STOP ALL ACTIONS, KIKUO HAS UPLOADED

i’ve seen a lot of different theories about this song, but my favourite is that it’s about childhood trauma and how it can be so easily forgotten and yet it can stay with you for your whole life. the lyrics go from basic school supplies and elementary-esque related things (pens, pencils, notebooks, tape and pebbles) to more sophisticated things (lies and truth, secret stories whispered in your ear.) eventually, you hear “i can’t remember” followed immediately after by “i’ve finally forgotten.” it’s the bittersweet juxtaposition of being able to forget traumatic memories and the knowing that your childhood was taken away from you. i like that the final lyric is “i can change… i can change.” it’s a nice ending.

Sometimes I feel like Kikuo could post anything and we'd all lose it, regardless of what it was.

From the look of some of the English translations and comments, I wonder if this is an adult looking back to their childhood memories, slipping away as they grown up. Maybe its the mundane routines making the speaker unable to act against their schedule; it becomes second nature as they forget important events in their life. From the monotype-like animation to the effects of the lighting, it feels unwelcoming. Like entering in an abandoned building, staring white walls while searching with a flashlight. Imagery of hands resting symbolizing a death or someone has given up; a white line wiggling about in an enclosed square could be a metaphor for trying to break their boundaries, but their spirit slowly dies out under the weight of it all. Maybe they accept their circumstances by become one with monotonous shape. That could be one form of change. I might be projecting a little but seeing these abstract effects make the lyrics impactful imo. It fits with the aesthetic per say ahaha. Thank you Kikuo for this experimental track and Yuka Sato for the animation! Really enjoyed this one. I hope we get news about KikuoMiku6 sometime soon. Edit: I wrote this comment on my phone and clarified some thoughts on pc. Sorry if I didn't made any sense hours ago.

Can't wait to see how this song feels at three in the morning

Kikuo's songs are either 1.) A cool bop 2.) A cool bop that causes extreme anxiety like this one and Substitute There is no in between.

小学校の思い出を綺麗にしまってあったはずなのに、全部引きずり出されて実はこんなに汚れてたんだよってぐちゃぐちゃに胸の中にしまい戻された気分になる やっぱりきくおさんの曲はさいっっっこうです！！

My interpretation: There's a big victim of school violence, so memories and images about school are trauma for the person. Accordingly, things existing in the classroom which are recited in this music(紙(paper), ペン(pen), 内緒の話と耳元でささやく声 (secret story and whispering voice)) are pieces of memories and images that are trauma for the person. However, after reciting the things, words like 'I forgot all those things' and 'I can change' comes out. That means the person forgot the things that is trauma for him or her and is willing to change himself or herself. I think this music is so hopeful!

Well it's not kikuo if you aren't uncomfortable by the end of the song

my understanding of this song is apparently much darker than most of the comments i've seen and i'm. huh to explain a bit: when a person goes through trauma as a child (especially if there's more than one traumatic event/incident it stems from), it can result in memory loss since said memories are too painful to process at the time. more often than not, though, things other than the event(s) from said person's childhood can be lost with it, like school, old friends, small events, places, times, etc. i can relate to this song because it's heavily distorted and sounds dreamy, distant, and creepy while still being about elementary school; it ties in almost perfectly with losing your memories of childhood and attempting to piece them back together from loose recollections.

きくおさんの音楽は 曲というよりひとつの芸術作品な気がする。歌詞や音楽で直接伝えるんじゃなく、音楽全体で何かを伝えてくる感じがする。

Well I’m ready for bed- *Kikuo Uploads* Welp I didn’t need school anyways

きくおさんの曲相変わらずかっけぇなぁ… 日本語字幕ONにしたら冒頭でなんて言ってるかわかった

this song has such an interesting texture idk how else to describe it but it feels a certain way when u listen with headphones

みんな、字幕はオンにした？

コメントが英語ばっかりでびっくり 曲は素敵、very good👍👍👍

I don't think I've ever clicked a notification so fast in my life.

たとえどれほど辛い過去でも、確かに自分の内側を形作っていた過去であって、それを忘れることは、解放であると同時に、根無し草のように現在の自分がふわふわと頼りなく浮かんでしまうことなのかもしれないと思うと、「私は変われる」という言葉も悲痛な強がりのように思えてくる

I love how everyone is trying to explain the songs and i am like 'my brain tells me it sounds good so i like it'

i think it’s about trauma and forgetting your childhood and not being able to remember anything

すごく共感できる いじめられていた小学生時代、それでも美しいものや好きなものがあって トラウマなのに忘れると宝物も同時になくしてしまう。 空っぽになっちゃうんじゃないか　死んでしまうかのような そんな不安が この曲をきいていて思い出されました、、、

Out of all of Kikuo’s songs, this one really gives me chills for some reason. I just feel like there’s a lot more behind this song then what we might see on the surface

I love how Kikuo creates music that is meant to be experienced and not just listened to! Another really cool song ^u^

Yesss something new from Kikuo!! Love your music.

終始鳥肌。頭皮にまで鳥肌が立った。 本当にこの人は鬼才だ。

This is a song that can be in "Everywhere at the end of time" but modernized

逆再生したら何かありそう… いつも思うけどほんとに世界観が凄い…

悪夢見たあとみたい。すき。

きくおさんの楽曲は感覚的なことを的確に言語化していてかつ、音楽にのせてその怒りや悲しみの感情をフルパワーで届けてくれて、私の分まできくおさんの曲達が泣いたり怒ったりしてくれている気持ちになります。 いつも、素敵な曲を届けてくれてありがとうございます…！

わー…… 考察してるのをみてなるほどってなりたいけど わからないままただぼんやり聴くのもいいなぁ……

My interpretation of this song is as the character builds up talking about supplies and the secrets they used to tell in school the characters voice inflection goes up and the music begins to pick up and i think the character is reminiscing as an adult and the distortion is them forgetting. Theyre desperately trying to remember what it was like to be a kid. The box with the white snake in it could either be the person navigating through life, feeling trapped, suppressing memories im not really sure. After the character said they have forgotten theres this little pawn person and it gets sliced in half and for a few frames it looks like two people hugging or trying to and phasing through one another maybe just learning to let go of the old memories of childhood and fully progress into being an adult?

Kikuo described my entire school trauma on this song.

Idk why but I'm crying kikuo are you okay I love this I love you take care

「やっと忘れられたの」という言葉から推察するに、 前半のPVは 「今は忘れた過去のトラウマの残骸や断片」 後半のPVは 「過去を捨てることで明るくなった未来」に見える。 …でもタイトルが意味深すぎて、まだ何かある様に思える。それに最初の方に出てた四角が一番最後に出てくるのは何でだ…？ ともあれ、今回も凄かった。

過去を忘れて幸せに過ごせる期間とまた昨日のように過去が思い出されぶり返す期間、ということかなと思った。 でも3歩進んで2歩下がるカタチで一歩ずつは進めているはずだと思いたい。

耳が気持ちよすぎる

『壊れて捨てて 拾って直した宝物』って歌詞、ものをぱらぱら壊す の歌詞みたい

I love how experimental this song is yet it still feels like Kikou's own style

PVがともかくすごい、ハンコでアニメーションってどれだけ手が込んでるんだろう、凄いなぁ～ 曲を聴いている時の脳内が可視化されたようで、 最後の方のなにか掴もうとする手がとくにすきです

I feel like Im falling into a pit, Falling into another universe. Or just like Alice In Wonderland, Im being drowned in by multiple sounds. And I like it.

これまで聞いたきくおの曲で1番聞き取りづらい

本当にもうこの世界観がたまらなく好きです

なんでこんなに私のことを知っているんだろうと言うくらい、感覚がそのまま曲になっていて怖い

I can't even figure out what genre of music this is. I love this so much

(I'm not native) I think this song is giving a positive message Experienced terribe times while childhood (ijime=bullied) -> Can't remove the memory from his/her mind ->finally could remove it by a mental shock -> desides to live a different life without any obstacles in his/her mind 댓글에 해석많이보이는데 키쿠오노래치고 엔딩이 긍정적인 것 같길래 개인 해석 남기고감 앞에 여러가지 학교물품들이 나오는건 떠나지 않는 그때의 기억. 키쿠오미쿠6 학교관련곡들 전체를 관통하는 내용인 친구랑 어울리지 못하거나 심하면 이지메까지... 그런 기억들로 얼룩진 어린날들, 학교생활을 잊을 수 없는 주인공. ->전부 전부 기억나지 않는다는 얘기는 많이 보이는 해석처럼 정말 충격으로 인한 기억상실일 수도 있고... 음도 보컬로이드 조교도 절규하는걸로 들려서 부정적으로 해석할 수 밖에 없는듯 -> 겨우 잊어버렸다는건 이 잊고싶지만 머리에서 떠나지 않던 모든 아픈 기억을 어떤 계기가 있었는지는 모르지만 잊어버렸다는 것 -> 나는 바뀔 수 있다. 정상적인 사고도 방해하던, 나의 앞길을 막던 장애물인 아픈 기억을 전부 잊고 무조건 바뀔 수 있다. 이런 의지를 보여주는 것 같게 끝남 내가 지금 힘들어서 이렇게 해석하고 싶음;; 그리고 키쿠오노래는 왜 한국인 고찰이 잘 없음?? 외국인들은 많은데 이요와 노래들처럼 한국인들도 곡 많이 듣고 해석해줬으면 좋겠어

学校にいい思い出がないので歌詞を見てて苦しくなりました。 思い出した。

なんで今までこれ聴かなかったんだろう……すごく後悔 かなり刺さった大好きです

待ってました…！！うわぁ！！うわぁぁあ！（語彙の消失）

Let me try to explain this song. Paper,pen,pencil,eraser... Japanese elementary school students are supposed to have those utensils. And also “flower circle” (💮means ✔️),”crosses”(🙅‍♀️), moral education class, Japanese class,and so on, all those words relate to an elementary school life. And this girl never remember those pieces of her memory. But she sounds happy...

I’M NOT EVEN A MINUTE INTO IT YET AND I’VE ALREADY FALLEN IN LOVE WITH THIS WOW

Overwork for 4 hours. Thirst. Hunger. Depression. Loneliness. Exhaustion- I Sleep Kikuo uploads- *ASCENSION* *-This meme was writen by sleepwalking body Gang*

きくおを聞くお リピートアフターミー

きくおさんの曲の中でダントツで鬱な曲。最初聞いた時、きくおさんが心配で仕方がなかったです。 ボカロ鬱曲（サウンド部門）1位です。 間違いなく。

I think sonically this and cotton candy are kikuo's scariest songs

きくおワールドですね！(*ºчº*)

逆再生したらなんかありそう(小並感)

It's 1 AM and here I am trying to decipher Kikuo Lore

Your music has developed my entire aesthetic since 2015 and I cANNOT thank you enough Kikuo ; v ;

I feel like this is about recovering from childhood trauma and amnesia caused by said trauma. The school/childlike theme and mentions of not remembering it all makes me think that it’s trauma, and the recovering part is because it says “I can be changed.” Plus, the foggy and overall vibe of the video fits it, too.

好きです好き

This hits different at night.

こ、怖い。さすがkikuoさん！！

getting serious Everywhere At The End Of Time vibes from this one, I love it

やっと忘れられたの、の後が気持ちよすぎて好き…

I haven't seen any comments mention this yet but at 2:23 it looks like a person is pierced with something. Then it looks like hands trying to grab something but being unable to get a hold of it (maybe a representation of how they're struggling to get a hold of their old memories). I just really like the animation

Kikuo has Kikuo'ed himself in making creepy, disturbing yet fascinating music Like This gave me the chills on a whole other level And I love it ❤️❤️❤️

I love whatever is going on in this animation

本当にきくおさんの世界観好きです！ 深く意味を考えなくてもどっぷりハマるけど、 深く考えれば考えるほど更にハマっていくのが きくおさんの曲の神がかってる特徴だと思います！

I think its about the person that finally graduated highschool or college, where the person was not satisfied or having troubles with its school life, the person may also have no freedom to its routine even in to its liking so once the person graduated, the person can finally change and become what it wants

Man, listening to this while sleep deprived is something else

I don't know how i've never seen this. this is insanely good.

I feel like the lyrics which are blurred out signify a traumatic memory that the person is pushing away or avoiding.

This song is a bit creepy.... But it reminds me of some sort of really old mechanical voicebox type thing you find in your attic and you decide to play it. The audio is warbly, the video is dark, like an old electronic losing power might do. All in all this is great sound design, goes to show Kikuo is great at his craft

*My wish of getting a notification from kikuo finally became true*

i found this weirdly calming

きくお教の皆様。 今回もきくお様の神曲が出ましたが、 聞き取りずらいと思いますので 字幕昨日をONにして視聴することをオススメします。 狂っちゃう

Childhood Trauma is serious issue, especially when it comes with other factors, unloving parent, parent's financial issue, and you trying to make sense of the world while you're slowly losing that innocent youth of yours, wondering as the day goes by about a human life, seeing life and death in front of you, not realising the importance of it. But as time goes on it becomes distant memory, and for extreme case you'd completely forgot about it, you reborn and become someone else. Mine wasn't in that extreme case, though i wouldn't say having my memory suppressed isn't any better, no human being should be going through this. It doesn't make me feel any special or unique going through this, it's just cruel, it makes you feel like you don't really exist, but instead living in a vivid memory that starts to become clearer but more fake to you, you can't tell what's real and what's not, but you have to keep on living because that's what you've been doing for years. But i wonder, does living a life that doesn't seem real and distant memories felt like a dream is any better than Death itself. i may never know, i'll never get to experience a normal childhood, if such thing ever existed. 'tthirdmember trans rights' does a good job at interpreting the song's meaning including audio distortion, i'm surprised that people can understand and empathise themselves without having to experience it themselves to that extend, but i guess that's what psychologist are for. Which is a good thing because at least i get to know that i'm not the only one that i have to see it? it's probably weird to describe feeling as "seeing it" but that's best i can describe it.

きくおさんの歌また聞けて嬉しいです 今回も神曲でした٩( ᐛ )و٩( ᐛ )و٩( ᐛ )و

11:08 at night! Nice time to listen a new Kikuo's work!!!

damn, I've never had such a hard time understanding miku

素晴らしい

Everything you make is nothing short of art. What a push on what a song can be.

ひょええ（てか外国人の方多いな）

one of the songs that actually make me feel odd. like.. *something isnt right.* great job, kikuo!

今回も神！

I litterly screamed when I saw this notification

Minecraft secret disc number 6

待ってました 最高

Please release English lyrics I'M SHAKING

私「ｷﾞｬｱｱｱｱｱきくおさんの新曲ｳｳｳｳｳｳﾝ↑(心配停止)」 　「さっそく覚えて歌うぞｵ」 難 易 度 M A X (^o^)

きくお様の曲って機械が歌ってるっていうのが魅力的。いやボカロ曲ってそういうもんなんだろうけど、何だろ、他のボカロ曲よりも最大限の褒め言葉として人間が歌うことによって心がこもっちゃいけない曲。伝わる？伝われ。

現実に生じたノイズを緻密な計算の元で固め合わせ、そこに精神の不安定な揺らぎをプラスしたかのようなサウンドが素敵です。 明るいとも暗いとも取れない。中性的な雰囲気がありますね

Yay Kikuo I upload a video!!!I love the song

what the hell is going on in this video it’s perfect keep up the good work as always kikuo!!

新曲待ってました！相変わらず雰囲気が明るいようで暗い神曲作り出してますね！

素直に好きです

I listened to this song in my final year in highschool before graduation. I remember going to the washroom during class with my headphones playing this on the lowest volume. It would usually be empty and I would just close myself up in the stall and kind of just stand there. I had really bad anxiety throughout all of highschool. Listening to this song would greatly calm me down.

うぽつです！！

ループしてるのに気づかないでずっと永遠に聴いてられそう

待ってました…!!!