Opening up a bit to share some of my struggle lately. I hope this helps anyone who is going through the same thing! I know this video is pretty long, but I felt like everything was really important to say. We're all in it together. ❤️Thank you for watching!

I’m speechless. This is 100% what every new mom needs to hear so we all know we’re not alone. I wish I could “like” this video over and over again! So much love for you and your videos! ❤️

7 weeks postpartum and this is really hitting home. I've struggled with it my whole life, but now even when I should be so happy, it's hard. Oh my gosh, when you started talking about pumping and how the husband doesn't have to go through anything, that hit me so hard. Like someone finally said it.

reality check taking care of a child is the hardest job in life

Just because you’re complaining doesn’t mean you don’t want him or love him. I’m 33 weeks and hate being pregnant. At first I felt so bad for complaining because I kept telling myself that so many people can’t have children and I should feel so lucky to be able to even get pregnant. But since speaking to my ob, I’ve been told I might have antenatal depression. But that DOES NOT mean we don’t want or don’t love our children. Don’t be too hard on yourself. Sending you lots of love!

Olivia, thank you so much for this. It’s funny because I had my baby around the same time as you had Christian & I’ve been watching your videos and totally thinking “wow she has it all together why am I not that way”? Turns out you have been struggling the same way as me. I appreciate your honesty so much. Newborn life is SUCH an adjustment. & YES the mom guilt. The “at least you have a baby” thought is awful. It’s so hard. You’re an amazing mama 💕 thank you.

Just a quick note on all the guilt you expressed about other's struggles. Someone else's struggle does not diminish yours. It's just different and it's just as valid. Try to let that go. Depression sucks enough without taking on the problems of others you can't control. Hugs. You're very brave for sharing your story. Thank you

I wish all the people watching the new "24 hours pregnant" videos would watch this. Pregnancy and babies seems to be a status symbol or cute trend and they don't realize all the things that come along with it

I just had my third son and this is the first time I am experiencing some baby blues. I will say I wish I educated myself on this before hand because it has been scary. I never felt so sad in my life the way I was feeling. Stay strong and never feel judged. I think what helps me was my husband was so there for me and he accepted my feelings and made me feel validated all the time. He made me not feel crazy and he always told me it’s ok.

Thank you so much for sharing! ❤️ I am five weeks postpartum and just started noticing that I am suffering from PPD and debated on making a video on my channel about this. Thank you for giving me the courage to just go for it and post my video.

I am 31 weeks and am nervous about PPD because I have dealt with depression for a large part of my life I and have not seen many videos on PPD even though coworkers have said they have seen their wives go through it or have gone through it themselves. I am so glad that you posted this video. There is such a stigma on depression and ppd and its good to know and hear that it is ok. Thank you so much for being so brave and sharing your story. Means a lot to those of us who may deal with the same thing.

I, too, have tried making a video about this. It is not easy. My baby is 2 months old. I am experiencing ppd yet again, but am thankful to recognize it earlier this time. It feels so similar to what you said. I don't always have such feelings of despair, they hit suddenly. And talking about it, even just to a camera, really does help.

I never understood PPD because those were the best day of my life. However my 19 yr old daughter gave birth back in November and she suffered from PPD. To the point of psychosis. She left her baby at 3 months old. I have had him ever since. Everyone told me that she would come back not to worry. She has not. It is one of the hardest things to deal with because now I know she is not coming back. As her mother I can not do anything because she is an adult. I love my little boy but am I his mom or his Lala. My youngest was 17 yrs old and now at 51 I’m raising an infant. I know it’s not her fault she did not get pregnant on purpose. She gave him life I could not ask for anything more. I’m glad you are putting this video out. I wish my daughter could have seen this.

Thank you for this! 6 weeks postpartum and I can relate so much. Thanks for breaking the social media bubble of perfection and being real. Love you videos, so relatable.

This video makes me love you even more. I’m a new mommy of a three week old precious baby girl. I totally understand what you mean and I’m glad you made this video . I hope it get better for you. You’re a great beautiful person this is something you need to get off your chest and help other woman you’re amazing.

This is my first time watching one of your videos and I just had to subscribe. Thank you for being so open and raw ❤️ I’m currently 4 weeks postpartum and I’ve been dealing with PPD. I’ve felt like I was alone but now I know I’m not. Again thank you so much for sharing, everything you’ve said is so true!

So much yes to this video! I’m 34 weeks and I have been battling depressing through my pregnancy. I’m so nervous that I will have this and I honestly am trying to prepare for it. If it happens it happens and I will deal with it when it comes if it does. My husband took on a new job and now he’s gone for 3 weeks and home for 1. So that’s been super hard as well. But hang in there, you’ve got this, we’ve got this!

I appreciate all the honesty Olivia. New moms like myself need this to overcome anything that comes our way. I didn’t even think about this until you brought it up. It’s very informative. Thank you!

Thank You, i struggle to articulate how i'm feeling, and you summed it up perfectly. Its so nice to know we are not alone. Thank You for opening up and being vulnerable. I felt comfort, and so will many others who are feeling and going through the same thing.

immediately one of my new fav youtubers!

I know this video is old now but I’m 8 weeks post partum and currently dealing with ppd so thank you for making this bc I no longer feel alone

Thank you for this. My son is a month old and I battled these feelings until recently. I felt like an absolute failure and utterly alone. I didn't want to take care of my son and began to resent everything. I thought I was going absolutely crazy. I had no motivation to do ANYTHING. I opened up about it to an in-law and got such a judgmental response and it hurt me deeply. My mom (who flew in from across the country), my husband, and my friends swooped in to support me. I thank God for them. Even in all my unreasonable emotional turmoil, they took care of my son and prayed with me every day until I came out of it. I wish someone was honest like this with me. To tell me that I am not alone in my feelings and that it's ok to feel VERY down (not just the "blues"). Thank you for your bravery in making this video. You are making a huge impact with your story.

Thank you so much for sharing this! Its because of people like you that have made postpartum problems less of a stigma. Thank for opening up to your viewers, and thank you for the advice on how to talk about even the little things make a difference, and that "it's ok to feel that way". From all the mamas that struggle with postpartum depression, anxiety, or OCD we appreciate you!!

You’re amazing in every way! Thank you for being honest and sharing your heart, that’s not easy to do! I’m currently going through the crazy hormones of being 40 weeks pregnant...about to go into mommy hood and this is so helpful, to know about PPD and be aware of. I’m already feeling tons of unsure emotions and feelings of “Can I do this? Will I have enough help?” feelings but I’m praying through it and against it-and I really really appreciate you and everything you do and stand for here on KZfaq. You are one amazing mommy-Christian is blessed to have you. 💙

Thank you for this, seriously! I dont have kids yet but I have been battling depression most of my life and this past month has been the hardest its ever been and I finally came clean and told my husband about it, I hid it behind a fake happy go lucky attitude and a lying smile for YEARS until i finally broke, I tried dealing with it the best I could and kept it bottled up but it just made things worse. I am trying to overcome it just as you and so many others are. And i'm sure I can speak for many when I say it made me feel like I wasnt completely crazy and going at this alone in the world. You and this video are so inspirational thank you for uploading this. 💜

Aw Olivia

Thank you for being so vulnerable and open about your story!! You have helped me today! ♥️

This 🙌 I relate almost to a “T” of what you talked about in here. Even the part about living far away from all family(I live in a different state from all family). I’ve watched a ton of your videos, but never saw this one! I even saw your videos about your second little baby, Arlo, too! I just had my first baby on 6/26/20. I am close to 4 weeks PP and I’ve been experiencing almost all of what you said. Every day is different and I feel like I’m somewhat getting better. I realized that I’m just so used to having my own freedom that having a baby(which i love my baby, just like you) Makes the “freedom” disappear suddenly. It’s almost like a shock. Even though your happy to have your baby, it doesn’t make it easy. I just want you to know how very much this impacted me. It almost validated me. Your whole purpose of making this video was met, dear friend. I do have a question! So this video was made in 2018 after you had Christian. Now fast forward to now, where you have Christian and Arlo. Did you have PP with Arlo? Or do you feel that it was easier the second time around?? Super curious!

Never had a baby, and had a hysterectomy 2 years ago. But I've dealt with depression since I was 3 years old and I'm 39 now. Thank you for sharing your story and trying to create a conversation about something so important.

💗 This is why I have loved finding your channel. It's why I loved your pregnancy and birth videos, not just because I am currently pregnant as well. You have a wonderful way of sharing real life, the nitty-gritty that others are afraid to share. We need this transparency in life, between friends, between family, between our fellow women. We need more of this. Thank you, Olivia. Please don't ever feel bad sharing the truth, you will have so many people supporting and appreciating you. You got this, momma!

And thank YOU for being so authentic! This is why I love your videos. So relatable and real!!

Thank you SO much for opening up about this. I’m currently 20 weeks pregnant and your videos have seriously helped me along. I have so much respect for you for making the post partum videos. It seems nobody wants to talk about it, and I seriously applaud you for doing so. Thank you for being so real with us. ❤️ Your an inspiration!

You are such a beautiful person inside & out! Thank you for sharing your story, you are so genuine, kind, & compassionate. Your words are supporting so many others going through this & we can’t thank you enough for putting this out there! I’m a mama of a 9 month old boy who is my world! For me, building relationships with fellow new moms has really helped develop that support system you were talking about needing. As well as a person who you could eventually trust to watch your baby from time to time. Places that worked for me to meet other moms was signing up for any baby classes/events. Such as a baby music class, baby/mom yoga, swimming, library/community free program events for mom & baby etc. I’m here to support you from afar as you’ve been supporting all of us with your channel! All my love!

You are super strong. This is the most transparent video I've watched from anyone! Thank you for sharing.

Thank you for sharing this. I also go through this struggle and have dealt with depression & anxiety on/off for as long as I can remember. My daughter is now 8.5 months old and completely fills my heart and as you said, I often felt guilty for having those depressing emotions when I am so beyond blessed and grateful to have her. I have been doing a lot of self-reflecting and inner healing work, which has helped tremendously, but I still have those tough and dark moments. I'm so thankful to have a wife who cares about my mental health and accepts me for who I am with no shaming ; I'm glad that your husband provides that for you as well. Living with depression and anxiety isn't always easy, but the good definitely outweighs the bad so I try to focus and be fully present in those good moments. It helps to know that I'm not alone, as I have often felt isolated in my emotions. Thanks again for sharing and being so transparent. Sending you love & positive vibes!

oh honey i had to stop the video to write this. im currently pregnant with my first baby, and i just want to say THANK YOU for being open and honest to the world about REAL life! im also prone to anxiety and depression and have struggled with it since childhood. i have ben so scared that i would get depression when baby is born, but the thing is i feel like when other people go thorugh it and talk about it openly like you are doing now actually really really helps! having depression does not make anyone a worse mother in any way. i truly feel like we need to be allowed to have these emotions and talk about them so we can get the love and support we need. im rambleing now iknow, i just really wanted to say thank you and also woud love to give you a HUGE hug!!!!

Olivia I’m a new subscriber and thank you so much for sharing this story. I’m currently 36 weeks pregnant and have been feeling a lot of these feelings through my pregnancy and I’m glad seeing someone like you who is so positive open up encourages me to open up with my significant other a little more. It’s scary and I’m glad you made this video

Nice to see youtubers and moms being super real. Thank you for sharing

It's okay to feel that way. Your baby is beautiful, I hope you're better soon. You have all my support, you are so beautiful. We love you ❤

Thank you so much for talking about PPD! It’s a reality that youtubers don’t ever show so it’s nice to have someone open up like you did. It really helps me feel like what I’m going through is ok and everything will be ok. It definitely gives me hope and lifted my spirits knowing that I’m not alone. Thank you again!

You are absolutely amazing Olivia. I love all your videos and the honesty in this one is pure and brave. You have helped me so much not only with this video but with all of your videos! Keep up your wonderful work, you are truly so courageous!!

I first watched this when I was pregnant and said I'm so happy there's no way I would get ppd but then I had Jude and was hit with it bad. But being able to come back to watch this video and relate makes it so much easier. I'm not alone. Thank you so much for posting this Olivia.

I truly appreciate you opening up! I'm Due in May and all of your videos have been so helpful. I know this video was hard for you but it makes me feel like i wont be alone and that is priceless. Thank you.

I swear I love your page more and more! Everything you said is exactly how I’ve been feeling. 😭

This made me cry and truly gives me the strength to want to share my own story. Thank you for being vulnerable, Liv. You’re beautiful. 💖

Oh my goodness, I can relate to this so much. You're not alone, you're doing amazing and that baby is so lucky to have you as his mommy. sending you lots of love!

Thank you so much for opening up, I do really think it’s important to show real life and not just the good stuff. I’m new to your channel but I have really enjoyed and appreciated your videos as I am getting ready to bring my first baby into the world! Thank you 🥰

Thank you. ❤️ I relate 100%. It’s been tough for me to even be honest with myself. I commend you for being able to post this & talk about it. It’s so important.

Olivia, you are so brave for putting your emotions out there. I am one of the viewers that started watching your videos when I found out I was pregnant last October and I love all your baby-related videos. Out of all that I've seen, this one is the most I'm paying attention to because it's real, and it happens, and it's so important to not keep this to yourself. You are brave, and strong, and are a beautiful soul, and even if your family isn't there with you, you have a supportive husband who is there for you and a beautiful baby who loves his mama. Keep going girl, you got this. Sending hugs your way! ❤❤❤

This is beautiful, raw, and honest. I am 5 months postpartum and suffered from postpartum depression. And like you I felt alone even with my family by my side. I wanted everything to be ok but it wasn’t. Now I have more good days than bad but recovery is not a straight road. Thank you for sharing this. Helps remind me that I’m not alone.

Thank you for sharing these real feelings. I am 3 weeks away from welcoming our first baby and this is a topic I’ve been researching to prepare myself - learning the symptoms and hearing of others experiences are so incredibly valued. Thank you for your bravery on a sensitive and personal subject.

Olivia! You are absolutely beautiful inside and out. Thank you so much for making this video. I love this space that you have created where you can share what motherhood is really like. As a gal who wants to start a family this is what I need. I want to know if I experience what you're going through that I'm not abnormal and that it's OKAY if I don't have an instagram perfect "snapback". There is way too much pressure to be perfect so thank you for sharing your story. I hope you'll do updates on your journey 💕

Watching this video was like looking in a mirror. I felt like you were talking about me. I love my daughter more than I thought possible but I have felt the fear, frustration, sadness, and guilt. My husband is so supportive and a great dad but I sometimes resent his freedom. Thanks for sharing and being so vulnerable. It’s great to know I’m not alone and not crazy.

Thank you SO much for being brave enough and vulnerable enough to share your story with us!! Depression is a crippling monster and the struggle really is real. Keep fighting, sharing heals! ❤❤❤

Gosh I just love your channel! I am 34 weeks pregnant with our first and Ive been so afraid of feeling this. I love my wonderful husband and family but they have never felt depression and keep saying 'its in your head, just choose to feel something else or don't think about it. You have a great life!' but it isn't that easy and I've not even had our baby yet! Some days are so much harder than others and they just don't get it. You put all my insecurities, nerves and thoughts into words in a way I have been unable to do so far and now I have a way to preemptively help myself through this and explain it to my husband so he knows how I'm feeling. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being so real and honest about this. Seriously you have helped me in so many ways already! Please keep blogging and whatnot, it is a relief and wonderful to hear it laid out as plain as you have been able to make it here. You are wonderful! I am so grateful for you!!

I can relate so much to this video! Thanks so much for opening up your heart 💓. I just gave birth two months ago and I’m fighting postpartum depression and anxiety and by watching this I feel that I’m not the only one and that I’m not alone. Much love for you!

Thank you for being real and honest! I found you through pregnancy related videos cause I’m pregnant right now myself with my first child and I just really enjoyed who you are and your videos and I looked forward to waiting and seeing the videos you posted. And I still do! One of the things I like about you is the fact you go places other people don’t go with just raw real. So thank you once again cause I need to know these things. Your helping me so much! Please don’t ever stop! Baby and non-baby related I enjoy you! Your very strong for posting this! 💜

Girl your amazing! And so real.. it’s so hard to find someone I enjoy watching who is 100% real. And I feel like you totally are so keep up the videos pleasee! I’m 24 weeks pregnant with my first baby and I find your videos super useful😘 ❤️👶🏻

This is a much needed video! I’m so glad that you posted and are feeling better!!

This gave me so much comfort going into motherhood. I dealt with depression about 2 years ago while on birth control and it was the scariest feeling. I am now 8 months pregnant and so beyond excited to be a Mom. I’ve been having some really down days and been worried about postpartum depression and the guilt with all of those thoughts is overcome. This video was such a great reminder with how to deal with such difficult emotions and to remember that I’m not alone❤️ thank you.

Wow Olivia! This was so honest. I can't thank you enough for opening up about all of this. It didn't at all come across as ungrateful. What your going through and how you feel is real and hard, even if others have harder struggles. Dont feel guilty. I've never seriously struggled with depression but I think it's amazing that your talking about this so honestly because it will help SO many people!

I can relate! I went through the same thing with my two boys and am currently pregnant with baby #3. Ir gets better with time. Going to a therapist helped me a lot. Thank you for sharing and remember that you're not alone!

please don't stop making videos! I'm only 10 weeks now but I'm 19 years old and your mom series has helped me sooo much, opposed to all the other mom videos out there. thank you so much, Olivia!

Hi Olivia~ I started watching your channel when I was 5/6 months pregnant ( I bought everything in your postpartum video) and I recently just gave birth( my first baby as well!) and right after that I literally spiraled down into postpartum depression severely for the first few days. Im actually so surprised you had this experience as well!!! I bawled my eyes out the first week after the birth and felt so guilty for everything, for not bonding, for not being able to hold the baby because of my epistemology stitches and pains. I literally was unable to walk, sit, lie and I just cried and cried. Im so happy you made this video because I also freaked out and started googling other people who had ppd or suffered ppd and it was only after reading what other mums were going through did I feel better... As for the husband thing, I also couldnt help but feel like it was unfair that men dont have to go through these huge hormonal and bodily changes. My husband and son were able to “bond” while I looked at them from afar....!!! I had a very traumatic birth experience and right after the baby was born my husband was able to hold, feed, change and cuddle the baby, whereas I was completely bed ridden unable to go even to the bathroom. I cried for many days, and am still recovering...!!! So thank you for your video and for sharing because like you said...!! You making this video does and will help so many other new mummies out there!! So much love to you! Xoxoxo

Thank you so much for opening up. I suffer from depression and am pregnant with my first. So even my pregnancy has it's up and down days. It's really comforting to hear someone open up about depression and see how amazing they still are as a parent.

This video helped me so much!! I was feeling that postpartum depression and it definitely was draining and takes affect of your life. I remembered that you put out a video like this so after watching it and being able to connect to the things you mentioned felt good that I wasn’t the only one. After watching your video I have not felt one ounce of depression in 2 weeks!! You are amazing for being able to have that affect on someone’s life and for being so real!! Looooove your channel ❣️❣️❣️

Thank you for this video Liv! I too suffer from anxiety (my entire life), and depression on and off. Sending tons of love ❤️ to you and your family 🌹xo, and yes...we'll be ok.

Literally pumping as I watch this. Hang in there mama!!!

Oh, bless your heart for sharing this. I am a few weeks away from giving birth to my third and final baby, and the possible postpartum depression is the part that scares me most. The fear has actually woken me up in the middle of the night with anxiety "attacks".

Your son is staring at you with the purest love. Sometimes we forget to see ourselves through their eyes. Stay well

Just stumbled upon your channel and this video in looking for more relatable moms to follow. I am 8.5 months postpartum and you are speaking to my soul, thank you! I’ve found it nearly impossible to express what I’ve been going through, and you hit it right on. My PPD manifested itself more in anxiety symptoms, ultimately leading to actual panic attacks. Luckily I’ve gotten help and am starting to feel more like myself. Good luck with your journey, I will be subscribing and following along :)

I HATED THE MINI PILL!!!!!!!!! Oh my word!!!! It made me feel CRAZY and totally anxious - it was AWFUL! My sister experienced the exact same thing with it, too. It took me a while to clue in that I needed to stop taking it. Hadn't been on anything since. Decided to go natural and haven't been on hormonal birth control since! So sorry to hear you have been struggling, but know that you aren't alone...you are totally normal having these emotions! Don't feel bad or guilty! Being a new mom can feel VERY lonely at times for most - a lot of friends have told me just as much, and I will likely be experiencing it myself come June... Thank you so much for sharing. Keep being open and honest and real about the struggle of life cause we all go through it in some form or another. You are so strong and should be so proud - you will WIN this fight, girl! Thinking of you and praying that each day gets easier for you. Much love!!! 💕 (I just noticed this vid was from 6 months ago...lol. Therefore I hope looking back on this vid makes you smile when you see just how far you have come and how you beat the struggle yet again! 😊)

My favorite part was when you said that you’d rather help one person or even two. If everyone worked to try to help at least one person the world would be a better place. I appreciate that(: love you stranger (: haha

Thank you so much for sharing your story. When you started talking about feeling the PPD after your 6 week appointment, I felt like I could have been making this video. The same exact thing happened to me. I think it's so important to talk about this and I share my PPD story with people too in hopes that it will help. I'm sure your story is going to help a lot of people. Thank you so much. ♡

Thank you for making this. As someone that suffers from Bipolar 2/depression/anxiety I am absolutely terrified (yet desperately want) to be a mommy. Because of you and your courage to make this video I feel so safe and understood, even outside of motherhood. Hormones for me are my worst enemy so seeing your troubling times and how honest and candid you are gives me strength. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for posting this. I feel like I have a voice now!

Thank you for putting this out there! Depression is such a liar! It can be difficult to shut off the loop of terrible things it makes you tell yourself. I’m not sure if what I went through was ppd or just extreme exhaustion (I had to have an appendectomy on my baby’s one month birthday!) I’m 7 weeks pp and one of the biggest helps for me has been having a good mom’s group on Facebook. It’s a place to vent with women who understand what you’re going through, but it also helps to put things in perspective, because hearing what other people are going through often makes me thankful for being in my situation and not theirs.

I actually watched this video while I was still pregnant. My son is now 6 months old, and I'm just realizing I've got the anxiety side of post partum issues.. thank you so much for this video and the article you linked. I really appreciate your willingness to share your experience.

Thank you so much for this you don’t even know how much it means to know you’re not alone with the same feelings ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Thank you so much for posting this!! I gave birth to my son in July and I have postpartum depression! It’s very hard being a stay home mom for me because of it. I started a KZfaq channel to help with my depression and it has been working, which is great! I love how you explain the depression, that’s exactly how I feel!! You give me the courage to feel okay today 👍🏼

Thank you for being so brave and sharing your story. I’m in my second trimester right now and all of your videos have been so helpful to me. Sending prayers and positivity your way ❤️

I’ve had PPD after having my first child. I’m pregnant with my second. I was so afraid of getting pregnant again bc of the fear of depression. Praying for you. We’re not alone. Stay strong 💪🏻. You got this.

Love, love, love this video! Thank you. 7 weeks PP and this is everything I needed to hear.

So I started following you because of all your maternity videos which really helped with giving motivation to dress up and change my attitude towards my pregnancy. After this video I’m a subscriber I’m in my 2nd trimester and I’ve never had anxiety/depression and this video helped me so much. So thankful for you being so real and just know you a strong mama ❤️

I have a 7 week old baby and you have no idea how good this video made me feel. Thank you for sharing your experience. I've been struggling with the exact same feelings for a couple of days. You made me feel normal 💜

I'm so proud of you for posting this. Its so important to talk about as many of us go through the same thing, we don't need to suffer by ourselves! :)

Thank you SO much for sharing your story! This topic needs to be talked about so much more. 💕

I love you and this video. It's hard to talk about things while they are actually happening, but this video helped more people than you will ever know, just by being real. Thank you.

I appreciate you making this video and being real and raw. Pregnancy, post partum, and parenting are not all sunshine and rainbows. I 20 weeks pregnant and have struggled with severe anxiety and depression my entire life. I am medicated for my anxiety and depression. PPD is something that my doctors are very worried that may happen and it’s something that I’m very aware can happen easily to me. My husband is in the military so it makes me even more scared and worried for once baby is here because he’ll be working and tired from how demanding his job is. Anywho, long story short, hank you for this video and opening up and letting people know that they are not alone and it is okay to seek help and admit that you are not okay.

I truly appreciate you. I’m pregnant now with my first and I appreciate the realness. I’m sick of people acting like everything is perfect. Women need people like you who are willing to put your truth out there whether life is great or sad. You are an inspiration. Please know that I think you are absolutely stunning your beautiful in and out. Thank you 🙏🏼

GIRL. You're not the only one who has had issues with birth control. I got off of it 3 years ago because I was having similar issues to you. I'm just grateful that both of us were able to realize it was a huge part of the problem. Also, I love your videos. I feel like we're a lot alike with our planning/ researching/anxiety/guilt and you've become a major resource for me in this preconception phase of ours. I already struggle with anxiety to the point where that's currently my biggest concern about being pregnant. You're amazing and are helping so many people. I know you've definitely helped me a lot.

thanks for sharing! I'M 35weeks pregnant , trying to get fully ready mentally and physically, hearing your story will definitely give me a heads up. and hope everything will be ok.

I know that this is an older video for you, but for me it is the best heads up I could ever receive whether I'll need it or not (19 weeks pregnant). I want to thank you for opening up and being real so that others can know in advance that everything will be ok. You're the best, and you are good people💜. Continuing to watch your journey!

Sitting here pumping after being up all night with my 2 week old thats backed up and fussy. This video was exactly what I needed. Just to hear the words that I'm too ashamed to say or admit to myself. To be able to shed tears with you knowing that there is no judgment and that we have a shared experience meant everything. I have an awesome support system. My mom has been amazing and even took her own maternity leave from her job to be home with us for the first few weeks. It's hard to open up to my fiance because of our cultural differences, he has a VERY opinionated mother who already "diagnosed" me with PPD before I even had any symptoms. Like I was literally smiling and happy and loving on my baby, but if I had one difficult feeding or was snippy in the morning after a rough night, she would tell my fiance that I had postpartum depression. She visited us for the 1st 3 days out of the hospital and I felt like I was walking on eggshells the entire time. She criticized EVERYTHING I did. She called normal newborn crying "colic" and had a solution to every "problem" that she found with my perfect baby. The pressure to keep it altogether was immense, even after she left!! That rippling effect has contributed to problems with breastfeeding and even added strain to my relationship with the father because I have to always fight to hold everything together in fear that he tells his mom anything that can be used against me. And now that I have this sadness, this irritability, I make myself anxious with the thought that it might be PPD because of what that would mean to his family. Mental health isn't talked about, its frowned upon for you not to be perfectly well-adjusted at all times. On the flip side, most of my family struggles with mental health issues and we are very open about it. I'm stuck in this tug of war with myself and I feel like the baby and I are losing. We are getting a raw deal and I'm not sure how to cope with it. I keep pushing my fiance away instead of letting him in. I'm sorry for ranting, this video just helped me sort through my thoughts and be brutally honest with myself. Thank you for helping me.

Thank you so much for making this and talking so openly about postpartum depression.

Thank you so much for sharing this! I am only 32 weeks along right now, but I love watching your videos and preparing for anything that might arise when he come. Hang in there!

Hi Olivia! I have been watching some of your videos and I love how you are so honest and easy to relate to. I am currently 34 weeks pregnant with our first baby. I have been feeling great so far, but had serious concerns about PPD since I have struggled with depression before. This video has helped me realize that if it happens, I am not alone and it will get better again. It also has shown me that taking time for myself will be crucial if I want to succeed in this journey. I hope you will feel better soon. You are a beautiful spirit! Take care!

I’m super late on this video, but thank you for your transparency. I’m going to be a first time mom and these are things that cross my mind. I’m happy to see and hear that this is being talked about in a positive light and that these emotions and thoughts are valid. Thank you. Praying for healing heart and mind. 🙏🏼😊

Thank you for your honesty and realness.

Absolutely needed to hear this. I just am coming to terms with the fact I'm suffering from PPD.. and to even say it out loud to yourself is hard let alone when I told my husband and my mom but thankfully they were so supportive which I figured they would be but theres just something when you're in it that tells you no one will understand and people will think you're crazy and im learning thats the depression talking.. im nervous to tell my O.B. but i know she will understand and be there to help me. Thank you for being real and raw

I am 31 weeks pregnant... I am so scared about post partum... I've been watching your videos for about 3 months... Thank you for sharing your story with us... Thank you for opening up... You are precious & so sincere.. 💓 I don't have family close either... So I know that feeling of feeling alone... You are amazing!!! Always remember that!!! 💙