My Alcoholism - 5 Years In Recovery

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4 жыл бұрын

Hi I'm Janet and I'm an alcoholic. As much as you may think this is clickbait, it's not. I've been wanting to make this video now for five years, but the timing never really did feel right. I just wanted to be honest and open with you so you can know the real me. I know you may be wondering why I'd even post something like this. The truth is, when I was searching for someone online 5 years ago who was talking about these things, it was hard to find. Which only made me feel even more isolated and alone. So as much as I hope you don't relate to this video, if you do, you're not alone.
I'm sorry if you feel mislead.
I hope you're having a happy day!
Janet
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@janetdevlin 4 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much for such an overwhelmingly supportive reaction to this video. I’m not sure what I expected but I wasn’t expecting to be met with so much love! I’ve received so many comments, questions and people wanting to know more about my experience with alcoholism. Without sounding like I’m trying to sell my book here - it is the place where I’ve written down my experience, strength and hope. When writing about my alcoholism, I tried my best to write with an open heart and spent a long time doing so. So if you wanted to know the more raw versions of what happened then maybe consider having a read. It’s available on www.janetdevlin.com/store or even www.amazon.co.uk/gp/aw/d/1913172244/ref=tmm_hrd_title_0?ie=UTF8&qid=1587129869&sr=8-1

@caramyers5198 4 жыл бұрын

Hi Janet, I related to some of the things you said so deeply, I am still crying. I don't have a problem with any substance, I have a problem with me. I hate me way too much and I have to make a conscious effort every day to not loose control. It is so hard, and I am so lonely. Please, if you actually even read this post, please tell me how you got past those things? I have been screaming for help to everyone, and I am still alone. I am not sure why I even think you would care. I have always loved your music, and I would love to hear more. If you read this, thanx. Take care, and for what it's worth, I'm on your side...

@SB-fm4vu 4 жыл бұрын

You re such a strong person janet. Be proud of who you are and where you made it until today. Life is all about making experiences good and bad ones. And to know that early in life, that you have to be honest to yourself is the best experience you can make. Stay that strong and wunderful. And also stay safe. Greetings from Germany.

@kristiantaylor2762 4 жыл бұрын

Janet I never comment, but your video inspired me to. I am a 46 year old ginger who has lived a life of addiction, mirroring all your traits of self hatred and self destructive behavior. Your pain has mine for so long. Oh how many times I went AWOL in life and hit bottom. I figured it out 4 yrs ago. For me it was learning to love myself, unique flaws and all, forgive myself, a big one, and giving myself grace when needed. We've beat ourselves up way too much already. I can see how the pain is motivating you to become stronger. Pain is often times the best motivator. I just wanna say thanks for your bravery to become vulnerable with your storey to encourage others, and from one ginger to another, I think your hair is absolutley gorgeous.

@bigstevie1690 4 жыл бұрын

I have an addictive personality and was a functioning alcoholic and addict for all my 20s and drank 30 pints of tennents lager a night starting at 10am break with 2 pints in 10 minutes and 4 pints at a 30 minute lunch then after work a 24 pint can slab of lager every night till 4am go to bed at 4am then up for work at 6am and repeat the whole thing over every day for years until the doc said i would die before 30 so i said enough is enough the doc gave me these green pills and i never thought about drinking after 3 days and never touched a drink for 2 years i went cold turkey no help i could go to bars and drink soda no problem and now i can take or leave drink now, i drink a few times a year if i'm lucky, it has no hold over me now

@chriskirsche4287 4 жыл бұрын

Hey... im from Germany... and my english is Shit 😁 But i am a big Fan of you. Best Wish and Stay strong. ❤ ( Sorry for this english😀)

@chang3227 2 ай бұрын

it's been so long that i genuinely can't remember myself without anxiety or depression. it consumes me and controls every aspect of my life. i'm so tired.

@emmabless6647 2 ай бұрын

I remember being an anxious kid and getting depressed at 17. i'm 26 now and stronger!! All from the great wonders of magic mushrooms.

@jordanlewis5666 2 ай бұрын

I'm going through mushroom infusion therapy, and I can confirm that it does work real good..

@NhanVa 2 ай бұрын

after my trip yesterday, I did understand why mushrooms are praised... you can have some beautiful experiences on them..

@kristahutchinson6519 2 ай бұрын

Hello! It appears I have interests, I want to get some.. where do you get from?

@jordanlewis5666 2 ай бұрын

𝕴𝖓𝖘𝖙𝖆𝖌𝖗𝖆𝖒

@itsrodiggityyo9946 3 жыл бұрын

Janet, I'm a heroin addict for 10 years, been clean for almost 6 months, fighting to stay clean, thank you so much for sharing your story!

@williamric-hansen3983 3 жыл бұрын

You can do it..

@itsrodiggityyo9946 3 жыл бұрын

@@williamric-hansen3983 thank you

@miumiu9105 3 жыл бұрын

so proud of you! you can do it!!

@dri622 3 жыл бұрын

you can do this, girrrrl!!!! be brave! ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

@hadleysanders6682 3 жыл бұрын

Keep fighting darling, we wish you so much love and greatness. Continue to see the strength in yourself

@ta9197 Жыл бұрын

I have been very heavily drinking for 15 years. I stopped drinking 6 days ago and I became SO sick for 3 days! I didn't know why...I then realized, I'm an alcoholic and I thought I was literally going to die for 3 days straight. Shakes, chills, nauseous, didn't/couldn't eat for 3 days. This is tough but if I can do it, anyone can do it!! Thank you all for sharing everything in your life. I've read them all!! We all got this fight! Stay strong!

@Septa7Seven Жыл бұрын

Hi TA, I see that you made this comment 4 months ago. I hope you are still fighting and doing well. And, if you didn't manage to be sober. I hope you try again and keep trying until you eventually get through.

@ms.laterholmes2890 10 ай бұрын

Manifesting positive stay strong please don’t let this overtake you. You are much bigger than this. Please take minute by minute.

@vanessab.7679 3 жыл бұрын

From one alcoholic in recovery to another, thank you for your courage, honesty, and strength to share the insufferable hell that is addiction. Thank you for sharing. I am in rehab right now and I have been drinking since I was 16 years old. I had addictive tendencies since I was very young as well. I am 32 years old right now and it's a miracle that I am still alive. The more we share our stories, the more we heal and help others. Thank you for your bravery. One day at a time. Love, a fellow AA. xoxo

@ta9197 Жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing!!

@andries1704 3 ай бұрын

I am reading your comment 2 years after you posted it. I hope you stayed sober and you are doing well. You still have a great future ahead off you.

@tnttroy 3 жыл бұрын

Welcome to the club. Ex military with severe PTSD. You can do it - one day at a time my friend. Love your voice - it brings me peace.

@lauuraml 3 жыл бұрын

Search about ayahuasca...sending healing your way ✨💗

@MsMixd 4 жыл бұрын

Janet. The greatest drug in the world is love. If you ever feel that you're running out, we will be here for you.

@raylangley405 4 жыл бұрын

fantastic

@janetdevlin 4 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much 🥺💓

@MsMixd 4 жыл бұрын

@@janetdevlin You are helping me get through a very rough patch with your truth. Thank you. We need more like you, not less, so please take good care of yourself. Lots of love.

@williamwinder3466 4 жыл бұрын

😭😭😭😭😭 How did all these onions get in here?

@moodini99 3 жыл бұрын

No, it isn't. The greatest drug in the world is ecstasy. But love is pretty amazing.

@soloscriptura7451 3 жыл бұрын

I learned that I was an alcoholic at 19, I didn’t admit it until this year... I’m 28. I had my first drink at 8 and I have relapsed multiple times since I regularly started drinking. God has been very kind to me during this process and he’s guided me through the darkest of nights. I’m thankful for your story and sobriety, it’s a blessing.

@pathlogic8650 2 жыл бұрын

I'm 27 I think, honestly I've done so much escapism I dont actually know. my first taste of it was 7, it was just a beer, but you gotta start somewhere. I am diabetic t2 and cerotic, if I get a deep enough wound now I might just bleed out without suffering a mortal wound. and now I am in recovery. I don't know what to even use as a leg to stand on. Sometimes the thing that makes me care is only the fact that my mother would suffer. I have a large family, but I can only feel for her in any way.

@Lanthanaas 2 жыл бұрын

The wife and I are closing on 1 year sober. We struggled to get to sobriety for several years. We understand your pain and hard work. You're absolutely right about living in sobriety. It's magical how much better and clearer the world is when you dig your way out!

@janetdevlin 4 жыл бұрын

Woah, I’m completely taken a back! 🥺Thank you so much for your overwhelmingly positive response! I’ll be responding to as many comments as I possibly can but I hope you know how much your support means 💓 x

@ANTONJBRMUSIC 4 жыл бұрын

❤❤❤❤

@adamv1431 4 жыл бұрын

AA doesn’t need a response, 5 years is a major accomplishment and it’s impressive

@adamv1431 4 жыл бұрын

I like your newer videos and covers anyways

@moriolocci 4 жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing your story, this is what helps. Go on :)

@rickeppy2365 4 жыл бұрын

I was born a day after you 13th November 1994 ur so pretty

@rustystick 4 жыл бұрын

You realize this just makes you more of a real person? Just love you more

@janetdevlin 4 жыл бұрын

I love you too buddy, thank you so much for the support x

@FrequencyGenius1 4 жыл бұрын

PM HE UZ

@FrequencyGenius1 4 жыл бұрын

FLAS JOIN ELDER REDRDOS VOID JEWS HNDLERS

@moodini99 4 жыл бұрын

You best go and buy her book then, mate.

@nobelj3137 3 жыл бұрын

Janet I think we are the first generation of Irish people to actually recognize we were addicted to alcohol , you know our culture and how it can be seeing this made me wonder how lucky we were to see it I have family to this day that simply cant see alcohol as the crutch they are using it as I'm sure you do too , thank you for the music it really does touch that deep Celtic nerve and moreover thank you for sharing

@tzouka4ever 3 жыл бұрын

Professionals say that alcohol is harder to "escape" from than drugs or other substances, because you can find it everywhere...at the shop around the corner, it's not illegal substance and it doesn't cost as much as some other stuff. But the battle is the same for any addicted person using whatever... This video is a true inspiration for people to stay on track and people who are not there yet...THANK YOU FOR THAT

@kathykolenda7517 3 жыл бұрын

I’m a 67 year old grandma of 12. I just want to hug you and say what a brave, loving & wonderful young lady you are. Thank you so much for sharing this. You’ve got this girl🤗 oh, I am a huge huge Elton John fan and I loved your version of his song on your audition ❤️

@Sam-ml5wt 4 жыл бұрын

I’m 1 week sober today. Thankyou for sharing beautiful, sending love to you ❤️

@Sam-ml5wt 4 жыл бұрын

Ps. Never apologise for being emotional xxx

@zuzkaberg 3 жыл бұрын

Fingers crossed for you to stay sober! Be strong

@valo9346 3 жыл бұрын

Stay strong it’s worth fighting 😊🔥✨

@arty04 3 жыл бұрын

Way to go!

@pacoramirez54 3 жыл бұрын

stay strong Sam

@kd42021 3 жыл бұрын

No, thank you, you are a blessing to all of us to share your story, I don’t suffer from alcoholism, I suffer from depression. I have had many times that I wanted to end it all, I was tired of living at the age of 13. I started listening to Linkin Park, most people don’t realize this, but most of their music is about getting help for the pains your going through in life. I found music to be a great outlet. I’m now 32 years old, and I still have my moments that I don’t want to carry on anymore, it’s a constant struggle, but then I have such wonderful people like you to listen to and hear your story and your music, and it gives me hope, and it helps give me a reason to want to live. It’s very difficult to talk about, but I’m blessed to have you, and I’m trying to help my dad with his addiction to alcohol. Thank you for everything, much love from us in this small town of Waycross, Georgia!!!

@frankiebartlett5880 Жыл бұрын

Hi Janet, I’m also 5 years sober. Thank you for sharing your story with young people around the world. The sooner we can identify the sooner we can reach out for help

@brentheid6002 3 жыл бұрын

There are MANY alcoholics at age 20. Most people just are not aware enough to recognize it and DO something positive about it. Kudos, Janet, Blessings of God upon you.

@dragondeal1675 3 жыл бұрын

About a decade ago binge drinking going through media and a lot of people said "If you drink regularly so and so much, you're an alcoholic". Well, when I look back to the years when I was between 14 and 25 and those people were right, I was an alcoholic. And nearly all of my friends. And my parents. And nearly all of their friends. But for me those people are wrong. There's a difference between drinking too much and the necessity of drinking. I admit, it's just a small step from drinking too much to become an alcoholic and most people don't be aware getting close. Anyway most people don't make that last step, being aware of it or not. So I don't think there are "MANY alcoholics" at the age of 20, there are some. But for sure, it's something to be careful about. If you look in the mirror early morning saying "Ouch, that was too much last night." it maybe ok. If you look at that mirror thinking "Guess I need another drink" you need help, not a drink.

@pbesso 8 ай бұрын

Janet, you are an incredible person, and I am so proud of the strides you've made in your recovery journey. As someone who has battled addiction myself, I have some understanding of the challenges you've faced. It's all the more remarkable considering the unique pressures that come with your talent and career. You've overcome incredible obstacles, and I'm really proud of you.

@Plan-C Ай бұрын

Your honesty is very refreshing. It doesn't make any difference how rich, powerful, big, strong, successful, popular, etc etc etc you are. It is a chemical dependency and it will crush anybody. Well done. You could have been describing me with the anxiety, the negative self talk, the imposter syndrome, the shutting the noise off, the anxiety attacks and that self doubt. Just remember, every time you face down your demons, they get weaker and you get stronger. You are MUCH stronger than you think you are. Well done.

@TheNerdNinja-hy3bl 3 жыл бұрын

I was alcoholic at 18 , there is nothing to be ashamed of. Addiction is a addiction. I’m 2 years sober now.

@hadleysanders6682 3 жыл бұрын

Congratulations darling

@valo9346 3 жыл бұрын

Proud of you 😊✨

@moodini99 3 жыл бұрын

Good for you. What were you addicted to?

@moodini99 3 жыл бұрын

We're you actually an alcoholic, or do you just like the label? Claiming to be a young alcoholic is like having a badge that reads "I'm interesting. Give me attention". How much were you actually drinking?

@tsolberg4503 3 жыл бұрын

I work with people with an a addiction, primarily alcohol addiction. I see a lot of young people every day, it is not about how much you drink.

@shannonwilson2253 4 жыл бұрын

“I thought everyone was in on this joke that i wasn’t.” Yep, I felt that.

@janetdevlin 4 жыл бұрын

aw I'm sorry :(

@shannonwilson2253 4 жыл бұрын

Janet Devlin don’t be!! you just put into words something that I haven’t been able to for a very long time. Thanks for sharing with us 💗

@unicornvggghhu4285 4 жыл бұрын

Same it’s nice knowing other people have felt that sometimes

@katherenann 4 жыл бұрын

Yessss, I felt it too. I have said repeatedly that I feel like I'm just some big cosmic joke and I'm too stupid to realize it. Ugh. Horribly isolating feeling. :(

@aikrichter5403 4 жыл бұрын

@@janetdevlin don'T be. It's that Voice. It's lying,you know. Not your Fault.

@firemedictv Жыл бұрын

As I sit here incredibly hungover. I loved your message. I am broken right now. I have screwed up so many things due to alcohol. Your story gives me hope. I cry along with you because I relate to you so much. I am powerless over alcohol. Thank you for being you and giving us all hope.

@megan9481 5 ай бұрын

Oh same alcohol ruined my career my relationship with my boyfriend and my health

@megan9481 5 ай бұрын

I really hope that you are better now I am hung over right now

@jeff8ball 4 ай бұрын

just saw this...I'm 3 years sober, hope you are ok...

@AngryVikingPkR 3 жыл бұрын

Thank you for this as an addict been clean for 7 years this means alot this will help so many people thanks for being honest this touched me deeply and proved that you dont have to spend 10+ years useing to be an alcoholic/addict or to seek help i have the biggest respect for young ppl who get clean cause i was to proud to do it young i had to lose everything before i got help

@narcissus6350 4 жыл бұрын

“It’s a little bit funny, this feeling inside I’m not one of those who can, easily hide” That’s how I met you, you’re very precious, take care of yourself. ❤️

@basementboutiques8617 4 жыл бұрын

Narcissus weirdo!

@sandravt2168 4 жыл бұрын

Narcissus is referring to the Elton John song she sang at her world famous audition. That’s how I got to know her too. So there’s nothing weird about this comment at all.

@loft306 4 жыл бұрын

Ditto

@MaryBHand 3 жыл бұрын

I don’t know why this just popped up in my KZfaq feed but I just wanted to say how much I admire your bravery and honesty. You are an amazing young lady and I wish you all the very best x

@IamKnucks 7 ай бұрын

Janet, like so many your music blew me away the moment I heard it. I hope you're able to keep your sobriety and live a long and happy life. I'm 100% certain there are millions of people who wish nothing but the best for you.

@delaneyglinkin8335 3 жыл бұрын

When you sang for the first time on X factor I was blown away by your amazing voice, sly smiles at the crowd, and most of all you were a soul that I wanted to know more about. You had this mysterious aura, but this big personality, I could tell you were strong. I'm not much younger than you and I saw this piece of myself in you that I idolized. Eventually, I understood you had the same special that I had, an ability to make people smile and feel genuinely good and happy. Thank you for sharing, this couldn't have been easy to get strangers comments on, but thank you it has been yet another moment you are helping to make someone's day a little bit better.

@Jo-ph9zo 3 жыл бұрын

I’m 20 & I’m an alcoholic. I started drinking when I was 13. I have never said that...

@justtotallygorgeous 3 жыл бұрын

Please find support to help you ☺️

@shinseiki2015 3 жыл бұрын

check Wes Watson channel

@moodini99 3 жыл бұрын

13? Damn. That's too early. Good that you're not an alcoholic anymore.

@Prince_Oli 3 жыл бұрын

moodini99 wha? She is still one she just said that.

@moodini99 3 жыл бұрын

@@Prince_Oli She said it? Must be true then. Anyone can say anything. She's got books and albumbs to sell

@elliemarsh1 4 жыл бұрын

I respect you for being so honest, especially to yourself.

@janetdevlin 4 жыл бұрын

Thank you Ellie! ❤️❤️

@elliemarsh1 4 жыл бұрын

Janet Devlin ❤️❤️❤️

@basementboutiques8617 4 жыл бұрын

You too need should meet up & have a drink! 🤷‍♂️

@trevarnewighton2954 3 жыл бұрын

@@basementboutiques8617 what an idiotic thing to say to an alike. Do you realise that this addiction kills Fool

@thehourglassfan3515 Жыл бұрын

@@elliemarsh1 I hope you got the underlying message which is don’t drink. Did you?

@Aaskjetil 3 жыл бұрын

This is so strong and so real, and it shows such confidence in a person to share it. I'm thoroughly impressed by your insight and your strength to combat the addiction. Sharing a story like this is like stripping down naked, it shows the real person with every imperfections and flaws we have and it is one of the hardest things to do. Stay strong. Stay real. Stay sober.

@wilmanorman330 3 жыл бұрын

You are a blessing to others, Janet. You are a beautiful, courageous human being. ❤️ All the very best wishes! Bravo!

@misfit29 3 жыл бұрын

I'm also an Alcoholic. I'm so glad that I ran into your video. I've been struggling with it for some time, I know the feeling. I've also thought about offing myself. But your video gives me hope and courage to keep living life.I think that you are brave for posting this video. Thank You 🙂

@brendanm4179 4 жыл бұрын

Being an alcoholic is A VERY COMMON thing, especially in ireland. Tell someone they ain't allowed to drink at the weekend and they'll show withdrawal symptoms straight away.

@frognode 2 жыл бұрын

WOW! Janet - thank you for sharing and being open, honest and venerable about your humanity and struggles. Listening to you from here in Cape Town, and being a fan, loving your music, I am really touched and moved by your life's storey. You have been blessed and gifted with such an amazing voice - you are truly a beautiful person and don't ever forget that. My prayer is that you stay strong and as the song goes "look up child" there is hope and help from above.

@heartuser100 2 жыл бұрын

Really proud of you for being so honest. You’re such an amazing person

@ThatJessKid 4 жыл бұрын

I’ve been trying to comment for the past hour I just can’t find the words I need. I’ve always struggled to talk about this subject, my grandad died because he drunk so much his liver started to fail. I’ve been there on the sideline just watching and hoping my friend would stop drinking. I’d try and talk to them but majority of the time I’d get ignored they’d continue the only thing I could do was to be there. I need you to know that I don’t see you in a different light, my opinion of you hasn’t changed I still think you’re a bloody goofball and I fucking love and care about you to the moon and back! You can throw as many confessions as you want me at me and I’m still going to be there! We learn from our past and you’re not that person anymore and I’m so fucking proud of you. You’re one of the most amazing people I know genuinely you’re fantastic and brave and so so strong mate I could compliment you all day but I know you ain’t good with compliments so I’ll shh now. Thanks for saving me. 💙

@banality1234 4 жыл бұрын

Beautifully said Jess.🙏

@quemeese 4 жыл бұрын

totally understand that!

@Brennan26Bartolacci1 4 жыл бұрын

I'd like to thank you for posting this video. After many years of struggling with drug and alcohol addiction, your story inspired me to clean up. I sat here, watching this video, with tears streaming down my face as I watched and really listened. I was lucky, though. My rock bottoms were padded. I've had one friend continually catch me as I fell. My hardest fall was when I dropped over $30,000 on drugs, booze, and a little food in less than 4 months. When i was evicted from my apartment, that friend was there to put me up in their shop. Helped me find a job. That wasn't enough to make me want to, or realise that I should, quit. But, watching your open, sincere, and candid video stopped me in my tracks. I've now been sober for around two months. This is the longest I've gone without being out of my head on something or another. So thank you, Janet, for being the other hand that helped me out of my Hell. For that, you'll always be 'the other woman," lol.

@hollybramhall1351 3 жыл бұрын

congratulations on being sober for 2 months!! 💜 i hope your recovery keeps going well💜

@NadineMiller1974 3 жыл бұрын

It's truly amazing to read so many comments from those amazing people like yourself who are touched by Janet's story 🤗 Take care of you and LIVE YOUR CLEAN LIFE!

@vannybr Жыл бұрын

Bless you Janet! I was so moved hearing your journey to overcome this addiction, gave me so much hope that addiction can be won by having support and understanding from people who loves you. You are a young, beautiful, smart girl your future will be bright!

@castironmountaingirl8989 9 ай бұрын

I just discovered you! I love that you shared your story. I got sober when I was 26 In 1991. I'm a fan and bigger fan now that I know you're one of us! Hang in there. God speed in your recovery

@maddystarlove 3 жыл бұрын

Hi Janet...I remember you from the X Factor and you sang, "Your Song" by Elton John. I am an alcoholic and have been sober for almost 23 years now!!! It was the best decision I ever made...I went cold turkey!!! I would drink until I blacked out so many times that I can't even remember and also tried to off myself a couple of times, just so the pain would go away! You have so many "sisters" and "brothers" who know exactly what you went through and maybe some still are. I just take one day at a time...it's all you can do! I am so so proud of you to have the courage to share your story because it is so hard to admit! I love ya girl!

@uvl.g5611 4 жыл бұрын

The fact you can talk about it so openly is most inspiring. I have a relative who's an alcoholic, and it truly destroyed her life, so I know just how bad alcoholism can get. Bravo to you for fighting and taking on it head on, you're such a strong brave person.

@williamstreet4304 3 жыл бұрын

Janet, thank you so much for this video. It is difficult for most of us to imagine the difficulties that come with success at such a young age. As a person who struggles with alcoholism, I am proud of your hard work and your success. Stay strong and enjoy your life. I am a much older man who enjoyed youth in the 1960's. As I listened to your story, I thought of the successful performers who were lost to drugs during those years. I loved your first performance on the X Factor. I've enjoyed your performances since. I am so glad you are now free from the demon that you fought for those years. Thank you for sharing. I'm having a happier day because of your voice.

@tonynickson6820 2 жыл бұрын

Admire your courage and honesty to put yourself out there like this !! Well done.

@eugenejackson9283 4 жыл бұрын

So this is the second time watching this. Janet, thank you for coming out with this video. Despite the sadness of this, and the intensity of the video, it's made me realise something. I'm an addict too... Your videos always give me an awakening. Thank you for being you, thank you for sharing the awesome you alongside the sad bits. I love you so much, and know that I (along with all your followers, friends and family) will be here to support you through it all.

@TCubillas 4 жыл бұрын

I don't think you realize how much you've helped many who are in dark spots and haven't figured out how to get out. This video is HUGE & IMPACTFUL and the number of broken lives its touched, and hopefully helped, is probably more than we all realize. I'm sure it hurts to go back to those dark days but, when you do, you offer many a light at the end of the tunnel that wasn't previously there. Kudos to you, Janet, and may God bless you. 🙏

@ellamae444 4 жыл бұрын

So very true!

@marcobuitrago1071 2 жыл бұрын

I appreciate your testimony. I also came from an alcoholic affected family. I can relate to your early addiction. I watched your audition 10 years ago. I thought about you today and here you are. Thank you for being so open. You are such a blessing girl! Please keep shining! Never change only for the better. Thank you once again. I bless you in your life and pursuits.

@martynursell 2 жыл бұрын

Thank you Janet for your honesty , when I heard your song by Elton John at sixteen , it's very brave of you to open up your heart, we are thinking of you in our prayers . We pray for your courage and determination to continue on the right path , we look forward to seeing you , the love which flows from your heart . There is so much in which you can achieve when we trust the direction of the heart . Never give up on this wonderful dream . Praying for you . Martyn 🌹🙏🏵️

@Rogdog692002 4 жыл бұрын

I am impressed Janet. I was drinking like an alcoholic at 20, but continued on for 15 years. Now have 13 years sober, and couldn’t be happier. Good on you Janet, for dealing with your addiction and for your courageous honesty!

@moodini99 4 жыл бұрын

Doesn't have an addiction. She's just looking for attention to sell some books and music. Typical narcissist

@jacobbaylis 4 жыл бұрын

Everyone has their own personal issues but truthfully and honestly, you are an extremely talented person and would love to see you get further in the future. ❤️❤️

@janetdevlin 4 жыл бұрын

Sisters Gossip thank you so much 🥺💓

@coletyler6140 Жыл бұрын

I don't think I could like, admire & love another human being more than I do right now Janet....thankyou for being you even though you did this 2 years ago I hope you stayed true to yourself and didn't let your demons define you...love and respect Cole x

@Lightflames85 3 жыл бұрын

I am really sorry you had to go through that janet to come out better in the end. seeing you cry just makes me want to give you a great big hug! hope you will make your dreams come true.

@victoriaday7445 4 жыл бұрын

Your voice broke my heart all them years ago. And once again im reduced to a tear but i promise you your voice is just as loud and the day i first heard an angle sing live on tv. And ive chased and look for voices like yours and it can not only be heard through your music and voice . Live isn't that we see. Life isn't what we chase it's a dream state of mind. A pint glass half full to float in andpainfully have to have no escape. Reality hurt reality is truth reality is a beautiful talented young lady with just a dream telling us shes human. Today i realised the brightest star ive ever seen shine is just as human as me. X

@mad3max3 4 жыл бұрын

I see people talking shit about her, but she is speaking from her heart. She's being honest, not trying hide anything. Hell yeah you can be an alcoholic and addict at any age. There's no time limit on it. I think she's awesome! I know that many people that hear her feel the same exact way and it helps them to hear it. Thanks for sharing Janet!!

@theodecy4748 3 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much for sharing...... So sorry that you had to struggle through those dark time alone.... But know this, you're an amazing person and is an inspiration to a lot of people out there who's struggling with same situations...... God bless....💖💖💖🌻🌻🌻🌻

@paulec2634 Жыл бұрын

Hi Janet, I'm a big fan of yours since 2011 and never could have guessed what you were going through. I'm so impressed by how you have dealt with everything that you have been through. Don't apologise for anything! Sharing your story is such a powerful thing to have done.

@ph3n1x1 4 жыл бұрын

Janet this is incredibly raw. We all struggle, we all fail, but it is how we rise. Your struggle is but one step of your journey, and though i am sorry to hear you went through it. I am happy to hear you are rising and rising strong. Keep the strength. The journey is in eb and flow, godspeed.

@bigsismilena 4 жыл бұрын

The fact that being on TV started off the whole makes me think that fame isn't a thing to crave at the end of the day. Anyway, I love the video and your courage to address the whole thing. KEEP GOING, YOU ROCK! ❤️

@kd42021 3 жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing such a painful moment, I hope that others who share the addiction can see this, and maybe come to a realization and get the help they need. My dad suffers from alcoholism and one thing we do together are watching your videos, and listening to your music! I love you girl, please keep doing what you do, and don’t for a second think your useless! You are gorgeous and have an amazing voice!!! I’m glad you were able to overcome your past, listening to your music and seeing brings a massive smile on my worst days! Just know that you are loved by my family and myself here in the USA!

@anthonycragg451 2 жыл бұрын

I love the fact that you can openly talk about your subject. It shows a real strength of character we live you for your honesty and your beautiful voice

@timothyfox4057 4 жыл бұрын

Janet: i love your voice, and my prayers are for your recovery, it's so easy to get addicted to certain substances because it make us feel good, but usually we begin to regret that decision, and I do hope the best for you and thanks for your honesty and your tears that is the first step to recovery. God is for us not against us he can help. I love your testimony to.

@ivhristov6511 4 жыл бұрын

I've looked this a couple of times and every single one of them I had tears in my eyes..So proud of you!And your audition, years ago in X factor still in my top 3 ever!Keep going, girl! Often life is hard, and not fair but we have it just once and that's the beauty of it..

@davidjoy7654 3 жыл бұрын

You are such a lovely honest natural girl. So glad you are recovering/in recovery. I wish you all the best for a great life and even more success with your music.

@latharna67 Жыл бұрын

Thank you for your honesty, Janet. Been out of hospital two days now, and I dread looking ahead, so I try not to. First time watching these type of videos, and you and others give me hope. Thank you for sharing your story, brave lady. love from Donegal.

@BG-cz8nk 4 жыл бұрын

I'm so proud of you. I was going to come in here with a joke of you being Irish and an alcoholic but then your honesty just hit me, your emotion was so hard to listen to in a sentimental way. You should be so proud of yourself for speaking about this. You didn't owe anyone this story and yet you told it, that takes huge guts! You are so so stunning and I could listen to you talk all day! Your smile is captivating and I wish you all the best! I hope you have the support you need to keep on a healthy road.

@BabvBlues 4 жыл бұрын

Proud of you! You’re helping so many people 💕

@janetdevlin 4 жыл бұрын

Universal Hobo thanks so so much lovely 💓💓

@coreymitchell55 3 жыл бұрын

Being an alcoholic is not an easy thing to admit but you're helping so many people, I'm very proud of you

@veganforever9703 3 жыл бұрын

@@janetdevlin keep it up you look amazing and are amazing

@hotbambi2010 2 жыл бұрын

@@janetdevlin I am a huge fan of yours and I am so far you have come

@jasonmossop1007 2 жыл бұрын

@@janetdevlin My name is Jason. I understand your message. Filling a void. The emptiness within... We need to fill this void. But because the void is negative we seek a negative solution. I can explain more if you need. Good luck. From a friend.

@noellefraser5573 2 жыл бұрын

I am 23 and became an alcoholic 2 years ago this has been the hardest and scariest thing that's ever happened to me thank you for being brave enough at such a young age. I only hope I can do the same one day.

@thehourglassfan3515 Жыл бұрын

Just stop. It’s not hard. Save your money to buy you some clothes or something. Why would you even want to buy alcohol?

@mandyylolo Жыл бұрын

@@thehourglassfan3515 it’s not that easy, if she’s been drinking for 2 years, her body will withdrawal and I’m sure she has experience with that if she’s tried stopping. Addiction is a horrible freaking disease

@chucklz555 3 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much for giving us a voice. Alcohol is absolutely deadly for some of us. It's great to see somebody that can reach so many people being so honest. I relate in every way to how you were feeling. I wish the best in your sobriety, can't imagine the pressures you face.

@johnnynotty 4 жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry you struggled with this for so long on your own. You found a way to hide it from others so well even yourself in many respects. Well done for keeping strong and finally now being a new better version of yourself. Perhaps a positive to take from this is how you can put this experience into all your music and create artistry beyond your past xx

@andrewhart6025 4 жыл бұрын

Wow that’s absolutely incredible. I mean I would never wish it on you (obviously) but your candour means so much. The fact that you’ve been a blessing for so many people for so long despite your personal struggles means even more to the people who love your talent and can relate to your struggles. Thank you again Janet for both your talent and your candour. Best of luck in your career and god bless your recovery.

@perfectlyimperfect_8528 3 жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing your truth with the entire platform. Knowing you have an issue, admitting the problem as then actually asking for help... that takes A LOT of courage & strength. The getting sober can be easy, STAYING SOBER is a daily battle. Some days are harder and then there are those days that seem just so easy. But I’m very proud of you not just for standing up and getting yourself help... But the fact that you’re willing to share it with people from literally all over the world. Your strength is amazing. I’ve been sober for 8yrs now myself. It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done but also the most rewarding thing I’ve ever had to do

@fraukeschmidt8364 2 жыл бұрын

Dear Janet, Thanks for your openness in sharing your story, it's inspiring. I have recently started going to AA and intend to go to one or two other 12-step programmes to overcome various addiction. Every time I hear another person talking about their journey, I am motivated to press on. I wish you all the best in all your endeavours, as well as love, joy and peace in your life.

@lilbev1876 4 жыл бұрын

12 years sober. Not alcohol but drugs. At the same age I was almost 21 when I went cold turkey and within 2 months I fell pregnant. And my son (now 11) saved my life so many times. He helped me through the dark times and the times I just wanted to go back not being sober. I think you are brave and beautiful and talented and I'm so happy for you and your sobriety 🖤

@carolebuckle7977 4 жыл бұрын

Vox Spectris well done you 👏🏻👏🏻xx

@janetdevlin 4 жыл бұрын

Congratulations on your sobriety!! ❤️🙏🏻

@danielabustamante4890 3 жыл бұрын

My God, I'm just bawling my eyes out. Everything you just said touched me because I can see how much pain you've been through and most importantly I can tell you understand hopelessness. It's hard to find people who know exactly how it feels to be in a pit and see no way out. And want no way out because they just want the pain to end. That's where I am right now and I live each day not knowing if I'll live long enough to find that joy & purpose within but you inspire that bit of hope left in me. You're honestly so special and I'm so glad you made this video. Love from Canada. :)

@missychevious3137 2 жыл бұрын

You're a very strong young lady Janet. You've faced a lot of demons in your young life but guess who's winning. You are. I also started young. Had my first drink (in a bar) at the age of 15. Just after I turned 20 my spouse gave me an ultimatum. Give up the booze or give up my spouse and the kids. I chose the later. 45 years sober and I don't regret a minute of it. I learned very quickly that I had to take it one day at a time. I sometimes reflect on my past and that helps to keep me on the straight and narrow. Be true to yourself Janet. Use your past experience to draw strength from. Take it one day at a time and stay strong.

@jaynemathiot6617 2 жыл бұрын

From another alcoholic to another - you are awesome. I loved your honesty, humbleness and raw emotion. We don't like ourselves at the time do we? I just love your spiritual growth and your bravery. Sobriety is awesome isn't it. Huge congratulations on 5 years - I guess it is more now. You are a beautiful and multi-talented individual. I hope that you love and respect yourself now. Thank you for inspiring us all.

@markdoherty3718 4 жыл бұрын

I'm so happy that you have come so far, stay strong and know that you have people that love and support you. Without getting into it I know so very well what you have and still are going through, so many hugs to you. You are one very strong young lady.

@HiddenAura1 4 жыл бұрын

The strength it took to sit and be that honest. I'm in awe of you. What you've been through... how you have pulled yourself back and hopefully help people in the same position. Thank you for keeping on keeping on!!

@josephhhuth 2 жыл бұрын

I don't have the words. Thank you for your share. Watching this I feel somewhat less alone. When you described the hate it was so powerful and so very familiar. The telling of worst moments with a sardonic grin and light-hearted laugh is a familiar MO as well. Oddly enough, I knew nothing of you before today and just stumbled on your videos. Glad I did.

@David-uf8xi 3 жыл бұрын

A massive thank you Janet!! This has been my first free day today. What a lovely video. David from South Yorkshire

@Ninkopi 4 жыл бұрын

I remember seeing you on tv and I was completely enchanted. I thought your shyness was charming, not weak (and I still don't think of you as weak, I just realised you thought of yourself that way and you're not). I've suffered with anxiety and I know how that feels. I'm sorry that you were alone and that didn't get the right help back then. But you're still young and it's wonderful that you're sharing this now and helping others with your story

@jah8875 4 жыл бұрын

Hi Janet. I've watched your audition so many times and thought you seemed like the most amazing person. I realise now that I underestimated how incredible you are. Thank you for your bravery in speaking about your struggle with alcohol. I think that if other people can see that someone who clearly has such a good heart and kind soul can feel inadequate then they may realise that they should doubt the validity of their own self-hate. Thank you for doing this and for making the world better. (THANKS AGAIN - YOU ARE AMAZING)

@rebeccasmith1419 11 ай бұрын

Thank you so much for a frank and heartfelt interview.I can relate to so much -I am 53 years old and loved it because you were so honest and I truly felt what you felt . In fact you've made me feel normal and that's what I needed -you've saved my life x

@lisagavin3402 3 жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing your story Janet. I know you are helping a lot of people. I just watched your duet with Englebert singing "Can't help falling in love". It was the best version I have ever heard!! Beautiful! Your voices compiement each other so beautifully!

@jameynealey6555 3 жыл бұрын

Hi Janet I'm a a drug addict I have been clean for a month and your honesty has been really refreshing and has helped me in so many ways! Thanks and I am now addicted to your voice and your smile! Thanks again!

@cody5012 3 жыл бұрын

You are so beautiful and I'm proud of you for bringing this topic up. It's such a hard thing to discuss and admit a weakness, but you have overcome it and you are living a great life. Keep it up Janet and don't forget that you have a huge supportive community that will always be there for you.

@stephencross5523 2 жыл бұрын

thank you for being so open and honest. my difficulty is depression. the darkness and hate of self is the same. the world was dark very black. no light. now I am moving forward sometimes on a back foot. but forw. ard. the support around me is good. but there is a level that know one else can relate unless they have done the same walk. hope all continues to go well for you in the future. you are one special Lady. love your music. bless you x

@MrJohnspex 2 жыл бұрын

Thank you for your honesty Janet. Wishing you all the very best. You are an amazing human being x

@damianstark5362 3 жыл бұрын

This is such a courageous thing to do. I admire your strength and honesty, and it reminds me (a long time sufferer of depression- so, relatable) to not hate myself for imagined wrongs. Thanks for the kick in the ass.

@mikeunderhill2934 4 жыл бұрын

Watched your audition of ‘Your Song’ on XFactor years ago and it was epic. Everybody has there difficulties in life and for you to come through a challenging time in this day and age but keep fighting, with the result of coming out on top, is admirable. Keep it up, much respect to yourself and carry on moving forward. Keep well and keep safe 👍

@hollyaltvater4621 Жыл бұрын

Props to you not easy getting sober awesome that your realizing while you're young the damage being an alcoholic can do. My father quit when he was 20 years old he's going on 40 years this New Year's. Alcoholism does not discriminate I was an alcoholic addict by the age 20 by the age 15. Just wanted to say awesome job keep it up one day at a time. I was at a meeting nobody showed up so I looked for a recovery video and I came across this. I live on the reservation native reservation in Maine and there is so much desperate need for Recovery here. Very sad to just watch everybody dying that I love. I just turned 42 and I am going on 14 months over it's my first time ever being sober. Tomorrow is Christmas and I am just grateful to be spending it with my two fur babies and very grateful that I'm sober. Keep up the good work!

@The_niceguy245 Жыл бұрын

Janet, so proud of you! You have no idea how many lives this video have/will save. God Bless xxxx

@rain30balan39 4 жыл бұрын

I feel like your talking about my life here janet you have no idea, your amazing to be so honestly, i respect you more then you realise, i think your book will help a lot of people, thankyou x the fact that you are at the point you are now shows just how aware and honest you are . Cant wait to hear your song .

@AnaSilva-sr9qw 3 жыл бұрын

My heart... My dad died 2 years ago, he was an alcoholic. I never got to grow a relationship with him, but I miss him, and I needed and need him everyday of my life. It is way more destructive than people think...Keep up with the good work, you have a beautiful soul and I wish you the best in life, grab it and live it ❤ i loved your video.

@annapaulaguelardi6502 3 жыл бұрын

I watched her first audition, and immediately loved it. She is beautiful, she has an incredible voice, but the greatest quality is the courage to report such an intimate problem. In addition to courage, she has humility, which can now help many other people with the same problem. She doesn't just have the voice of an angel, she is an angel. Thank you for sharing, hope you have a recovering full of love 🙏🏻❤️ You are amazing

@nntndofreak24 9 ай бұрын

hey Janet. i want to say thanks so much for this video and helping whoever is out there with this bad addiction. im so glad you have pulled through and are living the dream. My dad struggled with Alcoholism around the same age as you up until i was around 4 or 5 years old. the night that he finally woke up and saw that he had to stop and go find help was when he accidently crushed my pinky in a door. i was fine, just some scars that i still have to this day. but i feel like its a good reminder on how great my dad is for giving up his addiction so he could be the best dad he could be. Im 37 now so that tells u how long hes been sober for and im so proud of you for being able to do the same for yourself!. i also just lost a good friend last year from Alcoholism and i feel if i found this video when you released it, it could have helped him and he would still be here today. he was so lost for many years bc of the loss of his father to alcoholism he just started to drink his life away and no matter how much others tried to help him he couldnt get away from it and he was a musician like yourself. he was an amazing guitarist and had such a great talent and heart for music. i love what ive seen of you so far and hope you continue to have an amazing life! i just found you from an Ad on facebook last week and youve already made a big impression on me.

@missannaliese18 4 жыл бұрын

why am i only seeing this now, and ohmygosh you literally havent aged. and thanks for sharing. i love what you said, "The pain isn’t comfortable its familiar" it totally sucks. i battle with mental health and anger issues, but i know that every day i have to choose to be happy knowing my mind will take over, and that sucks but choosing to be happy or at least starting your day right helps. We love you Janet, excited for where your music will take you now, now that its pure you and in a stable mindset

@username178able 4 жыл бұрын

Janet, I’ve been a fan since hearing your marvelous X factor audition. Thank you for your honesty. It takes much courage to admit problems publicly, yet in doing so I’m sure you’ve touched many lives with your sincerity & openness. You’ve encouraged many to seek help & support to overcome this. God bless you! Stay well, you’re a lovely young woman with a beautiful voice 😊

@jackraschke4152 3 жыл бұрын

Watching this I want to say, Probably with many others, Thank you for your strength and courage to come out and talk about your alcoholism. It takes a very strong lady to do this. Much love to you!!