This one hits like a ton of bricks. Impostor syndrome and depression are a lethal combo, and I hope it gets a little easier as time goes on.

i can relate to the feeling of wanting to start over and comparing yourself to everyone around you, and wondering what I'd be if i didn't have depression and anxiety holding me back. very powerful lyrics and a tasty jam

I'm so glad that she's actually singing in her songs now. The instrumentals slap, dont get me wrong, but her voice is so unique and fits beautifully with the instrumentals. Maybe we can get a Mrs. Mediocre cover soon but I'm not begging. Keep up the great work Annie!

"I look a way for a second and a year's gone by." That hits home to me. I, myself, can't believe how quick time went. It feels like last year I was a kid finally happy that school was over so I could enjoy games.

it’s nice how you manage to get the rhythm to fit with the lyrics thing. gets the song a good touch tbh

Another amazing song by the myth, the legend, atsuover. Unlike myths though she is real and a very talented, amazing person.

This woman makes mods, music, animations, art; yet suffers despite being so amazing. We love you atsu! Never forget that!

honestly, people just say "you were lying when you said you were bad at singing", but imma just straight up say it, your voice is beatiful, it's very soothing, you sing extremely well, your songs are amazing

She always makes the most relatable songs that sound so good at the same time- I love this so much

These songs are great since the artist (atsuover) isn't some rich high-class person or those overly famous singers but is overall still in a normal living life like most of us, with similar issues or problems.

The one thing that always surprises me when it comes to her songs, is that MOST OF THEM ARE IN MAJOR KEYS LIKE, HOW DO YOU PACK THIS MUCH EMOTION AND THIS MUCH SORROW INTO A MAJOR

Although I never or possibly could never talk to Atsuover, I really appreciate her entirely. She's like a family member, which is unique to me.

Soon, this song will be remembered as nostalgic or old So let's just enjoy it for now

The art is really cool, I really like the glitch effects. I am still wondering how you come up with all those lyrics and ideas, I am amazed. Your voice absolutely beautiful and you incorporated the leitmotivs nicely again. Keep up the great work Anne, I am rooting for you. And yes, I would highly appreciate the song on Spotify, it's a real banger.

God, I just cannot get over how good your voice sounds. It’s so perfectly edited, along with the instrumental. A great way to make my day better than it already is!!

The fact that this song is so relatable makes me fear you can just see into our souls and make a song about it.

i was in art class today when we were starting a new project. at one point i stood up and started walking around looking at other people’s concepts. they were all so more adventurous than mine, with clear effort and imagination shining through. i knew at that moment that not only would my own project fail to measure up, but that i would never have the energy to stretch outside my comfort zone. i was stuck lagging behind everyone else, held back by my lack of motivation and the feeling that i’d already hit my peak years ago before depression claimed its hold on my life. it was an incredibly miserable feeling, and at that moment, i’d never wanted to drop out more. i wanted to go back in time and pick a different school, a different hobby, a different life. this song speaks to me.

Song’s great, especially with the lyrics and how relatable and toned it is. I miss the good old times of being young and easy minded about things, and I get frustrated with every mistake, no matter the significance, here in the moment. Amazing job on this one, Anne.

I don’t know what it is about this song, but it absolutely haunts me. It keeps me up at night by the sheer gorgeousness this song possesses, and something about Anne’s voice matched with it makes it even more life-ruining, but in the best way possible. It’s such a powerful, yet fairly simple song, that keeps me up at night, replaying it over and over again in my head, and surprisingly, I never get sick of it. It’s powerful, terrifying, honest, anything I’d really want to hear in a song. And the COLOURS. I have synthesia, and I can basically hear colours. The colour I hear from this song is one of my personal favourite colours in any song. I normally get this colour from songs in the key of Gm, Bb, F, or anything that sounds close. That colour is a very dark blue. Not quite navy, but nowhere near the exact middle tone. Most dark blue songs haunt me, and many of them make me cry when I listen to them, such as another dark blue atsuover song, Sleepover. I’m honestly in love with this song, Anne’s voice, the melody, and everything that makes it feel complete. Now, pardon me as I loop this another million times. Also this was released A DAY BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY so I feel blessed by that.

🥺 Song - awesome. 🥺 Lyrics - amazing. 🥺 Whole meaning - FANTASTICAL!

As a university student I resonate with this song too much. My expectations too high thus making my failures hurt even more and putting all the blame on myself

Why does every song you make, legit relates to my life and who I am? Also, yes I'd want this on Spotify because I have a playlist of your songs

I can literally relate to this, sometimes I can just get irritated about my problems and I feel hopeless about everything wishing that just once I could fix all those problems just to be happy

Your music never fails to amaze me, and I can always find some way to relate. You’ve made so much improvement!

Her songs either make me laugh hysterically or gut punch my emotions. Either way, my stomach hurts.

This song is great, the beat sounds good, and the idea of wanting to start over and change things about you is a thought think a lot of people think of. Overall this is one of my new favorites of yours

Oh my gosh. This song is so amazing, all of the thoughts and pain are laid out on a platter for the audience; however, the message is able to be interpreted in so many ways to fit different people. (p.s. I NEED THIS ON SPOTIFY. It's not only powerful lyrically, it's catchy melody wise :D)

The songs you make are so relatable, sometimes even reminding me of the things that my family does to me. But in a sense of an escape from the memories. Like a sense of comfort in a way. The different videos and songs you make i'll just listen to sometimes as a nice detour from them. Long story short, thank you for everything.

I like the rhythm of this song and how it sometimes glitches. Very creative.

LYRICS: I look away for a second and a year’s gone by And I realize how long I’ve been alive Back in the day as a kid I couldn’t fathom how I’d Live a life before I killed the lights But now I’m here You’d think that I’d be over it by now But my problems keep mutating It’s getting frustrating Reaching my goals was a mere mirage And now I’m stuck here self sabotaging Even though I’m where I thought I wouldn’t be… You’re so young, you’re so grand I’m not old, but I’m bland If I could, I’d get a Second chance and go back in time I’d finally make a change Take away all my pain And that way, I could be At least be half as good as you today (I could at least be half as good as you today) It doesn’t make any sense to be irrational With how I see the gap between you and me ‘Cause some are born with a gift to be a natural But that doesn’t mean that we won’t get there eventually Where would I be without these thoughts inside me? Wings spread in the limelight Flying towards some new heights but Feels to heavy, but they’re too light to kill me Even so I’m where i thought I wouldn’t be… You’re so young, you’re so grand I’m not old, but I’m bland If I could, I’d get a Second chance and go back in time I’d finally make a change Take away all my pain And that way, I could be At least be half as good as you today (Today, today, today)

Oh man this one is a vibe-- especially since I've been studying and doing some work. The beat is just so calming Wonderful job as always Anne. Seriously, all of your songs are amazing

J’adore tes vidéos ! Tu et mon idole ! Merci tu et incroyable j’adore ton travail tu m’inspire beaucoup Xd c dommage que je sois français mais je tiens à dire que tu m’aide beaucoup et tu m’impressionnes toujours autant MERCI ATSUOVER

Dang... I really love this. The lyrics are deep, but the beat is nice and pretty vibey. I don't think I caught any motifs of any songs in this one, so it might be a truly original song. I love this.✨ Whoops, I was wrong. There's a lotta motifs in this, I was just too deaf to hear them. Still an awesome song.✨

Why is it any time Annie makes a song I have to theorise it to put it into lore

I feel like I can relate to this song 100 percent. Ever since I started 6th grade, I was not the same kid. I was more self conscious, I drowned myself in too much work, I was always stressed out, and I wasn't confident in myself. And I'm still like this to this day, so I can deeply relate.

Omg, I love this! the beat and lyrics are just amazing, oh and the art is fantastic! 💜

this is one of the most beautiful songs I’ve ever heard. the vocals are incredible. the beat is amazing. i relate to these lyrics a lot, this literally bought me to tears. i don’t think you know how much your music means to me. you’re just amazing, anne. i have so much respect for you. keep it up. lots of love to you.

Bland you're seriously going to call yourself bland look at everything you've accomplished how much you've grown from being just some SFM FNAF person with a scout loadout to your own f****** Avatar you have accomplished more than most people could ever hope on KZfaq So I'm just trying to say is great work but don't beat yourself up about not accomplishing as much as you want you've still got time don't let those voices get you down I'm rooting for you this is SkagMeat signing out

"You're so young you're so grand" "I'm not old but i'm bland" I feel Exactly like that aswell

Strugling with exams and test this semester has been hard but this, THIS made my day.

Listened to this with headphones. Wow, just wow, this is super pleasing to listen. I also think you may wouldn't be so successful if you hadn't all those thoughts because even if they are bad or hurtful a lot of your art is inspired by them and your venting. A lot of people do relate to you and that's kind of good. You are amazing and I do hope someday you can you get a little better or even can make a positive venting maybe someday(?) You aren't alone at least, good luck!

This reminds me how I'm no longer in the 2010 decade, everything was just video games and friends I made along the way, but people change. People grew up and we went our separate ways. And how all my interests and goals are drifting away. I still have time but I've wasted so much time. And at the end of the day I'm not really fulfilled with myself. There's so much time I wish I could've gotten back. Even though your desc says you feel this song is selfish, it's really touching to me. Thank you for sharing this ♥♥♥

I just realised a year has gone by since this released and that first line hit like a brick because if it

This song is really fantastic. The fact that you are able to make songs that are legitimately relatable, it’s amazing. Please never give up and keep going with this! 👍🏽

You can do it. don't worry, There always be people out there for you including me.😊😊😊💝

this song feels like a hug when you'r crying. its comforting but solemn. feels like a pat on the shoulder when you're breaking down. thank you for sharing this to the world miss. it has comforted many people, and i hope you come to defeat that voice in your head that says your not good enough.

this one really hit hard. just got back from speaking with my therapist and had some...heavy realisations. this song conveys a big part of how I feel and I really needed that. thank you, Atsuover. you're an inspiration and the person we sometimes need to put our feelings into song.

I relate to this song so bad.. Like, I'm an artist who's practicing on drawing body anatomy and i always tend to compare myself to other artists who is far more skilled in drawing better body anatomy on characters.. I'd get jealous and mad very fast because, back at elementary, i was influenced and titled as the "talented and cool kid" for being the "best artist" in my class. so, any one of my classmates inside my class who's getting more love and support than i do for doing a project, drawing, etc, makes me feel dull inside that i would start hating and blaming myself for not being *perfect enough* for them... I just hate myself for it too much, it hurts my heart inside.. But, my jealousy will always keep on going no matter how many tears i let out of my eyes.. I know the world doesn't revolve around me.. I'm sorry.

I saw many times people saying "i would like to go back and ____" i think that sometimes, but if I had the chance to do it, i would not change anything, we are what we are today, because of what happend to us, and is what make us ourselfs

I'm so thankful to have found this song. This one and Missing You are all I listen to lately, as I've been looking for songs like them for years, if not a whole decade. Nothing else has been as relatable, as soul-piercingly true. Even if it's difficult, thank you for expressing your truths. Means more than I & a lot of others can hope to say. 💜

“Feels too heavy, but they’re too light to kill me” This is the hardiest hitting line I’ve ever heard from you, you think about ending it all constantly but your holding it together just enough to keep going, and you don’t know why or how. Its a place so hard to get out of, and a state of mind I wouldn’t want anyone to be in.

Please put this on spotify. I love this and would love for it to be on my playlist! :D

This is so chill I love the vibe it gives off your singing is amazingg

I'm loving the visual and musical call back to making day. All of your songs have a variation of the same lite motif and it makes all of them feel connected. Very creative!

this might sound weird but i really get a lot of inspiration from atsu she reminds me myself though a better version of me unlike me , she can do 3 things at once and nailing it good work keep up finally if u see this atsu you are the best thanks for helping me out at life with all your content

this is so good! this is so different from anything you've done before, but it is still so good! i love this!

The instrumental goes hard, hope we can get in the orange cloud (yk what I meant) soon!

litterally listened to this once and its already stuck in my head, oh my god this is amazing

"But my problems keep mutating, it's getting frustrating. Reaching my goals was a mere merage and now I'm stuck here self sabotaging-" why does that sound so god-damned COOL

yo i just woke up and got this notif, and i’m so glad i did, i think this is my new favorite song from you. Seriously excellent job Anne.

Whoa Anne that's amazing :0 This song is extremely relatable, I love this! Amazing! Keep up the amazing work and remember to take your time :)

Thank you for this. I related far too much. I had been struggling with extreme depression, and suicidal thoughts. Whenever I hear your songs, I always find them pleasant, with a touch of bittersweet. It allows me to know I'm not the only one going through depression, anxiety, and self doubt. Thank you Atsuover, this is truly amazing.

I literally can’t be the only one who sees Anne’s songs in their recommended (again) and still just has a listen, I don’t do this for anyone else you just genuinely know how to make a frickin banger

This is as cool as hell, atsu is my new favourite singer out of all the ones that I like, but can we take a minute to realize that ANNE IS BECOMING THE FRIKING ATSUOVER LOGO MASCOT DEMON...THING

That one hits home so hard I'm almost crying.

Absolute vibe! its always a joy to see an upload from you!

i enjoyed listening to this, thank you atsuover!

Thanks for making fantastic relatable music Anne!

The chorus has really hits hard for me, I've recently got a partner, and they always talk about how I brought colour to their life. My response is usually "really, I'm not that interesting, my life is really boring, if anything you brought the color to my usually monochrome world" and so when I hear the chorus I think of them. I also feel like I should've been less of a boring person before we started dating, because then maybe I could be as good as them

i love this so much, you always make great songs so happy it's on Spotify

This song has been here for one year, it helped me a lot back then, cause i felt like theres a person that feels similar to me, and that kept me going with my life. All Atsuover's songs are masterpieces and come to you when you most need it, I have a special place for this song in my heart ❤️

Sounds great!!! Keep up the amazing work!

As always the music is brilliant! We would love to have this on Spotify. Keep up the good work, your an amazing content creator and always will be.

i feel like a lot of people can relate to this song, some more than they realize. that’s one part of what i really like about your creations; they’re something we can connect to. i saw the notification for this video today while i was kinda down, and it brought me right back up. you have outdone yourself again, anne. you never stop amazing me with everything you say and do and create, and i am here for it. i’m glad i found your channel, anne. you keep going, but remember, take your time. you’re already doing great, and i know you’ll get even better from here. wish you the best!

Even a year later and im still listening, this just absolutely slaps, good vocals, good instrumentals, all of it

I hope she's OK 😥

"My Problems keep mutating, its getting frustrating" "Reaching my goals was a mere mirage" "Now I'm stuck here self-sabotaging" "Even though I'm where I thought I wouldn't be" If I could use 4 lines in a song to describe my life and mental state right now, these are the 4 I'd use. It's not healthy how much I relate to you music

I feel for the emotions you put into this song,I do hope things get better for you,you are talented and deserve the kindness you are given! ❤️💕

i love this sm ur music is so epic atsuover !!!

Damn this song really hit the feels... God damnit Annie I love your music!

Thanks!

Each one of your songs is so good, its always my fav song from the moment i hear it. omg it's so good

duuuddeee this song is a mood let me give you and everyone else reading a comfort hug

It's really heartbreaking to see you in this mental state... and I truly hope and pray that your problems get better (not *magically, of course, it takes time..) as time progresses. And I hope you have a safe environment and life, and enjoy your life; and if you ever suffer a drought in your life, make sure to get professional help or talk to a trusted person who will understand and guide you.💜✨ REMINDER FOR THOSE KIDS (OR CURIOUS PEOPLE... IDC) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Imposter Syndrome is a serious syndrome where one has a heavy weight of self-doubt on themselves, and has a feeling of a fraud. Just because she used the word Self-Sabotaging does not give you the opportunity to make a "harmless" joke. Maybe it's not so harmless; and I remind you to do research. (Also Among Us died out years ago, and I realize this isn't proving my point the slightest.) I did research to just even type this comment! And to those others replying (I have no hate, as I replied myself), don't cause drama; and telling them (not specifying) to delete their comment accelerates the offenders and the defenders. I wish I would've wrote more, especially since this is serious. *And remember, don't fake mental illnesses, kids.*

Is it ok if I do a cover on this song?

i think this is one of my favorite songs from you so far. the vocals, the mixing, the instrumentals.. it's all great

One of your best songs to date! The lyrics are catchy yet hold a deep meaning. The beat is nice and reflects the message you are trying to send very well. Amazing

I just noticed but is the character in the video the character in making day just grown up?

The Trans Experience is still figuring out who you are and what you wanna do with your life long into your 20s because you started 100 feet back from the starting line because you didn't start living as yourself until you were already grown up

your voice is just so wonderful!! keep up the work girl i love you so much

i just came out of a 24 hour nonverbal "phase" after having not had one for years (and never one this long) and this puts my feelings lately into words so well. something about your music just hits something inside me so perfectly. thank you.

What does the lyrics mean in "before i killed the lights"?

FIRST!!!!! 🤓

By far one of my favorite songs you've made, keep it up, you're doing great

I swear, every new song you make has even better lyricism and melody than the last. And every single one is so relatable to everyone living with neurodivergence or mental illness in the information age. Most of all, I think I appreciate how you balance the venting with reminders to yourself and others that things are very rarely as bad as they feel, and there's always things to take pride in, to be excited about, to hold out hope for. You're seriously gonna be regarded as one of the absolute greats for a long time to come, Anne!

routinnely come back to this song time and time again. never a day it doesnt feel applicable.

I don’t know why but all your songs connect with me very strongly cause they just iron me out and this song brought up my memories of how badly I wish I could change everything but everyone has to collectively agree that the only way you will stop trying to undo the past is to accept it

Holy fuck I love your songs, first Ms. Mediocre and then Making Day and now this. Your the only one who's managed to capture every one of my issues and thoughts into music, some other songs have gotten close but your songs are something else. Love it dude!! Low self worth can be a pain and it's cool finally seeing other people who I can relate to

felt like shit today, saw this notif, watched it, and now today isn't so bad :) I super relate to hyperfocusing on every little problem and having massive regret. keep up the amazing work, i don't know if it makes you feel better but I know for a fact so many people are touched by your music. thank you 💕

for some reason all of these atsuover give a sense of nostalgia and happiness that no other song has achieved and I really like that.