He was actually 18 when she OD’d that’s why he said he brought her his music to listen to. His father took custody but his grandparents were very close to him

He said that during the recording session he asked everyone to leave the studio so he could record the last monologue alone. He said the last part of this song was extremely hard to record. It was not scripted, like pastor said. The beauty is that you can see the growth, maturity, and healing from the pain this song and the beautiful letter to his mom in the song Mama in Hope.

Based on other songs, he never went down the addiction route. He even struggled to get onto mood/depression/OCD medication his therapist recommended. He says that he was worried about the medication route, and the chance of ending up like his mom. He also says that even being around drunk and high people gives him extreme anxiety to the point of shaking.

I heard this song when i was still addicted to pills and herion, when it first came out. It hit me really hard and now ive been clean for awhile. I just heaed his song "mama," recently, and it made me cry to see he finally forgives his mom. Im very happy for him, and i can understand his mom's perspective as well. I feel very bad for him and for her. My mom was also an addict, but she got saved when she was pregnant with me, and she said God saved her and she has never touched another drug or drink since.

His mom passed 3-4 years before this song was released. He was 18-19 years old.

I really appreciate this pastor. Thank you for being understanding that people have real emotions, and forgiveness doesn't happen over night.

I'm not a Christian, but this song helped me more than just about anyone in the years after my mom died I cry I everytime

I want the pastor to listen to MAMA

Omg this is such a tear jerker!! I’ve watched a lot of these reactions on this song and I haven’t seen ANYONE not cry!!

I've been a drug addict whohas chosen every day since 1996 my kids played me this and I burst into tears thinking that that's what I did to them but no my beautiful children said they played it to me because they were so proud that i had stopped using my addiction started with pain pills😢😢

You should do Mama next so you can see how far he has come 6-7 years later.

Tbh one of the best reaction channels to NF's music. Subcribed

This is authentic, it was recorded and he just spoke as he felt at the end. I cannot listen to this song without leaking profusely for him and his siblings. Have you done the most recent so g about his mum. It's beautiful with a more healed tone to his voice. 💜🙏💜

This song makes me cry everytime

He in 2019. Talked about how he was mad still and one of his recent songs he kind of touches back on how he feels about the issue now.

This song hits deep every time I listen to it. 😢

NF is real his meaningful.NF is just so captivating.his like so open, that's one of the reasons why I love him. LOVE LOVE LOVE You 🥰❤❤❤NF

This reminds me of my childhood. I lost my mom to heroin addiction . I was 9 in and out of foster homes. I know this pain this song hit my soul so deep . 😢 This is my childhood hands down. I thank God that I broke this generational curse in my family. I had to heal alot of pain and trauma I understand NF exactly. He my favorite Christian rapper.

I cant bring myself to learn the lyrics to this song or id cry everytime it comes to mind

Not a religious person but beautiful music is something we all respect and brings us together

The pastor is gonna LOVE the song, MAMA ☺️

I lost my mom 8.5 years ago, when I was 23. She was addicted to pills and alcohol (typically combined). She was once put on probation because she would call in her own prescriptions (she worked around doctors offices and I guess knew what to say). I’m not a religious man, quite the contrary, but it was nice hearing your outlooks on this song. I haven’t checked yet but you guys should do Mama. It is a recent release on his last album to come out (I think in April?).

Someone actually told me that his mom passed away when he was almost going to turn 19 so he did this song to pay respect towards his mom who passed away of an OD 2 months away from his birthday

You mentioned about people who have experienced childhood trauma often re-enacting their circumstances. That is the theme of Happy, made even more clear by the video. I particularly like that lyrically it is structured and expressed as a prayer (opening words "Dear God, please, hear me out I know it's been a couple years, ..."). He addresses many of the bad traits that his trauma has induced and he is asking God to help him work his way past those behaviors. I didn't see that y'all had covered Happy yet, but I would recommend it when you get the chance.

He loved his mom

He mentions his graduation, and bringing her his music . So he was a lot older than that. More like 18

Pastor 🙏 Thank

After listening to this again. There is NO EXCUSE for this. NONE.

Great reaction! Looking forward to “Nate”.

Great reaction !!

I found it :) this was the reaction to this sad one

🔥🔥💯💯 Reaction NFrealmusic 💯

Just found your channel and I love your NF reactions. If I may suggest listening and reacting to "Mama". It's a follow up to this one. Keep up the great work. God bless you all!

I have heard he had to do this all in one take the first time he recorded this because he knew he couldn't get through it twice. Which, to me is soooo powerful

My mom was taken from us by mental illness, & I live with that every day. I'm still angry about it.

I am ready

When you think about it, he became an addict too. Addicted to the hurt he was feeling.

We need more of this, really professional, u deserve more subs:)

You should follow this with mama

Nate was abused by one of his mom's boyfriends--he mentions some of the problems with the type of men she dated in other songs (like "Nate").

The knot in my throat every single time

“This is his outlet”, NF literally calls it his outlet in Notepad

He was 2 weeks or so from graduating high school when she passed

Now you have to listen to Mama

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They really said this is a uncle Ben moment

according to rumors. that last part. the part hes crying...he kicked EVERYONE out of the studio to do. EVERYONE. it was just him....

Hello everybody

JP stated "sins of the father will be passed down generation after generation" I feel that I can attest to that because I drink beer to dampen daily life/stress (I shouldn't, nor do I overdo it, because 1)work, 2)family life, but it's a pattern i repeat, after watching my father growing up.) I work as a cook/sous cook current, so . . Of course beer is readily available to me at lesser cost than purchasing at another place. All I've done is sworn off liquor, which isn't much. But I saw how it impacted me and my family... so... Baby steps to being less alcohol-inclined.. might ask a coworker to join me for kickboxing classes.

You should react to Mama from his latest album, its beautiful

His mother died from an overdose of opioids in 2009 which led to him dedicating the song "How Could You Leave Us" to her.

Listen to mama. It shows how he finally forgave her

This is like watching the blind lead the blind. I don't feel h guy chasing the songs is that in depth in his knowledge if NF. I hope the pastor goes back and does his own journey with NF and gets to hear NF in some of his faith based songs like I'll Keep On. Also taking the journey he will understand what NF suffered at the hands of his moms boyfriend since it is referenced in a couple songs. And his mom was addicted to pain pills which wasn't uncommon during that time period.

He has depression and OCD ❤

He does have kids now a little boy

His grandmas bf was the one that abused him in mansion and other songs also

NF's mom Died In 2009 so he was in his 20's age

I really hope Nate is mentally stable cause he look like he is not... dont want him to fly away like Avicii did

He was 18 not nine

Listen to twenty one pilots!

NF says in one of his songs that his mother had boyfriends who was probably addicts too. So no stepdad. One of her boyfriends abused him.

this is the saddest song ive heard

Still waiting for this "so called therapist" to say something professional.....without talking about god 🙄 Absolute fraud.