Back to basics as I am regaining my confidence with my tools again. Oddly enough - this may be one of the cutest, easiest builds I've done in quite some time. Love you guys, mean it xx.

You might not feel like your renovation is going anywhere, but you've come such a long way! For me you are more than a DIY channel; you've become a mental health channel too. Your videos are more powerful than you think! I am so proud of you for being honest with yourself, and sharing the struggles and the ups and downs are all part of the healing process. Sharing your progress is very inspiring! I can really feel that DIY'ing around your animals is a different type of energy and I love that for you! I honestly believe this desert farmlife is what was meant for you all along! 💗

You being so open with your struggles has helped so many of us feel less alone. I have lost friendships too, some people just don't understand what depression and anxiety means aka "You look fine!" Huge hug dearest Rachel, every step counts.

Honestly Rachel---- you have it all!! I don't know why you can't see that??? You are so so pretty, your body is fabulous, you are talented and have great style. Your property is to die for and your whole house and land is really taking shape. You are healthy and strong. So many God given gifts. Be thankful, be grateful, and live your life. You really are blessed!

Gardening , yoga and art journaling along with my furry babies keeps me going. Sometimes we learn more after a few failures.

Make your amends and move on. Do not beat yourself up. If they can't meet you where you are right now so be it. Everyone in their own time. Keep working on your ranch and you will come through the other side. The lounge area is beautiful. ❤ Great job, Rachel.

“This has to be the part of the movie where the character gets her life together” 😂 Please know this comes from a place of love. Keep keeping it real and it all will come together the way it is supposed to. I love that you are able to see things come together as you slow down a little. One day you will look back on your beautiful life and say ‘wow, I did that”. And how sweet will that be?! Sending love and less wind. ❤

The outdoor lighting just brings so much life to the space and makes it feel magical and special.

Love the treehouse and the fence gives a feeling of peace. I was happily surprised to see you again 🌞

It can help to remember that each "mistake" is a learning experience. More knowledge in our tool belt. Your work is art

With all the little holes in the fence, you should put marbles/crystals in them for extra whimsy! Love seeing your creative flow coming back.

Oh Mama Metz. This was so beautiful to see you "failing" forward. I hope you're as proud of yourself as we are of you.

I’ve always appreciated your rawness but not always related to it - which is all good and fine! But this video and your honest reflection on life and relationships resonated during a time I’ve been beating myself up for it. So thank you 🙏🏼 How special to have the evolution of your property as a tangible, livable diary in all stages of renovation.

Please don’t ever beat yourself up! You are amazing and doing such a great job!! This depression and anxiety is freaking hard and you are killing it. ❤❤

You got this! This is such a realistic renovation channel. And I loveeee the pig 😍

Pets ,animals in general, are the best antidepressants. They force you to get out, take care of them and give you so much unconditional love, it’s easier to get out of our own heads and pay attention to the present moments.

Thank you for being so REAL!! We all have a story to tell, and our journey is ever evolving!! ❤

rachel, your videos are really and truly my personal vacation away from my mind and daily stresses. i started watching you way back when you were doing your bedroom renovation videos. immediately struck by your vibrant personality and authenticity, i became obsessed and started binge watching your videos. then, your moving to joshua tree series became the background to my productivity and the podcast i fell asleep to. i have to say, watching you move into the desert and start a new life has been the most beautiful thing to witness. sometimes i love daydreaming about what it must be like to have a total blank canvas away from my past life to curate exactly how i dream of. what i did not expect from this series-initially drawn to it from a purely interior design appreciation perspective-was how raw, authentic and gut-wrenchingly honest you are in your videos. it’s so refreshing to see someone as driven as you let us viewers into the hardships, missteps and trials along your journey. i’m sitting in south africa and am amazed how someone on the other side of the planet can perfectly capture and articulate the exact frustration i feel with trying to create quality art while battling depression and anxiety. you inspire me so freaking much and i am so grateful for this little parasocial relationship of me tuning in every few weeks to watch how your farm has progressed. rachel, than you for letting me dream with you and watch this amazing home of yours flourish.

The bench in the tree is absolutely divine!!

Love not only how you fall then pick yourself up, but how you share it with all of us. You are a super amazing human please never forget that. 👑🥰❤️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

My goodness, the fence makes such a wonderful difference. It looks like a diffent place. Gives the whole decor definition and style. Glad you are feeling better.

Seeing you take accountability for your relationships maybe not working out how you hoped, makes me proud and it's something I can totally relate to. The relationships that are meant to last will work out, and the one's that don't work out lasted the exact amount of time they were meant to, no more no less. You can still cherish memories with these people even though they're not around. Depression, grief and anxiety is a bitch so cut yourself some slack once in a while. You're doing great. ❤❤❤️

Oh my god girl. This is paradise. Your place is gonna be so niiiiccce when it's done. It already is but whoa when it's done. Have fun with the process! We subscribers enjoy it

Hooray!!!!!! SO GOOD TO SEE YOU!!! Absolutely LOVE the re-used fencing. It looks fantastic! It has a lot of character. OMG your lounge area with the sunrise--it's exquisite. You're doing great!!!!

My heart is with you. As a guy, I want to help you solve life, as a person I realize this is venting to help heal. What I love is your access to sunlight , creativity and support animals. Keep hacking your way to happiness. Life isn’t supposed to have a 100% access to happiness. Acknowledge your feelings and say this is an interesting emotion, why do I think this has manifested? I love living in my head but realized. I need others to ground my thoughts. Love your videos. Reach out and say hi, I’m frustrated… it works when you have a good network. I have also have a sleep anxiety KZfaq video that helps me sleep at times. It quiets the brain and I wake more rested and happy.

Rachel this looks incredible! I am in awe about the sunrise and the space you created to watch it. And you sound healthy talking about your new philosophy-building around you and your animals. That sounds like a real good plan. Self-fucking-care ;) Also I kinda noticed that it’s so much easier to create a cozy, beautiful, clean and taken care of place when you limit the space. When you fence it out and don’t have endless overwhelming nature to take care of. You took a really good step in the right direction! I love seeing you like that and I especially love seeing that you were seeking help instead of repeating the same destructive pattern.. I am proud of you for that and I hope you are too. Sending much love your way xx alina

Babe. This is us growing as a human. We have our ups and downs. It’s called being human. I have gone thru a huge transformation the past year as well. It’s hard. I lost friends and gained new ones. But I feel they are all blessings. People come in and out of our lives for a reason. Life can be difficult AF. I hate it but it’s good (that’s what I’m telling myself at least). Let’s go and live life to the fullest.

Hello - I just wanted to write to you today. I've been watching your videos for a long time and it's always a pleasure to see you. I just wanted to tell you that you are everything that, looking back, I would have wanted to be when I was younger and that I hear from you that you already know some things that I didn't understand until much later in life. I wish you lots of luck and lots of love. ❤

I hope this message finds you well and that you receive it with the kindness it's intended. Dealing with depression and anxiety can profoundly affect not only the individual but also those around them. It’s important to recognize the impact on others, and I hope that those affected are on a path to healing. As someone who has both experienced and witnessed the effects of these struggles, I understand the importance of empathy for all involved. Rachel, as you continue to heal, I encourage you to consider reaching out and apologizing to those who may have been impacted by your struggles. A simple apology can make a significant difference.

Love you and witnessing your journey. I love that you choose to build as a way to heal what you are going through. Growing up, I watched my dad work on our house and create a home full of love and warmth. Even though he was always tired, he always seems so satisfied with putting in the work. When I talk to him about my depression and anxiety, he reminds me that it is a part of life that will always kind of be there but we have the power to choose what direction we wanna move towards. I am also coming out of a creative rut where I feel motivated and hopeful but still constantly feel discouraged or behind. It is all just a part of the process.

I think everything you do is beautiful!! You definitely don’t give yourself enough credit!

As a follower and supporter I think you can't do anything wrong. I look forward to your videos and I think about you when you're not posting. The process is everything. DIY or teaching me things or styling a room is all good, but sharing your grief and breakups is all a part of the larger process. We're humans and the deadlines are just stuff in between the real story of your life. Gemini season is coming ❤️

I hope you realize how relatable you are and how empowering you are by speaking about your struggles alongside your wins. People just don’t talk about where they’re at mental health-wise and it makes me feel not so alone in the fact that I do the exact same thing with projects. I get so excited to start a project, dive right in and something doesn’t go right and I just sit on it for days, months, even years because I let it get the best of me. Thank you for being honest, open and real. Sending all the good vibes.

Bringing the Magic to the Land!

Every journey begins with the first step...great job in gettin' steppin'!

Rachel thanks for putting this content together. You have been very helpful and inspirational giving me ideas for my Borrego Springs desert retreat property over the years. Always excited when I see a new show. THANK YOU!!!

Welcome back Rachel. You're an amazing inspiration. Be gentle to yourself.

Your outdoor space feels so inviting!

I love my new little spot 🥹🥹🥹 I can’t wait to sit in the warmth and read a good book next to you and all of the animals 💝 love you so much

I so happy to see you feeling better. Cheers from Brazil 🇧🇷

I love the updates in your home Rachel! I’m always here to support you girl! Kisses from Canada 😘❤️

Oh my gosh! I've missed a few vids and just lookey here! How stunning is everything looking Rache! So super proud of you, you seem more intentional and collected, big fan! oxo

Love you Rach….glad to see your face again 😊. I hope after some time and self-growth/evolution, you’re able to rekindle those lost friendships 🫶🏾

I feel like no one articulates anxiety and depression like you do. The depressive episodes not showing up for yourself or the people in your life. It’s all too close to home. I’m sober now and drowning out these feelings is so damn hard. There are good days that I am so grateful for and feel to my core after so many bad. There is always hope and you help remind me of that. The sun will rise and we will try again. Thank you for all you do and the love and hope you give.

Everything looks beautiful. Love the tree bench.

I am in awe of you! I love your sanctuary area. is superb! I am surprised what you do with what you have and it turns out great! Your place, land looks awesome!

I live in Seattle, and we have minimal wind here - which is good because I HATE working in the wind. also, I try to schedule projects so that I'm not working outside in the rain. As far as philosophy... I get up and think: I'm going to do one productive thing today. Doesn't matter what project, just moving something forward. and, as I think you said... as I start, I get the energy to then also work on other things. so, yes, that seems to be a thing that happens with us humans.

I LOVE IT ❤ compassion goes a long way, remember to show yourself that too. You're doing great. Keep moving forward and growing and being you ❤

I HAVE REALLY MISSED YOUR VIDEOS. I'm so glad you are heading in a new direction. I think having animals takes you outside of yourself as you know you must nurture them. They are dependent on you for their survival. That's mothering. It makes you responsible for your animal family as they love you back unconditionally. That is a winning recipe for happiness and contentment. Your place is so beautiful, and we can tell you have pride in your place. It looks like a woman lives there because it is warm and inviting. I like the rustic fence and the color. Great accomplishment.

Just commenting for the support. Love that youre posting again!! ❤

Love all the mini projects! When I get easily overwhelmed with too many big to-do’s, I will lovingly say to myself” Keep it simple, stupid!” I end up feeling much more successful and at ease. Also, love the rustic look of your property! It looks great and I see where you’re going with it. The fence is such a game changer!

Hiiii Rachel! You are so beautiful, you are so enough, bright, loving witch. I feel you, im dealing with similar things and have so much appreciation for how you are able to take cake of yourself and so many of your other family members, also counting the squirrels and bunnies . Love you, appreciate you woman😍✨

I loved this video so much, I so understand your stuggles dude. So happy to see you back! I can see the art reawakening in your projects. :)

So so much of what you said within the first six minutes hit me so hard, and especially how grief can eat up your confidence without you even noticing

Proud of u! It’s super hard to redirect yourself from old habits, you are doing amazing! Your home reflects all your efforts and lessons! Don’t quite it’s such a beautiful place!

I swear Rachel, every time I think about you for even just a min, as in "its been awhile, wonder when we'll see another video." I get the notification!! 😄 My intuition is working!! Love what you're doing, looks great! Beautiful!! Looks like you have a new tiny friend.🤗🐿️

that little desert mouse is so cute!!!!

I'm obsessed with your new little ground squirrel friend!

Reusing all that you can and blending in the desert with that, in my opinion, is the coolest way to design your spaces. Well done Rachel, your creativity is inspiring! And nothing wrong with starting over and cleaning the canvas again. Reinvent yourself as many times as you need or want to. Thank you for your raw humanness, it’s so uplifting to watch. 🫶🏼✨

Great to have you back 👏👏👏👏

Girl, you are badass with your tools! You have done so much to your property and most of the changes you have done alone! I am proud of you! Love Lous wagging tail and love to hear you laugh! ❤

You have your forever friends and support through KZfaq!! Even though we only know you virtually we are all rooting for you!! I absolutely love your videos. Your style and creativity inspires me every time and I wish I could create something like you have! Everything is meant to be for a reason but your land and space are looking so freaking amazing!!🤩🤩

I love the tree bench!

Welcome back! We missed ya!

Rachel Girl- you are on it at your pace. Congrats on starting to wake up and see some light. I’m w you. I’m 60 tomorrow but plan to create and kick ass til I’m 90. I take strength from you- thank you. I’ll send it back your way . Katie in VT

I don’t mind the elapses in time between video releases. I’d rather wait until you feel good enough to share yourself with us. Keep building up your cute lil life!

i looooove all of your videos sad or not sad, im heere for all of it!

You are a unique & priceless person

Loving the sitting area and the new fence!!!! You go girl! Fighting depression is terrible but know you are not alone! Hugs!

I have the same problem and it’s not easy. Depression and anxiety suck. It’s good to see you fighting back. It’s for you honey all for you. Will be here when you post again 🌺💜🌸

Really happy to see you.. keep up the good work. Go girl you got this. 😊

Every time I watch your videos I cry, and yet I watch every upload 😅 I lost my silver lab around the same time you lost Cali. (seeing blaze happy and healthy and so so similar to my boy gets me every time) Our healing journeys are so similar, and I swear it could be me on the other side of the camera sharing the exact same struggles of the passed year. Heres to diving further into grace for ourselves and getting the chapter where the main character finally starts to turn it around

I am feeling chaotic and unhinged. And I needed your openness about your struggles to feel like I'm not alone.

Hello babe! So glad to see you 😂 I was looking for you in all your social media yesterday! Thinking of you and praying 🙏🏽 you are doing great 😊

THIS CHANNEL IS BACK ! Love how everything is coming together.....Miss you Rachel!! 🐖🐕❤🐿

Love what you had created in your place❤❤

Rachel you are so freaking real that honestly it makes me love you and your video creations more and more, I am kinda tired of the perfect fake life videos on YT. Thanks for sharing with us all what life can be, ups and lows and the rebirthing and blossoming that can happen after we embrace our dark nights of the soul! Sending you tons of love from Colorado! ❤

I always love your work and videos even when you don’t or they don’t go the way you envisioned. I appreciate observing you and others, rebuilding and always creating, that is true life. It is frustrating for sure when projects don’t work, but your videos help that process, keep creating! Your property is really blooming and looking amazing!! 🙌👏

“Don’t take a nap on the couch!” at 2:40 is a direct order to me lol. Yes ma’am

I've missed you! Welcome back

Enjoy when i watch your place😌.Send big ❤ from 🇧🇦

Critters & sunsets 👌🏼♥️

So great to see you again Rachel. Hugs!

Missed you! Excited to see the content you share❤

Your place is looking great. I gwt overwhelmed with projects to ans have to motivate myself again. I have loved everything you have done even the mistakes

Yay good to have you back! Love the landscaping progress

I love you Rachel. Many blessings and I'm so proud of you!❣️

What a paradise 😍😍😍 I love everything

I love it! You can really feel your joy and happiness through the screen

Gardening kept me going during the pandemic and I'm so excited to get back into it !! ❤ Love your approach to reusing things ! Very inspired

You did such an amazing job Rachel; it looks so beautiful and looks like paradise!!!! I truly love the way u decorate and reuse everything, it's so inspirational!!! ❤

Hi Rachel, you now have some really wild, fun spaces for humans & animals to enjoy. I'm always inspired by what you create😊

Dear Rachel, I’ve missed you! Im delighted you are back! Your creativity is overflowing and wonderful. Xox, Bonnie

Yes Rachel! Slow and steady wins the race always. I love what you're doing with your outdoor area, it's coming together real nice and looks very inviting to just unwind and relax. I know the trailer is a big project and nagging on your mental health, but I have to say, that that trailer bathroom is still one of my favourite projects you've done! I just think it that the tile with the woodceiling and reclaimed wood all over looks stunning! Also the door with the stained glass detail is insanely beautiful. I started to build myself doors last weekend and they're turning so so good! Women like you inspire me to just tackle a project even though I've never done it before just figuring it out along the way. So thank you for showing up and keep on doing what you're doing, even though it's hard sometimes.

That photo frame!!!!!!!!!

I'm glad that you're feeling better ❤i'm glad you're feeling yourself back and regaining your confidence❤ the outdoors looks stunning, looooved the tree nook seat area just lovely 😍😍

Always thrilled to see you, no matter how long its been.

Happy to see your back. Take care of yourself and stay strong.

I am always so inspired by you ❤

Rachel, it would be soooo pretty if you could put marbles or colored glass pieces in all of the holes in the fence planks. The sun shining through will cast colorful rainbows everywhere ❤️ Btw, did you cement the fence posts in with quickcrete?