Omg! You're so relatable 🤩 I just found out that my problem is maladaptive daydreaming but I still get lost in my head everyday. I have one main world (the one depicted in my animations) but because it keeps evolving over time and there are multiple cities and planets, and sets of characters that it makes it hard for me to keep up and I've stopped animating it and i keep it in my head cause it takes too much time. 😔 I used to not have a problem with the world but my harsh repetitive head movements and the use of loud music on headphones while daydreaming makes it bad for my physical health and the worst part is that it always gives me dopamine. And I realized that i have another way of dreaming where instead of characters there are real people which ends up giving my negative thoughts about everyone I know but don't talk to feel real. No wonder i can't socialize with almost anyone. 🤐 Daydreaming makes me not be that able to formulate my thoughts very clearly so i apologize for that. I'm just glad that there are people like you shedding light on this issue and this video made me think about trying to overcome this issue. 🙂

I had switched my paras every once in a while. Now I just have different paras, that are all my 'para me' at the same time. I bypassed that by making up some bullshit about my para me all being related to each other like a reincarnation of some sort. So even if I brutally murder my own para, I am still attached to my world. If I tried to destroy my world and bring down apocalypse on it, I would still find a way to bypass it. Now my universe is full of parallel worlds, different time periods, different timelines. This is ridiculous. It gets more and more complex every time I try to quit. Edit: 30 years seems insane. I've been only daydreaming for less than 20 years and that's about approx. my entire lifespan.

I dont have money to get me help. I dont know what to do :(