i will (try to) translate it if i get as much as one request to do it, this guys hella cool

@@Crosshill yes!! That would be great 💕

@@daori6804 i will get to it when i feel like translating something ~

hara ga itai hodo waratte kure kono itami to oaiko ni shiyou ze x2 wasureta koro ni kuru owari no nai hanseikai kabin ni naru jidai motome gachi ni naru seikai "sou da. donkan de itai nara sono mune no hora no uchi wo ute do hibikanu nakami de mitase." kuukyo de atta boku ha isasa na tsurai koto mo chimeishou da kara no kokoro ni sore ha yoku hibiita dore dake dare ka no kotoba de umete mo mitasarenakute isso mou boku no nara kamawanai to itami de mitashita suutto nibuku naru nani mo ka mo ga itami wo matotta sou yatte zenbu niku naru shiawase no shikumi ni kizuita soshiranufuri de mou kanawanu sore ni futashita hara ga itai hodo waratte kure kono itami to oaiko ni shiyou ze hora awarena boku wo waratte kurette saa itten jan ka sa heta na doujou, iranai wa tada tsurai dake na no ha iya dakara waratte kuretteba dare ga miru demo nai basho de mo egao tsukuri kagami no mae de sae odokete miburi teburi dakara itagaru hima sae nakutte tada sugiteku hibi ni hihei shite dokka kiekakatten da boku no saigo no aidentiti tanomu kara boku ni ataete yo kikku itto urayamashiku mieta jiyuu na furiikii haritsuita egao ga ameizingu hahah mou kodoku ya betsuri ha ita to yuzuru mon ha yuzureba heiwari ni sumu to egao ni sugatta hontou baka mitai nani mo ka mo no boku wo nagedashita sou yatte uso ni natteku yarusenai omoi ga shimikonde kitsukanu uchi ni hagaretetta boku no tsura no tekusucha sou shinu hodo kowai ya boku no owari made zutto tada tsurai dake datta sonna fuu ni omotte shimau koto ga omotte mo inai you na koto wo kotoba ni shite hontou ni shite iku noni mo narete massugu na dare ka wo mite urayamashiku natta kotoba ni ha shinai konna ni mo itai kono sekai ni sukui ha hitotsu to shite nai nante kurutteru tte omotteita yuugure ni futto sukuwareyou to shite inai boku ni kizuita dore dake hiniku wo jibun ni tobashita? mushi shitetan da jibun wo mitometai boku wo mou byouki janai ka oh baka mitai kakurete ita boku wo torikonda itsu datte koko ni itanda ze nani mo nai da nante iwanai de muriyari demo ii kyou datte omoi ni kizuita tte sotto homete chotto boku wo suki ni natte boku no karappo no kokoro wo douka aishite mitashite

(work in progress) to you the only person who can comfort you is yourself. until you realize this, you will probably live a hard and painful life. please notice me soon. my name is nemo. i'm the submarine that can save you from suffering. from your other self 腹が痛い程笑ってくれ この痛みとおあいこにしようぜ laugh so hard it makes your guts ache. let's go get even with this pain. 忘れた頃に来る 終わりの無い反省会 過敏になる時代 求めがちになる正解 it'll come to you when you least expect it, those never ending review sessions. when we're feeling oversensitive is when we most earnestly seek the right answers. 『そうだ。 鈍感でいたいなら その胸の洞の内を 打てど響かぬ中身で満たせ。』 空虚であった僕は 些かな辛い事も致命傷だ 空の心にそれは良く響いた "ah yes, if you wish to be insensitive, then fill the empty cavity of your chest with as much indifference as you please" to my hollow self, even the slightest hurt was a fatal wound, so it resonated well with my hollow heart. どれだけ誰かの言葉で埋めても 満たされなくて いっそもう僕のなら構わないと 痛みで満たした i tried using someone else's words but it couldn't fill the void. maybe it would work if it was something of my own, so i filled it up with pain. すーっと鈍くなる 何もかもが痛みを纏った そうやって全部憎くなる 幸せの仕組みに気付いた 素知らぬフリでもう叶わぬそれに蓋した and then everything grew dull, suddenly everything is covered in pain. that's how i came to hate everything. i knew how happiness worked, but i pretended not to know and concluded that it was already impossible. 腹が痛いほど笑ってくれ この痛みとおあいこにしようぜ ほら哀れな僕を笑ってくれってさぁ 言ってんじゃんかさ 下手な同情、要らないわ ただ辛いだけなのは嫌 だから笑ってくれってば laugh so hard it makes your guts ache. let's go get even with this pain. come on, have a laugh at my misery. i'm telling you, i've no need for your crude sympathy. it's only the painful things that i hate, i told you already, just laugh at me. 誰が見るでもない 場所でも笑顔作り 鏡の前でさえ 戯けて身振り手振り even when in unseen places i'm making someone smile. in the mirror in front of me gesturing and playing the fool. だから 痛がる暇さえ無くって ただ過ぎてく日々に疲弊して どっか消えかかってんだ 僕の最後のアイデンティティ 頼むから僕に与えてよキックイット 羨ましく見えた自由なフリーキー 張り付いた笑顔がアメイジング ハハッ that's why i don't have time to complain about the pain. i'm just tired of every day just passing by. i'm on the verge of disappearing, my last identity please grant it, kick it the enviable, liberal freaky the smile that's stuck on my face is amazing. ha hah もう孤独や別離は嫌と 譲れるもんは譲れば 平和裏に済むと 笑顔に縋った hating loneliness and separation, i thought that if i gave up everything, that i could give up on that i could get away with it peacefully. i put my trust in that smile. 本当馬鹿みたい 何もかもの僕を投げ出した そうやって虚になってく 遣る瀬無い思いが染み込んで 気付かぬうちに 剥がれてった僕の面のテクスチャ i feel like such an idiot. i'd given up everything i'd ever had. that's how i came to be so empty, i'm steeped in hopeless, dreary thoughts. without realizing the texture of my face started slipping off. そう死ぬほど怖いや 僕の終わりまでずっと ただ辛いだけだった そんな風に思ってしまう事が yeah i'm scared to death, right up till the end of me. its just been so hard to think like that. 思ってもいないような事を言葉にして 本当にしていくのにも慣れて 真っ直ぐな誰かを見て羨ましくなった 言葉にはしない i got used to saying unexpected things and to actually do it. i envy people who are straightforward who doesn't put it into words. こんなにも痛いこの世界に 救いは一つとしてないなんて 狂ってるって思っていた夕暮れに ふっと救われようとしていない僕に気付いた in a world that hurts so much, how could i believe in something like salvation. in the twilight when i thought i was going crazy, i realized i wasn't trying to be saved. どれだけ皮肉を自分に飛ばした？ 無視してたんだ 自分を認めたい僕を how much irony did i inflict upon myself? i'd been ignoring my self who wanted to be acknowledged by me. もう病気じゃないか Oh 馬鹿みたい 隠れていた僕を取り込んだ いつだって此処にいたんだぜ 何もないだなんて言わないで 無理矢理でもいい 今日だって思いに気付いたって そっと褒めてちょっと 僕を好きになって 僕の空っぽの心を どうか愛して満たして it's sick, isn't it? oh it's ridiculous. you took in my hidden self. i had been there, always, so dont tell me that nothings there. i dont care if you have to force it. even today i realize, please praise me, just a little i want you to like me, to fill up this empty heart with love

Thank you so much, love you_

@@advaititiwari173 i love this song wth its so good, it definitely deserves better than this