Diagnosed bipolar 1 disorder and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). Currently hypomania after trigger (losing close friend).
In this video, I tell you just some of the many links in associations my brain has made in just one day during hypomania. When I am manic, my mind believes in it more. I am on meds to help me sleep and to try prevent me from becoming fully manic (dangerous because of impaired judgement, vulnerability, reckless behaviour and the massive crash that follows ('breakdown').
I see meaningful coincidences/synchronicity/apophenia in everything but it ramps up to the extreme when my mood is elevated (with mind going very fast with ideas and links). I incorporate them into creative processes including processing past trauma and writing a novel and painting symbolic abstracts.
In hypomania, everything feels 'magical' like a young child. In mania, I believe that the magic is 'real' and it can soon turn terrifying (trauma surfaces in metaphor - monsters).