I felt so identified with your story, when I was a lad I used to have fixations with topics such as Geography before turning 10, I learnt all the countries and their capitals,there was a moment when I was obsessed with United States and learnt the 50 states joined their capital cities and the whole presidents and so on, I also used to talk to myself and walk around my school's playground ,throw tantrums , and of course misunderstand idioms like " cutting corners" I reckoned it was scissors that were cutting a corner into many pieces lol anyway great listening to you :)

When it comes to honesty, it's really bad, I will tell people what is up. No matter who it offends. I don't do it in order to make people feel bad or to be an asshole, I do it simply because I value the truth above everything else. Peoples feelings doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things. I was conditioned in a young age to understand the human dynamics though so I didn't struggle all that much with that, I also was involved with antisocial people apparently so I didn't struggle with that once again. Later on in life I was incredibly interested in human psychology (which is really common with autists according to my psychologists). So I can understand human interaction on a fairly deep level and understand why they behave the way they do but I kind of lack the inherent "feel" of why they act the way they do. Let's be a creep while we're at it, you're really pretty btw.

You go, girl! I have watched this before it was deleted. I am 10 years your senior, but relate so much! Strut your stuff.

I can see nearly most of your behaviour traits as a child in my 4 year old daughter. She has been diagnosed as on the Autism Spectrum. Hearing you speak has helped me to understand my girl. Thank you soo much for talking about your autism.

I have adhd and i am also self diagnosed as autistic(can’t get an official diagnosis right now) and though i don’t remember much from my childhood only from my parents stories here are my childhood autistic traits:1. Had fixed obsessions and was obsessing over certain interests and topics(some long term and others Short term) like growing up i was obsessed with daisy duck and i wanted to become a duck so i made duck noises all the time . I was also obsessed with animals and knew every damn things about animals and knew things beyond my age and was thought as a gifted child. Learned to talk early and knew to read before i started school.My social skills were always subpar. I’d mimic ppl on tv and come across as dramatic and unappropriate bcuz i was using all phrases i didn’t understand. Like i was always obsessed with a certain tv character that i’d try to mimic and act like that(still lowkey do it but back then it was going to a point where you’d ask my name and i’d say cinderella).Or was copying still am people around me and come across as unnatural. Only wanted to have it my way as a kid and would make these elaborate scenarios and when playing with kids they had to play it as i said otherwise i’d lash out for “ruining my vision”. It wasnt that i was shy and i wanted friends it was just that i was pretty weird and not willing to compromise my vision.Wasn’t much into cuddling and stuff don’t hate it but was never that affectionate. I always had a better bond with animals than with people. Poor motor skills(didn’t realize it was a sign of autism but while being academically gifted my practical skills were always 0. You Could show me 100 times how you do an origami and still have no clue). Not to mention being an extremely picky eater like still am but as a kid was even worse. I was really temperamental and would have(still have) poor emotional control and had a lot of tantrums.From what i remember i could cope pretty well with change in fact i kind of craved it

Well done for getting it back up! I’ve got my friends and family watching you 💖

Great video 👏 It's nice to see this kind of information shared in a relaxed relatable way and with some humour too 🙂 Thanks for sharing.

I am the very same way! Everything for me has to be just right or I go into a huge meltdown. I used to line up cars, I used to play by myself, and my favorite toy, was poker chips. Loud noises for me, is also a big issue. I have to wear headphone with music playing to stay calm. So yes, I too have autism.

Good to have you back sweetheart love this video so proud xx

Hi, I love your KZfaq videos. I’m autistic too, everything you’ve said in the videos relates to me completely. Please 🙏 can you make more videos? They are helping me to understand myself. Thank you

Omg same! Love this video! It's wonderfully made. ☺️

Go Hollie yesssss it’s back xx

Teachers always bothered me in Nursery by trying to take stuff away and force me to share (my own stuff) or complained if I drew during classes even if other children were being hooligans. People always has this habit of forcing us to socialise or be in crowded rooms even through there is no purpose in it. It stresses you out until you start arguing yet you do not seek an seek argument.

Hi There You Seem Nice You don't need to be ashamed at all. I'm a Man & Aged 24 I got the Diagnosis at The Age of 16 My Entire Childhood nobody knew of it.😔😔😔😔😔😔😔 They where Conflicts Changes where Difficult Eyecontact(Even Now Sometimes) I Really was Struggeling to do it. I Destroyed Toys & Books to deal with Problems at School. I could not speak to other kids as Easily or as often as expected.

Since last night I been searching and this the first video that straight to the point

Thanks for sharing your story. I understand and have so much in common. I'm a guy 26 years old.

That was quite insightful, learned a lot. I didn't know I was autistic until about 43 years old. It sucks to go through life knowing you're different and knowing that you struggle without knowing why. Once you know why, it takes a bit of weight off of your shoulders. It's also nice to have an understanding of why things are the way they are. I know a little bit more about when I should be patient with myself.

Great video! My daughter is 10 and can highly relate to your childhood.

Very good. Can relate!

Conversations with your brain?? That's so adorable :3

Thank you for this video.

So helpful thank you

I'm gonna to get a test soon to see anything and everything I have cuz my mum thinks I have autism but I have read about lots of other things that I comply with to but I really don't want to have autism because I'm scared my friends will think I'm really weird. I also have really bad anxiety so that doesn't help either so I hope it goes well for me and I'm sure even If I do have autism and more it'll probably be ok right?! Anyways I really enjoyed watching your video!!

Holy crap you're a girl version of me when I was younger :O like so many things, sticking up hair, the food touching with I still like most of the foods separate, its crazy also liked the video too :)

I didn’t walk till I was 3 I didn’t really talk when I was 2 I only said a few words I only had 1 friend when I was 5 I ate peanut butter toast every morning before school cut into 4 slices I’d eat apples and peanut butter after school I always retreated into a safe quiet space when parties happened I had 2 friends during elementary school I got bullied I heard voices in my head I would flap my hands, twiddle my thumbs, I’d clasp my thumb around each finger on both handy, I don’t understand jokes, some of the time I do but I take things quite literally, I don’t do sarcasm I struggle with eye contact I hate change Etc. does it seem like I’m autistic? I also get sensory issues

Omg the bump on the head I could relate! Lol I had anxiety when my grandma would do my hair, because the bump would keep sticking up

I am 42 and have "conversation with my brain" since I can remember

Love this so much

Honestly I'm autistic too. Very real 👍👍👍

Thanks for the share

Lol, when i was in the 3rd grade, i was in library and a student picked up a book. I noticed the book and remember thinking i didn’t like the book she picked up. Even though i didn’t know the girl (this was my 2nd day at this new school), and all i did was share my two cents with the girl and told her that the book she picked up is dumb. Lol. She tattled on me and i got in trouble for a "put down". All the kids thought i was the rude new girl, but by week two, i was no longer the rude kid, but i was the weird kid.

Wow my daugther had so much of these signs but she would destory everything at school but most of the time be calm at home. The talking to herself was something i thought was normal her imaginary friends i thought was also normal but her teachers said qhere it becomes not normal is when she perfers to be in a fantasy world 90% of the time over playing with others. Your story sounds like my 7yr old daugthers.

you are amazing person

You made me realise a trait I had as a child! Every single night before bed I would have to have weetbix (wheat brick cereal)! My mum also said my little brother now who I suspect is autistic does the same thing with toast. I'm talking every single night before bed.

13:33 I know this is inappropriate but this had me on the floor laughing for some reason 💀 ☠

From the description: Go watch my previous videos. How to prevent a meltdown- • How to prevent a MELTDOWN// AUTISTIC ... My autism diagnosis- • How to prevent a MELTDOWN// AUTISTIC ...

You're a cool person!

I watched it and like it

Your mom had the patient of a saint. Seriously! And it always shocks me how not enough empathy autistic people have for the level of dedication and patience of their caretakers. Saying this as another person with autism whose mom was also a saint and also deserves her statue in the town square for the crazy amount she had to put up with. I KNOW I could never!😂

You are so cute!💗

Gutted for you about having the video deleted! (was it your fault?) Hope your success continues!!

I might’ve forgotten some stuff but it’s ok

3:07 litterally me 🤭

We’ve tried everything, but the holistic treatment plan suggested by Dr Oyalo finally showed results. The combination of a gluten-free diet and specific vitamins has improved my son’s communication and focus

I have sock drama too

you are a boss.

lol when i was a kid i have both autism and ocd

Oh yeah after school I’d curl into a ball and withdraw into myself

Can’t even tell

Do girls with Autism go On Dates? How Do You eel About Boys? Thanks Hollie!

Omg! My daughter talks to leaves, pinecones, rocks, etc. she’s almost 8. She likes to spin and talk to herself as well

Blm

My autism is bad i don't like it

Everyone's brain is different. People can learn social skills and can decrease nerve sensitivity. Some people like to focus on stuff. I don't think this stuff should be labeled autism.