P.s. Hey guys, can you please share under these comment some new words that appeared in the last years (like, covidiot, covindex, etc)? It also will be nice if there are online articles where these words are used. This will be helpful for my thesis, and I think it’s just fun to discuss the new words that appeared during the COVID time!

Thank you all for the supportive comments! Wishing everyone a nice day from Russia

I remain impressed at your authenticity/sincerity and increasingly your openness and vulnerability. Even though you appeared to perceive the video as negative, I’m sure many/most of us would agree that it takes a great deal of strength to be this open and real. There is a reason so many people have been drawn to your uploads - part of it is the subject matter, but much of it is because of you and getting to see the world from the filter of your life and personality. Amazing person, amazing youtuber.

Dear Natasha: I am a college writing professor and one of your Patreon supporters. The May vlog was so honest! So tough to watch! You're a good, honest human being and we love you! --Mark

Hey Natalie. I am a Turkish physician who came to United States in July 2020 for a research fellowship and the last 3-4 minutes of this video is exactly how I felt almost since then. I was having a very bad day with procrastination, lack of sense of self and depression and watching this video made me feel less alone. The way you said ''I failed everything'' pierced my heart and I completely understood where you're coming from. I discovered your videos 2 days ago and I am close to watching it all. I cant thank you enough for what you do. I am 25 so close-ish to your age and I agree with your other supporters that these feelings are only natural. We are not robots. We are living breathing beings with needs and desires in life. Sometimes our academic and career pursuits dont necessarily align with that.. Hope you've made some progress since this video. If not, please be kind to yourself. We'll be here if you need anything.

Don’t apologize for being negative. That’s just life; it’s not always bright and happy.... if anything thanks for being real! You’re videos are always informative and entertaining:) ✌️

Laughed harder than I should at "Girls in the West go shopping. We go to court hearings."

Small message from France: You’re not a failure, you appeared to be burned out. Take care of yourself, and thank you for your videos

I always get like a warm, cozy feeling inside when I see current every day life from a place so different from mine.

I appreciate your honesty. It would be easy to pretend that things are going well and that you have it all together, but you are brave enough to share your struggles and failures with us. Thank you for that! We all struggle. I hope you gain some momentum soon.

Natasha, many people have responded to this video with encouraging words and the importance of getting through depression and finishing your thesis. All good advice. I would like to help you understand the impact you have had, with this channel. You are amazing. You have accomplished so much in your life, at such a young age! Like many people, I first found you through your “Life in a small town..”. You have 2.5M views! Do you realize how amazing that is? You and I are so completely different people in every way...but somehow...you have been able to reach, inspire, educate and communicate with a 56 year old Black man, living 5,685 miles away, in a suburb of Phoenix, AZ! You must take a step back and appreciate how amazing that is. Your thesis is just a “moment in time”. Lean in, write it, hand it in...and let that moment pass. Your whole life awaits you. I’m looking forward to seeing your videos and adventures for a long time.

As a prof, I know that this last year and a half have been insane. Hang in there, and thanks for your continued insights about Russia. Your videos have been very educational.

Natasha, I love the realness of your videos, and your willingness to show your vulnerability. You are able to find enjoyment in the brokenness of your surroundings, twisted fence, graffiti, old worn buildings and scarry houses. Then the sharing of your failure resonates because we all fail. Your struggle to achieve objectives that at first feel oppressive, to then later realize those efforts have helped you learn something, especially to learn something about yourself, rings true to us. Thank you for sharing.

Hang on in there, Natasha. Recycling is good. June will be better. This time it is difficult to stay motivated and energetic.

The simple and honest way that you communicate is so very refreshing to me. No trumpets are needed, just truth and reality. THANK YOU

You do not realise how beautiful, courageous, honest and lovely a person that you are! Your brilliant!

Your anxieties remind me of myself when I was your age. Things improved in my life. I won't even try to say something clever or sarcastic this time but just push through and I will continue to support you on Patreon.

my heart sank when you said that you failed everything. here's to a brighter future for you. 🙏

7:51 "Abandoned/destroyed aesthetic, as usual" haha I know exactly what you mean! Natasha, your English is so good! I'm so glad you put these videos up on KZfaq. I don't have any Russian friends, so I could never learn about the Far East of Russia without your videos. By the way, thanks for taking a 7-hour train ride to Spassk-Dalny just for this video! I appreciate you!

from a westerner here in Chicago, you're human. btw its just intriguing that all the damn sidewalks are HUGE

I can't quite wrap my head around the concept of a parade you can only watch if you are invited.

"Today I went to a court hearing, not mine...not yet" LOL

Just discovered you yesterday and can’t stop watching your videos. You’re so authentic and sincere, and it so interesting to see life in a part of the world I’ve never seen before. Much love from Minneapolis, MN :)

Omg what an amazing video, even though it had negative aspects it made me feel really nostalgic. I'm from Ukraine but live in the UK now, but everything youve shown in this video really reminded me of my hometown lol 😢😭 great video and love your sense of humour. Best of luck ❤❤

Natasha, I think you and Zack should consider applying to come to the United States for a year to teach Russian at an American college or university. I have met language scholars at Reed College near my home in Portland, Oregon, and they seem to be having great fun. They lead a couple of conversation classes, live in the language house with students, and provide cultural programs. They have spare time to travel around the U.S. You can find programs through the Institute of International Education, the Council on International Educational Exchange, or the Center for University Programs Abroad. Good luck!

You're so honest with yourself, it's admirable. It's sometimes really challenging to convince yourself to do things that you don't want to do, especially when you feel uninspired with life generally. Don't get down on yourself, you're so close to being done. Really like the authenticity in this video, it's why I keep coming back to your channel. Awesome to learn about Russian culture through someone so relatable.

The first video of yours that I watched was “My House”. I don’t remember how I ran across your channel but I was intrigued, to say the least. Someone who grew up in eastern Russia is going to take me inside the house where she grew up and show me around? Fascinating!! I remember your cat and how much your home and country, half a world away, was not so different from the places that I grew up in. Ohio and Virginia, USA, by the way. I can understand why you might have had reasons to take that one down, but I’d REALLY love to see that one again, if possible. I also remember being twenty, twenty-one and twenty-two years old and knowing what I wanted in life, but not knowing how to go about getting it. I think nearly everyone can relate to that. I’m trying to say that you’re very talented and intelligent with a wonderful sense of humor and everything will fall into place if you persevere and don’t let anyone or anything deter you or tell you that what you want isn’t possible. Those folks just didn’t try hard enough or believed the people who told them that what they were trying to achieve wasn’t possible. Natasha rocks!!!

The way you captured that sunset and the neighborhood was amazing, that was such a beautiful sunset

I know that recent events have left you blue, but you did something very positive in this vlog. When you went to the court hearing for the artist that was very positive because it showed him that others are aware of his troubles and are concerned for him. Jail, by its nature is very isolating, and by going to his hearing you showed your solidarity with him.

Your authenticity is truly inspiring, and you are an adorable human being love from London xx

Is always interesting to see how people live in other countries. Chin up young lady, life will not always be so sad. ♥

Thanks for showing us around, Natasha. I failed my driver license test four or five times, but since I passed I have been driving for fifty years. Take heart! Thank you also, for bravely sharing your feelings and the reality of your life. You are very kind, because all of us feel better when the bravest among us share their vulnerability! If you can define a specific goal for yourself you will feel more positive and happier-I hope!

congrats, you're an extremely normal and well adjusted 20 something kid. You aren't experiencing anything that a vast majority of the rest of us experienced at that age. You'll get through it and life will go on. That's what your 20s are for. Don't let the little things get you down.

Natasha, hang in there. You got this. I can relate to the feeling of letting myself down and the general sadness of my downfalls. I took a long time getting my driver's license, failed many university classes, and didn't achieve many things I set out to do. Failing is essential. Eventually, success comes to those who keep failing better. What has worked for me is planning as much as possible in advance and just mindlessly following it (and adjusting on the go). It has helped immensely in sticking to my long term goals when I just need to do what my past self wrote down. University sometimes is very draining. Trust your process, and the results follow! There is hope in dreaming about a better future. Sometimes, dreaming leads to avenues and opportunities you did not think were possible, which will enable you to grow in unexpected ways. Enjoy the little detours of life 'cause that's what it is about.

Keep up your spirits! Many people are cheering for you!!

It is nice to see in your vids where people have put out food and created outdoor shelters for the cats.

"People can do hard things" lmao Honestly though, hang in there. You can do it. I failed my driving test the first time I did that too. My country is still in lockdown and that ruined my travel plans etc. We do what we can with what we're given. It's the only way forward and that's better than being stuck.

Watching this is like a dejavu from my own university studies, like 15 years back. I remember so well the feeling of not really seeing a meaning in the studies. I remember visiting my small home town. And that hollow feeling that comes theough so well in this vlog. Postponing the deadlines. I was you, 😂. I studied soviet russian history at Lund university in Sweden. I ended up as a journalist at a car mag in the big city of Stockholm. And later moved back to the small home town. Now with 3 children of my own. Life😂 I enjoy watching your vlogs so very much. I am sure you will find the path which is right for you in due time.

I love your honesty in your vlogs. What I can see is that you are indeed a very interesting and a bright, caring human. All of us go through tough times from time to time, Remember that each new dawn brings the promise of a better day. Keep smiling and posting your vlogs!

You didn't fail everything, your channel is going great! Sometimes it's just a terrible few days, but eventually it turns around.

Sorry you're feeling depressed. It does sound like you need to get after that thesis though. Yes? The best encouragement I can give you from as far away as Texas is to remember that the hardest part of writing formal papers, like your thesis, is just getting started. Once you're well into it, the thoughts and words will come because your focus will be greater and you have something in front of you to show for all of your work. First only a few pages, then more, then you'll be at 40 and then 50 and 60. It's hard to get started sometimes, but one you make that effort, you'll surprise yourself that it wasn't as bad to do as you had believed. I say all of this as a retired professor, so I hope you can trust my advice and just get started. Very best of luck to you!

Stay positive girl! We all love you and support you. Anything you need I'm sure we can help.

Thank you for the tour. I enjoy seeing the different sites and hearing your perspective.

I believe in you. You are not wrote or even dictated. You are who you are when you open your eyes in the morning. They get dim as the day goes on. but in the morning they are bright and free.

Wouldn't worry about the driving test, I crashed into a police car on mine, got it next time round :)

The brutal honesty is admirable. I think that might be what keeps me interesting in watching these videos.

Natasha, your vlogs are courageous, fascinating, and wonderful to watch, and I thank you so much for sharing your experiences and perspectives with the world!

I'm going through the exact same here in the states. You've got this!!!

I've just finished my final year thesis (although here in Britain we call it a dissertation) and I think it's a thing all around the world to be a bit stressed and depressed during that time. The sense of relief and freedom you will get when you hand it in though is totally worth it!

I'll never meet you being a 40 year old man from Portland Oregon in the US, but I will say I have felt much of what you're feeling. The "doing nothing" and the deadlines for university - lots of people shut down when under lots of pressure and that's OK. Anyway, I turned out OK once I found what I loved to do, which was not not what I studied at university and I hope you will too. Keep your chin up and thanks for sharing your little perspective of life!

Thank you for sharing both your highs and lows. It is a beautiful thing to see you express all your emotions and share your negative experiences. Your videos bring joy to me and to many many others. Sending Love from Massachusetts, USA

"Sorry I'm not graffiti man" --- 🤣 that's so delightfully & strangely courteous!

Hi Natasha, It would be really interesting to hear about how your family views your success as a youtube personality, and what they thought as your channel, suddenly, gained so many viewers within a few weeks.

Natasha - You’re a delight, even when you’re feeling negative and frustrated. I wish you the best with your thesis and I hope you do graduate on time. Your promise to make many more videos once you are free of the requirements of the university is really something to look forward to.

Thank you natasha for enlightening us more to what life is like in your world .respect....👍🏾

Open, honest and very personal views on yourself, your experie ces and things around you. Great to see and listen your stories. Don't be afraid of what feels like your failures.it shows much of your nice values and qualities, which at the right moment will bring you good things.

Be sure we love you Natasha. You are brave and sincere!. I'm sure you'll be able to finish writing your thesis and keep on making these interesting videos! I'm sending you my best wishes, (right now), and be sure many people who watch your videos are doing the same! Love from Buenos Aires, Argentina! 😀👋👋

keep your chin up, things can always get better. You're a smart gal!!

I really appreciate your videos! it's like a tour that makes you feel your there! Keep on keeping on!

Your videos are wonderful, showing such a realistic view of life in your country. Thank you!

I'm helping some friends at the moment with their driving exams and a big item they found confusing was giving way to pedestrians and cyclists, ect. I explained that as a driver of a large vehicle, you must be prepared at all times to avoid hazards, especially unpredictable ones. So although other cars follow specific road rules, they don't apply to pedestrians, so in that way they are considered hazards you need to avoid.

Never give up on this channel. It's a gem! As you are 🙂

I really like how honest you are. Your videos are a nice watch and you are such a sweet person. I hope things get better for you.

My dear girl your video wasn't negative it was honest and truthful and full of vulnerability that most of us could never muster up and be so brave to do. I applaud you for admitting your mistakes and figuring out a way to make up for them you're an inspiration to everybody and I'm so glad I found your channel

We love you Natasha, hang in there! This is a very difficult & awkward time for everyone, especially young adults in college. I know it may seem tough, but humans are very resilient. You will prevail! You are clearly very smart and level-headed.

I really hope that things turned out wellf for you. My husband and I watch your videos whenever we can and we are impressed with your intelligence and courage. It must be be difficult to do what you are doing but please stick with It and you will succeed .Discouragement will pass.

Good luck on finishing your thesis! Looking forward to the coming videos.

Once again I loved your video. It is refreshing to have someone be honest about their surroundings and their life. I cannot wait until you finish university and have time to file more honest videos about your life in Russia.

I think it's your honesty and openness that keeps me interested in watching your videos. Even explaining away your procrastination and subsequent failures is amusing from a neutral perspective but I'm sure I'm not the only viewer who wishes you well and hope that you find something positive in your life. Life is very difficult in your country as shown in your videos but I can only admire your strength and determination to improve your lot, good luck Natalia.

Natalia, sending you all the best wishes from Vienna, the pain you feel is very real. This world is not a great place for someone as empathetic as you, I am in the same boat. Every day is a struggle to find a reason to live, unfortunately it wont change. We try our best every day, and see what happens. You are not alone in this struggle!

I sincerely all the best for you Natalia , hang in there and keep pushing on.. better days ahead for you girl

Thanks for your videos, Natasha. Spasiba. 😊

"Hi" from Los Angeles California. You've learned much in the month of May. Thanks for sharing! Don't be too hard on yourself though. Apply what you've learned. You're an intelligent young person with so many unseen opportunities ahead of you. Keep moving forward 🙂.

I’ve found myself in situations you’re currently facing and you’ll get thru it. You’re bright, personable, sincere, those are all qualities that lead to success when the stars align and your stars will align, I know it.

Keep the vlogs coming. I really enjoy watching them. There is strength in you, I can see that, even from my laptop. I am CERTAIN that you can do anything that you set your mind to.

Thank you for your videos.

Failure is an important aspect of learning. Do not be discouraged. You have a lot of skills and think deeply about a lot of things, which are very positive things indeed.

Here is a quote from Stephen King, the author: “Once you know what has to be done, it's better to do it than to live with the fear of it.” I know exactly how you are feeling. Been there many times myself. I promise you this. Just start working on the paper. Once you start working, you’ll feel better. And the more you work, the better you’ll feel. It’s hard to get out of a depressive, anxious funk. But the cure, and I promise this is a cure, is actually to just start doing the work. And it’s super easier to say than it is to do, but I promise that when you start the work, you’ll start to feel better.

Natasha -- Please stay strong and focused on your goals, my young friend. Stay busy with real projects even if you must force yourself to do so. This is what I do, and I have found that the more the I do (within the limits of my 𝒂𝒄𝒕𝒖𝒂𝒍 ability), the more I accomplish for myself, and so, the less depressed and defeated I feel and the more confident and positive I become. Also, try not to spend too much time alone. Ask a female friend to hang out with you for several hours in the evening to chit-chat. This will help too, I'm sure. You can try starting a meditation time when you are alone at home. Start slow with this, only 15 minutes or so, then increase this as you become better at keeping your mind quiet and still. Okay. I hope you try some of these suggestions of mine, and I know you will begin to feel much better soon. The weather is improving now too, so that should be good for having more outdoor activities in the sunshine. Good luck to you, and take care! :)

You go girl! Proud of you on recycling efforts and the reusable cup - it’s not easy to do in Russia. 🤙🏻

Thank you for your honesty, it is refreshing. You give us a unique view of the world. Personally, I've found that meditating, maybe 20 minutes or so, early in the day and late in the day, every day, has been very helpful for recovering from stress and burnout and enabling me to deal effectively with things I dread, getting them out of the way. It's that time of year, when exhaustion from the long winter slowly gives way to new growth. Time to rest and renew. Be well!

Came to find out more about the court thing, everything else was really fascinating. But it's really sad to hear a lot of things. I hope you get through the things you're dealing with.

Well done Natalia. The youth you represent can , will and currently are making this a better world. Please keep up the great and informative Vloging.

i love the self reflection and the sheer honesty in your videos...i think it's as raw and unfiltered as an edited video can get...you are showing your normal life in Khabarovsk and Spassk and that is far more interesting than the reality shows on television...I prefer the authenticity even if it is without drama

I hope that everything turns out alright. Just remember that you never truly fail if you try your best and keep trying. Make sure you are prepared for the exam, but make sure to take care of yourself both mentally and physically. Best of luck from the USA!

Remember that things will always get better, and with enough work you can doing just about anything so long as you look back and learn from what went wrong, much love from Minnesota ❤️

Hello Natasha and warmest wishes from here. Failures are part of life and, if one learns from them they can spur you on to greater efforts in the future! Don't get discouraged by them.You are honest and a great example of a good citizen! You have a friend in New Hampshire! :-)

Hey, thank you for all of your great content so far! Best of luck to you in your studies. I have been where you are with my own studies with each day seeming like the last, but you are progressing everyday one less productive or one more productive day is still progress - you got this!! :)

It‘s so brave to be that open about one‘s emotions on the internet Also most of it is just so relatable even though one might not have experienced it..

Natasha, I understand you perfectly. When we are in the process of presenting our last exams and thesis to obtain our academic degrees, we students feel a lot of stress and anguish, that is completely normal. I became a business manager in 2009 and could not sleep well the days before, I cried many times and even failed my exam to obtain my academic degree, because the examining committee did not approve my thesis presentation and final oral exam. Thank God there was a second chance to do everything and that was a great opportunity to demonstrate my knowledge ... the secret is to overcome fears, work and study hard to get there in the best way. Hopefully my comment helps you, after all this process you will be very relieved, proud and you will understand the people who were evaluating you as a student. Another important thing is that you should work in another country that loves people's freedoms as much as you do ... I think that Russia is very repressive for you. Bye.

Lovely park. You inspired me to recycle more. Thank you! Your videos are great! Keep up the good work!

Failure teaches far more than success. You are very intelligent and likeable, so you will be fine. Do not despair.

Не грусти, у тебя много друзей вокруг мира которые молятся за тебя

Hello and good wishes from Australia. You make the world better, just by being you. Your videos make life better for me, and i believe for many others. Keep smiling .

When I was a student, I was just like you. Keep at it, you will get there.

Hi Natasha, thank you for your videos! Love watching them and all the comments and sharing you do! Keep up the good work! Regards, Carlos (Downey, California)

Just remember, everything will pass in time. Keep working, but try to have some fun while you're young.

We love you! It was very smart of you to find the positives among all the day's negatives. If more people thought that way they would be happier in life. Just keep going we are always eager to see what new video you bring us. 👍

I hope the thesis goes well for you. I’m glad you still found things to be positive about. I really enjoy your videos.

Good luck girl! We all face some slumps and failures but I do hope the best for you. Can't wait to see you travel the world again!