I have HOCD. My heart goes out to people who are going through this torture but haven't realised that this is not their reality only because they are too ashamed to open up and are reassuring themselves every single second. I was in the same place. After 1.5 years of struggling with it, I came to know that is HOCD. I hope they find out soon. 😓

no person even in denial obsess over this 24/7 no matter how in denial he could be, its called ocd for a reason its an obsession over sexuality and just like any other theme, people with ocd analyze everybody on the streets, they compare them all, thats not what a person in denial does, those compulsions and ritual testing is not something a person in denial does, so thats how people know the difference between ocd and being in denial. Also I heard that groinal responses come with ocd and its true, some get tingle feeling they didn't even have before ocd hit, then they become super aware of them way above the awareness of a person in denial, its kinda like being hyper aware of your own health , blinking, your own saliva swallowing, i had this all, or any other obsession's. Simply put a person with OCD only thinks of this doubt all over his day and its destroying quality of his life, while a depressed person in denial only thinks of how to come out to people, but even he doesn't obsess over this all day like an OCD person does. OCD person can also doubt of having ocd or accept them and then doubting even more when backdoor spike hits. Pure-O people obsess menially and trying to reassure themselves in their head all the time. Denial should not be a continues battle with ones brain because it gets pleasure no matter if they accept it or not, while an OCD person is starting to feel like all is falling apart because he feels like everything is being taken away from him and he/she can't accept that, thats why people with OCD are suffering so much and its not denial, you can't call somebody in denial of being gay if he wants a wife and kids, thats like stripping him away from his own values and inner-believes he has and were not society influenced expecting him to be happy with that. OCD is HELL and people that deny it deny it because they simply never experience it. Also WHO used to say transexual is a disorder, not anymore, because lets face facts, world doesn't wanna help people, they wanna sell you drugs. I myself have nothing against trans but they consider it a disorder and then not anymore, thats like saying depression was a mental illness but WHO decided to call it normal state of mind now needing of no treatment. The world doesn't even know what they are doing anymore if such things are being changed like weather.

Again, I said it once, I’ll say it again. This man knows his things, knows the ocd type and the process. Only you know yourself, regardless of the thoughts. Remember back to when you didn’t have these thoughts… that’s who you are. It’s a cloud over your head and you have to recover cuz you can, even if your mind tells you you don’t want to recover, or don’t think you will. I had self harm ocd and HOCD, and many more intrusive thoughts I have till this day. You control your destiny not your thoughts. Good luck, live your life and yes….. your life not the life your thoughts just gave you after reading that line.

Thank you for this video Ozzy, this video really gave me the confidence I needed, thank you for your amazing advice and for helping us HOCD/SO-OCD sufferers xx

Yup, first triggered by the title. I can list my crushes (ofcourse women) right from my grade 1, I am punching people who call hocd is denial! Thank you Ozzy more power to you 🙏

I’m worried idk i have this thoughts and I always been straight and always liked girls but idk this thoughts make me confused and also when I like see a good looking guy I get this thoughts and I hate them

I’m new to your channel, and this video has helped a lot! Thank you so much 💓💕

Bro,you are doing a great job.i don't know how to thank you.I am dealing with this from 1.5 years.I don't know will i be able to be happy again as I was before.i try every time but I fail.I first started having different Intrusive thoughts and I was also a porn addict and then after some time I started having instrusive thoughts related to porn and finally hocd.You are a very brave person.i can't say these things to anyone around me.Hope I get recovered or else my life would be hell forever😔

I knew I had this or OCD growing up, the therapy people I went to told me I was confused I was so mislead, so miserable and misled as a young man. I felt so damn comfortable with myself growing up before this struck me at 15.

What does being attracted to someone mean because I’m confused?

My story is very similar to that of Ozzy’s , I had it during the summer going into 7th grade and it was a terrible summer , it went away as I entered school and puberty hit me hard af . I knew I liked girls since I was young and this introduction to puberty really pointed me to the direction I wanted to go . For a handful of years I was nothing but confident with my sexuality, but that would soon come to end . When I tell you that this shit has felt extremely real , it has , especially when I did not know what the hell was going on . It’s reintroduction to my life has realistically made me go through a lot of hardship and it’s put me to question everything I’ve done since the moment I started thinking . Reassurance has delayed my progress by a good time frame , as there was days where all I did was reassure. All I can say is that sexuality and the things that bring us pleasure should be nothing but pleasant . It shouldn’t bring us fear , contemplation , or doubt .

HOCD is well established mental dysfunction. It's been described very well by Dr. Steven Philipson.

Man I need help it’s a been a year and I’ve gotten worse . Tried building a relationship with god but the thoughts cling to to that now too .

I cant watch this, its creating too much anxiety for me, maybe one day

hocd is technically not a real disorder. it is just ocd though. acronyms are used for sufferers to help identify each other. ocd is a real thing and manifests in this way :)

I started having OCD starting 3rd month of this pandemic. I smoked weed a handful of times( had massive anxiety attacks couldn't tell what is real and what isn't, was trying so hard to control my actions) weed was a terrible idea for me and i cant change my past from it, i think i became traumatized from it. I started worrying excessively like worried what if im a sociopath, psychopath, and what if im hiding something from my friend which i had a problem with and eventually i got high with my friend (already alert and anxious) he always says gay jokes and he said " you snitched on yourself" which i misinterpreted and caused me to think into HOCD. Right now im dealing with groinal responses and it starting to feel like an erection. I hate it i feek like dying and so desperately wanting to heal bally

I am being honest, I struggled with HOCD for 5 years, growing up. I know that it’s or people will say, when it hit I was ruined, I actually just wanted some peace from this I actually tried something with a man to get rid of it, my body was screaming no, I asked him to stop, it didn’t feel right to my body. It was fucking horrible, I am so ashamed so afraid now of what women my wife and the world will think of me. I am sorry 😞. Really sorry 😞

I dont know what i am tbh, im 26 years old male and never had any issues with sexuality growing up but ive been battling with what i think is HOCD for a good 8 years, i used to constantly ask my parents for reassurance but then that died off because i realised nobody could ever tell me what i am, some days i think, nah im deffo not gay, i dont think i could imagine having sex with a man and the next day, i see a good looking man and im wondering if i fancy him, my attraction to woman has disappeared for such a long time, i get aroused by straight porn easily, watched gay porn and only get slightly aroused to it, on top of this, i look at videos of attractive men on youtube to analyse if i fancy them or not, im just hoping my attraction to women is gone because of my sheer focus on men all the time and maybe convinced myself im gay when im actually not, my mind just doesnt ever seem to get any peace, i dont get anxiety over my thoughts either now which makes it even worse although this video triggered my anxiety bad, i tend to overthink alot and stress easily so i might have an anxiety disorder but again, i dont know what to think anymore, i try to speak to girls but its like i subconsciously reject all of them, its like i get on with men better but maybe thats because im a guy and we have more in common, hopefully its just hocd creating another problem and this doesnt mean im gay, if anyone does end up replying to this, please share your genuine honest opinions, the last thing i would want is someone to tell me what i want to hear

Their is an article by ABC news and it's a article about Straight men suspect they are gay and with a psychiatrict expert says that " A person is worried about whether they are gay nor not is not gay " and being worried about being gay and being homosexual is completely different things says by psychiatrist expert his name is Dr. Jack Drescher who is a person who give definition for Gender Identity in DSM 5

Ive had this for 6 Months now😪😪😪😪 Not thinking about Women as often I will stay Strong Ben inlove with a few Women

Interesting video, would be cool to hear how you are coping with HOCD now, what are the frequency of thoughts for you now.. based on the fact that you’ve suffered since 7th Grade. How are you doing as of now ? What extent of impact does it have on your life atm like an update video.

Thank you very much brother, you help a lot of people including myself

Still to this day im Trapped and I wanna get out of this mindset I literally stopped doing the things I love because of certain feelings I would have around people and I still do. I stopped listening to music because I cant relate to it anymore especially songs about girls. It's really alot....n I've done exposure work and it was working but then I stopped... Its so bad I literally stopped talking to all my female friends because anytime I'd talk to them it feels like I dont wanna talk to them. Even the ones I love. I got a story forsure. Its hard explaining this to Psychiatrist

also i notice something but a lot of people and i mean a lot of people seem to be addicted to porn that suffer from OCD, I notice this more and more. Maybe science should look a bit deeper into the real problem, porn is not candy, it can confuses one brain just like drugs can and lets face it most can't go a whole week without viewing it so yeah its an addiction to many. With years of watching there is no way you don't get some problems because of it, just like alcohol has side effect so does porn with years of consuming.

How do you guys after hocd ?

Thank you so much for sharing and helping!!🥺❤️

Hi Ozzy! Can you do a video about HOCD uncertainity?

This relates also to sexual orientation identity and gender roles. To be a “man” in our patriarchal heteronormative society, males are only supposed to be attracted to women.

i really needed to hear 3:33 - 3:50🥺❤️

Something that really messed me up was along with hocd I have a porn addiction and like drug addiction once one drug gets boring you want something different to get the same high it’s the same with porn Once I got bored of straight I watched gay porn because it was different and I didn’t even like it either it just watched it because was different and I know I’m not gay it just weird and I feel sorry for people who are going thru the same thing as me it really sucks hopefully we all get over this one day

I have recovered from hocd feel free to ask me any questions 👍

My HoCd started put of no where. I tripped and landed awkward. My brain them told me that was a gay pose. And then BaM. HOCD started. I never had "thoughts" like a lot of people but for some reason I had a HUUUUgE amount of doubt. Even now when I thought it had gone. Its come back and I just feel doubt and I dunno why. I've tested myself when it was at its worse and proved I'm not gay. But ocd won't let this go even with all my proof. I can recount all crushes and girlfriends I've had up until this year. Why did hocd start and why is it like this. Because of HOCD even tho rn its I'm the back of my head. My attraction to women has gone now because of hocd. I'm not attraction Ted to males either, but my brain will use this against me. I HATE HOCD, I AHTE IT AND I HATE THIS DOUBT. WHY

To your DSM point, HOCD itself is not on the DSM, but I do believe OCD is on there. HOCD is a subset, so it would fall into that OCD category. Either way, the only way to find out if HOCD is denial is to go through the recovery process first, can't figure out if its denial while you're still suffering. Cheers.

Here’s my issue - I had a porn addiction since I was 13, (now 29) and now free if addiction 🙏🏼. When I was addicted I would watch gay porn a lot. If lead me confused and I have gay experience but I didn’t really enjoy it. Then a dated a girl and it felt good. But I find my self still turned on by good looking muscly guys on instagram and such. When I see a good looking guy in person, I can’t imagine my self in a relationship, holding hands cuddling. But there is a bit of attraction for they look perfect like the guys on insta or In porn. 🤷🏽‍♂️ help please ??

What are gret areas?

Feel you all brothers

It is worth asking yourself, does 'HOCD' exist because there is a social or familial or religious taboo condemning homosexuality." Additionally, you should ask yourself, does the 'HOCD' arise from the frequently targeted "gay sin" by religious groups, causing it to become a fear instead of merely "other."

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Yo Ozzy✌️

Can it just be that you are Bisexual? Did you think about that? I dont want to be rude, I am just wondering, becouse I never heard about that that you can be Straight and think about the Same Sex, or that you can be Gay and think about the Opposite Sex. That what can be is that you are Bisexual, and that you like both Men and Women.

I think the first question you should address is, why do you fear being gay? Is it because of religious beliefs, fear of rejection by family or friends or because if you are gay, you think you will have to change how you act or do something in bed you find unappealing. Gay men and women can be masculine of feminine, just like heterosexuals and has little bearing in sexual orientation. In Ancient Rome people didn't't think of gay or straight, but dominant or passive. Grandma said, "Taste it and try it before you buy it." Maybe it's because I'm a product of the 70s, but in college a lot of people tried both sides of the fence and were better for it and that was when same sex was a lot more taboo. Now it is just the fear mongering MAGAs who are stirring up groundless fears. It is common to experiment when you are young and to have crushes on either gender. I think experimentation helps define your sexuality. You compare having same sex thoughts with thoughts of jumping out of a moving car. Wrong! It is more like trying Thai food and finding you like it or don't. Also wondering about having sex, gay or straight with a relative is a bad idea. Is HOCD just an excuse to support your homophobia because you were taught it was wrong? Many people come out late in life because they tried to believe they were straight and ended up cheating on their spouse and getting divorced.

If you ever do go gay.. I'm here for you

I wanna go back to having sex with women I loved my girl an now I’m just so full of anxiety all the time my girlfriend left me an i only really developed this because I had a weird intrusive thought an started looking at shit online but was having other themes of ocd prior to this