Jess, even though we’re not seeing every second of your life with Makaiah, I truly think you are setting a great example for people like me who don’t have children yet. You really are an amazing mom, and I hope your anxiety becomes better with time. Also, I can’t wait for your song! 💛💛💛

For me, every time I have some anxiety, I hold my baby. The best advice my midwife gave me after I gave birth was "If you dont know what to do, just hold your baby". And I m doing that everytime I feel overwhelmed. ❤

Jess your natural hair looked SO beautiful at 3:25!!

Struggling with anxiety is a daily occurrence for me. Seeing that you posted a video today was a miracle in of itself because you have such a calm demeanor, but seeing it was a video on anxiety made it even that much better. Thank you for your light

I also struggled with postpartum anxiety after my first baby and it was one of the hardest things I’ve experienced. I think it’s great you’re already thinking of speaking with your therapist about that, I went to counseling for my postpartum anxiety and I found it really helpful. Here are some other things that helped me and still help when I feel anxiety creeping in again: -even if it’s not a counsellor, speak with a trusted family member/friend about your fears. Just saying it out loud can help a lot. -Find a scripture that comforts you and memorize it so you can say it back to yourself when you’re feeling overwhelmed. Some great ones I love are Psalm 42, Psalm 139, Romans 8:15, Philippians 4:6-7. -Pray about your fears and give them to the Lord. Some days I would find that I felt really peaceful after praying to the Lord once, sometimes I would need to continually pray throughout the day. Remember He is there and He listens!❤️ -Find a soothing album or make a playlist of music to listen to that brings you peace. I love Audrey Assad’s Inheritance album, she covers hymns and they’re beautiful. I did find that the postpartum anxiety was a phase for me, and that it got much better as time went on. You’re doing a great job Jess, and I will pray for you about this!

I am so excited to hear your song!! And I love that your parents got to do a vow renewal, that is so special ❤️ and thank you for opening up about your anxiety. I'm not a mom, but I can only imagine how difficult that must be to experience. You are such a good mom ❤

i have so much anxiety with my son! i feel you & understand what you’re going through. you are an amazing mum 🫶🏻

I currently have an almost 7 month old precious baby girl and I can honestly say this video was soo helpful to me! The enemy wants us thinking we’re alone and no one can relate to our fears- total lie from the pit of hell. Ive also been struggling with the same exact anxiety as yours and anxiety about something happening to her as well. Two things that have helped me: 1. Therapy 2. Remembering that she belongs to God and He knows just what she needs, even more than I do. He made her but chose me to have the blessing and privilege to birth her and care for her as long as He deems fit. Any time I have with her, I want to treasure and praise God for 💕 You’re doing great, mama! She is so blessed to have you! 😊

Hey Jess! I just wanted to say that you are such an inspiration to me! Thank you for always being so vulnerable and authentic with us! I have loved getting to watch you be a mom to Makaiah and it’s so sweet to see! I can’t wait for more videos with her and watching you live on her and be her role model! Ilysm and I hope you’re having an amazing day! 💕💕

Sending hugs to youuu, hope journaling and talking with people going through the same feels helps and makes it better for youuu!! Love your vlog, and excited to hear the full song, heard a bit of it on instagram and yeah that made me sad but in a good wayy it's the bittersweet feeling i think you captured it 🥲

I had a really bad day at work and came home to watch this video and it instantly made it all better, thank you so much for this 🥹 I know to you and gabe this is a passion, and also work (which we appreciate so much), but i want you to know it is so much more than this ! You are litteraly making people's day better, and are so often the little blessing of my day ! Can't wait to hear your song, kisses from France ❤

hi jess i love your videos so much you help me through everything ❤️

Before I start watching i wanna say I love yaaaa😭🤍 your vlogs are my healing time literally thank you for posting for us still 🦋

Yes! I've never been an anxious person at all, until after having my daughter. I'm just getting over the big hump of the same type of anxiety...something happening to me. It's hard. Mine got bad. I'll be praying for you because I can actually relate 100%. xo

I love your weekly vlogs so much! Please don't stop making this type of content, it's my most fave!! 💛

i loved every second of this vlog. and Jess, you are glowing, you look stunning! 🫶🏼

Jess, thank you so much for opening up about such a sensitive but important topic of postpartum anxiety. I struggle with anxiety anyway, but since having my baby boy (who is my first child) who’s almost 7 months old, it’s definitely gotten worse. i constantly worry about something happening to me then my son being without me, or something happening to him when he’s not with me- i’ve been told it’s very normal especially when it’s your first baby. it can definitely be very scary and somewhat crippling it if starts to effect your day to day life, which mine does unfortunately. i found that medical professionals told me about PP depression but not anxiety, so thank you again for being raw and open with us about your experience. i know you’ll help a lot of other parents who have or are suffering from the same thing, it makes us feel normal and not alone x

I experienced PPA a lot for the first 6months after I gave birth to my daughter last year (our first child). For me, it was mainly when I'd be taking daily showers and thinking I was hearing her crying in pain from the other room when she was actually fine with her nanny taking care of her. Or randomly having weird thoughts during the day of something happening to her. Whenever those thoughts came up, I actively spoke back to myself and said 'God did not give me a spirit of fear, but of POWER, LOVE and SOUND MIND.' I still say this to myself anytime fearful thoughts come. It really helps❤

Your an incredible mum Jess. You do so much more good than a lot more of the KZfaqrs and influencers just by protecting makaiahs privacy while still showing little clips here and there :) I really admire that about you and gabe and this is my favourite era of yours yet! You were born to be a mama 🥲

As a mother myself I’d say it’s normal to have the anxious, nervous feeling in the back of your head despite it not affecting you day to day it does creep up at random times but I’d say it’s normal for good mothers to think this way so you’re not alone, Jess❤

I worked on my bullet journal while watching this. It was so fun and relaxing! Love you, Jess! I can’t wait for your song to release!!! And if there’s merch id love to buy some!!!!!

You are such an inspiration in so many ways!! I hope one day to run into you to just give you the biggest hug!!!

6:53 chewsday 😂

i have had your song on repeat since it came out, im so happy for you and i cant wait to see more amazing things from you

Hey Jess, I am a mom who dealt with debilitating PPA. I didn't even know it was a thing until I made it through. Once she was sleeping in her own room if she cried I couldn't help but sprint in a panic to her side in a worry that an intruder snuck into her room. I couldn't take her for walks because I felt like someone would try to kidnap her. She is now 2yr2mo and I finally don't worry and sometimes cry because I'm fighting the thoughts that my creaking house is someone in her bedroom at night. My second baby is almost 2mo and I don't feel anything like I did with my first. Thankyou for sharing about PPA I know so many mothers needed to hear and relate to someone about it.

You got this jess! We are here to always support you, Conteam will always be on your side 💗💗💗

Ooof postpartum anxiety 😩 the more i hear women talk about it the more i see how different it is for everyone. Mine stems from sleep and unexpected moments which happen all the time with a baby!!! If anything happens with sleep that doesn’t normally happen, i panic and i can’t stop crying 😔 there are really good days and really bad moments for me. I started journaling when i start to feel anxious! I also started meds and am seeing a therapist. Devotionals help a TON and journaling where i write down what I’m feeling and what the reality is have also helped. For example, “she’s taking short naps what is the rest of the day going to look like?! What if i don’t know what to do?! Then i flip and tell myself, she’s healthy, she’s not in danger, she’ll take a longer nap eventually, she’s not going to never go to sleep, and I’ll figure out a solution!” It doesn’t stop the anxiety but it definitely helps me get over the emotional part faster.

YAYY!!can’t wait to hear it 🥰also you’re doing such great job mum makaiah is so lucky to have you💛💛💛

Congratulations on the new song,Jess 🥺 and yess for the merch !! Waiting for the merchhh!! 💛

Can I just say that the natural wave/ curl to your hair is absolutely stunning!

I'm so glad to hear you share your postpartum journey. My baby is currently 2 weeks and 5 days old and the postpartum depression and anxiety for me have been so difficult. Hearing that I'm not alone truly is the biggest help. Talking with others and sharing how you feel has also been a huge help for me. To any new mamas or soon to be mamas out there, you are not alone. Don't be afraid to get help or to talk to others. 💕

What a wonderful vlog. 🧡 beautiful australia, lovely goodies for your loved ones, mountains, games, family time, baking, get ready, honest chat. Thank you! 😊 have a sweet time in australia

Jess just know that u are a strong woman❤️❤️a good mother and a good human being. U give people like me hope that there are still good people out there and that makes me not lose hope❤❤. I love you sooo much❤❤❤

Omg Jess congrats on the song😭I remember you were scared to put anything out and now that it’s finally happening it makes me happy🥹 proud of you and I can’t wait to listen to it😁

Much like yourself, Jess, I didn't realise I had postpartum anxiety until I looked back at it 😅 I had the same thing where I just had anxiety when I was away from my baby that something bad would happen to me and they would have to grow up without me. I'm almost 6 years down the line now and I can't say that's gone away entirely however it has eased up as I've found avenues to kind of mellow out those moments when that kind of anxiety creeps in. Journaling definitely helps as an outlet for that! Thank you for always being so honest and transparent about your journey 🥺 you help us mummas feel so seen sometimes 🤍

omg.... you took the words out of my mouth. i never had ppd and around 10-11 months i have severe anxiety over the baby and dark thought and anxiety. i breastfeed too and omg i relate so much thank you for sharing. my mood is so up and down, happy, sad, scared, lovely, etc. thank you

I'm glad you're opening up more recently. We really need that kind of willingness to be vulnerable a little, and ask for guidance. I'm not a mom, but I'm sure therapy will help significantly. I know it's easy to fall out with good habit when things are hard or new. Wish your the besr!

I'm not a mom but I do enjoy watching your channel it's one of my favorites and you know as far as I have had anxiety and a different setting as well and you know I always find that journaling has helped me I journal every day and I think it really helps me to follow up my thoughts and you know write it down and then it kind of clears my mind so that's enough that has always helped me as well

I am sooo ready for your song Jess!

You’re amazing ❤ (also, I really loved the editing of this video) :)

I thought I was the only one.... I am a new first time mom of a 6 month old, and this is the EXACT fear/anxiety I have too... I feel crazy worrying about it so much, but it is so real. My worry is that if we leave our baby home with one of our family members, and we go on a date or to the store, etc. That something will happen to us and she will be parentless. Thank you for being so open about your experiences, and helping us new moms/dads understand that its okay to talk about it, and its important to get help if necessary! Its not bad, shameful, or embarrassing, help is help, and truly everyone needs some kind of help in this world!! Thank you Jess!! ❤

Jess, there's something so comforting about watching you living your best life with all your loved ones in aussie land 🧡

Listening to your anxiety chat made me cry because I feel the same way (8 months post-partum now) 💔

all i have is love for your family jess❤️

My son is 2 years and 7 months and I still have that thought sometimes - "What if something happens to me?" I think it's completely normal :)

Loved this vlog, def adding to my favorites 🫶🏽

Omg Jess I'm so glad you're talking about your postpartum anxiety, a lot of women don't know it can happen. I didn't even know and I had it too. I had the same thoughts! My daughter is 19 months and I still breast feed her and I still struggle to be away from her for like date nights. But yes therapy and talking it out with those who you trust and can help is the best thing. You're in my prayers Jess!! Blessings to you guys 🫶🏽

I'm an aunt and I have these anxieties about my niece and her parents! It keeps me up at night a lot. I'm sure talking to a therapist will help. Sending you love

I’m also a first time mom and still figuring it all out. But I relate to the anxiety. I didn’t realize I may have it until I compared who I was before baby was here to now. Now I have anxiety much more. My thoughts are usually about me not being able to protect her from situations that I create in my head. So weird. Just know - you’re okay, it’s normal, there is healing and help.

So excited to hear your song💛

I'm do excited for your song, Jess😍

Love you bubba 💗💗💗

I’m not a mom yet but I hope your anxiety gets better with time! Also, as always such a wholesome vlog!

Love your transparency!

It would have been cold up at those mountains this time of the year, it’s my fave spot! I definitely struggled with anxiety after Bub and I still do a year on. Especially social anxiety. I do feel like my anxiety got worse after having Bub, so you definitely aren’t alone xx

Hi Jess! I hope you and the family are enjoying each other's company 🌼 P.S. I'll pre-save the song! 🥹🎉

I definitely struggle with postpartum anxiety as well and have a 10 month old son. I completely agree with feeling worried when away from him for the same reasons you said like him growing up without me or since I'm breastfeeding. I've just never loved someone as much as him and never want anything to happen to him! So my anxiety also extends to driving with him or taking him out in public without my husband. I worry about someone taking him away from me so I definitely hope things improve soon! 🥲

I haven’t had my baby yet but I do have anxiety of loosing the baby at any moment. I have been diagnosed with HG so it also put more stress on me bc I do have a severe case of it. I get you and everyday I just have to keep telling me self your mind is just foggy rn you’ll get through it the baby is going to live and your going to be the best mom in the world. Stay strong!❤️

Yesss to the merch 🥺🥺

I was watching your videos 5 years ago and today you crossed my mind and I came looking for you again

Oh Jess, that’s being a mom anxiety. You never ever stop worrying about your kids. When they’re away, when they’re with you, when they’re at school, when they get sick… it’s a constant worry! It’s what us moms do 😅😅

I am currently 9months postpartum and feel the same way. I had an appointment yesterday and left my son with my husband and couldn’t help but think all these thoughts about something happening to me. I can’t explain why I think or feel that way so it’s nice to know I’m not the only one going through this new journey feeling the same way.

Jess, you are the most loving, kind, beautiful, gentle, amazing and incredible Mum 🤍 So proud of how far you have come!! Praying for God's continual favour and blessing upon you x

I have also suffered from anxiety for many years but now that I’m almost 5 months postpartum I feel it’s much worse. Whenever I have to leave my baby I get so anxious thinking what if he needs me, what if he thinks I’ve abandoned him. I know deep down that he is fine but I can’t help the lingering feeling. It’s hard to even think about but I’m always so anxious that something bad might happen to him and I don’t know how I could even live if something did. So many emotions ahhh I hope things get better with time. Anyways I love watching your videos keep doing you! ❤️

I struggle with PPA , too, and have felt ashamed and embarrassed about it. thanks for sharing, girl.

Jess I literally paused the video immediately after you said that you are so afraid of something happening to you when you are away. I have 2 little girls and the crippling anxiety I get when I’m away from them is literally insane, I’m so so so glad to hear someone else open up about this because so many times I thought I was just going crazy. It’s the worst feeling in the world and no matter how hard I try to not think of it or be so afraid, I can’t help it. I even make comments like “I need to get back to my babies so please drive safely” if I’m hanging out with a friend or something. Thank you for opening up because I always heard of moms being afraid of something happening to their baby but never the other way around. I hear you Jess, i love you ❤️

Over the months pp anxiety starts to look like trying to have everything for the next steps as baby grows. Food: variety but hoping for no weird reactions. Walking: exercises, how to encourage your baby, buying stuff to help the goal Sleeping: suddenly baby only wants contact naps, meaning that you’re not showering again today Being present: being with your baby as much as possible but then I forget to eat or drink my water 😢 I don’t have family or relatives nearby, so this is tough. I don’t feel alone because I have my baby, but then I feel that we’re both a bit lonely in a house by ourselves.

Jess, I love all of your sweaters and I’m curious where you get most of them?! The look soooooo comfy 🥰 Ty in advance 🩵

Jess. Thank you for this video. I thought my experience was so weird and so different because I was almost 4 months pp when my postpartum anxiety hit and it has SO much to do with my little boy being left alone with no one to help him if something happens to me and he’ll have to grow up without a mom. Thank you for your honesty and your boldness in speaking up about this. We’ve got this mama🤎

I swear by my revlon brush!! The perfect curls, the bounce everything💕💕

Hey jess, i am so glad you opened up about it. My son is also 10 month and for month i have been struggling with the same thing. I try to open up about it and people think is stupid. It has gotten so bad that i get panic attacks on and off think of the possibility of my son growing up without me or he no eating because he depends on my breast or him and such. I started to find help but i truly thought i was the only one that thought like that. I have tears right now bc i feel like is no only me that i am not alone.

I developed postpartum anxiety when I had my son (he was born a few days after we went into COVID lockdown in the UK). It definitely needs to be spoken about since I only had heard of postpartum depression.

Thank you so much for sharing those anxiety thoughts because I really thought i was alone in that! My daughter is also BF and it's only taken until now (shes just turned 1) to have that thought of her living without me and my breast milk to subside a bit because food is now her main source of nutrition. She would never fall asleep with my partner before either it was only me who'd get her down to sleep so since having more food that has also changed. I have used better help too for the best part of my post partum as i had/do suffer from birth trauma PTSD, and i must say it's been a life saver for me. My therapist is also a mumma and totally understands all the random thoughts and things we go through post partum. Basically you're not alone and it's nice to know I'm not either ❤ im hoping once BF is over and my hormones go back to some sort of normal that the anxiety may calm down some more, but i mean she had a rash today and i immediately thought chickenpox so there'll always probably be something 😂 sending love 💕

Im a mom of 2 (2 yrs and 3 mo) and the anxiety is so real! Mine is usually with my health i can convince myself im dying of some disease constantly and its bc im so scared of leaving them with out a mom. I think it’s probably a common anxiety trigger since its such a large fear

I was literally doing stick on nails while watching this and got so excited when you pulled yours out to do them too hehe

I struggle a lot with anxiety, especially with my two babies! I felt that after a year with my first it got better but postpartum was hard again the second time around. I think we’ll always have some anxiety regarding our babies but I’m trying to trust the Lord with them more every day. I know he is faithful and has them in the palm of his hands.

i love your song💛

I love you guys! Thank you for another video! Australia is beautiful also, but not as beautiful as you guys! ♡♡

Omg yes the anxiety! I am 6 weeks postpartum and I drove to the shops by myself for the first time since giving birth a week or so ago and as I was driving I had that exact same thought. Then I was worried the whole drive that I’d get into an accident and my baby wouldn’t get her next feed in time or I wouldn’t make it home at all. Now it’s a lingering fear I have whenever I go somewhere without her.

That is my fav chocolate and my husband gets it for me when im on my period bc i struggle with pms and pain so bad :( you are not alone ❤ i hope it gets better

Loved this vlog! I completely identify with you about the anxiety. For me it was very much a fear of something happening to my baby girl. And yeah, it got dark. Like, anytime we drove on a bridge over water, I would start obsessing over how to get my daughter out of her car seat and to safety if our car went off the bridge and sank under water. I can’t say the fear has totally left now at 8mo PP, but my trust in God has helped me not to obsess as much. He’s the sustainer of her life and mine and that helps more than any detailed emergency plan ever could. Also, with you on mint. It belongs in toothpaste and MAYBE mochas at Christmas at that’s it lol

Hey Jess Post natal anxiety effects so many women. Your body has gone through so much and your hormones have changed so much which can effect mums in so many ways. I got post natal anxiety with my first baby. Talking to a physiologist really really helped she was able to help be take a hold of my fears and thoughts. I had my second baby in November last year and I haven’t had any anxiety this time round at all. You can get through it just make sure you get the right the support. Being a mum is the best job in the world but the weight of responsibility of being a mum is unlike anything else.

Pls don’t fear that you’re d complaining too much. On the contrary, it makes you relatable and real. I love seeing all sides of you, please don’t shy away from it by showing only the good sides.💛

Lovee the empathy crewneck, always wanted one of those

I had anxiety before any of my babies but after my second my anxiety has been 10x worse and also after talking to someone about how ive been feeling they said i had postpartum depression. I spent 2 weeks after my second baby was born crying pretty much all day everyday. I think my transition from 1 to 2 babies was the hardest thing ive ever been through personally. I still 9month postpartum find it hard to share my attention with both of them. My oldest child is 3 and youngest being 9 months so ive personally found it quite hard. I miss the fun happy person i was before, i feel like not getting a break and doing just one little thing i enjoy really gets me down. I dont have the support system around me unfortunately but in saying that the thought of anyone looking after any of my children scare me, i’m currently looking at kindergartens for my oldest and that gives me such bad anxiety! i find that a walk or workout seems to just get me back into a mood i can process and deal with my emotions a little better, talking about it and not bottling it all up also helps, but if youre anything like me and feel like i bother people by talking about it all then it makes it harder again!

You are not alone !! 🥺 PPA & PPD is something people need to talk more. I always have this guilt, too. Like not doing enough for my baby. But, ik trusting in The Lord will help and reaching out to your love ones !! ❤️❤️❤️

I had a similar experience, where I didn't know I had/was suffering with postpartum anxiety until about 7ish months postpartum. My anxieties were dark too. I had very vivid images of something bad happening to my daughter if I wasn't around her; same with something happening to me or my husband. My thoughts were just very fearful. My OB put me on medicine. With meds and time, it passed, thankfully. But it was an uphill battle for sure. And a very hard season, personally and in my marriage.

The frosting from the container is easier to spread if you mix it first

First the donuts now the period supplies?😭 it’s okay Jess, we have our embarrassing moments and periods are perfectly normal so it’s never tmi❤ also Gabe breaking the wooden spoon/spatula lmaooo

I definitely have some postpartum anxiety as well. I am almost 7 months postpartum. I have those same thoughts and fears about my son needing my milk and something happening to me. Also I have separation anxiety from my son. So you’re definitely not alone.

I have been having anxiety different from yours. I am looking forward to your songs coming out

Your experiencing intrusive thoughts which is common in a lot of new moms. Sometimes those thoughts can get really dark. It’s definitely worth talking to your therapist about to help deal with them so it doesn’t heavily affect your everyday life.

First off, that snacky dinner is everything I am craving right now 😂 Secondly - it is so sweet, special, and sentimental that Gabe was the one to do the vow renewal ❤ I do not comment much, but I have been watching for years now and am just so happy for your ability to travel after all of the heartache and trials - God truly is the Giver of good gifts (hope and happiness too!!!) 😊 I went through a period of time where I had panic attacks regularly, so I just want to say there is nothing better than praying without ceasing and giving it all back to God in worship... it is simple but hard to carry out 😅 We are such a forgetful people, so thank goodness for His loving patience and kindness!!! We all need reminded of what we already know at times... 💜 Faith and trust are two sides of the same coin. It is moving forth despite how we feel because one moment we are on top of the world and the next we are in a ditch. God will never leave us on our own though, and when we press into Him and humble ourselves (because we really cannot do it on our own), He will always provide us with peace 🎉 Love you!!!

Yess Cadbury is my fav too💕

I had PND and PNA with my first daughter, and I was the same. Thought I was fine until I realised hold on the way I'm feeling isn't normal, and I opened up to my husband, and I seeked help. My daughter was 4 months old when covid hit Australia, so that was also hard having to do it alone my first time round. I'm now 3.5 months post-partum with my second Daughter and all those anxieties are gone and it's probably because I know they are safe no matter what. My support system stepped up when I needed it most and also those first time parent anxieties are fierce and scary. That the second time they are way less Im your head every move you take. Not to say they aren't there but I feel lighter this time round, mentally But you're doing incredible, and to open up and voice how your feeling is huge. I was so embarrassed and ashamed when I realised I wasn't coping, but then I noticed it is so normal to feel those ways. And that speaking up will help so many other mums around me ❤❤

My son is 4 days younger than Makaiah and I have the same anxious thoughts. When I get thoughts like that I try to just put faith in my partner like if anything did happen to me I know my husband is a good dad and my son will be safe with him. I hope that helps and I would love to see a 10 month update🩵

Hey Jess, is it possible you have Dysphoric Milk Ejection Reflex? It’s a common thing for breastfeeding moms where you may feel sadness or anxiety while breastfeeding.

The scenery of this blog it's gorgeous and congratulations to your parents for you know renewing their vows and everything like that I think that is absolutely awesome and I loved you know you're awesome thought to make a cake even though it may not have turned out the way you would have liked it but I think that the trying to do it yourself was was kind of entrepreneurial and I think that that is awesome

Omg the anxiety is real 😩 I’m 6 months postpartum and have such scary thoughts every day. Some ridiculous things like the ceiling fan flying off and slicing her in half, her choking every time I try and feed her, her falling out of her highchair, tripping and dropping her, SIDS, getting in a car crash, the house on fire while we’re sleeping soooo many different things

Jess we LOVE your natural curls 😩