Talk to us Knox. We’re here brother

Knox, I know how you feel. I lost my sister right before Halloween. She and I were the last people still alive from the family I was born into. Her son passed away from bone cancer when he was 31, and my sis never got over her loss. Now I am here alone. This is a whole 'nother level of loneliness. You do good, Knox, you really do. I understand the feelings, and the anxiety that creeps in at night. You'll be okay, I swear it, and so will I .

The more comfortable you are talking about your struggles, the more comfortable people will be talking about theirs. Sending positive vibes.

Watched my dad die on the carpet in our home. The feeling of helplessness was overwhelming. We couldn't help him. I still struggle with the visions of that day. You got this lovely, day by day. Much love ❤

Kiddo. Overwhelmed is an understatement… Pressure is an understatement… Grief is an understatement.. You got hit big with loss.. I’m glad you shared… sending you all the good vibes and healing.

I am sure when I say this, but the entire reaction community is behind you! If there is anything we can do, let us know! Much love Knox. ❤❤

I'm a certified peer counselor. I use you, your story and your music to help others learn to heal. This story has so much value. Thank you Knox.

Oh, you sweet, sweet man. You’ve always been so honest and genuine. Never feel like you can’t come here for support. I lost my 25 year old husband to a one time relapse, after being clear off heroin for 5 years, in 2015. Lost my dad 9 months before that. And on and on. It’s hard. We can’t get through this alone. You do what you need to do to take care of you and yours. We will be here.

I'm 71 and most of my family is gone now. Wife, Son, and Brother are all that's left of the close part of my family. I understand your pain. Just remember that people out here love what you produce as well as the kind of man you are. Especially sorrowful about your cousin. God bless him and his family. Rooting for you, friend.

Thanks for sharing that! If a psychotherapist can give some advice: Take your time to process thoroughly, Knox! It will pay off. Sometimes the strongest thing is to allow yourself to be weak. In these times, self care is no luxury, its the crucial skill! There's a time to work your ass off and there's a time to be still and process things - for the benefit of yourself and all around you. Also as a role model for your kids... Again: thank you so much for your honesty. Your'e great man! Wish you all the best❣

Knox, dude... I love you man! It has to be said... What you have created here on this platform; the community you have built, the honest, insightful, Knox Hill certified, from the heart reactions and the music you create because of your love for music has meant that, those who appreciate those qualities and that kind of content have just naturally gravitated towards you. I personally found you through Ren reaction videos and I just loved your reactions! I've since watched a lot of other reactions and you just pick up on so much more it really makes me think with a more open mindset for everything. I also love the relationship you have formed with Ren through your love of music and the similarities of your journeys as independent artists. You and Ren, to me are cut from the same cloth. Your empathy towards others, your connection to your own emotions and your ability to be open and vulnerable, both through videos like this and the music you create, is a real inspiration to those who gravitate towards you Knox! It's a massive, unquantifiable comfort to know people like you are out there making the content you do and music independently because it means its 100% REAL and untainted by big corporate labels. Its true Knox Hill. That goes far deeper than just entertainment for me. So, I believe it should, and does go full circle Knox. As a fan of yours and Ren's, what your content has done for me personally and to the betterment of my outlook on life, I owe it to you to somehow pay it back! So, here goes... Remember Knox... You are only human. You are allowed to grieve and to struggle. You are allowed to rely on others when life gets too much. I missed the opportunity to see my Grandma the day before she passed of bowel cancer and it crushed me at the time. That was around 12yrs ago now, it was hard to take at the time but what I'm left with now is purely happy memories of time spent with my Grandma growing up. When the grief subsides, it gets easier because the happy memories remain so strong. At least that's my personal experience. I think as you get older, it does get easier. You've just had a triple whammy of grief so no wonder you are struggling Knox. Just remember to take time for yourself though Knox to grieve and to heal. Lastly... Keep being you man and keep doing what you're doing and when times get tough, don't hesitate to lean on us like this because we will always be here for you dude ✌

I feel ya brother. This old sailor has been dealing with the death of a daughter in Jan 2021 who died from fentanyl. I’ve been dealing with cancer and how the treatments destroyed me, but I push on, and honestly I don’t know why at times. Im still grieving too. I tell myself a lot, no retreat, no surrender and when going through Hell, keep on going. You got this brother, you can always reach out. God bless.

Big up for speaking out man, you are the voice for thousands. Regroup, reassess, take time out and give yourself space man 💙

Sorry for your losses. Take care of yourself and your family 1st and foremost. If you are not feeling the reaction stuff please don't fake it on our behalf out of a sense of obligation or responsibility. If you decide you need to take a break to regroup, recharge, and heal we will all be here when you get back.

Loss is a heavy burden, I've lost my grandfather, grandmother and my father within 3 months. It is not easy, no one can carry hurt like that on their own. If you see this, i hope you seek help with a mental health care professional. not just for yourself, but for your family too. If you need help, seek it out, don't suffer alone. There's no shame in needing help. You're not alone in feeling the way you're feeling. We are right there with you. Stay strong and keep fighting

Dearest Knox, I am so glad that you have taken us into your trust to share this with us. Thank you for that. In us you have this massive extended family and so many of your followers including me have sent you so many virtual hugs and so much love. I have been through a lot of relentless stuff the last few years including two family deaths and being executor to both family members and something that is now helping me considerably to move out of negative morning thoughts is the realization that we can change our thoughts and help our situation in 17 seconds every morning. Its hard at first but once it gets going and you see it working in your life it really, really helps. For 17 seconds as soon as possible after waking sit by yourself and think of something that you would like to see in your life such as money or a team or money to pay for a team and all you have to do is imagine that is true for 17 seconds - Feel the feeling you would feel if it did happen. I have manifested amazing things doing this. I hope that helps you Knox and anyone else ❤

I lost my husband, my mother, my best friend and my cousin in under 18 months. I'll never be the same again. Trying to raise 5 grieving children while I grieve has been the biggest challenge of my life. Losing my husband especially has shattered my life. Repeat losses hit so hard. It is surviving one day at a time.

I rarely comment. But this one got me. You are a good man Knox. I’m in my late 30’s and I get the stress of “everyone is counting on you, how do I grieve when everyone needs me to be the strong one?” You’ve got a stellar community, and I wish I could contribute more than just watching videos and sharing your songs. With that being said, I can say you’ve had a positive impact on my life as a “random internet stranger”. It’s okay to feel down and take a step back, heck maybe you can get some good songs out of the situation. And I’m not saying that in a mean way at all, music heals. My personal outlet is video games/streaming and it’s fun to interact with my community because I never put on an act. I am me, I’ll always be me. Maybe find a game to play? Hug the family you’ve got. I’m not going to give ya some Bulls*** reply like “it’ll all get better in the end” or something generic like that. Even the days when you’re just going through the motions; sometimes that’s all you CAN do. You’ve built a wonderful community and I know I can speak for others when I say “We got you, let us know what we can do”. I am in your discord even though I don’t talk much. But at the end of the day all I can say is “keep on, brotha. Hit me (us) up if ya need an outlet”.

I lost my uncle right before Christmas. That man was like my father. He taught me everything I needed to know to be a man in this world. He was diagnosed with a rare form of dementia. He went from normal, to gone in under 2 years. It hit harder than I could have ever imagined. All we can do is keep moving forward, and do our best to make those we lost proud. Keep your head up, you’re not alone in these battles.

I know I've binged some Knox videos on days that I'm struggling. And I've rewatched many just because you are spectacular with your reactions and with your music. I lost my dad 10 years ago, and I still have days that I feel like i am trying to keep my head above water. You aren't just some content creator to everyone here. We see you, dude. And we love you. Love to you, your wife and family. Hold onto them and take the time to go through it. I am positive something good will come from all of this grief. You're a total superman for still being here for everyone. ❤

Knox, thank you for sharing. I'm 74 next month son and I am here only for those that still need me.. I lost my first and last born sons, made it through open heart surgery and a critical illness. LIFE is an obligation we have to all we hold dear. Some have left us long before they are gone, drifting through existence, and those who survive against all odds, such as Ren. So, you could say I have adopted you and Ren to help me survive my own pain. You both remind me of what I lost and believe it or not, it brings me joy.

Authenticity, for an artist, is more important than the loyalty of your fans. You are a shining example of a man dedicated to knowing their true self in a discipline of being genuine🌟 Be gentle with your self, it's the only self you've got!

Hi, Knox. I'm so sorry for your losses. My heart goes out to you more than you will ever know.

I’m proud of you for reaching out for support. We’re all in this together. I’m almost 60 now and ran marathons and ultras up until a couple years ago. My mantra on those runs….relentless forward progress. Sometimes that’s the mantra for life too. Just keep moving forward. Try to find the smallest bit of joy in the most mundane moment. Those glimmers of hope are there. Just keep moving. Big hug from a mom and grandma. ❤

Sending love brother - if you need anything at all!... I lost a friend last week from a Fentanyl OD, and I can def understand losing family members. All you can do is celebrate who you've lost and embrace those you have.

You're not alone, Knox.. being dealt blow after blow is very tough.. we all deal with loss and grief in our own way. Take your time with it.. I remember something your friend Ren stated, and I'm paraphrasing.. if you're angry, understand it, be with it, let it go, and give yourself love. In some cases, I have to believe we can replace keywords in what Ren said with words that fit for you, Knox.. Hugs to you and your family.

Right now you need to take the time to care for your family and yourself. Don't push yourself into an emotional breakdown by overworking on top of everything going on in your life. If you need to take a break from creating videos then do that. We will all be here when you return. We all need to make time to care for ourselves or we will break and it will take much longer to heal. Big Squishy Hugs from this Big Squishy Grandma in Oregon.

Thank you Knox. I've been struggling too and suicidal tendencies have resurfaced the past week or so but just watching this gave me a thrust of motivation to keep on fighting. You got this brother. Even though I'm not an aspiring music artists or anything along those lines, your reactions have taught me so much about the intricacies of the art, especially when it comes to Eminem, on top of them being just plain entertaining to watch and vibe along. Keep powering through!

So sorry for your losses. 2023 was unfortunately a year of so much loss for so many people. I lost my son (stillbirth) and my dog on the same day and it crushed me. I'm getting through, but as you said, it's a fight to pull through the grief. My son's name is Casey, which means "brave", so I am sending you a little of his courage and strength to go through this period of grief. Take care my friend.

If that helps you I've been going through depression for a few years now. I'm 29 right now and your videos are such a relief. It's my confort place so just wanted to say thank you for everything man. You're doing amazing work to many people's mental health

Knox once again you’ve helped me with major depression and trauma that I’ve been dealing with, I just got out of a very abusive marriage that I was stuck in for a long time , thankfully my kids and I got out and we are safe now, but dealing with the residual affects of that is very traumatic and life altering, I will be getting therapy but I can’t tell you how much videos like this that you’ve made have helped me, even just the little tidbits at the end of your videos where you say “ your not alone “ have helped me more than you’ll EVER know, because I know that you mean every word, I was so suicidal tonight, the silence gets so loud at night and its hard to deal with these thoughts when your completely alone, but watching this and reading these comments helped me realize I will NEVER be alone thanks to this BEAUTIFUL community of survivors and thrivers , props to y’all man, thank you to EVERYONE in the comments section, each and every one of you have helped by sharing your stories, and thank you once again for sharing yours Knox and for making this video, idk if anyone else feels like it saved their lives but I certainly feel like it helped save mine because I wasn’t in a good place tonight before watching this, much love to you Knox and this community, peace ✌🏻 and love ❤️

Ive been here for years and believe me Knox im not just speaking when i say we're here for (with) you. Thanks for the update and i hope you are able to cope with all the tough times Atm. Ive been drug free 5 years and have seen hundreds of people i know fall from the same thing. Maintain that mental health and keep your head up. I got nothing but appreciation for yours work. Take care bro 2024 is gonna be a banger.

You're in good company, my past few years have been hell and I've barely held myself together. Things will get better, they never feel like it when you're going through it but they do. Everything is a season, there is always sunshine after the rain. I appreciate you and all the work you put in on this channel, I appreciate you getting on here and speaking about not just the positive part of life, we're all here. ❤

New follower here. Found your channel precisely because I’m having a rough day mentally and needed some relief. As a Swiftie, I love your thoughtful reactions and attention to her lyricism. You’re amazing at what you do! I’m so sorry for your losses and hope you take all the time you need to sit with your feelings and learn to integrate this grief into your life as move forward, not simply “on”. From a griever to another. One day at a time. Your followers will be here when you’re ready 💜 Take care.

Prayers bro!!! Life is difficult at times and in those toughest times God has been there for me and help me thru those times!

Much love brother. Lost my dad a few years back, and have recently also watched too many young friends lost to fentenyl related problems. Keep your head up. We all here and we been there before. You're doing great things. Your breakdowns are awesome, educational, and one can tell you really care about the artistry and music. Helping bring up those around you... admirable. ❤

I once read this and it really stuck with me- "There are three needs of the griever: To find the words for the loss, to say the words aloud, and to know that the words have been heard." Knox, I can't claim to know what you're going through, but I do want you to know that you've got people that both hear you & are here for you. I'm so sorry for your loss. ♡

Im struggling too knox my house was broken into and ive lost a lot but im strong imma make it thru. You got this too

4 years to the day that I lost my Mom. I am thankful I was able to talk to her and say goodbye, but it still beats me up. I feel you brother, try to keep your chin up. You got this dawg

I'm really proud of you, man. You make us feel like we're not alone. It takes a village, 100%. This is real-life man.❤Michele. Sorry about your grandfather. He's doing well, IMO. I've been in that tunnel of love and light. I can relate regarding my grandfather. I have so many losses, and it hurts. Thanks for sharing. ❤

I hear you Knox…lost my dad on November 21 of last year. He was my rock and my go to when I needed an ear or shoulder to lean on. Stay strong and believe in a higher power. All I can say is, that it does get better with time. Speaking about it does help as well…praying for you and yours. Peace 🙏🏼

You've got this dude, we're here for you man

I can relate to this so much. Thank you bro for releasing this video. These vulnerable moments of just being real and being human are what touch other people the most. As a content creator people do look to you to maybe brighten their day but this does the same thing. It makes you even more relatable to your viewers. I'm so sorry for the loss and struggles that you and your family are going through. I will keep you all in my prayers. Again, thank you for sharing this moment with the world. You made a bigger impact than you know by doing so. God Bless!

New listener today. Communication is everything. It seems as if you are looking for healers to surround you are this moment. Very understandable. Emotion is a universal language. That's why our testimony is so important for healing. Thank you for sharing this. You say, you make music, hope your vision comes back soon. There are walls that we all hit. Nobody is expecting anything from you, you only know when you can get back on that horse. Music may change but life depicts art right!!!

You're not alone, either, Knox. As Ren said so well, "You won't hurt forever...because life is inconsistent." Much love to you and your family. ❤

There are thousands of people rooting for you Knox . You have always been a source of strength and positivity. Although you don’t know us personally please gain comfort in knowing we have you in our thoughts and wish things will get better . Thank you for sharing this hard journey .

This took a lot of strength to post, I'm sorry to hear that you have been going through it. I know how loss can take a heavy toll on everyone, please don't forget that your words are true for yourself too. You are not alone and to reach out to someone - anyone. Just being able to post this and check in with us shows how strong you are, don't forget that.

I am an only child as well. Totally know how precious each member of your pack is. Prayers for your grandfather and your cousin. What you do on here help so many people in so many ways. Sure your whole communities here for you.

This may get loss in the wash, and you probably have many followers that feel this way too...but... I don't really have the biggest social group, and honestly, I probably have more people I follow daily on KZfaq than actual friends. We may have never met, but I watch a lot of your content. You are a constant in my life, more so than most. In that weird way, I could say you're a friend to me. As a friend, I get where you are coming from. But you need you time. We, as a community of followers, get that you feel the need to keep working to either distract or emote through these hard times. I'm at a loss of words for your loss. and now I'm fumbling for words. Greive the way you need to. We appreciate you. Take your time. My condolences.

I am struggling right now, too. But you are absolutely right. We're not alone thanks to our loved ones. As a fan I wanna let you know you don't just create content. You are spreading positivity. Thanks to creaters like you I kept my sanity during the lockdown. Those who work hard, have to rest more than others. 🙏🏾 Much love from Germany

Stay strong, my brother! 💪 Nothing but Love from us fans! ❤

I hope you get better. I’ve been feeling pretty bad too because I’m in the military and I’m very far away from family. I am in Japan while my family is in Texas. I haven’t seen them in over 2 years and I’ve missed so many crucial moments with them. My grandfather passed away in that time and I wasn’t there to support my family through it

You, my dear, are such an incredible human. I had noticed a sadness in your eyes, but I thought it was just your grandfather. I'm so sorry to hear about all you and your family's losses. You will always have a community of love and support here ❤ Take care of your babies, your wife, your family, and (most importantly) yourself. I hope you know how much you are appreciated personally and professionally. Keep being the wonderful you that you are, and everything will work out exactly the way it is supposed to ❤

As someone who has been mourning for almost a year over the loss of several people this time last year, my condolences and love for you and all the families and friends whom have been affected by those loses.

I gotta a lot of love Knox … life is life and unfortunately things come to the end now it’s your job to make a difference in the world and keep writing and keep doing what your doing … there looking down proud brother ❤

Big love knox ❤ we don't realise how strong we are until we need to be and you've got this mate ❤ Sadly Grief is painful for the ones left behind.. But you talking is also you slowly healing ... Sending you love and healing energies knox ❤💫 stay strong my friend ❤️ 🇬🇧

Love from the UK man… You smash this genre on YT bro. Top boy on the reaction scene. My mother passed at 39 years of age and I was 19 just back from deployment. It’s only now I’m 31 the pain is coming out, your content is an escape and helps people. Trust me 👊🏻👊🏻

Sorry for your loss Knox 😢 grief is such a hard thing to navigate but know you are loved and extremely appreciated. Love all the content you put out. You have helped me understand how much I love music again and also was an outlet for me when my mom passed. It’s hard to deal with and it’s been 5 years today that she left us. It doesn’t matter how long its been it is still not easy. With time you learn to hurt less but the love and admiration is never forgotten. Thanks for helping me cope with my loss. Keep your chin up and know my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. ❤🙏🏼💕🥰

Thank you Knox for sharing your struggles my prayers goes out to you keep strong your doing amazing work love your videos 👏❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🇬🇧

As I’ve learned no matter how many people say they “understand how you feel” nobody will, all we can do is show love and pray for y’all. God bless brother my deepest condolences for your loss.

When I first found your channel in 2021, your videos helped me to get through the thoughest time of my life. Watching you reacting to songs with all the passion you have for music and song writing, became a daily ritual for me and eventually helped me to find passion in music - especially rap - for myself. You really help a lot of people with your content and your music. That being said. Your own mental health is the most important factor. It doesn't matter if you upload less or take time off, we're always here and will be here no matter what. Take your time to heal, for you and your family ❤️

Hey man, i would like to say we are with you man. We are praying that you get the opportunity to process and make sense of these difficult times. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family man. STAY BLESSED, PEACE.

Sending hugs, love and prayer to you and your family Knoxx. There will always be better days ahead. Stand ground soldier, we're behind you.

You’re right this isn’t about putting videos like this out there for attention or subscribers, but it’s affirmation to others that it’s ok to be vulnerable and talk. I’ve got much respect for you, and I’m sorry for your loss. ❤✌️

Oh Knox. You have really been clobbered. 💔 I can’t imagine how hard it is but I can see the pain in your eyes. Please take as much time as you need to process this. Don’t rush back to reacting. We’re not going anywhere. Make your music and try to rest your mind. I know what it’s like to have a mind that doesn’t turn off easily. Focus on your loved ones and yourself. That is ALL that matters right now. Much love and a big mom hug.

So sorry to hear of your loss. Grief is incredibly difficult to go through. It hits you in waves and you just have to roll with them. Unfortunately I went through a very similar experience a few years ago. Lost my mother in law, then my cousin, grandma, husband, aunt and great aunt all within a span of 10 months. During lockdown. Thankfully I had people come along side me and my kids and help us through the grief. So find your people and lean into them. Thanks for being open and honest and sharing. I’m certain you will help others feel like they can share as well.

You said it man. Music helps us heal, music brings us together. Some of us watch artists like Ren because it's relatable and helps us cry, and strengthen through loss and trauma. You have a big support system here of people that care, share and open up.

I feel you man. I am 41, I just lost my grandma who was 97 back in October. It was along battle with dementia and then hospice care, where I personally took care of her and sat at her side till she took her last breath. It has been rough to deal with the death alone, but now I am just utterly lost at what to do now. I am a only kid, my parents are 74 and 68 so I am just loosing sleep day in and day out because I can't stop worrying about loosing them as well. I know it does not concern you, but, I just want you to know you are not alone in your struggles. I hope you find the strength to pick up and carry on, I am trying to do the same♥

I lost my grandfather 👴 about 2 years ago due to Covid he was also like a father to me raised me as a kid 🧒🏻 my parents worked most of the time! What has helped me is definitely my art! And lots of meditation music 🧘 thanks 🙏 for sharing your story with us! I know it’s not easy to do! Just know that you have the power to heal yourself! ❤️‍🩹

Sorry about your loss’ bro, your words are very powerful and moving. I wish nothing but the best for you because you're genuinely a good person with a gift. Keep pushing, thats all we can do in this world.

You're one of the best out here 💯... Keep ur head up & we all got you.

Knox, First off, my condolences to you and your family. I am sorry for your losses. I am telling you what I have told my young Soldiers over the years, "No matter what happens, you have to stay alive, live for yourself and your family." That must be at the forefront of your mind. You have to live, you can overcome the grief, but you must live above everything else. Don't fear taking the time you need to heal and to process things. If you don't already, start an excerise routine, it helps 30-50 minutes a day should be enough. Therapy can also help out as well. God bless, I am praying for you and your family.

My appreciation for this post goes beyond what you could imagine… The universe delivered your message and I fully received it. I’m an independent writer and when your message arrived, I had just gotten off a call that reminded me how many plates I have spinning-the projects, the commitments; the highs and lows of trying to live a life I want. I operate like a team, but like you, I’m a team of one. There’s freedom in it, but more often than not, there’s a price for the freedom everyone sees. Thank you for validating it. I only found you through the Coast Contra reactions. I checked out of almost everything for few days because I felt overwhelmed, and their music put things in perspective. Still, for days I watched hundreds (no kidding) of reaction videos of their music, and I can verify that you are the best at what you do. The absolute best. You’ve got what it takes to make it. Go back and listen to CC’s Breath & Stop. They were talking to themselves and to people like me & you. You’re not alone out here either, I promise you. There’s something greater that’s guiding you through all this. Doubt it if you want, but I promise you, I found your breakdown of Breath & Stop when I was at a familiar low point. I’ve been doing well, but these last few months have had that gray cloud circling. It’s can be dark, and heavy, but you know-always temporary. All the help you need to survive, and soon thrive-very soon… it’s on its way. Feel your feelings, sleep, eat good food, sleep more, kiss your wife and play with your kids-ALOT. Above all, keep believing. You know you’ve got this, and so do I. I know my people when I see them. We’re using the light inside us, for ourselves and the greater good. All these highs and lows, all the risks we’re taking-you already know how this ends. We win. Thanks for believing in yourself. You’re an inspiration.🙏🏾❤️🔥

Sorry you're going through this. Thanks for sharing. There is a song by Jaime Miller called Empty Room that shares a similar experience of losing his nana before he got to say goodbye. Music does help heal.

Something made me jump on here at 01:21 and this was at the top of my feed. I am so sorry you are struggling right now. Big hug from London. That's a lot of grief to process. Wish I could help you with your work load. I really do think you will help a lot of people who are struggling out here. Not only that, but you'll also reach younger fans who look up to you. Your message is that while you'd rather not share like this you've seen the benefits that can come from it and it's healthy to share like this. If you were my son I'd be so proud of you right now... Be good to yourself. You will be OK xx

It’s a marathon, not a sprint….. live in the moment Knox. The fear of returning to depression is real. Sending you massive hugs and support……. this comment section is full of supportive people….. we are also your family. Take care, you’re doing really well under the circumstances.

Take your time to heal. We are here supporting you but mainly hoping that you are ok. You put your heart in the art you make, so creating content just for giving us something is not what we are waiting, we just want you to be ok and do your things when you are ready. Don’t fell pressed, you’re not alone, and you’ll heal with the warm of the people who love you ❤️‍🩹

I'm so sorry for your loss. Sending healing prayers 🙏 ❤️ I lost my mom in 2018 and dad in 2019, then 2 pups. So much loss. I find it cleansing to cry. It's important to grieve and be kind to yourself. And remember the special moments and memories. ❤

I love your new song and no knox you support everyone- let someone else help you with your burden. When they told me to go get coffee , everyone picked that time to tell my grandmother it was ok to go, because they knew i would not be able to.. i was there to see her eyes open and shut .. i laid on her bed till the turned the pacemaker off and played the sung "say something" its been 10 years and the emptiness is still there. You take all the time you need.

Sometimes we don't live day by day, we live second by second. Literally, breath by breath. You're not alone & THAT is a huge plus! I'm glad you talked Knox & I feel your pain. Take the time you need. It doesn't matter if those plates stop spinning & fall, you can get new ones! Hold your wife & daughters & comfort them. Their comfort will make you stronger. You've got this, I promise, you've got this ❤

I feel your pain, I lost my wife to cancer, 16 years ago. I can tell you 2 things. A loved soul never dies and as a new Christian, put everything thing in his hands. Bless you brother.

Same thing happened for me last summer. Was driving to my mom's place to see my grandmother, who I hadn't seen in several years. She passed away a few hours before I got there. Wasn't a huge surprise, she was almost 100, but it wasn't expected either. I was also raised an only child with a very small family, both immediate and extended. It hits hard when any of them pass away, even if they were very old and lived a full life. Sorry for all you're going through. Stay strong, grieve however you need to, and carry the torch for the next generation by being their rock for as long as you can.

We are goin through this together Knox. You know you can always reach out to me. I Lost my mom Christmas eve and getting on camera has been hard since. I'm thinking of you bro.

Hey Knox, thank you for making this video, I have just lost my grandfather a week ago, the funeral is tommorow. While I am going true the grief I am also trying to pass and study for my examens. This video really helps me with putting things in perspective for myself. If you are able to go true the hard moments in life, than I should be able to pass those stupid exams. Stay strong man!

You aren’t and don’t need to go through stuff alone. Share it brother, you’re alright. Your content is great from every angle and the growth has been real and deserved. I don’t know of anyone that feels great these days, but that can give a strength too, knowing that there are others on the struggle with you.

My uncle died of cancer and my best friend ODed and died am sorry for your losses. Reminds me of the days at the NJ shore. Also the crazy times me and my best friends had at concerts. Music is a great release and has gotten me outa some dark times. All I can do is pray and hope 24 is 10000% better!!!! Much love!

I just found your channel this evening and this is why. This is the pure power of this platform. Thank you for being vulnerable and open. I don't know of anyone who isn't struggling right now. It will be ok. We are so separated from death and grief in our current world. We outsource the process. Lean into the grief and know it will be ok. The grief doesn't change, life just kind of grows up around it. Tears heal. Honestly, I'd like to see emotions be normalized for everyone. My 28 year old son self terminated in 2022, leaving a wife, 2 young children, his brothers, and many family who miss him dearly. He was one of the best people in my life and it was an honor to call him my son.

Hey man you’re not the only one. I’m going through a lot of things right now too and I know a lot of people who are doing the same. All in our own ways. Grief is a hard thing to go through especially someone really close to you, even if that person isn’t blood relatives. I’m proud of you for reaching out and not going through this alone. Love you man, love the stuff you do. God Will turn things around for you, he’s working for me little by little, he’ll do the same for you. Don’t stress it if you need a break ♥️♥️♥️♥️

My mother overdosed a year and a half ago from fentanyl, my older brother coped with self medicating, which was bad because he has a weak heart and he stopped his medication and started drinking everyday, now my brother is in the hospital on life support, been sedated for a month now, hasn't looked good, not a lot of improvements for him, You are not alone for hating 2023, I am sorry for your losses, you will be in my thoughts Knox and prayers for you.

Hey Knox. I know the pain well. 2 years ago my older brother passed from Covid. 3 weeks after that my uncle who was like a father figure passed from Covid as well. The best thing you can do is surround yourself with a great support system. We are here for you and appreciate you bringing what you are going through to our attention. We are here for you. You are not alone on a deserted island. I wish nothing but good vibes your way and wish you a great 2024.

Knox....dude...breaks my heart to see someone, anyone struggle with the pressure of being a creator, a provider, father, brother and everything else that life kicks you in the balls with. You are the most genuine, brilliant and empathetic artist I've seen on this f-ing life-sucking platform and will come out of this stronger. But right now you have to go through it, to survive it, to be there for your family. And to heal. To find a new peace, a new center, to overcome this gut-punch. Wishing you peace and health in the new year. You've been "certified" human.

Stay strong!

I tell people all the time be kind to everybody because you never know what their going through. Stay strong knox

Hang in there Knox. In the past 5 years I lost my husband to illness, my big (only) brother to murder by my sister in law, my mom to covid, and this past Fall my best friend to covid complications. I don't have a musical bone in my body except for a passion to listen to music of all genres....it has been my saving grace to be able to listen to you and others like you. I too have limited family, one daughter and my sister. My daughter is in very poor health but she is my lifeline. You have to take time to heal and take care of yourself first. It might sound selfish but you can't help others unless you're ok first. Thank you for all you do for us, the hard work and dedication. We're cheering for you

So sorry for your loss, brother, I lost my grandmother three months ago. I had been living with her and taking care of her for a few years and she ended up with dementia. It has been rough very rough. I’m still not over it, but it gets easier as time goes on. I too am an only child and my grandmother has always been super close with me. So sorry about your cousin and mother-in-law, man. That’s awful. Bless your heart. So much at once. Stay strong brother. I’ll be praying for you, your wife, your kids, and all your family, Knox.

2:57 No judgement here at all, and this is a lot to handle. Thank you for sharing and take all the time you need. I love watching your Taylor reactions and explaining the lyrics from your POV. Sending big hugs to you and your family ❤️🇨🇦

Knox having a platform and using it to be vulnerable and transparent is everything! I am very sorry for you and your family’s loss! We will pray for you all!🙏🥲

Grief 😔 no rules, thats a lot to go through. Thank you for talking with people here. Im new here but can see how much loved you are. If you feel able do speak to a professional when you're ready. Those you've lost are always with you, a part of you. Take care of yourself.

This Christmas we lost my mother in law too. My wife's father died years ago too... it's been so hard. She use to live with us so I get it. I am still grieving. Then I lost my Great Aunt. I have to carry my family forward but Lord have mercy, it's so hard to know how much pain we are in. I'm focused on being strong for everyone else while falling apart on the inside. My family is in NY and I'm all the way in Myrtle Beach so I couldn't even go to aunt's funeral. Mt heart goes out to you brother. I pray it gets easier for you and your family. Just know your not alone. I'm a musician too. You inspired me to get honest about my pain. Thank you for being honest and letting us all in

Man I'm a 2nd generation Australian, my Grandfather was the first person in my family to put down roots here. He has been a massive massive part of my life. I used to spend every Saturday night with him and my uncle. He's still around, he's 96. I'm very conscious of the fact that I'm going to have to face his loss in the coming years and I'm trying to make the most of our time. Im very very very sorry for your loss mate. Hope you're staying strong. Big love.x