this is really random but it's so lovely seeing you writing with your journal at such an angle, people always said I was weird for doing this but it's so comfy 🥺

Is so damn sad that no one knows how to cope with hyper fixation. I wish I had an answer, but the truth is that I just force myself to do things, which makes me miserable in exchange… but I have to do it, so I do it. I have a regular job, so I have to hace a somewhat set schedule, but that’s it - I deal with it just because I just have no choice.

I basically have the same type of routine as you and it’s so comforting to hear that somebody else functions like I do. Every time people ask me what I do on days where I’m not at work I feel like I really struggle to answer because I feel like I just…exist. I feel like so many people have routines that centre around going out and doing particular activities, while everything else like meals are kind of inconsequential? While I feel like my routine is just waking up at the same times, eating at the same times, and then everything just kind of works around that. The most structure I have in the “other” category is more about how I feel like some things feel right to do in the morning while some are afternoon things, etc. Sorry for a bit of a braindump here 😅 I know this is a pretty old video but I just wanted to say your channel is such a safe space for me and I really enjoy your company <3

just spitballing here but almost feel like there's a cyclical nature to my hyperfixations and that how much attachment i form or how much i cling to them (if it seems like more of a crutch) also corresponds to my hormonal cycle, as if it's two seperate types of cycles that interlock maybe, like there's some sort of venn diagram at play? i try to detach a bit when i feel like i'm using my interests as that kind of timesink escape, while keeping in mind how bad i am doing, if my state "warrants" the amount of escapism maybe the amount of flooding is momentarily appropriate? when i'm at my worst i find that my interests can sour almost and mirror some of my fears for me, like they switch from alivening me to representing how my inner state is 'turning against me' (on a tricky day where self-compassion feels hard) that's also when i attempt to practice detachment with them or go for another one where that is not the case.

Thank you for your vulnerability to talk about resilience, Megan. As someone desperately trying to build resilience, I really really appreciate hearing you talk about it. Also, looking forward to reading others comments about hyperfixations. Most of the time, I too embrace my hyperfocus/hyperfixations, but lately I can’t afford to let it take over to the extent that it is. Anyways. Hope you and Wednesday are doing well <3

I am 15 and have just been diagnosed on the autistic spectrum, I have been journaling and written diaries since I was 13. I have been so helped by the way you organize your stuff and I feel so comforted by the way I relate so much to you. I also have aphantasia and have a similar routine, I am screaming. It's nice to feel validated and listen to you talk, thank you for the amazing content.

Lol you’re a napper. Me too, there’s nothing like an afternoon nap aka a siesta. Insomnia is a torture.

Can you please make a video chatting about your collection of books or this year reads or something like this? I really enjoy the segments where you talk about reading!

Thank you Megan for answering my question about developing resilience and being so open about it. For sure it's something that develops gradually when one is living with various conditions and the challenges that come with them. It also requires a lot of mental and emotional strength to not feel bad about oneself, because when you fall into those spirals you just can't be there for yourself nor help yourself in any way. Seeing you sticking to your routines of writing in a book to take care of your life, memories etc. is just so inspiring and feels very comforting, so thank you for that. ☺

love your video, as always <3 I was really struck by the last question, about hyperfixation for those of us who are neurodivergent, and how to cope. while I'm still very far from being able to fully and successfully balance my hyperfixations with other life things that need to get done, I think what I began to do was try to "hack" my hyperfixating as an experimental alternative to enforcing discipline (the latter which for me can result in either shame and guilt for not being able to stick with the enforcing, or as another commenter mentioned, being miserable with making myself do certain things) ~ and what I mean by hacking my hyperfixations is that I would try to find some way I could link a task to what I was hyperfixating on. it might just be luck that one of my hyperfixations is stationery and playing around with planners/planning, and so if I can be creative about keeping track of a task, or do something fun with it in a new layout in my planner even if it takes more time to set that up, it's almost a way of "tricking" myself into getting the task done. obviously this is not foolproof (!), but I guess it's something that I've been trying to experiment with, almost like "bundling" a task with a hyperfixation, if I can figure out a way to... with the recognition/caveat that it's a strategy that's of course easier with some tasks and much more difficult with others...

Hi! I was the one who asked about the hyperfixations, and honestly, it really helps to simply hear the acceptance in how you talk about it. That it is just part of being neurodivergent, something that will always be there and that we have to work around rather than against. And how it ties into your earlier answer about resilience - I also suffer from migraines and had to learn to live with them, instead of adding more weight to it by stressing over it happening, when it already is bad by itself. There’s a buddhist story I think about a lot, about how in life we are struck by a first arrow we cannot escape - the actual thing that happens to us - and then there is a second arrow, which is our reaction to the first and the only one we can control. First sucks and is unavoidable, but a lot of pain is added on by the second, and I’ve started noticing in my life when that happens, when I am not simply accepting the first for what it is and shooting myself again, unneccessarily.

Your joy about trick or treatin' kiddos is adorable <3

Gosh I adore your videos!! ❤❤

Thank you for answering my question about your Halloween experiences! As a halloween lover from Europe, unfortunately here, that tradition doesn't exist. But! I've also started handing out candy for kids that pass my house, and it's always a fun time to grow that expectation for them. Glad you have fun during that time as well. Take care, Megan 🖤

My favourite time of the week 💖💖💖

Yay a new video! Thanks for the open chat/answering the questions. I love these type of video's ❤

I loved this video , i understand the last part about living with something that you don't know what it is , i'm trying to get a diagnosis , and i'm very lost at this moment because i have no idea what it is , but i know that it will help for the future , kinda anxious but also glad that finally something will make sense . Thanks for the video btw always make me feel calm and excited to write on my journal too ❤

I had a rough week, so this really made my day 🤍

I love the flip throughs so much!! Thank you for uploading. I enjoy your content so much!!

Aphantasia! Absolutely a thing I have and I was stunned to hear other people could... imagine a whole thing in their mind! It is neat to hear someone bring it up ❤ as always, love the vids!