do you feel sometimes that you lose the meaning of "family" sometimes you think that you need to do it.. because i do and its terrible.. i feel like im the only one who think that, like its my destiny to die by my hand.. i feel like i have to.. it pains me to feel like that... its so hard :(

@@mathspodethemighty3484 explore every possible option before doing something final,, thats the only way man

If your family is loving and decent, that is more than reason enough. Believe me. Keep seeking a treatment that works for you. We all die far too soon, anyway. There is no need to rush things. Good luck in your search. Be well.

If you have a loving and caring family who are supportive of you, you’re already halfway there! Plz don’t give up and reach to a professional for help! Things will become better, trust me!

thanks everyone, i changed my medication. i feel a little better but still no motivationi hope itll get better in time.. been struggling with this for 15years now.. seeing thing differently is almost impossible but im trying

LOL SO TRUE

Ikr they say ask for help, talk to people. But who actually cares .... No one takes you seriously until it's too late.

@@gina00700 that really is the sad truth… I just wish more people understood how serious of an issue it is

I understand. It usually makes little sense to open up to people, who cannot grasp the situation. Many are just helpless when it comes to such a deeply personal topic, which tends to increase the loneliness. It usually needs a reflective personality to be able to appreciate the darkness someone else may be sensing. On the other hand, one needs to give people a chance. You cannot open up to every one all the time, but once in a while there may be someone, who seems to be able to relate, even a perfect stranger on a random encounter. I hope, you find someone like that! :)

nobody really cares until it's too late...

That's rough man! Better people are come along. I'm sure of it ❤

🙏🏻

I’m praying for you, friend I’ve never met. Just slipped into darkness and depression again myself after being in the pink cloud of sobriety. I hope you can get the support and compassion and understanding you need. I hope you can feel seen and lifted up. I pray you can begin to see the light again. It isn’t easy, but we can do hard things because we’re strong, even when we feel our weakest. Sending you so much love

It better get better for me, in the next two years or I'll jump in the ocean

Hey, how are you doing now? I saw your comment was 2 months old. Your post made me cry, I'm struggling too. Hope you're in a better place now.

I am feeling the same way too, I put too much on my plate and it definitely affects my stress and anxiety levels. I am also glad to be part of this community.

Does he ship?

Yes, he ships discreet and anonymous

Dr.healingstrain

iG ☝️☝

That is a great purpose to have. Bless you for your love and determination to go on despite the mental/emotional challenges. That is courage.

The exact same reason I am still around, for my little girl. You got this brother and your daughter has the most amazing dad because to suffer everyday and still put on a smile for your kid, that takes a different kind of strength! Keep healthy bro and nothing but good wishes for you and your family!

@@ThePillowCage This means a lot thank you.

@@Christ_AlphaOmega You got this, just hang in there, life gets easier. One day you will be so grateful to yourself that you didn’t do it even though it’s hard to think that way now..

You're important. Being a dad is one of the most precious jobs there is. Keep going. I don't know you but proud of you for trying. I don't have kids and I really have nothing else. The only reason I haven't ended my life is because I dont wsnt my parents to blame themselves. All they did was love me. It was outsiders that broke me. I used to love a lot about life. But in the past 15 years or so. . Slowly... people.. things.. just broke me and I'll never have a future. It hurts to live... and no ..helping others wont help me now. Im beyond broken. I helped friends, partners, sometimes strangers. So many times I out others before myself. In the end...none of those people stuck by me. I was either manipulated or blamed. Whether something was my fault or not. No hope. I stay for my parents. The only ones who could ever have loved me. But there's no other reason to hold on... I want to die peacefully. In my sleep. Would be best

Lord have mercy on thendo.

I am in so much pain and so full of hate for life itself. You may see me in the news soon.

I hate God for creating me.

I will pray for you guys every single time I pray, which is a lot

Thendo I will most certainly pray for you my friend

I love you. Stay strong.

I love you.

Jordan saved my life too…he might never read this but im grateful for his words of encouragement…I wouldn’t be here rn and I’m happy you’re doing better Evelyn4789. I hope we make it through this, all of us together

Evelyn, thank you for writing this.....that shows strength and your willingness to share gives me hope.

I love you and I'm glad you still here praying for your peace ❤❤❤

I feel so bad. Have no family ,friends and everyday I'm alone. My darkness has been seven months now. I'm screaming for help. No one heard.

Stay strong.

I have ocd bad like that anxiety is unbearable

I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” kzfaq.info/get/bejne/e76Berd607bUiok.html

You will NEVER win the war against Depression. You are not at battle with the world. Instead you are at battle with yourself.

My advice to you is to start therapy, regular therapy, your depression is caused by a psychological issue, a very very complex range of thoughts It's just psychological, there is a solution !! I was severely depressed for 8 years, depressed for another half year, I'm starting to have more and more happy calm days, without any cloud in sight You have to keep believing it will go away because it can. If someone had told me 2 years ago I would be where I am today, I wouldn't have believed it So have faith I hope you are better 💫

@@littlelily4 @littlelily4 - Thanks for reaching out, @ I believe your advice is sound. However, talk therapy is not covered by insurance where I live, so it's out of the question. I did try talk therapy about 30 years ago for a couple of years, but found it did nothing. Plus, I'm old and hopefully won't be around too much longer. I'm working with MAID (medical assistance in dying) to get the peace I deserve.

@@montesa9136 have you tried going to a psychiatrist who does talk therapy ? That's what I do, I live in France but it's covered that way

Been there. Indeed, before actually experiencing it myself, "being depressed" was just another way to say feeling down. If I had to describe it, I'd use this awful allegory. It's sticky. With that uncomfortable warmth that always bugs you, always in the back of your head. A sense of dread, irritating in it's unknown origin. The inability of thinking positive, always thinking about how some machiavellan chain of improbable events might make everything go wrong. Inadequacy, and blaming yourself and your stupid past decisions for it. Giving up making plans for the future, up to deciding what to wear the next day, to you it doesn't matter. Hating yourself, and hating the world around you because of how unbearably happy it seems. This is personal, wanting to get rid of the burden of you from your loved ones. All piling up on top of each other, giving you the sensation to choke. And worst of all, it gives you a dangerous sensation of self-pity. You start to think of yourself as a victim so much, that you start to revel in it and wail in your self indulgence. A perverted desire to say "it's not me who's flawed, it's the world that's rotten". I was a few of the lucky ones, who managed to claw their way out almost by himself, and only because my family has some awesome people in it, and probably because it wasn't as bad as it could get.

Is true the pain is big because we are special too empathetic and all is so big and intense for us

Oh wow you have a lot to learn . There are things that happen in one’s life out of their control that can mess you up. You’re too presumptuous and academic. Life is way more bigger and messed up.

That's beautiful and right on point.

@GadSaadismyDaad I feel like what you're saying is true of some people, though bear in mind it might not be majority. I'm fairly extroverted, and I try to stay out of the deep thought area because it leads to places I don't want to go and I end up feeling sick because it hurts to much to put into words. I appreciate what you're saying though, and the way you've gone a bout it.

he made me be a better person at my 50, found him after my divorce from an avoidant wife, read his two last books and still reading Map of meaning. I'm on lexapro now (SSRI) and thriving now. But at this point noticed felt pain all my life. Was able to overcome family challenges and difficulties in life but alway hide the pain. Now I feel your pain when read this. There is hope

Probably because besides the softball topic he’s fairly contentious? This is not a partisan thing but that’s exactly it

Because he supports trump and trump = fascist dictatorship and fascist dictatorship always = fields full of dead innocent people. That's a good enough reason why.

I pray for you. I suffer from severe depression and I pray everyday.

Bipolar is the worst! Some days you wake up and the world is yours. You are productive, you're strong mentally and physically. Everything works life is great! Just for it to be pulled away from you in a terrible depressive phase. We are two people that will never meet but we fight similar battles. I hope mental stability will be upon you soon! We are both going to make it!

I am going through the same thing bipolar sucks

I’m praying for you! I feel the same way it’s so unpredictable and hard to overcome but we can do this!

I'm also bipolar I feel the same way as you

The majority of people who hate Peterson is because they are told to. Majority of them were probably introduced to to him from vices failed attempt to suck him into the ridiculous identity politics divide and conquer agenda.

@Stop my ego. how is he sexist?

🙏🏻🙏🏻 absolutely agree

@@knowbuddy0 he isn't, he's just not a feminazi, so he obviously hates women 🤣 The last part of the comment 'i don't think he's shed his ego' was the most pretentious part. Nobody 'sheds their ego' and the expectation that Petersen should just shows this another person sucked in by the msm. They're all little foot soldiers, commanded to go out and find fault with people and ideas that actually help people. That's the best that person could come up with.

@@knowbuddy0 Don't be ridiculous. Who's telling us to hate him, the news?

Stay strong. I love you.

How are you doing?

Be strong. God loves you.

Hi there! How are you? Keep it up! A new life is around the corner!!!

Hey thank you for your questions. Yes I'm alive and doing okay. Not the best but living at least. Hope you are all well

The Trips I've been having have really helped me a lot,I finally feel in control of my emotions and my future and things that used to be mundane to me now seem incredible and full of nuance on top of that I'm way less driven by my ego and I have alot more empathy as well

Psychedelic’s definitely have potential to deal with mental health symptoms like anxiety and depression, I would like to try them but it’s just so hard to source

I've been having this constant, unbearable anxiety because of university stress..not until I came across Myco_louiis.. he really helped me

Saw some reviews about myco_louiis,checked him out and I must recommend he is good at what he does

Good.. How do I source mine?

You are right. We should be so much more careful of the people we meet. We don't know what they are going through.

Yes,.. I too have been reading comments, and hope to find hope for myself as well. I recently had a traumatic life altering experience, that put me into stress I've never experienced, then anxiety, and insomnia. Then, .. into Depression with regret. I've been suffering every day, and lost enjoyments of life. Don't do anything, go anywhere, and noticed I don't care about anything!,.. and have anhedonia that is unnatural to experience. I hope you and I both,.. and all of us who have depression,... some way, some day... heal.!! And find enjoyment in life again 🙏

Hang in there brother.

I’m sorry to hear about that.

💖🙏🏽🙏🏽

I’m sorry to hear this, please hang on, soon your influence whether helping change a life path for a stranger, a loved one, or finding yourself will come.

i'm so sorry, you are loved, you have a purpose.

Dam its not juste me ?

They dont understand depression.

I said something insensitive and somewhat ignorant 9 months ago. What I said was basically "you can't be depressed cause you sound like you're 12" What I meant to say is "this seems more like a cry for attention" cause many people use suicide to get attention. Because, unless you have a reason to be depressed between the ages of 9 and 13, other then hormones, it probably isn't a bad case let alone suicidal. Also, my definition of "depressed" has changed. When I wrote this I was down right suicidal, so thats what I thought depressed was. now it's more like "I wish I died in my sleep or a car crash" I hope the best for everyone. 🤝

@@certified_geek7536 :just cause you are teenager that doesnt mean you can't suffer real depression! Parents have to be careful when kids tell that they are depressed cause it can be serious.Teenage years are sensitive.

@@lucialu833 it seems like this specific comment is more of a cry for attention

“I wish I was someone better” that’s exactly what my monster looks like. I don’t want to be a better me, I want to be someone else.

Love you friend

i love you

@@shaunschulte2258 Mine is that too. The feeling that no one will be shattered by my loss...It is by watching this and others vids that I realise the fallacy in my belief.

Love and prayers to you.

I feel similar

Micky Are👍🙂

@Bob Wilson even if he does he's still impacted peoples lives in positive and astronomical ways. Supermarkets probably only care about making money and being rich, but they give a HUGE MAJORITY of the population, the easy accessibility to feed ourself and stay alive... And thats all the really matters..

@Bob Wilson could be true (I'm not super knowledgeable on the subject matter) but for know ya know If feeds families, keeping them alive and the potential butterfly effects from that could be huge etc.

@Bob Wilson well I personally don't worship the man, I found him 2 days ago from an interview and have watched a small number a videos. Focusing on what he's saying and ways I can apply those to help myself. So I can't relate to that extent but I have been thinking and applying and feeling better. What I can say about negatively impact people is, yeah it's probsbly true. But that's under no one's control to stop. Loads of people will take things multiple ways, and come to multiple conclusions to what they see, hear or experience. Something I've come to accept along my lifetime is that it will always go in a circle, those people being negatively impacted will find something that positively impacts them, but negatively impacts other. Its a situational cycle that, I just accepts happens and nothing can be done about it

@Bob Wilson No they dont. You can still grow your own food. You can still raise livestock. You can still buy from a farmers market. That isn't a monopoly. Supermarkets just make it cheaper and easier. Most people dont have time to farm, or they dont live close enough to buy from one.

True story! He’s been through unbelievable suffering himself even long b4 the media crucified him for standing up for free speech, although he rarely talks about it so most have no idea. He has so much compassion for people, even the clueless who hate him out of complete ignorance.

Jordan Peterson: Slayer of Dragons.

If you can recognize ..your life will be wonderful!(full of wonders) Every blessing........

I can relate. I was in tears for most of this video.

I totally relate. Love Jordan he's a very compassionate man.

Also I forgot to say a few things which really helped me... You also have to be really compassionate towards yourself rather than hating yourself. I used to hate myself but I tried to be more compassionate towards myself and loved myself in those tough times. Learn to forgive yourself for your mistakes and learn to let go. Stop holding on to things which hurt you and reminiscing the past. Accept yourself for who you are and accept yourself. And accept the fact that whatever happens, happens for a reason. I'm 19 years old now... I used to have anxiety plus I used to feel depressed for like 2-3 years. But I didn't want to stay in this pathetic situation and I wanted to bring in the change within me. You either push yourself to battle this situation or just stay in this rut forever. Find your reason to live, find your purpose. Life becomes a lot more worth living when you find your purpose. Life is short, make it meaningful. Even if you have to fight every single day to get through this. Just try not to give up till your last breath. The most important thing is to LOVE YOURSELF.

@@alishaalam3144 Thank you for taking the time and effort to share these words of kindness and inspiration. May your life continue to develop positively!

@@gerardrost4679 Thanks to you too...I'm glad someone actually read it ☺

Keep fighting. You are not the only one walking at the cliff's edge. I hope you can get better soon 🌹💐

Pulling the Strings it's because they love you bro, you never know what tomorrow may bring but you wake up anyway, this might be the day everything changes

@Pulling the Strings well. You wrote that yesterday. Still there buddy? In that case, you had a future yesterday. And you will agan today. I can understand that with all your conditions you may find it impossible. But in all honesty. Pull yourself together and give yourself some dammin worth. You are here. You have family. You have a live. You have value. And you are capable. There is a spot for you in this world. And if there isn't then make one. Every life is worth living. Every hardship is worth the little comfort that follows. I know because I walked over the edge of that cliff and was pulled back. My body was not giving up. It took a wile but eventually, my brain catched on. Live is hard. And it hurts like hell. But even pain is better then nothingness. The best thing about live is its brutality. You get to experience. Pain, comfort, love, hate, hope, depression, bordem, burnout. It's all there and it's exciting. And it's worth it. You only have one live buddy. It would be a shame to not make the best of it. Even if the best thing you have in life is the cat video in your recommendations. It is still somthing. Something is better then nothing. You may think that suicide is a way out of pain. But its a one way ticket. If you give up on pain then you also give up on plessure. If you give up on yourself then you give up on others too. Stop seeing your conditions as punishments. See them as challenges. Don't see live as a conviction. See it as an opportunity. You only got this single one. Make something of it.

Dennis Arango God Loves you and what’s you to live

Oof put that on a shirt and give me 5!... It's such a weird thing to feel; like there's usually a railing to stop people from thinking these things. And when it's gone... It can be really hard to justify not falling when the ground looks so much softer... idk

You aren’t alone , we love you , you are worth it ✨

There are a lot of good people out there, a lot of them have commented here. It's just that the people that we think should be the good ones usually aren't. They seem to be where we least expect them.

I am genuine

Me too.

I feel ya

I understand that so well. Lost my job of 17 years recently. I can't afford help and have never felt so alone in my life. I have to force myself to get out of bed. Praying for you that it gets easier.

I understand how you feel. I just sleep when I'm not working. I just don't want to wake up

You are a wonderful person!! Please do not give up you are loved more than you may know!!!

Hell on earth

You deserve the life you have and the life so close you. You deserve the love they have and reciprocate with you. Don’t let the nows affect your futures. Don’t give up. It might sound redundant to say but I know you can do it. You have to feel it. Believe it. Love your strength and let it grow. Look forward to who you can grow into sunsets from now! I’m sending you positivity. It will come. 🤍

I’d kill to have a wife and a daughter.

Why do we still need to think of other people until the end. Cant it be just what i want for once.

Yes %100

I'm not 'pro' suicide. However I don't get angry at those who choose to take their life, as I can understand being in such a low place and not feeling as if there is any way out. Sometimes the nothingness of death seems like a better choice than constant suffering. I think it is selfish if you have kids, as they are reliant on you when young and would be left in a world without their parent. However, for those without dependants, I can understand their perspective. I have had very long stretches of time where I was suicidal and I survived by 'daring' myself to just survive one more day if I woke up that morning. I lived 24 hours at a time and didn't think or plan ahead any further as the concept of a 'future' in my current situation back then was overwhelming. I'm not sure if that works for other people though. No one can ever truly understand the existence of another individual.

EXACTLY! Also, what kind of people want to see people continue to suffer just for their own selfishness?

@@succubus20y i ask myself the same question.

Literally the only reason I’m still here is because my mom texts me almost every other day to let me know she loves me. If it wasn’t for her love, I’d be long gone

@@satori9105 same here

Same here

Same here. I hope it will get better for all of us, thankfully we have this man.

We love you!!

Depends on the crowds

Try reddit

Is it really, though?

Group dynamic is wonderful and toxic at the same time. Not necessarily social media alone, it naturally happens in community situations too.

Only strong should survive 💪.

Bro iam felling depression iam from India and having chronic neck pain I felling suicidal 🥲🥲🥲

Hope you're doing ok. If you need, reach out for help. Even if it's in this comment section. We all struggle, you're not alone. A warm hug to you, friend. 🫂

@@LizardManFromTheEarthCore Thank you :)

We love you!

He saved my life back in May 2018. I will never be more grateful for anything else.

It will be an option any way

That one hit home here too.

Different day new problem

I like the quote because I see it as procrastinating suicide and I’m good at procrastinating

same

@@Jeganathan_19 that's awesome. Enjoy the book man 🙏

He changed humanity. If they're willing to listen.

You changed your life. You made the choice and enacted it. But you certainly were inspired.

@@The_Kirk_Lazarus much appreciated

As sad as you can be, just think your life is not your own, you can’t take it! Think of the suffering of Christ ask God for strength to carry your burden!

I am on the same page I don't know what to do anymore. It's unbearable :(

😢😢😢 so true

I can't even last the 3 minute mark

I second this I’m going thru a terrible time I’m questioning worrying about everything It is a horrible horrible place to be In I don’t want anyone to feel like I do Thankfully I don’t feel suicidal but I feel really lost and don’t know what to do I paid to see a private Counsellor in the uk yesterday and she told me I was lonely sad and that it sounds like my marriage is coming to an end I feel ten times worse

How old are you? Depression is pretty common, in all of its variations. Why are you unhappy? Start exploring the very foundation of what depression is... Maybe the answers are soon to follow... I'm 36, and I know why I don't want to live, I haven't wanted to live for at least half of my life.... I carry on for the handful of people around me. SSRI/SSNRIs should be explored but I will tell you, with so many years of trial and error myself, and research with others, they don't really fix anything... Of course I wouldn't discourage anyone from trying them. If they help you, then that is fantastic. Be well everyone ✌️

Thats a myth, most people who kill themselves believe they are doing their friends and family a favor. They think that you are better off without them, and they don't deserve to live. That by continuing to survive, they are being selfish.

Love Light Yes what you said is true. It is exacally what I feel. I feel like I’m just pain for the people around me. That I am just in the way, failure, dissapoitment. All I do is hurting, stressing the people I love. My mind says, my mind makes be belive that every person I love with be more happy without me. Their stress. Inside I belive this but I’m trying to change it. I whould never want to make my loved one, mom, dad, my sisters, friends sad or having pain.

When simply the fact of being alive is painful, then death seems to be the only way. There is nothing selfish in this act, only devastation and struggle.

Loka- Chan praying for you brother. I’m in the same boat and wish well upon you in and your future. Know that you are very valuable to me and everybody around you. You are loved man. You may not see it but you are and one day you are gonna start a family and see the beauty of life. Suicide isn’t the option man. There’s so much more to life to experience, and life itself wants you to experience it. Times will get tough and it may be extremely dark but there’s always light at the end of the tunnel. Keep fighting brother, I’m praying for your wellbeing. You got this man, take it day by day and try improve by 1 percent. Wish you the best on your journey!

Moe K Thank you man. Hope the best for you too❤️❤️ We fight together🦾🦾

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How have you been doing the last 4 months? I really hope you have had some moments in which you where able to enjoy his memory...

@@nickcsuki8123 Thank you so much for asking. I think it is very kind of you. I am fine. Keeping myself busy. Lately I haven't spend much time thinking of my brother. But when I am with my mother, he is missing. Also, his birthday is coming up 8. of december. Then we have x-mas where he is missing, when me and my mother are sitting there alone. And then comes new year. My brother took his own life on the 1. of january 2003. December is a rather 'heavy' month. I used to travel to Thailand and stay there till after new year, but now that is not an option. But no problem. I just stay busy. I wish you good luck and all the best. Thank you for being so considderrate. Cheers.

@@petergorm Great to hear back from you. That sounds like an absolute tragedy . Try to find and enjoy good memories... Stay strong coming month. Love and the best for you and your family...

@@petergorm God bless you and your Mom, and hold you both and your brother close to his Sacred Heart. +

I hope you are doing well

@@EAHorror doing fine buddy,trying to move forward every day

i feel you, I am here again and again

My own brain is taunting me. So I just want to put a bullet in the fucker.

I agree

Thanks for sharing that. ❤

God bless you

​@@beemccoy9111 no such thing and if there is god is a cunt

Read spiritual depression from Martin Lloyd Jones

I feel you. I was also super disciplined, fit, able to abstain from bad things. But this year has beat my ass. I've not been doing well. I want to do well though.

I totally understand. My life is not confusing, my day to day life is a jumble. Some days I don't want to leave the bedroom.

ABSOLUTELY! People don't come that decision in a hurry. It's often the only thing left they can do to end the relentless suffering

@@montesa9136 Uh, yeah they do. Stop romanticizing this disgusting mentality. Your suffering isn’t that unique. Several studies have shown that when you take away the easiest, most impulsive means of committing suicide, like handguns, people commit suicide less. What a shocking coincidence, right?! Suicide is objectively an irrational, emotional, and utterly nonsensical decision at least 99% of the time, which is also why the vast majority of suicide attempts fail, because the act isn’t done with complete conviction or careful planning most of the time. You’re doing exactly what Peterson says not to do: whining and blaming other people when there’s still things you could be doing to better your own life. That’s just pathetic.

@@georgerockwell149 It's obvious you have never suffered from Severe Major Depressive Disorder. You have NO IDEA what you are talking about.....

@@georgerockwell149 “disgusting mentality…” the lack of empathy in your comment shows that you probably never faced any severe mental disorder. Just experience 1 week of generalized anxiety disorder or depersonalization and I swear to God that you will have suicidal thoughts every damn minute ! Then you would probably understand why some people can only see an exit by taking that path ! I don’t judge people who commit suicide because I know how is it to suffer to a point where you simply just wanna end it. But you have no idea about how it feels …

All the people I personally know that took antidepressants aren't here anymore. That may have worked for you but it doesn't work for most.

@@tylerchristensen9684 that's because it's treatable. There is such a thing as medication/therapy resistant depression. I'm sorry for your loss. I've recently been diagnosed with clinical/Major Depressive Disorder/Severe Depression and I have hope that it will work. I'm only 23 but I know I don't want to die at this moment. So even if people tell me the medication won't work or it's just a waste of money, I'm still going to try. I've noticed lately that when I get too over stimulated and frustrated or very upset the thought pops in my head just for a moment. So hearing and learning all of this is the first step to REALLY understanding what I'm (and others) are dealing with. I'm currently waiting for my prescription. My mom said some really hurtful things today so I'm educating myself to avoid the feeling of uselessness and hopelessness. For anyone else who may come across my comment. Try the medication, try therapy. Switch medication and therapists if you have to and keep this video in mind when you're feeling down. It's weird but since 11 my reason for not wanting to die was "think of all the food you haven't eaten/tasted yet" it's a child's way of putting it off " until tomorrow ". I've had multiple failed attempts since 11 years old but it's been 4 years since I last was in that dark space. Now that I know what I know. I'm not going to give up on myself and fall into the hurtful words others say or the thoughts I think about myself. YOU ARE LOVED.❤️❤️❤️❤️

I was on meds but SSRI’s are dangerous so I stopped taking them

I don't feel okay. But it feels better to come to KZfaq and read the comments. I'm not the only one struggling at least.

Let's talk on the phone whoever to just talk about ivwill exchange numbers

​@@snoozyq9576take magnesium and 15 min exercise, wait 1 hour compare, God loves you

try get hold of shrooms,Shrooms are a natural type of psychedelic drug that people use for recreational or spiritual purposes. scientific reports show that magic mushrooms can treat depression. they work for treatment-resistant depression.try some n see their work, explain to this dealer what you are facing instagram.com/p/CEpRj3KMGiBqCv14PUiMp9XS0UfKN4vSOmhhdc0/?igshid=93qzh923qzkx

Madonna Yevette I know. I went to art school. Shrooms, acid, weed, molly. Tried it all. But now that I remember shrooms and acid straighten you out. They help me remember who I am and adjust my thinking so I’ll definitely be tripping again. Thank you

@@mickeydemas you welcome honey

Not everyone is loved or has love to give

Beautiful story

Don’t do it Penny. Even if you don’t feel worthy because you hurt people in the past, it won’t change the fact that it will hurt the people you care about. It doesn’t have to be the permanent fix, I don’t think it can, but thinking about the people in your life who would be hurt by you killing yourself might help shake you out the mental state that you’re in. Even if you think you aren’t worthy it won’t change the hurt it could cause. If that makes you feel guilty use the guilt to your advantage, twist it into some sort of reason to keep going. I hope you’re doing better today then yesterday.

Depression makes you feel lost in such a way even the pain of one’s you love is almost numb to you. I hope this makes sense

I don’t want my family to miss me or feel sad when I’m gone but I’m also lost and very hurt in a way I can’t feel anymore

That's definitely not the best option, you can't hurt people more just because you've hurt them once. You might feel like you can't do the right thing or you're not worthy, but WHO CARES. Sometimes you have to stop caring about what you feel like doing and start doing what you have to do

I feel that exact thing right now.

I hope you find a way. God knows I can't imagine what loosing a child feels like but I hope you find strength.

Omg I wish I could just give you the biggest hug right now ! Please keep your head up and talk to someone 🤎try to live for the moments you too shared together. Even if it was for a little while 🤎🤎🤎🥺🥺

Sorry to hear what you're going through Golden. My parents lost my brother at a very young age so I can understand what it does to you.

The only thing that has stopped me from ending it is my mom. I can’t do that to her. Reading comments like this reaffirm me that I need to keep going. Thank you for this

I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm also 29 so it hits very hard on me. Very unfortunate. It must be so hard on you. Depression really is contagious. I wish there wasn't so much suffering in the world.

And then there's the ones who don't care if anyone will miss them .

@@killjoy8914 When people are very depressed, they often believe that no one cares about them, or that people would be better off without them around. With that belief in place, there is no reason for them to think anyone would miss them.

People care about people, Squirrel. It is just the way it is, at least this s how I believe.

@@deanmckell7423 You must be very young.

Thanks for the compliment, but you are as young as you feel, squirrel

stay strong just lost my mom collge ain't working many problems like everyone else hold om write down in paper and then read that it make you feel good music is my escape thank god i have the gift to write songs this all test trust god hope you doing fine don't give up someone had worse then you man withot leg and arm just watch nick vicovich on youtube he will give you hope just like pac said to every dark night there is brigther day

jack shepard 💕💕💕

jack shepard how have you been?

Our will power will not work. We need the Holy Spirit. We have a Savior in Jesus . Reach out to Ligonier Ministries

Stay strong brother. Logos shall speak to you in its own good time

Did you try LSD? It might be a solution. Inform yourself and maybe, it will change your life to the better. I dont want you to try drugs, but this one has potential in healing mental / psycoligical disorders without side-effects.

Tell yourself that I've read your comment and that I'm deeply touched. If I could send you courage through my screen ...

The same with me, except for ECT. I've been recommended that but I'm so scared I will lose parts of my memory and that it would affect my learning abilities. I'm afraid of turning into a vegetable.

@ Just Another Mortal - you are searching for a cure for an incurable illness. I have long ago given up trying .....

I woke up today and started crying and haven't been able to work. This also helped me see how much my despair would affect my family.

NewBookSmell the You’re not alone is not necessarily a statement to suggest other people are also struggling. It’s to suggest you are not alone in this world and in your battle. There are people around you that want you/ care for you/ need you in their lives and if you opened up to them they would help you. I’m sorry you are in so much pain but without a doubt you can get through it if you get the help you need. Hell if you gave me your info I’d help you. People care about you more than you may think x

You can do it! Whether it’s genetic or not, you have it and you have to deal with it. If dealing with it was easy, channels like these would not exist. It is not as simple as popping a pill or going on a vacation like some people think. It is serious but it is curable. Some of us have access to good healthcare while others do not but ultimately, from my experience, I changed my diet, took special vitamins and Christian therapy. I found out that it is true. People who suffer from depression have a special purpose in life. There is a mission that you need to get done but the depression does not let you see what it is. You are unique because you see pain where others don’t, you are perceptive to a person’s good intentions, you are extremely analytical and would never hurt another intentionally. Are there a lot of people like you out there? Absolutely not! Do you feel the world would be better if it did? Yes! Because people would be more loving and sensitive to each other’s needs. That is the reason you are here! The question is, through what venue are you going to help heal this world? Jesus has given you plenty of causes: racism, abortion, suicide prevention, world hunger, child abuse, domestic violence, alcoholism, drug use, human trafficking, police brutality, cancer, animal cruelty...and the list goes on and on. You are passionate for at least one of those issues, but who do you think, does not want you to complete your mission? Remember that this is a spiritual world and the Bible says that we battle with the forces we don’t see, so clearly it is the devil who does not want you to complete your mission. Are you going to let him win? It’s up to you👍

Ben Roddick God bless you! We need more people like you👍

I know this comment is old, but what you describe is called emotional pain body. There are very well working methods for it. The problem is, that it is detached from thinking, so f.e. talking won't help much. You have to deal with it in a different "language" with emotions. One quick way, and that needs training, lots and lots of training, is this one: 1) Understanding you aren't your pain. Find some other memory where you feel warm, shining from within like the light that you are. That sounds undoable, but it's not! You don't have to feel it full force, but try to get into that state. 2) Face your pain. Accept it and let it be. Be gentle towards it. It is there for a reason and fighting it will not work well. Just be that glowing warm light and look at it and accept it and allow yourself to fully feel and process it. You can, because you are not that pain, you are in pain. After 30-60 seconds, when you can do both things well, the pain actually starts to become less. It's working. Important: Don't try to do it from the mind, do it from your emotional side, don't analyze it as it happens, just let it be. This is one method in very, very short! Please look for emotional pain body here on youtube, the topic is too big for this comment. You can do it! I promise there are methods that work for it existing! I had the same problem as you. I'm still in pain and depressed, but not suicidal anymore! I wish you all the best and all the sun and fluffy puppy feelings in the world! 💕

That's because food poisoning is an uncomfortable, yet largely a rather temporary physiological illness that is over within a couple of days. The way out is rather clear and you know it will come. Depression is very different in so many ways, and more often than not the way out isn't so clear. I think the idea if there are other people whom are struggling or at least other beings who can understand what you're going through might encourage you to seek help, which is better than seeing that the only way out is suicide.

Yes,.. as I feel the same. Thank you for your reply. I with you, in the suffering of anhedonia from depression, Stress from anxiety, and insomnia from everything. They all hit you hard.... 🙏4U!... 🙏me....🙏all of us.!

Your words touched me. Lots of respect.

My name is also Tim. I was very close to my sister as well. I watched her die a painful death from pancreatic cancer. Today, and for months, I have been battling depression and being pulled toward suicide - tried nearly everything possible to fill the empty void. Gratitude, meditation, pills, therapy, mushrooms, TMS, volunteering, EMDR....nothing has helped. But the fact that I found this and the synchronicity of the circumstances tells me that God/Source and the energy of my late sister is saying just hang on. Tim, thank you. Tim

You still around? I feel the same way, everything looks bleak and i really dont want to wake up in the mornings anymore

@@linko8968 Yep. I'm still here. Everything passes with time. I'm not going to pretend and say life is better, but I'm working to better myself everyday, distract myself with work, distract myself with different activities, and understand in life, you deserve much better than what you get, and you should work towards inviting those things and people into your life. It gets better, even when its hard. 3 months ago I was at my worst, and now I've picked myself up, moved passed the grieving and pain I was in, and kept going.

@@thedavidjscott_ Hey man thats good to hear. I don't know. Somedays when i'm not totally conscious of my head usually on the mornings, it just takes over and i feel like a total faliure, with all of the sadness, regret, shame. I suppose if you made it through then i could too.

@@linko8968 absolutely. I still have off days, but when I look at the grand scheme of things, everything works out. Hope you stay strong man, know there’s light at the end of the tunnel, and you’ve got this. Keep fighting, even if the wins are tiny.

I didn't know but that's awesome. 😀👍

He is doing awesome!

Depression. Im depressed because i was not gifted , i was always the slow kid, the idiot, and people are just better than me and im not useful

@@rubyparra9112 I am sorry about that. Hopefully you are doing better by now🤗 I wish you enough strenght and hope to handle this😊

I agree with you. Sometimes it’s easier to accept reality. I feel like everything I’ve tried hasn’t helped. I’ve been on medication, I’ve had a psychologist, I’ve opened up to the closest people to me, I’ve done my research I’ve done it all but I still can’t beat this awful depression.

Yeah people who say suicide is selfish have never experienced or don’t have the capacity to understand what it’s actually like to live with depression, as that person they are criticizing.

To me its sounds like " You gotta keep living in this hell coz, I don't wan't to feel your pain ''

Suicide is selfish. Get help. People care, man. There are other options. Suicide is not the answer. I promise you, things can get way better than you can even imagine. Your judgement is skewed during depression. You can do his, my brothers. Keep up the good fight.

@@tommyjones1357 are you calling my father selfish

@@funkdocc7880 Damn, dude. Sorry to hear. It was not a good thing to do.

CM W thank you, i really needed to hear this. ❤️

CM W ❤️

I can relate, it is horrible. But gratitude helped a lot! Have you practiced a gratitude journal?

I wish I could believe this.

Amy g have you tried a gratitude journal? I use it every morning for a few minutes and helped me A LOT with overcoming my depression and anxiety ❤️

LOVE YOU

My story feels so similar to yours in terms of family, the issues present in that dynamic and being kicked out when you're not ready. Then the ensuing mental health issues that arise from the trauma of where you grew up and what you grew up in. I may never meet you but you are not alone in what you experienced or how you feel.

great for you man! 💪🏻 keep moving forward

Respect.

Timothy Brown, thank you for sharing and baring your soul. That's character, bless you, arohanui from New Zealand. I watch everything of Dr Peterson and I'm 72 still finding Pearl's of wisdom.

❤️❤️❤️❤️

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Stay strong ❤️

Keep fighting. Remind yourself everyday that there is a new good memory waiting to be made with your kids. A new good memory to be made with someone who will be in your life for a moment or a lifelong friend you’ve yet to meet. You might even have a chat with someone who you don’t know feels the same way you do, bring some joy to their day and give them the strength to keep going because you made them feel like they weren’t invisible. We’re all here with you angry and asking “what is wrong with me?” You are not alone so keep fighting with us

Change your diet to plant base for a a month and see what happened , depression is caused by 2 reasons environmental reason like problems in your family, fake friends , toxic relationships or second reasons is physical illness meaning theres inflammation in your brain messing up your chemical balance or even could be nutrient deficiency in your body.

EXACTLY! That's the only positive thing someone who is constantly in pain looks forward to

The person that's gone is at peace. It's hard for people that haven't experienced depression to understand that. It may sound callous, but I'm not totally upset if I hear about a suicide, although I've never experienced it within my family. I really can't predict how I would cope. I'm seeking peace and struggle with the fact that life is suffering. I cannot see a positive way out.

We are energy. You can't get rid of energy you can only transfer it. The pain of suicide will just send you into a more hellish state somewhere else. Humanity is not as low as it goes. It can be infinitely worse. ☠💩🏺

It is very sad that he did that but not your fault. I had a friend who played in Asian Dub Foundation whose father announced to the family he was going to drink himself to death and he did so. There was nothing the family could do to dissuade him. We wrote a song about it. In my life my son has abandoned me although I did nothing to deserve it and so you are a better son to your father than my son is to me. As an old person I struggle trying to survive on my own without any help from my family. They all deserted me when I became a Whistleblower or in other words when I did something really good. I think the best option is to be compassionate towards yourself and others and realize that our society is deeply flawed and as a result we are all a bit damaged.

❤️

I lost my mum at 13 and 25 now. I also think of her everyday. Speak about her at any given opportunity and keep her memory alive. I don’t blame her anymore I understand it I just wish it didn’t happen

how is it know? please answer

@@prodtenace I'm gonna be honest, my life isn't perfect, but neither is anyone else's. I still have pretty bad days sometimes, but they are nothing compared to what they used to be. In short, I'm in a much happier place, the good days outnumber the bad ones, and I feel a lot better. A lot. I think the biggest change in me is that I've learnd to let things go, to not hold on to painful memories and events that nobody except me remember. I've also started to accept who I truly am and to stop trying to change myself to make me feel like I belong. When you're only focused on trying to please others and forget yourself, one will eventually break. I refuse to let that happen again, even if it makes me feel selfish at times. So, yeah, I appreciate your comment, thank you :)

@@idagranath5739 thank you so much. didn't even notice I mispelled now lol yeah, I was feeling awfully bad the time I wrote the comment. I developed depression a week ago from really idiotic reasons, and I am basically hoping that I bounce back to the human I once was before (never had depression). guess that reading about people having depression for 25 years didn't help much. I just wanna get out of it forever. I was very curious, let's say I somehow intentionally got myself in (sounds triggering, I know) and now I know the deep torment. Don't wanna return ever. again, thanks for taking the time to respond. I appreciate it and hope you will continue going. keep in mind everybody has days such as yours, and the feeling you have then is just a feeling, it's never gonna be forever.

Wow

Life seems extremely bleak to me right now, work I hate, can’t think of any work that I could even stand to do. What career did you get into?

@@MWorsa same

Tyler Z Wong you never know what tomorrow might bring 👍🏻

@@godgunscatsweed3022 Thank U very much

Keep your chin up bud it'll all be okay! :)

@@danejacques2119 Thank you buddy, I will