The fact that you have 71.7k followers after all this time of being gone goes to show just how amazing of a human you are 🥰

This entire experience has been harder for some of us. I am so sorry at the loss of your grandmother 💔 carry on girl - we are all interested in your journey😊

Taking the time to grieve is so important and sometimes, I feel, undervalued these days. Sounds like your grandma had a lovely, long life with family who truly cared for her. Thank you for sharing some of her story with us over the years. 💜

Lauren, I’ve watched you for years. You’re a good person and quite relatable. I’m terribly sorry for your deep loss. Just know so many of us watch and appreciate you sharing your life with us. ❤

Hi Lauren, so very sorry for your loss 🙏 bless you for being so honest in your vlog , I just wish you peace ,you are a wonderful person it comes across in your vlog,you actually chill me out , everyone is fighting there own battle ,mine is my beautiful son who has autism,and there's nothing wrong with feeling down it's just people don't talk about it , sending you big hugs 😘😘

Thank you for being so real. It’s so endearing. I feel like we’re all just walking down the road trying to feel better ❤ I struggle with the self love/exercise too, I don’t get why it’s so hard to do something that makes you feel better? But yeah, nice to know we’re all feeling a lot of the same things 😊 Covid was rough and no one talks about it, sorry about your nan Lauren xx

Hard relate. This year I lost my step-dad and my uncle within a month, got covid (after 3 vax) and then got diagnosed with anxiety and depression. It’s been a summer of intense therapy and getting myself back into my life. Slowly. I hope you found a way through everything. ❤

Sorry for your loss Lauren. My dad passed away at the start of 2021 and it was honestly the most horrendous year I can ever re call. I hope that 2022 has been kinder to you.💛

As a nhs ward manager and a nurse , I feel like I have missed out, as I have worked throughout Covid . I would have loved to stay at home for a time.😔 Great to see your vlog pop up again in my feed! Sending love and light! ❤

I'm so sorry you lost your Grandma. I cried into my breakfast whilst you were talking about grief; it hit hard. I thought I was the only one who was still reflecting on life post-pandemic and finding it hard to acclimatize. Thank you for your honesty. x

I just want to give you the biggest hug ever Lauren xxx

What a way to go out for your grandma! Harder for the living left behind as you don't have a time to accept and adjust to the idea of a loved one passing, but so amazing that she lived a full life the whole time. Not to belittle your sadness at all, as it's just really difficult and sad. Lots of love to you, Lauren

So nice to see your videos pop up on my feed again! I’m so sorry for the loss of your grandma.

Oh honey, I'm so very sorry about losing your Grandma and that it has been such a shit year. :( It's a gorgeous autumn day here in Central Pennsylvania (U.S.) and I'm just enjoying because winter will be here soon enough. I'm actually pretty okay today - thank you for asking! It is really just lovely to see your face again. Know absolute freakin' strangers (i.e., like me) think you're amazing and miss your voice when you're not up to posting. Take care of you!!

Oh my love.. I am so sorry about your Grandma 😭.❤Just so you know we will take whatever you give us. I have truly enjoyed watching your videos these past years! Even if you never post again… you will always have me as fan 🍑

Can't tell you how happy I am to see you pop up on KZfaq again!!!

So, so sorry for your loss Lauren ❤ Been following you since 2016 and won't ever unsubscribe, how ever often or unoften you post! Lots of love x

Wow! I’m so sorry about your Grandma. Obviously still very raw for you. Losing someone you love completely sucks. Time is the only thing that helps.

Lauren, it was so nice to see your face after a crap day you brought a smile to my face. I’m am so sorry about your grandma. Xx

Just saying Hi... I've been watching your last 3/4 episodes over the last couple of weeks and I just wanted you to know how nice it is to see you posting again. Whatever the content, I enjoy the time spent in your company :) Thank you 🙂

Hi Lauren, sitting here welling up at you talking about your beloved Grandma. My Gran died just in August in almost identical circumstances. I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you are doing well and I love seeing your videos again ♥️

So sorry for you loss friend, she will be watching over you from the stars ❤❤ Can’t tell you how happy my heart is to see your face again you have been missed ❤❤❤

Never left you Lauren! 🥰 Miss you so much! I just told my husband that it feels like Christmas because we got two Lauren videos this month!!! Also, you said your hair is like your shield, and I recently chopped mine! It's like a new lease on life! I was definitely using mine as the same! SO happy to see you again!!! 🎉

So happy you popped up again hun so sorry for your loss xx

We recently (2 months ago tomorrow) lost my bf’s sister and it was a complete shock. She was under 60 so it has been tough. Thank you for sharing your story and so sorry for your loss. ❤️

Yaye. Loved seeing you back again. Thank you for being so raw and open with us all takes so much courage to put yourself out there like that!

It was so lovely to see your face again! I’m so sorry for your loss x

Hi Lauren. So good to see you again. So sorry for your loss. I relate to so much of what you are going through with grief, anxiety, doubt. Trying to focus on the little joys! No one can take away the sunset. The birds are still chirping. The coffee is still coffee :)

Your plants are lovely Lauren.Your videos help me alot, I love your honesty and humour. Thanks for another video, sending healing wishes.Take care both of you x

So good to see you! You're one of my favorite people to watch because I can relate to so much. Yay! I'm sorry about your grandma, I lost my grandma this year too. :( Much love 💕

You have been missed, Lauren. It’s great catching up with this old footage. I’m so sorry for what you’ve gone through with the loss of your grandma, the anxiety and Covid. I hope you know how loved you are. ❤

Hey Lauren!!! and Lauren!!!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hiya Lauren, I had to watch in two parts this week it's been a busy one! I'm so sorry for your loss, sending you all the hugs in the world. 2021 was a difficult year to process wasn't it. It's nice to see you back on here and please say hi to Lauren too. I look forward to the next installment whenever that is. Keep smiling 🥰 xx

So sorry for your loss Lauren, I was taking sertraline and was on 100mg and it didn’t agree with me and I felt weird so I came Off it and now I am trying CBD and doing more exercise and just trying the look after my mental health but it’s hard isn’t it? Enjoying your Channel take care x

I'm happy you're back! I've been with your channel at least six or seven years now. I'm so sorry for the loss of your grandmother 💖 condolences.

Its so lovely to catch up on the past year with you. Thank you for coming back. We all appreciate you xx

Thank you for watching 😍 If you’d like to tip me and support the running of my channel you can buy me a coffee: www.ko-fi.com/liveitlikelauren

So glad you shared all of this. ♡ I appreciate you!!!! And have missed you ♡

Hey! Good to see you back. X

Yeah Laurens back so lovely to see you ❤️❤️

It's just so lovely to have you back Lauren xxx

Hi - 2021 was terrible for me too ❤ You are awesome. Thank you for being you .

I've seen your place a 1000 times, but it's just so lovely...just wanted to say....you've made it so cosy!! Sitting there in your bobble eating your plant based "moist" sandwich 🤣🥪

Loving seeing your videos again! Been watching your channel for years, feels like catching up with a friend 🥰. So sorry to hear you lost your grandma. Never easy to lose someone but seems worse when they're suddenly taken. Huge hugs. Have to agree, I liked lockdown, felt like life paused & I could breathe for a bit. Now it's back to normal I'm feeling overwhelmed again. X

Thanks for coming back Lauren, hope we see a lot more of you. Love from oz.xx

Hi Lauren, so sorry you lost your grandma, sending you a massive cuddle. I have been saying that I am not myself because going through menopause. But like you said this is me. COVID is and was a major thing in all of our lives, I like you quite liked it, although I still worked as work in a residential home. You are amazing Lauren, love watching your videos, so sorry that you are feeling like this. xxxx

Good to see you back, you have been missed. Condolences on the passing of your gran, I’m sure she was super proud of you ❤

Hi Lauren!! So sorry for your loss of your beloved Grandma, 95 what a great age and you are right you were very lucky to have her in your life. She will live on in your heart. Lovely to see you again thanks for being real. We all struggle from time to time. Remember that we all love you. Ps can't believe you have your Christmas Tree up already!! 😃🥰 xxx

Hi 👋🏻 My condolences on loosing your grandma. This has been a hard year for all of us. Living in a foreign country, everyone and everything I care about is too far. It still feels like I’m in lockdown. It’s so nice seeing you again. All the best, Wafa ❤❤❤

Perpetuate, notion and fallacy!! Biggest words I've heard since lockdown. So pleased to see you back in my notifications. 💖 Very sorry to hear about your Nanna. Big hugs Hx

I’m so sorry about your grandmother. She’s dancing with the angels now and having a blast I bet. At least that’s how I have to picture the people I’ve lost in order to cope with missing them. You make me want to move to England and be friends with the Laurens lol. Hope you consider making a December vlogmas this year 🤞😘

I love to watching you so much Lauren. Happy to have you back on you tube. To loose a loved one is hard. Don 't ever think you're not good enough, because you are a lovely woman. The fact that you are real makes me want to watch your videos 😘

Loved seeing your realness as usual! No pressure but I would love to see more videos. Be well!!

Aww Lauren, the past two years have been awful, I can totally empathise with you. I used to be out walking every day but that stopped for me in 2020, I rarely leave the house now alone. You speak with such wisdom to us, as you explore your observations, thoughts & feelings I do hope you listen to yourself & perhaps learn to love yourself a little more. I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your Grandma, you clearly loved her very much & I hope the pain & rawness of grief lessens with time and your memories bring comfort. xxx

It warms my heart to see you Lauren. I had covid in August and my taste and smell are still not fully back. I can relate to what you are saying and I hope you know that you are amazing, even if you don't feel like it.

So lovely to see you back Lauren, we have all gone through something tough these past few years but I’m so glad to see you here again. I got a puppy in April this year called Tonka, she’s an English bull terrier and full of beans 😂 so excited to see what the rest of this year bring for everyone 💗💕

Sending you heart felt love, you are beautiful inside and out, please be kind to yourself, grief is a process and one never gets over it, in time we learn to manage our emotions.

I mix cinnamon and sugar together.. toast bread n add butter and sprinkle the mixture on top.

I am so sorry you loss your Grandma . She is your Angel 😇 . 💕

Lauren, I want you to know that being okay with where you are is momentary. Things change by the minute, the fact that you even post on youtube is an accomplishment. I love your vlogs so much. I am so sorry about your Grandma. I am a Grandma, and I love my connection to my grandchildren as I am sure your Grandma felt for you. I know she did. Much love always to you always. You are a star and you will always be a star girl!

Oh good I’m glad I’m already following you on Instagram! Things are pretty good here. Just got a new kitten. She’s adorable but also a crazy little wild child lol. I’m just imagining you saying “kitten” I’m your accent that I love so much lol. It made me so happy to see you’re back!

Hello, I hope you and your mum are well. I'm so sorry to hear about your grandma passing. It's is so nice to see your vlog. Take care.

Hello 👋🏼 This is the first video of yours I’m watching all the way in New Zealand! I love you already 😊 I’m 25 and live alone. My Dad suddenly died this year on 23rd August and I haven’t been right since. This is the loneliest and saddest I’ve ever felt, so my heart broke for you when you spoke about your Grandma. Your words gave me so much comfort (especially about being enough where we are in life right now, even if we feel we’re failing and behind compared to everyone else) so thank you 🙏🏼 I doubt you’ll ever see this comment but I’m very glad and feel comforted that I’ve found your channel 🩷

Lovely to see you on here again lauren, I am on 100mg of sertraline and I feel like it's not working anymore, iv been on it a few years now, I dont know why I feel down, partly its because I'm overweight and I feel really crap about myself. I feel like it's affecting my health, getting breathless etc. The world kind of feels like its all gone to shit! But it's lovely to see you on here! I also loved lockdown 😊

So happy you are back !! Such a lovely lady you are x

I´m so sorry your grandmother died. I know exactly how you feel, my grandmother died in September 2020. It was not that sudden, but i was very sad. Great to see you posting videos again 🤍🤍🤍

So sorry for your loss Lauren❤ 🇨🇦

Hi Lauren, so lovely to have you back! Totally get the grief, I lost my baby this year at 6 weeks old - THE worst pain ever. I’m working on myself every day to try get back to “normal” (whatever that is these days). Grief changes you. Look after yourself x

I really feel your pain in this video chic….in the space of 18 months i lost my step dad of 20yrs to cancer….my dad, my mum who it was just their time i guess and my best friend from school to suicide…..how i made it through 2022 I’ll never know….but here i am…stay strong girl and always think of the happy times which will ultimately make you smile and even laugh sometimes….i’m now sat here remembering how much my mum made me laugh and that brings a huge smile to my face xx

So sorry for your loss. xx It's lovely seeing a new video. I hope this coming Christmas is better for you. Bring on an even wonkier tree. 🤣🎄

Oh sweet baby girl…i’m so sorry for your loss😢😢Xoxo. I’m glad you’re back. Love your videos❤

My Daughter lost her Grandma on her Dads side last year. My Daughter was 29 and her Gran was 96, she was heartbroken. I'm so sorry for your loss Lauren. Its so lovely to see you and thank you for sharing. XX

I've paused the video ... sending hugs to you Lauren. ❤️

It’s great to see you and hear your voice , glad I’m locked into insta 😂

💞Sending you much love Lauren, so sorry to hear about your Grandma 😞 I lost my Mum 4 weeks ago, as the world carries on as usual, ours stop. Grief is a strange one! I’ve been so ill 🤧 this week, it’s like my body and brain 🧠 said Nope! We not doing this any more and I’ve been unable to get out of bed. I’ve been watching your channel more or less since you started, all them years ago 😂 what a journey! and You have given me great comfort and joy throughout, no more so than now! And you are right we need to be okay with where we are now 😊 You’re doing an amazing job! 🎉 much love 🥰

what you said about the bananas is spot on!

I am just at the beginning of the video… Here in Greece we NEVER NEVER get clearance prices this low. Only Lidl does this but only 30% off. It makes me sad because nowadays everything’s so expensive!

Hon first off , my condolences to you and yours ❤❤❤. 94 ??? She had a good run 😳😳😳. I'm learning that self love is not only reflected in mindset but also in action as well and from what I see , you seem very intentional in the actions your taking with your body and your health ( both mentally and physically ) . So applaud yourself for the little things , because its the day to day choices that build really great habits and I'm sure you're doing way better than you think you are . Anyway , great vid and I look forward to the next update . Airhug from the U.S. 😳

Hi Lauren, it's absolutely to see an update from you. Sorry you lost your grandma. C xxx

i very recently lost my grandpa , i knw what ur goin thru ,its tough but u will get thru it ,iv said it before and il say it again ur a lovely woman and i wish u all the best

still here following years later x sorry for your loss but lovely to see your face

71.000 people think you are good enough 🤗

I love it the fact we are locked into your account now....I think we've all missed that smile and lovely laughter...xx

I expected an EastEnders doof doof then with that sudden ending 🤣 Seriously loved having your company for a while this evening as I have some family life happening and you are proper cheering me up 🤗 xx

I'm so sorry for your loss 🖤 Sertraline made me suicidal, it was the worst antidepressant/anti-anxiety med I've tried. I've now been on mirtazapine for 2 years and I'm so glad to have my life back. I hope you find one that works for you 🖤

Sorry for your loss babe ❤ but not it’s great to hear and see you.

I was periodically looking every month or so to see if you had posted and I'm glad you now have. The Bananas, you should pick off two ripe ones from a bunch and two green ones from another. Don't freak out about filming yourself I'm glad your back. Sorry about your granny ☹️❤️

Aww, Lauren, so sad for your loss. Life is so hard at times, losing our loved ones is so difficult. Grief is strange , I lost my son and its strange I still think he is around somewhere, is that a coping mechanism ? He was murdered. I hope he is around and ok. No one talks to me about him apart from my other 2 sons and partner . Do they think they will upset me, they wouldnt as I would be happy they remembered him. You are amazing to listen to , TC x

Just remember you are loved, you are worthy, you matter. xx

Oh and you two crack me up, I laughed out loud!

Oh Lauren, I'm so sorry about the loss of your grandma. Death/grief is a very complex process. Everyone processes it differently. I don't have all the answers but being someone that just lost an extremely close loved one a few weeks ago in a sunnden & tragic way nothing can prepare you. I can say 1) give yourself time, just because others may say you should be farther along the grieving process doesn't mean it's right 2) allow yourself to get lost in the abundance of lovely happy memories 3) its OK to have a "bad" day, embrace the sorrow, this just proves how much you cared for them 4) never stop talking about them 5) on what would have been special occasions find ways to pay respect/honor them & their memory 6) most importantly don't apologize. There is a saying I heard some yrs ago, everyone loves in their own way. So why wouldn't/shouldn't we apply that to grief? On a lighter note glad to see your encouraging face again!! Don't worry I know I'm not the only one who can relate to not being where I want to be or where I thought I was going to be. Grief does throw a monkey wrench into routines. You got this, sending lots love your way!!

Hi Lauren, just want to say that l love your chats..only found you a few weeks ago..so have a lot of catching up to do..👍💕

Rice cakes with chocolate for me!!😋

Hey! I'm a new-ish follower and so I'm watching lots of your older videos - absolutely love them, and got a giggle watching this one - when you opened your squeaky drawer it woke my dog up from her deep slumber 😂 conclusive proof it is a horrible sound...

You are so much like me girl its crazy!!! I feel like you are my friend. Went you said I did my brows tonight what a waste reminded me when I went on a date with a guy that failed I was like what a waste of good makeup LOL haha. Girl I take Sertraline too. It helps me alot. I am sorry about your grandma. May my eyes water when you shared your story. I lost my dad so understand grief.

Ps your studio looks so cosy

Stopped at 11mins in to send love to you ❤️ (I watched your shopping haul on double speed)x

Great to see you again, properly. Come back… we miss you x

Leonard!!! I remembered the chicken’s name!! Actually I’ve been your follower pretty much from the beginning. I was on a weight loss journey and watched your videos from my strider. I need to get back on that thing…… haha Oxox

Lovely to see you back. So sorry about your grandma x