'im not a groomer, Im just a loser' is SUCH a dangerous statement.

This whole video just gives me the vibes of when a parent is like "well I guess I'm just a HORRIBLE parent then"

This video brought me back to a quote from Instagram I saw like a year ago. “A narcissists mindset.” “That didn’t happen, and if it did, it wasn’t that bad and if it was, it’s not a big deal, and if it is, I didn’t mean to do it, and if I did, it was your fault.” Pretty much sums up the entirety of it.

"I would never make a mistake like that" Y'know guys, maybe she's right. Who hasn't tripped and accidentally found themselves in a group chat with a ton of kids and started asking them their fav sex positions and whether they're virgins? Who hasn't slipped and convinced a 9 year old to put his hand down their pants? Who hasn't fallen and sent their underwear through the mail to a 13 year old? How can we blame her for such rookie mistakes?

It's actually an ANTI-apology letter. She's trying to convince us that she SHOULDN'T apologize and that WE are the toxic ones. Without bringing up one tangible defense.

I also hate the “little bony back” part. I think she is highly aware she is very thin and uses that as manipulation like “I’m so little, I’m incapable of doing harm. Am so smol uwu.” It’s so toxic in SO many ways.

“You’re all so perfect and would never would make a mistake like that!” Girl we don’t accidentally trip, fall, and groom minors!!

Can you imagine if we pretended you could fob off crimes based on feelings? "I'm not a murderer I just get angry" "I'm not a sexual assaulter I'm just horny" "I'm not an armed robber, I'm just hungry" "it was forgery, I was just greedy" "it wasn't kidnapping or slavery, I'm just lazy"

SHE is disappointed in US, that’s the vibe I got. Like she’s scolding us. It’s wild.

I’m kinda living for everyone mocking her with their own instruments 😭 lmao

Even if she legitimately didn’t know she mostly had kids for fans, she sure as hell would’ve figured it out by the first 100 shows

_As a mother and a grandmother, I have only one simple little question to ask Colleen: Is she OK if people did the same stunts on scene like she did, with her own kids participating.. ?_

She’s so smug about it. So much arrogance to take this approach. I can’t believe people are still standing up for her and on her side.

I’m not a body language expert, but I still can literally see in your eyes how your soul is withering when you watch her video.

I know it’s a very tiny detail but the “bony little back” line with her posture enhancing her thinness just reminded me that she was accused of body shaming a heavier women at one point. I can totally forgive that (even as an overweight woman myself) but the fact that she’s using her thinness to make us feel more sorry for her (like she needs to be protected from the “haters”) really gets under my skin. She has to be held accountable and find a different career path that doesn’t involve power and heavy influence over minors. Ooof this is a rough one to sit through. I send my best to those hurt by her actions over all these years. Never blame yourself for her manipulation. ❤

Her tone here shifts from "I did nothing wrong," to, "This is all your fault- look what you made me do."

This apology feels more like a lecture from a passive aggressive preschool teacher.

"I'm not a groomer I'm just a loser" is an insanely dangerous concept to put out into the world. Guess what colleen? All groomers are losers. They're usually not some scary psychopathic masterminds like the stereotypes in horror movies, they are embarrassing little losers and are shockingly bad at hiding their manipulation- it's just that children can't see through that because they are *children*. You don't have to be a mastermind to manipulate children, it is incredibly easy that's why a loser can do that and all these groomers are usually losers. People don't understand that grooming doesn't look like some shocking spectacularly mastery of manipulation, it's just a weird loser adult talking to children inappropriately. And groomers can so perfectly hide behind that big scary manipulator stereotype "see I'm not like that I'm not a mastermind I couldn't be a groomer" yes you could and you are. This is exactly what grooming is.

Colleen’s ‘apology’ video just goes to prove that over the last 10+ years, she’s learnt absolutely nothing and that my toenails have grown more than she ever has

“at least you’re having fun” of course! that’s why Adam was in tears watching Kodee’s video resurfacing some of the terrible things Colleen did to him. reliving trauma is so much fun!

Her “fart joke” was so horrific. She took a minor on stage for a yoga challenge. The girl was wearing a dress and laying on her back. Colleen took her legs up in the air and spread them, not caring if she exposed her and the girl stated she was wildly uncomfortable and felt as helpless as she had during her own prior SA experience. Colleen is disgusting to just call it a “fart joke”.

The amount of times I've had to suffer this song in order to enjoy people's reactions... bittersweet.

She has ALWAYS said her live shows are for ALL AGES. She would make jokes for kids and then make sexual innuendos and hope that it goes over the kids heads. NOW she's claiming it's PG13. She's doing that to cover her ass. But it's a lie.

As someone that was sexually abused by a narcissist, this video she made triggered me so much. Not a single apology made, completely tried to fault everyone that spoke up and out about her actions. This song sounds like someone that’s guilty and is trying desperately to convince everyone that she’s not. Everything she said is fake, she’s not sorry, she’s just upset that it’s all coming out now. It makes me sick to my freakin stomach. I never liked her to begin with and always felt like something was off. Now I see why.

“I made a fart joke.” Completely minimizing the trauma that young lady felt/feels. Reducing her fear, embarrassment, sense of betrayal to “hey, I didn’t *mean* any harm so I don’t have to acknowledge that I caused any.” while accusing others of not taking accountability. My god. Is this narcissistic wounding?

This was not an apology video, it was a justification video

Colleen did one of the best things she could. She did the apology SO BADLY, that even people who would gave her a benefit of the doubt are now conviced, she did it all.. Well, she exposed herself with trying to camouflage it all.

"I would never make a mistake like that" "I didn't realize that all of you were perfect" You know what? You're right. I'm not perfect. However, what I can confidently say is that I am not guilty of is GROOMING CHILDREN or SEXUALLY HARASSING CHILDREN. So you know what... I will cast a stone.

even without any body language analysis knowledge her video comes off so, SO angry and manipulative, its UNREAL.

Colleen : "I used to message my fans, but not in a creepy way" Also Colleen : DMs weenies "Are you a virgin", "What's your fav position"

One part that got me is where she starts to sound really genuine then deliberately cuts herself off and says "what? Oh, you don't care..." and continues on to manipulate the situation to "im the victim, I did nothing wrong" she'd fake thought this entire excuse video.

This frail woman is not living in reality. Who addresses such serious allegations this way? What in the WORLD?! She’s a clown and a creep and needs to stay away from all kids.

"I didn't do those things, but if I did it was a mistake, but if it wasn't a mistake I didn't have bad intentions, but even if I did all those things I'm still a good person." As a survivor this makes my blood boil.

The fact that she cries at the drop of a hat in her vlogs but didn't shed a single tear...she genuinely doesn't think that she did anything wrong. She's just playing the pity card and getting extremely defensive

Contempt is the only genuine feeling a narcissistic person can have.

Everytime she says accountability i think of Inigo Montoya. "You keep using that word. I do not think it means what you think it means."

Its funny how she sings about "Manipulation Station" while literally trying to manipulate us into pitying her and feeling bad for holding her accountable.

Watching Colleen sing and play ukelele about how she's a good person was wild. She also said she wanted to address the facts and then didn't, in fact, address any facts lol

We all need to collectively stop calling her video an apology video, because it wasnt. Also i dont think ive ever seen you so shaken up by a video youve analyzed, i hope you are okay.

The problem is no one is accusing her of grooming the children for sexual favors but she absolutely was grooming them to be super fans who will defend her from the “haters” and arguably to even provide her with narcissistic supply as well.

i know this is about colleen's body language but oh my god the amount of uncomfortable Logan is expressing is too funny, I cant stop laughing. The cringe factor is real.

Grooming aside, this will hit home to anyone who has ever been abused. > Yeah I abused you but you called me out for it and it made me sad so who's the real bad guy here? > (Literally has evidence against them) "You're just trying to ruin my reputation!!!" > "Oh right, all of you are perfect, none of you make mistakes that ruin someone's entire life!" > I "might" admit my mistakes but only if you ask nicely

The fact she can't even see her wrongs is really scary when her wrongs involve children and sexually exploiting children. She needs to be in jail

My favorite part is how she says her team advised her not to come online and say what SHE wants to say...implying that what she had to say would be b.s. and after seeing her video, I can see why they didn't want her to say what she wanted to say

The fact she legitimatized this in her head tells me all I need to know

She doesn't say she's sad that some of her fans were betrayed, she says she's sad that some of her fans FEEL betrayed. Worst way to not acknowledge the impact of one's actions.

Even calling her actions "mistakes" is a form of manipulation, because it implies they were unintentional. I think a lot of people use the word "mistake" when what they mean is "blunder." For example, in chess, if you tip your king over with your elbow while hitting the time clock, that's a mistake, and nobody will take that as a real surrender. If you make a move that results in you quickly getting checkmated, that's a blunder, and that loss is all yours. Mistakes are unintended actions; blunders are intentional actions with unintended consequences.

She is literally broadcasting her narcissism so loudly, no one can miss it 😂

The fact that she calls the accusations “entertainment “ is so gross. Nothing about child grooming is entertaining it’s disgusting.

Am I the only one who can’t stop noticing how empty and evil her eyes are

I think the most impressive thing about this apology is how it has broken so many people mentally. It's like... How do I even respond to someone who responds to these kind of allegations with a *ukelele?* Where do we even start unpacking this, and Jesus, is that my brain melting out of my ear?

something that makes me so incredibly mad is her usage of the word "mistake" to allude to her literal grooming of minors. that's called a crime that leaves the victim scarred and humiliated that you committed on multiple occasions, not a "mistake", Colleen.

The fact that she blames kids watching her content on their parents not paying attention is DEMONIC. She SOUGHT OUT a child audience and molded them to go to war for her! Befriended them! Kept them close!

her trying to be like “all i did was make a fart joke!” makes me so angry bc she KNOWS she’s purposely misrepresenting what she actually did in an effort to manipulate those that don’t know the whole story.

if she's trying to seem upset and sad, all that's coming through is anger and defensiveness

What I find interesting about her "I'm not a groomer I'm just a loser" line is if you watch the to catch a predator videos when those guys are confronted and asked why are you doing this sooooo many of them say "cause I'm a loser".

She comes off as very defensive, narcissistic and manipulative

“Ugh, I would never make a mistake like that!” Yeah, it’s super duper easy to not message and inappropriately communicate with minors?! You in fact really have to go out of your way to do that, ma’am

It feels like she's throwing every abusive/manipulative tactic at the wall and hoping somthing will stick and it's equally horrifying and hilarious

I’m not sure you knew the details about the “fart joke” she brings up, it was her at a live show pulling a 16 year old girl in a dress on stage to have her lay on her back while Colleen spread her legs open to do “yoga” and then played a fart track to embarrass her. She’s really downplaying exactly what happened that everyone is actually mad about

Colleen: 🎶 there were times in my life when I overshared 🎶 Also Colleen to 9 year olds: So do you like FUCKING

The way she says she was messaging minors “but not in a creepy sorta way” Meanwhile Colleen was asking minors what their favorite sex positions were. The only one manipulating is you Colleen !!

After watching that video I felt like I had done something wrong😭 I felt like I had personally attacked her. Lord the manipulation

My stepdad always tell me “it doesn’t matter what you meant, it’s what was perceived that matters.” in regards to interacting with other people, especially if the other party is hurt. And she says “I made a mistake”. Sending underwear to a minor isn’t a mistake. That’s a series of bad decisions leading up to a REALLY bad decision which she admits outright in another video.

This man is cringing out of his socks and I don't blame him

Im surprised it wasn’t mentioned how absolutely creepy and aggressive her STARE was Its so predatory it almost triggers fight or Flight in me each time I see it 😬

I have a feeling like Colleen have lived through something horrible in her childhood (too many uncle and x-rated jokes, unhealthy behaviour with kids in general) and she has a narcissistic personality disorder or something. This disorder makes you a chameleon with excellent abilities to adapt when needed, very charming (to easily get your way), to create and wear appropriate masks, but without even a bit of empathy and very low levels of natural hormones of happiness and satisfaction, which makes you a very dangerous person. It also affects your brain: areas that are responsible for feeling guilt, sympathy, remorse and those that enable you to analyse your behaviour, they are not developed at all! That's why they act so strange. Also their memory alters what really happened, they twist the reality in their mind and truly believe they are innocent, and that's why they are so good at gaslighting - they really believe what they say, and they enjoy hurting people and only accept unconditional admiration. There's so much more about this disorder, and I really see it in Colleen. She doesn't think she's guilty or did something wrong, she thinks people just despise her for fun (she sees it as the only probable reason because it's what she feels towards everyone and what she does). Also Miranda is a way for her not to wear her 'appropriate' mask sometimes and openly be disgusting to people. Public opinion is very important for her as for all narcissists, and right now she feels extreme pain because she's been exposed and caught, but the pain is because people hate her and don't admire her anymore. She is really unhealthy, and trying to communicate with her as with a healthy person will not work. That doesn't excuse her as well. She needs help.

It feels like she is correcting the viewers. So creepy

She isn’t the bothersome aunt, she is the she the uncomfortable family who makes comments about your bigger boobs, asks you about your sex life or lack of, hugs you a little to long, offers you alcohol as the “cool” family member and buys you underwear. It’s not a “mistake”. It’s a pathology I hope she getting help for. It’s damaging to those affected. She truly doesn’t see how what she did was wrong. She sent people after Adam when he tried to tell her. She had no intention of learning or changing. This is her wake up call. Get some help.

Obviously this is the worst apology on planet earth but can we also please talk about how excruciatingly CRINGY it was to watch through this? What grown adult in their right mind thinks this is acceptable? None, that's the answer.

This is like when a band pretends they're leaving the stage, and come back out 2 minutes later for a 'spontaneous encore'.

If I was Colleen i would make a video saying sorry and would send a message to everyone I had done something bad to, then i would delete all my social media and try to find why I was like that then i would try to be better person and go to therapy and fix what was wrong and be then be the best mother to my kids

She is really stuck in 2010. Her singing and cringe, humor, and it’s like she never grew up. She is somebody’s mom 😳

She must think of herself as the victim and ACTUAL victims as "the attackers". Mind-blowing.

21:01 Am I the only one who sees her trying to hide a smile after the “fart joke” line? It’s almost like she knows she’s purposely downplaying and minimizing it and she wanted to laugh so bad but she turned her head down and to the side to collect herself before continuing. I wonder how many takes that took to look somber and hold back the laughter. She knows she’s lying but doesn’t care. Curious that the line “fart joke” was also used by TMZ in their article. Almost like it was a leaked story to TMZ to get ahead of the backlash and say it was just a “fart prank” to discredit Becky and hope no one looks into the situation closer. Colleen and her “team” know exactly what they’re doing. ON PURPOSE

I appreciate how moved you are about this whole thing, Logan. It's comforting to see a man addressing this issue and being moved by it. Thank you for being strong and pushing through to make the video.

The way she softens her voice and facial expressions when she talks about how much she “loves” her fans is so creepy. And mentioning death threats that had nothing to do with her victims is manipulative as hell. Adam just had to file restraining orders on her fans.

This was disgusting. Blame shift. Blame the kids. Blame the parents. Deflect. Lie. Manipulate. Zero accountability. Calling everyone toxic. Thank God there’s saved images of the chats & videos to prove her behavior. As someone also pointed about out her appearance & her calculated decision to wear what she wore to portray a dark, sad, gaunt appearance while slouched over her little ukulele in a spaghetti strap shirt so we all won’t miss her bony appearance is ALL carefully thought out..she’s a performer..performers put great thought into every single small detail, this includes clothing, posture, expressions, tone, colors, hair, makeup etc. She’s trying to be a mastermind but everyone (hopefully) saw through this intent of manipulation. She obviously has mental health issues and unfortunately some people with mental health issues..because they need help & don’t think with a normal mindset are the most dangerous to others. They are mean, aggressive, narcissistic & blame shifters & they leave permanent damage. My mother is just one of them I’ve come across like this.

Speaking as someone who was a fan of this woman for MANY YEARS, starting watching her vlogs when I myself was a teenager, I am so stunned by all of this but I've entirely lost every last ounce of respect for her after this excuses video. She gets nothing but my hatred now, these are horrific allegations backed up with endless receipts and she wants us to feel sorry for her?? She managed to make me feel like I, along with the rest of her fans, wronged her?? Its so weird. Shes despicable.

Colleen: 🎶 take accountability 🎶 Me: You keep using that word. I do not think it means what you think it means.

"I would never make a mistake like that" Miss ma'am... I'm 22 and I feel weird talking to 18 year olds... Talking to a minor??? Divulging my trauma with a child?????? Nah, that I cannot fathom.

I love how she straight up says, "I messaged my fans but not in a creepy way." And then it is "I'm like that weird aunt at family gatherings." That's interesting Colleen because it sounds like it is the exact same thing. Especially when you asked children what their favorite s*x position is. Then claims she took accountability lmao

"At what point is it solved via a ukulele?" Most perfect response to this whole thing I've seen, yet. Lol. Logan, you're awesome. Thank you for suffering through this for us and being a mega-champ!

Your entire reaction and facial expression is the visual embodiment of how we all pretty much felt watching this “train wreck”

She really said, " I'm sorry some of you feel that way." but musically. Who taught her how to apologize, my father?

"I didn't realize that all of you are perfect, so please, criticize me" Sure, no one is perfect, but not everyone grooms minors in groupchats either

Yeah Colleen. The people you traumatized as young teenagers who still can’t forget what you did and said to them are having a blast with this situation.

You also cannot blame parents for allowing their children to be groomed. No parent would allow that. Once Adams Mother messaged her…she starting attacking Adam behind the scenes through other people. Her being held accountable by another adult was too much for her. She’s gross. Her whole family is towards children:

It's just so shocking that this is how she chose to address this. 😮

Its truly impressive how her "apology" (pity me) video has made her EVEN CREEPIER THAN BEFORE. I thought we reached the absolute max yet she managed to exceed the limit.

Never thought I’d see a worst apology than Laura Lee 😂

9:37 😂😂 is the accountability in the room with us????

She said she wanted to defend herself and “take accountability” but why would she do that if, in her words, everyone is just hopping on the ‘toxic gossip train’? She can’t even keep her own narrative straight. She HAS to be panicking

That "Fart Joke" thing pisses me off so bad. That poor girl, Becky, had a lot of harassment from HER fans over coming out and saying Colleen made her feel unsafe adn exposed her to an audience without her permission. its not just a fart joke. Its hurting someone that she never addressed and never called off her attack dogs.

Never seen a youtube creator be so discomforted by a topic they have to cover. Thank you for your service king 💜

him just admitting he’s never “observed” a situation like this before is more genuine than her entire song (dont think it’s fair to call it a apology)

Her framing grooming kids as "a silly little mistake teehee but I am still a good person tho" shows that she is, in fact, not a good person. A good person usually doesn't have to INSIST on being a good person for other people to go "oh yeah, they are good", a good person can be recognized easily by their actions. Logan is a good person. Colleen is not. She is horrible in fact

The fact that she’s referring to ALLEGATIONS OF ASSAULT as people just “having fun” is all I need to know

Because she’s an “actress”, this whole thing feels like a bit or a skit. It’s completely bizarre. I put actress in quotes because if she were more talented, we wouldn’t be so acutely able to press the bullshit button on her. She didn’t rehearse her facial expressions enough. I’ve never felt like I was the one being judged in someone else’s apology video…

It reminds me of my exhusband who would say "I said I was sorry' but never ever actually said he was sorry and then turned it around how I was beating a dead horse lol. The mindfuck.