"There's a hole in the world. Feels like we ought to have known." Such an incredible line.

Seven words reduce me to tears without fail every time: "We're not supposed to move the body." Devastating.

"Profound depression isn't really measured by how bad you feel, but by how little you feel." I have never had someone so perfectly describe depression, at least how I have experienced it.

The moment that always gets me is the end of Dead Things, when Buffy is sobbing into Tara's lap and begging Tara not to forgive her

"I Will Remember You"...the entire last scene Buffy and Angel have together before they erase the day. Lots of wine and crying occur when I watch this one, but I love it so. One of the most beautiful episodes for me

I suffer from depression. That comes in the form of numbness. Buffy and Angel are the go-to shows for me that help me realize the power there is in feeling. These shows have literally saved my life before.

I made it with (mostly) dry eyes, but Fred's childish last words broke me. At least you spared us Buffy's heart wrenching "Mommy"

I've always thought season 6 of Buffy was the only depiction of depression that I have truly been able to resonate with.

While Willow's performance in "The Body" is absolutely spectacular, the bit that always gets me is Anya's breakdown. There's something in it (and her performance) that so perfectly captures the impenetrability of loss -- the way it is so entirely inexpressible, impossible to understand. Here's a copy/paste of the scene / monologue I'm referring to: Anya: Are they gonna cut the body open? Willow: Oh my God! Would you just... stop talking? Just... shut your mouth! Please! Anya: What am I doing? Willow: How can you act like that? Anya: Am I supposed to be changing my clothes a lot? Is that the helpful thing to do? Xander: Guys- Willow: The way you behave- Anya: Nobody will tell me. Willow: Because it's not okay for you to be asking these things! Anya (crying): But I don't understand! I don't understand how this all happens. How we go through this. I mean, I knew her, and then she's, there's just a body, and I don't understand why she just can't get back in it and not be dead anymore! It's stupid! It's mortal and stupid! And, and Xander's crying and not talking, and, and I was having fruit punch, and I thought, well Joyce will never have any more fruit punch, ever, and she'll never have eggs, or yawn or brush her hair, not ever, and no one will explain to me *why*.

The ending of Tabula Rasa was a total tear jerker for me, with Michelle Branch playing in the background and Willow and Tara breaking up, Giles leaving Buffy, Buffy feeling so isolated that she seeks refuge with Spike. So much sorrow for so many characters.

Four words: "Our rats are low."

That moment in Angel "I Will Remember You" episode when Buffy learns that her and Angel can't be together and she won't remember their time together. It makes me tear up when she learns that they only have a minute to say goodbye. ugh makes my heart ache!

Hands down best Buffy/Angel moment ever is in the Buffy/Angel crossover episode that deals with them finally being forever and the story ending, it is called "I Will Remember You, Part 1 and 2". The day has to be swallowed up and Buffy says "I'll never forget" but she does and so does everyone else. Only Angel remembers the day, forever. PS-- Also, Sarah got so into the scene that she really started crying and David messed up his line and said "Sarah, please" to try and get SMG to stop crying.

"The big bad for the sixth season is desperation itself, and how we deal with it through self medication or self destruction" Spot on. As a adolescent teenager I hated S6's lack of cohesive structure, it felt very wishy washy with no credible threat ever built up until Willow on the cusp of the finale. Having watched it back since as a man with fully developed neuroses it instantaneously has become my favorite season. Considering the layered psychology you incorporate into these reviews, I can't wait to hear your impressions of it.

For me the most gut-wrenching and tear-jerking scene is when Xander talks Dark Willow down and she collapses into his arms. His repeated affirmations that he will always love her are bringing her back to herself, but she doesn't want to come back because she doesn't want to accept the grief of Tara's death. So she keeps fighting him, until she has no magic left and resorts to punching him with her fists and then finally starts sobbing. So powerful.

I seriously don't know how many times Alyson Hannigan made me cry in that show. She's just so talented in her role, she just kills it. And it is why Willow is my favorite character.

While I'm not a Willow/Kenedy fan by any means, I think the killer in me is a great episode that never really gets that much attention. When Willow falls to her knees and begs Tara to come back and apologizes for ¨killing her¨ (she was never gone she was with me) my heart breaks.

Dude, Buffy's "Who's gonna take care of us?" speech in "Forever". That one gets me every. damn. time. Also Cordelia's goodbye in "You're Welcome". That's like a dagger in the heart. It took years for me to not cry whenever I heard Anya's speech in "The Body". And I wouldn't consider it a tear-jerker moment because I was actually too shocked by it to cry, but the end of "Seeing Red," "Your shirt" I'd give that an honorable mention. I got a bit choked up by #3 while watching this video. Nice work making a girl cry Ian! :P

"you are my sunshine, my only sunshine" - "you make me happy..." that scene is just brutal.. ;_;

sometimes I ask myself "why don't I go and rewatch Angel?" and then I remember, "oh yeah, I don't want to cry like a baby right now" Wesley and Fred are so god damn tragic :l

Fred and Wesley...oh, man. Excuse while I spend the rest of the day in a perpetual state of sobbing.

Angel, I will remember you... That episode kills me every time I watch it. The last scene between Buffy and Angel is like a gut punch.

Any of the ones with Fred were excruciating. She was such a sweet, lovable character.

Doyle's death always hits me real hard as he was one of my favorite characters in Angel. Doyle's story is a very underrated one in my opinion and knowing what happened to Glenn Quinn, the actor who portrayed Doyle, makes his departure all the more devastating. Cordelia's death in Your Welcome is another one that hits me hard as she and Angel share one kiss together and then she is gone, she died in her coma and Angel is alone and emotionally devastated once again.

As soon as you got to Fred's death, I lost it. Out of either show her death made me absolutely break down into a blubbering mess. And seeing it again brought those feelings all back. Another fantastic video, but I need to go wipe my eyes now.

"Chosen" gets me every time, because it's the end, because Anya, because I'm saying goodbye to all my favorite characters. I guess I'm a happy cryer though, and when Buffy shares her power, I can't help but cry at the sense of completeness of the show as it illustrates so well what the show itself did to so many girls, me included: empowering them. On the not-happy crying side, I would have "I Will Remember You" way up there.

I feel that Spike really did love Buffy, and I think the almost rape needed to happen for their relationship to develop. PLEASE DO NOT CRUCIFY ME JUST YET. After Spike admitted his love for Buffy he didn't want to hurt her. He believes he has enough control over himself that he won't; he thinks he can continue to be the "big bad" and still have her. Yes he fought with her, but fighting had always been something he got off on and honestly sometimes Buffy did too (who kissed who during the fight in the abandoned house?). They are so equal in strength and power their fights, are as Spike likes to call them a "dance". She is so powerful it would take a lot for him to hurt her that way. When he almost rapes her he realizes just how much of a monster he is; he realizes he is still a danger to Buffy no matter how much he wants to think he can change. To quote him "It's the chip. It won't LET me be a monster. And I CAN'T be a man. I'm nothing" It shows him finally realizing something has to change. In the Spike and Buffy scene from the video Buffy ask's him why he got his soul and he says "Why does a man do what he mustn't, for her, to be hers. To be the kind of man who would nev-" try to rape her? He can't even say the word. When Spike talks about Drusilla his language is always very possessive using words like "belong" and "mine". This was the love he was able to show as a vampire but here with his soul he says "To be HERS"

The Willow/Tara moment is beautiful and important, but Anya's speech in the Body is, for me, one of the defining moments of the whole series and perhaps her character's finest moment.

As a person who lost his mother at 15 "The Body" speaks to me on a personal level. The crafting of the emotions is simply superb. Xanders anger, Willows want to support without stopping for her own grief, Dawns denial (that was me), Buffys shock, Tara trying to support by bringing up her own grief and then remembering this isn't about her, and I cry every time Anya shares her confusion. And still, even though Tara dies randomly in the most painful way, Freds death was the hardest for me. It's the slow hollowing, the fact that while watching the episode it looks like one of those times the group will save her and everything will be fine right? and the constant reminder that she's gone by Illirias presence

i NEVER realised that theme of split personalities and how dawn fitted into it until now Joss WHedon gotta stop messin me up like this fuck

I loved the scene in the church with Spike -- one of the best uses of imagery around. I don't remember which site had the essay, but the comment on Spuffy S7 was this: Buffy always blamed herself for Angel losing his soul, and looked at herself badly because of it. Now, she is worth the regaining of Spike soul. It makes her see herself and her worth differently. There's nothing about "Restless" that I don't love, but I guess it wouldn't really make the tragic list. Maybe a nice, refreshing list of most kick-butt fight scenes? :D

"I KILLED Angel!" when Buffy is arguing with Xander about whether or not to slay Anya. Her explanation shows that even after all those years, her relationship with Angel was the most important and losing him was the greatest loss. It was a short moment in an episode about something else but my heart felt it big time.

The one that comes to mind that wasn't on the list was "I will remember you" from Angel Season 1. One of the most heartbreaking moments in both series to me.

To me, this is one of my top 3 scenes to cry on in Buffy "I love you" "Heh, no you don't. But thanks for saying it. Now go! I wanna see how it ends" Everything, the music when Buffy takes his hand and fire comes out, Spike's eyes when he finally gets that sentence after 2 years waiting for it, his realization that it's probably BS but getting to hear it was good enough at this point and the fact that he laughed with that smug face as he was being diminished was so fucking beautiful an ending to this character that I was just left there speechless. I only wish I can be like that when my time comes.

Genuinely stunned that Becoming wasn't higher - or that I Will Remember You wasn't featured at all. But top pick for no.1. What a heart breaker - and I also think that Wesley is given the greatest arc in television history. Also Buffy being given the only perfect evening of her life in The Prom should also be considered.

After being a long time fan of Buffy, I finally finished Angel today. I didn't realise how much I loved Wesley until he was gone. Definitely agree with your entire list on this one!

Great list. Another moment that makes me feel everytime I watch it: the song "something to sing about" in Once More With Feeling. Buffy admitting her depression to her friends, and telling them they're to blame for it("So that's my refrain. I live in hell, since I've been expelled from heaven"). The look of horror and sadness on Willow's face ,realizing what she's done. And then Spike's lines stopping her from killing herself("Life's not a song. Life isn't bliss, life is just this, it's living"). At least the episode ends on a semi good note. And then another intense Buffy/Spike moment in "Dead things" when Spike tries to stop her from getting herself arrested, causing her to lash out at him and beat him up. Very similar to the Faith/Angel moment.

Oz and Willow's break-up always makes me cry when I watch it. As soon as Allison's lower lip begins to tremble, I tear up.

I'd like to see a top 10 ten laugh out loud episodes list. For me the Buffybot episode and Smile Time would be near the top of the list while Him would be number one. "I know how I'll win AJ. I'l kill the principal." Just the sight of Buffy swerving into the school parking lot in her mom's old jeep, only to hop out and draw the rocket launcher she used to kill the Judge was a highlight of the series and a high point for Season 7. Robin Wood's casual paperwork as the Slayer walks into the background and aims a bazooka at his head was priceless. The Bugs Bunny/Scooby Doo style struggle over the weapon as Xander and Spike tackle her and run away was amazing.

The end of the Angel episode "I Will Remember You". I can't believe it wasn't included. It absolutely destroys me every time. Given, I've been a Bangel shipper since day one, but it also makes my Spuffy loving brother ugly cry as well. It's the episode we refer to as "the one that cannot be named". Beautiful. Heartbreaking. Soul crushing. Why couldn't Joss let them be happy, dammit?! :(

Alison Hannigan could totally knock it out of the park with her tears on this show. Something she hasnt been able to do on the HIMYM farce. Man she could destroy me as Willow The Fred and Wesley scene raises the bar though. A soft spot for me and what choke me up is the love spike has for buffy

Cant believe you missed the episode of Angel where Angel is made human, and he and Buffy have a couple days together, but he chooses to get his vampire powers back to protect her, but the cost is that time is rolled back, and she never knows about their time together.

"You're Welcome" I fee like it's Cordelia's "The Gift". It almost makes you forget about the character Assassination of season 4.

"Please Wesley why can't I stay" has to be number 1 for me. Also I love the WIllow and Tara kiss in The Body, but was sweet and beautiful moment in a very brutal episode while Anya's speech about Joyce in the same episode is gut wrenching. Just curious why you chose the former over the latter?

This is the greatest series in the history of KZfaq... maybe the whole galaxy.

So torn, I did sob uncontrollably at "Would you like me to lie to you now?" and I hadn't even really been keeping up with Angel when I first saw it. The raw emotion behind that performance was enough to affect me. However, The Gift has always been my number one emotional episode: just hearing the music can start my eyes to well up. Buffy's sacrifice and last words to Dawn are just gut-wrenching. Also - how could you leave off Anya's monologue during The Body? It's the one time I truly get an sympathy towards her character and just seeing her exasperation and confusion at the whole mortal coil always brings on a good cry. Loved the Top 10, keep 'em coming!

You should have titled this one NSFW because I watched it at work during my lunch and nearly teared up in front of my colleagues.

Once again, a great list. Well thought out, well described. Other Top 10 Ideas 1. Top 10 Actiony Episodes from Buffy/Angel 2. Top 10 Fight Scenes from Buffy/Angel 3. Top 10 So bad its good episodes from Buffy/Angel 4. Top 10 Character Based Episodes from Buffy/Angel 5. Top 10 WORST Episodes from Buffy/Angel

Angel, Season 5. "Oh, and you're welcome." This scene right here is the biggest punch in the gut.

You're very profound and you speak beautifully. You should be an author

I agree with this list SOOOO much. I thought that, as we neared number 1, Wesley's death wouldn't make the cut. It makes me cry more than any other Buffyverse moment. Then it was your number 1, and I was so excited. Mainly because you word things so eloquently. I wanted your input on my favorite character, and his death. And you delivered beautifully. Thank you.

I kinda feel the same about The Body. I love it but I can't get myself to really watch it. It's just so emotionally draining. But I do love the moment between Willow and Tara. I think it really shows how important Tara is as a character. Even the moment in the hospital where Tara talks to Buffy.

Although I favor Buffy over Angel as a show, Angel was more heart wrenching to me. I cried and felt grief during season five seeing three members of Angel's team die. It was non stop and I cried during this show MUCH more compared to Buffy. I felt so much heart ache for these characters and what they were going through. I'm still not over the deaths and I don't think I ever will get over them.

The episode after A Hole in the World is another one that is heartbreaking. I was already crying during Fred's death but the entire episode afterwards is just heart wrenching. Especially the final scene where she leaves home. Also, another (Angel) episode that had me absolutely bawling You're Welcome. Not because it was sad, per say, but just because of Cordelia. Losing a character that had been there since the very beginning of Buffy and who had gone through such a drastic, magnificent change (season four of Angel aside) was practically traumatic.

Definitely loved all of these moments! One of my personal favorites is Xander's yellow crayon speech, because I think Alyson has the greatest ability of anyone on the show to reduce me into a puddle as well. Her breaking down the tough, almost soulless exterior she built up after Tara's death, and just falling apart into her closest friend's arms is heartbreaking already. However, I love this scene so much because Xander very rarely gets scenes that make you cry and in the midst of all of his flaws and stupid actions, he does something like this and reminds you of what a great friend he is. It reminds me of the Xander we see in The Zeppo. Anyways, Xander's actually had many really good speeches (the extraordinary speech he gives to Dawn and the one he gives to Buffy telling her to go after Riley if she loves him) and the yellow crayon speech is so well done. So simple, like Xander himself. I love it. Also, as much as I love love love Willow's thing about the blue shirt in The Body (can you tell Aly Hannigan is my favorite actor?) AND her beautifully crafted kiss with Tara, as well as the many many raw and heart wrenching performances in the episode (Buffy, Dawn, Giles, etc.), Anya's speech has me bawling within seconds. Emma Caulfield really proved how amazing of an actress she is and how versatile and complex the character of Anya had become and would still evolve to be. I will also never get over Doyle's death in Angel season 1 because in the rocky start of the show, where I was still trying to distinguish any possible difference between Angel and Cordy's characters from Buffy (they hadn't really developed much yet), Doyle was the most interesting character and I would have loved to see more of him. I grew REALLY attached within those first few episodes. Plus, his death had one of the most pivotal repercussions on the show. So yea, that's my input. Your channel is awesome and it was the reason I got into Buffy and Angel (I literally finished both in a month or so). I really love the episode guides and I actually wish my college had these Buffy Studies/Whedon Studies I keep hearing about on the internet because I would love to look into the writing even more. I think a feminist studies class on Buffy would be a dream to take.

I always found Buffy's performance in Innocence where she lies on her bed crying to the most dramatic IMO. It's most likely because as a girl I can relate exactly to these feelings and actions since I've been there. Holding his friendship ring and bursting into tears.. I'm not sure how guys handle the end of relationships, but I've pretty much done exactly what Buffy does in that scene.

Dude, that's not ok. You can't just do that. You can't just make a grown man cry with a youtube video, that's not cool. Great list though, and I completely agree with what you said at the start - That if you're feeling emotionally numb, this is the show to snap you out of it. You definitely picked the best of the emotional episodes. If I had to pick one that you missed, I think I'd pick the Bangel scene at the end of Amends. I definitely get a bit teary when she says "I tried to make you go away... I killed you and it didn't help and I hate it! I hate that it's so hard..."

The yellow crayon speech is the one that absolutely guts me.

I've been living in Japan for four years. It may sound dumb, but it gets really lonely sometimes, even after going out with a bunch of friends. You have no idea how many times I've let this video play while going to sleep after such nights... Like a far away comforting lullabye. Thank you so much for sharing your love for these two terrific shows. Your videos reach farther than you may think.

The Angel episode where he becomes human, and has to turn back time, damn! that last minute with Buffy just floors me, I get kinda choked up just thinking about it

Damn you! Thanks to you, I'm now a puddle. Great list. How about your funniest Buffyverse episodes, to balance it out? I need a hug.

Well, that's started my morning off with a lot of tears! Completely agree with #1.

crying. getting myself together. crying again. and repeat... have to watch buffy again. for the 10000000th time.

When Buffy is brought back after the sacrifice, and she pretends to be happy.......that was soul crushing.

When I watched The Gift for the first time, I knew that Buffy was brought back to life, so I wasn't sad that she died. But the *incredible* acting of Michelle Trachtenberg, James Marsters, and Alyson Hannigan reduced me to sobbing.

Angel - "You're Welcome"

Thank you for this. In a low place at the moment, you reminded me that watching relevant buffy episodes always helps me. Also thank you for including the faith and angel moment. That always kills me. An incredibly moving and beautiful scene.

My heart breaks at the beauty and pain. Bangel FOREVER.

"I love you" Buffy "No you don't, but thanks for saying it" spike

I Will Remember You? Was kind of surprised that was left out. SMG's face is the epitome of devastation.

Also "Wesley, why cant I stay?" - 5 of the most heart wrenching words I've ever heard. 😢 did wish you had included anya's breakdown in the Body though. Unless I missed it

Great list! Another episode that always makes me cry is Dead Things, especially that last scene when Buffy finally tells someone about her and Spike. Watching her beg not to be forgiven, seeing the shame on her face and Tara just wanting to help her... ugh. Gets me every time.

My story. I began watching Buffy during the second year it was on TV. I was hooked. My grief. The only man in my life who could order all of my dinners, who loved me unconditionally (and I reciprocated), and had been my best friend for 35 years died in January, 2001. My very drunk beloved brother accidentally shot himself in front of me. Funeral, organ donation, and informing my parents. I didn't know if I could go back to watching Buffy but I did. Primarily as an ode to him since we watched reruns of those old black and white horror movies. Think Dracula, Wolfman, and Frankenstein. Time flies, "in the blink of an eye" for it is now March, 2017. I no longer think about him every day, which is amazing. So I shall revert to season 2. "Lie to me..." Yes, the world is a good place. The good guys always win. Puppies and sunshine, etc. "Liar." But I would say, do it again. "Lie to me." Thank you for allowing me to share. 🐕🐩🐈🦄🌞

I'm waiting for two quotes "...and no one will tell me why!" "Why can't I stay?"

My god I love your videos. You and your big brain have read so much more into each series than I possibly could that I feel I've missed so much despite the fact that I've watch each series multiple times. Thank you

It took me over a year to find your video, but I have just watched it, finally, and all I can say is... Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. It is so wonderful to watch such a finely crafted video about the emotional complexities of Buffyverse. Like you, it changed my life.

You are absolutely right. I discovered Buffy when I was deep in the throes of depression as well, and it is what helped me reconnect with my emotions. I think I could use that again, and maybe that's why I've been watching the crap out of it and these videos lately. Thank you for providing them. Also, I read that book by Mark Field you suggested and it was fantastic. It's nice to see hints of his analysis in here; it's clear you see things similarly. Congratulations on #50.

Our top two are the same, though I would have as my number 3 the "I'll never forget" speech from Angel "I Will Remember You". Also I would've had Anya's "I don't understand" speech instead of Willow and Tara's moment together in that scene of The Body.

I REALLY love this video of yours! Especially your intro talking about how "Buffy the Vampire Slayer" deals about human emotions and how you yourself experienced great sense of grief. I think what makes "Buffy" so great is that you can identify with the characters and their emotions. To me there were several cases where I could relate to what the characters were feeling whether this was feelings of being lonely, isolated, rejected or whatever. It gave me some sense of comfort knowing that I'm not the only one who went through this. The show works in several levels and this is one of them.

I just wanted you to know how much I love your whole Buffy & Angel series. I finally have a place I can obsess about the buffyverse and I just really appreciate your channel!

I love this video so much, I've re watched it so many times I can't count them anymore.

Great #1! Fresley! That scene is so heartbreaking.

One of the most beautiful intro's I've ever seen to a list like this. Thank you.

Your analysis of the Buffyverse is pretty astounding! I really enjoy your videos.

God, I just want to listen you talk about Buffy ALL THE TIME.

Your videos are incredible.... I sincerely want to thank you!!!

I think I was near tears at at least four separate times watching this. Good job, you managed to just interrupt the moment and move on to the next in a manner as to stop me from completely breaking down. In one of the comments below I read the monologue from Anya (The Body) and it actually broke me. I could hear her delivery in my head. It's heartbreaking really because she's reflecting a child's thoughts on losing someone they held close. Which is something I can relate to. There are just so many layers to the reactions from everyBODY in that episode. I can't wait to see your talk on it. I'm currently watching your guide side-by-side with my latest rewatch of the series and have only gotten past season 1. Loving it so far. I'm on season 5 of Angel tho so you have some catching up to do but keep taking your time because the quality of the content you're providing is more than worth the wait.

It's amazing how beautiful the cinematography on Buffy was. It still holds up and your brilliant insights go so well with the images that this video is a masterpiece.

I have a friend who to this day is still sad/mad that Wesley died

I love these top 10 videos! Not only do i like hearing ur favorites but u remind me of scenes ive forgotten about! I completely blocked Fred dying in my memory and omg yes i love Wesleys whole character arc in both series. Faith yelling im bad in the alley to Angel ugh such a good scene

I watched these shows back when they were originally on the air. Watching this list you put together brought it all back. There really have not been many other shows that have had the ability to reduce me to tears like these shows, The Body especially always hits hard. Might just have to go start watching these again.

Your insight into the shows is awesome I am so glad I found your channel

Darn You!!!! I'm a complete crying dork mess, but I still loved it. Ty for these videos on my favorite shows. Great job!

Oh and I Will Remember be brings me to tears and breaks my heart every time without fail. Joss really puts us through the ringer. Genius.

This video is wonderful, how you breakdown your top 10 episodes is so interesting, but my favourite part is the opening couple of minutes, so profound & accurate!

Great Video! I'm watching Angel series again and now I'm going have to go back and watch Buffy again because of your video. Thank you for pointing out the deep understanding of the human heart that is revealed in this series. You heightened the respect I already had for this series. I'm going to watch all your vids now!

"your welcome" Shattered my soul when angel turned around and she was gone. ToT

a great list, I would only add Anya's I don't understand rant in the '' bodies episode'' Xanders speech to Dawn in potential (season 7) ''you're not special you're extraordinary and when Johnathon gives Buffy the class protector award. more top ten (top ten Anya moments)

I couldn't make it through this video without crying. Thanks for making it; your analyses are always wonderful to hear :)

I can't believe a simple list video made me cry so hard. What you are doing with these guides is fantastic. I am so looking forward to any more videos you make of whatever sort. Buffy and Angel have always been my favorite TV shows but listening to you talk about them has brought the realization that, more than that, they are two of the best works of art I'm ever likely to experience. What happened to Tara and the stark untheatrical way it was done all by itself makes Seeing Red one of the most heartbreaking episodes. I'd argue that Cordelia's character arc is the best and most unexpected on both shows and Faith's runs a close second. Anya's whole story was brilliant and devastating too even though I hate they way they wrote her final scene.