So that baby is Julian, he was not destined to come at that time. He came later, you passed mountains & rivers & oceans to get him, that’s your destiny....🥰

Psalm 34:18, “The Lord is near to the broken-hearted and saves the crushed in spirit.”

I've had 2 miscarriages..its a horrible feeling but I know that one day I will meet my 2 little Angel's..🙏

wow Mel, it seems you were alone for most of your marriage and despite the hardships I am so happy to see the strong, resilient, and wonderful woman that you are! never forget that your social media family loves and adore you and your kiddos 💖

Thank you for sharing this mel! I’m not even close to having children but I’ve learned so much from this and now have a new understanding for that kind of loss. Sending love and prayers! 💓

참 힘든시간을 보냈네요 멜.. 줄리안 동윤이가 바다넘고 산넘어서 멜에게 온건가 봐요 멀리 돌아돌아 다시 찾은 당신의 아이일 겁니다 축복합니다. 그리고 본인의 아픈 이야기를 사랑으로 다시 Vlog로 보여준것 정말 감사합니다. 많은 여성들과 가족들에게 큰 힘이 되었을 거예요... 같은 상실을 경험한 분들도 다시 건강한 아기천사들이 찾아올 겁니다. 💕

I had a miscarriage 4 weeks ago during my first pregnancy and it still hurts to talk about it but it has been helping also to talk about it. My family and friends have been incredibly supportive. Husband and I are trying again and hope we have a rainbow baby soon! Love watching your videos! This one definitely has been helping me cope for sure.

You're such a great and strong mama to Luca and Julian. God bless your little family, Mel. ❤️

thank you for sharing Mel, we love you , you are really strong and the best mum to Luca and Julian xx

Thank you for sharing your story and being raw and real as always. Sending you so much love Mel.

I love you Mel, thank you bringing community to the hardships in such a beautiful way. I haven't started a family yet, I didn't know these statistics or the surgery you went through. I feel the loss you went through losing a family member. Thanks for bringing awareness so bravely and beautifully!

We love you Mel! You're a strong mom and the best mom 🥰

in tears. I have SO much love and respect for you Mel!! I'm literally 21 but you inspire me so much to become a more mature, stronger and loving woman!

Thank you for sharing. It is definitely not shared enough. I had 3 miscarriages after having my daughter. She is now 16 years old and the center of my world, but I always think about the 3 that I lost. How life would have been different, who would they have become?? Thank you again for your story.

Thank you for sharing Mel. You are a very strong mom. I also had the same experience. I lost mine at Christmas day and it was the worst feeling ever. I couldn't celebrate Christmas for years. It always bring me back to that horrible day the doctor told me there was no heartbeat. I was scarred until last December, I had my baby boy. He was the best thing that ever happened to me. Keep pushing momma! You got this! ❤️

Pase por lo mismo 2 años antes que tu, sentí que se desmoronaba mi vida. El dolor más grande que he vivido. Hoy tengo unos gemelos de 10 años pero ese vacío no se llena. Bendiciones

So sorry for your loss. Thanks for sharing this. I'm sure you helped some women that are either going through this or have gone through it. I hope those women and their husbands talk to someone about it.

Thank you for your courage to give courage to others 👍👍 bless you, Mel..

You’re so strong Mel! ❤️ Also, on another note, could you please make a video about your different hair-dos and how to do them? I love how you have your hair in this video.

That's how we started our friendship! Sweet, sweet tumblr and sharing our losses!

I also experienced a miscarriage at week 8 of pregnacy before I eventually had another one, who is an adorable 7 yo boy now. I always believe that the one left earlier was the same soul as my boy. I think he came too early and so he left but came back at the right timing. This helped me a lot whenever I remember the grief I had back then.

My heart goes out to you, you're amazing love you ❤️

Sorry to hear that..but I feel that made you to be wonderful mom ever!! send you love from Korea❤️

Mel, you are an awesome mom and don’t worry about anything! i’m always praying for you and your family 💜 God is so great to have given you Luca and Julian 🙏 They are so precious!! 🥺🥰😍

u're gonna be owkeii, god bless youu

Thank you for sharing 💙 I miscarried in a foreign country on q mission trip alone... my heart is still broken. Now I have my sweet 1 year old rainbow baby and just found our today that I'm expecting numbed 2. When I first miscarried I felt more alone than ever, until I found others who knew my pain. I found a support system.

thanks mel!!! 🙌🏼

Stay strong Mel ♥ u r doing amazing mama ...we love u so much ♥

You are such a strong woman Mel I can imagine how hard it is to share your story I love watching your videos your boys are so sweet

I have never been through this but my mom lost 2 of my sister's. One was a still born 8 months and one was 6 months. My mom is still very affected by it when she hears of people going through it as well. She told me many times there's nothing worse than going into the hospital pregnant and thinking you could go deliver the baby (like with the still born) and leave the hospital with no baby. So I feel for people who have gone through it as well. I know many more people who have had miscarriages too, it's quite common but doesn't make it any less heart breaking. Praying for everyone going through these situations❤

People like you that are speaking up about this really do make a difference. I’m not planning on having kids any time soon but knowing that a miscarriage is sadly common, if it does happen to me, I know it will be devastating but at least I’m aware of the possibility.

저는 몰랐는데 유산이 꽤나 흔한...경험이더군요.. ㅠ아이를 잃는 그 느낌은 전 절대 알 수 없겠죠 얼마나 고통스러울까요.

Big gentle hugs Mel. It doesn't matter if it was last week or 20 years ago. The pain never ever leaves you. You will always remember the baby. People avoid you. No one knows what to say to you not even the professionals. Unless you have lived it no one knows your pain. Sending you my love from Liverpool 🇬🇧 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿 😘

I'm really thank you for sharing this story😭Although it will be really hard to say, i want to give you big hug🥺Cheer up mel!!You are the strongest mother✨Thank you again.

I cry when you cry. Thank you for sharing a part of your life.❣️ My mother had 3 miscarriages as well. One before my older sister, and two before me. I'm happy to have my giant yet a baby- brother without any complications, he's my world. A spoiled brat, but still a treasure to me. It may sound weird, but I always prayed and thought that those 3 babies re-born to a better family.

Gracias por compartir tu historia Mel 🤍

Here i am sobbing my heart out remembering my own painful experience. It happened 7 years ago. I was sitting nervously in ER alone when the doctor told me there is no heart beat. I cant tell how many days i cried and there is no one to talk to. It is darkest days of my life. After couple years, i had rainbow baby girl who is now 4 years old, but i still remember that day like yesterday and miss my baby in my heart.

YOU ARE GONNA BE OKAY

You always post those topics that makes me cry

Thank you for sharing your story! I lost twin boys (stillbirth) and even though it’s been years, I can still remember that moment as if it was yesterday too (just like you mentioned). God bless you and your family!

Valoro muchísimo tu fortaleza y la educación que les das a tus niños tan lindos, además les enseñan el español. Dios los bendiga y a tus papás también, son una linda familia y tu casa está hermosa!! Tengo una hija como tu y necesita animarse y amarse para salir adelante. Los queremos mucho 💕

Mi querida Mel que bella persona eres🌹 gracias por transmitir tu vivencia con nosotros😘 gracias a Dios por darte la sabiduría y fortaleza para afrontar tan triste momento🙏 gracias también por ser mi amiga, te queremos💕

Sorry you had to go through that Mel 😔 I hope time will heal all broken hearts 🙏🏽 My mom, grandma, several cousins and friends all had miscarriages. It’s crazy as to how common it is. Sometimes you have early miscarriages and you don’t even know it. A way that helps me mentally prepare and be strong about it is, i think to myself that it would be a miracle to actually deliver a baby...so that I won’t expect too much of it...and there are so many ways to actually have a baby; IVF, surrogacy, foster care, adoption etc. so we gotta be strong and think that these things are very very common and we need to be hopeful, and try not to think that it’s the end of the world even though it may feel like it is🙏🏽 This is me “trying” to be strong 🤷🏽‍♀️

Lo siento mucho por tu perdida un abrazo enorme

Hi Mel! I had the same experience way back December 2019.. I lost mine when he/she was 8 weeks. They didn't find a heart beat. That baby should be my third.. I guess they are just too good for this world. I was just thinking Heaven gained another angel.

Youre a strong woman!❤️

You're a strong woman, gracias por existir Mel💗✨, Dios te bendiga y siga fortaleciendo

I love the way you express your feelings every time and I’m sorry about what you gonna through you’re the strongest human being and example of good mom.❤️

You are a true warrior I admire you very much You may have lived an experience that you would not wish on anyone, but life gave you 2 beautiful children, you gave the opportunity You may have lived an experience that you would not wish on anyone, but life gave you 2 precious children, you gave the opportunity to give a family to such a sweet child, life rewards you everything that happens❤️

Thank you for sharing. Sending hugs to anyone who has gone/is going through this.

sending hugs!

You're so brave before that happens!! God has a perfect plan for you! We don't know why ii happens, but we know that the Lord was and wiil be with you all the time!! I sent you a big hug and I feel sorry for your loss! No matter howv long time it takes!! The pain is present !! Love you so much!!🥰🥰🥰

You are so so beautiful and such an incredible mom I love you so much

Thank you for talking about this topic, right now I feel so lonely and lost. I lost my baby recently and my story is just like yours....I don't know how to keep on😭

Best mom ever

Sorry to hear about the loss of your baby

stay strong! you are the best mom ever in the world ❤❤

love you take care and stay healthy ❤️

Hola mel, saludos a tus niños y a ti💕

i am so sorry about what happend to you...u don t deserv it and no one does.. i love ur videos stay strong

Hermosa Mel ,te ves muy guapa, me da muchísimo gusto ver que tienes que retomar tu vida es lo mejor que puedes hacer por ti y por tus lindos niños.

Mel I also had a miscarriage before my rainbow babies. People think that because its so early on and your not showing or feeling the baby move yet that it’s not as devastating but there is still a connection w/mom and the grief is real.

I felt this ❤️ hugs to you

Thank you very much Mel, for sharing your experience with us. My mom had a miscarriage before me and my older brother were born. You have reminded me how I should show support for my mom even though it's been a very long time for her. I remember she would tell us "It is okay. Everything happens for a reason. Maybe if I didn't have that miscarriage, then you wouldn't be here today. (Because my mom just wanted 1 son and 1 daughter) And I am so glad I have you." 😭❤️

알아듣고 싶다...격하게 알아듣고 싶다...

I love you, Mel. 🥺

sweet Mel l hope you hearth heals, you were so young when that happended, I have never wanted kids so my worst nightmares are about getting "accidentally" pregnant but really wanting a baby and losing it must be the worst!! I send u my best wishes for u and Luca and Joonie

항상 건강하시고 행복하세요

Hi Mel you're an awesome mom ☺️ I just love you and your kids 💕😚 love from Kohima Nagaland India 🇮🇳💓 stay blessed always 😍♥️

Jamás pasé por ése trance tan doloroso pero a las que sí, las abrazo con mucho cariño.

So sorry for you 🙏🏻🙏🏻♥️♥️

I have 4 angel babies watching over my 3 rainbow babies. This was a long time ago, My youngest is 23 but it still hurts like it was yesterday. One of my babies died in utero and I almost lost my life going thru delivery. I had no support back then. It was not a subject anyone talked about. My heart breaks for all the mamas who have gone or are going thru this. ❤️❤️❤️

😢 God knows best❤️

Thank for sharing dear friend,God bless you ❤❤❤

Mel, I just adore you!! I have walked the journey... Loss AND infertility.. What I see now is the difference in support. When I went through the losses, it was taboo to talk About miscarriage. Thwre was a stigma shamefulness. There were "no rights" for grieving. It wasnt born so your loss wasnt really a big deal. That was the mentality of so many. So we suffered in silence. Then to walk the road of infertility was shameful, embarrassing, much like the scarlet letter that I was forced to wear. And of course EVERYONE around me was having babies so the club of "LIFE" was a place I had NO membership to. Now, to be honest Im amazed at the openness there is to talk about both of these things.. Im SO proud of each of you on this journey for your love and support for one another. Know there is NOTHING wrong with you.. Your feelings are as important and valid as anyone else. You HAVE THE RIGHT to grieve!! Its so important. Because these things werent talked about when I went through them, ( in the 90s) I have a chuck of my life that was spent being shameful. Ashamed and failure and hiding describes what should have been the best days of my life. I hid myself away.. People shunned and shyed away bc I didnt fit in w their place in life, had they just included me in their journey, it would have healed the edges . If you are on this Journey, PLEASE know youre not alone, if this jas been your path, your loss, pain, story STILL MATTERS... your story and journey did and does matter and have as much importance to life as anyone else. We didnt ask for this path, but somehow we ended up here. The loss and what ifs are as real and deep for those who walked this road 20 yrs ago or 20 days ago or are in the middle of it now. You matter. Your journey matters. You pain matters. Its real. I am praying for you all.. **Btw** .. I am now the Mommy to a 10, 3 and 1 yo. 2 boys and a girl.. God grew my family differently but they are MY children. Ive had each from the second they were born.. And they are MINE! I carried them in my body, just my heart instead of uterus.. I carried them for YEARS not 9 months.. I went through labor for years, and delivery was long a brutal and took MANY months to deliver .. My babies were very preemie (half bio siblings) so all the weird movements Mommys FEEL when pregnant I got to SEE. All those weird balls, jerks, strange stretches they only feel I got to SEE ... God didnt leave me out! He just gave differently!! Im forever grateful. Never lose hope or faith. However your journey unfolds, you have a purpose and God has a plan. Love to you ALL be blessed my precious friends.

I love you mel🥺❤️ laban lang!

We love you mel, take good care of yourself and your precious boys ❤️

God love you! ❤️

Mel, te abrazo desde donde estoy.

Strong girls can handle anything in this world ❤️💔❤️

Mel you are brave mom

I had a miscarriage as well at 10 weeks. I can totally relate with the depression. I remember for around 2 months, i stayed away from anything baby n baby stuff. And i still remember for my 2nd pregnancy..i got so nervous, anxious and depressed..so afraid of obgyn visits, i didn't even take a maternity picture/any documentation throughout the pregnancy.. I would always wonder about that one if..

You are a very strong and beautiful woman who's inspires women ❤

I’ve had 1 miscarriage back in March of 2020. And it hurt so much. I was going through it alone since the person I was with was mentally and emotionally abusive. I still cry til this day but, doing better because I left the situation. To anyone whose gone through it I’m so sorry.

I had it 4 Times 😔 4 lil Angels 😢💔

I remember the emptiness of waking up from my DNC, from my missed miscarriage. 18 years later, and I can feel it still.

Mel, querida.. Te adoramos aqui de america del Sur. Podrias colocar una traduccion con letritas para entenderte mejor. Aqui tambien te queremos mucho. Besitos

never been this early..stay strong Mel..Love you from the Philippines 😘💜

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 may god bless and give you best life with your 2 wonderful kids..🤲🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

I’m sorry about that

You me made cry 🥺🥺 can’t hold it 😭😭😭

Thank you for Sharing the story. I’ve had a miscarriage. I have PCOS & Endometriosis I still go through so much.

I miscarried in 2019, & had my rainbow baby in 2020. It was a horrible feeling, but I always remember my lil one & find myself thinking of who that little one could have been

God bless you

So sorry for your losses God bless you stay safe God is always with you

I had a miscarriage back in June, just 1 day after Father's day. It was so devastating. Like you mentioned, the world moved on so I didn't grieve for long. I have a 9 month old and he needed me to care for him. One thing that did help me was being able to share my experience with my closest friends and having their support.

I miscarried a baby that was conceived after a year of TTC. I was 17 weeks along and had to be induced. I remember coming home and feeling so empty where that baby was. That is a very real feeling.

A first I love your vlogs

I’m so sorry this happened to you. I have had two miscarriages one in may 2018 and one in august 2020. We also found out we were pregnant Christmas of 2019 but unfortunately January 5th we found out it was an ectopic pregnancy and had to have my right Fallopian tube removed. We started are ivf journey 10 weeks ago and low and behold we conceived naturally only to find out it was another ectopic pregnancy so three weeks ago I had to have my left Fallopian tube removed. It’s devastating losing four babies but we now also have to deal with the heart break knowing I will never conceive naturally. I think the hardest part is knowing so many women struggle with this and it is all they have ever wanted. I’m glad you now have two beautiful boys although I know it will never fill the hurt of not knowing your perfect angel it helps you appreciate them so much more. Hold them tight hug them and love them because they are your biggest achievement and miracle in life. Sending all of my love from England xx

My mother miscarried a little boy (stillbirth), her first child. I was born just one day shy of a full year later. I have felt my big brother watching over me my whole life. In the darkest of times, he has sent signs to both my mother and to me, usually on his birthday. If he hadn't died, I never would have existed. I am thankful for him and for my life every day.