I see all the comments saying thank you for adoption, when you all should be saying I’m so sorry that people pressured you into a choice you really deep down didn’t want to do. Adoption is not always the answer. It is in many cases but adoption in not always what’s best for mother or child’s mental wellbeing. I do wish this was talked about more as I’m going through school to be a therapist and have done research papers involving this topic. I could not imagine giving up a child, however I absolutely understand that feeling of wanting to be approved by your parents on a deep level. I’m so sorry you have had to gone through this type of pain and loss.

as a woman who is currently trying to adopt, I appreciate your transparency because adoption does come from loss. Not only for the birth mom but the child. I am happy that Jesus has been your consistent support. May he reward you 7x for your loss and provide a peace that surpasses all understanding.

I can’t imagine what this must’ve been like for you.. The regret you feel is totally valid, doesn’t mean your son’s parents don’t deserve him! Every adoption is a celebration and a loss all at once and it’s okay for you to feel the way you feel. You’re brave, you’re strong, I wouldn’t be able to do what you did and I respect you immensely for it. Sending you so much love. ❤️

Just hugs! As a soon to be grandparent. I am adopting my grandson but my daughter lives with us. It is to help her get back on her feet,she has a mental disorder, , education, but be involved in helping me plan his birthday party,ect. I am respecting her by letting her name him and pick out the nursery decor. Her little man will always know his mom. My husband was completely adopted and I was half adopted.

Such a heartbreaking story Madelyn! You are the true definition of selfless. There is no one like you. Happy we get to follow you on your healing journey.

My heart goes out to you. It makes me so angry for you that all these people around you could have supported you and enabled you to parent but instead did nothing. This is not your fault. You were clearly coerced by family and the agency and made to feel guilty about potentially changing your mind. I hope one day your son realizes he is meant to be with you and asks to live and be raised by you.

Your story is heartbreaking. I honestly have never hear this side of an adoption story before. It’s offered a whole new perspective and tenderness that I havent had towards birth moms. This must have been so hard to share. Prayers of strength for your journey.

Did anyone make it through this without crying? Not me. So much love and peace to you my darling sister in Christ. For what it’s worth, thank you so much for giving your sweet baby life. I cannot imagine the heartbreak you are experiencing. I will keep you in prayer. You have a bright future.

I’m so sorry you didn’t have the support to keep your baby 💔 I do blame adoptive parents and agencies for the pressure, maybe unattended, to get moms to go through with adoption.

He is beautiful just like you. I can’t imagine the pain you go through, but I do know the good, good Father you serve. Thank you for sharing your testimony of how He helps you through the trials of this life. You are a good mom.

I love your story! You are so strong & beautiful! I am 61 years old now. I was adopted at 13 months. My parents were very open about the fact that I, my sister & brother were each adopted! I had the best parents a child could ever dream of! I always knew in my heart that birthmother loved me very much and knew she couldn't care for me. She gave me the gift of life and outstanding parents. When I had my own daughter I truly realized how hard it would be to give your baby up for adoption! I admire you for choosing love! Love is the answer and everyone wins! God bless and keep you! ❤️🙏🏻

Girl i’m telling you i started this video and was like “she’s so cute” and then you brought up approval in jesus and i swear i subscribed within 3 seconds

This story broke my heart, it’s so sad that people didn’t inform you and made you feel unworthy. I know it must be so hard but I’m so glad you have a good relationship with the adoptive parents, im sure they will continue to explain to him how much you loved him and how much you wanted him back so truly understands and you guys can have the best relationship possible as he grows older - as well as you being there for him during visits ect. I truly wish you all the luck and blessings for the future and hope your life brings you nothing but joy and a close bond with your son as he grows older. If I was him and I saw your videos I’d know just how hard it was for you and how much you loved him from the start and I wouldn’t hold that against you

I’ve been following your journey for a while now and my heart aches for you. I am so sorry that you have to live with such deep regret. You are a great person and you thought you were doing what was best. Please don’t blame yourself 💙

Praying for you Madelyn, I'm so sorry. I can't imagine what that must've been like. I truly believe that God has big plans for your life.

What you have done is absolutely amazing but utterly heartbreaking and I am so sorry for your pain. I hope that with time things will feel a little easier for you. Sending much love and strength ❤

M heart breaks so much for you ❤️❤️ I can’t imagine your pain. Dear God wrap your arms around this beautiful young lady, help her through this tough time in her life. You know how to guide her through this and help her lean on you. In your name I pray, amen! I’m on the opposite side of your story, I was placed for adoption at a very young age. My parents had made some wrong choices and we were taken by the state. My parents did their best to get sober for us but my mom died of a broken heart when I was 3. It hurts me to know what you are going through even though eventually we ended up in a good home I just can’t imagine the sacrifices you had to make. May the lord bless and guide you.

Sending you lots of love ❤️! I don’t know your pain but I am here to listen anytime ❤

The gift you gave to this family is indescribable! ❤. You made the best decision for this little man, and for you, because of your deep love for your baby & the adoptive family!! You should be so proud of your self!! Thank you for sharing your story, I pray you are doing well!

You are wiser beyond your years! God’s going to bless your journey!

I am so sorry you were pressured into this. You are a wonderful mother! The pain must be excruciating 😭😭😭 may Holy Spirit be extra near to you sweet one!

I wish you and the adoptive parents rang the bell together. I pray you will always be part of his life

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I’m so sorry for the loss you’ve had to endure. I’m actually an adoptive mom. My son is almost two. He was placed with us after his birth. His mom and dad never met us, nor us them. That was their choice at the time, but I do hope and pray we can connect with them at some point, and they can have their son in their life in some capacity again. He’s truly a blessing to us, but I do often find myself grieving for his birth parents (as well as him). Adoption can bring joy, and our son definitely is a light in our life, but it’s never without loss and grief. Both are held closely together. I truly am sorry that you were in a position that caused you pressure to make a choice you in your heart were not wanting to. I do think close relationships between prospective adoptive parents and expectant moms should be handled very carefully because birth mothers should never feel pressure to place their child when they truly are not wanting to because of a fear of letting down the prospective adoptive family. It’s such a hard balance. I anticipate your son will always know how much you love him, and I pray you’ll always have a positive relationship with him throughout his childhood and into adulthood. You will always be his mom, and he’ll always be your son. ❤

What a beautiful story. About love, and loss and the strength of faith!

My heart breaks for your sadness. I am however glad that you are finding a way to process the pain. Prayers to you.

I am so sorry you had to go through this. 💔 my heart is aching so much for you. I can’t imagine the pain and pressure you must have gone through. I truly hope the Lord brings you peace.

I'm so sorry you were put under such pressure to give up your child. Sending love from England ❤

God continue to strengthen and give you Grace. God bless you for giving your child Life!

Thank you soooo much for sharing your incredibly tough story! So awesome you know Jesus he is the wonderful healer of everything!

Madelyn you’re so so strong!! Your family definitely did you so so dirty but everything happens for a reason and your baby brought life into another home. Be blessed you can be in YALL’s son’s life TOGETHER!❤️

You are such a brave mama. Thank you for sharing your story ❤. God bless you

You are FANTASTIC, and you will have another little guy, and you will all be alive TOGETHER when they're older ♡♡ Everything is good and you are doing great!

I'm so sorry you had to go through with this. Your strong I look up to you

Thank you for sharing your story it was very impactful

Bless you. You are a true hero.

How does your family feel about this now? Knowing they pressured you into doing this and seeing, how it affects you now?

Ugh post-partum is so hard, the only thing that really made me feel better was holding my son, so I can partially imagine your pain of not having him with you at that time. You're a very strong woman. You're a good mother and a kind person (probably too kind!). You deserve all the love and happiness in the world.

My husband and I have fostered previously and sometimes I wish there could be a third option where mom is unsure and could move in with us to decide. If she wants to parent, we'd be able to support her. If she decides she can't, we could take on that parenting role and she'd have time to reflect. If she wanted us to raise her baby, she'd know us and already be apart of the family. Babies don't deserve to live their lives in limbo of who is their momma, but sometimes moms like this just need some time away from pressure to make that decision on their own. I am sure that many adoptive parents are amazing as well, but the pressure is there for them to receive that baby, not encourage the mother either way.

Am sending prayers,love and hugs to you God love you and your son and He will bless you and him abundantly.

You are such a lovely young lady. I’m sorry that your parents let you down. I wanted more children & my husband did not. I would’ve loved raising such a beautiful daughter with my three children. May God continue to pour out His favor upon you. My one grandson is from an open adoption. We prayed for this sweet boy before my daughter and son-in-law were chosen, we continued praying over him and his birth mother. Sadly, she passed away from an overdose. We still see her in our sweet boy. He will always know he was deeply loved by her. Enough to understand that she couldn’t provide for him & suffered what you’re feeling to ensure he had a great life. We are so blessed to have this sweet boy but it’s always a pain knowing she, too, had to feel many of the emotions you share. I pray that didn’t make her fall deeper into her addiction. You were created for great things, so worthy to be valued and loved. He will grow up knowing his mommy sacrificed so much for him, with a deeper love than he’ll ever know. I pray you find peace that surpasses all understanding. I know, He tells us, “ask and you SHALL receive”, to His children. So, I’m standing on those promises for you. That you will find that peace and be blessed seventy times seven. God bless you and keep you. May His face shine upon you. 🙏❤️

As a mother of a 2 months old baby boy I couldn't do that I would have die of sadness honestly

I’m adopted and hate it. I met my bio mom and siblings. My bio dad is dead. I have a relationship with my bio family but we are all hurt. There is definitely trauma from adoption. I will never put up a child for adoption and I will never have my child put a baby up for adoption. I’m an advocate to at the very least keeping the baby within the same family if the bio mom is not able to take care of the child.

My daughter had a baby at 17yrs old,I made her go to school and then college i looked after him for five yrs he is now 27 high functioning Autistic and doing great.❤

As a woman at 38, having finally my first baby this April, all I want is to just give you the love you never got, just love on you and care for you the way you should have been loved from the very beginning! I have had a very rough life too, and I think you will be good. You will be fine! You are so insanely strong!

I just want you to know that you’re capable of anything u want in this world. If u want to have your baby that’s your choice to make. I think you would be a lovely mom

Also look into Saving Our Sisters. You can volunteer to help women who made an adoption plan and changed their mind get their babies back before its too late. Its a wonderful organization.

I see you too. Your story sounds just like mine, except I became an open adoption "birthmom" in 1985. I can relate to every single thing you're feeling and I am 100 percent aware of the path you're on. Counseling and support groups are VITAL, and you will go through many changes through the years to come. Big hugs, sweetie.

You are a very loving and giving person. Praying for you!

Thank you for choosing adoption. My daughter has struggled with infertility and pregnancy loss. She would be an amazing mother. I have encouraged her towards adoption, but it is a difficult process, too. Bless you! I hope you find peace in your decision.

Find you a NA womans meeting. That support will help you through this. I can not imagine the pain you went through.

I am so so so incredibly sorry that this happened to you. My heart is absolutely broken for you and I hope you get the chance to heal. I remember what it's like once you've given birth, the pure animalistic desire to protect and love your child. I know if I was in your position I would have backed out, and I truly wish you had someone who would support you through backing out too. If anyone else is going through this, you can back out. You don't have to do it. Until the papers are signed, that baby is yours.

Oh my gosh.. I don't know how you popped up out of nowhere but can I just say??? May the Lord bless YOU and keep YOU and May His face shine upon YOU!?!? I haven't been on either side of adoption but your story got me.. God bless you with a beautiful life with your husband and the future you have together!! May you forever see blessing upon blessing.

I'm so glad you made such a good choice for your baby at the time. You are amazing. You are brave. And most important i am so glad you found Jesus. This is such a hard journey for you. Prayers

You are so so strong. I am sitting here nursing my 9 month old baby girl right now and crying watching this video. You blessed that family immensely but you also made the ultimate sacrifice. I pray you will find peace with this and perhaps have a family of your own someday soon with your husband.

God Bless you!

I was adopted I was the baby that was surrendered. I am here to say to you that it takes a mountain of love to place a little bundle. Stay strong her will help you. That little guy is blessed to have 2 moms to love him and he will see that the older he gets.

Your relationship with your child only begins in childhood but as a 40 year old, my favorite years with my parents have been after 18. You will have so so so many years with this boy since you are so young. It looks like you are also included in much of his childhood, but the best may be yet to come! It'll be different but it's going to be great. Stay strong, keep a good relationship with them all and I believe you will find healing.

All I know is that Jesus will heal your broken heart ❤ and I hear that you believe that, too! Sending you so much love and prayers Psalm 34:18 The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.

I am curious what the adoptive family thinks / feels knowing you feel this way and that you didnt want to give up your baby.

As a mama who struggled with infertility, thank you for choosing adoption.

You are the best mom ever for doing this to your child. Their is litterely not something bigger you can do for a child than do what's best for the baby.

Oh honey. You are strong. I'm so sorry you felt those things and I'm praying you find peace through the years of his life and yours.

God bless you ❤

Bawling my eyes out with you.. sending you so so much love … Keep being bold for Christ sister 😭😭😭🤍🤍✨✨✨✨✨

I am so sorry for you ♥️💔 this is a very heart breaking story to hear especially now that I have little kids and am expecting a new baby due in a month. It feels so painful to think that you and your baby were separated and that you had to leave your baby. You were so right in youe heart knowing that you two should have stayed together. I wish other people would have supported you like they should have. I think you were a victim, NOT guilty, because you were young and in a vulnerable position and the adults around you who should have known and supported you better failed you and your baby. I think that only in very extreme cases it is better for the mom to give their baby to different parents. In almost all cases, the best place and the only right place for a baby is their own mom who they have known with their every cell since womb. ♥️ I used to dream about adopting when I was younger and single. All I could see then was the perspective of the adoptive mom & their (my) desire to have a baby. Now that I’ve had babies… and especially hearing your story too, all I can see is the perspective of the birth mom (and the baby). You would’ve been the best & right mom & home for your baby. 🙏🏼 But like you say, nothing can be changed now I guess. And the only option left is to try to accept it and believe that somehow, for some reason, things were meant to go this way. I’m so sorry for you. 🙏🏼♥️ But your baby will know and hopefully you will be able to make it known for them that you love them so so so much. I have heard from stories that adopted people long for that information when they grow up - to know that their birth mom loved them and to find answers to why they were given away. Hopefully you can have a beautiful and strong, loving relationship with your son as he grows up. ♥️

This story is heartbreaking 💔 to painful to watch, I cried the whole time . No mama and no baby deserves this 😢

How did the bio dad/sperm donor feel about adoption?

You are an incredible human. I cant imagine how painful this must be, and how difficult this decision was with family that didn't empower or encourage you to parent. Thanks for being real about how this decision making process was really influenced by that in addition to you wanting the best possible life for your son. I am an auntie to 4 adopted kiddos, and I feel like this helps me empathize so much with each of their mamas. I'm so glad you are finding comfort in Jesus and feeling validated with your support group and in therapy. So much love to you! And prayers for a beautiful relationship with your son as he grows up.

My heart breaks for you. 😥💔. I am glad you,Abby,and his adoptive family though. I'm glad she's a such a great person to you though. I can only imagine your pain though and it's valid how you feel. I pray that you have a great relationship with your son though and that your relationship with them continues to be great. Praying for you and for healing. Sharing your story is brave. 🙏🏻✝️🤗💜

I’m adopted myself

I’m so sorry that you were pressured to make a decision that you truly did not want to make. I encourage you to speak to someone because you are on a road to healing. I can’t imagine what you felt and are feeling. You are a tough mama, but sometimes you need to be selfish and do what you feel is best for you. I can tell baby also would have been well off with you (of course!). You radiate joy, compassion and such a loving heart. I’m praying for you through this season and know that you will get through it. One day YOU WILL have a little family of your own and will live out the dream of being a mom-I guarantee it. And when that time comes, it will be even more special 🤍

Sweetheart you are such an AMAZING, selfless woman. What you did for your little boy and that family is something I don't know if I would have had the strength to do. I pray that you will have peace and happiness in your heart and your life always. Well, see you in your next video ❤

Es tut mir so leid... Zu sehen das sie es bereut. Kann mir garnicht vorstellen wie das sein muss..

I am so sorry this is your story., sweet girl ❤️.I'm not American, but live in Norway, where things are very different. Here you will actually get economic support to get to keep your baby. I know I shouldn't judge..and I will try to not do that. But if you where my daughter, I would never ever say you should give your baby away. I will never understand how this somehow was showing anything to your Stepmom and father. They on the other hand, should have helped you to keep your little boy. But, now, after the fact, they must feel terrible for advising you to make that choice . But again, different countries,life's, families.. I have no idea how a baby would impact your life in America.. My daughter was in the same situation once, and we said we would help her with everything if she kept the baby...but she chosed to terminate her pregnancy, since she was young and her life would never be the way she wanted it to be if she kept the baby . It was just horrible, I'm my opinion,and the worst thing I ever had to follow my child do. And I could just accept it was her decision . But it has been just so hard on her, so I sometimes regret not trying even more to get her to keep her baby. But I felt she had to decide for herself. I hope you get to have some contact with him, when he grows up, so he never need to wonder why he was placed for adoption. I fully understand his adoption parents being very happy, because this is the ultimate sacrifice and gift you can give anyone, I think. I'm happy to hear you have started a new life now, and I wish you all the best. Try to look forward, and know a childhood goes so so fast and your son will grow up and you can have him in your life more like a normal mother/son relationship again . Stay strong ❤

I was put up for adoption at birth. In my twenties I found my birth mom and family. As an adopted child you realize you don't fit into either family. Your genes come from one family and your raising comes from another. Being an adopted child is like being a stepchild. Not an easy life to live.

Ask to have him back ❤️🤗🤷‍♀️ My heart hurts for you, having to endure a life long decision you made as a child

Thanks for your testimony, your journey & your feelings. I am an adoptive father who adopted two children. My son is 50 years old and my daughter is 42. Both were placed by an agency which we looked into. Thank you for choosing life over abortion. Blessings to you & your husband.

I have kids. So adoption is not a part of my story. Adoption is a wonderful gift. I sympathize with you and I glad 😀 that the Lord is helping you heal and move on. I feel for you and I pray 🙏🏻 that God heals you and I am glad 🙂 that you found a support group for birth moms. It helps you to have other women that can be there for you and understand your pain and can be there for you as well. God Bless U

Give it to Jesus every day, over and over. You are a wise and strong young woman, and God will give you the grace to deal with the pain, and give you peace. Remember that the goal was for his life to be whole. 💙

Hard, hard subject...

I can’t imagine handing my baby off. I guess I can imagine it but I know it’s more horrible than I realize! I am so so sorry you felt like you had to, especially when it seems you could have been a stable home for him. I am praying for you all. It is a shame also that you never felt your parents were proud of you and that you felt you needed to do this to earn approval. Hopefully your son will never know those feelings of striving to make his parents happy! What a gift that you know the Lord and that he is sustaining you. Isn’t it amazing to know that we cannot please the Lord by our deeds but he is constant in mercy and kindness and grace so that we don’t have to? If and when you and your husband have more children I’m sure you will remind them of that often. I know this video is a good reminder to be an unconditionally loving parent.

You are such a blessing. To your son and to his adoptive family. I had my daughter at 19 and kept her. I was a train wreck. I didn’t know Jesus yet. She’s now 30 and my prodigal. And not speaking to me. She probably would have been better off in a loving Christian home with 2 parents. All I can do now is pray for her. What would we do without Jesus? Praying for you and your son. TY for sharing your story.

I’m 19 and I’m pregnant I’m 7 months pregnant

I had my daughter at age 38 after years of infertility. I am so glad you chose adoption instead of abortion. So many want to adopt a baby.

Hugs Mama. I can not imagine this pain. You did something selfless at the expense of yourself because the people around you did not believe in you and properly support you. As soon as the adoption was a suggestion to you and not a thought of just your own… I knew. May you heal through this journey. By no way do I mean to invalidate the amazing adoptive parents. They are fantastic. But this mom would have and could have been, as well. She just needed love and support and to believe she was worthy.

Amen! 🙏🏻❤️

This is just so sad 😢 adoption is just not natural. Good that it is a way people can get a baby but just not the way it is susposed to be!

Wow ,your very inspirational🩷

One of my friends/roommates is adopted, and let me tell you, he *loves* his birth mom. He is always so happy to spend time with her (she actually came down a week or two ago with her kids and we spent the day hanging out, and it was so fun). He knows that her decision to give him up for adoption was the best choice for her to make given the situation she was in, and that she always has and always will love him just as much as the children that she is raising now. (He’s actually closer with her than he is with his adoptive parents, because they still refuse to accept that he’s their son, not their daughter)

When you make a decision like this it is really difficult to go back on. So many people are involved. You need to step back and think could I have raised him on your own and given him the life he has now. So many people think that love is all you need. Sorry but that is crap. Emotional support financial support the list goes on.

I’m so sorry you went through that not having family support is hard & but also being young & I can see how sometimes Christian communities too can make it seem like your income or financial situation or marital status is a reason to give up your child. Many people start out one way & come out much better & grow just with time because you were in one situation at one point in time doesn’t mean you will permanently stay there. & the couple of course they want a child so they are blinded more by their desire to want a child maybe intentionally or unintentionally. I do think you were pressured but it still was something you chose. It takes time to be able for some to stand up to relatives or loved ones. & listen to your own intuition. I feel the adults in your life were selfish versus selfless maybe they didn’t want the financial burden or all it would entail to support you but they could of decided to at least allow you to make the decision on your own. Because guess what it’s something you have to live with and not them. Personally have witnessed people go through difficulties homelessness teen unmarried being kicked out young for pregnancy & Idk but I think God helps those through it who seek him. Ask & you shall receive it seems impossible but yes there are ways to overcome even in the most dire situations. I pray you have more children one day even if it’s soon I hope you don’t let your circumstances make you give up & parent. I hope this doesn’t stop you from having more children of your own. I do think you had also a strong desire to just be loved by a parental figure & the adoptive mom was someone’s love you also sought. Praying for you 🤍🤍🤍 I think adoption is hard choice but sometimes it’s a bit ridiculous of why it’s pushed on a mother. There are moms that truly just don’t want to parent & give up their child but in cases like yours a lil support would have gone a long way.

I still search for someone loving like you are.

HI I'M A NEW SUBSCRIBER, LIKE YOUR STORY, BUT NOW YOU'RE MARRIED HAVE A BABY FOR YOU.

My mother was given up for adoption to a wonderful couple that raised her with so much love because they couldn't have children of their own. My grandpa is salt of the earth! My mother has been an addict since she was 17…adoption ruined her from the inside out. She allowed this mother wound to pass onto her 3 daughters and brought us a lifetime of trauma to overcome. Adoption and surrogacy sound great but the reality is not always so.

We are on the other end we are the adoptive parents too 7 little blessings we love them so much but I do think of the birth moms because I know it was hard for all of them we have three birth mom's and with all three drugs were involved but I still see the pain they go through I'll pray that you can make it through this and God will bless you with many more babies Jesus loves you and your baby keep looking up

I didn't know open adoption wasn't legal binding. How is that even allowed? If that's what both parties agreed on and signed 😢 Adoption is basically unheard of in Australia, it does happen but is very rare.

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You could of stayed a single mom and raised him. I was married at 18 and 19 with my husband. I got pregnant at 18 too. I’m know 21 and 22 and we have another baby. No way I could ever leave my baby to someone.

Be Bold. That DESIRE in you that you had as you watched your parents get rid of your baby dolls in 8th grade, was GIVEN by God. Read Be Fruitful and Multiply. ASK FOR HIM BACK. He’s your baby.

Wtf like how could your parents could do this to you. How could adults do this to a teen, who clearly didint have her choice. Like 8 weeks it was way to early. So sad. So sad.