her voice actor popped off. the animators did a good job too. really emotional and powerful moment. Rudeus's reaction to the knife as well. Appreciate your insight on everything. 1:00:00 Rudy probably is reacting this way when he was with Sara iirc in season 2. When he said those hurtful things about her and she slapped him then stormed off. He went into despair and tried to use the knife he bought her, which he slammed to the ground, to kill himself, but he was stopped by Soldat. Theirs also a bunch of other reason why he'd react that way due to all of the trauma he's experienced but thats probably a big one. In the LN Rudy was actually the one who found Nanahoshi's knife, not Sylphy. 1:03:20 yeah thats a big thing. Rudy has people around him that love and care for him. Nanahoshi has isolated herself for *years*. She doesnt have a support system other than MAYBE rudy at this point.

I'm happy Nanahoshi managed to recover, she deserves happiness after everything she went through, i just wish the anime had more time to show Rudy taking care of her. Rudy was really worried about her, he didn't leave her side for a week, and at the end Nanahoshi thanked him way more than in the show, also, she isn't wearing a mask anymore, it's great to see. Nanahoshi's scene was great, they did a perfect work to represent it.

Around the 55th minute, Story time by Ed. and wtf that triggered me to no end. As someone who's gonna be working in healthcare, I hope those words never come from my own mouth

1:07:27 I genuinely started tearing up, been a pretty rough day, thanks Ed.

50:50 i have been feeling this way for over 4 years now, never talked to anyone about it. whenever some someone praises me or whenever i evaluate my work i always felt like i messed up somewhere and i'm useless, and yeah i feel like it's easier for me to self deprecate my work and actions

1:02:50 I never actually wanted to kill myself. We had some school trip for a week, end of tenth grade, so I must have been around 17. And before I already had existential crisis level thoughts. I was wondering why anything even existed, and that everything is meaningless in the end since nothing will exist forever. And even if it will, why does the universe even exist. Why does anything even exist? It could just be a coincidence. Or a dream. And I had this for years already, maybe since I was 6. Not too often, somewhat between once a month and once a year. Usually only for a few minutes. I was completely desparate, I didn't want this to be real, but I knew it was true. This wasn't a video game, where I could just pause and be back home, where I'm safe. I was at home, and my home was that game, which I couldn't pause. I felt like I wasn't even in my body anymore. It usually happened in the middle of the night, just before I went to bed. It usually happened when I thought a lot about this. Maybe it will happen again when writing this, but I didn't have it for more than a year, I feel kind of nostalgic, maybe I should give it another try if it's still there? But it's definitely weaker now. Even then, when such thoughts popped up, I didn't try to avoid them. I embraced them. I kept focusing on them. It's the truth after all, and I can't just ignore the truth. The weird thing is, even if I know it's true, when I'm not in the mood, I can't even understand why this scared me so much. However, back to the trip, I had this thought again. It wasn't as extreme, but it stayed for multiple days at a mediocre level. In my free time, I sometimes was lying in bed for hours (just like my roommates). I think it was then, when I also thougt about suicide a lot. And that's when I told myself that just killing myself will never be an option. I'd rather do something extremely dangerous. Or just things I'd never dare to do normally. If I'd kill myself, it should at least be an exciting way. Like skydiving, but not opening the parachute. Or just saying things to girls I found attractive. Maybe even doing things, not caring if I might go too far. In the end nothing really changed. I never did anything too weird because of these thoughts. (even before people already thought I was weird) But I think this changed my views a lot. This is why I don't have strong morals. Or at least why I question morals all the time. If everything is meaningless, and if I base my personal views around that, of course something else comes out than when you just accept values of your surroundings. Why should I care too much about the world in general then? Maybe it's just best to care about things which make me happy, things which fulfill me. Maybe also the people around me, since they are also important for my wellbeing. And I guess that's why I can relate to Rudy so much. Isn't this basically his philosophy? He doesn't care about making the world a better place. First he doesn't even think about the world as a place worth protecting. It's more like a game to him. Some place where you can just try whatever you want, and hope it gets good. Just like I more or less view the world since then. There are no absolute morals. Just things that work and that don't. So if I'm not sure about something, I'd rather just do it. I have no moral concerns or something. Just concerns about getting problems.

i didn't expect that this episode would only take 1hr 43mins

It’s interesting to hear you talk about the difference between a psychologist and a psychiatrist, and I don’t know if it’s appropriate to bring up this anecdote here, delete this comment if not! But my mother was quite distraught yesterday, because she had trouble getting her anxiety medication, with our local pharmacy shutting down! And the effects of not taking her medicine on time could result in really severe symptoms and withdrawals… So while talking to her psychiatrist on the phone, her doctor essentially just told her to just deal with it for a few days, and was in my moms eyes very callous about her situation. Claiming that it was illegal for our current pharmacy to deal a half bottle amount of the medication, and that it was not her problem to deal with issues between pharmacies setting up the prescription at the new location, before she’s due for her next appointment. At which point my sister explained as you did the difference between said fields, and urged my mom to seek a proper psychologist to help them, and to find a new psychiatrist; given my mom felt completely dehumanized and disregarded by her experience, as to think that her current doctor doesn’t care to give her the time of day or take any consideration of possible harms she might face from this incident! Suffice it to say it was a very distressing situation, and I don’t know if there is any recourse for someone in such a situation, or any way to submit some kind of formal complaint of their concerns, within the system…

GOAT stream! Happy to be there despite having to wake up at 4:30 while it ended 3:00 my time 😅

What a great episode! I was in tears the entire episode, Nanahoshi's performance conveyed a lot to me

Man, how long has it been since a Mushoku Tensei analysis has gone below 2 hours? This is the first of the whole season, first cour included.

Muy buen análisis y gran charla Ed, me encanta como tomas tu tiempo explicando y empatizando con el dolor de los personajes al igual de que sabes cuando es momento de relajarse y bromear un poco, y como dijiste no muchas historias tocan esa parte de la depresión o ruptura de un personaje, y como algo tan simple como tener a alguien con quien salir y hablar puede ayudar enormemente a tu animo. Por ultimo gracias por tus palabras Ed, al igual que tu estas orgulloso de nosotros, yo estoy orgulloso de ti.

Banana Episode was phenomenal even with the amount of stuff that was cut. The books do give much deeper insight into Nanahoshi's despair and Rudeus' thoughts, I distinctly remember Rudy thinking that if he left the room, after the breakdown, that Nanaoshi would kill herself and it really made Rudy as a character so much better. The way he could understand her and relate to her because he experienced similar feelings really got to me and the way that shaped his actions from not leaving her side for a whole week and so on. Generally speaking Volume 10 and 11 just have all these character moments back to back first Elinalise, then Nanahoshi and now it's quite clear who's next on that list (7-9 also work that way but not as explosive imo). And its fantastic because it makes these characters so much better and at the same time is such good development for Rudy too. And then obviously the rest of Volume 12 which obviously goes hard.

Let's goooo! I was waiting for this 👌🏽

I have unironically never seen anyone as skilled at spoiling themself as Ed

What if Nanahoshi being brought in was brute forced by mana because the snap back teleported a whole region, what if magic circles can focus the mana and make it more efficient?

I've been waiting for the King of Mexico on this EP.

50:50 Too real

Are you ever going to watch more overlord? I think the upcoming mivie and season 4 would be perfect for you specifically.

Paused at 49:35. I have my mind trained enough that its not thoughts of end life now but rather end life then. I guess its time to go bob sleding down Everest... its still a thought of suicide but its one that cannot occur in the current. No my most common call of the void is more like "lets wander off into the sunset and see if others find me before I die". Not something I really can do at the drop of a hat in other words. Its why I say specifically that I have not put serious thought into it when asked.

The mental breakdown was relatable. I wonder how things would have turned out if they did not find the multi-layer circle trick.

Her mom I think. Not sure I remember right but I think she had a rough relationship with family and friends and so being locked away from them so long put her heart in order about them.

Then Senior Penguino would turn green and gooey. I mean the bannanna in Steins Gate answers that for us.

rather than saying what I think WILL be first I will state what SHOULD be first. I think Rudy needs a son first. Old self and new his father was the weakest link of familial connection. So him having a son would serve as a better crash course as to how hard his dads had it.

How I would like to become your patient. I think I would become an excellent collectible figure for you in your practice. I have so many cockroaches in my head that I’m surprised. I’m like sepsis. If you put pressure on me, a lot of things come out. The only problem is, that I never found an antibiotic. And the condition is not improving.

1:19:28 Ed Wizard Moment

Take it easy, if you need help just ask.

We saw in the anime what the gathering mana looked like... it was red and luminous and seen at dawn. Eris Grandpa saw it. Why there and then? That is the real question. OK now to hide all the evidence while he's distracted on another question. sweep that there and bury this here... and good no more pesky questions about vol 25 and 26.

The amount of "guys stop spoiling" at around the 20 minute mark is so indicative of why this format is so incredibly harmful for the type of content and quality of content that seems to be desired by this channel.

Honest Sylphie its called a "staff of destruction"... you see each time you use it my confidence gets destroyed.

Assuming you did not move forward or backward on purpose I think the passing of time is 1:1.

goat ed

Me gustaría que analizaras evangelion a tu manera.

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