Keep breathing, COURAGE, Q&A best friend, no warrant, hospital bed, eating disorder therapy, FAITH..

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Keep breathing, COURAGE, Q&A best friend, no warrant, hospital bed, eating disorder therapy, FAITH..

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Hi dear! On this channel I will share my journey with you how NOT to die from anorexia... I am still alive by the grace of God. I have suffered from all kinds of eating disorders since 31 years (!!) now. It is a miracle that I am still alive! And though I seem to be 'at my last end', I will keep trusting that I am still alive for a reason. One of which is to share my story with you. I will give all I have to give as long as I keep breathing. And I hope that you can use it for the better to prevent you and/or your beloved to suffer as much from this disease as I have. Topics I certainly will address: anorexia, bulimia, binge eating, orthorexia, intestine issues, intolerances, fear, anxiety, what I eat in a day, panic attacks, urges, overeating, undereating, purging, medical help, hospitalisation, inpatient treatment, outpatient treatment, twelve step program, spirituality, Higher Power... and so much more! Subscribe and like not to miss out on anything.

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@GrannyGooseOnYouTube Жыл бұрын

It breaks my heart to hear you apologize for your face. Broken does not equal "ugly". You must believe in your own tremendous beauty, even now, in the brokenness....and be bold in showing it to the world. It is so much deeper than your skin. Sending love!

@brendaz3644 Жыл бұрын

Perfectly said

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Soooo sweet of you… thank you… 🙏🏻❤️

@strawberryjam5844 Жыл бұрын

Wonderfully said! ❤️

@a.nelprober-rl5cf Жыл бұрын

Yes it does. “If you tell a beautiful woman that she is beautiful, what have you given her? It's no more than a fact and it has cost you nothing. But if you tell an ugly woman that she is beautiful, you offer her the great homage of corrupting the concept of beauty.” -Ayn Rand

@Therealhousewifeofreno Жыл бұрын

Oh honey, please don’t ever apologize for your appearance. You’re beautiful no matter what. Looks are fleeting. It’s what is in your heart that makes you beautiful ❤ please remember that and keep on fighting one day at a time. Sending you lots of love and hugs.

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you so much… that is really sweet! 😘

@jeanneg9374 Жыл бұрын

I've missed you! You really do look so beautiful today( not that you aren't all the time) but your hair, outfit and eyes just look bright. The blue from your sweater brings out your eyes and im sure you dont aee it but you are such a beautiful, sweet soul 💗 Stay in the fight, remember it's a marathon not a sprint. I have so much faith in you 🙏 therapy is wonderful and I'm so glad you found one that has actual experience and been through it because otherwise I find I'm the one teaching them when I'm there for them to help me. Smh. You can do this, you deserve to be here, deserve to be healthy and most important you deserve to have a chance to enjoy life and not just exist. This world needs you to be part of it, You are worth it! 😊💞

@mirandamom1346 Жыл бұрын

I’m so pleased to hear that you’ve found a therapist you like- that is such a positive development! Good luck in your meeting with the hospital in The Hague. I will keep my fingers crossed. (And, BTW, that was some excellent on the fly translating!)

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you sweetheart! Always happy to read your comments 🥰

@da4441 Жыл бұрын

Gotta do more than keep breathing and stay alive. Need to try to recover. She does nothing to get better and sets her sights always on different in patient treatments. One after another she finds in-patient treatment opportunities, gets the funds each time for each program, then finds fault with the program and leaves it. Then she begins a new quest to find a new "perfect" in-patient treatment. Finds it, gets the money, goes in and then finds fault with it and leaves. Rinse and repeat. Over and over.

@dangermouse8517 Жыл бұрын

Thank god someone said it

@morningmom6 Жыл бұрын

I see the same thing. They should have her sign a contract before being admitted that she will comply and give up control. If they read the records of where she’s been, I don’t see anyone admitting her because that’s a lot of money for someone who’s going to fight the program. I hope and pray that something will work out for her. Maybe very strong, anti-anxiety meds would help.

@trishhaycraft8610 Жыл бұрын

You summed up the whole situation and that has to be a lot of $’s getting into a in house patient program then it is always the same ole situation they don’t have the right food they didn’t do things the way she wanted them done I am quite sure these Dr’s and professionals know about the prior admissions smh I hope she can get it together before she runs out of time.

@tammylewis2539 Жыл бұрын

It’s always someone else’s problem. Chance after chance and you always find a reason not to go! And when you find a place you leave. Rarely do I watch you but when I do it’s the same song and dance.

@sobermindedmama32 Жыл бұрын

She unfortunately recently passed away for refusing treatment. 😢

@sonshineshaven810 Жыл бұрын

Faith and Courage! It's putting one foot in front of the other and trusting in GOD to bring you through all of this.

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Amen… 🙏🏻❤️

@dogdefender6946 Жыл бұрын

I told your story to a friends father who is in his 80’s who is a struggling with failure to thrive and not eating. He felt and acknowledged your strength, and intestinal fortitude.. it was my pleasure to share your strength and positivity throughout thisvv c journey. Just want to share you are still inspiring people, 💜 you look beautiful and your joyful and beautiful soul shines through!!💜

@MsGechi77 Жыл бұрын

She has internal digestion issues from childhood. She can't digest food.

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you so much for sharing this! That is so encouraging… please send your friends father my love too 🙏🏻❤️

@nellhennen3663 Жыл бұрын

Your inner beauty radiates outward .

@kivoe Жыл бұрын

You don’t look horrible. You have an aura of beautiful light and courage. Keep fighting the good fight! As will I. Sending you lots of love from Norway 🥰

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you dear! 🙏🏻❤️

@meherenow Жыл бұрын

Just another perspective…being on three waiting lists for hospital treatment is more than many people have with the same illness..so it is positive you are in that position. Many people are also waiting..six months is a standard wait for the treatment center closest to where I live and yes there are reasons why some cases are escalated…there aren’t enough resources globally and there aren’t treatment centres that guarantee cures either. I hope you get to the top of the waiting list soon..I hope anyone else waiting also does because no one should feel like they don’t deserve help and it’s tragic people are pitted against one another to fight for a bed and treatment But in the meantime maybe you could work on trying to learn some tools to regulate your emotions..so you can calm yourself because being in a cycle of chronic anxiety about treatment options wouldn’t be helping you either. Try some meditation or visualisation apps..those skills would help greatly when you do get to an Ed unit…the ability to calm yourself in the face of meals, difficult situations or people would serve you greatly and reduce the need to be reactive. With time to wait you could use your time productively working on some of the emotional skills to assist recovery

@MadamGazell Жыл бұрын

It makes all the sense to attend a therapist in your mother language. It is so good to see you ❤

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you Marie 😘

@ZeBeFruity Жыл бұрын

I've been playing with seeing myself as witness to the illness I deal with, not as it being any part of my identity, and watching it with curiosity rather than fear. It's a challenging protocol, but I think the illness has less hold on me, and me on it. I'm so glad you found someone you trust to talk with.

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

That is a very wise view dear! 👍🏻😘

@peterlosingwendy7 Жыл бұрын

I absolutely love that poem. Even though I only understand English, the Dutch sounded so beautiful. I could feel the emotion even in a language I don't know. ❤ I am sending all my prayers to you. Much love to you, beautiful soul!

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

❤

@meherenow Жыл бұрын

Everyday I hope you are continuing to push yourself towards health in anyway you can

@beadladee Жыл бұрын

So glad you updated us. ♥️

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

💖

@terriann7804 Жыл бұрын

Don’t you know, and I’m sure you do, but remember how beautiful you are to your Father who formed you and knew you before you were in your mother’s womb. My heart has issues and I get out of breath. Whatever happens we will be ok. It is not the outside or what goes into the body that defiles a man but that which comes out of him. You show all the time the love that flows out of you the grace and mercy you show to others that don’t deserve it. It’s The Father’s love it’s easy to see. The prince of the power of the air, of this world, causes such suffering. I’m so glad you’ve found someone you are comfortable with to talk to. I’m so glad to see you again, you are beautiful! So what you’re a little thin, I’m a little over weight, makes no difference! Love you, can’t wait to give you a big giant hug one day when we get Home😘.

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

That is soooooo sweet of you… thank you for your encouragement! 🙏🏻💖

@milliehardiman1142 Жыл бұрын

Courage isn't the absence of fear, courage is fear walking.

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

That is beautiful too! 👍🏻❤️

@BuddhatheRockstar Жыл бұрын

Your courage and persistence are on another level. 💞

@mamaksstorytime Жыл бұрын

Every time you cross my mind, a post pops up! You look really lovely today.

@trishhaycraft8610 Жыл бұрын

Same thing I went to KZfaq and there was her pic with new video

@sarahschechter399 Жыл бұрын

Please never ever apologize for how you look ever again. You are doing wonderful and you are a beautiful soul. Your kindness shines bright

@rebeccareid6957 Жыл бұрын

Angelique - I think it's so important and amazing that you are documenting everything... because it is demonstrating how the system fails people, and you are a living example of this. Someone who so desperately needs to be in a hospital and medically monitored, stabilized, safely refed. So many hoops to jump through due to protocols or liabilities or whatever the reason, doesn't matter. You are fighting alone for your life at home. And you will prevail! I believe in you, sending hugs in those fearful moments.💕

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you so much Rebecca… 🙏🏻❤️

@trinaplants142 Жыл бұрын

I am so glad you have found a dutch therapy person, when you just came on screen I thought you look so much better well rested and your hair looks beautiful, I do hope you can get more help with the system. we shall keep praying for you Lique xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

@queenmary9455 Жыл бұрын

So good to see you! I was really hoping to hear from you! Keep going, Honey. We're all so proud of you.

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you… 😘

@ppekpb Жыл бұрын

You are beautiful inside and out! When you smile you just light up. Your courage's just amazes me. I think of you often and pray for your healing.💕

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you… 🙏🏻❤️

@clbrad402 Жыл бұрын

I'm always relieved to see you are still here among us. You need and deserve help ...you deserve to LIVE. 😇🙏😘💕

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

❤️

@artemis1style Жыл бұрын

You look nice. Best wishes as usual 🌏🏵️🐾🐄🐦🦋💜🌿

@cincingr Жыл бұрын

It's so good to see you! You do not look horrible. Please always feel you can come on here to talk to us....no matter what is going on. I am so sorry for what you are going through. I hope they get everything worked out soon so you can get the help you need.

@gretenaaden7613 Жыл бұрын

That poem is so true, Angelique, beautiful written, and so needy to many of us ❤️ I often wonder: How did I managed to go through my life? The answer is: Listening to that voice again and again and follow up on it. Giving it place in my brain and heart! Well, my life has been in danger many times, depression, migrene, other healthissues, many years struggling walking, Yes, caurage has never left me! Now I have comfort in, and hope that you will get the help you so deperatly need! You haven’t given it all up, sis! Although your pain and the struggle every day and night is horrible! ❤️ And know this: You are a beautiful woman! 👍🤗❤️ Keep going, Angie! 🙏

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you dear, that is so sweet… 💖

@dogdefender6946 Жыл бұрын

Very kind and well expressed. I have hope for you and the struggles you have been through as well. In times when we are being vulnerable and sharing deep pain, it is so beautiful to watch all the helpers, the loving souls come forward and are offering a myriad of life preservers.. it really restores faith that the world still has so many beautiful people left in it.. even in the height of division. Sending love and strength to everyone needing it.💜

@CarlyFaith15 Жыл бұрын

I cried when you translated that poem. It truly is beautiful and powerful. I think sometimes we have courage but, we don't recognize it. When my mind says that nothing good can happen, I tell it to go be quiet. Everything good can happen. The fact that you cry when you read that poem tells me that you are filled with hope. Such a small four-letter word. But, sometimes that's all we have to hang on to. I'm so glad that you have someone that you can talk to who understands what you're going through. I think sometimes people underestimate the power of even one person caring. Of course, nobody knows exactly how you feel. We just know we love you. Honestly, if you could only know that we cannot see your face because your spirit is blinding and bright. It's a pure kind of light of gentleness and strength. I just went 2 and a half months without hearing another person's voice. I had no idea that there is a bad effect to that situation. I started to just disassociate from my mind and body. I love you. So many people love you and we are praying for you. My doctor from many years ago used to tell me on the phone, stay strong. Don't keep your light under a basket. I have to keep my light burning so that when I'm needed, I will be ready. I pray good news from the next video. It is good news just to hear your beautiful voice. Love, Carly 💕

@jenniferhamer167 Жыл бұрын

Its so good to see you and I’m so pleased that people are helping you and you have someone to talk to that really understands. Sending love, hugs and prayers ❤

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you Jennifer 🙏🏻❤️

@StephanieTownsend1 Жыл бұрын

Oh sweetie - I wish I could reach through and hug you from Virginia USA. I donated to your GoFund me and will try and do more in the future. I can only imagine what a nightmare this has been. I was one of the lucky ones - resources, treatment, family & friends - it saved my life more than once in my journey through my eating disorder. Even with that it was brutal. Your courage to get up every day and keep going is changing lives and perspectives. Not one ounce of your pain is wasted, God has and will use it all for good. Having said that I pray you will have relief and help quickly. Every day you stay alive you have a purpose and one small right choice can lead to another to sustain you while more help comes available. It is absolutely horrible how limited effective treatment for eating disorders is - especially for those who need it the most. Thank you for not hiding and for being vulnerable and honest. Your story can make a difference to raise awareness of the struggle and what it really looks like raw and uncensored. You may not feel like it but you show the kind of courage spoken of in that poem every day and every time you come on here to open yourself up even when social media is not always the kindest venue. You have my prayers and support! Keep going, as I said, one small right choice at a time. You. Can. Do. This!

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you so much Stephanie! So thankful for your understanding and kind reaction… and SO HAPPY for you that you got through your own huge challenges! That is such a blessing 🙏🏻 Hug back to you ❤️

@pepitogrande Жыл бұрын

Please, please, please don’t say that you look horrible. It’s the disease that’s horrible. And certainly don’t be ashamed of your looks. It’s very obvious that you are a pretty lady, not only on the inside, but also on the outside (even though I don’t know how you looked before the disease). My heart is with you, as always, just keep going on.

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you so much dear… that is so sweet! ❤️

@AdamsAuditions Жыл бұрын

So glad to hear from you love💜💜 you're truly glowing in this video despite it all! Please keep hope. It's going to be okay sweetheart.

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you… 🙏🏻❤️

@ptlovelight2971 Жыл бұрын

Good to see you Lique! You dont have to apologize for your appearance. You also dont have to feel bad for posting when things aren't going so well for you. We are here for your journey and we wish to offer you encouragement and strength 💕🙏🏽 If it makes you feel better, I am also not doing so well. I caught C**ID this week, my first time having it. I haven't been sick from a cold or flu in almost a decade. I'm also suffering from PMDD symptoms so my hormones are all over the place. I'd love to see a video with you and your friend! I think it would be good for you too, to have her there as support and to not feel the pressure to "perform" for the channel. Brighter days are coming for both of us🕊

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you so much lovely! Am with you too… sounds like a struggle indeed. Really wish you a quick and full recovery. Take good care of yourself 🙏🏻 And thanks again for being there for me… ❤️

@HausOfSoare Жыл бұрын

you seem way stronger now, rooting for you! congrats and keep going

@Lilybet1316 Жыл бұрын

Your updates are not discouraging they give me hope and I see your beauty, incredible loving heart and courageous spirit. I think of and pray for you every day and wish I could be there to hug you in person. Sending you so much love dear friend. ❤❤❤❤❤

@HuddersfieldsAutisticGardener Жыл бұрын

Bless you hunni, I have worried and searched on youtube for you this week, its so good you are still fighting on. "it is always darkest before dawn" .. thinking of you, hugs xxx

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you dear 🙏🏻💖

@jettrenning1651 Жыл бұрын

Would love to see a video with you and your friend. Great idea! And I think you look great. Love your hair down and that shade of blue on you❤

@staciaderrick66 Жыл бұрын

Hello Lique I know it so frustrating and hard. Try to hang in there. I'm go very glad that you see a good psychologist. Take the help as it comes. Big hugs 🤗🤗

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you Stacia 🙏🏻❤️

@Lilybet1316 Жыл бұрын

I would love to see a video with you and your friend. My question is: when you are home by yourself do you wish you had more company or is it sometimes easier to not be the center of focus? ❤

@L3monzLuLu Жыл бұрын

You look very beautiful here! I'm so happy to hear this update xo

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

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@colleenluciow7914 Жыл бұрын

I've been so worried for you! And pray for you often! So glad to see a video up!

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you dear! 🙏🏻❤️

@jg4767 Жыл бұрын

Lique, you are beautiful and you are worthy of recovery. I'm so happy for you that you are in therapy. After all, anorexia is a mental illness that manifests physical symptoms - it began in the mind and hopefully repairing that will send you on your way to a sustained recovery. As always, I wish you all the best. 🤗💞💕 Hugs and hearts.

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you dear! Big hug back 💖

@sitascott8446 Жыл бұрын

Video with your friend sounds interesting! No, you don't look horrible at all! Much more animated, and your energy seems more open

@rosannacellini2158 Жыл бұрын

Hi Angelique, you look very nice today! Lovely poem. Please don't ever be hard on yourself, because you have way more courage than most people. Look out on your horizons, and know there is a better future, that will come your way. Be empowered. You have a beautiful soul, and God is with you, and so are your faithful subs. I asked the Lord, to look out after our sweet Dutch girl. Blessings and good hope.🙏❤️🌹🌹🌹🌅

@sitascott8446 Жыл бұрын

What a great reading on Courage! I needed to hear that, today! Much love to you, Lique!

@velvet_nothing_4633 Жыл бұрын

You don't look horrible - you hair is looking lovely after being washed :) The question I have for you is whether you have a daily calorie goal, ie. 2500 per day, and whether you try your hardest to meet it? I hope you get a place in a hospital as soon as possible, but you really need to commit every single day to eating more because at the end of the day it is all that will save you.

@beanj580 Жыл бұрын

She simply will not reply to legitimate questions like this

@AlexEs63 Жыл бұрын

Many of us have donated, supported & asked questions. After being a nurse for 25 years, I'm burnt-out of excuses. Hope Lique does the Q/A and stays at the facility this time, 🙏 Lots of people care about her well-being.

@catherinemitchell3721 Жыл бұрын

@@AlexEs63 And let's be 100% honest; ALOT of people are checking in to see if she's still alive. ( Then,to cover their relief; they say trite garbage like ' you look better/ good/ beautiful).I hope Lique improves,but I don't think she's as invested in her life as some of her followers...🥺

@ababy6074 Жыл бұрын

I will always be here, as I have been from the beginning. Wonderful news about the therapy! And from someone who has had an ED and all. Wonderful and powerful reading today. Please keep hope and faith alive Angelique. Love you, from Australia. XOXOX

@kecrn4132 Жыл бұрын

Glad to see this comment from you… have been wondering how you are as we have not heard from you in ages….

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

So happy to hear from you too! Keep thinking of you too sweetheart… 😘

@systemdivergent3929 Жыл бұрын

stay strong, Lique, please stay strong!!

@cafecito25 Жыл бұрын

You do not look horrible, on the contrary, you are beautiful! Your light shines forth through your form and makes you even more beautiful. I understand "falling through the cracks" in the healthcare system. I live in the US and healthcare is all about money and insurance is very expensive here. I am not old enough to get Medicare which is for Senior Citizens 65 and over. I am 63 and I can't afford health insurance. I am glad to see that you are still here and hope and pray that soon you will get the care you need. You have a lot of courage💜

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you so much for sharing this! Am with you too dear… happy you are here ❤️

@survivingcancer7717 Жыл бұрын

Thank you for the update and for sharing that beautiful poem. Would love it if you can do a question and answer with your friend. Please never apologize for how you look, that’s totally not necessary. Keep fighting and hang in there!! You’ve got so many people rooting for you we all want to see you get well. Take care!!

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you so much dear !🙏🏻💖

@willowwinkle Жыл бұрын

So good to see you! 🤗🤗 and never apologise - you always radiate beauty and grace ((hugs)). You always have the loveliest fashions too. Thank you for that poem! 💗 I'm so glad you're speaking with an ED specialist therapist and getting your psychiatrist to help you navigate the "system" to get care. Maybe (and with God/Universe's help) you can have an expectation of, "well they have all these rules and blockages and nonsense.. but I'm going to get what I need no matter what!" I love the idea of QA with your friend. A question could be, "What were some of the things that helped you recover yourself?"

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

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@karendavidson6272 Жыл бұрын

Beautiful Angelique 💕 prayers for your healing and may God Bless you and keep you safe.

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you Karen 🙏🏻💖

@da4441 Жыл бұрын

Staying in the problem and not changing.

@veronikalake6934 Жыл бұрын

Dearest Angelique, please DON'T ever apologize for your appearance...you are beautiful inside and out..I'm glad you found a therapist you can talk to...I have been thinking about you everyday...Don't ever ever give up! You are the strongest person that I know...remember how much WE ALL CARE about you! Sending love and hugs to you..♥️♥️♥️🙋‍♀️🇱🇷.Veronika

@67countrygirl Жыл бұрын

What a beautiful poem it breaks my heart to see u cry I am always praying lovely ❤❤❤❤

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you… 🙏🏻💖

@karennorris7880 Жыл бұрын

Hello my Sweet Little Sister Angelique, I just wanted to let you know that I pray for your recovery and a beautiful future every day. You can heal. You can get better. You can be well and strong and healthy. Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit and God the Father are with you. Keep fighting the good fight girl! 😇💝💖❤💝💖❤🙏

@elizabethdurocher8308 Жыл бұрын

You have the courage to get through everything with God. He is walking with you in this journey. You are truly blessed to share your story. So many people suffer from a eating disorder and hearing what you are going through really helps other! Courage is great! Has your friend recovered? What is she doing to get by? She understands more about your journey so you must get support from her. Would love you to do a q&a with your friend. Prayers always!

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you Elizabeth. Will do the Q&A 👍🏻😘

@teainortakoy Жыл бұрын

Lique, your hair looks beautiful especially with the light shining on it, all golden and pretty. Good to hear that you have a therapist and that she has recovered so can relate to your struggles. It must have been so nice to shower and feel all fresh again. I don't know if you have Lush in Holland but I love hot baths with all their nice smeling bath bombs. Also, someone on here suggested drinking meal replacement drinks like Fortisip and Ensure which sounded like a great idea. How about those? ❤

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you dear! I know lush and love it too! 🙂 But I don’t have a bath here 😏 Yes, the replacement drinks I have too. But my body doesn’t respond well on it 😳 most of them contain dairy and liquid sugar. Which causes intestine and hyper/hypo issues. I keep trying though, also trying different brands and versions. Thanks fir the tip! 👍🏻😘

@meherenow Жыл бұрын

@@liquefaith keep trying..there’s some dairy free ones available any you may need to manage the hypos/hypers with timing and testing to manage sugars

@teainortakoy Жыл бұрын

@@liquefaith I think Me Now suggested it before but you could make a list of all things you'd like to do that your ED has deprived you of like hot bubble baths, outdoor activities and other things that you enjoy and use it as motivation to get better. When I had meal replacements drinks for crohns disease, my dietician got me Nutricia Elemental 028 shakes which are dairy free as I've been vegan for years. They have "sugar flavouring" in and I've no idea what they mean by sugar flavouring?!! They are mainly for crohns and similar things but they might be suitable, I don't know♥

@patmitchell2389 Жыл бұрын

I think having your friend come on with you would be great

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

I will Pat! 😘

@marylawman8603 Жыл бұрын

Beauty comes from within. Yours shines through. I'm sorry for the frustration you're feeling trying to get help. So glad you have found a therapist that you like and hopefully trust. Praying that she is able to give you the help you need. God bless you sweet girl. 💗

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you so much Mary! 🙏🏻❤️

@kitandsons173 Жыл бұрын

You are beautiful, inspirational and that poem was written for you! God bless, you are in my prayers today.

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you dear… 😘

@sweetluvgurl Жыл бұрын

I hope you know I really do still support you and want you to get better, Lique. I know it’s hard to keep up motivation and trying to take care of yourself. I’m glad you’re still around, and I’m happy you’re still looking into stuff and definitely happy to hear about the ED specialist you are now speaking with. Keep going strong. 💕

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you sweetheart 💖

@amandaplease4181 Жыл бұрын

Your breathing...your heart ...your pain....your body is telling you need food....eat every two hours even it's a high protein shake with vitamins and minerals. KEEP IT DOWN.! Scream yell and shout at doctors if you have to .....to get them to help you. Scream for helps from doctors I n another country....whatever it takes.....BUT YOU GOT TO EAT.!

@rachelr.n.3563 11 ай бұрын

All us subscribers who have been here from the beginning miss you so much!

@Nomarii Жыл бұрын

The poem was beautiful. Thank you for sharing! I’m sure we all can find words within it that resonate deeply with us. ❤️ I’ve got a question for a future Q&A. What are you most looking forward to being able to do when you are well enough to do it? I looked up kasekuchen, looking for a recipe to make it and try, and it sounds divine. I hope you are able to find some the next time you visit Germany! Much love. ❤️

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing this! It makes me smile 🙂 Hug to you 😘

@deemix1614 Жыл бұрын

Great to see you! So wonderful you've found a therapist and still fighting. Some days the best we can do is endure the hours. Some days we can fight for healing. Your spirit is strong, Just don't give up! 🙏🧡

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you… 🙏🏻❤️

@LA-fp2lg Жыл бұрын

You are a beautiful person inside and out! Keep fighting and dont give up. Something amazing is waiting for you, I am sure of this.

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

❤️

@kelli8923 Жыл бұрын

I’ve been here since the start and hoping so bad for your recovery. You really do look so pretty. And the poem. Im going to make a print of it for my wall. YES to the Q&A ❤

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

So happy to hear Kelli! 😘

@melpoet4958 Жыл бұрын

Hello, my friend. Thank you for using your energy to let us know you are here. Just wanted to say, though I hope you will be here for years to come yet, that I wish you would not say or believe you look terrible. You lol beautiful because your beauty shines through, even in your weakened state. To look at you is a blessing as we see our friend and her fighting spirit and sweet voice. Much love to you. Mel

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

O Mel… you are so sweet… thank you! 💖

@starrylight8819 Жыл бұрын

I was so glad to see you.i was so worried.i pray for you all the time..youre so beautiful inside and out.i hope you find the help you need.sending love from 🇨🇦

@sharonzook7980 Жыл бұрын

You are precious. And your sweetness is from the inside out. You are lovely inspite of your trials. Your challenges are so difficult and I have great compassion for you. I will continue to pray that things will turn around for you. God bless

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

❤️

@Yvette_za Жыл бұрын

Come on Lique , you can do this . Keep fighting and hang in there till you can get to your treatment . You seem so determined and focused I feel positive for you . Would love to see a video with your best friend .🌷

@wiccanmoon0001 Жыл бұрын

I’m so very sorry you’re going through this, please remember you are loved so much by so many people. Don’t let go of hope. You will be free of this illness one day soon. You have to believe that too. Think of just 1 thing to do each day. It doesn’t matter what that 1 thing is. Commit to yourself you’ll do 1 nice thing for yourself. Then do it. Don’t let any kind of excuses get in your mind, if it’s having a cup or tea coffee having a shower or doing some washing just do it. You deserve to have a good life and to feel very proud of yourself. You deserve to love yourself the way others see you and love you. Please stay strong and believe things will come good for you. Hope on to that hope it’ll keep you going. ❤

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you so much dear… 🙏🏻❤️

@wiccanmoon0001 Жыл бұрын

@@liquefaith You are very welcome. You can do this. Just keep the faith in yourself and whoever you pray to. 💕

@oneseeker2 Жыл бұрын

30 years

@kathleenmiller852 Жыл бұрын

Thank you for the update. You continue in my prayers.

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you Kathleen 😘

@colleenallenalampi6391 Жыл бұрын

You look beautiful, I've been following you for awhile. I'm from the United States and I feel bad because I don't understand all the processes and procedures you have to go through to get treatment. It seems so difficult, I feel your pain and struggle. ❤️🫶 it breaks my heart. Hear my Dr or therapist jut calls the place they want to send me to, sometimes there is a small waiting list, just a few days. It used to gave me time to get ready and pack. I pray that you get the proper treatment as soon as possible. Best of luck sweetie, keep your positive spirit up. 🥰💜

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

That is so sweet of you Colleen… thank you so much 🙏🏻❤️

@crazedredhead55 Жыл бұрын

Good to See you!! I’m sorry things continue to be rough😢 but we are all cheering for you!!❤

@celticmist14 Жыл бұрын

Please keep up hope. You life is worth saving

@deborahmontgomery2812 Жыл бұрын

I do not think you look horrible. When we are ill our body shows it, that is understood. Wonderful to feel clean and I am glad of that. Courage. I needed that reading and I so thank you, Love, from America.

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Very welcome Deborah! Hug to you too dear 😘

@sitascott8446 Жыл бұрын

Good to see you, Lique! You're looking lively.

@AriaLovesU Жыл бұрын

My dear friend, you are so strong. I love your hair down and you always look beautiful to me. I'm glad you're getting therapy now. Please continue to fight. I have faith that you can win this battle. What are some ways we can help you?

@eroxanes5152 Жыл бұрын

Although I agree with people saying you are a beautiful human being your appearance in this video (and what you said) made me worry. To be honest I think in this video you look closer to dying than ever before. Some people wrote they think you look better and of course I wish them to be right and me to be mistaken. But I'm honestly more worried you might leave than I was ever before 😞

@NicoleLaurenEsq Жыл бұрын

In what universe did you think this was an appropriate thing to say? Some of you boggle the mind.

@teainortakoy Жыл бұрын

Completely agree. It's natural for people to try to cheer someone up and say they look better etc but sadly Lique does look extremely frail.Its going to be that way until Lique is much further along in recovery and it's understandable to be very worried, I am too.

@catherinemitchell3721 Жыл бұрын

@@NicoleLaurenEsq Maybe she was being HONEST. Unlike so many other followers who choose flattery & delusion over REALITY.

@meherenow Жыл бұрын

Someone who is gravely I’ll doesn’t look beautiful..someone who self harms their body continually by not nourishing it also isn’t beautiful. You can be compassionate about someone’s struggle and empathetic about what they face everyday without needing to compliment them. It doesn’t take away the struggle to be told you are beautiful…it may help to say you hear their pain, that you are here to support and encourage and be a witness to their journey out of respect for their humanity

@marjol3in Жыл бұрын

@@meherenow I wish I could like your comment 1000 times. What you say is so true.

@Ella-kn9qd Жыл бұрын

I know you may not like me much lique, but I want to say I truly believe you can do it and survive this 🙏 know you can do it, you have to keep pushing through and pushing yourself to eat more then you did the day before, that's how I started, at first it was difficult to do 1000 calories a day, then I moved up to 1500 the next week, then 2000 the week after, initially when you increase it's very difficult but slowly increasing each week eventually till you can get to 3k-6k (it sucks for us anorexics 🙃 that it has to be that much when we hate eating...) But after a while now I've been able to enjoy eating again, and be hungry on my own, and I started to not even worry about the food after challenging myself to eat foods I was worried to eat before. You can do it I know we will see you survive this

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Dear, I truly appreciate you just being yourself and stating what you think. And I admire your enormous courage! So happy for you that you already made it this far… But I must admit I still think I need medical help to get out of this deep hole… 🫤 Thank you for being here. Never feel unwelcome! I don’t judge you, even though we may not agree 😘

@kecrn4132 Жыл бұрын

@@liquefaithI agree that you need medical help to get out of this hole. Refeeding is dangerous too…esp in the state you are in. Prayers to you, Angelique… you are beautiful inside and out and you have immense courage and determination 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

@meherenow Жыл бұрын

@@kecrn4132 refeeding syndrome is managed by blood testing which can be done as an outpatient if necessary

@Ella-kn9qd Жыл бұрын

@@liquefaith I do think you need medical help to, I always have been on the side that you need medical help and hoping that you can get into a treatment center or hospital soon, it was just a suggestion to help you survive until a bed is available

@jamglittercellstories2562 Жыл бұрын

So happy to hear you and know your somewhat better .... You look wonderful. 💙 👼 🌹 please keep us updated. Yes! MAke the video with your Friend! Great idea!

@jennbeth1 Жыл бұрын

She's not better. She's untreated and fading away.

@strawberryjam5844 Жыл бұрын

@@jennbeth1 so true. I wish her the best. If she was my daughter… I mean.. My heart breaks for her. I just want to see her walk around the room and laughing and enjoying. ❤

@catherinemitchell3721 Жыл бұрын

@@jennbeth1 Exactly. People commenting on her looks should just STOP. It's okay to see the kind/ beautiful soul within; but if these people were sitting across from Lique they would be very concerned. Lique is starving and if people really cared they'd stop deluding themselves. The Anorexic part of Liques brain is thriving on comments about her image.Look back 9 months ago- is there REALLY any difference? Lique needs to take advantage of the therapist she is seeing & build strategies to fight the Anorexia so she can consume more and save her body.

@anthonychapman3819 Жыл бұрын

I saw a video of your fridge review done by Goatis another KZfaqr. Glad you are keeping your chin up. Get better soon

@linggg1541 Жыл бұрын

I'm so happy to see you today 😁..and your hair looks beautiful 😍..so glad you are getting some therapy by a Dutch therapist, I pray to god source that this brings you healing . Bless you 🙏

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you dear 🙏🏻❤️

@juliekeenum5016 Жыл бұрын

You look so beautiful in this video. I’m sorry you are still struggling. I still cannot understand why you have such a hard time receiving help. I’m glad you have a therapist to talk too. You asked about us liking to see a video with your friend. YES!! I’ll watch any video you want to share. I continue to pray daily for you. Take care and NEVER GIVE UP!!!🙏❤️🙏❤️

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you so much dear… 🙏🏻❤️

@corneliameinecke4158 Жыл бұрын

Sie sieht aus wie der Tod persönlich.

@oneseeker2 Жыл бұрын

I don't what happened to your last hospital stay. So the hospital Re-leased You with bad blood work, and weak... Are you still controlling everything, but nothing and hospitals won't do as you want.

@catherineturner2839 Жыл бұрын

pretty much seems to be the case

@heatherk161 Жыл бұрын

I'm so happy to see you! Please keep fighting, you are very much worth it and you mean a lot to many many people. You are beautiful inside and out. Gentle hugs and love to you!

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you so much dear… ❤️🙏🏻

@beadladee Жыл бұрын

I would like to see a Q&A with your best friend.

@debbielewis3814 19 күн бұрын

You look very healthy and pretty today. Keep the faith!

@catherineturner2839 Жыл бұрын

Why not start helping yourself while waiting for treatment. Start taking replacement drinks. At the end of the day even when in hospital the effort is down to you. You run away from treatment and don't engage with them, it so far has been on your terms. Give up control and accept you don't know best. Recovery is up to you no matter where you are, your life is your responsibility

@libbylib1819 Жыл бұрын

O hear you, but some things are easier said than done.

@Aliaselias727 Жыл бұрын

@@lilydewinters4729 Stop spreading rumours with such harsh accusations without having any proof of it! Trash talking people like you make me sick!

@lilydewinters4729 Жыл бұрын

@@Aliaselias727 actually commented on the wrong video, I was intending to comment on Rachels road to recovery and there is tons and tons of documentation regarding what I said…. I just accidentally said about the wrong person..

@yeahbro760 Жыл бұрын

@@lilydewinters4729 You don't need to explain.Take no notice xx

@lilydewinters4729 Жыл бұрын

@@yeahbro760 Thanks love!xx

@catherinemitchell3721 Жыл бұрын

While you're waiting...maybe it would be a good idea to increase your intake daily of food/fluids/ supplements. Your heart is struggling along with the rest of your body.There are non-dairy nutritional supplements; IF you choose to ingest them.Any recovery starts with you; whether in OR outpatient.Meanwhile it's very difficult to think/ function whilst your organs & body is slowly eating itself. Your brain needs nutrition- as you KNOW. So does EVERY organ in your body.I hope you choose life Lique 💜.

@meherenow Жыл бұрын

This is really important because everyday more damage is done..in my case I had started eating fully in an Ed unit when a nutritional deficiency caused spinal cord damage ..for others it’s cardiac problems..you get no warning..you just wake up one morning and it happens

@catherinemitchell3721 Жыл бұрын

@@meherenow Yes,I have a permanently damaged heart. I battled Anorexia for decades too.The risks of damage/ death only increases with age. And YES,I agree- you NEVER know what will happen OR when.( hope you are doing okay-ish now💜)

@karennorris7880 Жыл бұрын

Yes, Angelique please listen to the advice of these two ladies who have shared your experience. Angelique, life is beautiful if you know where to look. One of your online supporters said that when she was recovering she made herself eat one tablespoon of full-fat yogurt every hour. That's how she started her recovery journey. Angelique, if you choose to try this, just think. Okay, this tablespoon is for my beloved best friend(_______) who would miss me terribly. This tablespoon is in tribute to my favorite poet (_______) who has contributed beauty to my life, This tablespoon is for Vermeer, This tablespoon is for Rembrandt, This tablespoon is for Frans Hals, This tablespoon is for Rachel Ruysch, This tablespoon is for Willem Half, This tablespoon is for my beloved Mother. This tablespoon is for Jesus Christ, my savior and redeemer. This can be an act of gratitude, an act of worship, an act of faith, an act of willpower, an act of self-determination. We all love you! Just do it Angelique, for all of us!!! Show us all how strong you really are! 💪🧠🫀🫁🦴 😇💝❤💖💝❤💖🙏👩‍🦼👩‍🦽🧎‍♀👩‍🦯🚶‍♀🏃‍♀🏃‍♀🏃‍♀💃💃💃⛹‍♀⛹‍♀⛹‍♀🚴‍♀🚴‍♀🚴‍♀🏋‍♀🏋‍♀🤸‍♀🤸‍♀🤸‍♀🤽‍♀🤽‍♀🤾‍♀🚵‍♀🚣‍♀🏄‍♀🏌‍♀🧗‍♀🏃‍♀💃🏃‍♀💃🏃‍♀

@lisabullock7461 Жыл бұрын

Your looking well today dear,like your hair down. You've been very patient, waiting. For treatment. Don't give up🌹🙏❤🤗

@fenflora Жыл бұрын

Please don't apologize - your beauty radiates even during this terrible struggle. I wish you could see yourself as we do 💓 Yes please to a Q&A. My question to your friend: What do you wish people understood better about Lique?

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you dear… this is a very good question! Will put it in the Q&A 👍🏻😘

@kayetseng3869 Жыл бұрын

I think a Q/A would be lovely. I would like to hear the events that led up to your anorexia.

@portiaphillips3330 Жыл бұрын

Lique, It is soooo good to hear from you!!!!

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you Portia! Happy to hear from you too 💖

@heiditaylor6206 Жыл бұрын

Hi Lique!😃 I think about you every day & you are always in my prayers. I love you my friend!!😘💗

@madnatty Жыл бұрын

Angelique, you’re touching so many lives with your videos. Thank you for being so vulnerable. Being in your position must be scary, but I know you have strong faith and there really is nothing to fear, after this life passes. But you will continue on, because God is not done with you yet, on Earth. Things are going to get better for you, just hang on. ❤

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

Thank you so much for your encouragement! 🙏🏻💖

@bels4116 Жыл бұрын

So good to see your update! A relief actually. I was moved when I read a book and this jumped out at me and I wanted to share it with you, it was regarding a drawing worth some $30 million. It was damaged "no one suggested that since the drawing was now damaged, it should be discarded. Work to restore the nearly 500-year-old masterpiece began immediately. Why? Because it was precious in the eyes of art lovers. Are you not worth more than a chalk and charcoal drawing? In God’s eyes you certainly are-however damaged you may be...." We can easily look at ourselves like a damaged painting but in actual fact we are beautiful.

@liquefaith Жыл бұрын

That is so beautiful… thank you for sharing this! ❤️

@tanyaobrien8895 Жыл бұрын

I feel bad for you, when I go to the hospital for something, they do blood work, and they admit me immediately, I also have an ed, I live in New York, but I feel like that shouldn’t matter, this is life threatening for people who have this. I really hope you get the help you need, you deserve to get better❤