Wake up babe, Plagued by Visions just dropped a new video!

As an Italian, Pasolini was one of our greats in terms of thinking in a cinematographic form. It's a shame his life was so average and at points so tragic. He was born, and died, poor. His murder was most likely a setup, as he was highly critical of the Italian government and the West's exploitative systems in the 60's. There was no investigation opened into his death, even though it happened under highly suspicious circumstances. The government tried their best to blame the Mafia for his death, since they always make the South take the blame for situations like this. Overall, I believe it is our fault he didn't garner much attention, as we, his own nation, rejected his ideas.

Juan, this is such a terrific video. I've lost count of the number of 'Most Disturbing Films' videos I've watched on KZfaq, and this is perhaps the most diverse, thoughtful and unique video of this nature I've seen. The ones I've seen I totally agree with you on, and I'm really excited to watch Pixote and Canoa ASAP, so thank you for introducing me to a couple of new ones I'd never heard of too!

Mysterious Skin is a masterpiece. Joseph Gordon-Levitt and Brady Corbet do incredible work. It's such a heartbreaking, upsetting film and yet I've watched it multiple times--I keep getting drawn back to the story, despite how upsetting it is.

I watched Mysterious Skin at the theater, cold as probably most of the rest of the viewers. Mannnnnnn we were left squirming in our seats at times. The story of a kid that has pushed his trauma back so far in his mind, and changes his memory as a way of protecting him. I thought that was fascinating. One kid living with it. One hiding it deep in his mind.

I'm 50 and my country was under Soviet rule for 40 years. In elementary school it was mandatory for grade 7-8 students to watch Come And See. As an adult I salute that masterpiece. As a 13 years old girl I was terrified. Thank you for that video.

I’m so glad you put The Passion of the Christ on this list. If I were to make a list of my own, Passion of the Christ would make it onto that list. I was made to watch this as a 12 year old girl. I was made to believe that my soul and my ancestors did this to this “man.” I felt guilt, shame, disgust, anguish, extreme empathy, and genuine, real gut-wrenching pain for this man, and it makes it even worse that this man was meant to by OUR MESSIAH?! This was introduced to me way too early in life and the concept was way beyond my understanding of what I was watching. I’m so glad you brought this one up. I thought I was the only one genuinely disturbed by this.

Come and See really is probably the greatest war movie ever made. (And thanks a ton to whoever finally uploaded the film to KZfaq so I could finally watch it! 😍) I have to say I didn't find it disturbing so much as just depressing. Saving Private Ryan is far more visceral and graphic, and yet the slow degradation of a young boy's psyche and the relentless inhumanity is far more haunting. And the ending to that movie is one of the greatest ever filmed, bar none.

They showed The Passion of The Christ at the church my parents went to (and dragged me along to) when it came out, I was like 9 and absolutely horrified. I remember walking out of the auditorium before it ended, extremely upset and confused. It's so interesting to me that we had a similar experience with that, it's stayed with me all these years later. Religion! Catholicism! Guilt!

This is a very refreshing and incredible list! Discovering Benny’s video as a teenager (along with I Stand Alone, which I first viewed at my grandparents house) was the gateway to many truly haunting and powerful films like Mysterious Skin. I think your picks are truly much more disturbing than something like A Serbian Film, as these picks have a palpable humanity and sincerity to them. I don’t think a film like I Stand Alone would be as riveting as it is if it weren’t for a desire to understand or even just observe a flawed human man, without any type of hesitation.

Omg!! Mysterious Skin!! FINALLY!!! Finally someone puts this on their list of most disturbing movies!! This movie has always been on my list ever since the first time I watched it. It is such a traumatic watch for me that I’ve only seen it twice and I honestly don’t know if I could watch it a third time. It’s so well done and acted that it makes it so real for me. I love/hate this movie and I am so glad someone finally is talking about it. It needs to be watched and experienced. Thank you!

No need to apologize! Your glasses are rad....damn...I fell for an ad. But because I fell from the ad I did not skip it lol. Come and See is SOOO good and really gets into your heart/soul. The ending of that movie will never leave me. Men Behind the Sun is still for me probably the most disturbing film I've ever seen....I don't think I finished it. A lot of these films I have not seen. Begotten I've only seen some clips from. Benny's Video is one of the Haneke films I've not seen, my favourite of his work is Caché which seems to tackle a lot of similar themes. Canoa is one I've missed as well. I Stand Alone is one I've not seen either despite again being familiar with quite a few NOE films. Mysterious Skin sounds a lot like 'The Tale' have you ever seen that one? Those films are really tough to watch. I don't think I'll ever watch Passion of the Christ but your reading of it and the experience was excellent. I always thought that Salo sounded...well kind of boring and didn't seem to have much to it other than being offensive...I don't really know if I will ever watch it but you make a good argument in its favor! I was wondering how I would compare haha and unsurprisingly you have a much muuuuch deeper knowledge in all things transgressive. 1 out of the 10 I've seen lol. Great video!

i really loved this video and the list you put together. you do such an excellent job of summarizing in detail without spoiling. i definitely will be checking out some of these. thanks for another great video, juan!! 👍

Hi Juan, I always enjoy when you talk about Spanish literature (and now film) mainly because it's media I'm separated from with a language barrier. Do you have a list of disturbing Spanish works?

I think you'd like the podcast Live At The Death Factory, largely focuses on films like this but doesn't go for obvious choices

i love your videos so much!!!! keep up the amazing work 🥰

loving your content so far and wish you the best❤ my engelish language is not strong to say much i just wanted to say your the best

Hey Juan! Good to see you. Glad you're back! :)

The video I've been waiting for! Love your unique perspectives.

I find The Accused w/Jodie Foster to be EXTREMELY disturbing. It’s so visceral it’s almost too much.

Thank you for the list Juan. I hadn’t heard of most of these films and I am very curious to check them out. I would love to see you make more videos about film.

I've watched my fair share of disturbing movie lists and I was happy to see a couple titles on here even I didn't know! Your explanation of each film and how it disturbs you was really great as well. It's great to see the Haneke shoutout. While I haven't seen I Stand Alone, The Piano Teacher and Caché truly distressed me. Come and See is one of the most harrowing films I have ever watched; I get chills even looking at the name. It's one of the only movies that truly depicts the raw suffering of war. I have quite a few favorite disturbing films. Martyrs is my most cliché pick. It's infamous for it's gore although I believe people underappreciate the horrifying narrative on trauma, cycles of abuse, and power. The ending song "Your Witness" never fails to make me shiver. Dancer in the Dark by Lars Von Trier is easily one of the most depressing and bizarre films I've ever seen. It perfectly depicts the American dream vs. the American reality in the most disturbing narrative possible. For documentaries, The Act of Killing (about the genocide of communists in Indonesia) and Dear Zachary: A Letter to a Son About His Father (this one you just have to watch) both upset me like nothing I've ever seen before in my life. I could go on and on though, so I'll stop here. Happy to see you talk about film! Your content on disturbing and horrifying litterature is top tier and has encouraged me to read more, but I'd be elated to see you talk more about film as well. Keep up the great work!

I enjoy Begotten for that otherworldly feel. I'm happy to see it mentioned. I also want to thank you for mentioning Canoa. It seems apt at this time. I need to see it.

So happy to see so many of my faves on here! (mainly Come And See, that movie gripped me so much) I have a small question for you, Juan, and for everyone who would like to answer, and maybe it's a stupid one but I'm genuinely curious and would love to hear your thoughts on it: since you talked about Pixote (which I love, well, "love" might be a strong word for almost every movie here), what do you think about directors that document these harsh realities in regards to actually helping the people directly involved in them after they made the movie/documentary? I mean, I get it, uncovering horrible situations such as these definitely sheds a light in the eyes of the public, but given that the ones in power almost never care about them either way, when I watch movies like these I always feel like there's more that could be done from the director and the producers' part, things like using part of the proceeds from the movie to concretely help. I really can't find examples in which this concrete help has been given, and if you know of some director that went and did it I would be so happy to stand corrected! Another movie that comes to mind is "Til Madness Do Us Part" which documents the horrible conditions in which patients are kept in a mental insitution in Yunnan, China. Not even gonna touch on the Mondo documentaries cause we all know Giacopetti and Prosperi were two rac!st pieces of sh!t and straight up exploited the fear of the diverse to shock, we know they wouldn't have done anything to help anyway lol. I hope I have explained myself well, great video as always! Catching up on all of your older stuff as I found your channel only two weeks ago and I love it!

This was a great list and some of the picks were really fascinating! I have only seen Benny's Video, Mysterious Skin, The Passion of the Christ and Salo of the ones you picked. Your point about Benny's Video being ahead of it's time with the mediation of reality through screens really made me wanna rewatch that movie. For myself, the most disturbing movie experience was watching Antichrist at 18 years old on a terrible hangover morning. Back then, I promised myself I would never watch it again. Whaddaya know, last week I stumbled it in library and decided to give it a go. Still haven't had the guts to put in my player, though 😅 Perhaps my "favorite" disturbing movie still has to be Cannibal Holocaust. For some reason, I find it fascinatingly beautiful film and every time I watch it, the movie just leaves me floored and speechless.

Really liked the list. You gave me a few that weren't on my radar. I recommend to you "Snowtown" aka "The Snowtown Murders" (2011). It's based off true events in Australia about the victims of sexual assault teaming up with a man who organized the hunting and killing of the offenders. It's about the effects that trauma on the community and individual and it shows how that damage spreads in disturbing ways. It's really heartbreaking and brutal. Not for the faint of heart.

poop the movie really got me hooting and hollering

i just discovered ur channel one video before this one (the first was about "pure") and man i wish i found ur channel sooner ! gr8 content man just subbed

Benny's Video, Come and See, I Stand Alone, and Mysterious Skin are all films that I adore. Haneke is one of my favorite film makers and Benny's video is truly an exceptional beat into the mind of a sociopathic child. It's a very difficult and unsettling point of view to watch from and that certainly makes it most effective. I am always trying to get people to watch Haneke's The Seventh Continent, so if you haven't seen that, please do. It is disturbing in the way Haneke is so often, but I wouldn't expect it to hit like Benny 's Video or Funny Games does. It's a subtler form of disturbing, and maybe I love it that much more for it. I have seen Begotten, but I can't say that I'm a fan of the movie, I do appreciate Merhige's Shadow of the Vampire (and still want Willem Dafoe to play Nosferatu in an actual remake). I think I love Begotten in concept more than execution. The work put in, and the entire aesthetic just seems like something I'd love, but it didn't take long for me to be completely bored by my inability to decipher much of what was happening on screen. In some sense the abstract nature of it was interesting, but not enough to hold me. It has been many years since I've attempted so maybe I should give it another shot. It does have great visuals for background content though... I have been putting off Salo for a number of years, and my girlfriend just synchronistically discovered its existence two days ago. She's demanding to see it now, and since it is the ultimate date movie, I think I will have to oblige her. Passion of the Christ...I think my history with it is similar to yours, and I love the way you describe your feelings about the hypocrisy in it all. As far as my current feelings go, I hate it. You have inspired me to watch Canoa and Pixote, those both seem like films I would really get into. Orozco feels like it might actually be around my limit. I started watching Stan Brakhage's The Act of Seeing with One's Own Eyes (which is his filming of a literal autopsy) and that was too much for me. I let it play through the whole duration of the film, but I looked away too much to consider it "seen". I did appreciate the angles he took as many of them were artfully done, which makes sense, but it was just too much. I've seen dead bodies in person and it's my limit...but I still find it fascinating on some level. Maybe I will be able to work myself up to it someday. It does make me a little nauseous just thinking about it. I apologize for the overly long comment. I love this video, just as I love all your videos. Thank you for being such a unique voice on the youtubes, Juan. You're fantastic. -Brandon

You should watch a movie called threads. It’s one of the most disturbing movies I’ve ever seen and it’s free to watch on KZfaq. I won’t tell you what it’s about because it’s better to go in blind

Great descriptions and recommendations. I really like how you handled this topic.

Never heard of Canoa and Pixote. Thanks for the recommendations, I'm going to watch them very soon :) Was expecting to see Martyrs on this list. Ever heard of it?

Excellent list! I'd definitely recommend more of Haneke's films, The Seventh Continent left me wrecked for weeks.

I was really waiting for this! Come and See is one of my favorite movies and I don't think I'll watch it in a long time. One time was enough. It's so haunting.

When we needed him the most… he returned! And with a sponsorship?! 😱 Content King! OMG I HAD A SIMILAR EXPERIENCE WITH PASSION OF THE CHRIST! My aunt showed it to us as kids because she wanted us to get some context for Easter… Someone ought to have called CPS. 🤣

So glad you've included Benny's Video. I was going to recommend it to you the second I saw the title of this video! So glad to hear your take on it. 😊

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Thank you so much for this list. Many of these films i have not seen yet and i want to see them. I agree with you about Salo. I remember my friends older brothers coming home from the Vietnam War and telling of atrocities done to the poor farmers. I would have absolutely lost my mind if i were there. I thank the Great Spirit i just missed being drafted. One film that got to me was the original Last House on the Left. It was filmed in a way that to me, seemed like a documentary. Like i was there with the girls in the first half of the movie. Like it was really happening, the cruelty. It had scenes cut out & edited. i have seeked out as best i could, uncut versions as i could find them because it fascinates and horrifies me still.

Angel's Melancholy is terribly disturbing and beautifully shot, definitely inspired by Salo.

I was forced to watch The Passion of the Christ when it came out, at Religion class. We were all around 10 years old too. I remember feeling sweaty and uncomfortable while fidgeting, my head palpitating. This was in a Latin American country also. What the hell.

I personally have 8/10 of your movies listed, and I love that you talked about Orozco, but I think Jorg Buttgereit's Der Todesking is one that you should watch, if you didn't. More than you know, the gore (Jorg is also the director of Nekromantik), the base theme is what it makes it a full disturbing movie, especially the "Thursday" segment.

Loved your take on the passion, didn't realize it came out the same year as saw and hostile. Idk if you are doing a series of this or adding viewer subs but The Poughkeepsie tapes is disturbing in a similar way to these, more in concept than graphic stuff.

I really don't get why people consider Saló as one of the most disturbing films ever. If you are old and saw the movie back then, surely it probably is the most disturbing thing you ever saw, but after a lot of productions made in the 80's (some even in the 70's and previously that are less talked about due to their obscurity), this movie just looks like a poorly made fetiche porn.

That's a good list of disturbing films. There are some that I would add, Ghosts of the Civil Dead is an Australian prison film made in the 1990s with a screenplay partially written by Nick Cave. It was based on the writings of Jack Henry Abbot who is interesting to read about too. The short films Fingered and The Right Side of My Brain by Richard Kern were part of the Cinema of Transgression movement of the 1980s. They are ugly, gut wrenching movies. His 10 minute film Submit to Me is really disturbing too even if it is really just a music video. George Romero's Martin is what I always considered to be an existential vampire movie because there is no closure or resolution to the film. You never learn what the truth of the main character really is and the fact that you can feel sympathy for him at the end puts the viewer in an uncomfortable position. I think this was Romero's best film for a lot of other geeky film theory reasons that I won't go into here. On a similar note, Alice Sweet Alice is maybe not disturbing but unsettling is a better way to put it. This probably only true for people who grew up Catholic in the New York/New Jersey/east Pennsylvania region There is a very neglected, underrated, and misunderstood movie called Trouble Every Day that is the bloodiest movie I have ever seen. The symbolism of the movie is all about sexual predation in both men and women and poses some uncomfortable questions about sexuality. Most people just think it is over the top violence but I think there is a deeper meaning to the movie that people don't often see. Also it stars Vincent Gallo which makes it even harder to watch. There is a Thai movie called Slice that is quite dark too. Sometimes it is also called Cut and the title in Thai is Chuen. It is an LBGTQ film about a detective hunting down a serial killer. It is more disturbing at an emotional level than anything. David Lynch's Eraserhead is pretty bad if you watch it at the wrong time of your life. If you read it as the baby being a symbol of Henry's isolation, inadequacy, and alienation from society it can be a real downer. Blue Velvet is still really disturbing to me also, more because of the subtexts than the violence and character of Frank Booth, i.e. Dorothy Vallens is complicit in her own victimization and Jeffrey has to realize that he could easily become just like Frank etc. Really if you want something that will give you nightmares for years, try watching Barney's Big Adventure. Whatever you do, DO NOT try to watch this if you have taken more than 10 hits of acid. The kinds of people who think up this stuff are monsters of the lowest order and deserve to be locked up for the rest of their lives.

Wow Passion of the Christ was extreme. I also watched at the theater. In San Antonio a very Catholic city. I watched it twice in then theater and both showings were incredible in how the people reacted to it, wailing, crying, calling out “my señor! Mi cristo!” Loud and many of them. It was really eye opening and one of the great theater experiences i’ve had.

hi Juan! great vid as always, how about a "top 10 most disgusting movies I have seen" list in the future? I'd love to see your picks :) take care buddy

Some of the most disturbing films I've seen are definitely Requiem for a Dream, for how extremely bleak the film is and the very, very intense sequence at the end, Grave of the Fireflies, again because of the extreme bleakness and because from the start of the film you already know how it is going to end, Happiness (1998), for showing some very disturbing and unsettling scenes and interactions in such an ironically happy, almost sitcom-like fashion, and Son of Saul (of which I'm wondering if you've seen it), for its terrifyingly close, claustrophobic and unflinching view of a concentration camp, all through the eyes of someone in the Sonderkommando who has emotionally died a while ago. I saw Son of Saul with my dad in the cinema, and the first 30-ish minutes were so intense that I thought to myself that if the film continues like that throughout the whole thing, I wouldn't be able to finish it.

I remember seeing the Passion with some friends and all of us sat and cried during that movie. I told everyone I knew, do not go into this if you are squeemish

💩 This was absolutely brilliant. Dude your film analysis skills-I’m just floored. You should be a commentator on like those film documentaries they have on Shudder. Quite a few on here I want to check out and some honestly I know I just can’t lol. You made a lot of great points, the one that stuck out to me most was when you talked about the Passion of the Christ. It’s interesting how a film can affect us in different ways depending our own backgrounds/circumstances. I have some “religious trauma” and I often approach movies with religious themes differently, like I’ll watch them but I have to be in a certain headspace.

Great list! Come and See is a super heavy film. There’s a movie called “In a glass cage” I just heard about. Seems disturbing I’m looking forward to watching it

Because of this video, I watched Canoa and Pixote, both films I had never heard of prior to hearing you talk about them. They were astonishing watches. Thank you for bringing them to my attention!! I never would have seen them otherwise.

Grt reviews man👍never heard about the Brazilian one ( gonna add it to my watch list).

Watched The Treatment yesterday, that was a fucked up one and really depressing. Angst and Nothing Bad Can Happen are some disturbing ones that I plan on never watching again.

Come and See is absolutely devastating. There are definitely scenes I wish I could unsee. 😢

I’m fairly surprised MARTYRS wasn’t on the list. One of he most unflinchingly disturbing films I can remember. I’ll have to watch a few of these if I care to see the extreme.

I'm so glad Mysterious Skin has managed to stay relevant. It was so sadly overlooked at release because I think not many people were ready for the conversation then, but it's power resonates all these years later. Not my favorite Araki film, but, probably his best work. Anyway, I loved your approach to this list. Well done!

My German film class actually showed the part of Benny's Video where he is watching the clip of the pig being slaughtered repeatedly and it was the first time my life I became physically nauseous and dizzy from watching a film. Eventually I couldn't take it anymore and just had to just stare at my desk for the rest of the clip. I've never been able to watch the whole movie since then because it was such an uncomfortable experience lol However, I still feel there is a lot of value in films that can give you such a visceral and uncomfortable feeling like that. I can definitely agree with its spot on the list! 😅 Great video as always!

there is this one german movie i watched a while ago called system crasher. it was unbearable to watch for me (although i did finish it). the trailer made it seem like a wholesome, feel-good story. but it was pretty violent. the kid is complete chaos. lots of blood, consequences, physical attacks, screaming. it truly disturbed me.

Come and See has haunted me since seeing it. That young man aged 60 years in just a few hours. When he and the girl return home and he runs by and she notices all the bodies...or when he's shooting the gun at the end and can't keep shooting when there's a photo of hitler as a baby and he cries...Then he joins the army after an even younger boy walks by with a gun. I'M SHOOK. I have only seen The Passion after eating edibles one time. Gotta say that was an experience.

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For me The most disturbing scene of Passion of the Christ was the flyblown sheep Judas has the pleasure of hanging next to. However I eventually die, please don't let it be near a decomposing, flyblown, maggoty sheep. Oughh, the sound! I love Come and See! Amazing young star. ❤

I also saw Passion of the Christ in theaters with my parents as a child and man... I was way to young to handle that lol Funnily enough though, we actually got interviewed by the local newspaper in our town about our reaction to the film as we were leaving the theater and my dad got quoted in the article. It was a surreal day for sure 😅

I have read 120 days of sodom probably three times. It is worse every time. The movie is really hard to watch. Words are different than watching a person go through what they do.

speaking of horrific documentaries, there isn't anything quite like Earthlings. Talk about man controlling every single animal on Earth...

Hey, a Mo Hayder fan ! The Treatment was intense!

Tod Solondz's 1998 film Happiness is in my top 5 favourite films and definitely disturbing in the most unconventional of ways. It'sa dark comedy that follows the lives of a bunch of people trying to find happiness. Ari Aster's 2012 short film The strange thing about the Johnsons. Flipping the script on the usual disturbing narrative of child abuse. Coming in at only 30mins it packs a harder punch than most disturbing 1h30min films. (Spoilers for Pink Flamingos) Pink Flamingos by John Waters 1972 is infamous for the dog shit eating scene at the end. I found the majority of the movie hilarious but two scenes disturbed me greatly. The first scene is of two people having sex in a stable and there's chickens involved....No beastiality and the chickens killed were later eaten (which is good I guess?). I fast forwarded through this scene because it seemed never ending to me. The second scene was of two actresses playing kidnapped drug addicts but the acting was... Bad... Looking into the camera bad... And the material they were trying to convey was so serious and depressing that it felt almost disrespectful. The adventures of sharkboy and lavagirl by Robert Rodriguez made in 2005. So I was about 7 or 8. This was the first 3D movie I ever 'saw'. The title is shown in the beginning and a shark swims out of the screen. I was terrified to my core. I couldn't believe a shark had just come out of the screen straight at me. I watched the rest of the movie (basically the whole movie) without the cardboard 3D glasses because the shark was just too scary.

My favorite horror movie is Posession. Have you seen it?

Goat Story the animated children's movie (Kurtis Conner made a video about it and now it lives rent free in my head)

Most disturbing film for me was definitely Julian Donkey Boy by Harmony Korine. My reasoning is unorthodox, and it's definitely the spectacle it provides into the world of it's characters. I saw the movie about a year after my first encounter with psychedelics, I had experienced a bad trip before, and then seeing this reminded me of the experience heavily.

Very tasteful list makes me want to check out some of the ones from latin america i havent seen. Came here after watching your video about pure. Easy subscribe. Great content.

I actually watched Come and See in cinemas with my mom, such an intense masterpiece!

Lynch's "Eraserhead" and the BBC's TV film "Threads" are the only films to truly disturb me. Particularly "Threads". I don't think that transgression is "radical" anymore. If anything, it's become a staple of certain reactionary cultural tendencies.

ah, Poop: the Movie. what a classic.

The Passion of the Christ is my favorite ever soundtrack. It’s haunting and beautiful.

Well, my criterion channel tbw just got even sadder 😂 Seriously tho, loved this. Thank you so much for not including Human Centipede.

Have you watched the film Fat Girl by Catherine Breillat? It is absolutely NOT what I expected. It's ending also left me with my jaw on the floor in shock and disgust. I will never watch it again. It's like a 90 minute depiction of female suffering.

This was an interesting video. I tried to think of the most disturbing movie I've ever seen. The Hills Have Eyes really got to me.

Well, I guess I have a few movies to watch now. Interesting list, keep it up!

I feel like Hereditary and Midsommar were some of the most disturbing films I’ve seen. Also The Visit was also very disturbing, and that film had no violence in it until the very end.

We had, essentially, the exact same experience with Passion of the Christ. Funnily, my parents were raised Christian (one Baptist and French Catholic) but were not religious churchgoers themselves. They brought me to see it in theaters I would have been 9 or 10 years old. I couldn't believe they brought me to see it and just left it at that.

Nekromantik 2 is disturbing, but I love it. Nekromantik 1 is good, but 2 is my favourite. Jorg Buttgereit is way up there on my list of favourite directors. It had a low budget, but the effects (of the corpse/love interest) are so repulsive. I'd take you up on the spex offer, but non US person. I buy mine online and would never purchase from an optician ever again. I'm sure your sponsor's as good as my mail order company (think they have a US site, so won't mention them). Thanks for the recommendations. Definitely getting onto them.

Nice sponsor homie. I have finally seen something in your lists ;) I too saw The Passion of the christ as a kid lmaoo. #Mexican

I had a very similar experience with Passion of the Christ. Raised by evangelical Christians, I and my sisters (9, 11, and 12 at the time) were expected to watch this film, in theaters, so we could "understand what Jesus went through for" for us. I watched through my hands for the majority of the film, and had nightmares for years- of the violence, of the devil, etc. It also served as a moment of clarity for me. Up until that point I trusted my parent's guidance, particularly their spiritual guidance, without question. But it was so clear after they took me to that movie that they had made an enormous mistake, done something completely inappropriate and unsafe for me as a child. It was a moment where I started seeing my parents as flawed individuals instead of perfect moral compasses, and one where I began to question my faith, ironically. It was also an experience that put me on a path of exploring transgressive and disturbing media, because after so many years of nightmares, I set out to desensitize myself- perhaps it was my young brain's implementing exposure therapy.

Some people were angry when I called Passion ‘Mad Max Beyond Gethsemane’.

Excellent video. 20 years ago I would have immediately sought out all of these. Nowadays I’m far too old for that shit. I will never watch any of these films 😂 💩 PS your new specs really suit you

You are so good at articulating yourself !

What an amazing list! 🙌 I have only seen Salo from this list! So I have a ton to watch 🤣 I think Salo is the most disturbing movie I've seen or a Siberian film 😅 but Gasper Noe's Climax did make me feel so uncomfortable! 💩💩💩

Ooh! A sponsor! Nice! Salo...definitely not a "feel good" film. I think the fact that Pasolini was murdered before the film was released adds even more to it. There's a feeling that nobody should even be watching this. One also wonders what the rest of the "Trilogy of Death" would have been like.

Funny Games was mad fucked up too

Have you watched Cannibal (2006) by a german director Marian Dora?

Late to the party. Passion of the Christ is the only movie off your list I’ve seen. It disturbed me so much I called my aunt who’s religious, to explain it to me. Her response was we’re all born sinners, he died for our sins. It’s what made me walk away for religion. No thanks!

after you have watched salo about 5 or 6 times you notice how really wonderful the photography and cinematography is.

salo is the only one I seen. I downloaded it it like 20 years ago when I was in my twenties and didn’t get it so it was like meh to me. I’m interested to try and watch all the other ones tho!

My top 5 picks are: 01. Once Were Warriors (Warning: Sexual Violence) 02. The War Zone (Warning: Sexual Violence) 03. Saviour 04. The Piano Teacher 05. Man Behind the Sun Bonus: Audition, Ma Mere, Eden Lake, Daniel & Ana, Fat Girl, and La Bete.

I don’t know if it constitutes a movie, but Afflicted (1996) was pretty disturbing

I remember seeing the Passion in theaters and I cried so hard watching it just because of the brutality. In the end he isnt the weak looking Jesus on a cross you find in churches, he is a peice of bloody meat like Glen from the walking dead

our teacher showed us The Passion in religious class in middle school... i remember vaguely how he said it was important for us to see it. he was a nutcase

Good list. I actually have Come and See and I Stand Alone but have yet to muster the balls to watch either. |I will try to check out a good few of these. Mysterious Skin is overdue a rewatch. Salò o le 120 Giornate di Sodoma is in my personal top 3, its profoundly anti-fascist but its a much deeper critique, its Pascolini as an artist saying "this is how the world is shorn of all artifice and mystifcation". My tips for disturbing movies, The Magdelene Sisters - the film about the horrific abuse of women in my own country (the last one of these closed in the 90s), a shameful chapter in our collective history.

Thanks for the idea on poop the movie

I had a bit similiar experience with watching The Passion of Christ, althought it was only the whipping scene- it was shown to be by a priest during religion lesson when I was about 11/12 yo. It was enough to discourage me from watching the full movie till this day 🤣