I feel like this describes how it feels to have “good” days mentally vs “bad” days mentally so well. No matter if you have a “good” or “bad” day you still feel depressed/numb/everything at once. It’s wild how accurate this is.

"Said I'm fine but we both know I'm fakin' " I felt that a lot

Most songs talk about how people are numb when depressed, they feel dead inside. But when I’m having an episode I don’t feel numb I feel overwhelmed with anxiety and the hopelessness of my depression. I always pretend to be fine but honestly, I’m not, and I’m not breaking down because I’m legitimately too anxious to cry. Thank you for this song, it really helped me understand myself a bit better

This whole YEAR got me feeling everything at once

“I’m coming off apathetic I play it off as an aesthetic , clearly I care to much” same

This literally portrayed my mania vs depression and I’m actually crying this spoke to me on such a personal level. You are so incredibly talented!

Lyrics I can't cry, I'm too anxious Restless mind, I can't shake this Said I'm fine, but we both know I'm fakin' I'm not feeling numb I'm just feeling everything at once Hate when you ask how I'm doin' I know that you're just assumin' I'm better now, not bleeding out Get outta bed on a good day Lately that's all I can do, hey I go through hell to hide myself I think about new ways to hurt me But don't want my mother to see It's not that I feel undeserving Just blame it on the chemistry That's why I can't cry, I'm too anxious Restless mind, I can't shake this Said I'm fine, but we both know I'm fakin' I'm not feeling numb I'm just feeling everything at once Oh-oh, oh-oh I'm just feeling everything at once Oh-oh, oh-oh I'm just feeling everything Whatever I do, I can't slow down Please, don't leave me alone now 'Cause when I stop, my demons talk I'm comin' off apathetic I play it off like it's anesthetic Clearly I care too much, but I'm foolin' everyone Oh, I think about new ways to hurt me But don't want my mother to see It's not that I feel undeserving Just blame it on the chemistry That's why I can't cry, I'm too anxious Restless mind, I can't shake this Said I'm fine, but we both know I'm faking I'm not feeling numb I'm just feeling everything at once (Once) Oh-oh, oh-oh I'm just feeling everything at once Oh-oh, oh-oh I'm just feeling everything at once Oh-oh, oh-oh I'm just feeling everything at once Oh-oh, oh-oh I'm just feeling everything at once

If there's a video to ever describe how I constantly feel thanks to my mental illnesses, it's THIS. Getting up and doing everyday things like the side on the left but mentally feeling like the side on the left, as if I'm not actually up and doing things but I'm just still in bed doing nothing.

Coincidence: this song came out in 2020 where we feeling everything at once 25 HOURS TO WAIT WTF

I love this. You captured exactly how I feel vs. what everyone thinks you should do. Definitely a repeat song for me. Thank you Mothica

this song is still something i listen to on repeat. i was just sitting here, hiding away in the quietest, darkest room of my house. you cant escape from the feelings no matter what you do. i dont want to sit on my phone scrolling through the same things every day. i wish i could do more than the same 2 things. i wish showers made me feel better like they used to. i wish hanging out with people helped. i wish exercise and healthy food fixed it all. everything is draining and theres no knowing who you are anymore. thank you for expressing this through music. you finally got me to cry while my body has refused to all day

Mothica is the only artist that has made songs that actually say everything i feel. Like other singers talk about things i feel but usually its a song towards a boy that hurt them but a boy has never broken my heart because my heart was never whole to begin with...

“I thought you already got over this. You chose to be unhappy.” - my parents to me

You’re the first singer I have ever felt in my entire life “these songs are written for me”

Can't wait! Premiere is 2am my time. Sleep is overated anyways.

I wonder what people’s bad days were like without the wide use of technology... I know that when I am in a mentally bad place, I waste my whole day on my phone/laptop.

Just found this song and it made me break down in tears. Ive never related to a song so much. Im doing really bad right now with my mental health after literal years of clawing to the surface. Quarantine has made me do a 180. I use to go to the gym, eat healthy, visit my therapist every week and was managing my anxiety so well for the first time in my life. Now my therapist suddenly took a new position so i cant even talk to her through email, i have only left my house twice since march and feel like im the only one struggling right now because my anxiety has made me agoraphobic and.. idk this song just makes me feel so seen. I know im just a stranger on the internet but from deep down in my heart thank you so much! i cant wait for blue hour to drop💕

I feel everything at once and nothing at all at the same time, it is hard to explain but this song really spoke to me just like loads of others in the comments but what makes me appreciate this so much is the fact that you can see the emotion put into her songs and videos and she is helping a lot of people see that they are not alone and never will be

Ive felt like this so much in my life. Everyone has their moments with their depression and anxiety. I was so anxious yesterday and now I'm crashing lol. It happens to the best of us! Do some selfcare, eat and relax ❤️

I just want to say thank you. Your music saved my life.

I don’t think I’ve ever felt so understood before. This song literally gift wraps my feelings on a daily basis into a neat little digestible package for my ears. So thank you. You’re amazing, as are many of your songs

I was diagnosed with Borderline last week. I've been trying to figure out how it's affected my life and what it feels like to have this when this song popped in my life. Everything at once. This song's taken on a new meaning for me, thank you

Cried while watching this.. thank you for speaking out about something that’s so real yet people push it under the rug. Mental health needs more awareness.

This song really speaks to me on a personal level. Thank you for making music that others can relate to and find comfort in💖💕

I don’t know what you do but this song is exactly how I feel day in and day out and seeing it on video and how you portrayed it hit me with immense emotion. Thank you 💚

This is beautiful. So glad your music was recommended to me. Your music is so pretty and nice to listen to, but you aren't afraid to get into dark and gritty topics. Thank you for being so open and creating this song and video. Hope to see you go far!

Love all the music I’ve heard so far! You’re a great artist, I connect so deeply with this song.

I love this. I feel like one side is about her good days and the other is the bad ones. I can certainly relate I have more bad days then good these days. I love how she shows the medication which is so stigmatized and my doc now wants me on meds and I feel bad for taking them. It just shows depression and her songs always stick with me and make me feel heard. Her songs are like reaching out and saying I understand you're not alone. Been listening to her for years she's sooooo fire. Love you mothica ❤️

I’m literally tearing up because the way this portrays high functioning individuals is so accurate because even tho she seems better she is literally just as hurt and is struggling just as much as the other girl. You’re music is so impactful and I can’t wait to see everything that you’re gonna do.

This song just hits me hard. I love it. It honestly describes how I feel and is kind of like how most of the time I do let my depression get to me and I push everything down and then those times suddenly I’m feeling everything that I’ve tucked away.

I love this song so much. It’s probably my favorite of yours. I had a good week but the two weeks prior were SO rough. I just rewatched this video and can’t help but cry 😣

Im loving your music more and more each day 💜 im obsessed at this point!!! Congratz on your success 💜

Love it! Really spoke to me. Thank you

The video for this fit this song perfectly. It really fits the mentality of everything hitting at once and the two sides of it. There was no glamorizing it, it was just so simplistic and well done. I love it.

i like how both sides are still feeling these feelings, because certainly its good to have these things incorporated in your life, it does not erase the fact that you are dealing with a mental illness. amazing work once again!

Soooooo ready! You’re amazing ❤️

Your amazing and I respect your courage to put shit out there others are afraid to lyrically. Totally relate

On the daily I don't feel anything except anger and frustration...but I've been listening to this song a lot in the previous months. No matter how much you feel good temporarily, depression is always there, two days or a week are a pretty good achievement...but you're not at the finish line. Thanks for portraying so many feelings in a way everyone can understand. I hope your talent, songs and passion will reach more people in the future. (I know that you probably won't read this, but it means a lot to leave a comment under this video anyways)

youtube just recommended this to me and I have to say, it rarely happens that it recommends something so good to me, I can relate so much to this and it actually brings me to tears, thanks for this masterpiece

this is seriously stuck in my head randomly. Good job :D

I struggle pretty bad with depression spurts and then a burst of energy to clean then I crash back into my dark depressing place. I try hard to get over the bump but it never seems to end.

I love this!!!! The song is so catchy and well written. But it also has all the insinuations and meaning of how people live through so much....a lot of that being something versus another. I love the duality of the video and that was portrayed perfectly!!! I just found you as an artist recently and I’m so, so glad I did!!! You are such a huge inspiration!!! Cannot wait to see what the future has for you!!! Forever a part of the “swarm” (if that is the fan base name 😉).....but also forever a fan!!! Love it!! Amazing! 💙💙💙

I keep hitting replay! The relatability and depth behind this video/song. 💙🖤💙🖤 Moth Queen slays again

So much meaning in one video. I love this so much! Good job McKenzie💙

Such a great video, this had me in my feels. (Also, I can't not say anything about how cute that Pom was)

I love the portrayal of the scale and the candies during “I think of new ways to hurt me.” Because the truth is that even when you’re “okay”, if you struggle with yourself, such as an eating disorder or weight or anxiety or just physical thoughts, that scale’s number can be harmful. So the “healthy” side of this video shows a bit of unhealthy too.

The fact that she has a drawer of mini snickers and that’s like my favorite chocolate. I can become obsessed with eating them. I literally have been forcing myself to feel better about myself and do the left instead of the right for the sake my health and my kids. I didn’t even realize this was the video when I used this for my Tik tok about rebirthing your mind to switch from thoughts of depression and thoughts of self love and worthiness.

This is exactly how I feel with my anxiety and with whatever else is going on. This is just, spot on.

This actually took my breath away. Thank you for making something so powerful.

This song reminds me of how mental health really is and what everyone deals with

BEST MUSIV VIDEO EVER. Also best song ever. Thank you so much for making this...it’s jus. It’s so wonderful and pretty. Thank you for making it. Thank you for writing the song. It’s my next favorite song that I will listen on repeat

Loved it!! Love your music! ❤️❤️

Hard relate, beautiful, beautiful song

So so so amazing omg when you released on tic toc that you were going to make this I was so happy!! And I ligit put you on my notifications. This is such an incredible song❤️🥰 can someone please sign her so we can hear these bangers on the radio at work😂❤️🙏🏼 biggest fan hands DOWN!!

Yessss!! Amazing I love your music so much 😊 it speaks to me on a whole other level keep it up ❤

As soon as I started understanding the song and video I started tearing up... fantastic song. Well done.

My NEW favorite artist omg thank you for being so real.

This is beautiful, and I feel it deep in my chest. Thank you for sharing your work with us

This really explained how I’ve been feeling for the past few months and I don’t think I could’ve ever explained it better than this song💙

This is so good!! This song just makes me feel so seen.

The scale next to the box of candy was so accurate, on good days I'll get on the scale, and on bad days I'll eat a lot of candy. Not only the video but the lyrics were so fitting. everything about this song helps me feel better on my good days and helps me understand myself more on my bad days. Thank you Mothica/Mckenzie!

This song gives me chills every time I listen to it 🥺

i love your music i find that i relate to it a lot. thank you

I just love your sound. Your music speaks levels and the video looks great

Love it so much! I relate to it to a T.... thank you

I’ve been posting your music everywhere!!! Been posting it on Snapchat and listening to your music for days now on repeat ❤️❤️

Ready for this I listened to vices on repeat for days after it came out. Most likely going to do that again

IM SO EXCITED IVE BEEN WAITING SINCE I SAW THE TIKTOK ABOUT YOU WORKING ON IT AAAHHHHHHH

Such a queen, honestly love this video Also, Bless Momica, I appreciate her so much

I relate to the song oh god, & this so much! & other songs!

I can’t waittttt!!!! I’ve streamed just about all your songs and I’m stoked to finally have anotherrrrr!!!

Im glad I found a artist who really knows how I feel

This just hit me so deep. Like I never knew I was the only way to feel like this

Love you!!!!!!! It feels like I’ve been waiting forever for this to come out I loved it!! Keep it up, and thank you again for your art! 🖤

This and Vices are literally so genius and I can’t wait for the album!

Yes! Love love love!!

You can really see the work y'all put into this. Absolutely incredible.

This song and video shook me to my core. Thank you so much.

I never thought a song could capture my childhood and teenage emotions.

Perfectly beautiful. This is one of my new favs. ☺️

My daughter loves your music (well, the songs she can listen to, she's only 6). Thanks for making such good songs, and in 6 years when puberty depression hits, I plan to use this song to help her understand what she's facing.

May or may not have cried, thank you for your amazingly beautiful music

This video is a great representation of the struggle a lot of us are going through. I love what you did with it

Im literally the side with the hoodie today and I needed this. This is my depression versus my mania.

Thank you to Newova for finding such an incredible artist! I love your art 💜💜💜

one of my favorite songs for sure

I love it, you did a really good job, the video fits the song really well. Glad I got to see it.

This means a lot to me, thank you for capturing the essence

thank you for this amazing song and musicvideo

Love this so much!!!! May be my favourite music video!

Wow these are actually good songs. Keep it up

When your feeling down people often tell you to shut up and calm your self down when really you should just let it all out and music is a great way to do that

I love the way she says "numb" 😩🖤

Love the song and visual!

This song fucks me up and heals me at the same time.

On repeat daily, blessings ! Lost my BF over NYE... Rip Matt Burt

I feel like this all the time. 🔥

Yassss girl. You did an amazing job at this music video!!!! ❤️

I love this song. It put his I feel almost everyday In words that people can understand! Thank you so much, Mothica for give people like us a voice!

Oh my god this song is it! I felt this too much