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to whom this may concern
my name is Richard M Giese and I have decided to end my life tonight
This isn't an act of agression or vengence towards any one. I just feel like I don't have a place here anymore and I don't think I ever did. I'd prefer to choose my end before the end finds me and I use to be so afraid to write something like this but I'm not scared. I'm not afraid anymore. I'm not here to prove some grand point in order to justify why I did this or what was my ultimate purpose for coming into this world because I've concluded that I never found my purpose. I tried my absolulte hardest to push those feelings of worthlessness off of me but can't fight it anymore.
I would say im sorry but im not. This was for me and while that may sound selfish, I pushed everyone away years ago.
I made it impossible for you to help
to my sister
I know we've disagreed on so many ideologies and fundamental core values but you were always so respectful and you should be proud that you're one of the good ones. keep your head help high because you have so much to look forward to in your remaining years. Try to understand that I fell out of touch because I didn't know what to say, not because I didnt deeply care for you. Even tho I was the broken weird kid growing up you always had my back and you should never forget that.
to my brother
I wish I didnt treat everything like a competition. We are so different yetso similar. Some of my favorite memories are waking up early and playing videogames with you and ive used that warmth to guide me through some of my worst moments. Sometimes I threw you under the bus and ill never forgive myself for that but I hope you can forgive me. I know you always meant well and you've built a life for yourself and I've never been happier to see you succeed.
to my father.
You told me I was a degrace when your mother died and I never really shook that. I know we've had our issues but underneath it all I admire you so much. I hated you for such a large portion of my life but as I grew up I realized that you always had my best interest in mind. I know you still think i'm a sociopath and I don't blame you for coming to that conclusion but understand that I put my walls up as a defense mechanism to protect myself. I could blame you for contributing to my inability to let anyone in, but I know that would be a lie. You did your best and that's all I could have asked for.
PS Im sorry I never paid you back the 4000 for my first tour. I know the resentment grew not because you needed the money but because I failed to keep my promise. You raised me to be better than that.
to my mother
I know this is going to hit you the hardest and I don't want to be anymore of a burdain. I love you so fucking much and I wish you could hold me tonight when I take my last breath the same way you held me in the hospital when you let me take my first. Above everyone else, you meant the most. You didn't give up on me. I know we stopped saying I love you awhile ago but I love you and your snide comments always came from a place of understanding. I can still remember the first time I told you I was having suicidal thoughts a decade ago and how your voice quivered when you spoke about your fear of me living alone. That stayed with me and even though you were never affectionate I know you care about me and I regret not verbalizing my feelings more often. I'm asking you to please move on from my passing and let yourself live again. Life can be so beautiful and while my memories will linger, I checked out a long time ago.
I love all of you so much and im so sorry.
@quietgirl9063 5 жыл бұрын
3 years ago I tried to end my life. I didn't bother with a suicide note, and just tied my head inside a plastic bag. I felt every breath and knew they were my last ones, I was running out of oxygen. I could feel everything slow down. I took the bag off and tried to breath again i sat there breathing harshly. That day I fell asleep crying. The next day I had a therapist session that was treating me for my sexual abused childhood. They asked me if I was ok and I put a smile on my face and said I had never been better. They let me go and I walked away. That night I had a knife in my hand close to my wrist but I couldn't do it. I had never once actually cut my self I was always too weak to hurt my self personally. That night I cried my self to sleep again. A week past and I started to purposely rub against sharp objects, a nail on the wall, a pencil, a broken glass on the floor. Nobody ever questioned it. Today im alive because I decide it. But tomorrow ill be dead if I make a wrong choice. I don't want to die... But i dont want to live either. If you have read this far...thank you. You are ones I have told this to.
@elizabethconnell-brewer4309 5 жыл бұрын
QUIET GIRL i hope things get better please
@frog6673 5 жыл бұрын
You'll be ok
@filippahermansen5232 5 жыл бұрын
everythings gonna be fine, you wil be ok, if you need to talk, im always here
@lanasardarr8591 5 жыл бұрын
No let me tell you something. I'm happy that you still alive, and life will not be great without you. Yeah you want to live, and you don't want to die. The problem is that you have so much pain inside you. that' it. You don't want pain. So do something that makes you happy instead of having pain. You will be happy i promise. So promise me something. Never do this again. Because you may hurt someone else that loves you so much, you parents, you friends and you siblings. Stay alive you are strong. If you die. A part of the world will die to. We need people like you. And i know it's hard to talk to people, but believe me you will be healed. If there is something please tell me i am there for you i promise. And i will not tell anyone about this. I hope you have a great day :)
@del3361 5 жыл бұрын
QUIET GIRL you’re so strong to be a live until this moment i am suffering too you are not alone please hold on
@nicholeadan9003 6 жыл бұрын
I tried to end my life years ago by cutting my wrists, I had sent out text messages to everyone I knew. I was constantly sick and didn’t know why. Physically abused & malnurished by my parents, put into a foster home, ended up in a drug house, raped as a teenager, lived in my car, diagnosed with lupus and told I couldn’t have kids, almost died during a surgery and was in ICU.... a few years later and now I’m a mom of two little girls, almost a college graduate with 3 degrees & trying to start my own business. Life can change & that in itself can be a miracle ☺️
@Random-px4lm 6 жыл бұрын
Nichole Milligan you’re so inspirational, I’m so glad life turned around for you, I’m so sorry you had to go through all of that. I’m proud of you, keep staying strong💕✨
@wxlkxy 6 жыл бұрын
Nichole Milligan wow I hope I can become a miracle one day too cause right now my life is fucked My best friend killed himself a while ago and idk what to fucking do
@bomoore6572 6 жыл бұрын
Beautiful
@bomoore6572 6 жыл бұрын
Wxlkx all you can do is understand why he did it and understand you are not a reason why
@gamingkid9587 6 жыл бұрын
I feel the same you felt I still do I'm 10 I'm young to know this stuff but I tried to kill myself. Whenever I take a shower I try to drown myself but then I get and cry and cry... Plz guys and girls let this be a note to you plz don't do what I did... I LOVE you
@erik5849 5 жыл бұрын
im broken inside. ive never related more to a piece of paper. :'(
@corinnewilson7624 5 жыл бұрын
Are you okay if not you can email me at corinnew2004@gmail.com to talk.stay safe 😊
@erik5849 5 жыл бұрын
Wiggles the Rabbit thank you ❤️ I’ll keep in touch
@sarahortiz5450 5 жыл бұрын
E Manz same here. I just want to end it all. End all this damn pain😭😭😭 but I am here if you ever need anything you can also email me natania2004@gmail.com and so can anyone else. I am here to help because I too understand this pain but I love you all very much so HMU if you ever need anything ❤️❤️❤️
@qwerty-bh8pd 5 жыл бұрын
Okay. So, you know how Einstein wasn't born a genius right? If you work hard enough you can become amazing. For a lot of people that is just empty words. But please *_Please_* tell me if you see this, I can say more.
@hayley5880 5 жыл бұрын
Same here... My friend used to say my eyes would always sparkle bc my soul was so sweet... He hasn't said that in a very long time, he just keeps asking what's wrong... Why am I down... Apparently the sparkle in my eye is gone... Witch means my soul is broken...
@shadow-7885 5 жыл бұрын
*Accidentally clicked* Hmm... -watches- *calls mom* Me: hay mom I just wanted to say *I love you* :`) -hangs up- -breaths- I'mma try to be happy now
@nicomakaveli1 5 жыл бұрын
That's amazing
@Leannaxx2028 5 жыл бұрын
O
@stickertime608 5 жыл бұрын
:)
@suhayraomar2464 5 жыл бұрын
shadow Hi Ppl ヽ(￣д￣;)ノ=3=3=3
@jackiequirk 5 жыл бұрын
cute pfp
@gdvibes8831 6 жыл бұрын
As soon as i read the title i went "yikes the comments are gonna be scary" and honestly I'm so proud of how supportive everyone is here.
@kenarigney5131 6 жыл бұрын
gøød vibés ikr
@ashbell6712 6 жыл бұрын
That's because there's currently 11 other youtube vids by others doing the same thing. I am not dissing it as a concept for any, including this one, I am just wondering if this is going to be the next 'thing' on KZfaq.
@aliciarundle4445 6 жыл бұрын
gøød vibés I thought the same exact thing!
@HAdams-bw4bq 6 жыл бұрын
gøød vibés same! I was like.. **sighs** the comments are gonna be ugly.
@HAdams-bw4bq 6 жыл бұрын
Living Trashbag ikr it's not okay at all.
@chasefarrie7727 6 жыл бұрын
I have depression, suicidal thoughts, cuts all around my body but I still tell everyone I’m fine. I wears a sweatshirt everyday to school to try to be invisible, I eat lunch in the bathroom, i get bullied and picked on because of my weight and I cry myself to sleep. People pretend that they care about me just to try to make me feel better but later they stab me right in the back and make me even more miserable. No I’m not going to therapy and no I’m not talking to people, I stay up in my room and cry my feelings out. I don’t like expressing myself in anyway or form except if it’s through people I don’t know (aka KZfaq comments) I don’t know if I am straight, lesbian, or bi because I haven’t fell for anyone or had my first kiss. All I know is that I don’t belong here and I’ve known that my whole life, from the moment I first took my first breath to now. I hate my life and something may happen, but hopefully something comes and saves me from my misery. From, Person in the comments
@YiKESwasnotfound 6 жыл бұрын
Slurp Juice Stay Alive, Fren ||-//
@rach-lm2zz 6 жыл бұрын
Slurp Juice Please talk to us if you ever need comfort or somebody to talk to. Stay alive💜
@freshellgamz8164 5 жыл бұрын
Don't give up dude
@monsterhighlife105 5 жыл бұрын
be homeschooled .-.
@kawzi4469 5 жыл бұрын
From - Slurp Juice
@BwDove 5 жыл бұрын
Omfg, I literally cried... My eyes are watering. Ugh... Help... Make it stop.
@poozer8142 5 жыл бұрын
F
@georgewashingtonthe184th6 5 жыл бұрын
@@poozer8142 u
@ashleydadovich8040 5 жыл бұрын
I hate my life
@hollytalley7713 5 жыл бұрын
@@ashleydadovich8040 same
@Creepsneakninja 5 жыл бұрын
2:53 for replays. (Comment kept getting lost so imma leave it here now)
@trippyhippie6859 4 жыл бұрын
3 weeks ago, I wrote on here and wrote my last words. I was so down, that I didn't wanna be here anymore. I ended up taking a hand full of pills and ended up passing out on the way to the woods. I woke up in a hospital. I didn't remember nothing. They said I had my stomach pumped and stuff. I can't say I'm happy to be here. Along with everything else I lost, I ended up losing my favorite artist Juice Wrld. Since being back, my life still is shit, but I've learned that not everything is shit. Ya life sucks but it's what you make of it. "The purpose of life is to give life purpose" If your struggling with depression, plz let me kno or someone else.
@miasophia5161 4 жыл бұрын
Bless your soul you precious beautiful angel. You are worth it sweet being i promise. Stay on this earth. Suicide isn’t going to end the pain, it will end the possible good that could become of the pain.
@Military2102 Жыл бұрын
Hi I'm 12 and thank you for sharing your story with us I can't say I related to all the stuff you talked about but I can't say I don't I no I ant a alone but some sometimes i do feel alone and I don't really talk to people about this anymore cuz everyone thinks I'm doing it for attention cuz I've done it so many times but I don't know what to believe cuz I feel like there right but I feel like there not right cuz when I first started I didn't want to talk about it to anyone and I don't know what to believe I think everything is a dream and I'll wake up but I haven't and i don't know if I'm losing my mind so if you can reply to were I no it at a dream thank you for letting me know
@nikkirosiak9632 6 жыл бұрын
My dad committed suicide in 2012, no note, no reason, it was just another Monday other than him not going to work.. This hits me really hard for the sole fact that I can see a lot of what was said to be in my fathers final thoughts..
@trinitygabreylski579 6 жыл бұрын
same thing happened to me....
@jazireedus7124 6 жыл бұрын
My father did as well in 2007, no note either but it always hurts when you realize more and more what could have been going through in their head and how they felt before and during it
@headpatbunnystraphouse9172 6 жыл бұрын
My best friend attempted it twice and it really hit me hard because she was basically gone at one point..but now that I’ve heard this I realize that it’s not her fault, it’s the world around her..
@jennyrichardson4070 6 жыл бұрын
Nikki Rosiak my husband also committed suicide June 24 2012. I found him.
@iyahhh4307 6 жыл бұрын
Xx fan _girl xX I’m sorry for your lost me and my big sister are mad at each other and if this happens to her I wouldn’t know what to do..
@B3A5TorSomething 6 жыл бұрын
My note would be simple: "You wont miss me, And i dont want you to"
@hollytalley7713 5 жыл бұрын
me..-
@Satisvox 5 жыл бұрын
The best note is not one at all ...don't kill yourself God will know when it's your time 😁😥
@beyondbackwater4933 5 жыл бұрын
Hahahaha
@debbydiabetes4750 4 жыл бұрын
Lol😂😂😂
@kingkylienicole 4 жыл бұрын
B3A5T or something hey, you made this comment a year ago and I just want to say I hope wherever you are in life, things are better for you. If they aren’t, just keep going, please. They will be eventually.
@zoeshaff4112 5 жыл бұрын
Wow... his tone of voice makes this so powerful...
@tisa37bokun57 4 жыл бұрын
He probably cried so hard😭
@GoudaGirl 3 жыл бұрын
Does no one else think he is full of B.S.? I’m genuinely so surprised.
@itstino5218 2 жыл бұрын
CGC
@l0vef0rcyrus86 2 жыл бұрын
@@GoudaGirl wtf is wrong with you
@SieraTheChosenOne 4 жыл бұрын
*REASONS TO LIVE:* 💜 1. We would miss you 2. It's worth it to be alive 3. It does get better, believe it or not 4. There's so much you'd miss out on doing 5. You are worth it, don't let anyone tell you otherwise, not even yourself 6. God made you for a reason, you have a purpose 7. So many people care about you 8. I don't even know you, and I love you 9. You are special 10. You are amazing 11. God loves you 12. God cares about you 13. It will be really tough, but it will just make you stronger 14. You'll never be able to listen to your favorite music if you die 15. Someone out there loves you 16. How would your family feel? Very sad 17. Proving people wrong with your success 18. Watching your enemies that doubted you fail at life 19. Being stupid in public just because you can 20. Helping other people 21. Finding your soulmate 22. Decorating Christmas trees 23. Sunrises and sunsets 24. Birthdays 25. Singing & Dancing 26. Growing old with someone 27. Movie nights (The list goes on for reasons to live) Stay strong! It's not the end of the world!) 🌻
@paranormalseeker4829 4 жыл бұрын
i love u
@another_useless 4 жыл бұрын
I could litterly dissprove every point in this list But here are a few -You wouldnt miss me -relligion isnt a reason too continue -how long could i wait for -i wouldnt miss anything id miss out on -im not worth more than anybody else but im still less important -nobody is special nobody is amazing Words are like feelings merely temporary and fleeting
@SieraTheChosenOne 4 жыл бұрын
@@another_useless I don't have to know you to care. :) **Hugs**
@another_useless 4 жыл бұрын
@@SieraTheChosenOne aww thx But im just saying if you had too choose between me and a loved one You wouldnt pick me
@iatemyshit3800 3 жыл бұрын
not the god part , but tysm!! I hope u have an amazing day or night ❤️
@xyn8798 6 жыл бұрын
My brother committed suicide in 2015. I found him bleeding in his room and a book next to him, in the book he wrote his thoughts and the last page was his suicide note. This hit me so damn hard and i just want people to know that if you're struggling with anything, dont choose a permanent solution for a temporary problem. Im here for you, i love you.
@LittlPrincess101 6 жыл бұрын
i’m a really suicidal person, and the only reason i haven’t killed myself is because it’ll break my moms heart so much, and i can’t do that to her
@vannananna3347 6 жыл бұрын
a person. Im here for you. I love you
@LittlPrincess101 6 жыл бұрын
thank you
@luluhonolulu2538 6 жыл бұрын
same
@luluhonolulu2538 6 жыл бұрын
i know I eventually will die or kill myself
@vohge 6 жыл бұрын
Same.
@yulozuchi.864 5 жыл бұрын
Ok how many people cried watching this knowing they probably did the same thing.
@elphge 5 жыл бұрын
Kawaii Pikachu me
@Treeapols 4 жыл бұрын
To be honest, i only got pretty emotional in the inside, i don't know why, but.. I just didn't cry, i feel really awful for that
@kateneko1562 4 жыл бұрын
EmeraldChan owo same... I don’t like crying on the outside so people don’t see...
@Treeapols 4 жыл бұрын
@@kateneko1562 yeah same here..
@Mrsad-ey7uu 4 жыл бұрын
NoI laughed no one cares until someone writes Something like this. No one cares until they're really gone. So it's pretty funny. How everyone wants to care. When you're dead.
@lesleythompson2546 4 жыл бұрын
My note would be simple: Dont look at my search history.
@achuu4091 4 жыл бұрын
We can’t
@Ethan75212 4 жыл бұрын
Same but I'd leave it for the homies and say, clean my search history before my mum sees
@brokeboybrady 4 жыл бұрын
Lazy Artist lmao
@isabelkloberdanz6329 4 жыл бұрын
Lol at that point my search history would just be lostallhope.com lostallhope.com lostallhope.com lostallhope.com lostallhope.com
@cesarluis1612 4 жыл бұрын
Hahahahahahaha same 🤣🤣🤣🤣
@maggierose8567 6 жыл бұрын
When Richie started talking to his mother, I felt that. I've wrote that. When I die, no matter how, I want my mom to know that despite the burden I put on her, I love her. More than anything. I could never imagine my life without her and she's honestly the only person I'm trying for. I may be worthless, I may be too fucked up beyond fixing but I know I would hurt her if I left. She's been through enough.
@ashleyartsco 6 жыл бұрын
Bruja Kween you’re not worthless. That is depression talking or the words someone else put in your head. I hope you could take the steps to move away from that so that it’s not reinforced in your head. Whether it’s family, or friends, or partners, try to choose the ones who try understanding and kindness instead of insulting. You’ll be a lot happier when you let go of the bad habits or negative words. Good luck.
@itsarandompersonwooptydoo5448 6 жыл бұрын
Bruja Kween aww I feel ya bud
@kimberleyfox7309 6 жыл бұрын
when he did the mother part that hit me deep cause.... my mum saved me and took me to hospital a few days ago when I tried to take my life due to depression
@v3ga835 6 жыл бұрын
kimberley fox dude can you watch and share this so people can understand
@spedwagon5705 6 жыл бұрын
That's Deeeeeeeeeep
@capric0rpse 6 жыл бұрын
Ugh. This hurts. Keep having to pause because my tears are in the way. Don't like my 3 yr old seeing me cry. I'm sorry Richie. You do have a purpose, whether you don't see it, but who am I to talk when I feel the same.. This hits too close to home. Stay strong Richie.
@aliciarundle4445 6 жыл бұрын
Mimi Murdaa this hits really close to home for me too. My 2 year old son is sitting by me wondering why I'm crying..Stay strong. You're baby needs you❤️ I wish you the best!
@madison4257 6 жыл бұрын
Mimi Murdaa yess
@ashbell6712 6 жыл бұрын
Marketed meloncholy
@v3ga835 6 жыл бұрын
Mimi Murdaa please help me share this this happen today
@-v324 6 жыл бұрын
I started to cry listening to this I aslo felt bad and sadly I relate and like darude dankstorm commented "stay strong my guy."
@zackpotter6363 2 жыл бұрын
Ok so little story time here: I was 14 when I first attempted suicide. My dad had just cheated on my mom and my life was shit. I had lost a bunch of friends and my life wasn’t good at all. One day I tried, my mom was asleep and my brother was out of the house. Fortunately, the pocket knife I used to try to bleed myself to death, was dull. Too dull to go deep enough to kill me. Second time was when I was 16. My best friend killed himself and I blamed myself day and day. Then my grandpa died, I was super close with him and it destroyed me. I tried to bleed myself out again. Only stopped because my girlfriend called me crying, and I knew I had to help her. Third time I was 19. My mom was diagnosed with cancer, my brother went into the military and I, had been diagnosed now with bipolar (I had been diagnosed with severe depression at 15). I tried yet again to die, but this time by hanging. The only reason it hadn’t succeeded that time, was because I was stupid and didn’t tie the knot tight enough. I tried again multiple times during covid (I was 21/22). Nothing was going wrong this time, I just couldn’t handle the pain I felt anymore. Yet again, somehow I failed. This time I tried overdosing. I had a shit ton of painkillers and vodka (I believe I don’t remember) and I remember passing out. I woke up an hour later and called 911. The operator was the sweetest woman I ever talked to. She told me about her attempts as well and I found I wasn’t alone. Fast forward a year and a half; I am doing well. I have a fiancée and am in therapy. I haven’t had any thoughts for a bit, and I’m taking medicine for my depression. I finally realized that all my attempts failed, not because I was weak but because I had a place in this world. If you are still reading this, thank you. You are not alone.
@theastronomer7 2 жыл бұрын
Yes, I'm reading this. Hope you're doing good now! Have a friendly hug dude :)
@ygsstaff4096 6 жыл бұрын
Im crying. I felt that deep in my soul. I lost it completely when he spoke of his mother. I've thought of this before and have been depressed before.
@inariuscarter3843 6 жыл бұрын
Damn. I felt this to the core.
@raine4898 6 жыл бұрын
Inarius Carter i felt it too
@BloodQueen66610 6 жыл бұрын
Me to,made me cry so much to know such an amazing person feels/felt this way and of course it hit home with me 🙁
@gracelynn4408 6 жыл бұрын
yeah.
@brirosecharlestongray 6 жыл бұрын
I got so close to crying when he got to be part about his mother
@Emily-gl6vm 6 жыл бұрын
Brandy Massey he’s a bad person he cheated on his wife
@ericaevoy1 6 жыл бұрын
This actually touched my heart. I used to feel this way but I've been sober for five days and I know it doesn't seem like much but I've come so far since last Wednesday.. I hope no one ever has to feel this way. There's always someone out there hoping the best for you.
@kenarigney5131 6 жыл бұрын
I'm glad your sober now and plz stay that way and congrats on staying sober
@ericaevoy1 6 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much 💗
@bnljaney 6 жыл бұрын
Congrats, I've been there and it's really hard. I never worked a program and maybe I should have but no matter how you do it you're not alone. DM me on twitter, same name, if you need someone to listen.
@Cortney_Mikel 6 жыл бұрын
One day at a time, girl. You got this. 💜
@katiemolloy9073 6 жыл бұрын
Congrats on staying sober. It takes a lot of courage to make it that far and hopefully farther. Stay strong
@bro3874 5 жыл бұрын
It starts at 2:51 good luck not crying!
@wenrong7497 3 жыл бұрын
I cried, it is relatable
@0nobodyspecial018 5 жыл бұрын
I saw the title and I clicked this video knowing that I was gonna cry while yelling at you, saying how you were a beautiful human and that you deserve to live... but then you told me to let you explain ;-;
@emo_band_official7177 6 жыл бұрын
I just cried his voice sounds so heart breaking. Richie no matter what people say about you i know you have done your best to be a good person. I know you have messed up in your life but everyone has. Dont let your mistakes define you. Let all the kids you have undoubtedly saved tell you how much you mean to them. Without you lots of really good people wouldn't be here on this planet. So every time someone talks shit on you ask them if they have saved countless lives. No they haven't... And if people want to deny that you have saved kids show them this because I am one of those kids. You helped me in so many ways i dont think i can name all of them. You helped me when my friend couldn't take it any longer and killed herself. I miss her every day. You helped me when i was kicked out of my house. You helped me when i was considered killing myself. You help me with my anxiety. So all i can say is thank you...
@booberlee 6 жыл бұрын
Now I know why you said it would be demonetized. I am glad you’re here to sing this there’s a lot needed to be said.
@dylanharding5720 6 жыл бұрын
Booberlee he couldn't monetise this video anyways.
@tedsava1800 6 жыл бұрын
bitch i got an ad as soon as i clicked you wanna try again?
@booberlee 6 жыл бұрын
Ted Sava he said it was going to be demonetized yesterday ..🤷🏼♀️
@ashbell6712 6 жыл бұрын
UsulPrincess yep, also not 'family friendly' when he opens each of his family members up to public scrutiny via this 'letter'. I hope he asked them first how they felt about this.
@jenna5793 5 жыл бұрын
When you started talking about your mom I broke
@autumnginn-kelly3185 5 жыл бұрын
I tried to end my life 4 times in the last 2 years and every time my best friend found and saved me I made her promise to never tell my family. No one knows except the people reading this I’m trying to get better.
@adriana4393 6 жыл бұрын
“You’re to young to take your own life.”-social repose 🖤
@mars7609 6 жыл бұрын
Adriana Villa28 -your- you're to young to take your own life- social repose 🖤
@adriana4393 6 жыл бұрын
Clam3944 ok fine 😂 let me change it hold on...
@ruth2710 6 жыл бұрын
Welp the part to his mother his me the hardest I’m sobbing now. This is just so emotional and it pains me that he felt like this, mostly because i do feel like this.
@aaliyah9378 5 жыл бұрын
the part for your mother hit me the hardest & brought me to tears, i understand/relate to this entire video completely. i hope you are doing okay now❤️
@dreamyyhelen 6 жыл бұрын
I am crying. Last year I felt so insecure about myself and my body. I got bullied for 5 years, then changed schools. At my new school I was the Nerd. Got bullied even more and began cutting. Didn't know how to stop. Then went to another school in the same year. Met my best friend, who haves almost the same experience, and together we fight everyday. I love him so much. And I love you, all of you. You're not alone. ♡
@erinrigatoni7997 6 жыл бұрын
Some may say he puts this up as crying for attention, and maybe it is. But is a cry for attention that bad? We all need someone to listen and stay by us and tell us it’s ok. To have our back even when we don’t have theirs. To notice and respect us for who we are. This comment was supposed to go somewhere else but whoops. Feelings get carried away. This brought tears to my eyes and I haven’t had that feeling in a long time. Putting this up here is a very hard thing to do, and it helped me out
@ashbell6712 6 жыл бұрын
Lynn Bassoonist I am glad (sincerely) that it helped you and others - the reality is that what speaks to one person one way speaks to another conversely. i don't begrudge him success but i do question his approach because the consequences of choices like this sometimes become my reality to face. Myself, and others like me face regular challenges in trying to safeguard kids or young adults from what the freedoms of social media platforms allow their content creators to post online. I only know of this person because several months ago I was sitting in front of a 13 yr old who was quoting him directly as being their inspiration for suicide ideology. All I am saying is that when he throws around phrases like 'artistic expression' etc he can afford that pretention because he keeps a distinct line between himself, his audience and the consequences of whatever he says or does - so, it's so much easier to dance around artistic theory as nothing but a self-imposed detachment from the realities of the world when you're not dealing with the consequences of your influence but people like me ARE dealing with that. We are dealing with distraught parents/families, and kids in circumstances you really don't want me to describe here. So, the bottom line question is this - it's not about legal responsibility here, but what about moral accountability? I am simply asking if there's a grown adult making his money from a popular, international media career, and most importantly one where it's clearly defined/known what the age range demographic of his viewership is don't you think there should be some level of personal responsibility better exercised here in his content?
@markwildt5728 6 жыл бұрын
Yes. This kind of screeching for attention is bad! It's not a cry for help, but a "hey everybody, look at me! Im edgy, dark and mysterious! I'm so unique.... Blah! "
@damjanbenoit5981 6 жыл бұрын
Mark Wildt You came from Devon Tracey’s channel too?
@followthesnailtrails5495 6 жыл бұрын
This notes is literally YEARS old. It's a cry for attention from the past. How can you possibly defend this? He is not helping anyone but himself. In fact, I think this has negative impact on humanity as a whole, since some people will now think they can also fake suicide notes and get attention that way. It's sad, but not in a suicidal way. Just pathetic.
@LuciusVorenusOfficial 6 жыл бұрын
This was very hard to listen to. Especially the part concerning his mother. I’m very close with my mom, so that was just… very sad.
@tonycardonafilmclass5115 6 жыл бұрын
BugsyBadger with me it’s the opposite my mother told me I was worthless and my dad is always there for me
@sarahichele 6 жыл бұрын
fuck i feel
@bigtrolla 5 жыл бұрын
I've written so many of these 😫 I'm now a widow.. but my husband gave me a daughter. I found my purpose. Listening to this I tear up. It's crazy as hard as life gets now.. even if a suicidal thought crosses my mind. I have her, and a piece of my husband and soul mate forever. Thank you for this. It was powerful and brave.
@Thesnackthatsmilesbackgoldfish 5 жыл бұрын
"If you only had a couple pages to close your life, what would you say?" That is a great quote
@mothblood877 6 жыл бұрын
I don't know why, but I really like you're handwriting. I think it might be because I also have really messy writing to I guess my note kinda looks like yours. I suppose it's just something I can relate and empathize with.
@lilxxxtrippieyungbanzlean3177 6 жыл бұрын
Renegade Six emos are wierd
@kenarigney5131 6 жыл бұрын
Lil Xxxtrippieyungbanzlean well so is your name get rekt fool, lol your name is good
@mothblood877 6 жыл бұрын
Lil Xxxtrippieyungbanzlean I mean... You're not wrong
@julianvera5580 6 жыл бұрын
Lil Xxxtrippieyungbanzlean no they are normal people just with different feeling
@tifKh 6 жыл бұрын
Renegade Six Sorry, you’re right. That was rude.
@oliviacampbell6623 6 жыл бұрын
Dear person, I'm sorry I slit my wrists and let the blood flow and did not reach for the telephone. I'm sorry I didn't scream to let the neighbors know that I was in pain. I'm sorry I made my eyes so dry that I could no longer cry so I slit my wrists to feel the pain again that I craved ever so much. I'm sorry I was a burden to you and that I was never the perfect daughter and I never did as you asked and challenged you to the breaking point. I thought it would be a relief for you to just end it all. It's a dream to be finally where I've always wanted to be. I hope you know why made this decision. You probably don't understand, and your probably confused as to where you let me down. You never let me down, it was the one who hurt me that let me down... you know, the one who touched me and told me it's okay and to trust him, as he shoved me in the closet and made me make up excuses that we were just playing barbies and that it was night time and they were sleeping and to be quite. But I was the one that woke them up... I woke them up with my tears that fled from my eyes and landed on their faces because they were hurting too, they were scared. I told him I wanted to leave but he choked me instead. I'm sorry I waited until I was 14 to tell you this... 10 years I waited... for the right time, I guess this is it, I'm sorry... I truly am sorry. Love, -Olivia-
@vannananna3347 6 жыл бұрын
Drama Queen you dont have to be sorry its not your fault and i know how you feel i really do.
@danielabreu2248 6 жыл бұрын
I’m at a loss for words but stay strong a never let anyone bring u down it is ok and just tell people what happens and how your feeling just like u did now I hope u feel better and it’s not ur fault stay strong
@thomasdarkraven9601 6 жыл бұрын
It's not your fault, please don't hurt yourself i know we don't know each other but I have a feeling that you are a incredibly amazing person and the world would be a lot darker without you 💗
@maggiew6962 6 жыл бұрын
Thomas Black wish someone cared about me. I'm just a stupid, trans person. why would anyone love me.
@thomasdarkraven9601 6 жыл бұрын
Drawinglover 45 000 your a human being still so someone must love you
@erefy7651 5 жыл бұрын
This is full of so much emotion and feeling, this is truly beautiful. For everyone out there going through things like this, remember that you are loved. There is a person out there that loves you. You don’t even know they exist but they do.
@bb-oq8oe 5 жыл бұрын
Appreciate the things while you can.. My mom recently passed away and I can't do anything I wish I could've done. Do whatever you can whenever you can. Make the time. Send a random text saying "I love you". Appreciate everything while you have the chance..
@Pixarmmom 6 жыл бұрын
I wrote a 10 page essay with my suicide note
@annamarie5738 6 жыл бұрын
Satan I’m so sorry if you need anyone to talk to I’m here.
@swiggityswooty9625 5 жыл бұрын
Are you proud?
@WitteArtistry 6 жыл бұрын
That gave me goosebumps.
@Tsutsu-moon 6 жыл бұрын
Witte Artistry same...... Sadly i think like this 24/7 but I stay so i don't make others upset because I left them i made a promise to someone i love that i wouldn't die by my own hand I help everyone even tho i cant really help myself if you need anything just ask and i'll give you my Instagram so we can talk on them😊
@Tsutsu-moon 6 жыл бұрын
Witte Artistry there*
@elijahcamper7431 6 жыл бұрын
Jesus Christ stop airing this shit for attention
@djnigga4946 6 жыл бұрын
Witte Artistry same that shit scared me
@Tsutsu-moon 6 жыл бұрын
noob crusader whos aiming for attention i'm sure as hell not so stfu
@punkrockboy860 5 жыл бұрын
This made me cry a little bc I know what its like to have suicidal thoughts
@markwalsh2992 5 жыл бұрын
Same
@dachendiggins7100 5 жыл бұрын
Are u weak than? A weak person will pull the trigger, a strong person would laugh at those thoughts. So prove to me ur strong or are u nothing but a coward
@mr.random9239 5 жыл бұрын
Same
@jasminexox1232 5 жыл бұрын
punk rock boy same😞
@whatdidyousay541 3 жыл бұрын
Same bro
@nati7959 5 жыл бұрын
It’s weird cause I related to every. word. And then I couldn’t stop crying. 😭😭😭 The words you said about your brother cut me even deeper, because I can relate except my brother passed away and he’ll never hear me say anything like that...The part about your mom...that’s where I broke.
@maddiebyerly7263 6 жыл бұрын
This actually encouraged me to get help.
@v3ga835 6 жыл бұрын
Thx for geting help because i do believe in the immortal soul and don't want people to go to hell
@zoeallin4756 6 жыл бұрын
The Mom part made me ball my eyes out😭
@quaestrishufnagel6276 4 жыл бұрын
If I had a page. I'd simply say. I've forgotten the taste of holiness. And the sound of my mother's voice. The embrace of a father's love. And the laughter of a kid sister. The iritance of a brother is but lost to me and though many may look for a reason... Please know that I'm the only one.
@getscared_atmychemical_dis7276 5 жыл бұрын
Richie.... I cried... You have so much to live for.
@Chewy_Llama 6 жыл бұрын
Stay Strong Richie. ❤ The sad thing is...I know people who think suicide is stupid, and that it's a weak way out. The truth is though...It's not stupid..And it's not something people should be teased about....Some people feel like they are living through a hell they cannot escape. It's not to get people's attention...But it is seen as an option for relief. Sometimes you just feel so empty inside and so alone in the world because no one understands.... We're all here for each other because we care about each other. Sometimes it seems so hard not to let go. Stay strong everyone. ❤
@pgood7266 6 жыл бұрын
Chewy Llama it’s 100% for attention and suicide is a weak way out
@evanhildebrand2851 6 жыл бұрын
P Guid fuck you go to hell
@jlynnhuang4094 6 жыл бұрын
You have **(1 MILLION) ** PEOPLE HERE WITH YOU
@deann4342 4 жыл бұрын
I felt every single word you said in this note. I haven't genuinely cried like this for a while now and it's bringing back a lot of memories. I remember being in 5-6th grade and crying almost everyday and everyone just pushing me aside, not even asking how I'm doing. When I would cry, it was because I felt alone. Even though I had friends, they didn't feel like they were real to me. They would always pick me as the last option and sometimes even forgot about me. Most of them wanted to show their bodies off for boys and I didn't want that. I felt like I was obligated to do what they did, so I would have friends. It made me feel worse than I did and I got nothing but embarrassment from myself. I felt ashamed that I was so easily manipulated and would do anything to keep my friends. The teachers didn't make it better. They assumed that I was just shy and naive. And after a while, I started to think so too. They never once looked beyond all my silence in class and being distant from everyone else. There were times where I was tired of them saying the same things about me and never getting to know me. One teacher told me that I couldn't be a singer because I was quiet. I stopped dreaming of it and just wanted to live however life chooses for me to. Then my mom home schooled me. I was lonely and alone, but I did meet some interesting friends who actually wanted to learn like me. It was until now that I knew what I wanted to do in life and wouldn't let anything stop me. I'm making music now, learning the guitar, and signing up for a veterinarian college or maybe acting, where I can study abroad. I feel much happier now and I have many more goals than I did in the past and it's very beneficial for me. I'm in advanced classes now and I'm an A/B student. I'm starting to feel like my old self again. Slowly but surely♥ Love♥Skye
@-RainBreeze- 7 ай бұрын
I hope you're still doing great!
@insanityangel2391 5 жыл бұрын
I'm crying. So loud.
@elliot8667 5 жыл бұрын
dad: why you crying so damn loud
@kenna5364 6 жыл бұрын
i’m actually crying wtf :(
@gortini463 6 жыл бұрын
mack. I am too, but your profile picture made me wheeze. Now I’m sitting in the middle of my bed, home alone, crying and laughing, probably with eyeliner streaks.
@kenna5364 6 жыл бұрын
Limited Edition lmao mood
@editsontoast 6 жыл бұрын
Honestly the dan in your pp just looks like it’s ugly crying
@kenna5364 6 жыл бұрын
EditsOnToast lmaoo
@LilPulp 6 жыл бұрын
my therapist told me to write down me feelings too he was a good therapist and i feel like it really did help me to not just isolate myself and it would help me open up to people more when i got used to being able to say what i was feeling. edit : i really like your music and your style. this was actually kinda a good song though its kinda "edgy" i can relate to a lot of things on this when it comes to feeling. i dont think its a good thing that i relate to some of it but depression is a thing a lot of people go through.
@zoemanley4997 6 жыл бұрын
Good job
@AlexSmith-fb5gp 5 жыл бұрын
This made me cry. I was suicidal, a year ago and I tried a couple of times and faild because I didn't want to hurt my family but they will never know of those times. I want to thank you for showing this letter because well, it will open many eyes.
@sjtheneko.left.9639 4 жыл бұрын
Listen, if you ever feel suicidal again... just know, you are not weak. I believe in you!
@beccawilson731 5 жыл бұрын
The part "though I may linger in your memories, but I checked out a long time ago," hit me like a collision with a brick wall. No one is perfect. Straighten yourself up, keeping achieving, and eventually you may feel whole.
@gothycouch 6 жыл бұрын
ily please don’t die
@angelalexa1018 6 жыл бұрын
Hi not to be rude but just in my opinion, I think your comment is slightly inappropriate. The "please don't die" doesn't sound like something sincere, it almost sounds like its supposed to not be taken seriously. But I agree that he shouldn't die.
@amberlynstock 6 жыл бұрын
I honestly would probably be thanking everyone for everything they had ever done for me. But I’m not planning on doing anything close to suicide. I have friends who are suicidal, but remember to never let them go. They are special. y o u a r e s p e c i a l. y o u a r e w o r t h i t.
@notmyselfusee 6 жыл бұрын
In general, I would guess that the ability to express a large amount of gratitude would make you less likely to be suicidal.
@yang_shi_ah2364 4 жыл бұрын
I wrote suicide notes too when I'm feeling down and I also turn them into songs. I have over 40 songs now
@AsianHeisenberg 4 жыл бұрын
Uh I’m sorry your feeling down
@dessertgirl4103 4 жыл бұрын
Hey do you wanna talk?
@yang_shi_ah2364 4 жыл бұрын
@@dessertgirl4103 do you have Insta?
@dessertgirl4103 4 жыл бұрын
@@yang_shi_ah2364 no I have snapchat though
@yang_shi_ah2364 4 жыл бұрын
@@dessertgirl4103 oh I don't have snap.
@gaylielankford3337 5 жыл бұрын
OMG if I did that my song would be like an hour long
@arespectfulsimp3563 5 жыл бұрын
Gaylie Lankford, oh....
@wakeshfoundation 4 жыл бұрын
Same
@elias.7513 6 жыл бұрын
For any artists,this would be painful without a doubt. But making a song out of it and using your voice is very therapeutic. In the end it's a release,a safe and harmless release.
@salty5095 6 жыл бұрын
It was very brave of you to do this. We respect you 💕
@milkytea2111 5 жыл бұрын
The brother part has me in tears because I have a older brother and even though we don't talk that much anymore, most of of my young memories are watching and playing video games with him. Honestly...I don't know what I would do without him. 😭😭
@dylaninpieces2 4 жыл бұрын
[Intro] Call (Call) Call (Call) Call (Call) [Verse 1] What's my problem? Well, I want you to follow me down to the bottom Underneath the insane asylum Keep your wits about you while you got 'em 'Cause your wits are first to go while you're problem-solvin' And my problem? We glorify those even more when they... My opinion, our culture can treat a loss like it's a win And right before we turn on them We give 'em the highest of praise And hang their banner from the ceiling Communicating, further engraving An earlier grave is an optional way, no [Chorus] Neon gravestones try to call (Neon gravestones try to call) Neon gravestones try to call for my bones (Neon gravestones try to call) Call (For my bones) Call, call, call (Call, call, call) Call (Call) Call (Call) [Verse 2] What's my problem? Don't get it twisted It's with the people we praise who may have assisted I could use the streams and extra conversations I could give up, and boost up my reputation I could go out with a bang They would know my name They would host and post a celebration My opinion will not be lenient My opinion, it's real convenient Our words are loud, but now I'm talking action We don't get enough love? Well, they get a fraction They say, "How could he go if he's got everything? I'll mourn for a kid, but won't cry for a king" [Chorus] Neon gravestones try to call (Neon gravestones try to call) Neon gravestones try to call for my bones (Neon gravestones try to call) Call (For my bones) Call, call, call [Bridge 1] Promise me this (Call, call) If I lose to myself You won't mourn a day And you'll move onto someone else Promise me this If I lose to myself You won't mourn a day And you'll move onto someone else (Ooh, call, ooh, call) [Chorus] Neon gravestones try to call (Neon gravestones try to call) Neon gravestones try to call for my bones (Neon gravestones try to call) Neon gravestones try to call (Neon gravestones try to call) Neon gravestones try to call for my bones (Neon gravestones try to call for my bones) [Bridge 2] 'Cause they won't get them No, they won't get them They won't get them But they won't get them [Verse 3] Don't get me wrong, the rise in awareness Is beating a stigma that no longer scares us But for sake of discussion, in spirit of fairness Could we give this some room for a new point of view? And could it be true that some could be tempted To use this mistake as a form of aggression? A form of succession? A form of a weapon? Thinking "I'll teach them" Well, I'm refusing the lesson It won't resonate in our minds I'm not disrespecting what was left behind Just pleading that it does not get glorified Maybe we swap out what it is that we hold so high Find your grandparents or someone of age Pay some respects for the path that they paved To life, they were dedicated Now, that should be celebrated
@tylerskneed5409 3 жыл бұрын
NEON GRAVESTONES BY TWENTY ONE PILOTS :DDD
@breathingtrash9721 6 жыл бұрын
Dear Family, I’m sorry I am no longer breathing but you guys don’t know how much it hurt to live. I’m sorry little sister of one minute I’m sorry that I couldn’t help you break out of your shell you mean the most because from the first second of our lives you have been there to listen and to laugh and to make me feel better it was us against everything you are my other half best friend and the best twin sister anyone could have asked for I love you Older brother I’m sorry for not making your life easy and for always challenging you but you’ve never made it easy for me either you told me more than once to kill myself and how that I have how do you feel hopefully you can tell me while your standing over my grave. I have something to tell you I forgive you and I love you older brother Hey father remember when I was younger and you used to hit mom yeah I thought you would I saw it every time even though you couldn’t give a fuck about me or my mom sister and brother I still love you because at the end of the day you are my father but I am not sorry and I do not forgive you for all of the terrible things you have done Hello mother please don’t be sad I think you’ve known this was gonna happen you’ve sad somethings that really hurt and you have done things even worse I’m sorry you had two daughters instead of one like you wanted I’m sorry for not making it easy I’m sorry for everything I love you I’m sorry for not being a great daughter,friend,student,sister, but most of all I’m sorry for not being a better person I’m sorry for being two broken to be fixed I’m sorry I couldn’t tell you goodbye in person instead I told you on a sheet of useless paper but I knew that if I did say goodbye I wouldn’t be able to bring myself to do what I have done. I’m sorry I couldn’t get better. I don’t know who will be hurt the most but I was a lost soul who didn’t belong on this earth anymore. One last thing before I go I want to thank you all of the laughs the happy memories the times were we’d just talk about random things thank you for the small and big things once again I love you all. Love your broken little angel, Savannah
@rach-lm2zz 6 жыл бұрын
Depressed Introvert Would you like somebody to talk to? If so then I’m always here, stay strong💜
@breathingtrash9721 6 жыл бұрын
Rachel Thank you so much for taking time to talk to someone you don’t know pure heart of gold 💛
@ms.stealyagorl824 6 жыл бұрын
Dont you fuccin do it bb
@AW-hv1jy 5 жыл бұрын
Hey, I hope you are ok! Please try and find someone to talk to, things might not get better, but even if they don't if you try to stay strong enough to keep living... then at least you know you didn't miss out on the happiest days of your life.
@matthewmckenzie541 5 жыл бұрын
Yo I'm here for you I'm going through the same thing if anybody here wants to talk my email is blackcat14077@gmail.com
@sinnylynny2986 6 жыл бұрын
This hit hard. From the comments it looks like I’m not the only person it hit hard with and I’m glad to know I’m not alone. I used to write suicide notes before I planned to end my life too and I’m so glad I did because writing it all out and imagining the pain my family would go through after finding my body was so much worse than the pain that made me want to end it all. If you struggle with suicidal thoughts and depression, I want you to know people are there for you. I’m here for you.
@attywattybatty 6 жыл бұрын
same except i didn't write the notes. I'm gonna try that though
@dalegonzales7669 6 жыл бұрын
i wanna write a note for the soul fact of just wanting to i think it would be a good way for me to vent,i dont want to end my life i just want to try it out...but if anyone ever found that note...
@candisadcock9748 5 жыл бұрын
I cried when I watched this bc iI feel the same way you were so brave to actually write and openly talk about it
@everypersoneverywhere7955 5 жыл бұрын
I'm glad I'm not the only one who decided to do this - to write a song using my note. I'm so glad we made it man. ❤️
@ansa1_1 6 жыл бұрын
I tend to stay away from videos like this nowadays. It's way too relatable and I feel like I won't be able to handle it. But I'm glad you shared it. It speaks volumes about your strength though you may not feel it. I started crying halfway through. But the fact that you were public about this after all this time has passed and you're still hanging on .. it gives me hope.
@emo_band_official7177 6 жыл бұрын
I want to give you a big hug through the screen. 😢
@supernaturalpanda4303 5 жыл бұрын
I’m watching this and going through this same thing and every time I think about writing a note to everyone I love it honestly makes me cry 😭 I would never wanna leave my parents but dear god I just wanna die...
@tarashams1254 5 жыл бұрын
This hit me hard. Especially that last part, I started crying. Really hope you get better. Keep fighting!❤️👏😘
@kodi.9242 6 жыл бұрын
"Nobody cares about me why should I live if nobody cares for me"
@lilybelz 6 жыл бұрын
Lily&Emylee's Channel because I care for u. My instagram is my_chemical_panic_pilots and my dms are always open if u need to talk no matter who u are
@firepantheress9576 6 жыл бұрын
Lily&Emylee's Channel I know your pain. I ask myself that everyday. Living hurts
@Danteeth 6 жыл бұрын
Lily&Emylee's Channel tell you the truth? you don't need people to care about you to live ya know.care about your self.if people don't care about you,don't care about them doesn't care about you (wtf am i saying lmao)
@hurt06 6 жыл бұрын
fire pantheress I am 10 × you
@cadencekeene4929 6 жыл бұрын
I'm so sorry dude. This hit me so hard because after my papa passed, I tried to take my own life. It hurt because I wasn't there when he passed. I have scars the shape of broken hearts because of it. I have letters and I still feel the same way as I did. Sorry I vented so hard.
@maggiew6962 6 жыл бұрын
c r i s p m e m e I relate. how old r u?
@haileyallan3310 6 жыл бұрын
This is so deep I'm crying
@urmom-ph6eu 5 жыл бұрын
Same
@lennyoffenderman3840 5 жыл бұрын
Awwwh, Richard, I love you!! You're amazing and such an inspiration!!
@humancentipede33 6 жыл бұрын
Tears came out once you started talking about your brother. Ive been depressed before, and without knowing it, my brother made it so much better. And now HE has depression, and I wish I could make him as happy as he made me.
@humancentipede33 6 жыл бұрын
@@winterxxsolstice Yeah,I have. Why?
@kingmendes2663 6 жыл бұрын
im cryin
@dullahandulla1796 6 жыл бұрын
What the hell?
@kingmendes2663 6 жыл бұрын
Dullahan Dulla ???
@dullahandulla1796 6 жыл бұрын
Is it just me.. or was it just stuff I already heard 20 k times? I mean okay nice that he's posting such an emotional thing on youtube. But it was not emotional at all to me. It's just the voice but I don't smell any feelings behind that cracky voice there. I know it's supposed to sound cracky and emotional but I don't see much. Hm
@kingmendes2663 6 жыл бұрын
Dullahan Dulla u r weird
@dullahandulla1796 6 жыл бұрын
No I'm not
@beansyaya 5 жыл бұрын
Can we just take a moment to imagine how hard this must be for him to talk about? And he’s gorgeous and perfect just how he is, don’t hurt yourself
@lvc0517 5 жыл бұрын
Reminds me of certain twenty one pilots songs : -Deep -Meaningful -Hardhitting ❤️ Love yourself, take your chances... you will only get one shot at living❤️
@courtneyh6730 6 жыл бұрын
Richie... I think this is awesomely raw and I'm glad you decided to share it. Some may claim it as just a desperate attempt for sympathy... but I find it all too relatable, as with everything you say. I only hope that the publishing of this isnt a preface of what's to come. Sending you Good Vibes! In darkness, stop looking for the light. In darkness, BE the fucking light, man. -all love
@JesusChrist-gl1qu 6 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for telling all your veiwers and everyone else about this and that you trusted the internet for this video. I do have most of these thoughts myself I know how it feels but if anyone is dealing with this then keep fighting like I am your not the only one fighting. everyone has the power to keep fighting and live! and if you even keep living life look at the amazing things that could happen richie kept living and look at him now the same thing could happen to you
@emilyfarthing2 5 жыл бұрын
This is so important to me. I feel like I have been searching for this video for a very long time
@byebyesweetface5800 5 жыл бұрын
I feel your pain social repose which is Richie you are truly a helpful person♡ I hope you are still okay and alright.
@SimplyTheNickster 6 жыл бұрын
stay strong everyone 💪
@adropofsunshine9920 6 жыл бұрын
This shouldn't get demonitized
@add1lough 6 жыл бұрын
kitkat 562 it honestly should
@adropofsunshine9920 6 жыл бұрын
moist kidney Huh?! Wdym it should?
@adropofsunshine9920 6 жыл бұрын
UsulPrincess the name of his siblings are actually in some posts he's made on Instagram so they're names have kinda already been leaked.
@riley18 5 жыл бұрын
To all who see this and are suicidal: Hello my name is Riley and I want to tell you,if you cut you’re way stronger than the rest because you endure the pain they can’t which is why they do what they do to you but even if it makes you stronger it’s not worth it. Those who pop pills and hope for the sweet release that you’ve heard,thought,or dreamed of you are stronger than them too you can take the hits,the harsh comments,the looks,the whispers and not let them see but the pills aren’t the answer. This is one of the times you don’t need to be strong in that way. You don’t need to take those pills. To anyone whose ever tried or thought of killing yourself you’re strong because you didn’t try or you did but fought through it. You are strong because unlike all the harsh and foul people you don’t pick on others. You take there pain but you don’t need to. I know you probably hate when people say “it’s a permanent mistake for a temporary problem” or “ha you only want attention just stop it” when it doesn’t feel temporary and it’s not for attention. I want each and everyone of you to know that if you were thinking of killing yourself and saw this that even though I don’t know a single thing about you,I believe in you,I respect you,I look up to your strength. Even though you don’t feel strong,in my eyes and many more you are. That may not mean anything to you and this may have just been a waste of time but I love you for your strength and patience,your souls and hearts(and don’t say you don’t have one cause ik you do) I love you for you. I don’t even freaking know you and I care for you more than those bullies who can suck my toe because they have no idea how strong you are. They will one day wish that they hadn’t done what they did because in those few moments of there own weakness they could of cost someone there life. If you read all this,please don’t do it,because I really do believe in you.
@marilynfletes 5 жыл бұрын
Riley , thank you. I needed this.
@yourlocalgrungekid9472 5 жыл бұрын
Thank you reily I suffer depression and this helped
@ifrickenhatedeverythingabo4612 5 жыл бұрын
Thank you. I'm suicidal and really needed this rn thank you
@100mvvari6 4 жыл бұрын
“Those bullies who can suck my toe” For the first time in years I legitimately laughed.
@ryanreynoldsonlyfans 4 жыл бұрын
Thank you Riley :) I needed this ❤️
@doselastarsha 5 жыл бұрын
This is honestly amazing. I just happened to stumble upon this in my suggestions. Growing up I was so depressed, felt worthless and wanted to hurt myself. My parents feared that I would. As I grew older I resented my parents for the watchful eye they had on me fearing I would harm myself. I embraced the fear and self-loathing and turned it outwards not in a bad way but in a positive way. I began to help other and throw myself into serving others. I moved on, got married and had a child. My life with my ex ended up falling apart and my son and I were left homeless and heartbroken. I picked up the pieces of my life and began to build one with my son separate from my ex. Lately I've been feeling emotions that I haven't felt since I was a teenager. Each day I strive to overcome the all encompassing loneliness and stifling sadness. I push forward because I don't want my son to be left without both parents. This honestly brought tears to my eyes and I was left crying by the end. It reminded me something I had learned and forgotten. It's okay to ask for help. It's okay to reach out to others. It's okay to have these feelings and thoughts and emotions but to remember to reach out for help. It's one of the hardest things to learn but when you do your load can lighten instantaneously, you can breathe and move and finally the sun that was hidden behind the clouds begins to shine through.
@charlierandom5458 6 жыл бұрын
Is this our tape?
@tasmiaansari6500 6 жыл бұрын
i was tearing up the entire time but when he brought up his mom i broke
@FlakesGirlxb 5 жыл бұрын
This is so relatable that I cried
@uh1369 4 жыл бұрын
My uncle had schizophrenia, and i think on March 12, he took his life no suicide note. The voices got too loud, he had told my grandfather and of course my grandfather brought him to the hospital. He wasn't allowed to go in with my uncle because of covid. MY uncle lied and told the docters he was fine. He won't home later that night and hung himself in his warehouse. His wife and oldest son found him. The moment my mom told me the air out of my lungs left me. I immediately shattered, my brother who is always distant and cold began to cry and i couldn't help but cry to. We didn't know him much but we knew something was wrong with him. so let me say goodbye Jason Usher. You bad so much to live for but couldn't overcome the voices. You were strong. I'm so sorry I didn't talk to you much. I'm sure you didn't wish us harm but it has hurt the whole family. I hope your in a better place now. With others you love. It's a shame you won't be able to see your two sons grow up. It's horrible that you left. I'm sorry to anyone who has felt suicidal but you will get through it. Everyone was meant to be on earth there is a place for everyone. If you need a hug i will give you one :) ♡n
@kimo9390 6 жыл бұрын
I have no other place to put this this but i'll put it here. "I never liked my dad because he abused me and my family, i locked my doors and i became anto social. i tell everyone im fine but deep inside im crying to the point where it feels like im dying. I never once told my best friend i loved him like a brother until the day he took his last breath. I stand in darkness without any clue if i going to live or die. I tell myself everyday ill be fine but its not true. I wanna be 6 feet under ground to meet my baby brother one more time. I was afraid to meet my stepdad and the reason i still breathe is because of him and someone i love. No matter how many times i say it. i still want to die."
@vannananna3347 6 жыл бұрын
Sad Slushie. No matter what happens to you i still love you
@hannahmae9912 6 жыл бұрын
When I was little I got adopted. It was so hard. I don’t even know what my parents look like. I have one picture of my birth grandma and I cherish it DO MUCH if I was in a fire that’s the first thing I’d grab. When I was 13 I felt so alone. And abandoned. Idek why... I started cutting.. a lot. I started erasing my skin, starving myself, slamming my fingers into doors and cabinets on purpose.. I started doing drugs, and getting into fights..I also tried killing myself more than a DOZEN times. my life was a mess and mind you I was only THIRTEEN.. I still do these things. I stopped drugs. But I really do feel like I don’t belong in this world.. I’m 14 right now and I ALWAYS fake a smile people think I’m happy and perfect. No. I’m depressed and suicidal.. I hate my life. THIS IS MY STORY
@AW-hv1jy 5 жыл бұрын
I hope you are ok, try to find someone you can talk to and remember to stay strong
@tessjeee8417 5 жыл бұрын
Aleka Williams (To everyone with depression or just being upset very bad.) You’re a beautifull human being just the way you are! 💎 Please dont commit suicide, if you want to talk please contact my instagram; @tessbartels_x I hope you’ll get better soon, -Tess ❤️
@lanasardarr8591 5 жыл бұрын
hannah stoetzel no don’t hate your life. You have A future, and people loves you. I promise you it’s Get better and promise me that you never do something about yourself, cus we need you in this world. If you die, A part Of the world will die to. Hannah do not doing drugs. You have A future and you have to change that, you have a good soul. I know you have A lot Of pain, But maybe you real parents, had A problem. That dosen’t mean that They hate you. No we need you. I’m fourteen to. And i know How you feel. I understand But The pain wil go Away. You need to know that we love you. And hannah i’m so happy that you live today. I wish i was there for you But if you need someone to talk to, remeber i will be there for you, just talk to me, i will always listen. You Are beautiful inside and outside, and do not give up, do not END up your life, cus A part Of The world will be gone. So please live. I know it’s just The pain inside you. You don’t want to die, it’s The pain, and i really understand, But Try to do things that makes you happy. I’m there for you, and to talk to you:)
@allisonshoaf1013 5 жыл бұрын
Hi, I was considered the weird kid, laughed at when talking, too *happy*. I hated it, I TRULY and DEEPLY did. But it’s just in my personality. I strive to make others happy. I was asked “try and be normal for once.” And so what? Just for myself to be unhappy??? I have suffered. I’ve been told I have depression from my doctor but I don’t believe so. I smile, I laugh, I’m goofy, I make my friends feel good. Or maybe I’m hurt deep inside. That doesn’t matter, because I’m going to have an amazing and beautiful life. So will you, if you continue to live. I’m Allison and I’m 15. It was nice meeting you online I guess??? Continue through the pain and torment. I’m sorry you never met your real parents. But you ARE amazing. Continue on with devotion and confidence because who you truly are is amazing and will strive.
@diaz7615 4 жыл бұрын
I am very fan of your work, and I am grateful that you have chosen to do what you do, you are a great inspiration congratulations Richie!
@Samantha-vt9uk 5 жыл бұрын
I cried during this especially the part about his mother that really hit home
@sarahichele 6 жыл бұрын
my heart completely broke when the mother part happened 🙁
@celestialcats 6 жыл бұрын
If I were to write a suicide note, it would be something like this: This may come as a surprise to you. I smile and laugh every single day but that never was the truth. I am sad, numb, stressed, anxious, fed up, and done. I'm a mistake. I was never meant to be here. I think I learned that from so many betrayals from people who I thought cared about me. I think I learned that when my brother would say I'm an idiot, wish I was never born, would grab my butt and harass and insult me constantly. I think I learned that when people would yell at me for the simplest mistakes. A B in one class is unexpected in my life. I'm a failure and I'm pretty sure I knew that when I took my very first breath. I would be angry and wish death upon people but I knew the only person I was mad at was myself. I really hate it when people pretend to give a crap about me when they don't. I really hate it when the only comfort I have is a blade, pills, or a lighter. I really hate that whenever I look in the mirrior, I wanna erase what I see. I really hate saying I'm fine when I'M NOT FINE. I really hate having to skip meals and stick fingers in my mouth because I'm so desperate to fit in with society's standards about being skinny. I would say to the people that love me but I know no one does. It'll be quick. Just a swift kick and I'll be hanging from a rope of peace. Just a few pills and I'll be knocked unconcious and calm. Just a deep cut and I'll be bleeding my way to freedom. Just lean forward and I'll be falling to happiness. I have decided I will fall to happiness. I will jump from a school window. I am tired of living this nightmare. Constant fear, regret, sorrow, agony, guilt, lonliness. It will all be over.... In a second. Goodbye. Edit: Btw, I am in no way living a painful life, I have a loving family, wonderful, supportive friends, an amazing life, and a brilliant support system. And this, in no way, encourages suicide. If you need someone to talk to, call: 1800-273-8255 You're not alone. People love you. 💜💗💙💝💕💚❣️💖❤
@gaydona 5 жыл бұрын
Crazy akward potato MJ loving cat ! This is so cringe
@lex3867 5 жыл бұрын
I cut my wrist with pencils. Leaves marks and I really don't enjoy it but I do it bc that's who I am and no I don't fake it ok
@midnightnotracer 5 жыл бұрын
@@gaydona do u know what cringe means lol
@twentyone5286 5 жыл бұрын
I may use this as a template Only joking
@flarethewolf3967 5 жыл бұрын
I would make it very very very long
@kyleking2846 5 жыл бұрын
Your amazing, the fact you have survived for so long through all those thoughts shows that.
@paigelynn4186 4 жыл бұрын
he’s a horrible person he’s a liar and a cheater and should’ve committed hannah baker
@skepticalembryo 5 жыл бұрын
You know I never really liked this channel but I cried tbh this was sad 😔 😢 😭
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