Depression isn't being sad Its feeling nothing at all

Do u guys feel the feeling of not being "smart" as u used to be?

I wonder what life is like without depression.

I hate it when people say “I’m proud of you.” It doesn’t help it just makes me feel guilty because I haven’t done anything for anyone to be proud of.

Depression is like being numb, or in some cases so sad u don’t know what to do with yourself. It’s like being colorblind and being told how colorful the world is.

I genuinely get so angry when ppl fake diagnose themselves with depression, it is so insensitive to ppl who actually go through it

If no one's told you they love you today, I love you.

What is this "love and support from family and friends" you speak of?

The desire to be nothing vs. fearing the level of pain I’d put my parents through. I don’t want to pass my pain onto them. I just don’t want to he here anymore and I wish I never existed, or instead I wish I was a tree or something with no conscience thought. The human experience is a hard one and I send my love to those of you who understand this video firsthand. You are not alone.

I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder, anxiety disorder (with panic attacks-which are REAL) which includes social anxiety as well. I am so happy that I FINALLY have a diagnosis! I am 50 and can remember being depressed around 11 years old. I finally started getting help around age 23. It has been a roller coaster the whole time. I have tried to commit suicide twice and was SO MAD when I realized it didn’t work and I was STILL stuck here! It’s a struggle every single day. I am trying, but I don’t know.

Some people just.. don't understand Do you ever have that feeling where everyone is against you? Same here!

I can’t even concentrate watching this

As a sufferer of MMD, I always feel like this... Every night, I will end up sleeping for 2am. Then waking up every morning not to do anything. You always want to do something, but I don't have motivation. People will always thought of me as a useless individual. I tried to do my hobbies but none of them works as I lose my interest little by little. I don't eat normally too.

bruh my psychiatrist asked something along the lines “why are you depressed” or “what caused your depression” and i literally was like ????????????????????? i couldnt think and now i second guess myself

"it's all in your head" actually i keep my depression in my left elbow

Some memories of depression that stick out: One time my mum was putting me to sleep when I said, 'Mum..' and she asked, what is it? But then I chickened out and didn't say anything A year later, I grew so sick and tired of living this way that I told my mum that I had depression and she laughed and called me ridiculous. When I begged her to please understand and please help me, she yelled at me and told me that I was being ridiculous. I cried for so long that night. My first ever breakdown was a week ago. I woke up and felt tired and annoyed. I went to the kitchen and took some bowls out, and while I was grabbing the milk out of the fridge. i dropped a bowl and it shattered everywhere. i was soo tired that I just called for my mum and with cuts on my feet I went to the table. I poured the milk before splashing it all over the table. I was really pissed but as I said, I was so so tired. I sloppily mopped it up before I knocked over the cereal box and cereal spilt everywhere. I hunched over and started breaking down. I was sobbing and crying and I just kept on wishing that it would go away, that my depression would go away, and that I just could be happy one more time

Just a disclaimer to the people in the comments please dont use people's depression as a excuse to spread your religion.

I suffered from depression in my senior year of high school. I lost around 15kgs in a year and had 8 out of the 9 symptoms. It was terrible. But then I started doing yoga along with meditation which significantly improved my mood and also increased my appetite and I recovered. If any of you is suffering from depression I highly recommend yoga or any other physical activities. It really worked for me and I'm very thankful.

The worst thing was that there is no treatment for children with depression because they only think about teens and I had depression when I was a kid 😭😔

"You have a big heart that you give others. Save some for yourself." People will come and go. Love yourself. Stick around to find your moments of happiness.

i just wanted to share my victory with everyone real quick. This, right now, is the first time in a year that i have felt genuinely happy. I go to therapy and its been a constant battle and i dont know if ill be happy tomorrow, but ill take this as a small win :)

Now I'm 120% sure that I have major depressive disorder. Yay.

i've been diagnosed with mdd and also social & general anxiety.. it all sucks :( wish i didn't have to live like this anymore

I’m pretty sure I’ve had Major Depressive symptoms since I was 11. I’m 15 now and I’ve finally told my doctor.

I moved to this new city.. a big city with lots of noise and polluted air.. the skies are always grey and depressing.. it’s not an environment I want to live in.. but since I’m only 13 and my mom can’t do anything about it.. I’m stuck. I’m getting horrible grades at school and I’m worried that I’ll restart my year.. and this made me really depressed.. I felt hopeless.. ashamed..worthless and overall, sad. I felt like crying sometimes when I would sit in my bus because I didn’t want to go to school.. things just got worse and worse and I just got sadder and sadder everyday.. I told my mom I wansn’t okay.. she wanted to help me but eventually didn’t because she thought I was just having puberty or something.. I believed her but I eventually didn’t anymore.. I didn’t feel like that was normal to feel like that when everyone was so happy and actually enjoying life.. I had no friends, no good grades, no help, I eventually wanted to die.. I felt like I didn’t deserve to live like this, to suffer like this.. until eventually.. I don’t feel anything anymore.. I didnt see a purpose in anything so never even tried anything, I didn’t care about anything anymore.. I felt.. empty, I had literally no emotions,no thoughts, I was just a mindless zombie going through all of this without realizing.. my mom noticed this change in my behaviour and asked if I was okay.. I just said I was fine.. now school is almost over.. I’m still really empty.. and I just hope things will get better.

Y’all ever feel like you’ll never be able to provide and do good at any thing so you don’t think you’ll really be alive long enough to get there?

Depression isn’t feeling “sad”, it’s feeling NOTHING AT ALL AND BEING NUMB TO ANY AND EVERYTHING!

its been fifteen years since I was diagnosed. some days I get by almost normally, but other days, like for the past two weeks, my brain has turned on me and I can't remember what to do to get out of the spiral. I can feel it getting worse day by day. Medication only works in the short term and should be used as a last resort. Absolutely saved my life multiple times, but its like breaking your leg and needing crutches, after a few months, you need to stop using them or they will begin to work against you. This reminded me, exercise, try to talk to others, remember to eat, don't let it destroy you

Not matter what I do, no matter what I say to I can’t be happy. Whenever I tell myself “I am happy!” All I do is cry after because I know how much of a lie it is. At this point I really don’t know how to fix this.

I need to talk to someone, I don’t feel well

I don’t have depression but a lot of ppl say they are depressed so I came here to understand what it is and now I know that it is something very serious and I understand much better

Depression is like screaming out your needs for help and no one can hear it, not even yourself. So it's often empty as hell. We often can't even realise why.

My mom told me I need to go to a doctor and take medication because she sees the change in me. I often have mood swings as well and I been battling depression for years.

Depression can be explained like this. You cut your finger a lot while cooking, so much in fact that you don’t really seem to notice when you do it, like a habit at this point. Depression is feeling physical and mental pain so much that they don’t care anymore. It’s like it became part of their daily routine, getting thrown around and yelled at.

At this point i’m forgetting what it was ever like to be happy

Im mentioning this because of the beginning scenario: As diagnosed with major depressive disorder, I can’t help but really enjoy and am fascinated with depressive movies, books, music, etc. Idk why. I like to think a lot. So I like to think deeply of these kinds of books and movies, look for hidden messages. Sometimes I can be triggered, but rarely am I. Some people don’t like sad books or movies. I tend to notice these are the very optimistic people, more happier, usually extroverts. They thrive on good feelings and happy thoughts/ideas. These kind of movies or books or music can drain them, and put them out of their comfort zone. I feel sad a lot, but I use these movies and books not to make myself feel even more sad, but to let myself think, contemplate. Honestly, books or movies with sadder endings are better quality in my opinion. Probably because I like a movie to have a more realistic ending, and in my life sadness has always been the more realistic end. I expect the worse. That’s who I am. I’m not saying that everyone is like this, happy people don’t like sad, and sad people like sadness. No, I’m not saying this. This is just from my personal experience in life and the people I know and who I am. Sorry for the rant, I just think a lot ;)

I feel like a prisoner, I would give anything, anything at all, just to be able to sincerely say "I'm free". Edit:the worst part about depression is how it makes you hate yourself, and believe that the problems in your life were caused by you, and that people would be better off if you werent around.

Hi, my name is kiera and ive been suffering from clinical depression since i was 11 years old. I was recently diagnosed about 2 months ago and im now gonna be taking medication. My depression gets so bad to the point where i cant sleep, eat, drink or even clean for weeks to months on end. My body is covered with scars and ive had so many bad habits with this disorder. I was put in a mental hospital last year in late may after taking 40 pills surviving from an overdose. I then started using alcohol and smoking to cope but i was caught and now i see a psychologist and a lot of therapy. Since i opened up and im getting the treatment i need I wish you all the best of luck, and it really does get better. Yes im still fighting but im so glad to be alive and whoevers reading this, i love you so much. Please keep fighting.

I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my KZfaq channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤

Had depression since I was 8 and the symptoms might have actually started showing up before then. I am starting to recover and will get some consoling soon, and next year, I will finally separate from the person responsible for why I haven't been able to cure it. I am 17 and will be 18 by then, meaning that I have had depression for almost 10 years now. Hopefully, I will be able to start living once college starts, since those holding me back won't be there anymore.

In my whole life, this is the lowest I’ve ever been... brain just keeps overthinking and I cannot sleep... just keep crying silently to myself... I spaz sometimes and randomly hit myself... sometimes feel so weak can barely move my body... people always say it will get better, but when that better does not come I guess that is the point when people end it

When it was hard for me to cope with life, my best friend told me that I was just being a victim and making excuses for not doing better.

The reason some people are depressed is that they see how their societies has become a sick place

I am really grateful to *mistress Celine* for helping me pass through depression , you are the best

Am a depression suffrer...evetybody dont know what mental pain is...as yrs went on wid my illness ...my family members say if i can eat..can drive ...wt u keep on saying..but wts inside d depression mind gng no one knows..my kids are away frm me ...my hubby got seprated..i miss my kids..the day i cant forget when my hubby was showing inconsistent attitude and i was becoming tensed ..in turn severe anxiety attack happnd and after few days i went into depression badly....wish everyone a sound mental health..

My family never treated me right in my entire life...

Once again, thank you. You guys are a great resource for students.

Hello, thank you for telling us this. I'm honestly, I have never had depression or anxiety. So I never experienced this. -From what you've telled in the video, It sounds really bad and I feel bad for the other people that did have that or have. Atypical depression, I think I've had In my life. I was sad all the time and sometimes I have got a huge appetite or just changed my mood to make the others comfortable.I have never taught of suicide. Everyone one time has a type of depression. You cannot be happy all the time. -We, the humans cannot end our lives. Cause we're not the person that gave birth to us and bring It pain nine months.(depends) I once asked my mom what Is depression and why people kill themselves. She just told me'Because they're weak and cannot pass an chapter from our lives'. I do not think that persons with depression are weak.I just think they're sad. Thank you for making this video, this clip Is a huge source of information.

Signs of depression (studied by more than 5 scientists.) 1.Suicidal thoughts (If you have this you should REALLY consider on talking to a therapist.) 2:Doing your hobbies more often/listening to music more often 3.Losing your intrests in playing with friends of what you usually do. 4.Changes lifestyles (example:sleeping more often) 5.Starting to do other things you rarely do like working out. 6.Losing stamina/energy. 7Seeing self image as a joke 8.A feeling of hopelessness.

My formal diagnosis of major depression is on its way via clinical & forensic psychologist ....I’m so happy 😁

Anyone reading this comment, you do matter, you are wonderful they just dont see it. Keep being yourself cause you are wonderful and beautiful. You dont have to change anything about yourself because youre perfect the way you are and i wouldnt wanna see you sad so smile❤

Plz help.. these days i cant sleep i just remember the past n people who hated or talked bad about me...sometimes i just strt crying i cant understand the reason for crying...

Thank you for you’re excellent presentation of the MCD. It has been quite helpful. Your drawings are very helpful too. Thank you 😊

Great timing during these days !!!! Marvellous yes - with 2 LL's

Very informative and explained in a way easily understood. Thank you from a psych student :)

Throughout high school I kept having Depressive Episodes which would last like 3 weeks, but I never expected to have MDD. I consider myself a cheerful person so I always thought I had concussions from sports even though I never hit my head. My parents didn’t believe in depression so I never went to the doctor until this last semester and that’s when I was diagnosed. I am on meds and have therapy. I am a senior now and I wish I would’ve known earlier on because my GPA is kind of low because I never got accommodations for MDD. :(

Basically just got diagnosed with this, and is now the reason I'm going to lose my job. Yay it sure helps the mood.

I have, clinical depression, severe repeating episodes of major depressive disorder without psychotic symptoms (I havent noticed any psychotic symptoms yet but I'm now 20 and now its starting to mature to it's full form), general anxiety disorder, panic disorder, and depersonalization and derelization disorder. I just got out of inpatient therapy for being suicidal and having a SEVERE panic attack, and now I'm feeling better than ever before. I may be on a lot SSRI's, mood stabilizers and anti psychotics, but it's like my entire life flipped upside down and I feel 'normal' again. What I'm trying to get at is that there is always light at the end of tunnel and never give up, you always have something to fight for even if you don't see it right now. If you have medication, never stop taking it. If you have a therapist, never stop going. To people who know someone who is majorly depressed/suicidal. If you know they have the means to commit suicide, and talk about suicide then DONT DO NOTHING AND DONT BE SCARED TO CALL FOR HELP IT MAY SAVE THEIR LIFE. Talk to them, talk to their parents, talk to ANYONE, do EVERYTHING in your power to get them to a safe place like partial hospitalization therapy in inpatient therapy. Without being pushed into inpatient therapy I would've committed suicide.

Thank you very much for this video.

I first tried to kill myself when I was seven..and people say kids don't get depression...

Very well explained, thank you!

Impressive illustration about depression. Thanks for sharing.

I meet all factors but a few, but for some reason smiling and laughing with “friends” comes so easy to me now. I have justified reasons to feel the way I do, but at the same time I don’t know what’s really wrong inside. substance use isn’t helping me anymore, it’s just more of a chore now. I don’t know what to do

Great video fam helped me alot although I don't have depression but I learned alot from this video

Since a kid I dreamed about going into the military working as a logistic technician. Researching all the branches to see what they have. Graduated from middle school enrolled in junior reserved officer training corps aka JROTC. Learned all basics of leadership and military structures. Moments after graduation enrolled in community college which I was almost successful; didn’t work out since I didn’t have the money to move onto the next semester. Tried to join the military but my parents didn’t want me to join. Applied to over 200 jobs, no call backs and 2 rejections. Now I sell drugs to the community which I am able to pay off rent and car notes etc.

Thank you for sharing this. It really helps me understand my issues

04:24AM, Philippines -- Just can't sleep anymore. This past few days its been really hard. Even in my own dreams, it is still sadness that is what I can vividly see through the pictures. I don't know what to do anymore. My body says, "fight..." but my mind says, "die". But yeah, I hope everyone whose shoe that is same as I am will get through one day. *_I love you guys_* . Hold on. We can do it.

2021 was the hardest, darkest time of my life. I was physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually BROKEN. But now I feel genuinely GRATEFUL and BLESSED that I had to go through that phase because GOD has graciously REVEALED Himself to me in miraculous ways. I am fortunate that He allowed me to know Him at a very young age, but this year is so much SPECIAL because of what WE (yes, GOD and me) have been through last year. He showed me how POWERFUL prayers truly are when I started to focus on WHO HE IS rather than who I am, on WHAT HE CAN DO rather than what I deserve. The experience was MAGICAL. He showed up BIG TIME and assured me that HE is indeed a LISTENING and RESPONDING GOD. Oh how my faith has skyrocketed as a result! Now more than ever, I have very bright HOPE for my future because I experienced first hand how RELIABLE God is. And for that I will forever be grateful. GLORY BE TO GOD, MY EVER FAITHFUL FATHER. ♥️♥️♥️ To everyone who's struggling right now, please know that GOD LOVES YOU. He wants to help you and give you peace. Please surrender your burdens to Him and allow Him to move in your life. "Because he loves Me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges My Name. He will call on Me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him." (Psalm 91:14-15) Please hold on to this bible verse because WHATEVER GOD SAYS, HE FULFILLS. ✝️

Its so so difficult dealing with this and dealing with lifes normal dramas and the social stigma etc its an absolute beast of a condition even after 25yrs....im better than i was but not as i would like to be.

This depression topics have helped me a lot because I learnt that depression is more common in women than men

I want to say something... (This is really long) I think I have depression or I'm faking it or tricking myself that I have it. I don't want to say that I definitely have it because someone in the world could really have it. I first started to get depressing around 13 I think I'm not completely sure. I'm 18 now about to turn 19 in January 2020 and I'm unemployed at the moment. I don't know what I want to do in life when I was in my senior year in high school a bunch of teachers and family members and friends are asking me what I want to do after high school. I always told them "I don't know" I was always unsure of what to say I've always thought about it hard and never came up with an answer. I always tell myself that I'm worthless, I'm nothing, I don't want to live this life anymore, I'm ugly, I'm fat, and no one likes me.. but I know that's not true I have a couple of friends that I like and I know they like me back so why do I always say to myself "Their laughing at you, they don't want to be with you, YOU'RE BEING SUCH AN ASSHOLE TO THEM!" I always think that they're not really my friends but I know they are and yet in my head I think I'm a terrible person to them. Whatever I do I just think that I'm doing this wrong or I shouldn't be here. I don't have any confidence in myself I try meeting girls online and date online because I can type differently online then in real life. I'm pathetic I know. I don't try to meet girls at my school I would be too frightened to do anything like that but online I'm a little bit more comfortable. I know I need to leave my comfort zone I've been told that a million times but yet I just can't do it... there was this one relationship that was very special to me her name was Alecs (like Alex) and she was such a beautiful, kind, funny, and smart person. I can say without a doubt that I loved her and I would genuinely be happy with her even if it was online. We would facetime a lot with each other and just be dumb and fun heh. I was honestly happy that I met her but it ended for about a year.. One day she was just "tired of me" like we run our course and that REALLY broke me. I was shocked, she said to me that she was tired of just texting someone online and not actually being there in person. We were originally planning to meet each other one day (I'm in California and she was in Arizona) we even talked about marriage one day when we get older and it's just... gone now. That devastated me, I would not pay attention in class, I've stopped seeing all my friends, I would stay in my room all day for awhile. I really loved her and she was so kind so her saying all this shocked me I guess she couldn't wait that long... I still think about her to this day and I wish I could at least be friends with her but she just stopped talking to me completely. I still miss her and I wish things ended differently. I haven't been in a relationship since then and that was in my Junior year into high school. Since then I've been either so depressed or just okay. All of this sounds like depression to me but I don't want to say that I do have because I'm not so sure anymore I just want everything to stop I don't care about myself anymore... I'm too scared to hurt myself and I don't tell anyone that I'm feeling down or sad because I just try to make their days better and avoid telling about my day. Whenever I see someone having a rough time I go help them instead of helping myself and that's a huge problem for me. I honestly didn't plan to write any of this stupid nonsense but if anyone read through all of my stupid problems thank you for reading and I hope you have a great day and always help someone in need or feeling down. Goodbye.

I was diagnosed with depression and generalised anxiety disorder since I was 13. My parents dont approve of medication so i was without any medication until i moved out of home at 25. My parents never believed I have any mental disability, still don't. I attempted suicide numerous times, most recent was 3 weeks ago and long story short, I survived.. The last 2 days I've spent most of the time in bed, fatigued. Constantly exhausted from anxiety and numb from stress.. It fks up your life.

I have this disorder I've had it years . I wish I understood my condition. For example I've woke up today , nothing has happened last night but wow I'm very low this morning. Sometimes I feel worse because I don't even know what brings me down

Imagine...seeing depression as rain but instead of being outside letting it all get on you imagine being inside your house looking out the window seeing it...you know it’s there...but your not gonna let it get to you ✊ . . . This is my first year of feeling depressed and it really hurts especially if people don’t understand you... I’ve had a rough childhood with no parents and no place I can call home...it makes me feel like what’s the point of living,lost and alone...we are y’all truly on the same boat 🚣‍♀️ so we really need each other’s support...

I am: ----------------- ~sad ~depressed ~lonely ~have no friends ~tired ~i feel worthless/useless ~hopelessness ~not seeming to care about anything ~😞

I never knew what depression was until I was tripping on acid one night really feeling hopeless during the end, and I was very curious why I felt like it for no reason, looking around and found a lot of the melancholic depression symptoms were very relatable, like very I had every single symptom pretty much, sad to know that I still haven't been told by anyone for 8 years of feeling like that, 18 now

clinical depression is not a joke. i take Sertralin and Doxepin to feel "normal", but its still the first of many steps to overcome clinical depression

Appreciate you guys sharing this video with us

Going through this, It's effecting everything In my life for the worse. My healthy anxiety/panic disorder Is messing me also. Idk what to do to get rid of It all can't really travel to a psychiatrist

A lot of my depression is environmental, growing up around domestic violence, loser dad, mentally ill mom (who was molested as a child). I feel like with the genetic aspect, Darwin’s theory comes into play, if generations have dealt with trauma the brain/body adapts to it and mutates the genes.

Before depression I used to cry after depression I couldn't even cry I felt dead inside

I've been diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder... but instead of helping me people keep telling me to stop being sad, lazy, and start being responsible. I've been contemplating suicide everyday, but I'm trying to be happy and I'm trying to be better but I just can't feel anything.

I try hiding my depression ...then I just hide.

I’ve been battling this for a number of years Now it seems to be getting harder now more than ever. I think everything I do is rubbish and can’t look at myself in the mirror. But I’m still going and I’ve been writing songs about my life and feelings. Feel free to check them out and I hope it helps somehow to know that you and I are not alone. Even if it feels like it. Kindness is what will set us free

Depression is a sign of strength if you csn het true depression then you csn go true anything its trying to tell you to basically do something with your life its tough it really is i hope everyone finds love and peace in this world and ive respect for every human being in the world ❤

Currently trying do improve my life: moving out and working my job. But i have the feeling nothing matters and I can't keep focus or be motivated. Feels like it doesn't matter and it doesn't bring me joy.

I can't stand it anymore..i am so much in pain both physically and emotionally

I have severe depression and haven't taken meds in 7 yrs there is hope but life always has stuggles

Very accurate man, well done.

You are not alone!!!

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Been really depressed since my grandmother died. Also my on pain medication from pain management and it turned into a habit so now it's been worse for me. Been waking up at 4pm in the afternoon. Not wanting to get up and I haven't really been taking care of myself at all. Haven't gotten my hair cut in months and won't really bathe. I need help but I hate the hospital so much

the fact that when i was kid i was bullied and never really had friends but i somehow always learned to keep it inside bottled up like a ticking time bomb, amazes me bcz now i just break out crying when my mind submerges into millions of thoughts of how utterly useless and irrelevant i am in this world and how happiness is only a dream i haven’t felt genuinely happy in a long time only when i drink or im high, i hate that this is the only way to make me feel happy. My confidence was skewed when i was kid now i’m just a shell of what i can be. I starved myself not because i wanted to but i never got the feeling of hunger, i lost 15 lbs in 2 weeks, my ears would pop, eye twitch, couldn’t sleep, anxiety attacks destroyed my heart and mind it made me feel like the smallest being in the world, now i feel lost

I have this combination of feelings that makes me feel like suicide would be preferable to living because every day is suffering but at the same time I'm extremely afraid of dying and I have severe health anxiety issues.

I have a mix between 2; Atypical and Dysthymia. I also talk about my feelings way more than other people with depression, and my weight doesn't change, just my appetite. Is that possible?

i have 8 out of 9 of these traits & mask my pain with dark humor haHA

wow i love learning about what i was diagnosed with

I don’t want to self diagnose but currently, I’m just so tired of everything. All the symptoms shown here is exactly what I do. I want to tell my parents to get me some help but we can’t afford one or just to ask for help is just out of reach for me. I been feeling like these since I was 14, suicidal, wanting to end all.

I just forgot what happiness feels like😢

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