Songwriter and producer: bemow
Lyrics
I was looking forward to this night
Couldn't wait any longer
Even though it's been hard weeks
Wasting my time in a job I don't need
Mum looks so sad
Dad looks so mad
Grandma didn't do so well
And I'm so upset
This year started really rough for me
Nearly took my last breath
Couldn't sleep for days and days
Returning panic attacks
Waking up crying in my bed
Waking up from a nightmare
Just to wake up in a new nightmare
Didn't know what's worst
I was looking forward to this night
It would've been my comeback
As a changed person
But now I'm full of regrets
Mum's always crying
Christmas spirit wasn't there
Dads so disappointed
And I know it's my fault
Still I was looking forward to this night
Cause I would see you again
Put all my hopes on you
Why am I such an idiot?
Invited all of my friends
Left with none of them
Didn't talk a word with you in this night
I feel the disconnect
From just everyone around
I'm a stranger under friends
They had so much fun
Without me
Uninvited to my own party
Guess I'm a left over
And then I saw you
With someone else
It could've been anyone
Why does have to be him?
I've didn't only lost you
Now I've lost a friend