I already know Im going to get a lot of question on this so I will just put it here! The group that I was a part of was a group called Blady. It was a pretty underrated group but to those of you guys who already knew 👍

wow you know being an idol is tough when the cons get 10 mins and the pros 5 mins

Lots of people are unaware of what happens behind the scenes, it was good to hear about both, your good and not so good experiences, Thank you for sharing!

The more I get to know the kpop industry, the more it’s gets disgusting. It’s not like the fairytales, it’s hardship behind hardship, and nobody really think about that. We see all these successful idols, but we will never know what they really had to pass by to be on they are now. And the worst is: not everybody will have the chance to be on top (especially those who are from small/underrated companies). It’s so sad when you think about it. I’m glad that you had courage to talk about your personal experiences, and I wish for you just the best. ❤️ You nice, keep going.

Oh my goodness!! It’s finally here 😭💕

I was a trainee in early 2000s. Wasnt the same then.

love u no matter whatt💗

Can you please all enlighten us about lipsynching, prerecorded performances, thoughts on MR removed videos, and the likes? I think thoughts coming from you will definitely help us understand more rather than judging kpop idols because you are one yourself. Starting to love your videos, please do more in the future 🙏💕

I think what is the most shocking thing is that we can barely see the hardship the idols go through. The are so good at HIDING their pain and thats what makes me respect them a lot because of the things they go through. We often tell idols and criticize them for their performance, their attitude etc., but we really do underestimate their "behind the scenes"

People, the group she was in is literally pinned in the top comment. It's scary how many people neglect to read it, it's right underneath where you're typing.

The harsh truth about the Kpop industry. Spill the tea

Can you make a video about your transition out of being an idol?

When u said u are being portrayed as someone else, i rmb SHINee Jonghyun had said sth like that too and he's scared people would not like him if he is being himself ....i miss him so much 😭

It breaks my heart when I think about all the groups that don’t get to promote on music programs. I actually cried this year when I saw Saturday make it on. Your story breaks my heart. I will keep trying to support underrated and rookie groups and show them as much love as I can.

I'm only 12 , and I already have anxiety, mild depression, and social phobia. I can't imagine what it's like to be an idol.

Aw Christine, you looked as if you were about to cry at the end of the video. Hope you feel a bit better now after talking about it. Sending a virtual hug towards you~ Keep up the good work on your channel! Fighting! ❤️❤️

Most "flop turn youtuber" always making video full of rant and being salty about being K-pop Idol with click bait title. But you seem to be genuine about sharing your experience. Glad you also share your happy side on being K-pop idol. People tends to forget that being an Idol is a lifelong dream for some people.

Taking out one's own identity and putting out a "perfect image" is one mistake that idol companies are making. They always send a wrong message to the public that idols are perfect and that they can never go wrong. No wonder that some fans bash their idols, to the extent of petitioning them to be evicted from their group, once they get involve in some "scandals". Why not let that person be who they are? If the "scandal" is forgivable, then give them a second chance. At least, ppl will see that these idols are not at all perfect and that they are also just like you and me. It might even help with their anxiety and other mental issues.

Tina! would you consider doing song covers? Please? your voice is so soothing and sweet I really want to listen to you sing ;w; (you dont have to!

I can't believe they'd want you to be someone else. You seem so sweet and genuine! I think that's why so many idols develop depression because their humanity is taken away from them. It's very sad, companies and fans seem to forget that they're human and individuals who are not cookie cutter perfect all the time. I hope you now have the freedom to explore your talents and passions without so much pressure and stress.

I feel like small and big companies both have their advantages and disadvantages and trainees of both have their own hardships. However some others believe that groups from smaller companies suffer more because their success isn’t guaranteed (although trainees of all companies have uncertainty and can be kicked out at anytime as well I think?), and others compare it to small universities and big universities. I’m really curious what you think about it! It’s been debated by many people but as you experienced trainee life, what do you think?

Thanks for being open and letting us get an insider look on your idol experience 👍🙏

SHE will probably earn very much more here

People who are two-faced in their work have a problem with their work ethics. It's not you. Sorry to hear how they treated you! :(

Have to say I disagree with your statement that it's 'understandable' that she treated you that way because you were in 'a rookie group' you are a human being gurl, we all deserve to be treated with respect, manners cost nothing and that girl clearly had none 🙄 glad you have a good head on your shoulders, another great video, thank you ❤️

i hope kpop in general can loosen up. its ok to not be perfect...clearly we see so many people with great fun personalities being suppressed into a certain image. .. but business side of everything always is terrible. i wish companies and people werent so money hungry..and that sucks when you have lack of creative input_ it really does sound like you were being a robot...but trapped thanks for sharing:)

I almost became an idol. I got a business card from a company and made it through the audition. I was excited but when we became trainees, the mentors they got for us were so rude and shady. Like it wasn’t even just being strict to make us dance better. They were extremely toxic. They overworked us and we showed that we were exhausted but they would keep telling us “just one more time” but it was never one more time. One time, one of the other trainees was on her period one time and she informed the mentor. The mentor was a female too. So you’d think she’d understand but she literally gave her a tampon and told her she needed to still dance like she would when she wasn’t on period. It wasn’t just the mentors too. The CEO was extremely toxic too and would often comment on our weight and would feed us quarter of what they normally would for lunch every time they thought we gained weight and try and they’re rules were actually stupid. There were 5 of us and eventually the 2nd member who joined quit and soon after everyone else followed. Worsts experience ever. So watching this video makes me feel so much more relieved that I quit before getting further involved

I’ve been binge watching your series from the start and I noticed you’re such a kind hearted soul 🥺 with a genuine passion for music and performing ❤️❤️ from the way you talked about how staff should be treated with utmost respect, and your humility. I’m sorry that the industry has been so awful to you 💔

7:30 around Common mistake people make --> It's a 180 for a complete change in things like attitude (like cold to welcoming). a 360 goes back to how something was originally (so cold to cold). I could explain it better, but I can't think of how to phrase it currently.

You look sooo good with blonde hair! And I thought you couldn't get any prettier... ♥

Man it’s really hard to be a kpop idol. *Kpop industry is really harsh*

You seem like such a sweet person. It’s very interesting to know the truth about an idol’s life. A lot of it is very sad and I personally have even more respect for idols and what they go through to pursue their dream. I have only watched a few of your videos but want to know more so I-just subscribed. I wish you the best for what ever you choose to do for your future and look forward to watching more of your videos.

That stuff does piss me off, they got 9 members and 3 members singing/rapping 85% of the song, watch they try to make me into a concept that is completely different from my personality, plus my anxiety and mental health is really crazy like why do I want to still embark on this uncertain journey. I definitely know it's not the same as being a singer in other parts of the world but it is similar. I LOVE YOU Christine!!!

OMG I BLOOD TYPE B GIRL WAS MY JAM I CAN'T BELIEVE I DIDN'T RECOGNIZE YOU SOONER!!!

I was very much into kpop 5 or 6 years ago and Blady was one of my favourite groups, so happy to find your channel and see you doing well all these years later!

hey, you know Grace? She is a solo artist now and used to be trainee for Laboum. She has a youtube channel. Do you think she has to negotiate with her company on revenues from KZfaq channel? She never mentions her company, so isn't the money all hers?

It's good that you can still take some positives from your experiences. I hope you're doing better now with your anxiety! I know how hard that can be to deal with. Sending you so much love 😚 You've done a brave thing with this video!

I feel like she’s saying just the truth like I feel those things every celebrity had to go through not only the Idols

Thank you so much for sharing your experience with us Christine. We Blady fans will continue to support you always ! ♡

I feel so much confident because of you. I was always told that I couldnt be an idol because I was half American and half Korean despite my talent or looks. Thank you for being so real with us 💜

I have seen, read, and listened to so many different kind of stories of how to become an idol, the difficulties, things they didn't like, things they did like, the diets they had to do, the way companies treat them, big companies, small companies, exploiting, training, the people you meet, the secrets, conditions small companies trainees live, the way companies barely give you a say on the things you do, accidents, lawsuits, contracts etc, etc.... I have looked for SO MUCH!! But no matter how many bad things I have seen the companies do, or what the difficulties the idols go through, I still want to experience it. This is something I guess I have become really determined with, and no matter what I see, nothing changes my mind, I just get more mentally prepared. I don't know if i'm stupid, crazy or what but I really like it. I love the fact idols do so many different things and learn from them. It is hard and competitive, and I know, but I think that if someone really wants to achieve their dreams, there are no easy paths, so I want to continue trying hard for the things I want, even if I may not be able to achieve it, trying will be enough.

Thank you for your honesty and openness. Really appreciate it!

your honesty is so amazing... thank you for being brave for even sharing all of this... thank you.

Wow I just searched your group and you are really talented! I hope you can still make some singing covers bc your voice is amazing

Finally someone... Take out your pink glasses those who think being artist is awesome... I really hate the word "idol"! Thanks girl, be happy💚

Thanks for sharing about whats going in the kpop world. Really enlightening. I was a kpop fan for many years and only recently i get to understand how idols' life really are, and made me realize, idols are human just like anyone of us too. way to go! supporting you! and stay strong, time heals everything and you will shine again in time!

Thank you so much for being honest and open about your experience.. I really appreciate the idea of sharing your story .. the truth that you said must be known for everyone who’s interested in kpop , i do understand that dark side of kpop industry and knowing that you’re free now make me so happy Please take care of yourself and do all the things that make you happy and do it the way you want we will love and support you no matter what❤️ You’re so strong and inspiring!

I know you are kpop blady... Soobienie you are so beautiful 💜💜🤩

I’m proud of you. I know talking about it is scary. With all shady people and behavior that you dealt with, I’m very happy you stayed true to yourself. ❤️ I love you & can’t wait for the next video. 💕

Thank you for doing the video. We need to know imo. Both the cons and pros. Even tho your journey in the kpop industry came to an end. I hope u still show us some music if not, wishing you best in future endeavours and I will continue watching ur videos 😊

Thanks so much for being so honest and open about your experience. I learnt a lot and gotten a better perspective on the life of an idol. You don't need to scared! Because I think it's always good to be personal and genuine.

Thank you so much for sharing with us, Christine 😭 It must've been so tough for you to endure all of that! 😭😭 and my heart aches when I hear you saying about the idenrity part 😢😢 Wishing you all the best in your future! Be happy, be YOU! ❤❤

I love your real talks on your vlogs. Being a newbie Kpop fan, I'm learning more and more about this world, and I'm appreciating more the KPOP artists I stan what with all the hard work and dedication they do. Aaand I'm searching now for Blady videos! :) Thanks for your vlog efforts. Keep it up! More power to you!

you look like Irene and Jisoo at the same time~

Thank you for being so open and honest with us 💕

omg you are so lovely. you seem like such a genuine person xxxxx keep going and follow your dreams.

I still listen to blady ...

I really love how grateful you were to have those experiences. You inspire me to enjoy life and all the great memories I have.

Hey, Tina! You said you like performing, right? I feel you could do some dance videos on your channel (cover dances, dance challenges, funny dances,...). If by taking a break from the industry you may have gotten a little out of practice, I feel preparing for these kind of videos might help you get back in shape for performing. Not to mention it is entertaining content. And you could always challenge @abesfigures to a dance-off 😎

Tbh, I was having a mental break down because of my training and dieting and of the future but watching this makes me feel a bit more relaxed...thank you

thanks for being so brave and sharing your story with us!!! it really helps and i hope you keep doing this in a safe way

Really appreciate you sharing even though it was hard. Look forward to hearing your music in the future!

Love ya Christine! You're a dope person👏🏽😸

At the end what matters the most is the things we put our heart & soul into what we really want to do , show or express but being ordered , compelled to do things just for sake of attention feels So so Fake & I'm glad at the end you followed your heart making that decision must be so difficult for you & U're so brave it needs courage to move out of herd of sheep ...Your real time starts now 😊

reminds me of a psychologist i saw a youtubevideo interview of recently. what he said was (roughtly):"if you are not in agreement with something, you really have to say something, because once is not bad, but it will really hurt your spirit in the long run"

Kpop world is scary ㅠㅠ but I hope you’re recovering now and doing good now💛 Mind if I ask where you work now after you left kpop?

I'm a new viewer of your vids and all I could say is... thank you for doing this video. You were brave enough to undergo all those struggles and braver to be leaving. I think the best part of it was you were able to get to know yourself. You did great. I hope you can fully recover from the mental stress from being a kpop idol

thanks for the inside info and stay strong.

Were you able to earn enough to fulfill your daily basic needs ?!.. i am asking this because it was said that underrated group barely earn .. please do clarify me if i am wrong ?!..

Thank you for this! I'm so sorry for all the bad things you had to go through but I'm also happy for how you got through them and where you are now. This also made me start to empathize a lot more with my fav idols more than I already did. Yes, I always loved them and respected them but now I truly respect them for everything they endure and how hard they work. :)

*can you please make a video about how much Kpop Idols get* (as in money 💵)?

I thank you for your honesty. I know it can be hard because you don't know how people will react and it's awesome that you took your life into your hands and decided to leave because it's not who you are. I remember from Joan's video that you had to dye/bleach your hair blonde and I already don't like that because it can be so painful, props to those who do though. Thank you for sharing your experience with us, without people like you, who knows how many other people might go into that thinking its peaches and roses to be an idol.

Thank you for sharing your story. You are so strong, Tina! I hope you get to follow your dreams and passions, where ever they take you. I think my biggest issue with the idol industry is that the kids start out so young. They have no idea what the contracts mean, and they grow up in this bubble. It just feels so wrong that the companies have so much power over the lives of trainees and idols.

Thank you for sharing this with us. I want to be an idol one day and this is definitely helpful for me!

I love your video's so much. they really help, thank youuuu

you’re such a strong and precious angel i love you so much :(

Aww I love that you used Alex's song for the end! Found his songs from the best friend video and have been listening to his SC nonstop!

I think there are a lot of parallels between kpop and KZfaq. Hopefully what you learned about what you like, how to cope with stress, and what to reveal to your audience as your persona can translate to the skills needed to be on KZfaq. But now you get to make those decisions. I wish you the best! ❤

Fighting tina~ Oh i just watch this in for so many long time. But still want encourage you. Well, its not easy to through it all as when you telling us, you seemed to be a lill bit different. Im not shook if lot of idols are depressed even suicide. Thank God you already get out from that black hole. I pray that you will find your identity right in His way. Have hope and faith. I support you!

Thank you for sharing this part of your life with us TT TT appreciate you so much

Thanks for true))You are really strong and help us to understand this area))You did well)

I'm searching for your former group now. I'm curious .

Most of what you’re describing is the same for every single industry or job out there. That’s just Life!

Thanks for sharing your experience with us!! I'm glad you got to do what you love even though things were tough. Can't wait for your future content love you!!

I've never criticised or said anything negative about an idol as i really admire their dedication and the mental strength that allows them to tolerate some really questionable treatment by company's managers, staff and toxic fans. These young men and women are doing their best to reach their dreams under extreme pressure and constraints put upon them by their contracts and company. Often clearly afraid to speak out and say too much out of fear....I thank you for your video and hope you continue to battle on knowing that there are kind people out in the world that understand and support you.

I wanna hug Christine!!! She’s so pure!!! 💕

Thank you for sharing your experience! Fighting💪🏼❤️

OH MY GOD YOU WERE IN BLADY?!?!?!?!?!?

I personally think you stood out more by being yourself at least we knew you as Christine who is true to yourself and doing what you love to do without any constraint.

I love blood type b girl alot.

Pretty much summed it up for entertainment biz worldwide haha Hope those experiences will help you in the long run~ 🙆

Thank you for uploading this series, it's my dream to become a professional singer someday and your videos really helped me realize that despite the many cons being an artist or idol in general might give it's still something I'm not yet willing to give up on because I believe it's the only chance I'll have to be able to do what I loved most. My point being thank you for doing the series and being completley honest as to how the reality is.

Some of y'all be saying we don't know know what's behind the scenes actually we do because we do research and i don't care of how hard the idol is because this is my dream and I'll do anything

i just wanna say oochie walla walla, i still bop to :)

I have a friend that is used to be a trainee starship ent. she said it was hard to be a trainee so she left and now she is a music student

goshh😭😭 i think my VICTON babies are feeling you rn 😭😭😭 this makes me sadddd~

Just found your channel today and made me love my Idols even more😭😭💖💕

10:44 I feel like most of the Twice members feel like this. They were not expecting to go in the direction they did.

What about stray kids and BTS they make and produce their own music?

Although you experienced many difficult times during your idol years, you were able to learn so much from it 🙂 can't wait to see more vlogs 😀