This is the BEST ED documentary I've seen. Truly about those girls, about eating disorder itself, emotions not only shocking images of stick-figures and girls crying over dinner plates. This touched me so much... those girls were putting in words my thoughts and feelings. This documentary should be translated in other languages too.

EDNOS is difficult. Mostly because the voice keeps changing. One minute I want to binge and purge, the next to run and then to stop eating entirely. When I went to get diagnosed my doctor/psychiatrist said I had "disordered eating". That was because I didn't quite fit the criteria for any disorder so they though it wasn't a big deal.

I'm a male who suffers from EDNOS. It pisses me off that doctors don't take it seriously. My own doctor doesn't, my dad is a doctor and thinks I'm attention seeking, he should know better. My doctor dad binge eats and weighs 240 lbs at 5'9. Anyone who was an eating disorder should not be alone or ignored.

I thought this would just be about EDNOS. plain and straight, but it goes really deep into the emotion, the depression and anxiety and I love that because that's what it's really about.

does it bother anyone else that it seems like the only ed anyone talks about is being ana?

idk why but i see so much sadness from Anneloes eyes when her mother says that she's "getting better"

It's hard to explain that sometimes your scared to get rid of your eating disorder...but theses girls said everything I'm feeling. Glad to know I'm not Completely crazy and on my own with that specific concept... This was a beautiful documentary

wish you could have included a non-purging bulimic in your documentary as well (those of us who fast and over-exercise to compensate for binges) We always get ignored.

I really get being scared to let go of the eating disorder part.i like this documentary because it explains what it feels like, the effects and psychological impact of the ed.thank you.

anorexia can be invisible too

i have had ednos that started from having anorexia at a younger age, i will binge and not control it and have constant binges for months then go to starving and losing alot of weight, with exercise. but because the binging puts back on the weight i lose when i don't eat, people don't see it as anything but me being pathetic. but in reality ednos is so hard, and unlike bulimia, most people see it as an 'attention seeking disorder' when its ruling my life.

I've lived nearly all my life with BED or bulimia, the only time people showed concern was when I was losing weight, now that I'm gaining it again nobody seems to see a problem. I've always had low self esteem and have openly judged my body with disgust, I feel like they just see this as a norm for me. I wish they were more concerned about me binging rather than dieting cause that's the main issue. I need support but I'm not going to bother anyone with my problems.

sad that their friends didn't want to stay by their sides to support them through their hardships

It's so scary.. as if i am the person in the video. For all of the people who never coped with eating disorders.. you should know that all of them have identic thoughts.... totally the same.. as what i think.. i do have a eating disorder too... and it's the worst thing ever

I am so tired of being this way

So beautiful, and surprisingly in Dutch. Ik vond het een inspirerende documentaire. It was very relatable.

Hits even harder to home, seeing as it's my native language..

Thank you so much for this documentary. Stay strong.

I'm glad this is up...people think all eating disorders are anorexia but that's not true. There's orthorexia, EDNOS, and of course bulimia nervosa. I am recovering from EDNOS and it's nice to see a video like this.

hahaha its funny how i just a had sip of water and said to myself I would hate this world if water had calories.

Thank you so much for this documentary. I cried the whole way through which is unusual for me but they are heart-breaking stories and more so because they are my story too, being someone who intimately knows the complete devastation that eating disorders cause. And the invisibility is such a huge barrier. Spread the awareness and give people like me hope and help.

It so relieveing to have someone understand. They are all beautiful

Beautiful documentary!

For the first time I dont feel so alienated it's like some ones pulled the contents from my head and put them in this video. I've felt so very alone in my battle so mis understood and not believed this just helps to calm my fears ...

What an incredible documentary- these women are so insightful about the function of the ED- it's a way 'out', a way of postponing life, a way of avoiding the terrifying prospect of being responsible for their lives, successes, failures- I so hope they are able to recover and cope and find their way back into the world.

I have Invisible eating disorder. I don't eat that often but if I do I purge

stay strong :)

I'm sure she wants to help, but people with eating disorders feel like they have a lack of control over their own life. It's all about her mother's point of view in this interview, not hers. That really concerns me. Sandra's parents seem terrible indeed.

its weird how much i can relate to this. they explain the feelings so well

I totally relate to this video. All of it. Stay strong and heads up you two lovelies. Great and inspirational video. Hope it reaches out to more suffering from this painful and dreadful illness. God bless.

Thank you so much June!

love this documentary..so relatable :(

fear is such a powerful feeling... They are so brave; it's admirable. Really nice documentary. I really really liked it and could identify with them. Thanks for sharing

I think this is a great documentary. It is captivating in its exploration of the pain behind, within and beyond eating disorders and the complexities they involve. I wrote a brief post about it on my chrysaliscyc blog called Most Eating Disorders Are ‘Out of Sight’.

so relatable. & great documentary. very touching and very real

This documentary speaks for my heart

This is amazing

Thank you Ellie!

This is a much-needed video, not easy to watch, I recommend you watch it to understand a life-threatening illness that is grossly misunderstood. I was once like the three young women who courageously and candidly share their stories. My heart goes out to them, and everyone who is suffering this illness today. If you are suffering the symptoms of Bulimia, I encourage you to seek help, today! This is an illness an help is available. You CAN reclaim you!

Thank you!

The first min and a half already echoed all my innermost thoughts and feelings :'

really enjoyed this and could relate a lot!still wish i could find more about men and such things though!

I'm not sure why, but I feel like Anneloes' mother is part of what caused the problem :(

Wat zo raar is, is dat ik hier niet eens specifiek op heb gezocht. Ik was eigenlijk wel benieuwd naar wat hier wordt besproken en na het volledig kijken ( ja echt waar ), moet ik toch echt wel een compliment geven voor deze documentaire. De meiden spreken de harde waarheid uit en ik vind het ook wel weer zorgwekkend dat natuurlijk er nog veel meer exemplaren rondlopen met ditzelfde probleem, zonder eerlijk te zijn naar zichzelf. Het klopt inderdaad dat er eigenlijk alleen naar je wordt gekeken als je uitzonderlijk dun of uitzonderlijk dik bent. Dan gaan mensen zich afvragen hoe het toch zo ver heeft kunnen komen. De meiden uit deze documentaire zien er "normaal" uit en roepen daarom ook geen echte vragen op bij anderen. Wat eigenlijk de moraal van het verhaal is, is dat een verslaving vaak tot stand komt uit angst. Een toevluchtsoord creëren zeg maar. Kijk maar naar game verslaafden. Precies hetzelfde verhaal.. Zoals gezegd, ik vond dit een prima documentaire. Wat eigenlijk wel beetje raar is, is dat ik halverwege gewoon trek kreeg en mezelf ontbijt ging maken. Ook ik heb soms last van een eetstoornis. Te lui en onverschillig om eten te maken bijvoorbeeld. Oh en ehh.. de meid met het kort gewiekte haar.. ze heeft wel wat aantrekkelijks

Oh my god, this video discribes it so well.

I have EDNOS (atypical anorexia for the most part, though I have had binge/purge behaviors). This video is so important because what most people don't realize is that there are usually more factors to "typical" anorexia (as well as morbid obesity in BED) that allowed the person to get to such an extreme weight, e.g. the family enabling the person, or some sort of trauma/abuse going on. What people don't realize is that the people who aren't enabled need help too. You wouldn't consider someone who is sent into rehab for opiate addiction and has full family support any less of an addict than one who is out on the street and estranged from their family. It's just two different presentations of the same disease.

No, this is actually Dutch, but there are many words in the German and Dutch language that sound similar, so it's no wonder you understand some of them :)

i've suffered from disordered eating or EDNOS for about 5 years. i never lost any weight and it made me feel like such a failure. for a little while, i actually gained some weight to please my now ex girlfriend 'cause she was worried about the damage i had done to my body. all i remember is being maybe a bit more tired, getting cold easily in cold places, and that's really about it.

What she said about addiction is not true. It's not always because you're looking for a way out. There are people out there who live very happy lives and still end up addicted.

please read brain over binge, therapy makes us focus on everything around us. stress, body image, anxiety depression whatever. this makes us put off on stopping the binging. when in fact it's the binging you should focus on. i highly recommend the book. therapy has brought me nowhere but letting me focus on my problems and WHY i'm binging but never stopped me from binging. this book has helped me. and i am completely recovered. as i watch this documentary. their vision is the vision of the therapists. one of the girls said, that if the focus on their problems and resolve them the binging will go away. but that is not true. the binging comes from an URGE which has to be stopped.

I think people should stop trying to blame others for anyone having an eating disorder. To the person below me who is blaming men for it. You do realise men get eating disorders also. As for the media I do believe it plays a role in it. but I don't fully believe someone sees a bunch of skinny girls and bam wants to starve and destroy themselves due to it. Plus eating disorders were around well before the media was crazy about super thin girls/men.probably well before there even was a media.

Just wanted to say thanks for posting this documentary. I am glad I sat and took the time to watch this. It really made me feel less alone. What is the song that plays throughout the documentary? It is such a beautiful song. xoxo

Although I dont think that this is the main reason that people develope eating disorders. It often has nothing to do with wanting to be thin but more with getting control over their life and being afraid of the future etc.

I totally agree with you on that one. I am so ashamed of my body which is why I dress in mostly baggy clothes. All my past boyfriends kept telling me that I should dress more sexy and that put even more pressure on me and made me want to diet even more. I hate how some men just can't accept one as they are. It's all about the womens bodys these days. Everywhere you go it's about advertising womens bodys. Where are the half naked men? I barely see any.

Hey! I'm so sorry you're going through this too, my story is almost identical to yours. I would suggest looking into alternative ways to take your medication, for example maybe wake up halfway through the night and take it with water, just keep it by your bed so you don't have to get up, that way you'll be half asleep and will fall back asleep pretty quick and hopefully won't automatically binge. Or you can get once-weekly prozac, but I dunno if that's available in Australia.

EDNOS is a eating disorder that is not characterized as either Anorexia or Bulimia. They show much of the same symptoms as either or both of the two but may not be underweight or have Amenorrhea (loss of menstrual cycle). The person diagnosed with EDNOS may have anorexic or bulimic tendencies.

i can relate so much to them.

I was diagnosed with EDNOS. I had never heard of it until the dr told me I had it.

Their fears are exactly the same as mine.. It's horrible.

I believe in you!

anorexia can be invisible as well

my eating disorder actually started from being on a blogging website and coming across "thinspo" pictures. It definitely triggered something in me that the scale never did. So yes, I did and still am destroying myself and it all started from one summer afternoon on the computer when I saw pictures of happy, gorgeous, skinny girls.

I felt related to this girls, I feel sad, annoyed, tired, angry, alone, desperate all the time, and when I purge I feel some kind of pleasure, I know is so sick,,...I suffer from a disgusting ednos called C&S, you know is bad, you know you wont lose weight and that you will feel even worst after doing it....but is so difficult to stop, sometimes I wonder if Im being ridiculous and Im just a weak person that cant control herself,...or if I am actually sick and need professional health.

I WAS bulimic for 35 years. (I'm surprised i'm still alive.) Only in the very beginning i puked for weight control but very soon i couldn't change anything even if i didn't care to gain a 100 lb! When i moved to United States i got addicted to McDonald and noticed one Big Mac was never enough. Sometimes i ate 3-4 and i put on a few pounds. So after i couldn't fit into my new clothing that i didn't even wear yet i got really upset and starved myself to lose weight. Of course when i started eating again i couldn't stop eating anything until i felt so full that i was sure i'm going to explode. I had no choice but to release that food to feel better. So initially i lost the excess weight by starving myself but whenever i ate ANY food i couldn't stop eating until it was all gone and i felt like my stomach will rupture. So it was at this point when my bulimia started. I couldn't stop bingeing and then puking it out no matter what i did. I stayed slim but i was always severely dehydrated and malnourished. I didn't physically feel it yet because i was really young. In my later years i suffered the price big time! (I won't get into that, it's too long) Anyways, it took me 35 years to find out what was the problem. The food itself!!!! When this binging/purging cycle started i was still 20 yrs old, i didn't know how to/and didn't even want to cook. Everything i ate came "ready to eat". In the US everything you buy from the shelf or fast food places, even in better restaurants ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING has MSG added to it which is a very harmful AND ADDICTIVE ingredient. I only found out decades later that MSG changes the brain chemistry somehow. It makes you eat and eat and eat, you don't get the "enough" signal. It has nothing to do with hunger, you feel full but still can't stop if there's more left of the food. So if you want to stay slim or not damaging your stomach seriously, you either become bulimic, or morbidly obese. No in between! I quit eating PROCESSED food and my overeating stopped with it. Of course bulimia has underlying psychological issues too that makes you want to eat at emotional crisis in the first place. But you're addicted to the food already and that has a HUGE part in it! If you get over the cravings, (B complex + Chromium Piccolinate,) take some good multivitamins you'll be able to handle the stress a billion times better. For you girls with PMS magnesium+ B6 is a miracle! And if you eat real food (not addictive chemicals) you won't overeat to the point that you need to throw up. This is my story in a rather long "nutshell". Until i found out about MSG and the other addictive chemicals i was sure that i'll finish my life one day leaning over the toilet bowl. I was totally hopeless ever beating this terrible disorder as long as i lived. I really hope that it could help someone who has the same problems and i know there are a lot of you out there! God bless!

I felt kind of unsetteling when they started speaking my language.. maybe because I don't realize this disease is also occuring in my country and I have never seen a documentary about this subject in my language. Awks.

The advise I can give you is.. think about your dreams. What is it that you want to achieve in life? And what's giving you those awful feelings right now? Are you doing what you love? Are you allowing yourself to do what you love? Or do you have different expectations of yourself? I think that it's important to set your focus, focus on the good thoughts, you are in control of your thoughts, you need to know that, you really are! Energy flows where the attention goes!

wow , never had of that.

Amenorrhea is no longer a diagnostic for anorexia or bulimia. The main difference is that EDNOS do not binge or purge as much as bulimics and they are not underweight.

I watched this video because I am a psych minor and I hope if God allows to let me go into the counseling field. I have known ppl with eating disorders so I was hoping to find something that I could understand a lil bit of their perspectives. This video was very well done despite the language barrier.

What song was that called when she was dancing? It was beautiful, and made me feel more positive about my eating disorder

What's the name of the song in 28:09 please?

I just want to say that Rowena is one of the most beautiful girls I've ever seen...

It's important to focus on.. Doing the things you love.. Things, people, that give you a good feeling.. maybe make some changes You are so worthy, love love love yourself and use all your sensitivity to make your life wonderful and know.. it is possible! my English isn't very well, but I wanted to share with you what is working for me.. I am not there yet, but I am doing very, very well and I am so thankful that one day someone shared this knowledge with me.. so I wanted to share.

I wish we could start to understand that this is not primarily an emotional 'disorder' but addiction. SO much research has been done now on the science of 'food' addiction, which is really processed food addiction...no one binges on broccoli or even whole apples, because your dopamine receptors are not going to get a hit that way...

10:55 Bah, zó herkenbaar.. maar gelukkig verleden tijd. :)

This video is literally me.

is this in german? I understand a little bit cos im learning german

11:13- that is like me...

THE SAD PART ABOUT ME IS I TOLD MY PARENTS I HAVE A EATIN DISORDER. THAT I NEED HELP AND THEY DON'T SEE LIKE I DO. THEY ASSUME I DON'T NEED HELP AND THAT FOR HELP IS A WASTE OF MONEY. 'I JUST FEAR MY FUTURE AND HAVE SO MANY PROBLEMS GOING ON WISH I KNEW A WAY TO STOP BINGING ALL DAY. I FEAR GAINING MORE WEIGHT .

Dutch, the language from the Netherlands, commonly known for Amsterdam and legal weed.

What is ed?

I'm sorry, I'm not much help. You could even try talking to your doctor if you still find the medication isn't helping you, in my experience most doctors will try to treat the depression first, then use CBT to adapt your behaviours. You could try support groups? I know how hard it is though, but you're strong enough to do it if you're already trying to get better. Feel free to message me if you want to talk. Sorry again, I'm pretty useless with advice :/ Sara xxxx

Yes it's Dutch :)

Real

Would of been cool to tell me it was in a different language...

its netherlands

haha its in dutch and i didn't evrn know that ednos is called aos in dutch

professional help*

Anyone knows the song, please?

Dutch?

Whoa dutch

What language are they speaking, Russian, German?

is this Dutch?

I have a serious doubt!! I see that most of the western people are suffering from some kind of psycoligical disorder. I m not degrading them but I wonder why it is very rare in India. Indians do suffer from diseases but these are very rare. Especially eating disorders are very common in americans. I love to watch english movies alot and i noticed that most of the hollywood celebs have some kind of psycological disorders. I am very interested in learning about psycology and psycological disorders. plz tell me what affects you more!! Is it heridity , film industry or some untold past abuse

what is ednos?

:(

its dutch :)

I am a Christian women, 32years old I have a husband and 3 children, I have struggled with eating disorders my whole life and I believe that the only cure is God, when we turn to him he can break us free from any addiction. I encourage anyone suffering from addictions to turn to God. xx

I don't think it's always invisible... I'm bulimic and I binge and purge all the time, but I do it well enough that I've gotten down to 90lbs from 135

Men's eating disorders are caused by different factors than women's eating disorders. I notice that even now, there is an attempt to marginalize women's eating disorders because I believe that people are really beginning to open their eyes to how the modeling industry, society (read: men's expectations) and media images affect women. I support the fat acceptance movement even though I don't want to be fat personally, because it is a slap in the face to this nonsense towards women.