About 45 seconds before you said "I didn't enjoy my pregnancy" I burst into tears. Then you cried and I cried like a baby 😭 I'm 29 weeks along with my first. My mother loved being pregnant. I've struggled so much more than I thought I would. It's been such a strange experience. I'm starting to feel more calm now but we will see how that lasts 😂. I'm so excited for that moment of relief when I hear my baby is ok. Your videos help me feel prepared! Thank you for sharing your experience XOXO Nelly is beautiful 🥹

SHE IS NOW EARTH-SIDE AND AWESOME! Congratulations, Dr. Mama! What a great way for you to start the holidays!

My kids are 18 months and 2. No one warns you that they quickly go from being such a teeny tiny thing🥰 she’s so precious! Congrats Doc!

Doc!! I know you're an OBGYN, but you're human too, and it is totally valid to be completely overwhelmed by the speed and scenarios that led up to you delivering lil Nellie!! Please continue to listen to your intuition and take care of yourself. We can sense if something is off long before a lab test comes back. I'm so glad you're both healthy and well. I love the uodates but I also know the postpartum time goes by sooo fast and can be overwhelming, so if you need a break from content creation- take it!! Your health is way more important than the video! ❤

I am also an OB/GYN and had my first baby preterm (unplanned) 11 weeks ago. I identify with you in so many ways and I truly believe our experiences will make us better clinicians. I was so humbled by the experience of pregnancy, delivery, postpartum “blues”, and breastfeeding. Keep it up mama!

Amazing story. Birth is such a miracle. I am due in 4 months and my 1st delivery was very traumatic because of the domino effect of not needed interventions . This time around I am so so excited for the birth ! I am planning a home birth and just cannot wait until I hear the cry and see the gender of the baby. First time around I did not see the baby come out due to being put to sleep. Take care of yourself and congratulations again 🎉

Ob here too. I agree that as Ob's, our birth experiences, create amazing opportunities for insight and empathy for our patients. I can now truly relate to others, having gone through IVF, non-working epidurals, Cook balloon & pitocin, getting HELLP and magnesium (worse than I thought), unplanned cesarean section (could feel my partners closing fascia and skin given the not great epidural), triple feeds, etc. It's made me a better doctor for sure. Perspective is powerful.

Retired L&D/OR nurse. Your story telling took me back. Didn’t plan on tears with my coffee this morning. Becoming the pt. is such a weird experience, but also an invaluable gift passed onto your future pts. Congratulations on your beautiful daughter!

Girl I don’t know much about how a c-section works, but after having one…I can assure you we all feel just as much anxiety. I think it’s just a mom thing. Our intuition and heart knows something is off and as a mama that is terrifying. Sending you, hubby and baby girl lots of love.

“It’s hard but it’s the best.” Perfect summary of motherhood, every single stage. Beautiful!! 💕

I still remember that insane feeling of while your baby takes her first breath I also took what felt like my first breath if that makes sense. It was like I was as light as air again. All the anxiety and pressure and emotions just melted away like I had been holding my breath for 10 months. We are here for you, will be the best mommy!!💕

Congratulations doc! She’s so precious. Thanks for sharing your story. I am 13 weeks pregnant, it’s my first pregnancy.

I am an Ultrasound tech, and it is difficult to explain to non-medical people how I experienced my C-section... It is exactly like you say, you know every single step in the process so even though you don't feel, you do "feel" as you know every step and understand the process. The mental strain was also so intense, as I knew exactly what could go wrong... I was admitted for an emergency C-section at 37weeks after developing pre-eclampsia. At time of admission my blood pressure was 180/120, I had severe leg and hand swelling and protein in my urine. I had the perfect pregnancy until I didn't and then non of the meds helped and my BP just kept going up. It was very scary as I understood that there is a big risk that I could get a stroke or bleed out on the table... I just cried when she was born and I heard her cry! All my projections through my pregnancy prepared us for a really big baby, and I was not mentally ready for the tiny little human that I got at a mere 2.8kg (6.2lbs). She was also covered in vernix and full of tiny little hairs (on her shoulders, back and ears). After she was born I started shaking uncontrollably (side effect of the anaesthesia) so I couldn't do skin-to-skin which I was devastated about and was kept in recovery for about an hour to control the shaking... I'm from South Africa and over here they take the babies to the nursery along with dad, and while mom is in recovery they do skin-to-skin with dad :) My leg swelling and high blood pressure persisted for a month post-partum. In the end all was well and we had a healthy baby and healthy mom. Our tiny princess is now 7years old and soooooo tall. But nothing could prepare me for how tiny she was after birth - she worn newborn clothes and a size 0 nappy for 4 months... My mother-in-law had to go shopping urgently as we had no newborn size clothing as her projected birth weight was 4,8kg (10.5lbs)

My granddaughter (first grandbaby 🥰) was born on November 10th! Hearing your story made me cry. My mamma heart hurt for you. So glad Nellie is doing so well!!!❤❤❤ Praise God!!!

Oh bless you, I write this as you’re crying. Don’t feel guilty about not enjoying being pregnant. I have two children, and was hospitalised during both pregnancies. The anxiety, the stress!!! Most important; you’re okay and so is your baby! She’s beautiful. Thanks for sharing, pregnancy is hard and, as you know more than any of us, it doesn’t always go to plan. Congratulations!

Congratulations to you, Cory and Nellie! I loved how you said it will make you a better clinician. I have found that a kind and caring doctor makes needing care so less scary.

Congratulations mama! There is nothing like having that little baby in your arms ❤ enjoy every minute, it goes by way too fast!

Beautiful story ❤ I've had 3 c sections and that tugging and pulling is real. Feels so weird and uncomfortable. I remember the doc/nurses counting their tools at the end and I didn't quite know why then lol. Your baby is so precious. Enjoy her. They grow up super fast. ❤

Brings back a flood of memories-some positive & some not so much. 3 kids & all 3 were C-Sect due to severe preclampsia all thru pregnancies. But, all 3 kids are now in their 30's. Loved the honesty & emotions.

When I was pregnant with my 2nd I was in nursing school and it was during my OB semester/clinical! When I tell you I was soooo anxious because of everything I had learned. I thought everything was going to go wrong with my baby. But he’s a happy healthy 5 yr old! Those anxious predictions are the worse! Congratulations! She’s beautiful!

So happy to see you're both healthy and doing well! Beautiful baby and beautiful Mama! Thanks for sharing with us Dr.! 💖

That sense of relief you describe when you heard her cry, I totally felt that too. I had the same issues, oligo and having a breech baby and delivering at 36 weeks (actually on 11/11 as well!) and I was so worried the whole time I was pregnant that something was wrong and he wouldn’t be okay. I absolutely sobbed when I heard his cry because of the relief and the hormones, it was such a beautiful moment. I’ve enjoyed following along during your pregnancy and I’m so glad that both our babies are safe and healthy!

Congratulations!! Had my c section on 11/8/23 and our stories are VERY similar. I was 38.5 weeks. My little one is doing well, doing breast milk and supplementing bc she lost a lb last week but it was all in all a great experience. As an older mom, the anxiety you spoke about during pregnancy was HORRIBLE. I was convinced my baby wasn’t going to make it to the end and therefore I had no life the last 2 months of pregnancy. I had 3x avg fluid and no gestational diabetes. It just wasn’t ideal lol. So happy for you. Have a Happy Holiday Season with your bubba.

I loved your story! Thank you for sharing! I totally understand that relief of hearing that very first cry! My son was born at 38 weeks and came out very dusky and not really crying. They had to take him over to the warmer and call a NICU nurse to assess him because his breathing was too slow and he needed some oxygen. As soon as he let out that loud vigorous cry I lost it! I cried tears of joy and relief! 💙 Congrats again Dr. Ali. Nellie is so perfect and you are doing great! ❤️

I just found you a few weeks ago and watching your videos has been healing. Congratulations! I just got diagnosed with ovarian cancer last monday before Thanksgiving and lost an ovary on November 14th. I am 37. I beat breast cancer at age 33. I am grieving. Despite that, this makes me so unbelievably happy! Seriously. It gives me hope or it’s just really nice to hear the honesty. It sounds like you had a few rough things, and I am so glad things are okay! I will continue to watch your videos! Wishing you a good recovery.❤🎉

Thank you for verbalizing these very intense feelings! It makes me feel less ashamed of how difficult both my pregnancies and deliveries were and the completely crippling anxiety I felt the entire duration of my pregnancies. That moment the pediatric doctors finally told me they were both okay were the 2 most reliving happy moments of my life.

My after birth pains were so terrible with babies 4 and 5. Every time I nursed was agonizing. I could've used a tap block. You look beautiful and baby is perfect! Congratulations and thanks for sharing with us!

As someone who has gone through the c-section experience twice, it is comforting to have an OBGYN experience and talk about it. I think it helps makes you more understanding of your patients. I had a terrible experience with my first doctor and I would never want any other woman to go through what I did. Congrats on the addition mama!

Thank you so much for sharing your story-it helps alleviate my anxiety around my upcoming c-section. I’m 42, and 39 weeks pregnant, and I went in to be induced for vaginal delivery on Thanksgiving, but my baby (who had been head down, but not engaged) had rotated and is now breech. So I was scheduled to have a c-section that night, but the hospital changed their protocol in October and no one realized it until an hour before my surgery, so it was canceled because it wasn’t an emergency situation. And then the scheduling was closed for the holidays. So now my doctor has to call on Monday and hope for a Tuesday opening-and I am so nervous. But seriously: hearing your story has helped make this process a lot less scary.

Congratulations on your new arrival ❤❤❤❤. Don't lift heavy things. Don't drive. Get rest when she is sleeping. I had two C-Sections. 😢😢😢😢😢

Congratulations!!! I’m at almost 30 weeks ❤ can’t wait to hold my baby

Thank you so much for sharing this. Your baby is perfect and you are doing amazing too! I will be giving birth in a few days and I am having the same emotions you are describing. Praying for our healthy babies.

I also had very high anxiety during my pregnancy after experiencing a loss at 19 weeks in my previous pregnancy and hearing my rainbow baby cry felt like a weight was taken off my chest. So happy for you and your family.

Thank you so much for sharing your experience. I am enjoying my pregnancy now but it was hard at the beginning because I was so worried about my baby and I felt like nobody understood that feeling. I finally feel understood and not alone. Thanks again!

Isn’t it AWSOME!!! my labor and delivery is still so fresh. In my mind. All three of them I started very young I’m 57 years old now and I know it’s crazy but I actually enjoyed my pregnancy!! Got pregnant The end of ninth grade I took summer school to get ahead I did graduate. I would love to share my story on a platform, I just really enjoy your content and emotional hearing your story. Congratulations to you and your husband, a little Ellie.

I am so not maternal (but also find this stuff so fascinating and love your videos!) and babies- especially newborns- never really get me. But your sweet baby is just so cute even my ice-cold no-maternal-bone-in-my-body got emotional at the pics of Nellie! Good job mama, she's perfect 💕

Hi Dr.Ali, congrats on your baby! I wanted to tell you that baby Nellie was born on such a special day. 11.11.1918 Poland came back to maps after 123 years being completely gone due to being decided between todays Germany, Austria and Russia! I’ve never been pregnant and tbh I dread that part and I can feel I will not enjoy it😅 So much love for all your family ❤

I didn’t think I’d be crying with you. I also didn’t enjoy being pregnant with any of my 3 girls. I love them all & couldn’t picture life w/out them. I always say that I’m glad I had my girls before I became an L&D RN cuz I know too much now. They say ignorance is bliss.

Hi Dr. Ali! I have been watching your videos for months now (even though I just hit the subscribe button about a week ago, but i promise i have watched A LOT of your videos and you tube shorts). I find them very educational and fun and exciting! I'm so glad to know you and Corey have a healthy beautiful baby girl! You are both great parents already! 😊. I'm currently 38 y.o., 37w4d pregnant for the 2nd time (my first child is 19 y.o.) So it's basically like I'm starting all over again! I have found your videos so helpful! Thank you for all that you do! It's very helpful to us pregnant women out here, and it's awesome learning from a pregnant OBGYN and watching your experience. Thank you! I'm so happy for you that Nellie was born healthy and beautiful, and that you can just relax now and enjoy her! (It's always a big relief once they are born and you can actually see and hear your baby's first cry) You are absolutely beautiful also! And you are very strong! 🙂

So happy for you to have your little one in your arms now! She's so perfect. ❤️

Ive followed you on TikTok for years, and it was absolutely intentional. Without you even knowing it, you were a huge part of my pregnancy and postpartum journey. I was only 18 and I was so confused and scared so I decided to follow an OB on TikTok, that was you. I watched every KZfaq video, even the TikTok shorts. The way you talk about and admire your child is so beautiful. Motherhood looks fabulous on you, welcome ❤

Congrats Dr. Mama!!! This video made me tear up. I'm so glad that you and Nelly are safe and healthy. Congrats again!!!

The instant relief I had after my kids were born. I felt the same way.

Thank you for candid share of your experience. I do believe it would help u in your practice. My C-sec was with gen anesthesia (my blood pallets were going down for a lil more that a week) I wasn't awake so I have no idea what was going on and my husband wasn't allowed in the surgery room. I remembered the horrible pain I felt when I woke up from anesthesia and listening to my anesthesiologist "give me the morphine" and going off again. I heard my husband telling me "el nene pesó 8lbs 15oz" and then I woke up next day.

Wow. Dr. You look amazing only 9 days post-delivery! The baby is just beautiful! So happy to see everyone is doing great. ♥️

Im so glad we have strong women in the world like you ❤ congrats to you and your family!

I've been finding your videos so helpful as a soon to be 1st time mom with AMA (due in May) & wish you were my doc! Congratulations, she is beautiful just like you🫶🏾

She’s such a little doll! Congratulations 💗 edit: I’m crying it brought me back to my daughters birth and the raw emotions

CONGRATULATIONS MOMMY AND FAMILY !!! SHE IS SO BEAUTIFUL!!!

Happy that everyone is healthy and well! I hated my c section experience. I felt pain, they didn’t do any of what you’ve said. It was awful, it gave me PTSD. I feel like I felt a lot more than I should’ve. Recovery was a bit rough too and them pressing on your uterus was wild. Wishing you all the best! Beautiful mom and baby! ❤

I just had my first baby this month on the 8th and I actually felt a lot of pain during my cesarean. I also ended up hemorrhaging and needing a transfusion. It was honestly very traumatic. I’m honestly very grateful to God my baby is healthy and I’m recovering. Congrats on your baby she is beautiful God bless.❤

Congratulations. I had Pre-Eclampsia with both of my premies. Emergency C-sections both after being in labour. They are now 40 and 44. Enjoy every minute. Time goes by too fast. Welcome to the world Little Eleanor! ❤️❤️

I am so glad your precious little girl arrived safely and that she’s healthy! I am 18 weeks pregnant right now. I am pretty scared about birth, but mainly because I have all this knowledge about natural birth, and that’s not what I’m doing. Hearing your story was encouraging, just knowing that no matter what you go through, that sweet little baby is totally worth it. Thank you for sharing all of this with us, and I hope you enjoy the newborn stage!

The way I squealed when I saw this pop up!! Congratulations Dr. mama, I’m so excited for you guys!!

Oh my good lord in heaven, she’s so precious 😭❤️❤️❤️

Omg I’m 30 weeks pregnant today and I’m crying with you! Congratulations mama! She is precious

Congratulations! Eleanor is absolutely beautiful! You are blessed to have eachother! Enjoy your special time together!

I’m crying because I also did not like being pregnant and it was because I was just so worried all the time, but as soon as my babies were born I could breath! You are already an amazing mom!

Silent subscriber but now am ready to comment.. congrats doc am happy for you guys ♥️♥️♥️♥️ from Kenya.

Crazy, I’ve been watching your videos for awhile and we have almost the exact same birth story, one day apart. 36 week C-Section , low fluid, breech baby, 11/10. Thank you for providing so much insight, I feel better when I know more about what’s going on. congratulations and welcome to the world baby Nellie!

I felt that same relief when my baby was born last month. It was pure bliss to have her out of my body and finally see her move, cry, breath, alive and well. It also felt wonderful to not be pregnant anymore. despite the lack of sleep and the recovery from birth, I feel so good and so much better than when I was pregnant.

The moment that you spoke about how relieved you were after you gave birth touched my heart. I am currently 24 weeks pregnant and miscarried. The anxiety is overwhelming and I feel so disconnected because of my anxiety. So when you said pregnancy was miserable, I feel you. It's exactly how I feel. I am just constantly worried, it's happy to know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

Having multiple losses and three babies, for different reasons I understand that release in relief

Congrats Dr. Ali, I too had a C-section back in 2000, my son was breech and I had eclampsia. My blood pressure was 200 over 100 something and after my son was born my BP was 60 something over 40 something. I was a walking miracle.

This was so beautiful!! I think it’s amazing that as an OBGYN you can now relate to your patients on a different level than before and that will make you an even better Dr. Congratulations on your little one. This brought me so much joy.

It is so hard when you know everything that could happen and are going to happen. I was a L& D nurse and then worked in the OR for 18 years. I can completely understand. I went through the same feelings and anxieties when I was pregnant. I had hyperemesis with my first. I was hospitalized 3 times during the first 6 months when I was vomiting morning, noon and night. I worked afternoon shift at the time. When we would go to the cafeteria for lunch, everyone went with me and nobody would buy any food. I would usually have 2 trays because I was so hungry at that point, I would sit down to eat and the smell of the food would hit me and I would fly to the bathroom. When I would get back, all the food would be gone from the tray and they were all eating. Lol. I was sick for 6 and 1/2 months and went into preterm labor at 7 months. You are doing amazing and Ellie is beautiful. Congrats ❤❤❤

I had my son at 36 weeks Emergency C-section due to preeclampsia. He was 2.3kg so tiny 😢 he’s 11 months old now and thriving 😁. It’s nice hearing similar stories to my birth.

I started crying at the exact moment you did. I am currently 23 weeks with my first kiddo and I am also a postpartum nurse. I think it’s a blessing getting to know as much as I do but the anxiety I feel is pretty crazy sometimes. 😅I see too much at work and it makes me worry more than o should. It’s nice to know I’m not alone. Congratulations mama. 💖Nellie is beautiful! Thank you for sharing your story.

Im Crying! You describing your feelings after she was delivered almost mirrored my own. My 2nd pregnancy was also stressful and I spent the whole time an anxious mess. My son was also growth restricted and I worried up until the minute that he was born and it was such a RELIEF! You said it best, it was the biggest sigh of relief I had taken my whole pregnancy. Good job mama & Congratulations on your beautiful baby girl!

Thanks for sharing your story. My daughter was born almost a year ago and I started tearing up with you when you talked about the relief you felt as soon as she was born. I felt the same way during my pregnancy - even though I am not a doctor myself, I struggled with anxiety during my pregnancy and so much of that disappeared when she was born. When my friends and family talk about postpartum anxiety, I don’t have a lot to add because my anxiety was really centered on pregnancy and not being able to see her and make sure she was okay. Wishing you and your baby the best!

Thank you for sharing your story! It seems medical people always have crazy deliveries it seems! I work in radiology and I had HELLP and had to deliver my daughter at 28 wks she is now almost 6 and doing amazing

OMG i am not a doctor or anywhere close to being but I never imagined during my pregnancy that I would go 2 weeks late and have to have an emergency c section, but the way you described the feeling when you heard her cry. That was how I felt. While laying on the table during surgery I was thinking this is crazy how did i end up here and when the doctor said I had a little boy and heard him cry (we waited to find out the gender) but I felt like the world had been lifted off of me knowing he was okay. It's so hard to even explain the experience. It makes me feel so much better to hear someone that I can relate the most with, because all my sister's and friends just didn't have that type of experience or even the emotions like i went through

I am in wk 35 my pains "pelvic" ans side pains are killing me at night.. i am supposed to have my c section in wk 39.. my mum was supposed to come from UK and unfortunately she fell few days ago broke her arm and then had a huge surgery and now im 4 wks away from my c section i have a 7 yo boy.. my husband works 15 hrs a day.. idk what am i going to do how am i going to go through all this alone.. i love my mum I can't imagine anything without her her... and now i have no options i have faith in Allah only.. Ive been following your journey from instagram.. and i cried watching your video.. Thankyou for all the information and knowledge youve shared throughout.. God bless mama!! ❤❤❤❤

This is the happiest I’ve ever seen you

Thank you for sharing your experience and congratulations on your new baby such a happy ending. I felt the same sense of relief when I heard my baby crying. Your experience is gonna be a game changer for treating your patients.......they will be lucky to have you in their corner especially if they are high-risk. What's up with all this Percocet & Oxytocin use in the US? In the Caribbean we mostly use Diclofenac Sodium or Potassium for most post-surgery patients - it works well to treat inflammation & pain. I realize many providers in the US are not familiar with it🤷🏽‍♀️

Fed is best. Your doing amazing. These postpartum days are so dreamlike. Be kind to yourself mama. It just changes everyday

Thank You Lord for a safe delivery of Nelly and for putting Your hand on Dr. Ali. I’m so grateful and happy baby is here ❤🎄

Thank you for sharing your story!! It’s so important. I had preeclampsia with my first and third and GD with my second and third. That swelling is no joke!!

Not me crying 😭❤️ I can't wait for my angel one day

Congratulations to you, Mama. Blessings to Nellie. I loved hearing how you were able to advocate for you and your baby as an OB and a mama. That feeling of relief is so strong. I had 5 c- sections, the last one 24 years ago, a tap block would have been very appreciated.

I had a c section and they didn’t ask me if I wanted to do skin to skin and she was perfectly healthy I was so sad it’s what I looked forward to so much! But nonetheless I’m just thankful I have a healthy baby! I cried with you!

Congrats Dr. ALI! ❤❤❤ I cried with you , it is such a relief when you see them come out. God bless you and your family!

I had my first baby this past March (emergency c-section due to cord prolapse) and absolutely hated my c-section experience. Not only because of the shock of such a sudden and very scary turn of events, but I was naïve in thinking I didn't have to learn anything about c-sections because nobody in my family had ever needed one, and thought I'd be the same. 🤦🏼‍♀️ I had absolutely no clue what was going on or what to expect, and the feeling of being squeezed like a tube of toothpaste will never leave my memory. I'd do it all over again 1000x for my baby girl, though. It only gets better and better watching her little personality come through. 🥰

Because you have gone through this you will be a much more empathetic Dr to your future patients! ❤ you did great! Congratulations on your beautiful daughter!

Yaaaaaay! 🎉🎉🎉 Elly Jane is here! Grats, Dr. Ali! ❤

You're glowing with such happiness and love. I remember those days. You're tired but everything is just so worth it. To look at what you created is surreal. Thank you for telling your amazing story. We love you too ❤ and congratulations!!

Thank You for these videos. 🥰 Congratulations Momma. Prayers for a healthy postpartum, your emotions, your heart and for God to guide you in Eleanor’s life. 🩷🙏🏼 Dios Los Bendiga!!

Congratulations! Parenting is so hard but so worth it! Eleanor is such a cutie!!!

i feel like this was so important for me to see, thank you for sharing your story. your vulnerability is so commendable thank you thank you

She’s precious! Could you please share more about what happened with your preeclampsia after delivery? How is your BP postpartum? Mine got way worse after delivery.

I’m pregnant with baby number 2 currently. With my first, I had an emergency c section at 30 weeks due to preeclampsia. When she came out and cried I was so happy. You got me crying over here. Lol I’m so glad you two are ok

This will make you a better, more empathetic doctor. Glad for your happy ending! She is beautiful!!!

So happy for you! Thank G-d everyone is safe and happy! It is so emotional! you dont realize until you have your own child how emotions play a huge role in pregnancy/birth. I have a blood incompatibility with my husband and thank G-d we have 3 healthy children. We didnt know of the issue till after my first blood test from my second pregnancy came back and it was pretty scary. It just makes me realize how thankful I have to be for each step of the way. Congrats and feel good!!!!

Congratulations Dr. Ali and Cory! Thank you for sharing your experience with us. I’m so glad that everything went well from delivery to pp. sending you all my love and prayers ❤

Aw Congratulations, the description of the c-section where everyone has to agree I feel is very useful to people who are going to undergo this procedure🎉 ❤❤ she is beautiful 😍

Congratulations! My baby is 5 weeks old. It’s so nice seeing others on YT go through the same stage. Hope you have a smooth postpartum journey

This made me very emotional even though I’ve never been pregnant. I loved the transparency. Congrats on your new baby!

I love your channel Ali. I have had the blessings of adopting our first and getting pregnant and having our second at 40. Both were amazing experiences. Blessings to your family!

By watching your tiktoks I can tell that you’re a great obgyn and now watching your birth experience I know that you’ll be 100x better as an obgyn. If that makes any sense lol. Thank god you’re healthy and baby girl is healthy❤

I had a similar experience with you in my pregnancy. I am also a first mom, and becoming a first mom experiencing preeclampsia, a c-section and a baby born premature, it was really scary and overwhelming. It's like everything happened in a blink of an eye. Before my c-section, I was brought to the hospital for observation first to try and lower my blood pressure since it was 150/100 it would only go down 130. So the doctor decided to do the c-section, also my amniotic fluid started to decrease. And, my baby born was born premature 34-35 weeks, also had a growth restriction, weighed 1.300 kg. He is now 18 months thriving and is developmentally catched up with his age, but is small for his age. I went through the same feelings you felt, doubt, guilt, angry at myself etc. But after birth, holding him for the KMC, I felt proud and proud of him. ❤ You got this! ❤ Congratulations!