Lately it's been getting really worse for me, I can't go one day without starting to get intrusive thoughts related to dying. I just spiral into those thoughts and can't stop them. Usually the theme is "I can't stop existing, what does it even mean? What does it mean to feel nothing? There has to be something after death it can't just be over I can't stop feeling" and what stems from it is I start going online and looking up research, videos, articles, over and over again, and it helps for like an hour, then it starts again. I can't get sick without starting to have panic attacks.

For me, I started getting into the belief that “well it’s going to happen so let’s make the most of life now!” But now I feel anxious that I’m “wasting precious time” every second of the day, if I’m just sitting at home on my bed, I’m wasting my time; if I sleep some hours during the day time, that’s that many waking hours of life I wasted, etc. the anxiety is latched on so hard. I’ve been trying different approaches but nothings working. I feel extremely dissociated from reality and my own body too. I’m confused how to overcome this?

I feel like all of my obsessions and compulsions stem from my fear of death. For example...my contamination OCD convinces me a germ will kill me. My perfectionism OCD tells me that if it’s not perfect, it’s all ruined and I’m messing up on life. Seriously...so much of it stems from death. I’m really glad I stumbled across this video.

Exactly how I feel existential. Like what is the purpose of life if we are going to die. Thank you for the video.

Sorry to hear about your dad. I’m sure he would be proud of you if he saw the work you are doing for mental health today. I sorta have the same old school style relationship with my dad, so I can relate a little to you in that aspect I think

Thank you for video nick

I think i realized with watching this video that for me is more of a fear of losing connection than the fear of death itself maybe like losing connection with my loved ones

I almost lost my dad from a heart attack a year ago and, having witnessed everything firsthand, I’ve dealt with this a lot. It’s really hard to fully accept that I’m a healthy adult. I’ve almost processed the trauma by internalizing my dad’s condition

This has been a big topic for me the past year after a hospitalization, and just went to a memorial yesterday. Wonderfully timely.

Sorry for your loss. I used to live near the NJ shore too.

I tend to get wrapped into one specific way of dying and that usually becomes obsessive. When that happens the 1000000 other things that could kill me feel unreal and almost "certain" not to happen to me, so maybe that is why I obsess about the 1 thing, in a way it gives me a level of certainty and control. "I only need to worry about XYZ" instead of 1000000 things.

Religious ocd came on hard when I got sick and have gotten sicker to the point idk how long I have, have experienced so much trauma PTSD from all I've went thru medically, my autonomic nervous system is also constantly surging, look 70 lbs can hardly eat, super malnourished struggling with breathing which is so scary, issues with GI not working no sleep, not ok, idk how to find help, scared of where I will go when I die don't have support, react to everything I try to take which has caused trauma, don't know what help looks like when brain and body are on autopilot

It’s gotta be similar to sleep no conscious awareness all waves return to the ocean

I have been suffering from panic attacks and health anxiety every day because I am terrified of death. Right now it is past 12AM and I cannot sleep, what should I do?

I'm not afraid of death as it is, because I'm a believer BUT I get PA and depression every time I read, think or remember about the autopsy and dissection that will take place with my body after I die. I don't know how to reconcile with this. Any ideas?

I just can't do this anymore dude, it's so bad I have Classical Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome, and the thousands of complications that come with it. And everyday I can't help but think "what if it's cancer? What if some of my symptoms are from cancer? I need to check my colon, I don't want to get a colonoscopy (I don't want to go through the prep), but I will not rest if I don't look at it" I'm 16. I have no family history, nothing, but I do have PICA and I might've eaten some talcum powder a few years ago and idk if it contained asbestos, it was sketchy, and even if it did asbestos is a bigger problem if you breathe it and usually causes problems years after ingestion, but the paranoia is wild. I'm living like a zoo animal because of my disability, I can hardly do anything. And, adding to that, I'm barely even living whatsoever. Living thinking about dying is not much different from being dead. I need help, desperate help. My body is a prison and I have a life sentence, and my brain is freaking out because of it. Please God, wether you exist or not, I'm not asking for a long life, just don't let me die now, let me do something, let me live before I die, I'm begging you

There's no meaning which isn't ultimately smashed by death

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the mark twain quote doesnt calm me since before i was born, it was not eternal nothingness. I woke up as a baby. But after death, I wont wake up forever

It’s like a hamster on a wheel, the thoughts are just over and over and over and over again. So annoying! I hope it stops someday

Sorry but this wasn’t helpful. It was mostly you pontificating about opinions and your subjective experience and not OCD treatment/ recovery

Evidently not giving any consideration to those who suffer severely with health OCD. Not good!