This entire album hits a little to close to home...

"Suicide thoughts come and go like a guest to me But I don't wanna die, I just want to get relief" That one really hit me HARD

Anyone here today ?

“Is this really what I’m born to be? That’s what you get for thinking you’re unique” wow

“I don’t wanna die, I just wanna get relief” someone finally put this feeling into words.

Eyes: CLOSED NF: ON World: OFF

"when I feel like you don't need me I feel like you don't see me and then my life has no meaning" That hits scarily close to home for me

I've listened to this song every night for the past four years. I've been through so much heartbreak and depression that I've thought of ending my life on multiple occasions. I feel like this song was written for me specifically. I know barely anyone is going to see this comment, but if you do, and you're dealing with the same stuff I've had to go through, just keep pushing. Suicide is never going to fix your problems, it's just going to make those who love you sad. Life is meaningful, even when your can't tell sometimes.

“Depression is being colorblind, and constantly being told how colorful the world is” - Atticus

"The mirror is my best friend because when i cry it doesn't laugh" - Unknown

Lyrics from genius [Chorus] I don't see you like I should You look so misunderstood And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself Pray to God with my arms open If this is it, then I feel hopeless And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself [Verse 1] Yeah, late nights are the worst for me They bring out the worst in me Mind runnin', got me feelin' like it hurts to think If this is all that I wanted, I don't want it, gotta be more for me All the core beliefs And every mornin' I wake up and feel like I am not worth it 'cause I'm at war with peace I go to Hell, walk up to the corpse of me Look at the body like, "You ain't nothin' but poor and weak" It's kinda weird Lately I been feelin' like the only way for me to get away is if I pour the drink That's more deceit, more defeat Is this really what I'm born to be? That's what you get for thinkin' you're unique So poor, but I'm so wealthy Need help, but you can't help me What else can the world sell me? Tell me lies, I still buy 'em like they're goin' outta stock But it's not healthy [Chorus] I don't see you like I should You look so misunderstood And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself Pray to God with my arms open If this is it, then I feel hopeless And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself [Verse 2] Yeah, late nights get the best of me They know how to get to me Suicide thoughts come and go like a guest to me But I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief So don't talk to me like you think I'm so successful What is success when hope has left you? I am not a spokesman, I'm a broken record I'm sick of doin' interviews 'cause I hate myself, agh! Come across like it's so easy But I feel like you don't need me When I feel like you don't need me Then I feel like you don't see me And my life has no meaning, drain me Hands out, tryna ask for love But when I get it, I just pass it up Throw it away and think about it later Diggin' through the trash for drugs Wish I could give you what you needed, but I can't I'm scared because [Chorus] I don't see you like I should You look so misunderstood And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself Pray to God with my arms open If this is it, then I feel hopeless And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself [Verse 3] I walk through the ashes of my passions Reminiscin' with the baggage in my casket Get lost in the questions I can't answer Can't stand who I am, but it don't matter We scream to be free, but I stay captured Knee-deep in defeat of my own actions Feel weak, but the peace that I keep lacking Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it But I can't have it Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it But I can't have it Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it [Chorus] I don't see you like I should You look so misunderstood And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself Pray to God with my arms open If this is it, then I feel hopeless And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself Hate myself But it's hard when I hate myself Hate myself But it's hard when I hate myself [Outro] When I hate myself It's kinda hard when I hate myself I hate myself It's hard when I hate myself

Nate..I know, this song is 3 years old now and I'm sure you' ll never read this, but thank you. My mom died 2 years ago losing her battle with cancer. Since then, 3 of my best friends have left this world, as well. I'm so totally and utterly alone in this world...until I listen to you. I cry everytime I listen to your music. Sometimes, it's jsut the fact that your putting words to my emotions. Other times, it's knowing that...I'm not alone. There's someone else out there, feeling just like me. Thank you...I hope I can make it through like you, but every day gets harder and harder. Who knows if I'll be here tomorrow, but today, your words will give me solace and I'll tough it out for 1 more day.....again....Thank You....

NF is the only rapper who makes me say: Relatable

"Depression is living in a body that fights to survive, with a mind that wants to die" -unknown

This song needs more recognition it's so underrated

"Music raised me more than my parents did"-NF This quote describes his entire life in one sentence and its sad.

They say when your depressed and you tell someone you just want attention But how are you supposed to get help if you don't ask........

Its hard to save someone from drowning when you're drowning, too.

"I feel like you don't need me, when I feel like you don't need me then I feel like you don't see me and my life has no meaning."

Crazy when I was at my lowest like 3 years ago and thought about going through with my plans. I kid you not the next day day at school I was listening to music in class and stumbled across him. His Music Touched me a way I never felt before. Like I could cry without being ashamed. He really saved me when I realized I wasn’t the only one who had these feelings..who felt what I felt. And listening to his music helped me focus and realize I can get through it. That maybe im strong enough. I hope I still am

"The saddest part of life is when the person who gave you memories becomes a memory" - Unknown

“don’t want do die, I just want relief”- this gave me so many chills. don’t give up, it will get better

anyone here in march 2024?

"I dont want to die, i just want to get relief". Going through anxiety, literally all the physical symptoms and deperosnalisation/derealisation. This is exactly how I feel!!

All you're fans are proud man everyone's got demons takes alot to admit that keep living life and enjoying the small things

“The worst feeling is when you feel like your annoying the person you want to talk too”-Unknown

1:38 “Suicide thought come and go like a guest to me” these lines I relate too so much, that’s why this is my fav NF song

The first time I heard this song I was having an awful depressive spiral. My OCD, Depression, Anxiety, and disassociation was in full swing almost all at the same time. I even had thoughts about drinking to ease the pain, just to get relief, despite my personal vow to never drink alcohol, ever. I just broke and decided to play this song. I remember it still. I started to break down as I listened to the song, but the moment "Feeling like the only way for me to get away is if I poured a drink." The moment I heard that verse, I broke. I just started uncontrollably crying and sobbing. All of the pain I had came out. Everything just hurt. Everything hurt in such a deep, intimate level. I cried for over an hour, just letting it out. Ever since that day, I have started healing a bit more. This song in my opinion, changed my life. It saved me. This song encapsulates my life to such a degree that hearing it even now still hurts. Thank you NF for making this song, for sharing your pain.

"Don't want to die, I just want relief" PARALYZED- "I'm scared to live, I'm scared to die"

This is the official Nf deserves a Grammy button ⬇️

Nf if you see you this comment just know that God is still with you and still loves you I can relate to a lot of your songs so much and they've helped me a lot through hard times keep doing what you do God bless you and your family

When you hate yourself too, it seems like there is no hope left, because in the end you don't even care about yourself anymore. And this is very dangerous, unfortunately

I tear up because he speaks out loud whats in my mind...

*"But I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief."* *well if he didn't hit how i feel head on...*

This song was the starting point for me to understand why I was feeling so suicidal, that line "I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief", keeps poping up on my mind every time I feel like I am falling into it again and it motivates me to instead work hard in order to feel and enjoy that relief one day..to everyone that is passing through a hard time, shit happens in life all the time, but there is always a way to escape hell, take a deep breath and think about it hero, you got this ;)

3 years later and this is still the most underated NF song.

“The strongest people suffer the most” -unknown

He said it perfectly: “i don’t wanna die, i just want to get relief”

Suicide doesn’t end the chances of life getting worse, it eliminates the possibility of it ever getting any better.

Every couple of years i get the worst depressive, and suicidal thoughts, and everytime, NF's music is a blessing that makes things a little easier

all these songs getting dropped has been the highlight of my day😂

i googled "i hate myself" because i didn't know what to do anymore and this popped up. now i found this album and it hits so hard. glad my self deprecation at least led me to find some good music lmao

“Feel weak, but the peace that i keep lackin’ keeps speaking to me but i cant have it” Like a nail ….

never come across a song that describes me so perfectly, word for word. glad I've got Nate to say what I can't.

Is it me, or does NF sound more vulnerable on this record and more open? Like his vocals are more cracked, more high. Really seems like he's becoming more and more of him, less of his angry persona he sometimes puts on. He really feels like this is his most out there effort now. Edit: If anyone's interested, I reviewed NF's new album, haha. cheers! :)

Depressed people don't want to die they just want a different life

Hate Myself speaks volumes. You're a good human NF. I've dealt with depression..you don't realize how bad it was until you get out of your depressed state. On top of dealing with generalized anxiety disorder. People don't realize how hard it is sometimes. I commend you for getting the help you needed and continuing to work on yourself. It's not easy..at least for myself. Thanks for writing the songs that you write and continuing to be a humble human.

This is why I love NF he just gets it.. it feels like when I listen to his music im listening to my own thoughts.

"Suicide thoughts come and go like a guest to me, but I don't want to die I just want to get relief." -What millions of us go thru

“But it’s hard when I hate myself” That hit on a personal level..

I just noticed that when he says "my own actions", in the line "knee deep in defeat of my own actions", (at 2:50 ish) his voice kinda cracks, or shakes, like he's about to cry. Like this song wasn't sad enough already.

Keine Ahnung, ob es jemand versteht, aber dieses Lied spiegelt genau das wieder, was in mir vorgeht. Einfach weg sein... Nichts mehr dergleichen fühlen... Es ist so schwer in den Spiegel zu schauen und sich selbst zu ertragen. Ich bin für vieles selbst verantwortlich und will keinen Trost oder ähnliches. Dieses Lied trifft es einfach zu 100%

I like the darkness because when it's dark no one can see my mistakes

"we don't want to die, we just want to be dead" - The voices in my head

Without NF I probably wouldn’t be here, thank you for the music to relate to and feel like you’re not alone in feeling this way

You know sometimes I feel my life isn't worth it anymore and when I do I just listen to NF's music and I know my parents tell me the music you listen to is depressing but NF's music is a therapy for me and when I have no where to go I come here to listen to his message.

"I don't hate myself, I hate the life I have to live." ~ Unknown

i can’t believe there’s a rapper that can rap so hard without cussing

Can't believe it's been three years of listening daily since it's release..

Listening to this, It's been about 2 months now since my older brother (29) passed away. This song helps but hurts. I just wish I could've done something to be there and help. I still hate myself.....

I heard him sing this at a concert after waiting in line for 6 hours. His voice caught at the end of the song when he repeated "I hate myself" several times. You could hear the pain in his voice 😥

No one will ever understand how hard it is to comfort someone when your in pieces trying to tape them back together

This is the most relatable for me i hate myself but i still cling onto my relationships like they will help md but i wont let them

Other rappers: I'm gonna rap about drugs, guns, sex, and violence because that's what kids are growing up with and can relate to. NF: hold my heart

It’s pretty sad when you can relate more to a person you have never met then the people you have known your whole life

your music is why im still alive. i feel that the music is something i can relate to

I discovered this song a few years ago. I already knew it had a deep meaning and it was a very powerful song. Tonight, I'm in a very bad place and I can't sleep. I just overthink, and I want to stop it. But I can't. So I decided to come back on this song, and it hit hard. It helps me a lot in so many ways... Thank you NF for putting your feelings into words and for making me feel less alone. This is real

“Smile, because it’s easier than explaining what’s killing you on the inside” -the joker.

he’s come such a long way.... he deserves so much 🖤 I remember when I first started listening and when I listen back to the first songs I think about the place I was in.... we grew together, separate lives but still felt so close . he’s such an inspiration to many , love you NF

I’ve listened to this song for a while and just now the lyrics hit so much deeper. On a completely new level of depth for me. It’s so crazy how relatable this song is right now

This is the best song I've ever heard. Thank you so much NF

Kids today think Billie Eilish represents depression. They obviously haven't heard this album.

My whole life is shaped by this song,The most terrible part is that nobody can possibly understand how you feel.

I'm in tears. I've heard this song many times, but it is really hitting hard right now. I am struggling to be the happy person that people want me to be when that's not really me. I'm in my own prison with a smile on the outside.

Am I the only one who hides everything from mom and dad?🥺 Edit: I really appreciate everyone sharing their story’s and I’m really taking the time to listen to anything everyone says

17 mins ago NF dropped 15 songs. This puts a smile on my face

This whole song breaks me. I miss my father. I came home this time last year to be with him. Saw him Jan 11th and on the 1st. He died early Feb. Talk to your family as much as you can . No matter if you feel like shit or hate yourself

Just wanted to let yall know, someone out there cares. No matter what happens, someone will cry when you die, feel sad when you get hurt, and even if they dont always show it, someone always cares.

This song hits different when you’re having a complete breakdown in your car, poring rain, late at night

"...I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief..." Is it just me, or is this relatable.

I used to listen to this song and then I went back to my old playlist on KZfaq and hear this again to the point I start crying because this was my mom's favorite song and knowing I started to feel what my mom use to feel... Every word hit harder every time he opened his mouth to sing the lyrics to this beautiful. 0:48 was the time in the song I started crying...

NF is awesome. friendly, real, meaningful, and epic. that's why he's my favorite rapper

When you want to cry but there is no more tears 😭🥺

THE ENDING WHERE HE JUST KEEPS REPEATING "I HATE MYSELF" BROKE MY HEART IN SO MANY WAYS

It's like Nate took all the thoughts out of my head and made a song about what he saw, I love every single song you've wrote, your amazing ❤❤❤❤

NF is literally the most underrated musician of our generation imo. Shameful how the industry discredits and targets him. Though they try to keep Nate hidden because they are scared of how big his impact will eventually be and already is.

We, NF REAL FANS are so proud of what you’ve become, Nate.

“I’m sick of doing interviews cause I hate myself”... that line hits deep

Been listening to this album for 3 years. Still every song hits like the first time. Some of the lyrics just feel like they have been written for me.

Never has a poem or song spoken to me and about me like this. This is an immaculate description of the intricacies of not only depression on the surface but exactly how it affects people. Haunting. Truly haunting.

Remember in mansion how he said he was scared to open the door? he finally opened that door. And I'm happy he did. Damn thanks for all the likes

"Suicide thoughts come and go like a guest to me But I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief"

“Pray to god with my arms open, if this is it then I feel hopeless” it’s so hard

“This is really what I’m born to be?, that’s what you get for thinking you’re unique.” Really hits hard.

"I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief." "I hate myself." It's as though NF knows what I am thinking.

This is like a drug once you start it it’s almost impossible to stop..

This is probably one of my most favorite of NF songs. Somehow, the man takes the thoughts out of my head. Kind of a therapeutic experience. Every day is a fight to stay alive. That one line “I don’t wanna die I just want relief” is exactly how I feel but not many can understand unless they walk the depression road themselves.

"Suicide doesn’t end the chances of life getting worse, it eliminates the possibility of it ever getting any better." -Unknown

No matter how popular Nathan gets, he will still be underrated.

This is always going to be my favorite album. I listen to this whenever the pain is getting to be too much and I feel on the edge. It helps.