On behalf of almost 90k people, we’re glad you’re here! And Cooper in his yellow jacket? That’s as sweet & delicious as any chocolate bunny I might today. Thank you for sharing Paris and your life journal!

Don’t ever think you’re alone Jay. Life can be a struggle with its complexities constantly navigating emotions & relationships. Never give up hope even when it fails you ☺️

I normally don’t comment but I wanted to tell you that I’ve been watching every new video because I really look forward to them. It’s no surprise that today’s post resonated so much. It’s always been about feeling like you’re not living and it sucks when you feel that way.Thank you for sharing. I really needed to hear that today. What you’re doing matters and I appreciate that you’re doing it :)

I’m glad you haven’t had those thoughts lately! I’m glad you are here! 🙃 I think everyone feels like life is empty or lonely sometimes. But glad you got support and guidance. I really love your VLOGS. They are fun and meaningful. Your sharing is healing! 🙏❤️ Stay with us Jay! We need someone like you on this planet for a long time!!! Now… how do you film with people talking in the background and garbage men there? I am fascinated you never had your phone just taken or someone knocking it over?! (This is the less profound part of my comment section. 😂)

It is really hard as an adult to make friends - your time is so limited and you have to be vulnerable. I didn't even realize I'd been protecting myself from pain until later. Thanks for sharing!

This video is like that spontaneous moment you decide to step out and you’re having fun being sidetracked.

Thanks for making our lives a little more joyful with your storytelling.

My gawd. You're my urban Buddha. While I like your clever focused vlogs (like that awesome 20 in 20 series), sometimes the ones where you're standing on a beautiful street thinking your thoughts out loud are so, so good. Thanks, Jay. Please keep doing your brilliant mish-mosh. And Happy Easter 🐰.

It’s good that you took a day out for yourself. I think a big turning point for you was getting Cooper, I certainly think no matter what sh*t life throws at you, your dog is there to comfort and love you, for them their happiness is in that moment and the love you share xx

Nothing wrong with having a slow day and just playing things by ear - we all need those. It’s great to have ambitions but also good to remember what we already have. PS I used to love your silent videos so anytime you want to is fine by me! 👍

Enjoy your time. Always a pleasure to see your videos. Thank you.

Hey Jay, congrats on not having dark thoughts anymore. It's because you're taking care of your needs very well currently.🎉

I really appreciate the deep honesty you bring to videos like this. For years, I've told close friends that I often think, "I'd rather be dead than X", where X is a whole variety of things like "live like this for five more decades". If you think about it, it's actually an incredibly life-AFFIRMING attitude: If you refuse to draw the line anywhere and accept ANY life on ANY terms, you're not really stretching or striving at all. You're just living according to someone else's idea of how you should live, accepting whatever comes your way without a vicious fight. So as paradoxical as it is, there really isn't much difference between "I'd rather be dead [than X]" and loudly affirming, "I want to live"!!! And Jay: You are a successful, independent ARTIST living in Paris, France. What is art, if not showing people how to see the world, how to see beauty that they've somehow overlooked or forgotten exists? Arguably, you have really made it! By some measures, many are more fortunate than you. But by the measure you're defining with your life and the art that is your life, very few are as fortunate or as successful as you already are.

Bonjour Jay.. I completely understand those thoughts.. not suicidal, but just not seeing the point of "me", and wishing I wasn't here. It's a pretty crappy feeling. I'm proud of you for working on yourself and realizing that feeling was truly just your spirit wanting to really live! 💛💛

Thank you for letting me live in France. A wish I have had since I was a little girl.Without you somedays I might no smile. You showed me how to live in a small place and not lose it. Thank you so much. We must stay❤

Bonjour. Sounds like one of those “It’s a wonderful life” moments that alot of people have. Sometimes it could be as simple as needing to be out in the sunshine to pep up. Have a wonderful day. 💙🤍❤️

So glad you are not having that thought so much anymore. Death is so final and thoughts are fleeting and change from moment to moment. I'm finding being resilient against that monkey mind trying to mess with me is the real challenge. You are living a sweet life in Paris with many friends online and off, and an adorable dog who needs you. It's not always fireworks but at least you are living with the freedom to chase any whim you have. I have so many different creative ideas pinging around in my head that my one big fear is that I won't have enough life left to fit them all in!😄 Sending you hugs on your down days and thank you for sharing Paris with me 🥰

I remember when I heard "Bohemian Rhapsody" for the 4746th time and suddenly this one line got to me. "I don't wanna die. I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all." That's what I thought of during your video. But I guess you're right. Of course we want to live. The circumstances and moods are just not always what we want them to be. I believe when you want to learn loving yourself, you kind of already do ❤

Thank you for this one (and all the other videos). I lost my job unexpectedly last Wednesday. I look forward to your videos. They always give me new things to think of. Thank you.

Thank you for another wonderful, thoughtful Jay-share! I thought I had commented…but must’ve forgotten to press the “post button”, LOL! This video brought to mind a semi-silent, very beautiful docu-film, by director Philip Gröning, called “Into Great Silence”. There is more information about it on wikipedia, and it is sometimes streamed on prime amazon. Deep and gentle, and lovely.

Good chill vlog, good music, nice to hear you talk about writing. I think a silent city video might also be awesome this time of year, before the Olympics starts and things are busier. But whatever you do next, I'm sure it'll be great.

Thank you for sharing your vulnerability with us.

Haha the caption of this video is awesome. Happy Easter Jay. (Just finished video. Very hard to admitt what you shared, most people wouldn't let alone offline. A sign you'll be okay and reminder for everyone else too.)

I like relaxing you deserve it. See you tomorrow. Just put your feet up and chill. Merci

it's a beautiful thing when you can sense the shift

I hope you are getting the super you need Jay. I do like the advice you mention from time to time; you have to learn to love yourself before loving others. I've explored Paris in my own before and mine the possibility of doing and going wherever I want.

Jay that was one of the most profound things I’ve ever heard.

Loved the tone of this video. I find myself always on the go with self imposed pressure and find myself granting permission to slow down and just enjoy a regular slow paced routine. Thanks for posting.

Food affects hormones and mood ❤❤

Thanks for sharing your thoughts and being vulnerable

hugs jay 💫

I definitely resonate with this

Jay...I'm so sad to hear that you're Feeling Down but I completely understand if I could just give some of my excitement to you that I have Right Now that I'm coming back to Paris next week.It's making my life worth living knowing.I'm coming back to Paris.My heart is full. I can't wait to get there.

Thank you. This was a really profound and thought provoking.

I think you should make laid back videos more often every Sunday or more, it’s ok not to always feel 100%. You have to give yourself some break. I equally enjoyed wet Paris today 😊

How many other people tell Cooper he's good boy when watching those opening shots? LOL

Happy Easter Jay and Cooper. If its not your day then go eat some chocolate anyway... I had my sleep day yesterday, now I have to take a certification exam today...

The energy over the next month with be potent. We are in eclipe seeason and murcury retrograde, , Astrologicaly what will take t place has not happened in 3000 years . On an unconscious level we will all feel this one way or another. Time to let go , review and clear out what no longer serves.relationships will be the main focus .

Those dark feelings = unmet needs. if you had to squish those needs as a child you need to learn as an adult to really connect with them/validate them 😥🏵

Wishing you were dead is very relatable. I have that thought very often. It’s logical if you believe that your life absolutely sucks. Like I don’t want to die, and it is scary, but I also don’t want to live this life either. So I’m kinda stuck in a limbo.

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No matter how strict your mom and dad were Jay or not understanding that’s them never for once blame God. God is the reason you’re in Paris and reaching so many people . We love you and your journey inspires many ❤❤❤❤

Happy Resurrection Day , (You know you show up a day later 🤔). 🌴🌴Aloha

Not me relating to the full zipping of the jacket.

You should read French historians about this periods also.: Nouvelle histoire de la France contemporaine : 1. La Chute de la monarchie (1787 - 1792), M. Vovelle--* 2. La République jacobine (10 août 1792-9 Thermidor an II), M. Bouloiseau 3. La République bourgeoise (de Thermidor à Brumaire, 1799-1815), D. Woronoff 4. L’Épisode napoléonien. Aspects intérieurs (1799-1815), L. Bergeron 5. La France napoléonienne. Aspects extérieurs (1799-1815), R. Dufraisse et M. Kérautret 6. L’évolution générale, A. Jardin et A.-J. Tudesq ( La France des notables 1815-1848) 7. La vie de la nation, A. Jardin et A.-J. Tudesq ---* 8. 1848 ou l’Apprentissage de la République (1848-1852), M. Agulhon 9. De la fête impériale au mur des fédérés (1852-1871), A. Plessis 10. Les Débuts de la IIIe République (1871-1898), J.-M. Mayeur---* 11. La République radicale ? (1898-1914), M. Rebérioux 12. Victoire et Frustrations (1914-1929), J.-J. Becker et S. Berstein--* 13. La Crise des années 30 (1929-1938), D. Borne et H. Dubief 14. De Munich à la Libération (1938-1944), J.-P. Azéma 15 et 16. La France de la IVe République (1944-19858) 1. L’ardeur et la nécessité (1944-1952), J.-P Rioux 2. L’expansion et l’impuissance (1952-1958), J.-P Rioux 17 et 18. La France de l’expansion (1958-1974) 1. La République gaullienne (1958-1969), S. Berstein 2. L’apogée Pompidou (1969-1974), S. Berstein et J.-P Rioux 19. Crises et alternances (1974-2000), J.-J. Becker avec la collaboration de P. Ory---* 20. La France du XXe siècle. Documents d’histoire, présentés par O. Wieviorka et C. Prochasson And books of René Rémond, specialist of the first WW, Specialist of the French right party , specialist of the Revolution. ---* He was teacher at Sciences Po, great school. He was my teacher, a brilliant one. He was the rector of Nanterre ´s university when 1968 riots started. I put * when I know these books are good and proposed in Universities.

I think loving yourself IS the journey in life and it's more apparent when you're single and don't have children. Life doesn't owe any of us anything. Which was a hard one for me to accept because I believe in karma and when you put out good, good comes back to you - but then you have to define what is "good" to you? Having a partner? I see a lot of people who are very unhappy in their partnerships. You're a very deep thinker and so life can be more difficult because of that too. Is there a point to all this? I like to think so but who knows... I think you're on the right track when I listen to your thoughts on these vlogs... life is just a series of ups and downs and change and happiness is not a destination, it's the whole ride and it's also fleeting. it comes and goes and we're constantly shifting...

I know a KZfaq Channel that does Rainy Walks ASMR. I’d like to see that on the channel.