Idk What I'm Doing Anymore 😵‍💫

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Visiting my old friend, the Existential Crisis. 👋 Finding purpose, going through growing pains, and cruising through LA life.
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@got7ismyworld692 2 жыл бұрын

“you’re not alone” “everyone is still figuring out”

@krystalqin 2 жыл бұрын

as someone who moved to a new city, moved into my dream apartment, and started a new job at a company I’ve always wanted to work at, I FEEL u on still feeling empty and not knowing what I’m doing anymore after “accomplishing my goals”🥺 but I think it’s just a part of the process…I realized I tend to be impatient when it comes to wanting to see results and feel accomplished, but good things take time to happen! So I’m constantly reminding myself to celebrate the small wins and learn to be comfortable with the unknown…easier said than done but we got this :)

@nokukhanyamnisi615 2 жыл бұрын

I read this more than 3x . I love the wisdom here - something I needed to hear / read

@maryjanewesterlund9958 2 жыл бұрын

Krystal Qin, you are correct. As an older woman who has been up & down throughout the years, I can validate what you and Freesia are experiencing is part of the life path. Life is never on a continuously upward path. It’s normal to question, doubt, even feel anxious … when I finally understood that l would always have these feelings, I learned to turn inward for strength and meaning. To some extent, life is what you make it. That may sound too simple and superficial to you now. But, that’s been my path.

@SaraLeanne 2 жыл бұрын

I think the moment youtubers quit their 9 to 5 job, the channel turns into living for the vlog instead of vlogging about their life, especially if they are lifestyle related. I’ve hear may content creators talk about this… so you’re not a lot by any means. I hope you take time to reflect and be with your own thought. Sending you lots of love 💕💕

@vw7905 2 жыл бұрын

Highly recommend to read “101 essays that will change how you think”, the book really helps in times like this. There’s a chapter about the feeling of more with goals. Hope this helps :)

@meryl9846 2 жыл бұрын

I’m honestly interested in what ppl who jumped on the “I quit my 9 to 5” bandwagon would say 5-10 years from now. Will it actually put them in a better situation mentally, emotionally and financially? I personally can’t do it because of the lack of structure, like you said, and the lack of accountability to meet external expectations (highly recommend this book called The Four Tendencies) An occasional 1-2 week break from grad school is usually enough to recharge me. Anything longer and I start feeling this way too.

@NicoleBernadette 2 жыл бұрын

Good point!!

@justgigi9545 2 жыл бұрын

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@RT-cr7rg 2 жыл бұрын

Freesia, I love yoU!! Girl you're not lost...we have super similar driven-personalities, here's my advice when I've been in similar panics. 1. Forget about finding goals and focus on yourself for a bit - stretch, dance (i love tahitian dance tutorials, tryyy it!!), smell good, swim, and *tune into nature/forests 30 minutes everyday.* 2. Twice a day, put aside 5 minutes (more or less depending on how you feel) in which you do this one thing, and one thing only: Close your eyes, straighten back + neck and relax shoulders + hips, then inhale/exhale and keep it going for the 5 minutes. Inhale with nose from from the abdomen area by pulling air up from deep down there, and then exhale through mouth. I'm almost certain that if you try out #2 for a few days, it will clarify your feelings for you. Living alone ain't easy, and like you said "Everyone's just trying to figure it out". Tuning into + touching nature/trees/rocks/grass/water is a GREAT help as well - wish you the best in everything!!!

@nicholettechew8768 2 жыл бұрын

Identity and purpose should always come from “being”, rather than “doing”. Goals are exciting and motivating but who we are should always be internal, not just what we do. True joy can never be found in achievement. Cliche as it may sound, deeper and true purpose and meaning must come in your identity before your career and life choices. I find mine in my faith in God. Hope you find yours too!

@n4sure 2 жыл бұрын

THIS.

@rishi-bk5pr 2 жыл бұрын

Can't agree more. I'm on this stage now. Putting my identity on my biz. Thanks for remiding that my identity is in Christ, not what I do😊

@dianabanana08 2 жыл бұрын

Thank you!!! God bless u 💖

@bernadettemary2135 2 жыл бұрын

being your own boss is great and all but you need to have a purpose, reason or something (or someone, or a whole community) to do all of it for. thats why many youtubers create their own brands or projects that go outside the virtual space. they create community based on something they strongly believe in.

@tracyalan7201 2 жыл бұрын

Sounds like a valid point that Freesia needs to consider. Being a master of one's fate and meshing their fate/career/lifestyle so tightly together, I would feel like I'm tying knots around me stifling creativity and options. It seems goals/objectives were identified but they were short term goals and not mid and long term goals and objectives. Maybe reflection and defining what is desired needs to refocused, so that one doesn't wander aimlessly and wasting time and resources.

@jerrineheng 2 жыл бұрын

love how open you are Freesia! really enjoy your talking portions in every vlog and there's something to takeaway from your videos 💕

@outofofficecotv 2 жыл бұрын

Thank you for continuing to inspire me to keep making content!!! Hope you stay safe and healthy!

@smoleart 2 жыл бұрын

may the process of figuring out what's next be smooth sailing for you freesia~~ It's been amazing to see you upload on such a consistent basis along with the growth of your editing! you're doing amazing :-)

@jvdepalace 2 жыл бұрын

Always so stoked and ready to see another Freesia vlog!!!

@Mangobum23 2 жыл бұрын

So happy for your Freesia 💛I’ve watched almost all your videos, and have watched them consistently! Love them and love your song choices too 😇

@aqlhltf 2 жыл бұрын

yay im soooo looking forward to this week video and its finally outt 😗 been binge watching your vlogs these past few days 💖

@DeliaX 2 жыл бұрын

love your openness and vulnerability! you're asking lots of good questions, hoping you find your clarity soon ❤

@cro20 2 жыл бұрын

Thanks for being so real and honest with us freesia! It’s so easy to envy influencers but to hear some of the harsh realities is really refreshing :)

@PhuongLe-hq3qv 2 жыл бұрын

You r the first one that makes me wanna buy myself a journal to jot it all down. It s so cool omg and you inspire meeeeee

@alisa311ify 2 жыл бұрын

Honestly feeling the same way, it’s like I have goals in front of me and then once it’s done I just forget or just loose sight of what I’ve already done because I feel like I gotta keep going higher.

@kloei 2 жыл бұрын

Could not resonate with this more! Thank you for telling me what I’ve been telling myself as I’m currently a little lost with life, it always sounds better when someone else is saying it! I’ve also made notes of things to add to my annual journal💕

@katieailin 2 жыл бұрын

ur 2020 entry ... that is insane and amazing :-)) I so relate to you on goals, feeling lost, etc.

@deesjoo 2 жыл бұрын

Love that you’re always a real one ☝️ Idk what I’m doing anymore either but it’s nice to know it’s not just me

@ani9603 2 жыл бұрын

What are you doing? You're doing Life. Wanting different things, Part of the game. You will never stop learning, thinking, growing, changing, wanting more. You live in an amazing place. Great weather, so many things to explore. Being a light to others. Making them smile is so rewarding. You have been given a great opportunity with your growing you tube channel. I have faith you can find your " thing" and we will be with you all the way!! Love from Destin Florida. Ani. ❤🧡💛🌈🌞🌺🦋🏝💯💥

@cryskiiim 2 жыл бұрын

Love this

@ani9603 2 жыл бұрын

@@cryskiiim 🌞🧡

@SilverSnowman8 2 жыл бұрын

Hi Fressia!!! I hope you are able to figure out what you want to do. Regardless of what you choose, I am thankful that I got to know more about you through YT! I love the way you use the word manifest and how you live by it. It inspired me to get over my shlump and work on myself. Thank you for your consistent videos and the sincerity you out into them.

@WesleyAnna 2 жыл бұрын

I felt this so hard when I moved to NY (my dream city) this summer. It’s amazing and I’m grateful, but I felt empty from putting so much stock into a single goal and then realizing that it wasn’t what was going to fulfill me. It wasn’t until I started refocusing my attention on my relationships that I felt at peace again. Success won’t make us happy, which is why the peaks are always anticlimactic. It’s our connection to others that let us truly shine. ✨💕

@rebeccazhou4477 2 жыл бұрын

Ahhhh Freesia this upload was a surprise!

@michelleng4778 2 жыл бұрын

It might be worthwhile to volunteer for part of the week to help increase your sense of purpose. It may be easier since you are able to set your own hours

@almostdiana1524 2 жыл бұрын

I feel like so many of us feel the same way. I find it helps to spend some time taking care of yourself and not think too much about needing to have goals or feeling bad about stagnation. Life is a journey to be enjoyed and every step of the way you're learning and growing naturally. So it's ok, take your time and everything will work out 💜

@charlonmrk 2 жыл бұрын

Hi Freesia, I just wanna tell you that you are doing great! Just keep doing what makes you happy. Don't be hard to your self and don't rush everything. We are all in the same stage and we are just in time. Remember, the more you pressure your self the more you get exhausted. So Chill and Just keep goin!! WE ARE HERE TO SUPPORT YOU.❤❤❤

@Pechicorner 2 жыл бұрын

If this whole covid things settle down , i personally wish freesia can have her own fan meet🥺🥰❤️❤️❤️

@handanwei4084 2 жыл бұрын

Hey dear Freesia I got the same feeling when I got my professional title couple years ago. I think the key is the journey that we have experienced not just chasing after goals. As human beings we will probably never be satisfied as our desire cannot be fulfilled, even with money, fame, personal achievements,etc. And I realized family is the source of my happiness and hopefully you will find yours 😀. Just letting you know you are not alone in this and it’s perfectly normal that you feel this emptiness, we’ve all been there. Struggles and hardships made us grow, so I feel that in the process of searching and reflecting, you are at a stage of growth and progression . Good luck and looking forward seeing more content of yours 😀

@strawberryeverythin 2 жыл бұрын

Thank you Freesia for being so straight to the point about your crisis and you are NOT alone as well! I also have a ton of autonomy and freedom in my job and have been WFH for over a year now. Im in my late twenties and the feeling of loneliness, having unclear goals, and lack of motivation have been getting worse and worse. It truly feels like a new adaptation to life for me and I hope we can all get through it with courage and confidence because we have always been the same person at the end of the day. Your channel is blossoming Freesia, because of your realness and humanity that you are addressing a prevalent issue that ppl don't share enough about.

@tshinnn 2 жыл бұрын

ughsdlkfjsf the way ur vulnerability/genuineness impacts and touches me + so many others. i can def relate with u, esp when u said u tend to hyperfocus on reaching your goals and once u achieve em u think "now what" LOL, but there's also something so surreal about the unknown n the phases of "figuring it out." just kno that we luv u and want nothing but peace+blessings for u

@Stephanie-zg6tk 2 жыл бұрын

Moonshot cushion has good coverage and staying power! Also love farmacy. Thanks for always being raw and honest - been feeling low and lost the past month, trying to push forward!

@rhirai4024 2 жыл бұрын

I appreciate your honesty; when stuck on yourself, look outside your world and give of your time and self, ergo volunteering; if physical, then maybe work on pumping the endorphins. Taking classes works, too, something outside your box or something closer, e.g., film making, acting, screen writing, after all, you're in LaLaLand!

@SakeofTruth 2 жыл бұрын

"I denied myself nothing my eyes desired; I refused my heart no pleasure. My heart took delight in all my labor, and this was the reward for all my toil. Yet when I surveyed all that my hands had done and what I had toiled to achieve, everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind; nothing was gained under the sun."-Ecclesiastes 2:10-11. I feel what you are saying and went through it before I realized my emptiness was so connected to my relationship with the One who created me. Seek God and you will attain all the joy and fulfillment even in the smallest things you do. He is actually that higher 'purpose' we seek. Love your videos by the way, beautiful and so relaxing.

@MantsuMiiaMette 2 жыл бұрын

beautifully said

@sandyt8501 2 жыл бұрын

63k subs.. So happy, first thing in the morning here, to see your vlog (another is Michelle's vlogs) Thanks Freesia✨

@gracecooper2924 2 жыл бұрын

Love it when you do unboxing. Surprise yourself every time 😅

@yumibabex 2 жыл бұрын

THAT cleaning balm is one of the best. Hands down!

@elenemaria594 2 жыл бұрын

I got u freesia!!!! No matter what happen to u U could over it as time goes by So im here to support u Love u always!!!!

@DailyAmyK 2 жыл бұрын

After I got my dream job, I honestly started to feel like I needed to go after it. I am happy with my job but now should I be going for a job that’s more difficult? I feel like sometimes it feels like I’m in an endless cycle and we are being programmed to be that way… almost being forced into a “hustle culture” a bit too. I know you said you hope that we don’t feel alone in this journey… I hope you also feel that you are not alone in this ❤️ sending you lots of love!

@orangepanda64 2 жыл бұрын

this is so real, thank u for sharing!

@got7ismyworld692 2 жыл бұрын

YOU GOT THIS FREESIA!! WE ALL GOT THISSS

@Hyeyeon952 2 жыл бұрын

i think defining what happiness means is extremely important. it seems like bc of social media there's a constant hype to change whenever you're not happy. not happy at work- quit, not happy in life- move cities and expecting everything will be 'different' which isn't true for many ppl. i think many of us fail to understand that our habits, our mindset and energy constantly changes. just bc our external environment change doesn't mean that we change as a person too. that feeling of happiness is only temporary until we settle in in our new space and everything will be the same again that is until we find another external stimulation. setting goals like getting a new job, new apartment, get that degree etc are all materialistic goals. maybe we should find happiness in the mundanes of life. going out for coffee- doing nothing but painting all day, without any external validation but only from yourself. it can be both peaceful and terrifying at the same time to be alone.

@vanessajaron4211 2 жыл бұрын

This is so real, thank you freesia for being our unnie🥺❤️

@rosterthao 2 жыл бұрын

I think its because you need new goals. And BAM you literally said what I thought(: Good luck. Can't wait to see what you come up with.

@vanessaviel6351 2 жыл бұрын

You will be just fine, don't put so much pressure on yourself. Easier said then done, I know lol. But seriously just be you, this is why subscribers are drawn to you and why we can relate. Keep making content that you like and take a break when you need one. All the best xo

@serina402 2 жыл бұрын

Omg I totally relate to you!! I became an entrepreneur last year and I hit this high but as time goes on I’m losing structure and what really makes me happy.. each day just passes and idk why I’m doing what I’m doing anymore. I’ve achieved more than I thought at such a young age but now idk where I’m going.totally related to everything you said

@palisthatuladhar8225 2 жыл бұрын

First thing inthe morning starting it with your vlog💜💜 take care!! It’s okayyy✊🏼💜

@kneishaa55 2 жыл бұрын

You need people to share your achievements with..take a trip to New York city and visit your girls...sometimes in life we don't always need to be reaching for a specific gold sometimes it's ok to go with the flow until you're guided accordingly..you just your milestone faster than you expected...you can also consider a pet❤

@justgigi9545 2 жыл бұрын

It just sounds like if you look at your daily calendar, and see where your time is going, then you will actually see how busy you really are chica!! YOU GOT THIS.. and keep in mind that even if you have a "not so busy day" you are still working on something amazing... there will be days you doubt yourself, but dang girlfriend look at what you've built.. I'm wayyyyyyyy older than you, but you sure have my admiration. 🥰❤❤

@davidho7657 2 жыл бұрын

I feel this 100% as someone who recently moved to CA as well and manifesting what I thought was what I wanted. But definitely feel lost and alone out here since I dont know anyone in CA. Thanks for sharing!

@supahbui 2 жыл бұрын

Exact same boat my guy I’ve wanted this for over a year but now that I’m financially stable and actively pursuing my goals in a new city it feels quite lonely and questioning whether i made the right decision. Glad to know we’re all going through something similar; best of luck !

@usagimoon.x.o6256 2 жыл бұрын

It's okay to feel that way and we all are still growing as people. 💕 *i like that you have the journal from 10th grade!*

@ev0ra5 2 жыл бұрын

Going with the flow is where it’s at. Let life direct you where you need to be. Everyone has their own timing, it’ll get you there wherever and whenever that maybe as long as it’s meant to be. Don’t force anything, yesss…. Just always look back, don’t forget where you came from and keep patting your self for realizing how far you have come. 🤙🏼🤙🏼

@shawonwawon 2 жыл бұрын

HI FREESIA! Giving you a big virtual hug💙. My goal is to become a full time content creator (eventually) but I can understand how not having a set structure can lead to feeling unfulfilled in a way. Perhaps going to a specific place outside your home at specific times each day to edit would help. Either way you'll find your own path!💫

@angeliedee 2 жыл бұрын

I'm with you 🥲😭 I've been sooo lost all I do is cry and workout to get myself through the week.

@brokeanddelicious 2 жыл бұрын

It's good to reflect and I can relate.

@hatanai3250 2 жыл бұрын

Hope you figure things out we're all behind ya! You're the one who inspired me to start vlogging myself :))) Thank You, you got this!

@minifuzz2531 2 жыл бұрын

good luck! I subbed!

@michaelbrown8214 2 жыл бұрын

love what you're doing :) beautiful message

@muhi3844 2 жыл бұрын

I SUBBED TOO

@leilani2258 2 жыл бұрын

Thank you for posting this Freesia! About to get married soon and just been really refelcting my life so far. And I haven't accomplished as much as I wished. But that is more to look forward to achieve.

@michellejy 2 жыл бұрын

That’s amazing that your diary entry last year was you manifesting what you’re doing now! I wonder if volunteering may help you feel more purpose

@JhoannaD 2 жыл бұрын

Alternate title "Lost in the sauce" lol. If you're looking to try out another cleansing balm the Heimish all clean balm is my go to. Thanks for putting out relatable content I really enjoy the random chats. You're awesome Freesia :)

@calmlysom 2 жыл бұрын

In next QnA, can you do " how you manage your financial state / investment ideas "? please i need that and I think you are doing great thru being a full time youtuber 🥺💜

@calltothesky2880 2 жыл бұрын

Lack of structure making my days blurry alot...aahh so well put, I feel that.

@katrinasangineto8120 2 жыл бұрын

What is the light on the computer??? Thank you for the links! LOVE the desk set up!!!

@Vicky_Le 2 жыл бұрын

I have that exact same feeling of once I achieve a goal; I’m always looking for the next project or next milestone because being idle makes me feel anxious. I think it’s partly the immigrant mentality of survival by working harder - I also blame the overworked corporate environment 😅. Often what I do is find a small controllable project in the meantime (like a home improvement project that would take 30 min - 2 hrs) or take a day off to go to a park and *vibe* or explore a new part of the city or attend a new event. Also taking care of plants or fostering animals gave me a sense of purpose and grounded me for a bit while I took time to figure out what I want to do next! Good luck to you and I can’t wait to see what you do next!

@Michelle-ew5fq 2 жыл бұрын

I neeeeeded this vlog

@user-po1mi6hc8i 2 жыл бұрын

오호! 영상 시작할 때 곡도 좋네요. 저는 Jennifer Chung - All Come True 이 곡도 좋아해요 :-)

@NicoleBernadette 2 жыл бұрын

Love what you're doing Freesia, thank you for sharing vulnerably and being so real with us💛 Sending love from Singapore, you're inspiring to keep going with my KZfaq channel as well even though I've wanted to quit it multiple times :' ) I keep coming back after seeing you share these memories with people💛

@krystalcheng1677 2 жыл бұрын

You should try Heimish's All Clean Balm, washes off super nice 😊

@ChavelleLiu 2 жыл бұрын

would love to see you create some sort of business or side project of your own! jewellery, merch... something that truly speaks to you :)) will always support you in your endeavours!

@pandalala888 2 жыл бұрын

I got the same scalp massager! Haven't used it yet tho.

@younheecho6191 2 жыл бұрын

I’m in a position where I’m partially retired at an early age. I find this abundant amount of free time so wonderful at first, but then realize my old life had structure that I now miss. Through good times and bad times our structure/ routines make us feel safe. The transition for me has been hard and I had to learn new routines. Working on projects that aren’t about myself is helpful. Find a purpose that is more than yourself and life seems to have more meaning… at least for me. Your path may not be typical, but that doesn’t mean it’s wrong. Change and growth always hurt a bit. Good luck

@xxJessieGabriellaxx 2 жыл бұрын

Me neither girl… 😂 thought I’d have my life together by this time, but nahhh. But just try to appreciate and enjoy this process aswell. Things come your way at the right time ❤️

@Mnguyen92 2 жыл бұрын

I love how you sit so straight, great posture

@veerose2063 2 жыл бұрын

Thanks for sharing what you’re going through, those are all very valid and relatable feelings of, what next/now what? Curiosity is definitely a strong trait - I’m happy that you feel you’ve met your goals! That’s amazing! ❤️✨

@Ashley-ko2mq 2 жыл бұрын

I also feel empty these days😵‍💫,,, But! cuz I want to be more productive and be an awesome person I literally don't stop thinking about me and the best "future map" for me. Although we can't see all the process CLEARLY that we're growing which is sooo sad, but u know what.. I want to say that the important thing is not giving up the"full-passion mind". It's weird that we really don't know that we are doing good, but if you keep going on, which is really FREESIA, I swear you will win those pains in front of you! We're all behind ya! Sending love from Korea! Cheer up unnie!

@andreabryant1131 2 жыл бұрын

You are a inspiration, to many yu k it yt

@hanan7002 2 жыл бұрын

Guuuurl can you drop your skin care routine plz🥺🔥💜

@ThienLeMinh 2 жыл бұрын

I love the transparency, respect for that!

@dezasey 2 жыл бұрын

It's totally normal to not know what to do. Just be okay with it. It's part of life and then sooner or later you will find what you need to achieve next. We are in a generation where we need to be doing something all the time, but it's okay to not do anything as well. But, I'm not saying to not do anything your whole life. Sometimes, its good to take a break. I hope this made sense!

@MY826 2 жыл бұрын

This is so real

@patricelim 2 жыл бұрын

omgg thanks for sharinggg. i think im also in the same boat as u. is it because the year is coming to an end lol. love from Indonesia~

@Mary____. 2 жыл бұрын

Music selection I really noticed this time not sure why lol. You always have good taste.

@ursulaleonowicz2744 2 жыл бұрын

Aim for happiness and settle for being content; everything else is just gravy. Or, as Kim Kardashian said, "I didn't come this far just to come this far and not be happy."

@gracechung4383 2 жыл бұрын

bought two Flexispots b/c of seeing it in your vlogs!!

@0000asdfasdf0000 2 жыл бұрын

thanks for sharing this video. i liked it. you are an open and honest person. :) i know exactly how you feel. i set myself goals and i have achieved them too then felt lost, aimless and pointless. and i mean serious goals like becoming the creme de la creme of ... i will not disclose this. i think you are feeling the emptiness because you need meaning and purpose in your life. that usually comes from having some external altruistic goal like ... saving animals, or contributing towards the betterment of other humans for free like food shelters, helping with homelessness or something else that is not self directing but directed towards helping others .... for free. you'll get there.

@leesuann 2 жыл бұрын

Usually it’s friyay but it’s thursyay today cuz freesia uploaded! \(^ ^)/ As much as I’d love for you to upload frequently but it’s okay if you need to take a break! Love you no matter what, and just really want you to be comfortable with what you do! :) 💕

@rlee6860 2 жыл бұрын

To make you (and some of the watchers) feel better... i graduated college almost a year ago and i still have yet to secure a full time job. For 10 months, ive been doing internships + part time jobs and its been that cycle cause i cant get a “real” full time job (have applied to ~250 jobs). maybe you should take a step back and realize how far youve come? I think being employed is just enough to be thankful and blessed. Just saying :)

@Colaway 2 жыл бұрын

I am on the point to quit my Job and make my Owen Business 🥰 After That i want to build my own house. But the situation is very complicated as the prices for a piece of land in germany are very high. 🥲

@marizzapizza5599 2 жыл бұрын

Sending virtual hugs 🤍🤍🤍

@nina_park 2 жыл бұрын

wow i can't believe your journal has lasted you that long. i think it's important to reflect and pivot - it's not pretentious to think of what's next after you achieve your goalpost. that's what it's for, a milestone/landmark before the next thing you set your eyes on!

@CathyLee 2 жыл бұрын

So proud of you for working towards your own goals! Truly something to celebrate (and welcome to LA!- It's not always that lonely here) 💛 Hope you can truly discover your purpose, find community to run with, and use this new season of life to explore and dig deeper! There's so much more to life when God fuels us ~ “If I find in myself desires which nothing in this world can satisfy, the only logical explanation is that I was made for another world.” ― C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity

@irenetweedledee6857 2 жыл бұрын

I think everybody goes through that feeling sometimes! I feel it currently and want to change job, exit my comfort zone and continue my PhD, which exactly because I’m doing it while working and outside of the academic community seems very difficult 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️ And I’m 45 Freesia🤣 It happens🤣🤣🤣😘

@andreabryant1131 2 жыл бұрын

your inspiration!!!!! you don't it yet!!!!! Things sometimes get confused!!!!! burn out!!!!!! 🔥 you wait and 👀 it will give the answers you seek! quote from Bruce lee!!!!!!! another quote from him be water my friend. The answer is in front of you!!! it's what I learned that everyone goes through this!!! You are wise!!!!! the feelings are normal!!!!! 🤗 and 💋😘😗😚😙💋😘😗😚😙💋😘 love you girl!!!

@leanar.8141 2 жыл бұрын

You have really good taste in music!

@sodangchrispy 2 жыл бұрын

It’s okay to be unsure of the overarching goal or dream that you’re working towards. However, living and working to try and reach specific milestones (e.g., hitting 100,000 subscribers, making $1M, etc.) is just living life as if it’s a moving goal post. In my opinion, people will continue to feel lost (and often times unhappy) until they figure out what really makes them happy and then build around that.

@kimchimonkey 2 жыл бұрын

check out a book by sean tucker - the meaning in the making

@d3ntal 2 жыл бұрын

My goal is to become financially free so I can provide a better life for my Guatemalan parents because they are immigrants and they worked hard their entire lives and they're in their fifties now and they're still working so hard and I just want them to have a more fun life with less stressful/physically demanding work. I want to buy them a house with the mortgage paid off and give them the freedom to travel whenever they want. We all have different goals in mind but I'm hoping to get where you are soon!goodluck figuring out what you want out of life girl we arr rooting for you.