I’m 2 years in and felt the exact same way you did at the beginning. All of your feelings are valid and so true. A new grad who asks the questions is the BEST coworker. Showing humility shows that you want to learn and get better. We don’t expect you to know it all. Imposter syndrome is so real. The first few months are very overwhelming. Trust the process - you’re doing great! You’ll look back on these days and be like “wow I’ve come a long way” ☺️

Nervous poops are so real. Also don't be downplaying yourself like "I barely got through nursing school" more like you got thru one of the hardest paths through college. You are the man!

I remember how anxious I felt every night walking to my floor. I still sometimes get anxious when I’m going to work. It took me over a year to finally start feeling comfortable working as a nurse. You get hit with so much information, policies, and the reality of what being a nurse is. Don’t feel bad for asking questions. If you don’t ask, you won’t know. I’m still asking questions even after 5 years at the bedside. Good luck and welcome to the nursing world!!

Kai and Andrew friendship is so beautiful!

Kai, this is just food for thought...but, sometimes when we start something new it is impossible to successfully juggle everything.."you" time, gf, friends etc. Sometimes, for just a while, we have to put more energy into that new endeavor in order to be successful. If you can understand that it will take so much pressure off yourself! And know that your gf and friends will totally understand this and be supportive. I've been an RN/CNP for what seems like a thousand years, and I STILL remember feeling like you are as a new nurse..this too shall pass! I'm sending an abundance of positive vibes your way!

A few days ago I started as a crew leader for my summer job as a building painter (I’m a 5’0 22yrd old girly whose also a poc) working with all men 😭 I was sooo nervous but after getting through the first week I feel so confident in my job. Even though it’s not my career path and just something for the summer, it made me feel way more confident in myself and my future career after graduation! We got this king.

You survived the first week! Great job and stay confident . It is good that you share your fears and triumph with people you love 🎉😍

At 1:13 i could already relate to you SO much. Whenever I get stressed out or really anxious, it always messes with my gut. I get nausea, but mostly stomach cramps which ofcourse set things off. You are not alone, you got this!

Congratulations Kai🎉🎉I'm so proud of u I have always seen u as my elder brother who helps me navigate challenges and different aspects of life.. one thing I always loved about u is that how you're so transparent with us and never hesitate to share all your ups and downs with us which truly encourages me so much..hope u achieve everything u want in life Kai❤🫶

I LOVE U HYUNG also the intro animations go crazyyy

hello, im a final year nursing student. and im graduating in about a month, which means im going to be a new nurse soon too. tbh this transition phase is so overwhelming, and i came across your video and immediately clicked it. thank you for all the good words, positive thinking and vibes you expressed. i wish you all the best in your nursing career and hope it goes smoothly for me as well. may God bless us ❤

you can do it kaiii!!! you have a positive vibes that's why i watched all your vlogs. God bless your new journey🎉

Was so anxious and always had upset stomach for about a year until I felt more confident and comfortable working. I worked as an OR nurse for 10 years. Now I work for my husband at his clinic as a sedation and recovery nurse. To be honest, anxiety will come and go. I still get anxious at times. It’s a sign that you want to do well and you care

Greetings from Amsterdam. Just came upon your vlog, you’re doing great! Any new job is stressful, that’s part of the process, you’ll learn new things & yes, you’ll make mistakes too but you will learn from them. It will get better, down time is important , which you are also taking care of. Remember, you are doing great. Big hug

Try to make a new friend at work. Preferably someone who's new like you, and really smart. Then, you can help each other out, and work will be less stressful.

Don’t worry Kai, the beginning of a new job is always the hardest since you’re still adjusting, but over time you will build confidence in your skills and training! Just keep pushing through and you will do amazing ❤

I'm so exicited for you! I told you that everything would work out! Good luck to you Kai.

Wow congratulations!!! So proud of you handsome "NURSE"!!!!❤

thank you kaii for being true. I admire the influencer like youu, i really learned a lot from you and your friend andrew ❤🎉 keep going may God strengthens you and give you peace of mind even though the things are really overwhelming rn

Brother, I passed NCLEX and got registered in May but I’ve been SOOOOOO SCARED to actually start working. I commend you for putting yourself out there and knowing u gotta get through this uncomfortable period. On top of that, documenting it and putting it out there inviting viewers to watch. I really admire your bravery, faith, trust in God, and also ur KZfaq hustling. So cool. Praying for you through this period, and please pray for me too if you could. So glad I came across it channel 🙏🥹 Keep going!! You’re doing great and you got this

It gets better! It’s definitely very nerve wracking being a new grad and trying to get all the knowledge and skills down, but it will all make sense over time and it will flow for you. You’re asking the questions and making sure you’re doing things right which is what you should be doing. Better to ask and get it right than fake your way through it. Good luck I’m sure you’ll do great 😊

Congrats Kai!! Thanks for sharing 🎉🎉

Love that you keep us posted - your video always starts a great week for me 😊 Thank you.. Wow - You’re doing really well - we as fans are very proud of you!!! Keep going!! Sending hugs from Australia 🇦🇺 - Chell.

wow..congratulation dear Kai!!! hope you have great experiences and success for your new Job! lav uuu

We all love Kai’s videos ❤

I can tell I understand your feeling definitely even I'm still a year 4 nursing student. My graduated nursing friends told me their hard times to overcome the freshman period, and I know it's not easy. So I appreciate your effort! Hope you can maintain work-life balance and find your comfortable way in nursing!

Congrats kai! Its okay to feel worried but we are so proud

i always enjoy when i get a notification that you posted a new video! thank you for uploading these, it makes my week start good! trust me, i started a new job like 5 months ago and i was a wreck so i understand it takes time, patience, some bathroom stops haha and figuring out the best routine. you are gonna do amazing and can’t wait to follow along on your journey through your first job!!!

Nursing is a really tough job. I’ve been a nurse since 2012 then I just moved here in the UK and is working in the ICU now for 2 years. A nurse coming from a different country with no ICU experience gave me anxiety and panic for the 1st year I’ve been here. It’s been 2years now I still have this anxiety but getting there. Hopefully with experience and more trainings I will overcome this! Goodluck! There’s no greater satisfaction than saving lives for us nurses!

been waiting for thissss. so exciting, i've been watching since the first nursing vlog. the payoff is satisfying lol. 😭

Congrats you did it!!!🎊 🎉

💜🥳 Congratulations namdongsaeng!!! Keep climbing!!! 🎉... side note... that fight or flight our bodies go through when you get scared, anxious or nervous is no joke!!! I have been in the Army for over 20 years and I still hate whenever I PCS and have to literally "start over" every few years!!! But you got this!!! Now that the day 1 jitters are gone it will be smooth sailing from here as you continue to learn and grow in to this new chapter of you!!! Keep sharing to inspire those kids watching, so they know they aren't walking this path alone either!!! Su su na krub!!! Hwaiting!!! 💪🏽💜

🎉I'm so glad for you Kai! Is amazing watching you in this nurse vlog, finally in your new job as a Nurse!!🔥🔥 I'm so proud of you🙌 I hope everything is going well there. With patience, perseverance and faith you will get your dream job. Congratulations on this new era for you✨ 💪🫶

Unexpectedly I saw one of your videos..wow I really like your video quality..I'm a science student n i want to be a nurse I'm motivated by your videos..good luck Kai keep going ❤

I was a RN in uk so I think we’re slightly different to USA, but it took me a good year to feel more confident and like I knew what I was doing 😂 this is when the real learning starts for you. There’s no way you can fit in what others learn in 3-4 years in a masters course. You will feel terrible like you make mistakes a lot etc just try to think first then do it. I wish you all the best and tons of good luck 🤞🏻

Congrats again on becoming a nurse! As a pharmacy technician at the hospital I get being anxious about not wanting to hurt anyone. It took me almost a year to feel comfortable in my role and after saving a few lives it shows why I’m a tech in the first place. Helping people and seeing people get better is what it’s all about😊

All the best!

Congratulations Kai Shine Bright ❤

You're anxiety made me feel anxious 😭 . Btw my mom's a nurse and she had a pretty similar experience as she told me. Best of luck for your upcoming days!!

Beginnings are overwhelming... Stress = break outs - yes, check! Try not to stress too much. I know, I know... easier said than done. It sounds like you are in a supportive work environment.Great that you have experienced nurses around who know the ropes and are willing to share. (Nurses are so important.) Sorry you got picked on... or felt you got picked on... yah, I absolutely hate being put on the spot. (Ahhh... a Kai vlog is not complete without eating scenes! Yay; we had several! )Yes. Back to nursing, you will be great because you're compassionate; you're curious; you're humble; and you're smart! Please ask your friends to be patient as you adjust to your new work schedule. Your "little brother" friend seems very understanding! You have lots of friend support, lucky you. Congrats, Kai, and thanks for the great vlog. (We'll be understanding, too!)💖

I've been working in a hospital as a nurse for the first time, almost 4 months ago, and I still feel super anxious. Real life is sometimes very different from what we learn during classes. We don't know everything and every day is a learning experience. The intubation of a patient in the first week was a trauma, the first death too. but then it passed. I still continue to study a lot. When I come across something new, I will study it. I know that more study will help reduce anxiety.

I love your positivity and that you find positive things in any situation you're in I'm sure you'll get through this and that you'll be able to balance your life perfectly even if you'll do one vlog every month or so it's fine as long as you're not pressuring yourself to do more things Just follow your dream and I'm sure you'll be the best at your work you just need time to get used to it 💗💗

Oh buddy❤❤. I understand your worries and anxiety. Relax I promise everything will be alright and you are an Awesome nurse, even if you make mistake, no problem😊. You are doing great. I appreciate all your hardworks, we are with , you're not alone. Just be happy and smile a lot❤❤❤❤ don't be too hard on yourself. Enjoy it

Its normal to be scared and panic, but you have your education to back you up. Here in Hawaii, new nurses train under a preceptor who supports and encourages you. You'll find that you are stronger than you think you are and that you can handle an emergency even through your panic. My 1st emergency I was able to handle calmly (at least outwardly while inside screaming). But you find that your mind set changes and you start thinking more about your patients. You can only do the best you can, you are you and comparisons can hurt but you need to take it in stride but also stand up for yourself. I promise it will get better. Good luck!

you'll do great. just make sure to put your heart into everything that you do

I hope you are relaxing into your new job!! Have fun in Dallas with Lena❤ hope she kicks ass and has lots of clients. Relax and enjoy yourselves 😊🥰 You got this!! Vlog was great can't wait to see more!!!

hi Kai, congratulations and don't worry at the beginning we all feel that way and yes you are going to make mistakes but those mistakes will make you much better, just enjoy your work ok, that's what it's all about 🎉🎉❤

No honey u ain’t da only one..my butt opens up also when I am anxious or stressed..u r gonna do great..congratulations..✌️🫶🏼🖖🏼

Always a smile and good vibes when seing the notification. Congrats for this New start i Can relate on you I am also a stressed person but let's put this stress out and enjoy every moments. Your followers are proud of you.Iam sure will find the right balance and get a lot of sucess. Seing the kind friends you have sure they will understand you and be their for your. Wishing you the best and you will continue this job in the field you want❤

Congratulations 🥳❤❗️

All the best for everything!🍀🪄🫶🏻 Even though it's all new and overwhelming you will get through it and soon adapt to it start enjoying the new lifestyle! The bond you have with your people is so beautiful I pray that it only gets stronger and stronger ❤💪🏻🍀 they all love you and appreciate you for all that you are and so do we! You got this!!

When one door closes, another one opens! Congratulations Nurse Kai🎉❤

you got this bro! you are doing really great and strong. And that's so sweet that your brother and your girlfriend and friends are always there for you. congrats on your new chapter!

epi- goes to almost every situation from cardiac to allergy. enjoy your orientation but learn as much as you can at the same time.

A new beginning always feels like what you are feeling. Don't panic remember to breathe, take a moment to think before you answer. On your way to work and home, listen to music as it feeds the soul. It also has the power to energize, shift moods, and get your body moving. At the end of the day take time to journal what you learnt, it will help you remember. Bullet point important things and remember everyone else feels the same. They might not show it. Fighting ❤❤

I’m so proud of youuuu ❤ I’m terrified for nursing school 😭

Love you kai❤❤ you're very inspiring to me ❤keep it up❤❤ And also can you please make a video about your haircare routine? cause it looks gorgeous❤❤

Kai u r so amazing and i know u can do this. You got this don't give up. Keep up the good work. Lots of love from mary

hey kai! just a small word of encouragement but i firmly believe that life is all about making mistakes and i think that the word "mistake" shouldn't be a negative connotation because you have to make mistakes to know what you are good at and what you are not so good at in life and even in work and other things as well. don't stress too much and its okay to make mistakes and as a new grad nurse you should be making mistakes in fact because we are all human :) just a small word of encouragement LOLL i am also a pre med student right now in cali but this is also what i try to tell myself a lot while i move on with life HEHE goodluck!!!

Omoo,congratulation Kai..

Congratulations l hope the things keep goings-on don't worry you are doin good ❤

It's crazy how your video upload notification makes my day. I'm actually stuck in the cycle of mindless scrolling and phone addiction that I just don't like being controlled by silly procrastination thoughts. I'll eventually get the control back. *not something you need to know* You're such an inspiration for me. I like the way you're real in the content. with respect, your fan + subscriber

Thank god, another person that is open about their bowel habits! Congratulations on passing the NCLEX and starting your career in nursing. I have been a nurse for 7 years and will start my first Nurse Practitioner job later this year. Don't put too much pressure on yourself (easier said than done) and soak up all the new opportunities coming your way. The beginning can be overwhelming and I think it is so easy for imposter syndrome to kick in, but you got this!

Everything is going to be fine . Own it like a Boss .

Hey Kai.......🫶🫶🫶 First of all Congratulations 🎉🎉😊😊❤❤❤ I could really feel the ecstasy through the screen at the beginning of the video...the way you couldn't stop laughing and couldn't find the correct words to express the feeling....Really saw some butterflies 🦋.... It's OK to be anxious about stepping into something new....there will be so many changes that in many ways compliments your life.... You'll never know if you never try.... The last few vlogs were about so many doubts and anxieties but you are standing right in that position which you feared the most...and now you know it wasn't that bad.... Trust the way soon you will overcome the fears about compromising your time with family and friends.... As a student who is about to get into college I've been kinda weird and nervous lately...meeting new people, making friends, all the college stuff,always worried about how people see me or which part of me should I hide....but at the end its just me taking my next step...it's like being happy and excited but a microsecond later you find yourself nervous and anxious....I took a drop year to prepare for my entrance exam but couldn't performance sa expected due to anxiety and homesickness...now I'm healing from all the mistakes I made and scars I did to myself.....that's OK healing is a beautiful journey....☘️☘️☘️ Lots of love to you Kai ❤❤❤❤❤take care

Awe congrats❤

Yes, you can be proud of you.

Hey Kai... worry not. You got this.

You're the best ❤

Watching yours vlogs is such a great energy boost , getting to know about your hardships and the way you overcome them makes me proud of you. And all the best on your job as a new grad nurse and I know you can do it all 🎉🎉🎉.Love from India 🇮🇳🇮🇳🇮🇳

I’m in an anxious era for about almost 2 months, I get how you feel but it’s okay, you will get better, hopefully me too😅take care✌🏼

AWESOME VLOG!

Hang in there!! It takes time to adjust to nursing. I been a nurse for 24 years and i still feel insecure and nervous about new situations. As long you have a loving heart towards patients and family the rest will come naturally ❤

Congrats🎉🎉

I'm in the first semester of grad school too. Although we are from different careers (I am a teacher studying for a master's degree in Literature), I felt exactly like you described. I guess it takes time to adapt to this new routine and to feel like you're there to learn. Since I have anxiety disorder it makes everything worse because I am always pressuring myself to be perfect and learn everything fast, but that does not happen at all. However, we should not overthink our habilities over those little mistakes because our desire to learn is the first step to actual learning. You are doing great!

Congratulations 🎉🎉🎉

Awesome 1st week 🎉 ypu can do it, over time it will get better😊 im still waiting to grad in my final year😅

Hi Kai, I know right now it may feel extremely overwhelming… but remember there’s a reason why u are in those rooms with ur other peers. You all are doing your best! We are all humans and we’re all just trying our best

kai congratulations I have been busy sorry for not commenting on the past videos I just also recently graduated from my transfer College and it took place may 28 the graduation took place I'm also gonna be nervous in the far future when I'm waiting to see if I passed the bar exam to become a lawyer glad to see you again

Kai, it's gping to be okay. My mom is a nurse, and she helps old people. She has to give them sertine types of medication. Btw congratulations!!!❤❤

I just found out I passed my Nclex!!! I can’t believe I am officially an RN!!!! Your journey really inspired me!!!

i love how fast i clicked on the notification

Kai, you are going to do great! I'm a nurse practitioner, and your video just reminded me of myself in the beginning. Word of advice, I know you want to be in derm but it's imperative to get your basics down as a nurse. Working in the hospital is definitely a good move. Hang in there, keep going. You'll gain confidence overtime. Goodluck!!🎉🎉🎉

Congratulations 🎊 😊

Aw! Congratulations 🎉 wish you all the best

You need to relax if you don't you are going to be no good to anyone. You are a great guy, sensible, sensitive, caring I have said this to all my students If you don't know something ASK and FOLLOW YOUR TRAINING welcome the challenges and be positive. I know it's easy to say and not always to do but you will . ❤

I’m a new grad OR nurse and I just got off orientation a week ago (which is crazy, I did my orientation in 5 months and most do theirs a long time like 7 months to a year). I had my “first big mistake” last week but it’s weird because in the OR it’s very team oriented so it was really a joint mistake. Luckily it was caught and able to be fixed. Other than that killing it. I would say if you like consistency, the OR may be good because for the most part surgeries are the same with the same surgeon, short of emergencies or complications. Like I do mostly ortho and total joints and spines are like the same across surgeons, it’s fractures that may be a new experience every time. I’m also from California and relocated to Tennessee for nursing school and am staying for work and man I miss the melting pot of food and being surrounded by people like me. Sounds stupid but I am one of 2 Asians in my unit and only Korean (we got a Korean surgeon though). Also the south might as well be its own country, so different from the west coast.

Good luck 🎉

I’d rather have a nervous nurse who wants to do their best than a know-it-all. You’re already so compassionate you’ll do great. Maybe PRN is the best for you look into it because creating your own schedule is amazing.

🎉🎉CONGRATULATIONS🎉🎉

Congrats 👏

I’m gonna start tomorrow

Congratulations 😊😊😊😊

can you please make a video on what you did to prepare for the NCLEX?

Firstt, ily

I know what you're meaning regarding changing patterns 😅. I worked almost 3 years in health care and that ain't for me 😅✌🏽. Athough I was good with the clients (several clients I've also lead into faith). I don't like the toxic atmosphere among the former coll's in health care, some former coll's didn't want to care for the heavy clients, the different shifts, every other weekend I had to work. So I could not attend every church celebration. Last January I stopped in health care (and now I can go to church every Sunday 🎉and I don't have to choose which holiday to work anymore 🎉) and now I'm working at the office again 😎👊🏽 (me too an overthinker! 🤣). And I'm so enjoying to work at the office again 💃🏽. I have balance in my work, also regarding working times. Glory to Lord Jesus 🙌🏽. To me personal, I'm so happy that I don't got further as a nurse. My colleague, he worked as a nurse like you, but for about 5 years or so. And he didn't like it anymore and he quit with being a nurse.

I love this channel ❤😊😅

wait im loving the little notifications haha, get the idea from miki? 😂🤔

1:03 I totally relate to that 😅

❤ you're going to do fine stop getting cold feet been there done that