?? I'm getting to the point where I have good and bad days, which is better. As it turns out, I have clinical depression, which makes sense. I'm getting help now, thanks for all of the comments. It really helps.
@golevka6 ай бұрын
my wife was a suicidal 13yo girl once. a classic emo girl story with unforgivingly mean parents. i survived an attempt in 2012 and felt equipped to help her, but I live in fear of my love dying adults have good and bad advice. never listen to anything they say which makes you feel pressure. any pressure put on you by an adult is false. there is no pressure which naturally occurs in the world. also never DM adults, always talk to them on public spaces or not at all
@NS-et5wh6 ай бұрын
I wish the best for you. I was once like you, I'm turning 26 now, and things do get better. I know it's tough, but I hope you can stay as strong so someday your future self can look back at you and be in awe of how amazing you were for getting through it. I'm proud of my younger self for what she went through and I hope you will be too. I'm proud of you for still being here too ❤
@CosmicCatto6 ай бұрын
yo I was also a suicidal bi 13 year old girl last year things have gotten better since then (not completely cause im still suicidal but ill take it) please please reach out to someone (i highly regret not talking to someone bc last year was the lowest point of my life) honestly, im really proud of you for making it this far bc living is really challenging
@saturnhex98556 ай бұрын
I know it's cliche, but if you haven''t already, please see a doctor and therapist if you can! I'm in my 20s dealing now with the depression and anxiety that arose when I was around your age, and I wish I had gone to a doctor sooner. I felt weird and ashamed to tell anyone, like there wasn't anything I could do about it, that I'd be a nuisance to others and that it was my burden to bear alone. But it isn't weird or shameful, and the burden is much lighter with help. You can chip away at it little by little, and genuinely feel like things are looking up. And now I have experienced genuine happiness and content that I haven't felt since I was little! And even though I'm a private person, I've now made it a point to talk about my struggles with anyone who'll listen, because it honestly helps, and you never know, others are suffering in silence too. And even if it is a bit of a nuisance to others, it's important enough for that to not even matter, plus most people care and won't be bothered, so don't hesitate to speak up and take up space. You're still a kid yourself, you shouldn't have to deal with it alone if you are, honestly no one should. Wishing you well!
@Sentay06 ай бұрын
I hope you are doing well, and I hope you have found love and happiness
@avawarner8066 ай бұрын
A game that I think has a really interesting look at grief is "What Remains of Edith Finch" It is a very tough game as it deals with many deaths and how grief affects a family in particular. It's more of a story driven game as well, where you experience it through the game play elements. For me after losing quite a few family members it really hit home. Though it also reminded me how the people we love live on in our memories and in the things they left behind. I still cry and smile at the game. I understand if it is one that you wouldn't want to play but if you ever feel like a good cry and feel like you're in a good place to play it, I highly recommend it. I wish you the best as you continue to walk the path of grief. You should be incredibly proud of yourself for turning such a hard event into a way of helping other people and honoring your daughters memory.
@Love_Yourself48306 ай бұрын
I'll take a look at it! Thank you so much for taking the time.
@childeofepickness6 ай бұрын
ooh I love that game!!!!!!
@beetlefiend65216 ай бұрын
i LOVE that game😭😭😭😭 so underrated
@serenitylol94806 ай бұрын
@@Love_Yourself4830it’s a rlly good game you should totally play it!!!
@Swirly1000x6 ай бұрын
That game really does have a unique portrayal of grief. The lessons it teaches about grief are so important and so often overlooked, what a brilliant game
@MateoGaming1Ай бұрын
If you see ragebait comments Report. LEAVE. dont give them the dopamine they want from you replying
@btw-c2fАй бұрын
fr
@jjjsockz48923 күн бұрын
dis right here.
@dogeche_15 күн бұрын
Real
@Trad0r2 ай бұрын
as a member of the children (gen alpha) commenting on your video, what happened to us? like seriously, if you look at any of the past generations, they seem to have... oh what's this? basic human socializing skills that allow them to "surprisingly" *not* mock people who are grieving? we need to get our act together, like y'all not even acting human at this point. it's like we came out of the womb without a frontal lobe, that's how bad it is. good night, -a member of generation alpha
@1ndonly_rey2 ай бұрын
this.
@PersonFromChile2 ай бұрын
This is the most mature comment i've seen from a gen alpha kid ong..
@ajaytoefan12 ай бұрын
ok
@ajaytoefan12 ай бұрын
im a gen alpha and i agree with this although i have to say something, Most gen alpha kids are actually normal people and the “edgy kids” are actually random kids brainwashed by those sigma rizz and dark edgy jokes. Most gen alphas I’ve seen are actually nice people and have manners. Anyways Thats the Emd Ohdb my skwujahvvdi ted talk thaks for read enfg Edit:i am
@Dr.J422 ай бұрын
The youth every single time is like this. Don’t feel too ashamed
@strwbriz6 ай бұрын
I attempted yesterday. It changed me entirely. Seeing my mom’s reaction made me realize no amount of pain is worth hurting my loved ones. I know my road will be long and painful, but I also know one day i’ll be at a point where I can be happy. Life is full of pain but that makes the happy moments all the more special. You’re very strong, i’m so happy everyone in the comments is being kind. It reminds me this world is worth living in. edit: thank you for the kind words everyone! I just wanted to update and tell you all i’m doing pretty good :) life does get better so don’t give up.
@CynthiaMcG6 ай бұрын
🤗
@eliii066 ай бұрын
thank you for still being here with us :)
@Meatdeposity6 ай бұрын
Thanks for still being here
@Sup_nw856 ай бұрын
Glad you're still here 🫂
@prinzexisalowqualityytber6 ай бұрын
jesus christ man, 3 days ago? man i really hope you're okay
@shirleyar20104 ай бұрын
Thanks to Omori my son was able to open up about his suicidal thoughts. I’m glad that he was brave enough to tell me what was happening. A year later after therapy, patient and changes at home, he still’s recovering slowly. Thanks for making this video, takes a lot of courage to open up to the world knowing that there’s going to be people making hurtful comments.
@homecheese86254 ай бұрын
Ay that’s beautiful man, I hope and pray your son / family continues to stay safe. It always makes my day hearing recovery stories such as this, even the most minor ones
@friskflowerfell9689Ай бұрын
Love to you and your family
@friskflowerfell9689Ай бұрын
@@njngoestoheck How is Omori a bad game? Explain it to us then.
@dice67198 күн бұрын
Hi. I doubt you'll see this since its been awhile since you've posted this. Thank you for making it. I don't think anything else ive watched has gotten to me like this. I'm kind of emotional and dont want to ramble, but as someone who has been in similar places mentally to you and your daughter, though at different times and for different reasons. thank you.
@Love_Yourself48308 күн бұрын
I see it. I see you. Thank you. ❤
@kegumisass1704 күн бұрын
I'm crying
@kaatsu_8 күн бұрын
I turned 18 on August 9th, and I swear it was one of the hardest things in my life. This year has been the worst of all: I was diagnosed with borderline, I tried and thought about suicide multiple times, I became addicted to self-mutilation. But worst of all, it was seeing my mother crying saying that she wanted to be able to protect myself from myself. You see, my mother is the strongest woman I've ever met in my life, I wanted to be an adult man with at least 1% of what she is, but seeing her try to endure all this and still help me in a crisis smiling, as if she wasn't going through anything just to calm me down, breaks my heart. I'm still alive for her and my father. My father and I never had a good relationship, I'm a trans boy and I never felt like a real man around him until this year. The affection he shows me, the time we take to watch soccer, anime and movies is very valuable to me, and seeing him go from someone who didn't even know about my favorite food and didn't pick up my favorite flavor of ice cream at the market to a present father who laughs with me and brings me my favorite flavor of pizza makes me want to cry every time. Thank you so much for this video, I was in need of this. If I kill myself, I won't be able to forgive myself for making my parents suffer so much. I'm sorry for your daughter, I wanted you to know that it's not your fault and that you weren't a bad father, I'm sure you did everything you could and that she loves you very, very, very much.
@Gustyguy5 ай бұрын
The fact a twitter user saw this and said "Yup let’s make fun of him for that!!!!!!" I hate that site so much
@spacemarine62125 ай бұрын
Twitter's genuinely heartless. Through and through. It hurts my heart that anyone could see such a genuine heart-wrenching video and think "this man deserves to be mocked".
@kiv37454 ай бұрын
genuinely Twitter is the most negative toxic shit ive ever seen a platform can ever be. aside from instagram.
@umarthaqifmohdafif46394 ай бұрын
What do you expect from Twitter users
@Gustyguy3 ай бұрын
@@umarthaqifmohdafif4639 honestly I wasn’t expecting anything This site has been always been hell since 2018
@kerl073 ай бұрын
it's twitter, you expect the people there to be supportive and loving?
@RoyaleFlamingo6 ай бұрын
oh man, I am sobbing. I am so sorry for your loss. I attempted when I was 11. to hear your perspective on what's happened has really changed me. I think its so amazing that omori was able to give you a new connection with your daughter. I'm sure you'll be reunited with each other someday and you'll be able to talk all about it. to everyone reading, take care of yourself.
@109_hassy6 ай бұрын
I want to ask what made you want to do it at such a young age of 11? How can a child even bear these thoughts at south a young age
@ThatCatByTheStreet-ln2yc5we7d6 ай бұрын
@@109_hassy trauma effects everyone. the youngest kids to the oldest adults.
@doofusboy70546 ай бұрын
11 years old? That’s insane man, so glad you’re still here 🙏
@vroomcar63286 ай бұрын
If kids didn't know what suicide is they'd never consider it
@ThatCatByTheStreet-ln2yc5we7d6 ай бұрын
@@vroomcar6328 ehhh. if you are joking then don't read the rest. but Suicide is a word. its not that hard to just be like (Imma kill myself) and just call it killing yourself. Suicide is a word for a consept. and to not know what suicide is or not have any idea of what is it. you need to not know what death is. and that is just sheltering.
@metalguitaridkАй бұрын
this video is beautiful and extremely well made, im so sorry for your loss, stay safe.
@anthonybarnes70625 күн бұрын
May your beautiful daughter rest in the most serene little corner of heaven ❤️
@KEL_my_beloved_6 ай бұрын
When I saw the title of the video, I immediately was in tears. I’m sorry about your loss.
@SleptThruDday5 ай бұрын
Hi, I doubt you’ll see this comment, but i’m thirteen with a very close connection to my dad. For the past couple years i’ve been fighting with myself, and my brain, and sometimes I think it’s just too much, and there’s no point. You don’t realize how much you affect people until something this permanent takes place, and the idea of my dad having to make this video about me brought me to tears. I think you’ve saved my life, and I could never thank you enough for that. Thank you for sharing this story, it was beautiful, and brave, and you probably know you’ve helped tons of people, but i’m grateful to be one of them.
@Name_L3ss5 ай бұрын
I kinda feel you man, I agree it's sometimes hard to just be alone with your thoughts, and I'm so happy that someone could have at least helped you in some kind of way.
@caocau-ez8oj2 ай бұрын
Heya, we're two, except i have no one
@BioTheHuman2 ай бұрын
@caocau-ez8oj You'll always have yourself
@HunterAllen-jb7hl2 ай бұрын
@@BioTheHumanthats the problem
@BioTheHuman2 ай бұрын
@@HunterAllen-jb7hl Why?
@stormie80092 ай бұрын
It’s devastating to know people are heartless monsters who attack and ridicule a grieving father, I hope they never have to experience this type of pain and made fun of by complete strangers but regardless of their words don’t take them to heart. Humans have always told stories and voiced their feelings for centuries and it’s something that comforts others who may feel alone in their pain, it’s only casted a wider net due to the internet but to know that thousands of people can relate to either you or your daughter can be bittersweet and I hope that is enough to notice how lonely and miserable the haters are !TW! I’ve attempted many times over my years, starting at age 12. It’s a difficult battle and I know my family and friends would miss me dearly if I was to succeed but at that moment when I’m at my lowest I only see how much happier they would be without me. A failure who can’t succeed, a daughter with no talent or future, but these type of videos brings me back if only a little that maybe I could hang on a bit longer…I would never wish this pain on anyone, its a battle with one’s self….like being a alone full of people cheering your name but all you hear is the static noise of your own thoughts condemning you. Perhaps one day I’ll be at peace, thank you for making a lovely video. RIP to your daughter, may you both meet again rather it be at the pearly gates or another life ❤
@raspysnail30302 ай бұрын
Hey. I’m not that old and I refuse to say my age but I get it. I attempted twice so far and I even considered trying again yesterday. I don’t know exactly what to do since my parents don’t understand what depression is. In 2020 I was diagnosed with depression. So my parents gave me meds for 2 weeks, then told me to lie to the doctors so I didn’t “look depressed”. I only really have my friends but they don’t understand depression either. They claim to know what it’s like but they told me they “got over it in a week.” It makes me feel like I’m the issue. Everyone else is able to be happy and I can’t. I don’t even know what I can even do anymore. Most everyday tasks feel like a chore, like getting out of my bed, washing my face, eating. I just wish to understand what is going on like you have.
@stormie80092 ай бұрын
@@raspysnail3030 It’s definitely a daunting feeling, even after being diagnosed 12 years ago I still struggle to understand and cope with my brain trying to ruin and save itself all at once. I never truly got better, if anything I gotten worse due to fact I can’t get medication due to not being able to afford it for nearly 3 yrs now. The thought of ending myself even occurred to me yesterday as I wrote that comment. - I can’t give good advice as everyone deals with this differently but I always try to forget my dark thoughts; either I watch videos, game, draw my emotions or sleep which in theory sounds good but it’s essentially running away from it so it’s not a recommendation I can truly give especially to “new comers” (it’s what I call younger people who recently got diagnosed, no hate 💜) Medicine and therapy is definitely the best option that most all will suggest but if you’re still underage it can be difficult to get those when your parents aren’t even trying to help you and you don’t have a circle of friends who may understand or try to. If you need anyone you can use these resources, free and no need to involve your parents -Call or text 988. -Chat 988 life line . Org (no spaces) -MHA . Org ( Mental Health America ) is also a good site for sources I will warn you as someone who went through similar events when I spoke up, these people will have to report law enforcement and your parents if you are a danger to yourself or others at the time of speaking/texting with them. I spent many days in a asylum due it (I will say it’s scary but I loved it, especially the one I went to twice as a teenager) Obviously you should use them and be truthful but I think people deserve to know that this world is an ugly place for mental health. If you aren’t comfortable with them my DM’s are always open if you need to vent or if you need more resources for people closer in age if you aren’t comfortable with me. Edit: my discord is wickedsoulzz_22 :)
@Ih8simon2 ай бұрын
I just farted on god it smelled like his daughter
@heart7566Ай бұрын
@@Ih8simon get a job mid human
@RonaldDump_realАй бұрын
You attempted and failed 3 times How You are truly are a failure Also the plausibility of any religion being true is 1/1600 so it could just be black which has 1/1600 chance of being so, personally I believe it goes black nothing awaits you after the wall of death just no consciousness, it’s a hard concept to grasp which is why the thought of an after life exist because you can’t imagine what it’s like to have no mind no brain
@koala765426 күн бұрын
I’m really glad you made this video, it sheds light on something not a lot of people are talking about. I would like to say is that I’m so sorry for your loss and I genuinely hope it does get better for you ❤
@chriscrowe116 ай бұрын
Incredibly brave and touching video. I lost a dear friend of mine similarly in 2018, when he was 22. I'm now several years older than he ever got to be and I've kinda dealt with that loss by not... dealing with it... very much at all. The very last conversation I had with him was about the game "Night in the Woods". He gushed about it and how much it meant to him and how *seen* it made him feel and so I promised him I would play it eventually. Its been years and I still haven't played it, I've been avoiding that grief like an aching tooth. However, fact that you were able to play through such a heavy and confronting game and come out the other side gives me hope that I'll be able to too. Thank you for the video, it helped me let out some tears I had no idea i've been holding back for so long.
@abg446 ай бұрын
My friend died in 2019 from gunshot to the head. I was turning 22 that year, and he died right around three weeks into the new year. I'm now turning 27, I was upset initially, but I still haven't "processed" it.
@bowlOnudel6 ай бұрын
I think tweens and teen ages 12-18 are always needing the most support and understanding. I remember living through those ages and it was the worst time period. I don't know how I could've made it out without friends by my side, free mental health resources and the urge to get better to be with them forever. I'm terribly sorry for your loss, 13 is unfortunately young but mental illness doesn't discriminate. I hope you are taking care of yourself and doing better. It's something a parent can never forget but can forgive. I wish you and your daughter's mother all the luck. Thank you for this emotional heartfelt video. 💕💗
@syedshaheermohammad691825 күн бұрын
❤
@AnIdiotRaccoon11 күн бұрын
This analysis is amazing. I love the explanations you gave throughout. I am so sorry for your loss.
@ScaramoucheCheeseburger2 ай бұрын
As a daughter who has "the thoughts" each time I think things like that I cry and feel sorry I hope my father never has to go through what you did as one I'm truly sorry you lost someone that mattered so much too you As I write this my eyes are tearing up
@ScaramoucheCheeseburger2 ай бұрын
I'm fighting urges so my dad doesn't have to grieve and go through pain it's not easy but I think I can pull through
@ZMPedroАй бұрын
You got this! Best wishes for you.
@sunnyshine7156 ай бұрын
omori is truly an exhilarating and cathartic experience, especially for those who have dealt with loss and grief. i'm happy you were able to play this game and find a sense of connection in it. may your daughter rest in peace ❤🕊️
@squaredboy4246 ай бұрын
OMORI ES MRD COPIA Y PEGA ESTA VERDAD
@الأرض-ح6 ай бұрын
Oh my God, the story made me cry so much, and I hope that your daughter is in heaven, there, in a beautiful place like her. I am so sorry for your loss of her, but I know this is not her choice, and it is not your fault either. This is fate. We do not know if we will continue tomorrow. Maybe sleep! Tomorrow I am 19 years old and no. I know where I am. When I was your daughter's age, I tried to commit suicide many times, but I did not succeed, and now I am lost. Sometimes I hope that one of the attempts succeeded, but I do not know. This is a complete loss. I hope that you become strong, encourage us, and become a hero. I will never forget that you are one of the people who made me love life.
@Enderios4 ай бұрын
It is a tough world out there, my friend. I am glad to hear that your attempts did not succeed, since you still have so many things to experience! Happy belated birthday, and I hope you are well now :)
@soapmactavish809027 күн бұрын
I'm sorry to be that guy, I don't want to offend anyone but to be honest most mainstream religions (based around God) say that if you commit suicide you go to hell. Hunting.
@ExocoGDАй бұрын
Anyone reading through the comments, dont reply to the hate comments. All this does is letting them win. Just ignore and report them. Good luck yall!
@anonymous7704Ай бұрын
Am I allowed to doxx them (just to scare them) or that would be too much XD
@ExocoGDАй бұрын
@@anonymous7704 I i wouldn't do that. They most likely just children trying to be edgy.
@ichikosiberoidkАй бұрын
@@anonymous7704show no mercy.
@voxeldraco9 күн бұрын
@@anonymous7704 Don't dox people please! 😓
@anonymous77049 күн бұрын
@@voxeldraco ok I won't 😀
@Yummers39Ай бұрын
Thank you man this was an amazing walkthrough/explanation of Omori. Also R.I.P to your daughter I didn't cry at Omori the game but I was bawling with tears from this video so thank you❤️
@Dhalin6 ай бұрын
@18:56 Inserting notes, tunes, melodies, etc of one song into another is called a "Leitmotif" and it's used to present a musical idea or theme. For example, if you come up with a musical piece to represent a certain character, and you're going to have this character show up later as a surprise, you might use a leitmotif of that character's theme inside of a different musical piece that is playing moments before they show up. I remember seeing somewhere on KZfaq, a video analyzing the leitmotifs of OMORI and there is a *TON* of them. White Space is obviously one of the more well known ones, but there are several others, like MARI's theme, the Forest theme, and several more.
@Love_Yourself48306 ай бұрын
Thank you for the tidbit of information!
@DhalinАй бұрын
@@healthy221 ..... really? You're going to joke around about someone losing their daughter RL? The only bad taste I see here, is your taste in jokes.
@dodsa89076 ай бұрын
That "Im so happy I got to be your dad" was the most bittersweet thing I've ever heard, and even tho it wasn't meant for me, or anyone else but your daughter, it still felt nice to hear. Growing up my dad was never the kind to be exactly supportive, and tought me nothing in regards of feelings but to keep them to myself, and over the years things just kept pilling up, to the point that during 2020 I couldn't see another year for me, I was done with everything, having lost a year of highschool, my gf, my friends, my whole world was falling apart. But even then I kept going, not for me but for my pets, my 3yo cat and my (at that time still alive) 13 dog, to at least give them the best life I could, and despite him passing out I know I gave him a great life full of loveup to his last day, my only regret is not being there for him in his last moments, but with time I learnt there was no way for me to know the exact time and Later on I reconnected with my friends with who still to this day Im talking and doing stuff with, so don't take the easy way out, as tempting as it may seem, there's always someone who cares about you. Even if you don't think so. Please don't be so selfish to make someone go through that anger, guilt and pain. YOU ARE LOVED ❤.
@IAmAQueenCryAbtIt5 ай бұрын
It was the most corny thing ever actually
@Tori_Time_W5 ай бұрын
@@IAmAQueenCryAbtItplease leave, this is about a parent losing his child. If you can't be respectful about that then leave.
@Arandomstrangerlol5 ай бұрын
@IAmAQueenCryAbtIt corny or not shut up We just trying to help the father
@NirilanRBZAGJN5 ай бұрын
@@IAmAQueenCryAbtIt Dog’s used shampoo is cleaner than some failure like you, must be cheaper too. Yeah no, your worth is as much as a fly, a stain
@flamingaish3 ай бұрын
hey man, im so glad you're here with us but i just wanna say, ending your life is not "an easy way out" or "selfish take care
@Mantisbro11321 күн бұрын
Just know your daughter is a beautiful star, always shining bright, watching over you, rest in peace you sweet child
@user-gv8nh4zp8i26 күн бұрын
the fact that somebody made fun of this makes me loose hope in humanity.bro this dad literally lost his daughter due to suicide i hope you have a great day btw sorry for your loss
@Max304-iser6 ай бұрын
Your video (and this game alone after I played it) made me really think.. I have been suffering from depression for many years and and I have been tempted many times by thoughts of ending my existence, suffering. With that being said you should NOT EVER blame yourself for the death of your daughter. My parents were always shaming me, were violent and they never took me serious and I can tell for the fact that you are NOT that kind of person. You tried to give the best life to your daughter that you possibly could and I'm sure she appreciated every moment spent with you. Depression makes you feel like there is no hope for better days because either it is getting worse, or after it got better you land in the same place. I am glad that you always were there and I'm sure you made her see hope even though she at thought that there were none. Sincerely thank you for that ❤
@CosmoNoBones6 ай бұрын
It's so rough when you feel like you've made progress, only to land back on your ass
@Ih8simon2 ай бұрын
I ain’t reading all that💀
@namedrop721Ай бұрын
@@Ih8simonyou’re just afraid no one will miss you when you die. Maybe think about changing that instead.
@Ih8simonАй бұрын
@@healthy221 JERSEY REPRESENT
@kapsaysin6 ай бұрын
⚠This is going to be an extremely long comment.⚠ This is the first video in a long time where I nearly cried while watching. Hearing your story has genuinely touched a part of my heart that no other video has and I'm glad it was recommended to me. I'm sad to hear what happened to your daughter and I'm glad you shared your story. It's genuinely touching to hear you talk about your personal struggles and emotions and it is amazing to hear about a game that touches on a topic like this. I've heard of this game for years and have listened to it's music (final duet in particular), but never gave the game a shot due to the fact it was marketed as a horror game (a genre I rarely touch). Now I want to try it as your retelling of the story has me interested. I want to share a story of mine as someone who has dealt with depression for a long time. Ever since I was a kid, I've been battling depression caused by bullying, trauma and all sorts of stuff that would stack higher and higher until it falls and I have a breakdown. Shitty thoughts would gnaw at my mind and a terrifying anxiety that would slowly envelop my body and send me into a panic. It was a struggle everyday for years and it was only getting harder and harder... I would be open with my family about my feelings, but not friends. My friends wouldn't know why I seemingly became more and more distant, yet I knew that the reason was due to my own mental state slowly dissolving and me slowly becoming more and more emotionless. Some family (not very close anymore) told me I was only like this for attention. Eventually this led to me not being as open with family and I started bottling up emotions. Faking a smile in order to keep those around me happier instead of dragging them down with me. Unfortunately, that bottle would slowly fill higher and higher until it would explode suddenly and violently. I still to this day have a hard time releasing pressure from that bottle. (Remember it's okay to cry) It felt like a hole was being dug so deep that it was seemingly impossible to escape. I constant tug of war against me and my own mind. I always seemed to walk against the edge of my mind, wanting to end the pain. Life only seemed to get harder and harder and I didn't know what to do. My escapes weren't working and it felt like my own fucking shadow wanted me dead. I didn't know how to cope anymore and I couldn't bear those thoughts. Music, art and gaming didn't seem to make me happy anymore. My own progress stunted by my procrastination. I wanted to get better at the things I loved and I wanted to get better mentally. yet it felt like nothing was working. Doesn't help that I didn't know how much of this was caused by hidden factors within my own brain at the time. I did know I had ADHD, but I didn't understand what that meant. (I didn't know I was autistic at all at this point too) Procrastination hurt me mentally, physically and socially. I didn't know how to stop it and to a certain extent, I still don't know how. I tried therapy, but the two experiences I had were ultimately led to betrayal. However, things have happened that changed my outlook on life. 3 years ago, a friend of mine much younger than me, committed suicide. I heard the news during a rainy day and it fucking broke me. For years of my life, I only knew what it was like to have the thoughts of suicide, but I never truly experienced the other side of that grief till then. I took a walk in the rain and it was hard to really understand why someone much younger than me would go through with it. I've been too afraid this entire time and yet they went through with it. I felt like I was weak and that maybe my friend was truly the stronger one by conquering his fear and maybe I should conquer it too. I never did. It was always the last line of defense against my own dark thoughts. Fear was the only thing keeping me alive. I was always afraid of suicide when I was younger despite how taunting it looked because I didn't know what was after death. Existential dread is something I've only recently have gotten better at handling, but it was the one thing always holding me back. But maybe instead of conquering my fear of death... ...with suicidal thoughts on my mind... Maybe I should lean a bit harder into that fear and try my best to stay alive. I'm still afraid of death, but the constant dread has slowly blossomed into a constant need to stay strong instead. I wanted to be strong.... I wanted to be strong for them.... My family, specifically my parents and sisters. Every year, I fall back into the hole, but it's only a matter of time till I get out of it again. I must stay strong. I want to live for the sake of my family and I want to be around and experience life. I love being around my sisters, my parents and of course my lil goof ball of a dog. I'm only 20, but if I lived this long surely I can live 20 more? Maybe 40? Idk, I'll live for however long life wants me to be, but till then my main goal is to stay strong. I want others out there to know that suicide shouldn't EVER be an option. You have people that care and depend on you. Stay strong and remember that without those times of darkness... Happy memories wouldn't be as impactful as they are. Stay strong, you got this 💖 (If anyone needs someone to talk to, just know I'm here and I care. Don't be afraid to reach out to me. Seriously, I care and I'm willing to help.)
@mewbirb97146 ай бұрын
keep going! It's amazing you can keep going just by the determination to be strong. I don't understand what it's like to fall into a hole because I haven't ever fallen into one but all I know it isn't easy to climb out of it. I shouldn't have a big say of what I think of this because Ive never experienced anything like that so all I'm gonna say is good job, your doing extremely good staying strong and people who know what true pain feels like would be very very proud cause I am too, (but remember it's ok to let feelings out sometimes, it makes it easier to fly through life) gl with life :3
@blahdrill6 ай бұрын
i aint readin allat
@burgersnfries6 ай бұрын
@@blahdrill nobody is making you read it all, yet you chose to leave a comment regardless. Why engage with something at all if it's just to express that you aren't going to engage with it?
@anam.77826 ай бұрын
You are so strong, i hope everything goes much better for you, love u
@kapsaysin6 ай бұрын
@@blahdrill I did say it was an extremely long comment lmao.
@tiiramitsuu12 күн бұрын
oh, wow. i really wasn't expecting to cry during this, but i did- this video was heartbreaking, but also so meaningful and helpful. thank you for sharing this
@Sama-l2e2 күн бұрын
I saw some of the comments in this video,and I lost all mercy in society
@ReasonablyBoring11 сағат бұрын
bro went ballistic over some text 😭🤦♂️🤦♂️🤦♂️ im here just to hate
@h4rbing3r_1st6 ай бұрын
I cried heavily watching this. I lost my brother to what I deem as an accidental suicide. Those ones where you don't plan it, but don't care if something happens anyways. I always felt like an asshole for not taking it as hard as the rest of my family did. There was crying for a few days, sure, but after that I felt completely fine. While my other brother will get quiet and seclude himself, and my mom will break down at any mention of him, my dad resulting to anger at himself and others. I've just felt fine. I could talk about him without a problem, recount what happened to people like it didn't happen to me personally and with complete nonchalance. But over time, I have noticed a few things. It's harder for me to draw, and I don't enjoy it much any more. I do still cry at our happier memories, as few as there were (our relationship was extremely turbulent, and I will admit over time I grew annoyed and resented him a bit, even treating him badly. And yes, I do give myself the partial blame for pushing him the way he went). I can never enjoy or fixate on things like I did when I was younger, even with some media I know I should/would. But other than that, I feel completely indifferent, like I always have. I am suspected neurodivergent, and have never done well with emotions, my default state always being what i describe as 'meh' or numb/nothing. Maybe this is my problem with not grieving like everyone else. In a horrendous way, I sometimes secretly admit that things are better now without him than when he was here. I feel like a piece of shit even thinking/admitting it. Our parents argue and fight less, I can hide stuff and save things for later without it being stolen or broken into. I finally got my own PC and room that I can decorate however I see fit. I finally got my childhood dream of having my own cat. I can buy expensive things without worrying they'll be broken, misused, stolen, or trashed. I can listen to music at night, as I don't need to listen if he's sneaking around anymore. It's... sad. There's a moose that likes to visit our house every winter. He peaks through my window to say hi and watch me play games. I've fed him apples once. I call him Buddy. It's what we used to call my brother. I'm so sorry, Devin. For everything.
@candicraveingcloude28226 ай бұрын
Some people take a long time to process all their emotions. Some get them all out in a few days, some have a freeze type response where they kinda become indifferent or numb to emotions. In addition sometimes pain will show itself in different ways and not just "Emotions showing." It seems your grieving is like a "get everything out and freeze" where all your emotions are poured out, and then anything that remains you become numb to. Your pain is coming out in your difficulty drawing, and the lack of enjoyment of things you used to love. I am not a doctor but I belive those things may be related to depression. Depression isn't just sadness but numbness to several emotions. Like experiencing them in muted colours. They may still be there but they're faint if there at all. It may also be that saying things are "better without him" may also be your way of trying to process the loss as well. Many people will call it the "bargaining stage" of grief. It may look like "Maybe if I did ___ things would be different", for many. But for you, it may also look like, "maybe it's better without them because look at all these positive changes since." The way you process is valid and as long as you find support that is understanding and respectful, they may be able to help you process the grief.
@ShadowSkyX6 ай бұрын
Maybe the word you're looking for is apathetic
@chaoticcow43576 ай бұрын
Fuck this hits hard. I'm also a suspected divergent, and while I havent lost a person, I often times feel like I cant grieve how I am expected to. I lost my cat years ago, I never cried about him unless it was something happy. Maybe its a heavier acknowledgement that things have changed, that I won't be able to experience hearing his pitiful, hardly-even meows (he couldnt meow), or watch him eat strawberry popsicles. He was the first cat I had that I could remember, I loved him. And sometimes yeah I'm a little glad he's gone, he always left "presents" on our doorstep, and was often times causing us troubles. But, he was loved. But, I think I like the way I grieve. I hope you're doing well, and keep going, for him :)
@unknownymous-lo6nn6 ай бұрын
How is a suicide accidental? Not tryna bash I'm curious
@mercury2c6 ай бұрын
I'm sorry for your loss, and while it may not feel like it some days, what happened wasn't your fault. I have autism, I feel emotionless when confronted with grief, and it can take years for me to understand trauma. It's okay not to cry, and it's okay to move forward until you are ready to handle what happened. For me grief is like driving down a highway until i need to refuel. I might have a full tank, it might take hours until the next exit, it might take years until I can stop driving, I might even reach my destination without being able to stop at all. Nobody deals with grief the same way. Someone once told me, "you would forgive me for my mistakes so easily, why can't you forgive yourself?" If a stranger on the internet can forgive you without knowing you, I hope you can find the strength to heal. Good luck
@jennaw91205 ай бұрын
I had finished playing Omori and not long after I went to the mental hospital because of my suicidal feelings. I eventually come home to my mom and my little brother. I would then learn that he had picked back up the game and finished it. A few days after we were discussing the game and we start from the beginning. As we are approaching the end he gets more and more upset. He then told me how Sunny and Mari really sounded like us. He goes quiet and starts to cry. I don't see him cry very often so to say I was concerned would be an understatement. He gets up and tries to get away from me but I can't help how pained he sounded. I reach out and pull him in for a hug and he holds me tightly and his crying has turned into sobbing. He doesn't like being touched usually but he was holding onto me like he was going to loose me. I just hold him trying to comfort him and he chokes out "Please don't kill yourself". I shattered, I broke down and told him that "I'm not going anywhere". Since then I continue to be better and get better because I never want him to cry like that again without me being able to hold him. If you are struggling with the same feelings I had please know that you are loved and help is always there for you. To the beautiful man who made this video and bared his heart to the world thank you. Grief never goes away but you help me feel less alone in it. So truly and honestly thank you.
@AmalekIsComing5 ай бұрын
oh brother THIS GUY STINKS
@mikabugg5 ай бұрын
Thank you for this story, really. Reading all the comments, dealing with the same feelings, this was the one that really brought me to tears. I’m really glad you’re still here homie
@nessie-from-earthbound16015 ай бұрын
@@AmalekIsComing Damn not even creative bait
@kellinquinnfeetpics5 ай бұрын
When I tell you this comment fucking crushed me, I'm super glad you're still here today 🫶
@applejustice4 ай бұрын
I’m so glad to hear you’re okay. Know you’re loved, please ❤️ You’re such an amazing person and you can do this. Everyday is just another day that you can get through.
@Pxcified9 күн бұрын
I hope that things are going well and that you and your family are doing okay, you are so strong and brave to be able to speak out about such a topic, i truly respect you for this. Sending love and light
@FreemanorcАй бұрын
The only thing that’s keeping me from suicide, is my family and friends. And even then, I’ve gotten close to the edge before. If you’re ever considering it. Think about your family and friends. Even if you don’t have anybody like that that you know, you still made a difference to somebody. Please do not do it. You’ve changed so many lives already, I do not want you to die, please.
@MomokoMakiDesu5 ай бұрын
The lack of empathy and the amount of disrespect in this comment section is sickening. I hope you all can one day find peace in your heart to be kind to people, especially those who died. And no, disliking omori is not an excuse. You're allowed to dislike the game, but mocking a dead child over that is inhumane. Be kind to people, you never know what they may be going through.
@plantys5 ай бұрын
seriously.. i wish i hadnt went to the new comments. these people make me sick. humanity is lost
@EngiGODS3585 ай бұрын
>Humanity is lost because people were mean once in a KZfaq comment section or something@@plantys Grow up
@plantys5 ай бұрын
@@EngiGODS358 homie dont know the kind of shit evil people are doing in the world right now. and you’re gonna tell me to grow up. grow some fucking empathy
@McNotSassyLostChild5 ай бұрын
Yeah seriously anyone in this comment section telling people struggling with this to kill themselves needs to shut up
@plantys5 ай бұрын
ok im not going react to these obvious trolls L womp womp get ratioed since that’s the only language you understand you chronically online idiots
@xelplaysgames6 ай бұрын
Your daughter in these few clips has such a warming smile it could light the entire night sky while the moon was away. Im so deeply sorry for your loss, my condolences go out to all of you sending my love and care❤!
@JoeyPeter16 ай бұрын
@AmenahMystlove the rage bait
@JoeyPeter15 ай бұрын
@AmenahMyst don’t act dumb you know exactly what ragebait is
@JoeyPeter15 ай бұрын
@@IncestLoverW do not legalize incest
@JoeyPeter15 ай бұрын
@@IncestLoverW also love the ragebait too
@JoeyPeter15 ай бұрын
@@IncestLoverW and it’s you on a different account lol
@Xyn4_64 күн бұрын
Oh my lord the title alone makes you want to cry, you’re a great person. This really makes me want to cry, “I’m so grateful I got to be your dad.” Was just the breaking point oh my gosh
@billybobjoe40626 ай бұрын
My friend on the right side of my profile picture was almost 16 when he ended every possibility of there being a future for him. It’s been over a year, and we still miss him. On the bright side, his mom is doing better one day at a time
@nottzo6 ай бұрын
Im so sorry. He seemed like a fun guy
@6-dpegasus4256 ай бұрын
I'm so sorry man >< I'm glad you keep him in your pfp so his face will always be seen and never forgotten even outside of the ones who did know him
@billybobjoe40626 ай бұрын
@@nottzo He really reeeally was. Though I am finally starting to accept his death and that I have to move on, I still think about him all the time. All the memories of him and I on the bus for marching band or the times in the stands, etc. He was always trying to make people smile and laugh because that always made him happy too. I don’t mean to “pour” stuff onto you/vent, but thanks for reaching out. I like revisiting those memories even though it’s sad he’s gone. I’m 15 myself and I plan to live to see days that he cannot. Maybe even make up for some of his life that he will miss. Again, thanks a lot. I hope you have a wonderful day and rest of your week (technically next but ykwim haha) (((Sorry for paragraphing by the way 😅😂)))
@6-dpegasus4256 ай бұрын
@@N0RIAKI_K3KYOIN dishonor
@ameatballball5 ай бұрын
@@6-dpegasus425that’s bait. Try not to interact with them