Our Story of Loss | Losing Our Son Foxx

Our Story of Loss | Losing Our Son Foxx | Neonatal Child Loss

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2 жыл бұрын

#episode 12 - In this episode myself and my husband sit down to talk about the story of Foxx. Losing our son at just 4 days old after a what was a perfectly normal pregnancy and birth.

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@karent1084 4 ай бұрын

I've see a lot of videos on this Strep B infection with newborns. In my opinion, a baby should not have any issues breathing after a successful labor. Dr's and midwives need to be better educated on this topic. So sorry for your loss. Hard to lose a beautiful creaton after all those months. Bless you both ❤

@SagooBoy Жыл бұрын

I am so sorry for your loss. My wife and I lost our first born son after 3 months in the NICU. I am trying to keep a level head, but between loosing my baby, loosing my job, paying overpriced premiums I am constantly going through meltdowns. I pray for strength for both of you.

@fabulousfactory Жыл бұрын

Sending love your way ❤ I know how this feel currently going through loss of child in nicu

@daughterofthemosthighgod1889 7 ай бұрын

Praying 🙏🏾 for you

@siszama2294 6 ай бұрын

May God restore what the devil has stolen from your life and may you completely heal i the name of Jesus

@kimandrews9035 4 ай бұрын

So so sorry

@karenkramer3760 2 ай бұрын

When it rains, it pours. We are going through similar things. Praying things get better and you start feeling some joy, slowly buy surely.

@bienveillance972 Жыл бұрын

One day, you and I, we meet again our babies in Heaven, I refuse to think that it couldn't be that way. My sweet little boy passed away the 12th February 2020. (I'm french, so please, forgive my bad english). I recognize myself trough your story, the same huge hole in my heart, the deny and the cold, the silence, the need of being alone, the angry, it was just a nightmare, it couldn't be true, no no no... Everything in his bedroom was ready, how could you imagine that you would back home without your baby? It's not possible to describe or explain if you haven't lived this horrible experience. After that, my family which is not very closed to me and my friends told me to try to forget and to go on... Unbearable for me to hear such things. Today, I know that i will never be able to have another baby, it's medically impossible now. All my baby's clothes, bed, baby-buggy, toys, etc...are tidy in my shed and I can't watch them again but I don't want to separate me of it. I am not ready. I understand EVERY feel and EVERY pain, grief you felt and you still feel. I'm sure my baby is happy to play with Foxx and with the other babies who didn't stay on Earth with their parents. "I'm jealous of the Angels". You're in my prayers and in my love. Thank you sooooo much for your share. Be and stay strong. He doesn't want you to cry. You are amazing parents.

@cass6474 Ай бұрын

God this touched me. I lost my son when he was 3 months old. Sadly his death was caused by the hands of his father. His own father. I wonder if my life would be different today if only he was still here

@user-ch3ez7wz7i 2 ай бұрын

What a lovely tribute to your sweet son Foxx. I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss. No parents should have to go through this, especially a preventable death. The We Don’t Die podcast is so helpful for many parents. My heart hurts for you.

@laurenk1853 7 ай бұрын

This is heartbreaking. I’m so very sorry for your loss.

@tammynielsen4212 Жыл бұрын

Im so sorry for your loss. I totally understand how you feel. I hope and pray that you find some peace. Please know that fox is with you both every day and there is nothing you could do. I have been there. Sending you lots of love and prayers XOXO

@veroniquemichaud5124 Жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing the story of your precious Foxx, I am so sorry for your loss. We lost our son 2 weeks ago shortly after birth 💔 it’s the the hardest thing we have been trough, your story makes us feel a little less alone.

@laurafitz3868 11 ай бұрын

So sorry for your loss 😢

@jmama2028 Жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing this story. I went through a very similar thing with my beautiful boy, Dain. Although, he was seven. He had a rare autoimmune reaction to Covid-19, and it set him off into continuous seizures, like your sweet boy. He fought in a coma for a month in the icu. So many of the parts of your story ring true for us, and what we dealt with throughout the battle of being by his bedside, and eventually having to let him go. It is very helpful to me to know I am not alone in this nightmare scenario. I am now pregnant with a sibling that would never have been if we hadn’t lost our sweet boy. I am going to be extra careful with Group B Strep, to minimize the chances of having to endure something like this again. I wouldn’t be able to make it going through something like that twice. You are so strong, thank you.❤

@courtneyr214 Жыл бұрын

Had he been vaccinated? This sounds very similar to what my friends daughter went through. I’m so sorry for your loss. : ( ❤

@joannecannon5033 Жыл бұрын

Thankyou for sharing your story,How tragic,I saw an article about your loss so looked you up,I have no words to convay except to say how sorry i am,Little Foxx was absolutely beautiful,so very unfair,Mikhailla i looked on your instagram page,you write so beautifully,I am just so very sorry

@jackieventer2485 7 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing your pain because it will help other parents in their journey. I’m so sorry for you 🥲

@haseebgillani9689 10 ай бұрын

Every day is a torture , I lost my son after 15 days of his life with us.... God bless you guys

@88kyliegirl 2 жыл бұрын

You are both incredible humans, such a beautiful couple and are selflessly helping so many other people just by raising awareness. Thank you for sharing, I know I won’t ever forget fox and his legacy after hearing his story. Big love ❤️

@wild.beautifulchaos1638 2 жыл бұрын

Sending all my love to you guys! I still remember when you posted in the FB group. Often have thought of you guys ever since! 💖

@meghangabriels2482 6 ай бұрын

Love you. You are so strong. First time coming across, you and your whole family has my heart ❤️

@alannabrown3456 2 жыл бұрын

I am forever grateful for the information you have shared to the world after your loss of Foxx. You two are the strongest parents who have went through unimaginable loss. Foxx would be so proud of the love you both have for him. Sending you both so much love 🤍

@jennifersmith2750 2 жыл бұрын

I’m not surprised that writing helped you through your grief. The metaphors you used to describe your pain made my heart ache & cry for you 😭💔 I am so sorry you had to go through this but know that Foxx must be so incredibly proud of the family and life you have created in his memory 💙🕊

@bobbygriffiths7255 2 жыл бұрын

Teddy & Miki 🙏💞 lots of love to you both ❤️ such a hard time you both have endured. Thank you for sharing your story - I will always share with my pregnant friends about Strep B & I thank you for that knowledge Miki😘 Both of you are so brave 🙏💞 #foxx 💞🙏

@jessicapritchard5990 2 жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing with us.. your both so strong and I could not stop crying watching this! How lucky you are to have each other and Fox will never be forgotten xx

@chelseawhitton1619 2 жыл бұрын

You both spoke so beautifully and I felt your raw emotions going through what happened. It’s not fair, not right and plain cruel. I can’t even begin to imagine. You are so incredibly strong and most of all brave.

@ecuadorexpat8558 Жыл бұрын

So sorry for your loss..Love and prayers

@carlieocarroll2210 2 жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing ❤️ I shed so many tears. Definitely hugging my boys extra tight today xxx

@Erimarnat Жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry. Thank you for sharing and educating parents to be an advocate for their baby. May God bless you both. 🙏

@ninamahkuk4 2 жыл бұрын

Such a sad story. Rest peacefully baby Foxx.

@oliviagutierrez3616 3 ай бұрын

Thank you so much for sharing. Foxx is such a great name. I lost my son Cruz a little over a month ago. Different circumstances, but we had a traumatic 9 day experience in the NICU. Your story made me feel so much less alone. I may have not heard right but did I hear you say your other child’s name is Cruz? ❤ to you

@angelabroom2861 Жыл бұрын

God bless you both. Thankyou for sharing your story. Give yourselves time.... Look after each other. Stay close to each other. Be brave. Praying for you to feel God's peace that passes all understanding. X

@MsHyde70 2 жыл бұрын

You and Teddy have been in my heart since the day you posted on the Facebook group after having given birth to Foxx. I feel privileged to have watched your family grow from afar and to see the joy Elle and Cruz have brought to your life. I was overwhelmed with emotion, sitting here just bawling my eyes out watching this video. I am so incredibly sorry that you ever had to experience this level of pain. I appreciate your words and your honesty throughout your journey and I am excited to see what the future holds for you and your family and to see what you have created! Sending so much love your way!!

@standup2982 8 ай бұрын

I'm so very sorry for your loss. Sending love from the UK 🇬🇧❤ ❤

@Plummele97 10 ай бұрын

So sorry for your loss 😢 losing a baby is so so so hard. ❤

@priyankagannavarapu4418 6 ай бұрын

I lost my 2 neo natal kids .... One in 2022 jan and yhe other in 2023 dec . Its a hell both my kids left me , hope they are together in heaven❤

@chungukapusa8452 5 ай бұрын

Sending you lots of love❤ I can relate as this happened to me just last week.😢

@kimandrews9035 4 ай бұрын

You are a beautiful couple. I’m so sorry that you had to experience such a sad and lonely feeling. My heart aches for you.

@Efhgi 7 ай бұрын

I lost mine at the 12 week scan as well god it hurt you dont think anything can hurt as much. Like my doctor said you see that positive test and you imagine their whole lives and that gets crushed and you have nothing to hold nothing to show how important that little ones impact has been on you. My friend got me a candle and a card that said sorry on the loss of your little one and i appreicted that so much i also had a blanket i was knitting that i continued to knit. that blanket must hold buckets of tears so many hopes and dreams gone. It took us 8 years to conceive.

@tiffanyl3296 4 ай бұрын

Lots of love and huges to you and your family. My heart breaks for you

@MandyLucas-bh8lh 7 ай бұрын

So sorry for the loss of your precious boy now with the angels sending you all my love and thoughts rip little man

@joanmckinnon2368 10 ай бұрын

So sorry for the loss of your beautiful baby boy

@emmacorbett3444 Жыл бұрын

I had strep B months prior to being pregnant in 2018 when I was in Labour I was given iv antibiotics x so sorry for your loss xx❤

@noracollins2040 10 ай бұрын

So sorry to hear. You both have been through so much. 💗💗

@kaylee3964 10 ай бұрын

I’m so sorry I tested for that and the doctor refused to treat me… he didn’t believe in it. Can you believe that? I lost my child too. I hope you find the strength to have another child. It won’t replace Foxx but it will help your hearts.

@yasmincheal5586 2 жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing ❤️❤️

@Hart4Me2Love 5 ай бұрын

I am so very sorry and heartbroken for you both! I'm sending big warm hugs and positive thoughts... 🫂 ❤

@dawndexter9779 10 ай бұрын

Teddy will no doubt, hold his wife all the time. Hold each other up😢 They were both so brave telling their, story. Love & prayers 🙏 ❤ to them and their family. I know what it is like to grief for a child. 😢 and to tell their story is so brave ❤

@tracydownie169 10 ай бұрын

So sorry for your loss of your beautiful baby Foxx. Thank you for sharing your story. Xx

@sophiewordsworth2806 5 ай бұрын

So emotional 😭

@lashawnaleak4379 9 ай бұрын

My brother loss my nephew two days after he was born and we don't know what to do it's😢 really surreal to us

@GEC416 9 ай бұрын

This is truly a heartbreaking story and so hard to hear and twice as hard to tell. You seem like such a nice couple and whether you have children now I don't know but if and when you do you will always remember Fox and know someday you will see him again. Best wishes to you both and thank you for telling your sad experience to all of us.

@mikhaillaglossat1243 9 ай бұрын

Thank you. We went on to have two beautiful babies a daughter who is now 5.5 and a son who is now 3.5. Feeling very blessed after this journey here.

@GEC416 9 ай бұрын

@@mikhaillaglossat1243 that is wonderful, a boy and a girl - what more could you ask for? You deserve all the happiness life has to offer.

@mihaelaroman4718 10 ай бұрын

4 hours later after birth to go home? I did not think it was possible. Why? We were 3 days in and requested an extra day. The bill was high but I needed to know baby was ok. I am so terrible sorry for your loss, I admire your strength for keeping your sanity.

@ifrah5198 9 ай бұрын

Same happened with me, I was sent home 5 hours after birth. And we unfortunately lost our daughter the next night.

@sandiepaulo9473 4 ай бұрын

What country do you guys live? I have never heard of same day discharge after delivery. I live in the USA

@mael2039 2 ай бұрын

It's normal where I live to stay three to six hours after giving birth before going home.

@Lady_Truth 4 ай бұрын

I also lost my son 2 years ago. He spent 6 months in the nicu 😢

@Partyanimal1066 5 ай бұрын

I hope I can put something towards helping you.I lost five babies during pregnancy,but in between I had three babies delivered safely,all boys. I often wondered whether my babies who died were all girls who maybe had a congenital abnormality that wasn’t compatible with life. I’ll never know of course.

@Valerie__22 10 ай бұрын

This breaks my heart. I’ve experienced the excruciating loss of walking through the maternity ward without a child in my arms. This mother is in the kind of total suffering, many can never understand. I wish I could take her pain and heartache, but I know nothing on this earth can do that. Only Our Lord Jesus can wipe those countless tears away.

@homechefsushreebiswal 8 ай бұрын

Sorry about Foxx😢 💔 I could connect to each and every word of yours. I felt as if someone is speaking, what I am feeling right now after loosing my first baby. I couldn't bring her home after birth, I came home empty handed and I am unable to face or see all those gifts and room that I had prepared for her home coming. God is so cruel on me. I can't cope up with the loss. It feels like why God cheated us.

@eiphelwong 8 ай бұрын

Hang in there ❤ i’ve been experiencing the same situation a month ago, I was questioning God, angry, feeling cheated, and feeling ashamed that I’m a childless mother… I deleted my social media, only talked to 2-3 friends who constantly check up on me.. and did a lot of wailing and crying… but after a month, as my body also healing, my heart starts to accept the fact she’s no longer here.. i’m not crying that hard anymore. I miss my daughter everyday, but I know she’s in the happiest place ever with God and we’ll meet again later. I’m not afraid of death anymore… He will be with you through your most painful journey.. you’ll be okay again, you’ll start to laugh and smile again.. i’m praying for you.

@homechefsushreebiswal 8 ай бұрын

@eiphelwong Thanks for Support..It means a lot 💞

@millicentgregory1394 Жыл бұрын

Sorry about you 💕 you family losing your lovely baby 🍼💓 boy May God 🙏🙏👼🙏 take him home 🏠 safe to be with him I can related don't worry father God will take care of him he will always be close may god bless you soon Amen I send you my support and blessing Amen

@cass6474 Ай бұрын

I was born with group B strep. And I spent the first 6 months of my life in the hospital fighting to survive. My mom took me home shortly after I was born only to have to rush me back a few days later because I was very sick. I'm grateful I'm here today but man this illness is so damn preventable

@Raisingourlittles 2 жыл бұрын

❤️❤️❤️

@user-vg7qq5eq4x 7 ай бұрын

I don’t know you but I am crying and I’m praying for you 😢

@krystalshepherd7993 2 жыл бұрын

♥️♥️♥️

@schatzfarms4471 Жыл бұрын

I wonder why the dr’s don’t routinely give antibiotics prior to labor and delivery?

@cassandrahughes2897 Жыл бұрын

They usually do in the United States I had then with both of mine the issue can be if you don't get it in time the odds are like 1 in 4000 babies will die from a strip b infection due to sepsis and septic shock. It's and unfortunate effect of waiting awhile after tour water breaks cause infection to get into the placenta to the baby and when they pass through the canal during birth the infection spreads through the baby and usually within a couple days they don't make it.

@desireeperham7093 9 ай бұрын

Antibiotics are only used to treat infection. It's really bad practice to prescribe them prophylactically. The bacteria are becoming resistant because we've been prescribing them so indiscriminately. Here in NZ, we screen on a risk-factor basis, ie- a w9man with a history of GBS etc. We also test using mid-stream urine 3 times during pregnancy, and that normally picks it up. Unfortunately, some babies die. 😢 PS: around 40% of babies have a nuchal cord, and most of the time it's harmless. It's normal for a newborn to be mucousy too. Lesson: even though everything seems normal and the staff are busy (and can be complacent or patronizing at times), always listen to the parents' instincts. Xxx

@annaclaire9927 4 ай бұрын

So very sorry

@charlenefriesen8286 10 ай бұрын

Please both your hearts that’s all I can say! 😭

@Hart4Me2Love 5 ай бұрын

I am 42 but would be more than willing to help in any way? I have 4 of my own babies. You can use my body or take an egg? ❤

@kristinstocking3548 7 ай бұрын

I am so sorry for your loss. Please do not blame yourself for not having the antibiotics at birth. I received antibiotics for group b strep during my labor. He never tested positive for the virus, but my sweet boy has had seizures every day of his life now. Group b strep is the only thing we can think has caused this, as we've ruled out just about everything else. What happened to you was tragic. The nurses should have paid more attention to your feelings. You are not to blame.

@flowersforthedead5182 5 ай бұрын

I am both devastated and angry for you both. Your terrible experience and deep bereavement is literally why i recommend against free birthing or birth centers. They are very self serving. The part where you wanted and epidural and they made excuses was a terrible red flag. Love and peace and healing for you both.

@lindalastovickova9628 6 ай бұрын

Dont underestimate your loss. What you experienced, the both of you, is trauma and you should get yourself psychological care. And I am very sorry.

@annabrahamson4320 8 ай бұрын

Sheesh in the 80s you didn't get an option for an epidural, I had 3, the first was the worst and the tiniest of the three.

@Smile-xe1tu 3 ай бұрын

The moment they had to put it in a coma. It should have been left to pass. Don’t waste time and money Rest in peace.

@cass6474 Ай бұрын

What? You would rather let your child pass instead of wasting time and money keeping them alive? If thats how you feel fine but you don't tell a grieving mother this...

@damon7610 2 жыл бұрын

ᵖʳᵒᵐᵒˢᵐ 👍

@ildikoparker920 8 ай бұрын

I would never have left my babies side. What nonsense he didn't want to die in front of you and going home to sleep

@thatcreepyxmastreeinyourat8950 6 ай бұрын

Unless you've had a baby in the NICU it is impossible explain to someone who hasn't been there. It's one of the absolute worst things a human can endure.

@thatcreepyxmastreeinyourat8950 6 ай бұрын

Unless you've had a baby in the NICU it's impossible to explain. It really is just the absolute most awful thing a human being can endure.

@ildikoparker920 5 ай бұрын

@@thatcreepyxmastreeinyourat8950 exactly your place was with your baby you didn't come first

@thatcreepyxmastreeinyourat8950 5 ай бұрын

@ildikoparker920 Did you have a baby in NICU? Can we talk, I'll send you my email. I want to hear your story, I know how it feels but parents don't really talk in NICU

@roseyk7677 11 ай бұрын

He didn't put his arms, around her once... So cold!!!

@lisabruner7018 9 ай бұрын

It's so nice of you to judge. You don't know personally, maybe they aren't touchy Feely.

@petitehippie7064 9 ай бұрын

You're the one that's cold. Making a hateful comment on a video of loving parents that are going through heartbreak and grief after losing their baby. Just awful.

@AN-fb7hc 8 ай бұрын

Neither did she . Why is it expected of the man alone ? May be she isn’t needy like you are .

@thatcreepyxmastreeinyourat8950 6 ай бұрын

I think he knows there is nothing that can dull that kind of pain. They each have to walk that desolate path next to each other yet alone.