“tHe sOnG sOuNdS sO hApPy bUt tHe lYriCs r sO dArK” bro did you not hear the demented metal sounding whisper growls?

Me: “Music can’t be that scary” Kikuo: Hold my skin

"disturb the comfortable, comfort the disturbed"

Tad bit of a vent. TW, obviously. These lyrics are brutal but they speak truth. Everything is a mess. It's comforting yet it also disgusts me. I don't want to get into detail of what happened to me for personal reasons. But the whole concept of her wanting to "make papa happy" and apologizing is so relatable. "Loving" your abuser may not make sense since they're the one that hurts you, but they're also the one that builds you back up... It becomes an addicting feeling. If I behave well, I won't get hurt, and I'll be rewarded. The opposite would happen if there was ill behavior. That's the logic, in a sense (for me at least). And she blames herself, "I'm such a bad girl." This entire song is such a great representation of all the pain and sickness that is SA. As a victim, you can become so "twisted" from an outsiders perspective. A few people left me because of the situation I was in, because I was apparently disgusting. Anyways, as the victim, I ended up wanting to always please my abuser. The praise and reward was the best. There were so many things I didn't want to do but followed along with anyways out of fear, submission, and wanting to please them. For me, when it was someone I around all the time, sharing my thoughts with, having light moments, and feeling as though I could rely on them, I became obsessive. Overly drawn to them. Trust builds and is manipulated. It's difficult to describe. I didn't want to get them into trouble and I didn't want to get myself into trouble, either. It's the worst feeling- being stuck both sides. If you read all that, don't worry, I'm out of the situation now. I love Kikuo. It is such an uncomfortable subject, but it is so important to talk about. EDIT: Thank you all for the support! I really appreciate it. EDIT 2: Because it's on my mind, I'd also like to bring something else up. I feel like sometimes when we're hurting, we substitute the pain we cannot control for pain we CAN control. At least, that's what I've done. Physical scars are only a fragment of mental scars. You can't really take them away. I've put myself into situations similar to that of my past. I've done unspeakable things to relive the past, be validated, praised, and be in "control." Whether it be sh, ed, addiction, or anything else, they're all ways to control that pain in a sense. TLDR; the consequences and "symptoms" abuse or any harmful situation are NOT something that lasts only during the situation. Negative emotions and actions are still present afterwards for months and years. It's a pain. Please take care of yourself, you deserve it.

Song: about sexual abuse and quite possibly, cannibalism Tiktok noobs: hehe ahegao

If you haven't noticed yet, this song is about a girl who gets s-xually abused by her father. She meets a boy who she falls in love with. the lyrics "Im sorry, forgive me for falling in love with someone whos not papa" is her apologizing to her father for not falling in love with him. at the end of the song, the girl gets gang r-ped by her father and his friends. the lyrics referencing this are: "When he came home, papa was with a lot of people" and "they want to eat my collapsed body until the end, that's what they said".

「パパ」と「私」の関係ってすごく歪だし、歌詞の内容も真っ当ではない…といつも思うんだけど、 そんな中で「私」から「パパ」に対しての愛は確かに感じるところとか、サビ前のところでアコーディオンみたいな優しい音が聞こえるのが、純粋にパパを好きって気持ちみたいで好き… 落ち込んでる時に大音量で聞くと死ぬほど没入してしまう 本当に好き

Ive never been abused in the same manner as the girl in the song, but I can still certainly relate to wanting to apologize for being hurt. My mom says that I'm 'so hard to love' and I just want to apologize, what am I doing wrong? Are you going to love me if I fix myself? Am *I* going to love me if I fix myself? Thank you, Kikuo, for your music.

Everyone: this is so sad... Gacha tiktokers: *haha miku screaming go brrr*

The fact that the little girl in the song has it so abused that she thinks she's "bad" for not letting her dad abuse her made me sick... It's sad to think that there are cases like that in real life.

TikTokからきくおさんを好きになるんじゃなくて自分で見つけれたのが誇り

Details # My age at that time : 6-7 (girl) My cousin's age " " " : 5-6 (boy) [I went on a vacation to my maternal 3rd aunt's house in village. My aunt's house was a bit in deep from the road and there were 4-5 homes together bat 1-2 metre far each home. There was also a mini yard were we could play. The house to the left had a 2 stair (Each 1 is like this : -_, In total 2 of them) and they village people can sit on them by just cleaning with a dry clothe.] One day my cousin and I were playing when an old man out of no-where came to us. He stared at me and my cousin weirdly as we were playing happily. As I've mentioned I was too young to realize and understand why he was staring at us. Suddenly he called me and told me to sit on his lap, I was were a short/half shorts. He told me sit comfortable then he put me on his lap but too close there(yk) and I didn’t understand a single thing. Afterwards he started touching and pressing my thighs weirdly and I was too much young to understand it, he also mildly shaked me unconsciously. Then he told me to get up and called my cousin and did the same. Afterwards me and my cousin told to my mother and my aunt what happened in there (my cousin's adoptive mother lives in another country so he lives with my third aunt). Both of them got suddenly angry and said to not go out anymore to play and said to play at home. Moreover I also got touched in my back after 2-3 years of this incident. What happened to us is- I don’t know whether it was a molest or mild r@p3 but it might be one of them. I am young to talk about it but my mother has already made me aware of these things which every mothers should do. As a young but a senior girl, I also think that we should make aware the girls aged from 8 to 12 aware of these things because this is the time when girl children have their physical perfection attracting those creatures. It falls as our duty to do so. Thank you for reading this far.

“he _opens_ up my ribs and drinks my *soup* “ ah, delightful

9 year's old me : open ribs? drink soups? gomenne? pee pee? eat body? 17 year's old me now : oh.....

10yr old me be like: its an ok song 21 yr old me: I’m traumatised Edit:the replies are mad crazy

歌詞 0:01 肋骨を開けて私のスープを飲むの　胃から直接口付けで 私は何の味もしないと思うけど　パパに喜んでもらえるなら 黄色い脂肪をストローで吸って　おしっこもそのまま刺して吸って うんちもそのまま詰めて切って焼いて　パパのために体が崩れていくけど ごめんね　やっぱりよくない気がするの　知らないお兄さんが教えてくれた　 ああ　崩れた私の体は可哀想だって　優しく手を引くの ごめんね　ごめんね　私きっとダメな子だから 許して　許して　かわいそうな私を ごめんね　さよなら　パパから逃げるのは悪い子 ごめんね　許して　パパじゃない人を好きになるわたしを お兄さんは羊水をごくごく飲んだり　固いお腹を割って中身を触ったり 食べたりしないでそっとしてくれる　崩れた私は醜くてダメだって ごめんね　それじゃいけない気がするの　お兄さんはきっと私が嫌いなの　 ああ　崩れた私の体は気持ち悪いって　閉じ込められておわり ごめんね　ごめんね　私きっとダメな子だから 許して　許して　寂しがりな私を ごめんね　さよなら　パパのところに戻る悪い子 ごめんね　許して　ひどいパパしか好きになれない私を 帰るとパパはたくさんの人と一緒で 私が戻ってくるって信じてたって言ったの 崩れた私を最後まで食べつくしたい　そう言ってくれたの ごめんね　ごめんね　私きっとダメな子だから　 許して　許して　かわいそうな私を ごめんね　おいしい？　それは温かいハートの味 ごめんね　いたいけど　満たされた心臓を ごめんね　ごめんね　私きっとダメな子だから 許して　許して　寂しがりな私を ごめんね　痛いけど　おいしそうに食べてくれるだけで 嬉しい　さよなら　ハートじゃないところはみんなで食べて

After reading the comments I just can't believe that TikTokers and GachaTubers would borderline make fun of something this serious.

10 year old me: *thinks this song slaps* 17 year old me after reading the lyrics: ):

パパのために身を捧げてる瞬間、パパを想う瞬間は 色鮮やかなのが心に来る... どんどん身体が崩れていくように画面がぐちゃぐちゃになっていくのもほんとに、...

父親に虐待をさせてあげられない自分が悪いと思うほどの虐待を受けているってコメントにすごくなるほどと思った。 パパとの関係が当たり前で育ったからお兄さんの優しさは当たり前に伝わらない。パパを支えてあげられない自分は悪い子でボロボロの身体の私をお兄さんは愛してくれないから結局元に戻ってしまう。ひどいことをされる状態を愛情として処理するしかなくてそれに耐えるためにもひどいことをするパパしか好きになれない自分になるのか。

Me: this is a really good song My trauma: am I a joke to you

I had forgotten how genuinely terrifying this piece is. What makes it scarier is that this is a reflection of reality-and there are so many situations like this that go unnoticed. Take care of your children.

The fact that people call this "disturbing" and this song is based on Irl SA...like wth I am so sorry for whoever is a victim of SA...This song is here to spread awareness

小学生の頃初めて聴いて、現状辛過ぎてエンドレス曲ループもしてたり、そういう形でも生きるを閉じれるなら羨ましいと思って聴いていたけど、普通に社会人なって聴いてきちんと意味を理解してもなお、やっぱ好きだなって思う自分がいる

"Fill it up with my poop and bake it, even though my body is collapsing for Papa's sake." Um, excuse me

People, protect your children. Listen to them.

English lyrics for people: Open my ribs, and drinking all of my soup Straight from my stomach, all with a kiss I don't think I have any kind of special taste But if it pleases Papa, then... *Music* I'm Sorry I'm Sorry Music, Lyrics: Kikuo Suck up all my yellow f@t into a straw, stick that into my p33 and suck it up just like that too Then take my p00p, stuff it, cut it up, and cook it too. Even thought my body's breaking down for you, Papa. I'm sorry, I still don't think this is what a good feeling is supposed to be I'm not sure, but my big bro taught me that it wasn't good, aahh Despite this broken me, whose body is pathetic as can be, he still kindly reaches out a hand I'm sorry, I'm sorry, this must be why I'm such a bad girl Please forgive me, please forgive me! What a pity, poor little me I'm sorry bye-bye from me, running awah from Papa makes me such a bad girl I'm sorry, please forgive me! Sorry for finding someone who isn't you, Papa. Big bro never gulps down all my @mniotic fluid, breaks open my tightened stomach and feeling around what's inside Or eats me up, but he treats me gently, despite this broken me, who's ugly as can be I'm sorry, I still don't think this was the right thing to do Big bro must really hate me now, aahh Despite this broken me, and this horrid feeling my body's giving me, I'll end up locked away, this is the end I'm sorry, I'm sorry, this must be why I'm such a bad girl Please forgive me, please forgive me! Oh so lonely, little me I'm sorry, bye-bye from me, I'm going back to Papa because I'm a bad girl I'm sorry, please forgive me, I only love my cruel Papa, so I can't love myself. When he came home, Papa came back witn a lot of people, too He had said, they'd believe I'd come back soon Now they want to take this broken me and devour it all until the end. That's what he had told me. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, this must be why I'm such a bad girl Please forgive me, please forgive me! What a pity, poor little me I'm sorry, is it tasty? Thag right there is the taste of a still-warm heart. I'm sorry, but although it hurts, my heart has been satisfied. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, this must be why I'm such a bad girl Please forgive me, please forgive me! Oh so lonely little me. I'm sorry, but although it hurts, as long as you can eat it and it stil tastes good, then I'm happy, bye-bye from me, just eat my p@rts, save for the heart, and everyone eat up! //Guys, this is not right, never do anything like this\\

何回聞いても色褪せない神曲すぎる。曲の緩急がほんとにすごい。 サビでも電子音も荒んだ心にすんなり染み込む

these tiktok kids are scared while im out here like: "first time, dude?"

Ok but since miku is singing at cochella Imagine her playing this, Rolling girl, Aishite Aishite Aishite, and other ones?? Like the people who don’t know the meaning are just vibing while the weebs are in the back like: *_Oh No_*

慣れないとマジできつくて、記憶がフラッシュバックするたびに不安になるけど、一度聞いたら必ずトラウマになってでも聞きたくなるような麻薬のような素晴らしい曲

みんな病んでる時に聞くと落ち着くとか 鬱の時聞いてたって言ってるけど 俺は重低音とかリズムがめっちゃ好み で聞いてる。 だからなのか聞きすぎると 精神おかしくなりそう

One tiny detail I noticed: In Japan children are taught hiragana first to learn Japanese. The text when the song starts to begin; there is only one phrase written entirely in Hiragan and that is "I'm sorry" at 1:00 . The music credits are written in Kanji. The girl also sings "I'm sorry, I'm sorry" during the entire song...so she might have written that. Also, the collapsing belly is a metaphor. Some say it's her starving but when you are panicking, your belly goes up and down rapidly because you're breathing making it look like it's collapsing. Collapsing is also a way to say someone is dying very fast. She says her body is collapsing during the song, too. So it could be a metaphor for dying. She(the main character of this song) screams at 0:52 but doesn't scream during the late and ending parts of the song. That scream was probably her screaming because her family was raping her. Your voice goes down to a whisper if your throat is severely sore. It is prominent in drill instructors, they can yell so much they cough up blood. However since the main character is not old (her voice sounds young and by the drawing, she looks young too.) her voice only goes down to a quiet pained whisper. Tie this in with the lyrics very much implying severe sexual abuse...........yeah... If you remove the intrusmental from the song and get the vocals only, it sounds sad and cheerful at the same time. The intrusmental could represent the shock and gruesomeness of gang rape and the whole extreme of gang rape. Scat and pee fetishes are also mentioned in this song. So that would be very extreme to a girl who is going through this without any permission.

Everyone's talking about the creepy lyrics but no ones gonna talk about the background of the song? That looks creepy af too, like what am I looking at here?

この方の作る作品ぜんぶ独特で好き

今のボカロには無い生々しい表現ホント素晴らしい

man tiktok really coming for all vocaloid songs huh

'Read the lyrics' they said. 'it won't disgust or traumatize you' they said.

私が人生で初めて聴いたボカロ曲がこれです。生々しい歌詞や音…やっぱりこの感じがたまりませんね、大好きです。

I searched up the lyrics before dinner and I did not eat tonight

"He opens up my ribs and drinks my soup" *ah* Edit: I came back to this video after 2 years to add it to my playlist. Surprised to have that many likes lmao.

歌詞がドチャクソキモイのにメロディーで引き込まれる 何度も聞きたくなるような中毒性 もうこの子が幸せならいいんじゃないかっていう諦めと絶望に駆られるよね はい 無限ループ確定。

Listening to the song not knowing japanese: 🔥 The picture:👀😟 The translated lyrics:☠️😭

wow imagine doing ahegao to a song about a little girl being sexually abused by her father, is forced to get an abortion at such a young age, and then dies after her father rapes her with his friends, and then joking about it because you think abuse is funny There are some horrible people out there, but I think a lot of them would think that even this ^ is wrong.

The fact that this girl said "if its make PAPA happy, im happy with it" make me very sad, what a poor kid...

"this is so dark and innapropriate!" welcome to kikuo

The instrumental: 🥳🤩🕺🏼💃 Lyrics: 💀

The beat dropped harder than my guilt

ここまで来るとすごい有名だからすぐ見つけられるけど この曲流行り始めの時は題名の｢ごめんね、ごめんね｣って打つたび 某栃木推しお笑い芸人がさきに検索にひっかかって｢おめぇじゃねぇｗ｣ってなつてたなぁ

i could live without the lyrics 😭😭 but the way kikuo uses the voice bank as an instrument in a way is so cool

Holy shit this video is expressive art, yet a disturbing one that makes my stomach churn. The lyrics, the demented whispering, and even the art in the video really expresses such deep emotions and feelings those of who experience such thing. I feel bad for all the children who experience this...Great job kikuo, such creativity in mind you got.

This song is the peak of "art is meant to disturb the comforted and comfort the disturbed".

Honestly this song is pretty accurate. The sad part is the girl believes that shes a bad kid and that shes a disappointment to her father. Sexual abuse is horrible because its emotional and physical abuse mixed into one. What she’s going through is horrible and I can only imagine what her father has done to her. Parents no matter how good always hurt their child, some leave finger prints, some leave cracks, and some like this father shatters the child.

11年たった今でも視聴回数が増えてる、ほんとにこの曲神なんだよな

いつまで経ってもすき

This song is about a young girl who is raped by her dad, what she means by "collapsing body" is that the rape is too much that it ruined her insides. This song is not about cannibalism, it is about child rape. Her father is brainwashing her to believe that being raped and abuse is being "loved". One day she ran away from her father's house by going into her neighbors house, her neighbor is a boy. The boy pitied her "collapsing body", so he took her in, soon enough they fell in love, the boy truly loved her, and the girl loved him too but she was confused she didn't know what "true love" means, she thought the boy hated her because the boy is not raping her or abusing her. She thought that being taken care of means they hate you. So she run away and went back to her father's house to be loved again but as soon as she went back, her dad bought a few men in his house to gangrape her. The gangrape was too much for the young girl so unfortunately she died. Edit: Just realize the boy tried to help her about the abortion at 2:25 . OMGosh why the fucking hell both of you guys didn't just live a happily life??? Why you comeback girl 😭😭

Me: *sees the first lyrics* so cannibalism? Song: *but if it makes papa happy* Me: *_OH_*

I miss being able to see the old original comments.

これ虐待の曲なのかな・・？この時代に聴くとパパ活とかしてる子が聴いたらぶっ刺さるのでは？とか思った。

someone: “this is based off of a true story” *hol’ up*

*listens to song* *looks at horrified comments* C'mon, the artwork is creepy, sure, but grow a pair. *looks at subtitles* Oh.

This song unlocked a core memory

サビの直前になる実も漏らしてそうな放屁の音が決め手すぎる

Every now and then i think about this song and die a little inside

If my parents found out what songs I listen to they would be concerned

最初の高音好きすぎて定期的にリピる。

えげつない歌詞だけどほんといい曲

ok im not actually disturbed from lyrics of songs but this one managed to give me chills a little

I see all these comments thinking it’s the girl’s actual father, but I think it could be someone holding her captive, and she must be young, so she either sees him as a father figure even though he treats her horribly, or she’s being forced to call him ‘daddy’ or ‘papa’, because that can be a kink in some situations. When the girl talks about ‘onii Chan’ or a big brother, it could be another person being held captive or someone from the streets who’s concerned about her well being.

あああぁぁ数年前ニコニコで聞いてずっとあの曲なんだっけってなってたのやっとおすすめ出てきたあぁ すっきりしたあぁ

この曲謎の中毒性がある

You know the saying "curiosity killed the cat"? This applies to any of Kikuos songs.

theory, at 1:02, there’s background noises that sound a lot like a sped up child’s music box, representing how her childhood was cut short/rushed by her father.

I wasn’t even looking for this song, I just ended up here without understanding how, I’ve known this song for a long time, but I constantly, like I can just scroll through the feed on KZfaq and not understand how I ended up here...

Listening to this song now that I'm older really hits me hard. I couldn't remember what happened to me for so long, and now that I'm older I understand. I used to listen to this song all the time, but now it means so much more. That feeling will never go away. Having that done to me so young will never go away, even though I wish it would.

i am truly terrified of the lyrics because it is quite similar to some incidents in real life. tiktok was a fucking mistake that has been existed to this world💀

everyone at tiktok: *dancing,singing and vibing to this song without knowing the lyrics and how dark it is* japanese people,vocaloid fans and other peeps be like: *ah shit here we go again* edit: it seems like on tiktok, someone named it ''cute song'' and did it with aishite aishite too *what the hell* Edit 2: I can't believe it's been almost 2 years since I published this comment, damn, I do feel old Edit 3: hi its been 3 years now uh anyway hi

the song versus the caption "send vegetables to kikuo on Patreon" are KILLING me. Like Kikuo pookie please

As a victim of CSA (I was 3 - 4 years old ever since it happened) this song extremely hits hard, I remember breaking down in tears while listening to it since 11 years old. This has been my comfort song throughout my years, the lyrics are written well, the screams, whispers, the voice, everything. I'm really glad Kikuo made this to spread awareness.

Everyone seems horrified by the lyrics to this song, but a lot of us Vocaloid fans are already used to these types of songs now.

i hope all forms of child predators, rapists, disgusting people, by principle, burn in hell for all eternity. there is no redemption for horrible acts of humanity like that. and i give my sincerest apologies to anybody who went through this torture. you are all beautiful people who deserve more than the world

いつも思うけどきくおさんの絵ってめちゃめちゃインパクト強いよな、ずっと頭の中に残り続ける感じ

これを初めて聞いたとき、私は12歳で日本語が話せませんでした。11年前のことですが、ようやく彼らが何を言っているのか理解できました。うんざりしました。

i hate when people say stuff like "i liked the song until i understood the lyrics". the lyrics are a huge part of why the song is so good. i never experienced SA, but if you read the comments you will see many people who did, saying how well written this is and how much they realate. the dark topics don't make the song worse(same thing with songs about sexual things).

i’m honestly so close to a fucking break down. these lyrics are terrifying. i can’t believe shit like this happens in real life... i’m literally scared to live.

初めに聞いた時はカニバリズムの曲だと思って、怖くてしばらく聞きに来なかったんだけど、成長してからおそらく性的虐待の比喩なんだと気づき、「カニバリズムじゃなくて良かった〜！」と安堵した後でいや良くない！！と我に返った。 更にコメント欄を見たら、被害にあった方もちらほらいて、もっと良くない！！！と狼狽えてしまった。幸せになってください。

This has some stuff that are similar to the video, not exactly a childhood memory but something more recent. Its been two months since i ended an abusive friendship but i finally decided to let go and stop crying because of how much i missed him. He was basically my best friend, and my only friend. It was such a wholesome friendship at the beginning, but it turned out in being SA and i sadly never thought of how bad it really was until now. Since i was a kid it was really hard for me to have friends, i was shy of course and well... that ended up being a disadvantage in the friendship that im talking about rn. I grew a huge attatchment to him because of how close we were, i ended up being emotionally dependant to him so i was really afraid of being alone. Because of that, he took advantage of the situation and threatened me again and again that he would stop talking to me if i didnt do what he desired. Sadly, most of those stuff were sexual, not able to talk to anyone besides him. I never liked doing those, i still dislike the way he forced me into thinking that what i was doing was correct. Plus i even tried to do something very bad to myself in an attempt of escaping from that. We both eventually ended up in a fight, because of a game. I won against him and he kept yelling at me that i was a selfish narcisist and that i knew he was emotionally unstable but yet still i decided to play something that he wasnt good at. like... what was his excuse? i just told him he needed to calm down and then he blocked me. Because of how he blocked me i was desperate and tried to talk with him again, and of course that never happened. I kept blaming myself that it was my fault of even more stuff that happened between us... well, like mentioned before i finally decided to let go of those memories. Of couse i left him a last message in his birthday and... well it wasnt the best but i tried explaining in a polite way that what he did to me was horribly wrong. also this goes for that guy im talking about: You know who you are, and if you are reading this: I know that you were of course mentally unstable, but thats no excuse of acting the way you f*cking did.

Everybody gangsta until they read the lyrics

Everybody talking about the soup, but why has no one mentioned the baked poop

今でも定期的に聴きに来てます。なんかもう、精神安定剤になってきてる

海外勢はこの曲を児童レイプ・性的虐待の曲って解釈してて、日本人はカニバリズムの曲だと解釈してる人がほとんどなの、文化の違いを感じる

Mum: "Oh that song sounds nice!" Me: "Y-Yeah, it's really nice...."

All I can say is thank god I'm not fluent in Japanese.

I love this song, it manages to make me feel things while listening, sadness, disgust, comfort, not many songs can do that. People may not like it because the lyrics are “traumatising” but it’s sort of comforting in a way

we are vibbing until the subtitle is on with this one 🗣️🗣️🔥🔥🔥🔥

**Listening to this song for the first time** Me: **Accidentally leaves captions on** Miku: "He opens my ribs and drinks my soup" Me: *AYO WTF-*

Sometimes I wonder if kikuo is okay Dude if you see this are you doing good I know it's been years but im concerned.

唐突に聴きたくなったから聴きに来た

even though the lyrics are.. its still my comfort song♥

- The song portrays pedophilia, with some elements of cannibalism. This obscure story is narrated by a little girl named "Miku", in whom she is abused (most evidently sexual abuse/rape) from her father. In the course of it, she ends up running away thinking that her father hates her because of her abuse, and in this she ends up encountering "Onnisan" (an adjective given mainly to older siblings, but also used for strangers). - The same seeing the state of the girl, with her fragile body, decides to help her. But because of her's twisted mind, Miku asks the Onnisan to do the same as his father does, as she fell in love with him. Rejected, she runs away, despite his kindness, decides to return to her father's house, as she wanted to be loved in the "right way" - When he got home, it was packed with people (his father and other rapists). Miku anyway is "happy", because there were people to love her in such a right way. "Okay, but where does cannibalism come in?" - The cannibalism portrayed is as if it were society's view of this matter, how grotesque and horrible it is.