You are so welcome! Here is a message about faith in steps that you would like- God's peace and faith be increased in you: kzfaq.info/get/bejne/osV4Ztdk1c7Qfps.html

I just saw your comment, and felt to share this video on how I received freedom... may God's peace be with you Becky! His love is so real and overwhelming!! He loves YOU! kzfaq.info/get/bejne/bpZzqt101suxlYE.html

Praise God!! I love that scripture!! ... may the peace of Jesus overflow your life!! kzfaq.info/get/bejne/fM-AlN2Q1syuoaM.html

I am so glad that these videos are blessing you, and reminding you of God's unfailing love!!! I wouldn't be alive if it wasn't for God's faithfulness, EVEN when I didn't see it yet.... here is a whole playlist of videos I made on encouragement: kzfaq.info/sun/PLhz8HUc1XQNTzez_LG7P_4YG6VB9vkvZb

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@@trakkerman2000 thank you! Something big is happening in my faith right now I can see it already.

I hear you Myka, girl! 😊 As I was reading your comment, my heart goes out to you right now 🤗... I understand what it's like to be in weakness... As you will see many of my videos were of me looking my worst, in the hospital, wearing oxygen tubes, and sometime in a wheelchair... all not beautiful... BUT the thing I believe is you are searching for that acceptance of yourself... you WANT to love yourself, but you really don’t believe in yourself right now.. Just so you know I am praying for you today! That those lies that you believe about yourself would be destroyed by truth!!! 💕 As I was reading your comment, God reminded me that when He sent Jesus, he wasn’t what people would call beautiful at all! “...He(Jesus) wasn't some handsome king. Nothing about the way he looked made him attractive to us. “ Isaiah 53:2b I believe you will find friends who are like my husband, who love us IN our weakness, not based on our looks!! Looks fade like a flower, withering away, but what remains for ever is God’s love, and when we really believe it, beyond how the world tells us what is beautiful and what is not beautiful, THEN we will shine, and that really is MORE beautiful than any worldly beauty!! Dear friend, our focus must be on God’s love and approval of us, NOT on our looks… No matter what I say, you may not believe it, I pray that God will help show you how SO SO SO SO SO VALUABLE YOU ARE TO HIM!! HE WANTS TO USE **YOU** TO REACH other women around you, with God’s inner strength, which IS BEAUTY!!! I see God using YOU in the future, helping girls who are depressed!!! I believe our confidence will come from what we focus on, if we focus on beauty magazines, or other “fake book” pictures of other people, then we won’t feel good about ourselves…. BUT if we read encouraging things about God, and His love toward us, and look to encourage just one person when we can, THEN we will feel good, because YOU WERE MADE TO SHINE!!! I want to share this video i made, I believe this is for you: kzfaq.info/get/bejne/bM-ahM6oktesm6s.html 😘

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@@trakkerman2000 I get you sis but it's not just some perception I have over myself or self esteem issue its the truth. I won't lie and be thinking great God. Realize everyone that god made people and when he did he actually had a good decision over them. But when he made me its like he was insulting me. When he made the clays he did he took his precious time on many many clays and when it came with me its as if he speed it up and just put lumps and lumps of mud and stacked it up all together. It's the truth why is it God made many people valuable and love and well why is it he made Europeans, Hispanics, Caucasians and made them beautiful and well he made them well. When it came with me he was like oh okay ill just make her Filipino, ill just make her mediocre I make all my other children well but I'll just make her a this ill just give her a really flat nose, a big lip with a bump on it,, really small eyes, a lined eyebrows, super small teeth, weird looking face and everything messed up and make everything about her ugly. God how do you expect me to reprogram my mind when it's flat out the truth im ugly there's no standards needed no people no nothing it just is loud and clear you decided I should just be garbage but you who say you love everyone can make people so greatly it's not to say this people are vain they can have a good heart too that's your decisions but as for my fate I am fated to be garbage and my identity is also garbage the makeup of my being and who I am is one that's speed up and without careful thought, care,, and love.. youcan do way way better but it's the choosing I have over this individual why I make many of my children better and great that's for me but as for her she just has to be stuck at it. Its no pity party to you guys it is but your just hearing someone who doesn't accept and never will and it's not happening is all I'm saying here. Because does he want me to accept that he made me ugly and filipino when he does so greatly well on his other children, because if accepting and embracing is it that's never happening God. If he expects me to accept it I'm not, I'm not . I dont have to voice it to my baby out or show him I'd keep it in so he won't be affected. Does he want me to be thankful for the life he forced upon me my whole existence and does he want me to be thankful he made me his the creator and if he so chooses to make me incredibly hideous and filipino on top of that I'll have to sit back and say yes God thank you you're the creator if you so chooses to make me ugly if in such a case that's what you want ill just shut my mouth because I have no right and say I would love it regardless? No he made me ugly and he made me Filipino and that's never ever something I'd thank him about. He says he loves everyone all equally but it's okay for him to make people some being wonderful and beautiful who can also have loving hearts too and seeks after Christ beautiful inside and out, it's okay for him to make individuals special but for his other children they are nobody's and his okay making them unimportant and ugly like it's okay for them to come out average, mediocre, ugly to him and sure it all fades away but who are we all as individuals it's okay that he makes everyone else good and the rest not so what then is he saying he loves us all ? Why force an identity and demand and force us to be ourselves against our will? Why does he force me to conform to a race to a body to a me and my entire being I never want or imagimes to be you say you give people free will but you really didn't. and will never embrace and thank him for . Plus it's one that I'll have to be forever because the deed is done. Im not accepting or loving myself I could care less what happens to me or my body if someone abuses it I don't care ill deny myself each and everytime even if God thinks I'm beautiful and valuable and special I never will forever.. I would be happy if he never made me or stops me from my existence because I don't accept it and I won't come to terms not ever.. like God you made me ugly I'm an ugly girl and you didn't take me seriously when you thought of me so why should I take myself ever seriously too. I know it's worded as selfish but I'd like to add on here that does God think a way I won't be selfish is just to nodd at everything like a robot yes God do go ahead and make me filipino, yes God do go ahead and make me ugly, yes God do go ahead and give me a flat nose and such small eyes, yes god go ahead and conform me into everything you want even if its ugly or nothing I'd like and by doing all I would be selfless.. Commentors on here what about God who made many well and valuable and special and great they are not selfish they just happened to be fated well by God and I would be selfish to say he made me so short and such but being selfless means it's okay that unlike many you came out a garbage and though you look like garbage and you are yourself and your identity and forever a you please don't pay attention to your garbageness instead do good all around you because God loves that so don't be self centered because the ones he made well are not self centered they just got decided great upon him but you are self centered for being fated this way.. if you are to be garbage and be that way don't be selfish keep at it doing good and if you be garbage for all eternity then keep at it and accept it is what it is besides you really don't have a choice but to deal with it.. Though you may look like garbage it's okay God saying I don't care how you are how you look or your being, deep under all that filter is a godly kind heart, sure but the godly kind heart will forever live being a garbage and full of filter underneath it all , the good heart resides forevermore in a garbage (just using words to paint a picture of what I mean and my reasoning) forever just because it's not important to God and it's okay for him to make people a this and ugly doesn't mean its okay because we can always have a good heart but we will always be ourselves too forever and ever and conform to our fates and how we end up and who we are our identity forever with no exit buttons .. Not sure how my wordings come out but it's not towards you sis it's a direct message back at God. Thank you though for your reply and means alot you wrote something well thought of and encouraging along with your own personal struggles. Sure my email is mykaevec@gmail.com and as for Facebook I don't have one.

Hi Myka, how are you? I haven't been on KZfaq..but wanted to follow up with you! Did you end up getting Facebook? If so, let me know your Facebook link! This video is for you today: kzfaq.info/get/bejne/bM-ahM6oktesm6s.html