Everything is better when a catboy talks about it

How have I learned so much more about mental health, emotional stability, and just a lot of great life advice from members of the LGBTQ community than any therapist, psychiatrist, or from my Years in a Christian house hold. I have spent a lot of time in VRChat, met my girlfriend on there, I've made friends who I am closer to than family. Trans, Gays, Bi's, all colors of the Spectrum sharing they're beautiful and heartwrenching stories. I'm just here at work watching a Catboy and having my life laid before me allowing me to think for 5 seconds... Thank you. Just thank you.

Went through this realization back in in like, November. Somehow I went from doing nothing for 10 years to being a freshman in college at 28. I just hope I actually got into a boat instead of just switching rivers.

Sometimes I do feel like I have no control, like I'm some npc in the world's game. It makes me feel worthless and like I'm useless and pointless. This video did help me understand this feeling and help it, though...Thank you...

You have quite the weird jumble of video topics on your channel, teaching us blender, art tips, music tips, gaming, general femboy things and now philosophy. This video came at quite a good time for me, I've always been aware of what I want ,what I'm feeling,what I'm doing. But recently (maybe for like a month and a half) I've been wondering what was going on, I wasn't being productive, but I wasn't relaxing either, just kinda floating around and that brought me a lot of stress, but this video was a nice reminder to be more aware, thank you. For you -> ⚘

I'm in my early thirties and Once in a Lifetime becomes just more and more powerful the more time passes in my life. I didn't think David Byrne's goofy "My God, what have I done" line would send me into fits of tears *more* often the older I got, but I think you're right that this song seems to transcend just being a Talking Heads song. Great video!! Loved hearing your thoughts on classic music 💚

I just like the song man now you got me in a existential dread 😰

Wow. Just wow. I didn't think you'd make a video that'd make me think so deeply about myself and make me feel so exposed. It simultaneously felt so clear yet like a fever dream (though maybe that was because of Once in a lifetime playing on the tv and in the background). Also the two reddit posts... I'm at a loss of words. I feel like I'm almost in a standstill yet moving slowly in the river as time flies by. I don't know what I want to do with my life. Thank you for this video, I really needed it right now.

this hits particularly hard do to the fact i too have been blessed with so many free, lazy days where ive just lounged about, smoking playing video games. it's a comfortable mindset because hey doing nothing is better than working... or so i thought... with out getting into specifics my life as i know it has been flipped upside down. but i am happy to embrace this change for i have been stuck in the constant loop is the water. this video is a great reminder that I am able to make the bigger decisions as well a the little ones. I am happy to be who i am. p.s. we love our cat boys going deep for us meoowwww

your voice is very calming to listen to. thanks for the life lessons mako!

This video is so captivating and always relevant i cant help but keep coming back

This is has been on my mind for a very long time, thank you for elaborating on this idea, catboy, i'd give you a hug of appreciation.

I fell in love with the talking heads in 2011. They quickly became one of my most favorite bands! I have been feeling stuck for a while and cannot get myself into a decent routine. This video just reminded me of a thought i had yesterday . Not gonna share that specific info in a public youtube video but Great job! Deff gonna save this for future references ❤

Always called this the "lazy river mentality". I consistently see friends and family just *coasting through life* and it gives me this existential horror reaction in my gut. I wanna grab them, shake them around, scream at them, make them see how aimless they are.

my life turned out the way it did because I had complete control over where I was, even when others had control over where I was supposed to be... Which means I didn't do the things expected of me, and now I'm here watching this video because I wanted a break from taking a break.

let the water hold me down

I guess you can say I'm a person that makes the days go by. I go through this awareness 'training' per se, to make sure that I do everything with the best efficiency that my human mind can muster. I may have forgotten that monsterous feeling Mako describes, or I may have just gotten used to it; I can't say for sure.why I can assure is that I know I have felt it. Regardless, it doesn't stop me from recognizing that, even since I really don't do much in my soon-to-be 18 years I do it all, knowing that I'm making those decisions myself. Everything I have learned and will learn, that has to do with finding my identity, will lead up to every time I make myself aware to my environment.

Actually incredible. Thank you for your honesty.

Hey, thank you for this. I really needed it.

another banger mako. right now my state of mind is just kind of hazy but not despairing. i started smiling when you said ill probably forget this by next week, because i know it to be true. i wanna make decisions too, and i also get a lot of free time, but i have adhd. right now im in a state of occasional awareness, but im not despairing, because im just waiting to go to adhd school next year, and i think itll get better then.

So many of your videos such as this one are my favorite on this platform. Amazing work man hope you keep making more

This was your best video that I've seen so far, you're awesome Mako! Keep aware !

you so cute with your big ideas retro music and existential dread :3

Your a real gift Mako. Thanks for the inspiring insight. :)

I have been listening to this song non stop everyday For over a year and even I didn’t really make the connection between the “water” and the rest of the song I knew it meant something and it was something that went along with the rest of the songs kinda “existential crisis” vibe, but I never thought much about it. This is a great video :3 I adored listening to you talk about my absolute favorite song!

Favorite video by you so far good shit

Kudos! Very insightful video!

I don't wanna see my wife

This is, actually rather inspiring

recently found a love for music production, and find myself making it every chance i get

Amazing video, I'm keeping this one in my pocket for when I need it.

what a banger of a video. really well done. it gonna sounda parasocial but i feel like ur my brother. i can higly recommend healthy gamer. they dont treat just gamers, but all of the "time wasting quick dopamine", and that was awesome. have been better ever since i started and been only getting better. cheers and good luck everyone !

I always interpreted this song as not letting things bother you. Just taking life one step at a time. I think that's a better way if looking at it, certainly less existential.

really great video man

I cant believe you have made a second video that is a direct callout to me

Jesus Christ… Thank you. I’ve known about this song for a while, but your, little thing? You asked me to do? Jesus… it did something to me. This? This is some great stuff honestly it, it taught me a lot about myself and the things I really took for granted and never properly understood. Thank you.

Wow I made a deliberate decision to watch this video, I'm glad I did, though I do find it funny to know I'm not the only one who has this feeling and to be honest the only time I get it is while playing types of games.

thanks for doing this

Contemplation is important, thank you for making me remember

With chronic nerve problems. Either I most commonly hop online and distract myself with pure brain rot for a few hours. Or I lie down and take a nap while listening to either ASMR, or spooky TTS stories. I don't have much else to do at home. I don't have any pets left to take care of.

I'm tired, and want nothing but to find the river again.

Great video, I now have an existential crisis.

Hey Mako Thank you! I found your channel from a random tiktok about you guessing flags while zooted and stumbled upon this video after watching a few others from your channel. I'd like to thank you for making this video about this song and "how the days go by." This made me understand a lot better of what was going on with me. I think I have found that I am stuck in the "shallow water of the river." I realize I am very stuck and go trough the "river" most of the time but will make occasional decisions every day. This river that you talk about I feel is what my "no motivation" is and that its really me being too stuck in the river rather than not making the dive to the shore from the shallow water. I hope you read this and understand what I have said, thank you for making this video helping my understanding and keep the content up!

Wow! Loved this, such interesting sounds and beautiful creatures😍😜🍊

Someone on The channel "Femboy Fishing" suggested you, I'm glad I went through with looking for this

I would just say don't hold onto this mindset too tightly. There's a reason why we don't remember all our memories, why people don't like making tons of decisions all the times, why we don't have to think in order to walk. People want think they need to be divine in order to improve their lives when the best way to improve yourself is through small, effortless changes over time.

I've never thought that the water would bring me to the Catboy Vtuber side of the internet but now i can say i dont regret it.

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Mako please do more videos like this.

This video came at a good time for me, Im nineteen now will be twenty before so long, I was a “good kid” in my teens as in I didn’t do drugs or drink or hangout with anyone my parents disapproved of and now Im realizing how much of my life I wasted doing nothing to appease others who don’t know me at all. I’ve been thinking about this a lot but couldn’t put my finger on what I was feeling, but this helps.

That's why I always wait for a good moment to watch your videos. So i don't waste them giving them not full attention by doing something else at the same time. I'm finally going to change my life. I want to work on my habits. On my personality. And some mental stuff. Having an empty head feels good. Like the first time i could actually breath. I also always thought the "automatically switching to social media thingy" didn't trapped Me. But it sure did. Even tho i only have yt and dc. There should be a class in school focused on mental health. It shouldn't be part of your freetime to do research on that. so less people will just flow away without noticing. Im only 17 but literally my whole live i was just flowing in the river.

I can't believe I'm having a catboy psychoanalyze me. that being said, I'm fairly confident in my decisions and where I am headed, at least in the afterlife. And while I've made huge mistakes and wasted a good portion of my days, I'm gathering the pieces I have and I'm going to make a run for something more than I am while I am still here.

Ahh yes the deep rabbit hole

i think this is the closest to meditation I'll ever get. it felt really nice... as someone with adhd my brain is rarely quiet, and it sure wasn't there, but i think having the *purpose* to let my thoughts go actually worked, if that makes sense? there was no desperate grabbing of thoughts for my attention, it was seeing them and choosing to let them go on their way. weird how that can change so drastically from one video that phrased it just right for my brain. thanks

As someone who's never gambled in the obvious sense but I always relate life to gambling, mainly rolling dice, I always make sure I'm never saying something for sure, I am aware that I have no control but I like to believe I have some. I am constantly aware that someone at this very moment is most likely having the best moment of their life with the people they love and that memory will be constantly reminisced on and someone is probably experiencing their last moments, starving, lying on the ground with nothing to lose but nothing to gain (I then started making a detailed description that I'm not gonna include). I will admit, I do focus on other things so I'm not writing a full length novel in my head about someone I never heard of who just died

that's what I needed to know! I love you... no homo :D

Deep video. Nice.

What do I do? Usually spiral around in existential dread thinking about how nothing I do is beneficial to humanity in a way that will cause me to enter the memory of history and how I should just focus on my life and then I try to relax but I can't because I feel like I'm wasting my time relaxing instead of learning or doing chores to stay on top of them or preparing food so I don't waste money on it and then I feel like all the games are boring and I don't know what I wanna go to college for or how that direction would allow me to be happy. I spend my free time thinking about all this and then give up and find you on KZfaq and you ask me this question. Edit. Welp.... Ahhh yeah. You see I have lots of intelligence and ambition and I feel like I'm always asking myself "what should a human do. What is the best thing for a human to do?" Is it math? Science? Laughing? At the end I often tell myself I'm just a tiny speck of dust talking to itself and telling itself things are meaningful for no reason other than it has energy to do so. I try very hard to live life with a steadfast grip on my emotional response to stimulus in order to first interact in a curious manner but this is often beyond my ability to maintain. Usually I have an emotional reaction first and then after noticing that once again I have become influenced by my bodies chemicals I try to manually combat that state of mind in order to gain control. Being emotional is very subtle most of the time. And if you have a good poker face it's even harder to notice for you and for others when you have slipped into the illusion of emotional thought. Why do I want to be remembered? Why do I want to play a game? When I ask myself these questions without emotion I realize I don't want them. I want to live for millions of years and gather tons of data? No. I want to spend time loving and laughing? That only feels good when combined with pain and sorrow. I don't want those things and I don't want to go numb to laughing and joy so I have to suffer on purpose. Just enough to avoid chemical tolerance to joy and happiness. And that is what I will do for the rest of my life. Be a speck of dust telling myself things as if they matter.

Love talking heads

Uh wow, this perfectly describes how i've been feeling about my college. I pretty much entered my program on autopilot, and I can tell it's not a good fit for me. But i've spent so much time and money on my course, it's a scary thought to leave it all behind and start over

BABE WAKE UP MAKO JUST POSTED

How do I learn to care? I'm not doing anything with my life, but it doesn't make me sad. I dropped out of college, just because I didn't have motivation for it and now work a minimum wage job, yet I don't feel sad, it doesn't make me anything at all, I have no goals and no ambition, I don't feel happy and don't feel sad. The days just go by and there's nothing I want to do, I just go to work, talking with my bf for a few hours or play games and the cycle repeats.

Huh, I never thought I'd receive philosophical wisdom and existential despair from a catboy before.

Hmmm idk. I usually just sleep or get caught in very deep thought as everything around me starts to peer out a face.

well how did we get here

(Listen to more Talking Heads! The album Remain In Light, that Once In A Lifetime is on, is great from start to finish. So is Fear of Music)

Mako Rays guide to a productive exestential crisis

Answer: I usually watch YT and dream of potentials to do anything like art or programming, never actually doing it. Now I try to make myself do something, actually. I decided long ago that I would make a VRChat avatar in Blender, so I started doing that. I watched your video tutorial before but didn`t manage to finish the previous project in time so I don`t mind starting it all over again.

You know what, realizing this at 25 makes me want to rip my teeth out. All the time i wasted

Gay catboy existential crisis my favourite YIPPE!!!!!

Wanna shortcut to enlightenment? Its called psilocybin.

theres a web series that references the song quite a bit its called "ena"

One day my sister had a Nightmare where i died Drowned, now i known what that Nightmare means

Time is a very valuable asset. You decide what you want to do with time. You can decide to relax and clear the mind from the busy life. You can decide to be productive into whatever goal or project you want to complete in a certain timeframe. Or you can decide to watch some videos because it helps you to relax in the weekend. You can decide to do the homework early on with the amount of time before the deadline or procrastinate and then rush to get it done before the deadline, or not do homework at all. Anything you decide is up to you. Time is limited and finite. For me, I've always been aware that I have to somehow follow the system, due to school being grade K-12. I decided to go to college and soon to gradate. After that, I've been wondering about how to make the most of my time. I enjoy the time I have for myself but I know 9-5 jobs take away time and energy. I've always been afraid of being trapped in the rat race and not getting out as someone from a working class family. I've been thinking of ways that I can still have large amounts of time to focus on myself without work taking over my life. I think working forever in life isn't a good way to spend time, especially when I want the time to enjoy my hobbies, focus on mental health, get lots of rest and happiness. But unfortunately due to the system, the system is set up in a way that you must work to earn money in order to survive. So I have to somehow play the system right if I want to live a comfortable life without struggling to pay the bills and have food on the table. As long as the bills are paid and I have food and access to my equipment and internet, if the basic needs are met I'll be set in life and just let the river/life goes by. It sucks that I can't just live my life the way I can live because of the system set in place, trapping us all to do the same thing everyone else is doing because it is seen as "successful" in life. I don't agree with what society says about being successful and happy, I have my own thoughts and my own goals. I am grateful for the opportunity to study and now I am hoping that it will open up more rivers to opportunities in life for me. I just want to do what makes me happy, just enjoy the small moments of life each passing day.

oof I'm being called out

Its deep

I draw and play video games. Spend time with family and friends. I live very boring life overall. I'm happy with my life overall, but I do wish I was a better artist.

@MakoRay Can you please enable Closed Captions for your videos?

*laughs in turning 40 next month* 😅

Huh

this is not my beautiful wife

I felt the same, waiting for the World of Love for 12 years. And now I'm waiting again for a local LGBT club to open a living space to socialize in since it got closed due to covid. I feel urgency and powerlessness in equal measure as the World of Comfort collapses sinking into existential anxiety with a strong aftertaste of fascistic backlash. We're living quite the dark time 😓.

3:30 4:05 6:51 7:55 I struggling on the part where I suppose to do nothing and let loose by doing nothing for a good half of a hour like in a Closet but the problem is that the thought that came in is music that I liked and not like thought provoking stuff , and I feel the same not what I'm doing wrong maybe few more try, Like I don't what am I suppose to do or think like I try not moving and just moving my eyes but I not sure I feel like I missing something, who know maybe I am already aware of the river hundred of the time I stuck in a new one, I not sure if I making Decision for me for me like I do want to write this stuff because I don't know, I have goals I want to do but I do something else not sure what I being aware of, I know the river like time moving me like I got the time of me doing whatever I want but I don't know

i answered save marine life on earth

I started typing a rather LARGE comment to you about how insightful you are, when I realized, you probably won't even read this. I'll just say that I AM 53 and I DID choose to watch this video. You are amazing and you have a wonderful future ahead of you... How do I know that? because you aren't stuck like the rest of us. Don't let the water hold you down, EVER. Oh, also... I just recently broke free, thanks in no small part to my beautiful wife, who lives with me in our beautiful house. LOL.

this non-thinking yet thinking state you showed is called zuòchán or zazen in buddhism. it is the main practice of chán/zen buddhism.

Do you think when the Talking Heads wrote this song, they knew that it was gonna be used in countless midlife crisis montages in movies?

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You lied... you did not talk about Spamton G Spamton...

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gonna be honest i didnt understand any of this until you said "if you are happy with your life then cool," which i then proceeded to click off the video because i am

_I'm in this video and I don't like it_

Tl:dw letting the days go by, letting the water hold me down, letting the days go by, there's water flowing underground, into the blue again, after the money's gone, once in a lifetime, there's water flowing underground (same as it ever was) Also, what, no Burning Down The House? God, I feel a little bad for you...