everybody's gangsta until julien rose baker knows that it's not gonna turn out alright but she has to believe that it is.

This really captures how it feels to be struggling with your mental health on a daily basis and just go through the motions. So beautiful.

I friend of mine shared this video a few moments ago. I'm completely floored by your talent. Also, the breath left my body when I realized at the beginning of the video was filmed in my very own house. We recently left it to move to New Hampshire, and as you know, we rent it out on Airbnb. What you may not know, is that your video touched me so deeply. I'm a dancer. I've danced my whole life, and I owned a dance studio while I lived in that house. I miss my dance studio every day, and I miss my home there too. So to see someone bring art to life in those walls again, you have no idea what that did for me. Thank you. That Home has seen immense grief, and incredible joy. My little girl was born there, the room we filmed in was where she spent her first hours of life. Both of my children took their first steps on those floors. I have choreographed many many dances in those rooms. My students became my family, and they have spent countless hours rolling around on those floors, and every room has seen a while dance party or two (hundred). Anyway, I just wanted to say thank you for sharing, and keep on creating. You never know when your art will save someone, even yourself, when it's needed the most.-Bing Osterman

I’ve been watching many of juliens interviews and listening to her music and it makes so much sense why phoebe would write the line “whatever she wants me to do, I will do”

Being LGBT raised religious myself, a lot of Julien’s music appeals to me directly. I relate to her mental anguish as you question your faith and everything around you that you love. Her music is not only a powerful voice for those that don’t have one, it’s powerfully lyrical and her voice is phenomenal. I hope forward to more music from her.

Julien is the tiniest gentle giant that ever lived. And I love her for that

This tiny little person matters a whole lot. She's an awesome writer and performer

“Maybe its all gonna turn out alright, and I know that it’s not, but I have to believe that it is”... hits my soul to the core

As someone who struggles daily with ADHD, this song is literally what it feels like to experience it. Always failing at the simplest things, trying to get others to believe you are doing the best you can, only to be told that it's just another excuse. Missing appointments on accident and still disappointing others, even with the best of help and medications. You just learn to see any risk as another potential failure to your dreams but yet, nothing will change if you don't keep trying...

i am terribly tired and unable to do anything and down and ahhhhhhhhhhhh..... i just can't. thank you for making me smile today. this is enough to keep me going, i believe. i think i'll be alright now

I've always interpreted the dancers as the "depression" that you can't completely escape, no matter how hard you try or how beautiful of a place you are in. They're always going to be there, you can't escape them, but you can deal with them.

"You don't have to remind me so much how I disappoint you". God damn. That one hurt lol

Julien is one of the rare artists who offer you everything they have.

"Maybe its all going to turn out alright. I know that its not but I have to believe that it is" This is all of us while we have try to keep ourselves from drowning. This is me while I desperately try to scream and lie that Im going to be okay while deep down I know I would never will. I love you Julien.

"Appointments" I'm staying in tonight I won't stop you from leaving I know that I'm not what you wanted Am I? Wanted someone who I used to be like Now you think I'm not trying Well, don't argue it's not worth the effort to lie You don't want to bring it up And I already know how we look You don't have to remind me so much How I disappoint you It's just that I talked to somebody again That knows how to help me get better Until then I should just try not to miss anymore Appointments I think if I ruin this That I know I can live with it Nothing turns out like I pictured it Maybe the emptiness is just a lesson in canvases I think if I fail again That I know you're still listening Maybe it's all gonna turn out alright And I know that it's not, but I have to believe that it is I have to believe that it is I have to believe that it is (I have to believe it, I have to believe it) I have to believe that it is (Probably not, but I have to believe that it is) And when I tell you that you that it is Oh, it's not for my benefit Maybe it's all gonna turn out alright Oh, I know that it's not, but I have to believe that it is

That line, "maybe the emptiness is just a lesson in canvases" just echoes in my head often. I suppose that I take it as always being able to start over because you can always paint over your work on a canvas, change something to make it new, look at it from a different perspective. Or how from rock bottom, you can only go upwards. With a clean canvas, you can decide to paint the same thing again or something different and that freedom is the line between accepting as things are or trying to change. Idk, but Julien you're brilliant. Keep up the amazing work💕

I don't think anyone else has managed to so perfectly put into words, what living with depression is like. this is incredible

I'm addicted to sad songs and now Julien Baker. It's like icing on the cake.

How she pictures everyone around her as dancing 😭 This is the most emotionally relatable song for my life rn I’ve been to the hospital twice in the past 6 months for suicidal depressive reasons & that part about isolating yourself & people not wanting you but wanting what you once were hit me & then she says “I know you think I’m not trying”. I’ve been in therapy & talking about trying not to miss anymore appointments 😭 I’m sorry y’all, I normally try to spread positivity but this song is a work of art that accurately depicts what’s been in my head & makes me feel less alone. Thank you for making this. You’re beautiful.

Nothing is better than to fall asleep at night listening to Julien filling up my bedroom with her singing.

She's so pure

unbelievable in the most literal sense. The talent here needs a back breaking standing ovation. Honestly wtf

I don't think I've ever related to a song as much. Jesus. I wonder if she realizes how much her songwriting has helped others.

Been rinsing the repeat button on the Audiotree version of Go Home lately, so happy to come across this too! Such an emotive voice. GOOSEBUMPS for that ending

I've experienced something new this past year... Tears streaming from my eyes while I I'm still doing all the things needing to be done. Cleaning, caring for the animals, driving for work, and so on. It feels awful. I can no longer afford to sit and cry anymore. If I don't stop moving then it will all bury me and all this will have been for not...

That was the saddest Hyundai commercial I've ever seen.

I still don't remember how or when I discovered Julien Baker but I do remember that it was at a time when I needed to. I can't imagine not knowing her music exists......I'm glad it found me.

Think we're up to "Sad Song #42"

I swear I get the chills every single time I hear her voice. I'm in love with Julien's soul.

Simply beautiful. One of my favorite artists. As a father of young daughters, it is amazing how much every one of her songs make me think of them and hope that they have a foundation to find hope in the situations that Julien sings about. I am always drawn to her hope. Powerful stuff. Thanks for sharing.

The second the song starts, the feelings immediately hit and they hit hard. I can feel the genuine emotions in her singing. There isn't enough of that in music these days. I am so glad I discovered Julien. She is simply amazing.

Absolutely heartbreaking honey. My beautiful wife died at Christmas. Twenty beautiful years. My second chance at happiness. Her deep interior beauty will sustain me as I suffer. It comes and goes for us all. Please hang in there young people! Your moments will come. God bless all of those who are suffering.

Addendum: The ending is very creative. I view the dancers’ brief laying-on of hands and their removal symbolic of the moments of joy we each will experience, and the separation from that joy the periods of darkness we all will feel. Losing my wife is devastating in the extreme and my suffering is excruciating. My life experience though, (in its totality), provides me the wisdom to know that there will be more joyful “laying-on of hands” that life will provide me. There is hope for extended moments of joy for you too. Please believe that.

I hope you get to read this Julien, this is the first song that touched me, that my feelings of loss for a marriage and the helplessness I could never explain to anyone,. This song describes my abstract feeling of loss. Thank you for being an amazing talent and cultivating your gift. I hope you get to read this and be encouraged that your work is so important.

hey anyone who thinks you are even remotely disappointing is disappointed in themselves. you are radiant in every way and beautiful inside and out and brilliant and you are changing the world kid. good job.

Tearing up from the song and looking at the comments and realizing that the same thing happened to others. You guys rule.

I've really been craving new music with rawness and honesty in the songwriting. I haven't been able to find it lately...until I found Julien's music. This is stunning.

Ok, boygenius got me interested and I'm kicking myself for not knowing about Julien sooner.

Found this while listening to Manchester Orchestra. Was in awe from the beginning. Tears throughout the whole song. Thank you!

I have this thing where I smile every time i see Julien but also feel all the feels when I hear her beautiful songs. All that echos in my head when I listen to this song is the last lines. "I have to believe that it is" Sometimes convincing yourself of something you know isn't true for not your own benefit is all you can manage. I am so excited for this album to come out!

LET'S FUCKING CRY YALL THOUGH I KNOW YOU ARE NOT READY YET BUT WHO CARES ITS JULIEN BAKER AFTER ALL

I'm staying in tonight I won't stop you from leaving I know that I'm not what you wanted Am I? Wanted someone who I used to be like Now you think I'm not trying I don't argue, it's not worth the effort to lie You don't want to bring it up And I already know how it looks You don't have to remind me so much How I disappoint you Suggest that I talk to somebody again That knows how to help me get better And 'til then I should just try not to miss any more Appointments I think if I ruin this That I know I can live with it Nothing turns out like I pictured it Maybe the emptiness is just a lesson in canvases I think if I fail again That I know you're still listening Maybe it's all gonna turn out all right And I know that it's not, but I have to believe that it is I have to believe that it is I have to believe that it is (I have to believe it, I have to believe it) I have to believe that it is (Probably not, but I have to believe that it is) And when I tell you that it is Oh, it's not for my benefit Maybe it's all gonna turn out all right Oh, I know that it's not, but I have to believe that it is

Is anyone else getting an under water effect on the video or is that my tears

GOT HERE FROM THE LAST EPISODE OF "THE GOOD DOCTOR" LOVED HER VOICE AND IT IS THE FIRST TIME I HEAR ABOUT JULIEN...NOW I AM MORE CURIOUS ABOUT HER MUSIC AND HER EMOTIONS THRU LYRICS!! BEAUTIFUL SONG......

I'm starting uni tomorrow and I'm proper nervous and emotional. Thank you Julien for sharing your feelings and helping me feel not so alone. I really appreciate it. Bless you.

This song will literally rip your heart out, repair it, and then put it back in

Julien Baker creates deeply personal music that speaks to me like she's known me my whole life.

Absolutely stunning! Julien floors me every time she releases anything new. This video is kind of how I feel everyday, so it's nice to see it artistically. Thanks for existing and making me feel like someone gets it. God bless.

Seeing this on the trending page is making me so happy! An artist like Julien deserves unfathomable recognition! Much love Julien!

Thanks for changing the way I think about music, Julien! Before I discovered your music I was always apologetic and embarrassed that my songs came out sad and unconventionally structured. But after I discovered your music I finally felt okay with what came out when I wrote. I really appreciate that!

"i know that it's not, but i have to believe that it is." ON MY KNEES ROTTING CRYING

It was heartbreaking at the same time beautiful. 😭🙁

Anyone else have something in their eye?

this is the best indie music video I've ever seen.

Remarquable..sa voix,la musique, nous transportes dans un monde que nous rêvons tous...ce genre de chanson qui nous évades dans un monde pleins d'espoir et de joie...cette femme est Remarquable et plein de talent

When the dancers hugged her at the end, I almost died.

Julien Baker music in BoJack Horseman will be something else; would leave just about everyone broken and weeping.

That scream at the end of song is so cathartic

I lost track on how many times I hit repeat. ....and it's still not enough!

I'm so happy this girl got grammy🥰

I love this more than anything

i didnt wanna watch the videos of her bc id fall in love even more and here i am lol, IT LASTED JUST 6 MONTHS WITHOUT CHEKCCKING OUR HER VIDEOS OKAY

to me, the dancers symbolize memories that follow you throughout life that you try to ignore in order to keep sane

god she's so beautiful. this is beautiful.

I'm not crying, YOU'RE crying!

Ugh, I love the moment when she gets up and goes for a drive, trying to leave it all behind at the house - and the moment she gets out, there are all the same feelings, following her out of the car.

Holy... Absolutely stunning.

Netflix brought me here. Speechless from the songs beauty and raw emotion.

I’m here for The Good Doctor episode Letting Go tonight

This is such a beautiful song, and I love the video. I really think Julien's going to hit it big with this new album.

She's so beautifully talented

WELL... I guess I'm going to cry myself to sleep tonight.

Pleasantly reassuring to see that the new album will pick right up where Sprained Ankle left off. If it were possible, I would have worn out my digital copy of Sprained Ankle, I listened to it so much.

I was holding back the tears until the end when you let your amazing voice blast. If people weren't sleeping I'd be balling right now, but they are, so little tears with bursts of emotion from being held back it is. ;(

This is one of the best music videos of the last 5 years.

This is amazing. I can't wait to see her show in Boston next month!

I watched this video 10 times already and I still can't get enough

This is the most precious human being alive.

Amazing vocals, amazing lyrics, amazing cinematography. An absolute masterpiece of sound and vision.

I empathize with Ms Baker. I hate it when I'm going about my business and being followed by a group of interpretative dancers. Happens more often than you would think.

Beautiful and sad and amazing

Oh, the number of times I’ve come back to this video just to have a cleansing cry.

I love the song, the passion, the voice and dancing--...may i say --ghosts!? Brilliant.

So beautiful and serene! Almost like post-rock, in a way. I feel like her 11/29 show is gonna be nothing short of that :)

protect her at all costs

I absolutely love her..... like her lyrics speak to my soul.

This song is a miracle

Julien's beautiful all over; her words, her voice, and her face all stun me with every song!

Julien is so precious.

her music is so beautiful🥹🥹

She's so amazingly good at capturing and expressing her emotions through her music. It's so genuine. And a big reminder of the essence of music in general.

4:00 she's so tiny but her voice just fuckin BELTS man

it seems to me that this video is about the beauty and grace (dancers) that we see in the world all the time, but is hard to feel or react to in most situations. even when we do feel it, in places where we feel most comfortable (bed) or where the beauty is most encompassing (beach or some other natural wonder), its touch is fleeting. but the fact that it is present and tangible at all provides enough of a reason to keep moving. regardless of meaning thank you julien for continuing to share your vision with us :)

This is the only artist that could ever bring back emotions that I promised I would never ever think about again. So unique!

This still makes me tear up every single time.

always amazed by your talent and your way to bring emotions to the surface.

I don't know Julien as a person, but I Love her as an Artist so much.

Love this so much. Can’t stop replaying

Crying right now

She was in my recommendations and i was like why mot and i think im in love